The true Coppy under Thomas Watson's own hand and Written by him in Prison, take as fol­loweth.

AFter my condemnation, having a true Sense of my sad Estate, I bitterly lamented my sins, and loathed my self for them, especially as they were against a Good and Gracious God: According to Psal. 31.4. and 15.4.

I was deeply sensible of, and grieved for the Cor­ruption of my heart, from whence my actual sins did proceed: According to Psal. 51.5.

I Mourned over my Back slidings, because God was thereby dishonoured.

I found it hard to believe, yet, I resolved I would call upon God, and relye upon the Merrits of Christ alone for Salvation, saying, if I perish, I will perish at the Fountain of Mercy.

I was much in a little time in Dutys; yet, I pro­fessed to my self, I saw the insufficiency of them to justifie or save me, as in Phil. 3.9.

I made choice of Christ before all, before Life it self: According to Phil. 3.8.

I longed for the Morning when I was to Die, be­cause I desired to be with Christ: According to Phil. 1.23.

I greatly loved God, because much was forgiven me: According to Luk. 7.47. and said, though I should fail before him, yet I would trust in him.

I loved the Company of Gods people, and pro­fessed I would rather be with them in Prison with Bread and Water, than with the ungodly at liberty, with the greatest Dainties: According to the 1 Joh. 3.14.

I Besought God, that he would ever give me a heart, to think it better to be in Chains, and brought to Dye, than to go on in sin.

I was broken and melted for my sins, when those that came to visit me, were gone from me and not in their presence; yet, this was sometimes my trou­ble, least God should loose the Glory he had wrought in me.

I Weep'd for joy, at the time when I conceived that God loved me, forasmuch as I was not sinning against him as others were, and I my self had for­merly done, for I found and tasted, more sweetness in the ways of God, and in praying and mourning for forgiveness of my sin, than ever I found in the committing of them.

I counted sin to be worse than Death or Hell.

I looked upon the loss of God, more than the tor­ments of the latter, and feared it more, nay, I praised God, because in the Grave I should sin no more, and thus I comforted my self in misery; ad­vising all to Watch and Pray, that they might not enter into Temptation and be guilty of the like sins which I had committed, but prayed that my fel­low Convicts might recieve the like Consolation my Repentance had wrought in me.

Written by me Thomas Watson, with my own Hand in the Marshalsea.

After I had thus far improved my time, I fell to consider and meditate on sundry sacred Texts, by which means I found more Consolation; as thus.

Seek ye the Lord while he may be found; call ye upon him while he is near. Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts, and let him return unto the Lord, and he will have mer­cy upon him, and to our God, for he will aboun­dantly pardon; for my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are my ways your ways, saith the Lord. I, even I, am he, that blotteth out thy Transgressions for mine own Names sake, and will not remember thy sins. Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord: Though your sins be as Scarlet, they shall be as white as Snow: Though they be as Red as Crimson, they shall be as Wool; but this I say, Bretheren the time is short; this remains, that both they that have Wives, be as though they had none, and they that Weep, as though they Weep'd not, and they that Rejoyce, as though they Rejoyced not, and they that Buy, as though they possessed not, and they that use this World, as not abusing it; for the Fashion of this World passeth away, in the sweat of thy Face faith the Lord, shalt thou Eat Bread, till thou re­turn unto the Ground, for out of it was thou taken, for Dust thou art, and unto Dust thou shalt return.

In God have I put my trust, I will not be affraid what man can do unto me: He that covereth his sins shall not prosper, but whosoever confesseth and forsaketh them shall have Mercy; hear O Israel, the Lord our God, is one Lord, the Lord is the true God, and an everlasting King; at his Wrath the Earth shall tremble, and the Nations shall not be able to abide his indignation: Go therefore, and teach all Nations, Baptising them, in the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost; for there are three that bear Record in Heaven, the Father, the Word, and the Holy Ghost, and these three are one. Jesus said unto him, thou shalt love the Lord thy God, with all thy Heart, and with all thy Soul, and with all thy Mind: This is the first and great Commandment, and the Second is like unto it. Thou shalt love thy Neighbour as thy self, for whosoever will save his Life shall loose it, and and whosoever will loose his Life for my sake, shall find it: For what is a man profited if he shall gain the whole World, and loose his own Soul? or what shall a man give in Exchange for his Soul?

