A short and plaine treatise of our fit preparation to the Supper of the Lord, and wholsome participation thereof.
1. COR. 11.28. Let a man examine himselfe, and so let him eate of that bread, and drinke of that Cup.
AS Iacob blessing Asher. Gen. 49.20. said his bred shall be fat, and he shall yeeld royall dainties, or giue pleasures for a king; So may I say, speaking of the fat things of this Table, a little inuerting the words: the King here giues vs his [Page 252] pleasures, and feedes vs with his best things and roiall dainties. Who am I (saith Dauid vnto Saul. 1. Sam. 18.18) that I should be sonne in law vnto a King? and to Sauls seruants in the 23. verse, Seemeth it a light thing vnto you to be a Kings sonne in law? like question may wee all make vnto our soules concerning this table & banquet? who are we? or seemeth it a light thing vnto vs that we are the inuited of a King? If some great man should inuite vs to his Table, how would wee study to compose our selues, our apparell, our behauiour, that there might bee nothing in vs that might offēd so great a presence? how much more ought wee thus to doe comming to the Lords Table, whe [...]e we are to sit and eat of better foode then that of Angels, and that also in the presence not of any earthly greatnes, but of the heauenly maiesty?
That therefore we may come as fit and worthy guests, wee must before hand prepare our selues: For if the [Page 253] Virgines Hester 1. comming to King Ahashuerosh were to be purified sixe monthes, and the people comming to receiue the Lawe of God, three daies, Exod. 19. how much more wee comming to this Table, where the flesh of God is taken & eaten, ought to be purged & purified in our hearts from dead workes, and to bee prepared as fit guests for so heauenly a banquet? This aboue al things euery one of vs that will come ro this Table well prepared, must d [...]sire of God with ardent and ea [...]nest praiers, that he would purge the chamber of our heart, in which Christ will eate his Passeouer with vs.
Now that we might fitly prepare, and wholsomely participate of the Table of the Lord, the Apostle hath set downe two things: first what we must doe before wee come there; namely examine, &c. 2. What wee must doe when we are there: namely eate of that bread, and drinke of that cup.
If it be askt who must examine, or [Page 254] who must be examined, the Apostle resolues a man;Who examine, who examined. or as Beza, Quisque: Euery man, the examiner, his owne soule and conscience, his owne selfe; for so saith the Apostle: Let a man examine himselfe.
The touch-stone is for the mettals, this triall is for our selues. Euery man heere is of the Inquisition, to examine whether his owne heart bee holie or hollow, his loue false, or vnfained, his wares, his workes good, or adulterated, his coine base or currant: which that a man be able to doe, it is necessary as Saint Peter requires, that he be ready to render a reason of the faith and hope that is in him: and how can he be ready to render a reason of his faith, &c. when he knowes not a reason of his faith? how is it possible that a man should examine himselfe, when he knowes not vpon what interrogatories he should examine himselfe? The heart of man is deceitfull aboue all things, how shall he be able to finde out the corruptions thereof, that [Page 255] is not taught out of the word, to know when his heart is vpright, and when it is corrupt? How shall hee bee able to try or examine his faith, that knowes not of what faith hee is? led in blindnesse, misled in superstition, and can say no more of what he belieues, but that he belieues as the Church belieues.
Herein the blinde guides of the Church of Rome haue much abused the Church, and simple ones of the church: herein the doctrine of the church of Rome is contrary to the Apostles doctrine; for if euery man be to examin himself, it is manifest that no man that comes to this Sacramēt must be so ignorant, as not to know what is required to be in himselfe, what hee is to search for in himselfe? which he can neuer doe, which can say no more for his faith, then that he belieues as the Church belieues, not knowing what the Church belieues.
If a man can examine himself and do not, his neglect is haynous, his danger is more great; if we will not [Page 256] search our selues, he that hath fierie eyes will search vs: Let no man think to lie hid in the multitude, and say; if God haue a list, Omnes punire nocentes quando ad m [...] veniet? to punish all offenders, when will he come to mee? When the King came in the Gospell to see his guests, hee espied one that had not on a wedding garment, and he bid take that one, and binde him hand and foote, and cast him into vtter darkenes: there was but one Iudas at the Supper with our Sauiour, and the diuell entred into him. This is a duty required, the neglect of it is not without danger, for that besides it may bring on vs the euerlasting punishments, a thing greatly to bee feared, it makes vs also in perill of temporall punishments; for so saith the Apostle in the wordes that follow, for this cause many are weake and sickely amongst you, and many sleepe.
