A Further ACCOUNT, &c.
HAVING been ordained at Gloucester, on Trinity Sunday 1736, and preached my Sermon on the Necessity and Benefit of religious Society, to a very crowded Auditory, in the Church in which I was baptized the Lord's Day following, I set out the next Wednesday to Oxford, where I was received with great Joy by my Religious Friends—For about a Week I continued in my Servitor's Habit, and then took my Degree of Batchelor of Arts, after having been at the University three Years and three Quarters, and going on towards the 22d Year of my Age. My dear and honour'd Friends the Reverend Messrs. John and Charles Wesley, being now for some time embarked for [Page 6] Georgia, and one or two more having taken Orders, the Interest of METHODISM, as it was then and is now term'd, had visibly declined, and very few of this reputedly mad Way were left at the University. This somewhat discouraged me at Times, but the Lord JESUS supported my Soul, and made me easy by giving me a strong Conviction, that I was where He would have me to be▪ My Degree I soon found was of Service to me, as it gave me access to those I could not be free with when in an inferior Station, and as Opportunity offer'd, I was enabled to converse with them about the Things which belonged to the Kingdom of GOD.—The Subscriptions for the poor Prisoners (which amounted to about Forty Pounds per Annum) were soon put into my Hands—Two or Three small Charity Schools, maintained by the Methodists, were under my more immediate Inspection, which, with the Time I spent in following my Studies, private Retirement, and religious Converse, sweetly filled up the whole of my Day, and kept me from that unaccountable, but too common, Complaint of having any Time hang upon my Hands. The distributing Money and Books amongst [Page 7] the poor Prisoners, and employing such as could work, I found was of admirable Service:—For hereby they were kept from that worst of Goal diseases, Idleness; and were not only convinced that we bore a good Will towards them, but also laid as it were under an Obligation to hear the Instructions we gave them from time to time.—This practice was first taken up by the Messrs. Wesleys, and would to God all Ordinaries of Prisons would Copy after their good Example—They would deserve well of the Common-wealth, and if actuated by the Love of God, would receive a glorious Reward from him who hath said, I was sick and in Prison, and ye came unto me.
In a short Time I began to be more than content in my present State of Life. God was pleased to be with me of a Truth,—My Strength was proportioned to my Day, and I had thoughts of abiding at the University, at least for some Years, to finish my Studies, and do what good I could amongst the poor despised Methodists.—But God's Thoughts are not as Man's Thoughts, neither are our Ways as his Ways.—By a Series of unforeseen, unexpected and unsought [Page 8] for Providences, I was called in a short Time from my beloved Retirement to take a Journey to the Metropolis of England.—Whilst I was an under-Graduate, amongst other religious Friends, I was very intimate with one Mr. B—n, a professed Methodist, who had lately taken Orders, and was Curate at the Tower of London.—With him, when absent, I frequently corresponded, and when present took sweet Councel, and walked to the House of God as Friends. He mention'd me to that late good and great Man Sir John Philips—And being called down for a while into Hampshire, he wrote to me to be of good Courage, and in the Strength of GOD, bid me hasten to Town to officiate in his Absence, and be refreshed with the Sight and Conversation of many who loved me for CHRIST'S sake, and had for a long Time desired to see me—
On Wednesday August 4th, (the Prisoners being provided for by the coming of Mr. Harvy, another young worthy Methodist that had lately taken Deacon's Orders) with fear and trembling I obeyed the Summons, and went in the Stage Coach to London.—There being no other Passenger, I employed myself, a good Part of the Way, in earnest Supplication [Page 9] to the God of all Grace to be my Guide and my Comforter; at the same Time I could not help praising him for changing my Heart and calling me to preach the Gospel at a Place to which, not many Years ago, I would have given much Money, would my Circumstances have permitted, to have went up and seen a Play. In the Evening I reach'd the Tower, and was kindly received by my dear Friend—The remainder of the Week was spent in visiting Sir John Philips, &c. who were too glad to see me.—But God sent me something to ballast it.—For as I passed along the Streets many came out of their Shops, admiring to see so young a Person in a Gown and Cassock. One I remember in particular cryed out, "There's a Boy Parson."—which, as it serv'd to mortify my Pride, put me also upon turning that apostolical Exhortation into Prayer, "Let no Man despise thy Youth."
On Sunday August 8th, in the Afternoon I preached at Bishop-Gate Church, the largeness of which, and the Congregation together, at first a little dashed me; but by adverting to God, and considering in whose Name I was about to speak, my Mind was calm'd and I was enabled to preach with [Page 10] Power.—The Effect was immediate and visible to all; for as I went up the Stairs almost all seem to sneer at me on Account of my Youth; but they soon grew serious, and exceedingly attentive, and after I came down shewed me great tokens of Respect, blessed me as I pass'd along, and made great Enquiry who I was—The Question no one could answer, for I was quite a Stranger. I speedily slip'd thro' the Crow'd, and came to the Tower, blessing God for his Goodness to me the unworthiest of the Sons of Men—
Here I continued for the Space of two Months, reading Prayers twice a Week, catechising and preaching once, besides visiting the Soldiers in the Infirmary and Barracks, daily. I also read Prayers every evening at Wapping Chapel, and preached at Ludgate Prison every Tuesday—God was pleased to give me favour in the Eyes of the Inhabitants of the Tower—The Chapel was crowded on Lord's Days—Religious Friends from divers Parts of the Town attended the Word, and several young Men came on Lord's Day Morning, under serious Impressions, to hear me discourse about the New-Birth, and the Necessity of renouncing all in Affection, in order to follow JESUS CHRIST.
