II The awakened Childs Lamentation.
1.
VVhen Adam was deceived,
I was of Life bereaved;
Of late (too) I perceived,
I was in sin conceived.
2.
And as I was born naked,
I was with filth bespaked,
At which when I awaked,
My Soul and Spirit shaked.
3.
My Filth grew strong, and boyled,
And me throughout defiled,
Its pleasures me beguiled,
My Soul! how art thou spoyled!
4.
My Joys with sinwere painted,
My mind with sin is tainted,
My heart with Guilt is fainted,
I wa'nt with God acquainted.
5.
I have in sin abounded,
My heart therewith is wounded,
My Spirit is confounded.
6.
I have been often called,
By sin as oft enthralled,
Pleasures hath me fore-stalled.
How is my Spirit gauled!
7.
As sin has me infected,
I am thereof detected:
Mercy I have neglected,
I fear I am rejected.
8.
The Word I have mis-used
Good Council too refused;
Thus I my Self abused;
How can I be excused?
9.
When other Children prayed,
That work I then delayed,
Ran up and down and played;
And thus from God have strayed.
10.
Had I in God delighted,
And my wrong doings righted;
I had not thus been frighted,
Nor as I am benighted.
11.
O! That God would be pleased,
T'wards me to be appeased;
How should I then be eased!
12.
But Truth I have despised,
My follies idolized,
Saints with Reproach disguised,
Salvation nothing prized.
13.
O Lord! I am ashamed,
When I do hear thee named;
'Cause thee I have defamed,
And liv'd like Beasts untamed!
14.
Would God I might be saved,
Might have an heart like David;
This I have sometimes craved,
Yet am by sin enslaved!
15.
Vanity I have loved,
My heart from God removed;
And not, as me behoved,
The means of Grace improved.
16.
O Lord! if I had cryed
(When I told tales and lyed)
For Mercy, and denyed
My Lusts, I had not died!
17.
But Mercies-Gate is locked,
Yea, up that way is blocked;
[Page 5]Yea some that there have knocked,
God at their cryes hath mocked.
18.
'Cause him they had disdained,
Their wicked ways maintained,
From Godliness refrained,
And on his word complained.
19.
I would I were converted
Would sin and I were parted,
For folly I have smarted;
God make me honest-hearted!
20.
I have to Grace appealed,
Would 'twere to me revealed,
And Pardon to me sealed,
Then should I soon be healed!
21
Whose Nature God hath mended,
Whose sinful course is ended,
who is to life ascended,
Of God is much befriended.
22.
Oh! Were I reconciled
To God, I, tho desiled,
Should be as one that smiled,
To think my death was spoiled.
23.
Lord! thou wast crucified
For Sinners, bled and dyed,
Let me not be denyed.
24
I have thy Spirit grieved;
Yet is my life reprieved,
Would I in thee believed,
Then I should be relieved.
25.
Were but Repentance gained,
And had I Faith unfeigned,
Then Joy would be maintained
In me, and sin restrained.
26.
But this is to be noted,
I have on Folly doted,
My Vanities promoted,
My self to them devoted.
27.
Thus I have sin committed,
And so my self out-witted;
Yea, and my Soul unfitted,
To be to Heaven admitted.
28.
But God has condescended,
And pardon has extended,
To such as have offended,
Before their lives were ended.
29.
O Lord! do not disdain me,
But kindly entertain me;
And let thy Love constrain me!
XII. Meditations upon the Candle.
MAn's like a Candle in a Candlestick,
Made up of Tallow, and a little Wick;
And as the Candle is when 'tis not lighted,
So is he who is in his sins benighted.
Nor can a man his Soul with Grace inspire,
More then can Candles set themselves on fire.
Candles receive their light from what they are not;
Men Grace from him, for whom at first they care not.
We manage Candles when they take the fire;
God men, when he with Grace doth them inspire.
And biggest Candles give the better light,
As Grace on biggest Sinners shines most bright.