As euery one of vs therefore would bee carefull to auoide both the temporall and eternall punishments, [Page 257] so let vs come to this table prepared, hauing before examined.
Euery man then must examine,Examine himselfe. but whom? himselfe: so saith the Apostle. Let a man examine himselfe. This may serue for a reproofe of the curiosity of many men, who when they are as, Canes venatici, to enquire and finde out in other mens faith and manners, are as blind bats and beetles in their owne: what hast thou, may I say to such a one, to iudge of thy brother? hee stands or fals to his owne master: Enquire into thy selfe, and why iudgest thou of thy brother? knowest thou what teares he hath shed before God in secret for his sinne? knowest thou what ardent sighes and violent praiers hee hath powred out before God, that there might bee an healing of his infirmity, and doing away of his sinne? Iudge thy selfe, so shalt thou not be iudged: looke into thy selfe; & looke not thus about thee. Correct thine owne life and manners, [Page 258] enquire not into thy Neighbors.
Heare what one saith well, Graue curiositatis vitium, &c. Grieuous is the vice of curiositie, because while it leades a man out of himselfe to enquire into the life of his Neighbour, it doth alwaies hide from him his owne hidden things, that knowing other mens affaires, hee may bee ignorant of himselfe: For it cannot bee that hee that attendes thus to others, should bee carefull of himselfe; and therefore Augustine saith well: Curiosi ad inuestigandum vitam alienam, desidiosi ad corrigendam suam: They that are curious to looke into other mens liues, are very sloathfull to amende their owne: But our Apostle requires of euery one that will bee a fit guest to come to this Table; that hee leaue off to meddle of other Mens liues, and enquire into them, that hee come home by himselfe, and to himselfe, [Page 259] & set in order the things of his own house, descending into himself, sounding his owne heart, iudging of his owne faith, trying his owne workes, examining his owne loue. And when hee hath so done, then may he approach and draw neere vnto this Table, else may the diuell enter into him as into Iudas with the soppe, else as the sons of the Prophets said Mors in olla, there is death in the pot: so may he chance to finde that there is also Mors in calice, death in the cup.
Yet this is not so stricktly to bee vnderstood,Who are also to examine others. as if no man were to be watchfull ouer others, and carefull and diligent to examine others: the minister, the father of a family, are besides themselues to examine their flocke, their children, seruants: I and my house saith Ioshua will serue the Lord; so these are to be carefull of others, as the minister of the Lords house, the father of the family in his owne house, that those belonging to their charge be well instructed in the [Page 260] way of God. Of my hand said Iudah to his father Iacob concerning his brother Beniamin. Gen. 43.9. shalt thou require him, and if I bring him not backe vnto thee, I will beare the blame for him for euer: so may we say concerning those that are set ouer others of the Lord, that God will require them at their hands, and if through their default they perish, they shall beare the blame of them for euer.
This euery Minister and Maister of a familie must consider, that in the Church of Christ he beares two persons; the first, as he is a Christian; the second, as he is a gouernour: as he is a Christian, he is to examine himself: as he is a gouernour he is also to examine others.
If a man should aske me now of this examination after what manner it is to be done,The manner of examining our selues I shall answer him, not slightly, perfunctorily, and for fashion onely, as the formalists of the world doe all the workes of religion; but seriously, exactly, and vprightly, [Page 261] ripping vp our hearts, and descending into our thoughts, carefully and diligently viewing what image and superscription they beare vpon them considering directly our owne infirmities what sinnes we are most inclined and subiect vnto,Bernh. that we may be hartily contrite and sorrie for them, and labour to amend them: what defect of knowledge, zeale and loue there is in vs, that wee may labour to reforme it.
If there be any sore or vlcer in our soule, whether it be of wrath, or enuie, or luxuriousnesse, or worldlinesse, we must not deale with it as the sores of our bodies, affraid to touch them: but we must descend into it, finde it out, search into the corruption thereof, confesse it, and leaue it.
It is not a generall confession that will serue our turnes to say in the words of the Publican; Lord be mercifull vnto me a sinner: but wee must bring forth our particular and beloued sinnes, Agag, and the best of [Page 262] best of the cattell, that which wee haue kept to sacrifice not vnto God,1. Sam. 15 8.32. but to the diuell, and cut them in peeces before the Lord in Gilgal.