[Page 11] After I had been about a Month in Town, Letters came from the Messrs. Wesleys, and the Rev'd Mr. Ingham their Fellow-Labourer, an Israelite indeed, from Georgia. Their Accounts fired my Soul, and made me even long to go abroad for God too—But having no outward call, and being, as I then thought, too weak in Body ever to undertake a Voyage to Sea, I endeavour'd to lay aside all Thoughts of going abroad,—But my Endeavours were all in vain—For I felt at Times such a strong Attraction in my Soul towards Georgia, that I thought it almost irresistible.—I strove against it with all my Power, begged again and again with many Cries and Tears, that the Lord would not suffer me to be deluded, and at length opened my Mind to several dear Friends—All agreed that Labourers were wanted at home, that I had as yet no visible Call abroad, and that it was my Duty not to be rash, but wait and see what Providence might point out to me—To this I consented with my whole Heart, and having stayed in London till Mr. B—n came out of the Country, I returned to my little Charge at Oxford, and waited upon my Deaconship according [Page 12] to the Measure of Grace imparted to me
But Oh what a delightful Life did I lead there! What Communion did I daily enjoy with God! And how sweetly did my Hours in private glide away in reading and praying over Mr. Henry's Comment upon the Scriptures! Whilst I am musing on and writing about it, the Fire I then felt again kindles in my Soul—Nor was I alone happy—For several dear Youths were quickened greatly, and met daily at my Room to build up each other in their most holy Faith—God raised up Friends for our temporal Support—The late Honourable Betty Hastings, that Elect Lady, allowed some of them two or three small Exhibitions.—I also partook of her Ladyship's Bounty; and a Gentleman, whose Heart was in an especial Manner knit to me when last at London, was stirred up, without being sollicited, to send me not only Money for the Poor, but also a Sufficiency to discharge Debts I had contracted for Books before I took my Degree. Upon his Recommendation, I was chosen a corresponding Member of the Society for promoting Christian Knowledge, which I rejoiced in, as it gave me an Opportunity of procuring [Page 13] Books at a cheap and easy Rate for the poor People.—May the great high Priest and Apostle of our Profession continue to bless that Society, and prosper all their pious Undertakings to the Advancement of his own Glory, and his People's eternal Good!
About the Middle of November, Providence once more called me from my beloved, tho' little, Scene of Action.—The Rev'd Mr. Kinchin, now with God, had lately been awakned, and accordingly resolved to associate with the despised Methodists, determining to know nothing but JESUS CHRIST and him crucified.—He was then Minister of Dummer in Hampshire, and being likely to be chosen Dean of Corpus Christi College, he desired me to come and officiate for him, till that Affair should be decided.—By the Advice of Friends, I went, and he came to supply my Place at Oxford.—His Parish consisting chiefly of poor and illiterate People, my proud Heart at first could not well brook it.—I would have given all the World for one of my Oxford Friends, and mourned for lack of them as a Dove that has lost her Mate—But upon giving myself to Prayer, and reading Mr. Law's excellent [Page 14] Character of O [...]ranius, in his Serious Call to a devout Life, my Mind was reconciled to such Conversation as the Place afforded me—Before I came to Dummer Mr. Kinchin had used his People, according to the Rubrick, to have publick Prayers, twice a Day, viz. In the Morning, it being the Winter Season, before it was Light, and in the Evening after the People returned from their Work. He also catechised the Lambs of the Flock daily, and visited from House to House,—He loved his People and was beloved by them—I prosecuted his Plan, and generally divided the Day into three Parts, eight Hours for Study and Retirement, eight Hours for Sleep and Meals, and eight Hours for reading Prayers, catechising, and visiting the Parish—The Profit I reaped by these Exercises, and conversing with the poor Country people, was [...]nspeakable—I soon began to be as much delighted with their artless Conversation, as I had been formerly with the Company of my Oxford Friends; and frequently learnt as much by an Afternoon's Visit as in a Weeks Study—During my Stay here, an Invitation was sent me to [...] very profitable Curacy in London: but I [Page 15] had no Inclination to accept it—The Thoughts of going to Georgia still crowded continually in upon me, and at length Providence seem'd to point my Way thither. About the Middle of December comes a Letter from Mr. B—n, informing me, that Mr. Charles Wesley was arrived at London. Soon after came a Letter from Mr. Charles himself, wherein he informed me, that he was come over to procure Labourers, but added he, "I dare not prevent God's Nomination.—In a few Days after this came, another Letter from Mr. John Wesley, wherein were these Words, ‘Only Mr. Delamott is with me, till God shall stir up the Hearts of some of his Servants, who putting their Lives in his Hands, shall come over and help us, where the Harvest is so great, and the Labourers so few. What if thou art the Man Mr. Whitefield?’ In another Letter were these Words, ‘Do you ask me what you shall have? Food to eat, and Raiment to put on, a House to lay your Head in; such as your Lord had not; and a Crown of Glory that fadeth not away.’ Upon reading this my Heart leaped within me, and as it were ecchoed to the Call—Many things concurred [Page 16] to make my Way clear.—Mr. Ki [...]chin was now elected Dean of Corpus Christi College, and being thereby obliged to reside at Oxford, he willingly took upon him the Charge of the Prisoners.—Mr. Harvy was ready to serve the Cure of Dummer.—Mr. Wesley was my dear Friend, and I thought it would be a great Advantage to me to be under his Tuition—Georgia was an Infant, and likely▪ to be an encreasing Colony; and the Government seem'd to have its Wellfare much at Heart—I had heard many Indians were near, it, and thought it a Matter of great Importance that serious Clergymen should be sent there Retirement and Privacy was what my Soul delighted in.—A Voyage to Sea would, in all Probability, not do my Constitution much hurt: Nay, I had heard the Sea was sometimes Beneficial to weakly People. And supposing the worst, as I must necessarily return to take Priest's Orders, it would then be left to my Choice, whether I would fix in my Native Country, or go abroad any more—These Things being thoroughly weighed, I at length resolved within myself to embark for Georgia; and knowing that I should never put my Resolution into Practice [Page 17] if I conferred with Flesh and Blood, I wrote to my Relations to inform them of my Design, and withal told them, ‘if they would promise not to dissuade me from my intended Voyage, I would come and take a personal leave of them; if otherwise, knowing my own Weakness, I was determined to embark without visiting them at all.’ A few Days after Mr. Kinchin came to Dummer and introduced Mr.Harvy into the Cure—I apprised them of my Intention—They gave me some friendly Council, and having spent the beginning of Christmas sweetly together, and taken an affectionate leave of the Dummer-People, I returned once more to Oxford, to bid adieu to my Friends, who were as dear to me as my own Soul—My Resolution at first a little shocked them, but having reason to think, from my Relation of Circumstances, that, I had a Call from Providence, most of them said, "The Will of the Lord be done."—
On New-Year's Day 1736,7, I went to Gloucester in order to hear the Bishop's Opinion, and to take my leave of my Mother and other Relations—His Lordship received me, as he always did, like a Father, [Page 18] approved of my Design, wished me much Success, and said ‘He did not doubt but God would bless me, and that I should do much Good abroad.’ My own Relations at first were not so passive—My aged Mother wept sore, and others urged what pretty Preferment I might have, if I would stay at home—But at length they grew more quiet, and finding me so fixed, gainsayed no longer—During my stay here, I began to grow a little Popular. God gave me Honour for a while, even in my own Country—I preached twice on the Sabbaths. Congregations were very large, and the Power of God attended the Word; and some I have reason to believe were truly converted, who will be my Joy and Crown of rejoicing in the Day of the Lord JESUS.—
In about three Weeks I went to Bristol to take leave of some more of my Relations who lived there. As it was my constant Practice, go where I would, to attend on the daily publick Offices of the Church, I went, the Thursday after my coming, to hear a Lecture Sermon at St. John's Church. Whilst the Psalm was singing, after Prayers, the Minister came to my Seat, and asked [Page 19] me to give the Congregation a Sermon. Having my Notes about me, I complyed. The Hearers seem'd startled, and after Sermon enquiry was made, who I was? The next Day there was another Lecture at St. Stephens. Many crowded thither in Expectation of hearing me again. The Lecturer asked me to preach as the other did the Day before. I again complyed, and the Alarm given here was so general, that on the following Lord's Day, many of all denominations were obliged to return from the Churches where I preach'd, for want of Room. Afterwards I was called by the Mayor to preach before him and the Corporation. And for some Time following, I preached all the Lectures on the Week Days, and twice on Sundays, besides visiting the Religious Societies. The Word, thro' the Mighty Power of God, was sharper than a two edged Sword. The Doctrine of the New Birth and Justification by Faith in Jesus Christ (tho' I was not so clear in it as afterwards) made its way like Lightning into the Hearers Consciences. The Arrows of Conviction stuck fast; and my whole Time between one Lecture and another, except what was spent in necessary Refreshment, [Page 20] was wholly taken up in talking with poor Souls under concern. Large offers were made me if I would stay at Bristol; and many I believe would have almost plucked out their own Eyes to have given me! All wondered that I would go to Georgia, who might be so well provided for at home! And some urged, if I had a Mind to convert Indians, I might go amongst the King's-Wood-Colliers, and find Indians enough. But none of these Things moved me. Having put my Hand to the Plow, I was determined thro' divine Grace, not to look back. And therefore, at length, I took my leave, but with what mutual Affection and Concern cannot easily be expressed.