The Candle shines to make another see,
A Saint unto his Neighbour light should be.
The blinking Candle we do much despise,
Saints dim of light are high in no mans eyes.
Again, though it may seem to some a Riddle,
We use to light our Candle at the middle;
True, light doth at the Candles end appear,
And Grace the heart first reaches by the Ear.
But 'tis the Wick the fire doth kindle on,
As 'tis the heart that Grace first works upon.
Thus both doth fasten upon what's the main,
And so their Life and Vigour do maintain.
The Tallow makes the Wick yield to the fire;
And sinsul Flesh doth make the Soul desire,
That Grace may kindle on it, in it burn;
So Evil makes the Soul from Evil turn.
But Candles in the wind are apt to flare;
And Christ'ans in a Tempest to despair.
The flame also with Smoak attended is;
And in our holy lives there's much amiss.
Sometimes a Thief will candle-light annoy;
And lusts do seek our Graces to destroy.
What brackish is will make a Candle sputter;
T'wixt sin and Grace there's oft a heavy clutter.
Sometimes the light burns dim, 'cause of the snuff,
Sometimes it is blown quite out with a puff;
But Watchfulness preventeth both these evils,
Keeps Candles light and Grace in spight of Devils.
[Page 16]Nor let not snuffs nor puffs make us to doubt;
Our Candles may be lighted, though pufft out.
The Candle in the night doth all excel.
Nor Sun, nor Moon, nor Stars, then shine so well.
So is the Christian in our Hemisphere,
Whose light shews others how their course to steer.
When Candles are put out, all's in confusion;
Where Christians are not, Devils make Intrusion.
Then happy are they who such Candles have,
All others dwell in darkness and the Grave.
But Candles that do blink within the Socket,
And Saints whose heads are always in their pocket,
Are much alike; such Candles make us fumble,
And at such Saints, good men and bad do stumble.
Good Candles do'nt offend, except sore eyes,
Nor hurt unless it be the silly Flies:
Thus none like burning Candles in the night,
Nor ought to holy living for delight.
But let us draw towards the Candles end,
The fire, you see, doth Wick and Tallow spend.
As Grace mans life, until his Glass is run,
And so the Candle and the Man is done.
The man now lays him down upon his Bed;
The Wick yields up its fire; and so is dead.
The Candle now extinct is, but the man,
By Grace mounts up to Glory, there to stand.
XVII. The Sinner and the Spider.
Sinner.
VVHat black? what ugly crawling thing art thou?
Spider.
I am a Spider—
Sinner.
A Spider, Ay, also a filthy Creature.
Spider.
Not filthy as thy self, in Name or Feature:
My Name intailed is to my Creation;
My Feature's from the God of thy Salvation.
Sinner.
I am a Man, and in God's Image made,
I have a Soul shall neither dye nor fade:
God has possessed me with humane Reason,
Speak not against me, lest thou speakest Treason.
Of Slanders laid on me he is Partaker.
Spider.
I know thou art a Creature far above me,
Therefore I shun, I fear, and also love thee.
But tho thy God hath made thee such a Creature,
Thou hast against him often play'd the Traitor.
Thy sin has fetcht thee down: Leave off to boast;
Nature thou hast defil'd, God's Image lost.
Yea thou, thy self a very Beast hast made,
And art become like Grass, which soon doth fade.
Thy Soul, thy Reason, yea thy spotless State,
Sin has subjected to th'most dreadful fate.
But I retain my primitive condition,
I've all, but what I lost by thy Ambition.
Sinner.
Thou venom'd thing, I know not what to call thee,
The Dregs of Nature surely did befal thee;
Thou wast made of the Dross, and Scum of all;
Man hates thee, doth in scorn thee Spider call.
Spider
My Venom's good for something, 'cause God made it;
Thy Sin has spoilt thy Nature, doth degrade it
Of humane Vertues; therefore tho I fear thee,
I will not, tho I might, despise and jear thee.