If we examine not our selues after this manner, the Lord that searcheth Ierusalem with candles. Zeph. 1.12. will take the worke into his owne hands, hee that hath fiery eies will looke into the darke and filthy corners of our hearts, if we confesse not he will not forgiue, if we couer and hide our sinne, hee will discouer it and set it before vs to the confusion of our faces.
the things whereof we are to examine our seluesNow after the manner, if I should be askt of the matter of our examination, or the things whereof we are to examine our selues, I shall answer that first in particular we are to examine our selues concerning this sacrament: first, with what intention: secondly, with what deuotion we come vnto it: secondly, more in generall we are to examine our repentance, faith and loue.
1. We are to examine our selues [Page 263] with what intention we come to this table; whether for custome, of fashion, for felowship,Bonauentura de processu religionis cap. 22. for feare of punishment, for respect of outward profit, or any other worldly respect: or whether the loue of God doth draw vs thither, and the sight of our owne infirmity, the conscience of our sinnes, the desire of grace from God, and of giuen thankes to God, renewing the memory of his passion, and thinking on the inestimable benefit of our redemption.
2. We are to examine our deuotion, whether we come vnto this table rashly, not discerning the Lords body; or whether we come vnto it with feare and reuerence: whether we come vnto it with a loathing stomacke, that despiseth the hony combe; or whether we come vnto it with a longing appetite that desires to be fed & filled with these dainties.
More generall wee must examine our repentance, faith and loue.
1 We must try our selues in the matter [Page 264] of repentance, whether we haue sifted the corners of our hearts, whether we haue beene sorry for our sin, whether wee haue made confession thereof to God, whether loathing our sinnes and our selues also for our sinnes, we haue a setled purpose hereafter to forsake all our euill waies, and in new obedience to walke before God to the glorifying of his holy name.
2. We are to examine our faith, which consists of two parts; the first a certaine knowledge of the whole misterie of saluation: the second, an application of this knowledge to our selues. A man therefore comming to this sacramēt must examine himself, whether he haue such knowledge as is required in particular of the number and nature of the sacraments, in generall of the principles and parts of religion, the principles, first God: secondly, the word of God: the parts first mans misterie falling and fallen from that which hee was in his natures institution; secondly the grace [Page 267] of God in the great mercy that was shewed vpon him in his restitution.
2. The explication of this knowledge is in bringing of it home into our owne soules, and concerning this we must examine our selues, whether we haue contented our selues with the bare knowledge and theory of the things in this word, or whether we can make vse of our knowledge to our information, consolation, and can say with Thomas. Iohn 21.28. my Lord and my God.
3. If we will come as worthy communicants to this table, we must examine our selues concerning our loue first, whether our hearts be vpright towards our brethren, as we would that theirs should be towards vs: secondly whether we can be content to remit and passe by their offences towards vs, as wee would that they should passe by ours towards them: thirdly, whether, where we haue giuen each offence, or done any wrong and iniury in word and deede, wee [Page 266] be ready to confesse it, and to make amends.
If we can finde in our selues such intention, such deuotion, such repentance, such faith, such loue, we may be bold to draw neere vnto this Table, not doubting but that the Lord will accept our offering.
Obiection I but here some man may thinke or say; if there be required such preparation, such intention, deuotion, faith, knowledge, sorrow for sinne, loue, this will rather deter me from this Table, then drawe me to it: for if the danger be so great of those that communicate vnworthily, and no man can doe it worthily, that cannot thus examine himselfe; and not one man amongst a thousand, either can or doth thus examine himselfe, or examining himselfe can find in himselfe such knowledge, loue, deuotion as is here required: how shall I dare to draw neere vnto this Table, that find so great & fowle defects in my selfe, least I eate and drink mine owne damnation?