During my stay at Bristol I made a little Elopement to Bath, where I was kindly received by a Dear Friend the Rev'd Mr. Chapman, and some Elect and honourable Women who befriended the Oxford Methodists. I preach'd at the Abbey Church twice.—The late Doctor Cockman was pleased to thank me for my Sermon; and Application was made to me by several to print both my Discourses. But I scarce allowed such a Thought to enter, much less to lodge within my Heart.
[Page 21] It was now about the middle of February. Lent was at Hand, and I was obliged to be at Oxford to perform the Remainder of my College-Exercise, which they call Determining. I went through Gloucester, as it lay in my Way, and abode there a Week, visiting the Prisoners, and encouraging the awakened Souls. Having staid about ten Days at the University, I took, as I thought, my last Farewell of my Dear Friends, and came up to London in the Beginning of March, in order to wait upon James Oglethorp Esq; and the Honourable Trustees. I was kindly received by both. The former introduced me to his Grace the present Arch-Bishop of Canterbury; and the Rev'd Mr. Arthur Bedford, at the Desire of the latter, (with whom I dined at their publick Anniversary) went with me to the present Lord Bishop of London. Both approved of my going abroad, the former was pleased to say, ‘He would take particular Notice of such as went to Georgia, if they did not go out of any Sinister View.’ This put me upon enquiry what were my Motives in going? And, after the strictest Examination, my Conscience answer'd, ‘Not to please any Man [Page 22] living upon Earth, nor out of any sinister View; but simply to comply with what I believe to be thy Will, O God, and to promote thy Glory, thou great Shepherd and Bishop of Souls.’
I continued at London about three Weeks, waiting for Mr. Oglethorp, who expected to sail every Day. In this Season I preached more frequently than when there before. Many more came to hear me, and the last Sunday I was in Town, I read Prayers twice, and preached four Times.—But finding Mr. Oglethorp was not likely to go for some time, and having lain under particular Obligations to the Rev'd Mr. Sampson Harris, Minister of Stone House, in Gloucester-shire, I went down thither, at his Request, to supply his Place, whilst he came up to dispatch some Affairs in Town.
Hither I had reason to think God sent me in Answer to Prayer: For there was a little sweet Society of seeking Souls, who had heard me preach at an adjacent Town, and wrestled with God, if it was his Will, to send me amongst them. They received me with all Joy, and most of the Parishioners were very civil when I came to visit them from House to House. Upon Examination I found them [Page 23] more knowing than I expected. Their Pastor had used to catechise the little ones in the Summer Season, and expound the four Lessons every Lord's Day in the Church. I followed his▪ good Example, and found great Freedom and Assistance given me both in my publick and private Administrations. Having the Use of the Parsonage House, I expounded every Night. Many that were not Parishioners came to hear, and were edified. On Sundays, besides expounding the Lessons, catechising and preaching, I repeated my Sermons to the Society. Neither Church or House could contain the People that came. I found uncommon Manifestations granted me from above. Early in the Morning, at Noon Day, Evening, and Midnight, nay all the Day long, did the Blessed JESUS visit and refresh my Heart. Could the Trees of a certain Wood, near Stone-House, speak, they would tell what sweet Communion I and some more dear Souls enjoyed with the ever Blessed God there. Sometimes as I have been walking, my Soul would make such Sallies as tho' it would go out of the Body. At other Times I would be so overpowered with a Sense of [Page 24] God's infinite Majesty, that I would [...]e constrained to throw myself prostrate on the Ground, and offer my Soul as a Blank in his Hands, to write on it what he pleased. One Night was a Time never to be forgotten. It happened to lighten exceedingly. I had been expounding to many People, and some being afraid to go home, I thought it my Duty to accompany them, and improve the Occasion, to stir them up to prepare for the coming of the Son of Man. But O what did my Soul feel! In my return to the Parsonage House, whilst others were rising from their Beds and frightned almost to Death, to see the Lightning run upon the Ground, and shine from one Part of the Heaven unto the other, I and another, a poor, but pious, Countryman, were in the field, praying [...], praising of, and exulting in our God, and longing for that Time when JESUS should be revealed from Heaven in a Flame of Fire! Oh that my Soul may be in a like Frame when He shall actually come to call me! For I think I never had been happier than that Night, or, all Things considered, more Blessed than during my abode at Stone-House. Every Week the Congregations increased [...] [Page 25] on Ascension Day, when I took my Leave, the Concern they shewed at my Departure was inexpressible. Their Sighs and Tears almost broke my Heart. Many cried out with Ruth, Whither thou goest I will go, where thou lodgest I will lodge. But I only took one with me who proved a good Servant, and is, I believe, a true Follower of the ever Blessed JESUS.