Thou sayst I am the very Dregs of Nature,
Thy Sin's the spawn of Devils, 'tis no Creature.
Thou sayst man hates me, 'cause I am a Spider,
Poor man, thou at thy God art a Derider:
[Page 20]My venom tendeth to my Preservation;
Thy pleasing Follies work out thy Damnation.
Poor man, I keep the rules of my Creation;
Thy sin has cast thee headlong from thy Station.
I hurt no body willingly; but thou
Art a self-Murderer: Thou knowst not how
To do what good is, no thou lovest evil;
Thou fly'st God's Law, adherest to the Devil.
Sinner.
Ill-shaped Creature there's Antipathy
'Twixt Men and Spiders, 'tis in vain to lie,
I hate thee, stand off, if thou dost come nigh me,
I'll crush thee with my foot; I do defie thee.
Spider.
They are ill shap't, who warped are by sin;
Antipathy in thee hath long time bin
To God. No marvel then, if me his Creature
Thou dost defie, pretending Name and Feature.
But why stand off? My Presence shall not throng thee,
'Tis not my venom, but thy sin doth wrong thee.
Come I will teach thee Wisdom, do but hear me,
I was made for thy profit, do not fear me.
But if thy God thou wilt not hearken to,
What can the Swallow, Ant, or Spider do?
Yet I will speak, I can but be rejected;
Sometimes great things, by small means are effected.
Hark then; tho man is noble by Creation,
He's lapsed now to such Degeneration;
Is so besotted, and so careless grown,
As not to grieve, though he has overthrown
[Page 21]Himself, and brought to Bondage every thing
Created, from the Spider to the King.
This we poor Sensitives do feel and see;
For subject to the Curse you made us be.
Tread not upon me, neither from me go;
'Tis man which has brought all the world to wo.
The Law of my Creation bids me teach thee,
I will not for thy Pride to God impeach thee.
I spin, I weave, and all to let thee see,
Thy best performances but Cob webs be.
Thy Glory now is brought to such an Ebb,
It doth not much excel the Spider's Web.
My Webs becoming snares aud traps for Flies,
Do set the wiles of Hell before thine eyes.
Their tangling nature is to let thee see,
Thy sins (too) of a tangling nature be.
My Den, or Hole, for that 'tis bottomless,
Doth of Damnation shew the Lastingness.
My lying quat, until the Fly is catcht,
Shews, secretly Hell hath thy ruin hatcht.
In that I on her seize, when she is taken,
I shew who gathers whom God hath forsaken.
The Fly lies buzzing in my Web to tell
Thee, how the Sinners roar and howl in Hell.
Now since I shew thee all these Mysteries,
How canst thou hate me; or me Scandalize?
Sinner.
Well, well, I no more will be a Derider;
I did not look for such things from a Spider.
Spider.
[Page 22]Come, hold thy peace, what I have yet to say,
If heeded, help thee may another day.
Since I an ugly ven'mous Creature be,
There is some Semblance 'twixt vile Man and Me.
My wild and heedless Runnings, are like those
Whose ways to ruin do their Souls expose.
Day-light is not my time, I work 'ith' night,
To shew, they are like me who hate the Light.
The slightest Brush will overthrow my house,
To shew false Pleasures are not worse a Louse.
The Maid sweeps one Web down, I make another,
To shew how heedless ones Convictions smother.
My Web is no defence at all to me,
Nor will false Hopes at Judgment be to thee.
Sinner.
O Spider I have heard thee, and do wonder,
A Spider should thus lighten, and thus thunder!
Spider.
Do but hold still, and I will let thee see,
Yet in my ways more Mysteries there be.
Shall not I do thee good, if I thee tell,
I shew to thee a four-fold way to Hell.
For since I set my Webs in sundry places,
I shew men go to Hell in divers traces.
One I set in the window, that I might
Shew, some go down to Hell with Gospel-light.