Let not this deterre nor driue thee backe; thou canst doe no more in this examination, then thou canst in other religious dueties, that is as much, as humane frailtie can attaine vnto: and God in this, as in other things, will vse his clemency; for he knoweth our corruptions and defects, hee knoweth whereof we are made, he considereth that we are but men. Psal. 103.14. Thou findest not such an appetite in thee as is required; desire God and hee will stirre it vp in thee. Thou findest not in thy selfe such earnest sorrow for sinne: desire of God and he will giue it thee: Be sorry because thou canst bee no more sorry. Thou art laden with the burden of thy sinnes, come vnto God and he will ease thee. Thou findest in thy selfe a manifest defect of good workes, and a languishing faith: Come vnto this Table, it is a medicine: Come vnto Christ, hee is the Physitian, and hee will heale thee. Thou thinkest with [Page 268] thy selfe, I am not worthy: our best worthinesse is to confesse our vnworthinesse; confesse with the Church, and say, I am not worthy to licke vp the crummes, &c. Thou art not able of thy selfe to doe any of these things required, yet in Christ thou art able to doe all things: comfort thy selfe therefore, and let not this deterre thee; come vnto Christ that calleth thee, accept his offer that inuiteth thee.
Onely let me admonish thee, that there be not in thee a show and negligent minde comming to this table, but that thou stirre vp thy selfe to attend to what thou doest, and if thou feele any want in thy selfe, confesse the same to God, & say: I know O Lord, that thou requirest of thy guests a conscience pure from sinne, good intention, a good deuotion, faith, repentance, &c. Now, O Lord, although my preparation bee but lame, yet vouchsafe to accept it, my desire is in all things to please thee, but mine infirmity is great; O Lord [Page 269] of health, heale all mine infirmities; if wee haue such thoughts in our hearts, such praiers in our mouthes comming to this table, he that will not break a brused reade, nor quench the smoaking flaxe, will not reiect nor put vs backe, although our infirmity be great vpon vs.
Now from that which we are to doe before we come to the Lords table,What wee should doe at the Lords table. let vs come to that which we are to doe at the Lords table: so let him eate of that bread and drinke of that cup: when a man hath examined and prepared, it is not left at his discretion whether he will communicate or no, but he must first examine, and then eate: for whereas the sacraments are badges by which we Christians are knowne from vnbeleeuers and idolaters in the vse of them, wee must needes communicate, vnlesse we will shew our selues ashamed of the profession of our faith.
This sacrament is a seale to confirme our faith; therefore as we desire to haue an assurance of Gods promises [Page 270] sealed vp vnto vs let vs come vnto this table. By this we are vnited vnto Christ; therefore as we desire to be one with Christ, so let vs communicate. The Lords supper is a linke of vnity, that knitteth vs one vnto another: therefore as we desire loue and brotherly kindnesse, so let vs frequent this table.
What though Augustine say? Crede & manducasti, Beleeue and thou hast eaten, yet let no man thinke that is sufficient to beleeue and not to eate: for although there is no holesome eating without faith, yet at the Lords table we are holpen, furthered and confirmed in our faith by our outward sences.
When we heare it said, this is my body, &c. (faith you know is by hearing,) we are stirred vp to lay strong hold on the promises of God, when we heare this word, doe this in remembrance of me. We are assured that this is Christs commandement, when we see the bread broken, & the wine [Page 271] powred out, we are giuen to consider of his passion, that was broken for our sinnes, and thinke of his blood that washeth vs from all sinne when the Minister offers vnto vs, and we receiue the sacrament, we thinke of that thing which God offers vnto vs, and we receiue by the hand of faith.
Great therefore is the vse and necessity of this Sacrament, and let no man slacke his comming vnto it, that is inuited; there are that are content to come and heare, but refuse this table: what doe they thinke themselues vnworthy of it? who can be worthy: or doe they contemne God is his ordinance? Let them looke to it, there is a iudgement for such men: those that refuse to come (saith Christ) shall not tast of my banquet. As God herein hath tendered our infirmities, so let vs tenderly respect the good of our owne soules, not withs [...]g our selues withsome, nor neglecting with others, but let vs eate.What we must eate
Let a man eate of this bread, &c. Quisque probet, &c. Let a man, or let euery man examine, eate and drinke (saith Paul) not so saith the Church of Rome. Let the Laity, not examine, but be confest; let them eate if they will all, but they shall not drink all; we haue kept say the priests the chalice for our selues, and they shall bee content with it vnder one kinde. I will not say it is the licorishnesse of wine in men giuen to the appetite, or a desire of innouating and changing this institution, or their high presumption that their Church cannot erre though they decree against Christ, that makes them thus sacrilegiously to abrogate the ordinance of Christ. This I know hee that gaue himselfe for all; said to his, drinke of this all. But the Church of Rome will giue Christ the checke; not all saith she, but some of all, my shauelings, my deare sons: for the rest though Christ command it, though Paul preach it, yet shall they but haue it vnder one kinde. [Page 273] Sic volo, sic iubeo. See the impious boldnesse of men, whose consciences are seared with an hot iron, and out of this iudge of the rest. Quid non audebunt? what will they not dare to doe?
