A Cabinet of GRIEF; OR, The French Midwifes miserable moan, &c.
UNder a sense of that Horrid and Hellish Sin of Murther, which I lately committed; I desire to leave to the World this following Treatise.
First, the Cause of my Provocation: Secondly, the manner in brief of the Murther: And thirdly, my hearty and unfeigned sorrow for my Offence, which I hope may stand as a Monument to succeeding Ages, of that Unmerciful Murther, which brings me to my Miserable End.
First of the Cause; Since the time I became the Unhappy Wife of that miserable Man, his Unnaturalness and Cruelty has [Page 2]been such, that no Tongue is able to express the daily sorrows that I underwent: from my unhappy Destiny let every Man and Wife be warned, let not sin and Sathan provoke your passions, but learn to live in Love and Unity one with ano [...]her, for where it is otherwise, there is little hope of a happy life, or a blessing from God, as I by sad Experience know full well.
Dennis my Husband, whom I Murthered, through the bad Company he kept, and the abuses he gave me, caus'd great confusion between us. Time af [...]er time would he ransack and rifle me of what I earned by my industrious Care; then would he ramble into Forreign parts, till he had wasted and consum'd the same. This being done, he would return to me home again, with promise of amendment of lif [...], yet in few days he would run into the same Extravagancy, to my great discontent, tho' I often endeavour'd to perswade and reconcile him, yet it was all in vain; for the more I entreated the more he would revile me, vowing, That for the future it should be worse and worse: this aggravated [Page 3]my sorrows, and made them more than I was able to bear; so that groaning under the burthen of my afflictions, I knew not what course in the World to take, to ease my self of that miserable bondage I was in. At these times the Devil was busie with me, so that I often before this time attempted to do the same, but was prevented by the assisting grace of God; but he still running on in this race of Wickedness, it gave fresh occasion of the same temptations again; but yet the sorrows and sufferings that I underwent I own to be no Argument that I should make my self guilty of his Blood; yet wanting the fear of God, I gave way to the Temptation, the which has proved the Ruine of us both: my unhappy Husband has fall'n by my hand of Cruelty, and now I for this bloody Fact do wait for my just Punishment; which is, to end my days in Flames, in view of thousands that will be there to see my end.
A Brief Account of the manner of Commiting this Crime.
JAnuary the 26th. in the Morning, when he had been all the foregoing Night in such bad company as he kept, he returned to his home, the Door being left for his coming in; he entred the Room while I was in a sweet sleep; free from the thoughts of all manner of Evil, but he being disguised in Drink, fell foul upon me, and bitterly abus'd me with blows, which did exasperate my Spirits to that height of Passion, that I resolved in my Heart to be Revenged of him, altho' it proved my overthrow: and in this manner did I contrive my desperate Design: he going into his Bed and falling into a sound sleep, I took my fair opportunity in this wise.
A Pack-thread being near at hand, the which he had used for a Garter, the same did I take, and putting of it round his Neck, made a Noose and Strangled him [Page 5]in his sleep, tho' he strugg'ld for his life, yet I hardned my Heart against him, and resolved to go forward with my design: He being dead, continued in our Lodging from Thursday till the Munday f [...]llowing, during which time, the Horror of Conscience so tormented me, that I could not be at rest until I had reveal'd it to some of my Friends, whom I thought I might trust with such a Secret; but instead of their siding with me in this black and bloody Crime which I had committed, they blamed me for my Unnatural Cruelty, and was abhorr'd and held detestable in their sight.
Munday the 30th. of January, I having contrived this following means to convey him away, I resolved then to put it into practice: for the more ease of conveying him out of our Lodging, I first cut off his Head from his Shoulders, after that his Arms and Leggs from his Body, then taking the Trunk of his Body, I wrapt it up in a Cloth, and lugg'd it forth my self by Night, throwing it upon a Dunghil in Parkers Lane, and then his Limbs I threw into an House of Office in the Savoy, over [Page 6]the side of the Thames; the Head into a Vault, near the Strand.
This being done, I concluded all was safe and well, bat the Carcass was soon sound, and the next day the Limbs, which bloody Tragedy put the whole Town into a Consternation, wo [...]dring who might be the Actor of so bloody a deed; but I remained un-apprehended till the Thursday following at Night, when being seized on by an Officer, I trembled, for Conscience began to afflict me: I was soon brought to Examination, then hurry'd to Prison, where I bitterly bewail'd my unhappy state.
During the time of my Imprisonment, I began to consider with my self what I had done, and likewise what I had brought my self unto, at which serious Consideration, I was afflicted in my Mind, wounded in my Conscience, and drowned in my Tears; the Guilt of my Crime was the Cause of my Grief; often did I earnestly desire of God that he would make me sensible of my sins, and likewise truly sorrowful for the same. Upon my bended knees [Page 7]often did I present him with a broken Heart, truly humbled under a sense of urfeigned sorrow for that black Crime▪ that I had committed, earnestly begging of God to pardon my offences, and receive me into his f [...]vour. The short time I have in this world, I purpose, with Gods assistance, to spend in Holy Meditations, and the company of such whose good Instructions may help to prepare my Soul for Eternity; having so few Minntes in my Glass, there's no time to dally and let them slip, but so to make a full Improvement of the utmost of them, that I may find the comfort and benefit of the same to Eternity.
Being brought to the Court of Justice, in order to Tryal, the Fact I confest, and Guilty was all I cou'd plead, but the Court in tenderness bid me put my self upon Tryal, notwithstanding all I had said, but Conscience told me 'twas true, I only pleaded Guilty, which was Recorded, and so I receiv'd the due Sentence, To be burnt till I was dead, which was the most terrible and astonishing sound in my Ears, that ever I heard in my Life.