The Incumbent being returned from London, and the People of Bristol having given me repeated Invitations, nay having insisted upon my coming again, since the Time of my embarking was deferred, On May 23d. I paid them a second Visit. Multitudes came on Foot, and many in Coaches a Mile without the City to meet me▪ and almost all saluted and blessed me as I [...] along the Street. Upon my coming here I received Letters from London informing me, that Mr. Oglethorp would not embark these two Months. This gladen'd many Hearts, tho' I cannot say it did mine; because I counted the Hours, as it were, till I went abroad. I preached as usual about five Times a Week; but the Congregations grew, if possible, larger and larger. It was wonderful to [Page 26] see how the People hung upon the Rails of the Organ-Loft, climb'd upon the Le [...]ds of the Church, and made the Church itself so hot with their Breath, that the Steam would fall from the Pillars like Drops of Rain. Sometimes almost as many would go away for want of Room as came in, and it was with great Difficulty I got into the Desk to read Prayers, or preach. Persons of all Denominations flocked to hear. Persons of all Ranks, not only publickly attended my Ministry, but gave me private Invitations to their Houses. A private Society or two were erected. I preached and collected for the poor Prisoners in New-gate twice or thrice a Week, and many made me large offers if I would not go abroad.
During my stay here I paid another Visit to Bath, and preach'd three Times in the Abbey-Church, and once in Queen's Chappel. People crowded and were affected as at Bristol. And God stirred up some elect Ladies to give upwards of a Hundred and Sixty Pounds for the Poor of Georgia.
June 21st I took my last Farewell at Bristol. But when I came to tell them, It might be, that they would see my Face no more, high and low, young and old [Page 27] burst into such a Flood of Tears as I had never seen before; Drops fell from their Eyes like Rain, or rather gushed out like Water out of the Stony Rock. Multitudes after Sermon followed me home weeping; and the next Day I was empoyled from Seven in the Morning till Midnight in talking and giving spiritual Advice to awakned Souls.
About three the next Morning, having thrown myself on the Bed for an Hour or two, I set out for Gloucester, because I heard that a great Company on Horseback and in Coaches intended to see me out of Town. Some finding themselves disappointed, followed me thither, where I staid a few Days and preached to a very crowded Auditory. Then I went on to Oxford, where we had, as it were, a general Rendezvouz of the Methodists; and, finding their Interest flourishing, and being impatient to go abroad, I hastened away, after taking a most affectionate Leave, and came to London about the End of August, I hope, in some Degree, thankful for the great Things the Lord had done for me in the Country.
Every Hour now seem'd a Week, and every Week a Year till I was embarked.
[Page 28] I knew there was no Minister at Frederica, for which Place I was then appointed, and I did not care to be absent longer from my proper Charge. Mr. Oglethorp's going was still retarded, and I had thought it my Duty to go immediately without him, had not he and my other Friends urged, that the Soldiers would shortly embark, and that I had best go over with them. This somewhat pacified me, and having now taken a final farewel of all Friends in the Country, I was resolved to abide at London, and give myself wholly to Prayer, the Study of the Scriptures, and my own Heart, till the Soldiers should embark.
The House I lodged at, was good old Mr. Hutton's in College-street, Westminster, where I had the Pleasure of seeing my Dear Friend Mr. Ingham, lately returned from Georgia; and perceiving him, as I thought, remarkably grown in Grace. I long'd still more to be sent to the same School, hoping to catch some of that Holy Flame with which his Soul was fired. We freely and solemnly conversed together about my Call abroad. It seem'd to both quite clear, though we could have wish'd, had it been the Divine Will, to have [Page 29] lived and died together. Our Hearts were knit to each other, like the Hearts of David and Jonathan. At midnight we would rise to sing Praises to God, and intercede for the whole State of CHRIST'S Church militant here on Earth.
With this my Dear Friend, I one Day paid a Visit to a worthy Doctor of Divinity near London, who introduced us to some Honourable Ladies, who, as I had heard, delighted in doing good. It being my constant Practice to improve my Acquaintance with the Rich for the Benefit of the Poor, I recommended two poor Clergymen, and another pious Person to their Charity. They said little, but between them, unknown to each other, they gave, I think, Thirty Six Guineas. When we came to the Doctor's House and saw the Ladies Liberality, he said, ‘If you had not spoke for others, you would have had a good deal of that yourself.’ God gave me to rejoice that I had nothing, and the Poor all. The next Day, upon my return to London, in the first Letter that I opened, was a Bank-note of Ten Pounds, sent from an unexpected hand as a present for myself. This I took as a Hint from Providence to [Page 30] go on doing good to others, with a full Assurance that the Lord would not let me want. Blessed be his Name I have had many such Instances of his tender Concern for my temporal, as well as my eternal Wellfare.