I could but that I will not long with-hold my reader, speake heere to the reproofe of the same men, for keeping the host in a boxe, when they are bid to eate the bread, but I desire not to insist long on that which is to be eaten, onely heere I cannot passe ouer that question which hath exagitated the Church so many yeeres, namely what is that which is eaten? for what for transubstantiation on the one side, what for consubstantiation on the other side, the Church is so diuided that it [...]nowes not readily what to beleeue and hold concerning this Sacrament. But because these are the things which are euery where spoken off, and spoken against, I will moue no longer question of it, but indeuour out of these words, other scriptures, [Page 274] reasons and fathers briefely to shew, that we must vnderstand in the Lords supper no Capernaiticall creophagie, or carnall eating, but that which is spirituall, and by faith. This will appeare vnto vs, if wee consider well this place in which the Apostle saith, eate that bread; if it be bread when it is to bee eaten, then it is not the very flesh of Christ presently after the words of consecration; and againe the same Apostle: Panem quem frangimus, The bread which we breake. And is it bread when it is broken? then it is not the body of Christ presently after the consecration: and if wee will beleeue Christ. Iohn 6.35. he will tell vs that to come to him, and to beleeue is to eate, and drinke him the bread and water of life: his flesh is meate indeede, and his blood is drinke indeede. ver. 55. but it is the spirit that quickeneth; the flesh profiteth nothing. [Page 275] verse 63. see heere how our Sauiour would haue vs to vnderstand a spirituall eating.
Reasons. Besides these, and such like places of Scripture, how many absurdities in reason will follow vpon this doctrine? How absurd a thing is it that a mortall man, who is not able to make one haire of his head white or blacke, should bee thought able to create his Creator? how absurd a thing to thinke that the reprobate, rats, mise, and other vermin should eate the flesh of Christ? it must needs thereupon follow that they haue eternall life in them. What an absurd thing is it to thinke that accidents can be without their subiects? A body without his dimensions? the same body at one and the same time in innumerable places? these and many such absurdities in reason follow on this doctrine.
Now heare the Fathers.Fathers. Num [...], mysterium nostrum pronuncias, & irreligiosè ad cràssas [Page 276] cogitationes vrges fidelium mentes? & humanis cogitationibus attentas ea tractare, quia sola pura et exquisita fide accipiuntur. Cirill: ad Eutropium? What doest thou call our mystery, an eating of mans flesh? and doest thou irreligiously vrge the mindes of the faithfull to grosse thoughts? and doest thou attempt to handle those things with humane thoughts, which are receiued by pure and exquisite faith alone?
Christus assumpto pane, qui cor hominis confortat, veritatem corporis sui repraesentauit, saith Ierome. Christ hauing taken the bread, which comforteth the heart of man, hath represented the truth of his body. A representation is a signe or remembrance of a thing, it is not the thing it selfe: Augustine what doest thou prepare thy tooth and thy belly? beleeue and thou hast eaten. Cyprian, we sharpen not our teeth to bite, but with sincere faith wee breake and diuide that holy bread. Bernard. Christus tange potest sed affectu, Ser. 20. in Cant. non manu, veto non [Page 277] oculo, fide non sensibus: tanges manu fidei, desiderij digito, devotionis amplexu tanges oculo mentis: Christ may bee toucht but with affection, not with the hand, with the desire, not with the eye, with faith, not with the senses. Thou shalt touch him with the hand of faith, with the finger of desire, with the imbracing of deuotion, thou shalt touch him with the eye of the minde. Credere inuenisse est, saith one, to beleeue is to haue found. Et credere edisse est, say I, to beleeue is to haue eaten?
Norunt fideles (saith another) Christum habitare per fidem in cordibus suis; quid proprius est? The faithfull know that Christ dwels by faith in their hearts, what can be neerer.
All these speake of a spirituall eating and no other, an eating that is of faith: should I then teare him againe with my teeth, that was once pittifully torne for mee with nailes, thornes, speare, vpon the Crosse? should I dreame that my stinking carkase should be a Sepulcher to bury [Page 278] my Sauiour, descending into the cauernes of my belly? I will bury thee oh my Sauiour in the new sepulcher of my soule, where neuer yet any man lay.