One I set in a Corner, as you see,
To shew, how some in secret snared be.
'Gross Webs great store I set in darksome places,
To shew, how many sin with brazen faces.
Another Web I set aloft on high,
To shew, there's some professing men must dye.
Thus in my Ways, God Wisdom doth conceal;
And by my ways, that Wisdom doth reveal.
I hide my self, when I for Flies do wait,
So doth the Devil, when he lays his bait.
If I do fear the losing of my prey,
I stir me, and more snares upon her lay.
This way, and that, her Wings and Legs I tye,
That sure as she is catcht, so she must dye.
But if I see she's like to get away,
Then with my Venom, I her Journey stay.
All which my ways, the Devil imitates,
To catch men 'cause he their Salvation hates.
Sinner.
O Spider, thou delight'st me with thy Skill,
I prethee spit this Venom at me still.
Spider.
I am a Spider, yet I can possess
The Palace of a King, where Happiness
So much abounds. Nor when I do go thither,
Do they ask what, or whence I come, or whether
I make my hasty Travels, no not they;
They let me pass, and I go on my way.
I seize the Palace, do with hands take hold
Of Doors, of locks, or bolts; yea I am bold.
When in, to Clamber up unto the Throne,
And to possess it, as if 'twere mine own.
Here to abide, or in this Palace be.
Yea, if I please I do the highest Stories
Ascend, there sit, and so behold the Glories
My self is compast with, as if I were
One of the chiefest Courtiers that be there.
Here Lords and Ladies do come round about me,
With grave Demeanor: Nor do any slout me,
For this my brave Adventure, no not they;
They come, they go, but leave me there to stay.
Now, my Reproacher, I do by all this
Shew how thou may'st possess thy self of Bliss:
Thou art worse than a Spider, but take hold
On Christ the Door, thou shalt not be controul'd.
By him do thou the Heavenly Palace enter.
None chide thee will for this thy brave Adventure.
Approach thou then unto the very Throne,
There speak thy mind, fear not, the Day's thine own.
Nor Saint nor Angel will thee stop or stay;
But rather tumble blocks out of thy way.
My Venom stops not me▪ let not thy Vice
Stop thee; possess thy self of Paradice.
Go on, I say, although thou be a Sinner,
Learn to be bold in Faith of me a Spinner.
This is the way the Glories to possess,
And to enjoy what no man can express.
Sometimes I find the Palace door up lock't;
And so my entrance thither as up blockt.
But am I daunted? No. I here and there
Do feel, and search; so, if I any where,
[Page 25]At any chink or crevise find my way,
I croud, I press for passage, make no stay;
And so, tho difficultly, I attain
The Palace, yea the Throne where Princes reign.
I croud sometimes, as if I'd burst in sunder;
And art thou crush't with striving do not wonder.
Some scarce get in, and yet indeed they enter;
Knock, for they nothing have that nothing venture.
Nor will the King himself throw dirt on thee,
As thou hast cast Reproaches upon me.
He will not hate thee, O thou foul Backslider!
As thou didst me, because I am a Spider.
Now, to conclude; since I such Doctrine bring,
Slight me no more, call me not ugly thing.
God wisdom hath unto the Piss-ant given,
And Spiders may teach men the way to Heaven.
Sinner.
Well, my good Spider, I my Errors see,
I was a fool for railing upon thee.
Thy Nature, Venom, and thy fearful Hue,
Both shew what Sinners are, and what they do.
Thy way and works do also darkly tell,
How some men go to Heaven, and some to Hell.
Thou art my Monitor, I am a Fool;
They learn may, that to Spiders go to School.
XXX. Upon the Thief.
THe Thief, when he doth steal, thinks he doth gain▪
Yet then the greatest Loss he doth sustain.
Come Thief, tell me thy Gains, but do not falter
When sum'd what comes it to more than the Halter▪
Perhaps, thoul't say, the Halter I defie;
So thou mayst say, yet by the Halter dye.