About this Time, thro' the Importuity of Friends, and Aspersions of Enemies, I was prevailed upon to print my Sermon On the Nature and Necessity of our Regeneration or New-Birth in CHRIST JESUS, which under God began the awakening at London, Bristol, Gloucester, and Gloucestershire. The Dissenters I found were surprized to see a Sermon on such a Subject from a Clergyman of the Church of England, and finding the Author came from Oxford, were ready to say, (how justly I will not determine) ‘Can any good come out of Nazareth?’ This Sermon sold well to Persons of all Denominations, and was dispersed very much in many Parts both at Home and Abroad. A second Impression was soon called for; and finding another of my Sermons was printed without my leave, and in a very incorrect Manner, at Bristol, I was obliged to publish in my own Defence, and afterwards thought I [Page 31] had a clear Call to print any other Discourses, tho' in themselves mean, that I found blessed to the good of Souls.
But to return to my publick Administrations. Being determined to abide in London till the Time of my Departure, I followed my usual Practice of reading and praying over the Word of God upon my Knees. Sweet was this Retirement to my Soul, but it was not of long Continuance—Invitations were given me to preach at several Places—The Stewards and Members of the Religious Societies were very fond of hearing me,—I was invited to preach at Cripplegate, St. Ann's, and Forster-lane Churches, at Six on the Lord's Day Morning, and to assist in administring the Holy Sacrament—I embraced the Invitations, and so many came, that sometimes we were obliged to consecrate fresh Elements two or three Times, and the Stewards found it somewhat difficult to carry the Offerings to the Communion Table—I also preach'd at Wapping-Chappel, the Tower, Lud-gate, New-gate, and many of the Churches where weekly Lectures were kept up—The Congregations continually increased, and generally, of a Lord's Day, I used to preach four Times to [Page 32] very large, and very affected Auditories, besides reading Prayers twice or thrice, and walking, perhaps, twelve Miles in going backwards and forwards from one Church to the other—But God made my Feet like Hinds Feet, and filled me with [...] unspeakable at the End of my Day's Work—This made me look upon my Friend's kind Advice which they gave me, to spare myself, as a Temptation—For I found by daily Experience the more I did, the more I might do for God—
About the latter End of August, finding there were many young Men belonging to the Societies that attended my Administrations, I enter'd into one of their singing Societies, hoping thereby to ingratiate myself the more, and have greater Opportunities of doing them good—It answer'd my Design—Our Lord gave me to spiritualize their singing—And after they had taught me the Gamut, they would gladly hear me teach them some of the Mysteries of the New-Birth, and the Necessity of living to God—Many sweet Nights we spent together in this Way—And many of these Youths afterwards, to all Appearance, walk'd with God, and will, I trust, join the heavenly [Page 33] Choir in singing Praises to the Lamb, and him that sitteth upon the Throne for ever.
About the Middle of September my Name was first put into the publick NewsPapers, but upon what particular Occasion I cannot now recollect—The Sunday before, with great Reluctance, I was prevailed on to preach a Charity Sermon, at Wapping Chapel—The Congregation was very large, and more was collected than had been for many Years upon a like Occasion. This got Air—My Friends improved the Occasion, and entreated me to preach another Charity Sermon at Sir George Wheeler's Chapel—I absolutely refused; but at length thro' the Importunity of Mr. Habersham, since my faithful Assistant in the OrphanHouse, I agreed to do it—I discoursed upon the Widow's giving her two Mites—God bowed the Hearts of the Hearers as the Heart of one Man—Almost all, as I was told, by the Collectors, offered most willingly—Scarce one appeared before the Lord empty—This still drew on fresh Applications. The Sunday following I preached in the Evening at St. Swithens, [Page 34] where Eight Pounds were collected instead of Ten Shillings—The next Morning, as I was at Breakfast with a Friend at the Tower, I read in one of the News-Papers, ‘That there was a young Gentleman going Volun [...]ier to Georgia: That he had preached at St. Swithins, and collected Eight Pounds instead of Ten Shillings; three Pounds of which were in Half pence: And that he was to preach next Wednesday before the Societies, at their General Quarterly Meeting.’ This Advertisement chagrined me very much—I immediately sent to the Printer, desiring he would put me in his Paper no more—His Answer was, That ‘He was paid for doing it, and he would not loose Two Shillings for any Body.’ By this means Peoples Curiosity was stirred up more and more—On the Wednesday Evening Bow-Church, in Cheapside, was crowded exceedingly—I preached my Sermon on early Piety, and at the Request of the Societies printed it—Hence forwards, for near three Months successively, there was no End of People's flocking to hear the Word of God—The Church-Wardens, and Managers of the Charity-Schools [Page 35] perceiving what Effect my preaching had upon the Populace, were continually applying to me to preach for the Benefit of the Children—And as I was to embark shortly, they procured the Liberty of the Churches on the Week Days; a Thing never known before—I have sometimes had more than a dozen Names of different Churches, at which I promised to preach, upon my Slate Book at once—And when I preached, Constables were obliged to be placed at the Door to keep the People in order—The Sight of the Congregations was very awful,—One might, as it were, walk upon the Peoples Heads, and Thousands went away from the largest Churches for want of room. They were all Attention when the Word was delivered, and heard like People hearing for Eternity—I now preached generally nine Times a Week. The early Sacraments were exceeding awful. At Cripple Gate, St. Ann's, and Forster Lane, how often have we seen JESUS CHRIST crucified, and evidently set forth before us! On Sunday Mornings, long before Day, you might see Streets filled with People going to Church, with their Lantherns in their Hands, and hear them conversing [Page 36] about the Things of God.