Thus of examining our selues before we eate, of the manner of examining of our selues, of the things wherof we are to examine our selues, against the doubtings of our vnfitnes & vnworthines, of eating, & of what we receiue, the conclusion is that hauing receiued Christ into the chamber of our heart, we be thankefull to him for his comming, we desire him to stay and lodge with vs all night, we so demeane our selues towards him, that we grieue not his spirit, & make him to leaue his lodging, which if we doe, our soule that was his lodging, will become a cage of vncleane birds and our latter end will be worse then our beginning.
A praier before the Communion.
VVHat shall I doe (O Lord) drawing neere to this thy table, but confesse against my selfe mine owne vnworthines? thou requirest that thy guests haue on the wedding garment, and behold I am couered as yet with the rags of mine owne filthinesse, and with the confusion of my sinne. The corruption of my nature, the iniquity of my life, the vnprofitablenesse of my best workes, the abhomination of my worst, the despight that I doe to thee, the euill example that I haue giuen to men, the shame and horror that I haue brought vpon mine own face and conscience, my want of faith knowledge, loue, and sorrow for sin, mine indeuotion to thy seruice, my seruing of mine owne intentions, out of the causes of thee (my GOD) and the causes of religion, the whole bande of mine other iniquities, [Page 280] my secret, and to my selfe vnknowne sinnes, stand vp against me to accuse me and cast me in the teeth. I am in a straight with Dauid, neither know I what to doe, or what to choose: whether to draw neere to this thy Table, or to with-draw and turne my selfe away. If I with-draw my selfe, I forsake thy comforts and refreshing: if I draw neere I am in danger of my sin. But I will draw neere vnto thee, trusting in the multitude of thy mercies; O my Lord Christ, I come laden with an heauy burden, thou wilt ease my shoulder: I come in my defects, thou wilt couer them with thy perfection. I come in the confession, vse my sinne, with thee is forgiuenesse, thou wilt doe away my sinne. I come in the feeling of my wants, thou art God all sufficient, thou wilt supply all my wants. I come in the acknowledgement of mine vnworthinesse, thou wilt accept me, make me worthy, and refresh me heere with the comforts in thy word, with thy body and thy blood at thy Table, elsewhere [Page 281] thou wilt make mee drinke of the riuer of thy pleasures, in the kingdome of thy father, where thou raignest euerlastingly, one God with him and the Holy Ghost: To thee be ascribed all praise and glory, world without end, Amen.
A Praier at the receiuing of the bread and wine.
O Lord Christ and blessed Sauiour, which hast giuen mee thy body to bee my meate, thy blood to be my drinke, thy soule to be my redemption: enter now the chamber of my heart, with all thy vertues, graces, & spirituall benedictions: adorne it & make it beautifull, and dwell in it for euer, and graunt that the memory of thy most bitter passion, & of all other thy wonders and benefits may neuer slip out of my minde, but that I may alwaies thinke on thy loue, meditate on thy mercies, and thanke thee for thy goodnesse, which hast done so great things for thy Church thy chosen, and for my soule, Amen.
A Praier after the receiuing of the Communion.
AWay from me all ye workes and workers of iniquity, out of mine heart all euill thoughts, out of my mouth all euill wordes, from mine hands all euill deeds, for I haue made a couenant with my God to serue him with all my strength, with all my soule, and with all my members, and hee is come to dwell in mine heart. Oh (my GOD) and oh my mercy! how can I giue thee worthy thankes, which being King of Kings, and Lord of Lords, hast not scorned to visit my soule, and to come vnder the roofe of my poore dwelling? Teach me (O LORD) to loue thy loue, and for thy loue to denie all vngodlinesse and wordly lusts: teach mee to leaue this world for thee, which for my sake leftest Heauen to come downe to mee, and gauest thy selfe vnto mee, being made my brother in thy birth, mine example in [Page 283] thy life, the price of my redemption in thy death, my food and nourishment at thy Table, my reward in the Kingdome, mine wholly and whatsoeuer thou art I cannot vtter the ioy of mine heart: I cannot conceiue words to expresse my thankfulnesse: If I had the tongues of men and Angels I cannot speake sufficiently to thy praise. Grant (O Lord) that I which haue receiued so much from thee, of thine, thee thy selfe, may in all things indeauour to bee to thine honour and praise. Amen.