Thoul't say, then there's an end; no, prethee hold
He was no Friend of thine that thee so told.
Hear thou the Word of God, that will thee tell
Without Repentance Thieves must go to Hell.
But should it be as thy false Prophet says,
Yet nought but Loss doth come by Thievish ways.
All honest men will flee thy Company,
Thou liv'st a Rogue, and so a Rogue wilt dye.
Innocent boldness thou hast none at all,
Thy inward thoughts do thee a Villain call.
Sometimes when thou ly'st warmly on thy Bed,
Thou art like one unto the Gallows led.
Fear, as a Constable, breaks in upon thee;
Thou art as if the Town was up to stone thee.
If Hogs do grunt, or silly Rats do rusle,
Thou art in consternations, think'st a busle
By men about the door is made to take thee:
And all because good Conscience doth forsake thee.
Thy case is most deplorably bad;
Thou shun'st to think on't, lest thou shouldst be mad:
Thou art beset with mischiefs ev'ry way,
The Gallows groaneth for thee ev'ry day.
Wherefore, I prethee Thief, thy Theft forbear,
Consult thy safety, prethee have a care.
If once thy Head be got within the Noose,
'Twill be too late a longer Life to chuse.
As to the Penitent thou readest of,
What's that to them who at Repentance scoff.
Nor is that Grace at thy Command or Pow'r,
That thou shouldst put it off till the last hour.
I prethee Thief think on't, and turn betime;
Few go to Life who do the Gallows clime.
L. Of the Love of Christ.
THe love of Christ, poor I! may touch upon;
But 'tis unsearchable. Oh! There is none
It's large Dimensions can comprehend,
Should they dilate thereon, World without end.
When we had sinned, in his Zeal he sware,
That he upon his back our Sins would bear.
And since unto Sin is entailed Death,
He vowed, for our Sins he'd lose his Breath.
He did not only say, vow, or resolve,
But to Astonishment did so involve
Himself, in man's distress and misery,
As for, and with him, both to live and dye.
To his eternal Fame, in Sacred Story,
We find that he did lay aside his Glory.
Step'd from the Throne of highest Dignity;
Become poor Man, did in a Manger lie;
Yea was beholding unto his for Bread;
Had, of his own, not where to lay his Head.
Tho rich, he did, for us, become thus poor,
That he might make us rich for evermore.
Nor was this but the least of what he did;
But the outside of what he suffered.
God made his Blessed Son under the Law;
Under the Curse, which, like the Lyon's Paw,
[Page 59]Did rent and tear his Soul, for mankinds Sin,
More than if we for it in Hell had bin.
His Crys, his Tears, and Bloody Agony,
The nature of his Death, doth testify.
Nor did he of Constraint himself thus give,
For Sin, to death, that man might with him live.
He did do what he did most willingly,
He sung, and gave God Thanks, that he must dye.
But do Kings use to dye for Captive Slaves?
Yet we were such, when Jesus dy'd to save's.
Yea, when he made himself a Sacrifice,
It was that he might save his Enemies.
And, tho he was provoked to retract
His blest Resolves, for such, so good an Act,
By the abusive Carriages of those
That did both him, his Love, and Grace oppose:
Yet he, as unconcerned with such things,
Goes on, determines to make Captives Kings.
Yea, many of his Murderers he takes
Into his Favour, and them Princes makes.
LVIII. Of the Spouse of Christ.
VVHo's this that cometh from the Wilderness▪
Like Smoaky Pillars, thus perfumed with Myrrhe
Leaning upon her dearest in Distress,
Led into's Bosom, by the Comforter?
She's clothed with the Sun, crown'd with twelve Stars,
The spotted Moon her Footstool he hath made.
The Dragon her assaults, fills her with Jarrs,
Yet rests she under her Beloved's Shade.
But whence was she? what is her Pedigree?
Was not her Father, a poor Amorite?
What was her Mother, but as others be,
A poor, a wretched and sinful Hittite!