For if a man Dye, shall he Live again; all the days of my appointed time, will I wait till my change come, trusting in, and hoping to improve, that which our Blessed Saviour said to encourage St. Peter, viz. I have prayed for thee, that thy Faith fail not; and when thou art Comforted, strengthen thy Bretheren, and examine your selves whether you be in the Faith; prove your own selves, know ye not your own selves, how that Jesus Christ is is you, except ye be in Reprobation: Therefore, let us keep the Feast not with Old Leaven, neither with the Leaven of Mallice and Wickedness, but with the unleavened Bread of Sincerity and Truth: I wrought unto you in an Epistle, not to accompany Fornicators; but let us who are of the day be sober putting on the Brest-Plate of Faith, and for an Hel­met, the hope of Salvation, for God hath nor ap­pointed us for Wrath, but to obtain Salvation by our Lord Jesus Christ; but the Lord is faithful, who shall establish you, and keep you from Evil, for I am now ready to be offered, and the time of my departure is at hand. I have fought a good Fight. I have finished my Course. I have kep'd the Faith: Henceforth, there is laid up for me, a Crown of Righteousness, which the Lord, the Righteous Judge shall give me at that day, and not to me only, but to all them that love his appearing; knowing that a man is not justified by the works of the Law, but by the Faith of Jesus Christ: Even we have be­lieved in Jesus Christ, that we might be justified by [Page 3]the Faith of Jesus Christ, and not by the works of the Law; for by the works of the Law shall no flesh be justified: I do not frustrate the Grace of God, for if Righteousness comes by the Law, then Christ is Dead in vain, but Christ our Passover, is Sacrificed for us: Therefore, let us keep the Feast not with Old Leaven, neither with the Leaven of Mallice and Wickedness, but with the unleavened Bread of Sincerity and Truth: Whosoever shall ex­alt himself shall be abased, and he that shall hum­ble himself shall be exalted, wherefore I abhor my self, and Repent in Dust and Ashes. Look down then from Heaven, and behold from the Habitation of thy Holiness, and of thy Glory, where is thy Zeal and thy strength, and the erning of thy Bow­els and of thy Mercy towards me, are they restrain­ed doubtless? No, for thou art our Father, though Abraham be ignorant of us, and Israel acknowledge us not; thou O Lord art our Father, our Redeemer, thy Name is from everlasting.

Having well weighed and considered these things I betook my self to prayer in the following manner.


ALmighty and Most Merciful Father, Most Ho­ly and Righteous Judge of the whole World, give me a miserable and sinful Wretch leave to pro­strate my self before the Throne of thy Grace, and to implore that Mercy I have formerly abused and despised: I am not worthy to look up to Heaven, which is the Throne of thy Purity, but it becomes me in the greatest Humility and Dejection of Spirit, to bewail, and groan under the load of my many and great sins, so henious, that when I reflect on them, I am ready to sink into Hell and dispair of Mercy: But although I am a miserable sinner, yet thou art a merciful God, full of Compassion and long suffering; and of great Goodness. To thee do I come, beseeching thee for thy dear Son Christ Jesus sake, to pardon all my sins; whether of Omis­sion or commission, secret or open, notorious or presumptious; that in Thought Word or Deed, I have committed against thy Divine Majesty.

Especially O Lord, pardon my prophaning thy Holy Sabbaths, when thou gavest me six days to follow my lawful Occasions in, and took but one to thy self, yet I have not spent it as I ought, in pri­vate praying unto thee, and praising of thee, in Rea­ding and Meditating of thy Holy Word, and exa­mining the state of my soul, nor publickly at­tending upon thee in thy house, to worship thee, and hear thy Holy Word Preached to me, to instruct me in the way to Heaven, and to restrain me from sin; but the precious time I have thrown away, up­on my Folly and vanities.

O Lord, pardon my uncleanness; for that Body which should have been the Temple of the Holy Ghost, and been kept from all impurity and unchast Thoughts and Actions, I have defiled by unchast Desires and uncleanness.