My Thankesgiuing after GOD had raised me vp from the bed of my sickenesse.
I Haue a song of praise to sing to the Lord, O LORD thou hast holpen me, and comforted me: when I had receiued the sentence of death in my selfe, thou saidst vnto me Liue? when my life drew neere vnto the pit, and to the buriers, thou saidst vnto me, Returne. I had now almost imb [...]ced the dust, and claimed my kindred [Page 284] in the graue, saying to corruption, thou art my father, and to the wormes yee are my mother, and my sister: I had giuen ouer all hope of life, and said in my weakenes, I am cut off, I shall no more returne to see the sunne: yet thou gauest life, which art my light and comfort, thou gauest strength; and madest me againe to reioice with my friends, and to visit my dwelling. Though thou brakest me with breach vpon breach in the day of my distresse, though thou powredst out my gall vpon the ground, though thou tookest mee by the necke, and shakedst me in peeces, and settedst me vp as a marke for all thine Archers: yet haddest thou mercy on me, to spare one, that thou wouldest not put out all the light of my children in one day; & take both their parents from of their heads at once. I should haue desired, as did old Simeon, when thou hadst set me on the way, Lord now lettest thou thy seruant depart in peace: I should haue earnestly beg'd of God, that in death we [Page 285] might not haue been diuided, whom no affliction, nor sorrow, nor want, nor euill-deuised counsell of euill men could diuide in our liues: I should haue reioiced as if I had found a treasure, when I had found the graue, and reckoned it a great successe and benefit to haue bid goodnight to this world, and to haue gone to sleepe together in the dust; but that my bowels were moued within me, in compassion of my children: Alasse, (quoth I) in the weakenes of my body, in the weakenesse of my minde, and heauinesse of my soule, shall all these yong ones now be orphans? (yet thou O God art the father of orphans,) and shall the eye of mine enemie see in mee and them? O take mee not therefore away in the midst of mine age, spare my life, O Lord of thy goodnesse, helpe and heale thy seruant in remembrance of thy mercies, visit thy sicke and prisoner, to giue me health, & set my feet at liberty: so didst thou heare & heale me, and hast done this great thing [Page 286] for mee, whereof I reioice. And now Lord what is that which I aske at thine hands? namely this, comfort me for the time, wherein thou hast afflicted me, and for the yeeres wherein I haue suffered aduersity: Put to rebuke the men of mine hatred, recompence their good to their soules that haue done me good: binde vp now the bones which thou hast broken in me, O Lord send me now prosperity: make me to walke worthy of my calling, to walke worthy of thee, expressing my thankefulnesse vnto thee, not in my tongue onely, but in my life and conuersation also. Giue me thy feare to wound my flesh, thy comforts to sustaine my heart, thy mercies to preuent me, accompany me, and follow me while here I liue; and after this life translate me to that place, where all teares shall be wipt from mine eies, where there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, neither crying, neither shall there be any more paine, there in the company of all Saints [Page 287] and congregation of the first borne that are written in he [...], [...]y thy bright and blessed-mak [...]ng [...]ig [...]t, and to raigne with thee for all [...]ge [...] through thy sonne Iesus Christ.
FINIS. Triunni Deo Gloria.
The first Heads or Grounds of the Exposition following. The Creed.
I Beleeue in God,]
1. ACknowledging that hee is but one.
2. Applying him to my selfe.
3. Relying on his helpe.
The Father,]
Almightie,]
Maker of Heauen and Earth,]
And in Iesus; which saueth vs,]
Christ, annointed vnto vs,]
His onely Sonne,]
Our Lord,]
Which was conceiued by the Holy Ghost;]
Borne of the Ʋirgin Mary,]
A thing.
Suffered,]
Ʋnder Pontius Pilate,]
Was Crucified,]
Dead,]
Buried,]
He descended into Hell,]
The third day he rose againe from the dead,]
He ascended into Heauen,]
And sitteth on the right hand of God the father almighty,]
From thence he shall come,]
To iudge both the quicke and the dead]
I beleeue in the holy Ghost,]
I beleeue the Church,]
Holie,]
Catholique,]
The communion of Saints,]
which consists,
The forgiuenesse of sinnes,]
The resurrection of the body,]
And the life euerlasting,]