Yea, as for her, the day that she was born,
As loathsome, out of doors, they did her cast;
Naked, and Filthy, Stinking, and forlorn:
This was her Pedigree from first to last.
Nor was she pittied in this Estate;
All let her lie polluted in her Blood:
None her Condition did commiserate,
Their was no Heart that sought to do her good.
Yet she unto these Ornaments is come,
Her Breasts are fashioned, her Hair is grown;
She is made Heiress of the best Kingdom;
All her Indignities away are blown.
Cast out she was, but now she home is taken,
Naked (sometimes) but now you see she's clo'd;
Now made the Darling, though before forsaken.,
Bare-foot, but now, as Princes Daughters, shod.
Instead of Filth, she now has her Persumes,
Instead of Ignominy. her Chains of Gold:
Instead of what the Beauty most consumes,
Her Beauty's perfect, lovely to behold.
Those that attend, and wait upon her, be
Princes of Honour, cloth'd in white Aray;
[Page 65]Upon her Head's a Crown of Gold, and she
Eats Wheat, Honey, and Oil, from day to day.
For her Beloved, he's the High'st of all,
The only Potentate, the King of Kings:
Angels, and Men, do him Jehovah call,
And from him, Life, and Glory, always springs.
He's white, and ruddy, and of all the Chief;
His Head, his Locks, his Eyes, his Hands, and Feet,
Do for Compleatness out-go all Belief;
His checks like Flowers are, his Mouth's most sweet.
As for his Wealth he is made Heir of all,
What is in Heav'n, what is on Earth, is his:
And he this Lady, his Joynt-Heir, doth call,
Of all that shall be, or at present is.
Well Lady, well, God has been good to thee,
Thou, of an Out-cast, now art made a Queen.
Few or none may with thee compared be;
A Beggar made thus high is seldome seen.
Take heed of Pride, remember what thou art,
By Nature, tho thou hast in Grace a share:
Thou in thy self doth yet retain a part
Of thine own Filthiness, wherefore beware.
LXVI. Upon the Disobedient Child.
CHildren become, while little, our delights,
When they grow bigger, they begin to fright's.
Their sinful Nature prompts them to rebel,
And to delight in Paths that lead to Hell.
[Page 72]Their Parents Love, and Care, they overlook,
As if Relation had them quite forsook.
They take the Counsels of the Wanton's rather,
Then the most grave Instructions of a Father.
They reckon Parents ought to do for them,
Tho they the Fifth Commandement contemn.
They snap, and snarl, if Parents them controul,
Tho but in things, most hurtful to the Soul.
They reckon they are Masters, and that we,
Who Parents are, should to them Subject be!
If Parents fain would have a hand in chusing,
The Children have a heart will in refusing.
They'l by wrong doings, under Parents, gather
And say, it is no Sin to rob a Father,
They'l jostle Parents out of place and Pow'r,
They'l make themselves the Head, and them devour.
How many Children, by becoming Head,
Have brought their Parents to a peice of Bread!
Thus they who at the first were Parents Joy,
Turn that to Bitterness, themselves destroy.
But Wretched Child, how canst thou thus requite
Thy Aged Parents, for that great delight
They took in thee, when thou, as helpless lay
In their▪ Indulgent Bosoms day by day?
Thy Mother, long before she brought thee forth,
Took care thou should'st want, neither Food, nor Cloth.
Thy Father glad was at his very heart,
Had he, to thee, a Portion to impart.
Comfort they promised themselves in thee,
But thou, it seems, to them a Grief wil't be.
[Page 73]How ost▪ How willingly brake they their Sleep,
If thou, their Bantling, didst but whinch or weep.
Their Love to thee was such, they could have giv'n,
That thou might'st live, almost, their part of Heav'n.
But now, behold, how they rewarded are!
For their Indulgent Love, and tender Care,
All is forgot, this Love he doth despise,
They brought this Bird up to pick out their Eyes.