—Other Lecture Churches, near at hand, would be filled with Persons that could not come where I was preaching: And those that did come, were so deeply affected that they were like Persons struck with pointed Arrows, or mourning for a first born Child! People gave so liberally to the Charity Schools, that this Season near a Thousand Pounds Sterling was collected at the several Churches, besides many private Contributions and Subscriptions sent in afterwards—I always preached Gratis, and gave myself. The Blue-Coat Boys and Girls looked upon me as their great Benefactor; and I believe frequently sent up their Infant Cries in my behalf. Worthy Mr. Seeward, afterwards my dear Fellow-Traveller, was their hearty Friend and Advocate.—He was concerned in above Twenty Charity Schools; and, as I found some Months afterwards, incerted the Paragraph that so chagrined me. The Tide of Popularity now began to run very high,—In a short Time I could no longer walk on Foot as usual; but was constrained to go in a Coach from Place to Place to avoid the Hosannas of the Multitude.—They grew quite extravagant [Page 37] in their Applauses, and had it not been for my compassionate High-Priest, popularity would have destroyed me: But he knew it was quite unthought of and unsought by me—I used therefore to plead with and intreat him, to take me by the Hand and lead me unhurt thro' this fiery Furnace!—He heard my Request, gave me to see the Vanity of all Commendations but his own, and, in some Measure, enabled me to give back all the Respect I received, to that Fountain from whence it had its Source.—
Not that all spoke well of me,—No, as my Popularity increased, Opposition increased also—At first many of the Clergy were my Hearers and Admirers: But some soon grew Angry, and Complaints were made that the Churches were so crowded, that there was no room for the Parishioners, and that the Pews were spoiled—Some called me a spiritual Pick-Pocket, and others thought I made use of a kind of a Charm to get the People's Money—A Report was spread abroad, that the Bishop of London, upon the Complaint of the Clergy, intended to Silence me.—I immediately waited upon his Lordship, and enquired, [Page 38] whether any Complaint of this Nature had been lodged against me? He answered, "No." I asked h [...] Lordship whether any Objection could be made against my Doctrine? He said, ‘No: For he knew a Clergyman who had heard me preach a plain Scriptural Sermon.’ I asked his Lordship, whether he would grant me a Licence? He said, ‘I Needed none, since I was going to Georgia,’ I replied, ‘Then your Lordship would not forbid me?’ He gave me a satisfactory Answer, and I took my leave.—Soon after this, two Clergymen sent for me, and told me, they would not let me preach in their Pulpits any more, unless I renounced that part of my Sermon on Regeneration, wherein I wished, ‘That my Brethren would [...]tertain their Auditories oftener with Discourses upon the New-Birth.’—This I had no freedom to do, and so they continued my opposers—What I believe irritated some of my Enemies the more, was my free Conversation with many of the serious Dissenters, who invited me to their Houses, and repeatedly told me, ‘That if the Doctrine of the New-Birth and Justification by Faith, was preached powerfully in the Church, there would be [Page 39] but few Dissenters in England.’—My Practice in visiting and associating with them I thought was quite agreeable to the Word of God.—Their Conversation was savoury, and I thought the best Way to bring them over, was not by Bigotry and Railing, but Moderation and Love, and undissembled Holiness of Life.—But these Reasons were of no avail.—One Minister called me pragmatical Rascal, and vehemently inveighed against the whole Body of Dissenters.—This stirred up the Peoples Corruptions, and having an overweening Fondness for me, whenever they came to Church and found that I did not preach, some of them would go out again—This Spirit I always endeavoured to quell, and made a Sermon on purpose, from those Words, take heed how ye hear.—One time upon hearing that a Church-Warden intended to take eight Pounds a Year from his Parish Minister, because he refused to let me preach his Lecture, I composed a Sermon upon those Words, Love your Enemies; and delivered it where I knew the Church-Warden would be—It had its desired Effect—He came after Sermon and told me, he was convinced by my Discourse that he should [Page 40] not resent the Injury the Doctor had done me, and then thanked me for my Care—Nor was I without Opposition from Friends, who were jealous over me with a Godly Jealousy.—For I carried high sail, Thousands and Thousands came to hear. My Sermons were every where called for. News came from Time to Time of the springing Up and increase of the Seed sown in Bristol, Gloucester, and elsewhere. Large offers were made me if I would stay in England.—And all the Opposition I met with, join'd with the Consciousness of my private daily Infirmities, were but Ballast little enough to keep me from oversetting.