O Lord pardon all those sins and irregular Actions, by which I entered into Debts, further than my ne­cessity required, or I was able to pay. Let not my Creditors suffer by my sins, Lord reward all their Kindnesses into their Bosomes, and make them re­compence where I cannot. Lord, I beseech thee pay my Debts in Blessings to them and theirs. Lord pardon all my Rashness and Passion; for when I should have been meek, gentle, humble and merci­ful, patiently bearing all the injuries done unto me, as my Blessed Saviour Jesus Christ did; alas! I have for one inconsiderable word, broak into open Rage and Passion, harbouring mischief in my heart; nay, at last they brought me to the inhumane and cruel Mur­ther even of her that ought to have been as dear un­to me as my own Life, although she was unkind to me, I ought to have loved her, instructing, re­proving, and restraining her, with all meekness and gentleness, and long suffering, praying for her, and not to have been rash and passionate against her, moreover, wickedly to destroy her; and as much as in me lay, to raise out the very Image of God: Deli­ver me O Lord, from Blood Guiltiness, thou that art my Saviour, and my Tongue shall sing of thy Righteousness; wash me throughly from my wick­edness, and cleanse me from my sins. Turn thy Face from my sins, and blot out all my misdoings; make me a new heart, and renew a right spirit with­in me; the Remembrance of my sins is grievous, the Burthen of them intollerable. O Lord I be­seech thee, give me a due sense of my sins, the base­ness and vileness of all my doings and misdeeds, that I may hate them worse than that Death I ex­pect shortly to suffer: Give me a Godly sorrow that may work Repentance, never to be repented of. Give me unfeigned purposes of amendment of Life; though I may justly think, they are too late to find Acceptance with thee, therefore with fear, and a great sense of my own unworthiness with a sorrow­ful heart, and true sence of my sins.

I look up unto thee for Mercy, that had Mercy on the Penitent Thief at the last hour, thou that art Mercy it self; give me some small hopes of Mercy, good Lord cast me not quite out of thy sight, for Jesus Christ's sa [...]e, who gave himself for us, to re­deem us from all Iniquities, I confess 'tis a beginning of Mercy, and an earnest I have to hope for, more that hast made me sensible of my sins, to a degree of hating them, and to resolve against them, that I have a love and desire to a Godly Life.

I confess, thou had'st just cause to leave me to my self, and permit me to commit so horrid a Fact; O Lord, I know thou canst bring good out of evil; and I beseech thee, to let this be a means of bring­ing me to Repentance, and then I shall have infi­nite cause to Bless thee, for suffering of Justice to take hold of me, and put a stop to my further sin­ning against thee; let me take shame to my self, by open confessing my Crime, and earnestly admo­nishing all, to be warned by my Example, to cease betimes to do evil, and learn to do well. O! that I might Glorifie thee in my Latter End, till I re­ceive my deserved punishment; give me Grace to spend my time, bewailing my sins, in and humbling my self before thee for them, and hating them with a perfect hatred, and in calling other Offendors to Repentance: I beseech thee to inable me thus to spend my time: Grant me to tast of thy Mercy, and take from me the fear of Death. Give me Grace to work out my Salvation, with fear and [Page 4]trembling, to use all diligence, to make my Calling and Election sure; so that when my Soul is seperated from my Body, that thou Blessed Jesus wilt receive it into thy Protection, and have Mercy upon me, O Lord God, according to thy loving kindness, according to thy tender Mercys, blot out my Transgressions; wash me throughly from mine Iniquity, and cleanse me from my sins; for I acknowledge my Transgres­sions and my Sins are ever before me, against thee only have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight, that thou might be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest; for behold, I was shapen in Iniqui­tie, and in sin my Mother concieved me, but thou shalt make me to know wisdom. Purge me with Hyssop, and I shall be clean, wash me, and I shall be whiter than Snow: Make me to hear of joy and gladness, that the Bones which thou hast broken may rejoyce, hide thy Face from my sins, and blot out all my iniquities. Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right Spirit within me; cast me not away from thy presents, and take not thy Holy Spirit from me; restore unto me, the joy of thy Salvation, and uphold me with thy Spirit, then will I teach Transgressors thy ways, and sinners shall be converted unto thee. Deliver me from Blood-guiltiness, O God, thou God of my Salvation, and my Tongue shall sing aloud of thy Righteousness. O Lord, open thou my Lips, and my Mouth shall shew forth thy Praises, for thou desirest not sacri­fice, else would I give it thee; thou deligh­test not in Burnt-Offerings, the sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and con­trite heart, O God. Thou wilt not dispise, do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion; Build thou the walls of Jerusalem, let me make my Calling and Election sure, and when my soul departeth from my body, then, O Blessed Lord, receive it into the hands of thy Mercy. These, and whatsoever else, thou seest needful for me, I Beg in the Name and for the sake of Jesus Christ, concluding these my imperfect Prayers, in saying as he himself hath Taught us,

Our Father, &c.
Written by me Thomas VVatson, with my own Hand in the Marshalsea Prison. And is my desire it may be made publick.

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