However, the Lord (Oh infinite Condescension!) was pleased to be with and bless me Day by Day.—I had a sweet knot of Religious Friends, with whom I first attempted to pray extempore.—Some Time I think in October, we began to set apart an Hour every Evening to intercede with the Great Head of the Church for carrying on the Work begun, and for the Circle of our Acquaintance, according as we knew their Circumstances required.—I was their Mouth unto God, and he only knows what Enlargement I felt in that Divine [Page 41] Employ. Once we spent a whole Night in Prayer and Praise; and many a Time, at Midnight and at one in the Morning, after I have been wearied almost to Death in Preaching, Writing, and Conversation, and going from Place to Place, God imparted new Life to my Soul, and would enable me to intercede with him for an Hour and a Half and two Hours together.—The Sweetness of this Exercise made me compose my Sermon upon Intercession; and I cannot think it Presumption to give it as my Opinion, that partly, at least, in Answer to Prayers, then put up by his dear Children, the Word for some Years past, has ran and been glorified, not only in England but in many other Parts of the World.
It was now, I think, that I was prevailed on to sit for my Picture.—The Occasion was this—Some ill minded Persons had painted me leaning on a Cushion, with a Bishop looking very enviously over my Shoulder.—At the Bottom were Six Lines, in one of which the Bishops were stiled Mitred Drones.—The same Person published in the Papers that I had sat for it.—This I looked upon as the snare of the Devil to incense the Clergy against me. I consulted [Page 42] Friends what to do. They told me I must sit for my Picture in my own Defence.—At the same Time my aged Mother laid her Commands upon me to do so in a Letter, urging ‘That if I would not let her have the Substance, I would leave her at least the Shadow.’ She also mention'd the Painter, and meeting with him one Night very accidentally, I at length with great Reluctance complied, and endeavoured, whilst the Painter was drawing my Face, to employ my Time, in beseeching the great God by his Holy Spirit to paint his Blessed Image upon his and my Heart.
Christmas now drew near.—Notice was given me that the Soldiers were almost ready to embark for Georgia, Mr. Oglethorp being yet detained, I was resolved to throw myself into the Hands of God and go with the Soldiers. But the nearer the Time of my Departure approached, the more affectionate and eager the People grew.—There was no end of Persons coming to me under Soul concern. I preached and God blessed me more and more, and supported me for some time with but very little Sleep.
At the Beginning of Christmas Week I took my Leave: But Oh what Groans and [Page 43] Sighs were to be heard when I said "Finally, Brethren, Farewell!'. At great St. Helen's, the Cry was amazing. I was near half an Hour going out to the Door. All Ranks gave vent to their Passions. Thousands and Thousands of Prayers were put up for me. They would run and stop me in the Allies, hugg me in their Arms, and follow me with wishful Looks. Once in the Christmas before my Departure, with many others, I spent a Night in Prayer and Praise; and in the Morning helped to administer the Sacrament at St. Dunstans, as I used to do on Saint's Days—But such a Sacrament I never before saw.—The Tears of the Communicants mingled with the Cup, and had not JESUS given us some of his New Wine to drink to comfort our Hearts, our parting would have almost been insupportable. At length December 28th I left London, and went in the Strength of God, as a Poor Pilgrim, on board the Whitaker, after having preached in a good Part of the London Churches, collected about a Thousand Pounds for the Charity Schools, and got upwards of three Hundred Pounds Sterling for the Poor of Georgia among my Friends, for which I have since publickly accompted. [Page 44] At the same Time God raised me a Sufficiency to supply my own temporal Necessities; and gave me repeated Proofs, that if we seek first the Kingdom of God and his Righteousness, all other Things (I mean Food and Raiment, which is all a Christian should desire) shall be added unto us.—For which and all his other unmerited Mercies, I desire to praise him in Time, and magnify his holy Name, thro' the boundless Ages of Eternity.
Some particulars that befell me whilst abroad, and how this Tide of Popularity rose still higher at my return home: How I came to commence a Field Preacher, and part with many Friends, who were as Dear to me as my own Soul: How they that would now have plucked out their Eyes and have given 'em unto me, afterwards accounted me their Enemy because I told them the Truth: By what Means the Seed now sown sprang up and grew into a great Tree, both in England, Scotland and America: How Divisions arose among God's People, and what were the Effects and Consequences of them, All this I say must be reserved for another Tract, if God should continue my Life and [Page 45] Strength, and give me Leisure and Freedom to prosecute and finish it.
In the mean while, let me exhort thee, O Reader, if serious and a Child of God, to bless him for what he has done for my Soul: Or if thou art yet in the Gall of Bitterness, and, thro' Prejudice, thinkest that I have either not told Truth, or wrote out of a vain glorious View, let me only intreat thee to suspend thy Judgment for a little while, and JESUS shall decide the Question. At His TRIBUNALL we shall meet, and there thou shall know what is in my Heart, and what were the Motives which led me out to such a publick Scene of Life. At present I will trouble thee no more; but beg thee whether serious or not to endeavour to calm thy Spirit by singing or reading over the following Lines, translated by that Sweet Singer of Israel, and my worthy and Honoured Friend Doctor Watts.