RESOLVED MEDITATIONS AND Premeditated resolutions.
IT is the over curious ambition of many, to be best or to be none: if [Page 2] they may not doe so well as they would, they will not doe so well as they may. I will doe my best to doe the best, and what I want in power, supply in will. Thus whils I pay in part, I shall not bee a debtor for all. Hee owes most that payes nothing.
PRide is the greatest enemy to reason, and discretion the greatest opposite to pride. For whiles wisdome makes art the ape of nature, [Page 3] pride makes nature the ape of art. The Wiseman shapes his apparell to his body, the proud man shapes his body by this apparell. 'Tis no marvell than, if hee know not himselfe, when hee is not to day, like him he was yesterday: and lesse marvell, if good men will not know him, when hee forgets himselfe, and all goodnesse. I should feare, whilest I thus change my shape, least my maker should change his opinion: and finding mee not like him hee [Page 4] made mee, reject mee, as none of his making. I would any day put off the old cause of my apparell, but not every day put on new fashioned apparell. I see great reason, to bee ashamed of my pride, but no reason, to bee proud of my shame.
THe reason that many men want their desires, is, because their desires want reason. Hee may doe what hee will, [Page 5] that will doe but what he may.
I Should marvell that the Covetous man can still bee poore, when the rich man is still covetous, but that I see, a poore man can bee content, when the contented man is onely rich: the one wanting in his store, whiles the other is stored in his wants. I see then, wee are not rich or poore, by what wee possesse, but by what we desire. For [Page 6] hee is not rich that hath much, but hee that hath enough: nor hee poore that hath but little, but hee that wants more. If GOD then make mee rich by store, I will not impoverish my selfe by covetousnesse: but if hee make mee poore by want, I will inrich my selfe by content.
HYpocrisie desires to seeme good rather than to be so: honestie desires to bee good rather [Page 7] than seeme so. The worldlings purchase reputation by the sale of desert, wisemen buy desert, with the hazard of reputation. I would do much to heare well, more to deserve well, and rather loose opinion then merit. It shall more joy mee, that I know my selfe what I am, than it shall grieve me to heare what others report mee. I had rather deserve well without praise, than doe ill with commendation.
[Page 8] A Coward in the field is like the Wisemans foole: his heart is at his mouth, and hee doth not know what hee does professe: but a Coward in his faith, is like a foole in his wisedome; his mouth is in his heart, and hee dares not professe what hee does know. I had rather not know the good I should doe, than not do the good I know. It is better to be beaten with few stripes, than with many.
[Page 9] EAch true Christian is a right traveller: his life his walke, CHRIST his way, and Heaven his home. His walke painefull, his way perfect, his home pleasing. I will not loyter, least I come short of home: I will not wander, least I come wide of home, but bee content to travell hard, and be sure walke right, so shall my safe way find its end at home, and my painefull walke make my home welcome.
[Page 10] AS is a wound to the body; so is a sinfull body to the soule: the body indangered till the wound bee cured, the soule not sound till the bodies sinne bee healed, and the wound of neither can be cured without dressing, nor dressed without smarting. Now as the smart of the wound, is recompensed by the cure of the body: so is the punishment of the body sweetned by the health of the soule. [Page 11] Let my wound smart by dressing, rather than my bodie die; Let my body smart by correction, rather than my soule perish.
IT is some hope of goodnesse not to grow worse: It is a part of badnesse not to grow better. I will take heed of quenching the sparke, and strive to kindle a fire. If I have the goodnesse. I should, it is not too much, why should I make it lesse? If I [Page 12] keepe the goodnesse I have 'tis not enough: Why doe I not make it more? Hee ne're was so good as hee should bee, that doth not strive to be better than he is: He never will be better than he is, that doth not feare to bee worse than hee was.
HEalth may be injoyed; sicknesse must be indured: one body is the object of both, one GOD the Author of both. If then hee give [Page 13] mee health, I will thankfully enjoy it, and not thinke it too good, since it is his mercy that bestowes it: if hee fend sickenesse, I will patiently indure it, and not thinke it too great, since it is my sinne that deserves it. If in health; I will strive to preserve it by praising of him: if in sickenesse; I will strive to remove it, by praying to him. Hee shall bee my GOD in sicknesse and in health, and my trust shall bee in him in health and in sicknesse. So in my health.
[Page 14] I shall not need to feare sicknesse, nor in any sicknesse despaire of health.
IT is the usuall plea of poverty to blame mis-fortune, when the ill-finished cause of complaint is a worke of their owne forging. I will either make my fortunes good, or bee content they are no worse. If they are not so good, as I would they should have beene, they are not so bad, as I know they might have beene. What [Page 15] though I am not so happy as I desire? 'Tis well I am not so wretched as I deserve.
THere is nothing to be gotten by the worlds love, nothing to bee loft (but its love) by its hate, Why then should I seeke that love that cannot profit mee, or feare that malice that cannot hurt mee? If I should love it, for loving mee, GOD would hate mee, for loving it, If I loath it for hating [Page 16] mee, it cannot hurt mee for loathing it. Let it then hate mee, and I will forgive it, but if it love me, I will never requite it. For since its love is hurtfull, and its hate harmelesse, I will contemne its hate, and hate its love.
AS there is a folly in wit, so there is a wisdome in ignorance. I would not bee ignorant in a necessary knowledge, nor wise above wis [...]dome. If I know [Page 17] enough I am wise enough, If I seeke more I am foolish.
ITs no marvell that man hath lost his rule over the creature, when hee would not bee ruled by the will of the Creator. Why should they feare man, when man would not obey GOD? I could wish no creature had power to hurt mee, I am glad so many creatures are ordained to helpe me. If GOD allow enough to serve me, [Page 18] I will not expect that all should feare me.
NO affliction (for the time) seemes joyous, all time in affliction seemes tedious. I will compare my miseries on earth with my joyes in heaven, and the length of my miseries, with its eternity, so shall my journey seeme short; and my burthen easie.
[Page 19] THere is nothing more certaine than death, nothing more uncertaine than the time of dying. I will therefore bee prepared for that at all times, which may come at any time, must come at one time or another. I shall not hasten my death by being still ready, but sweeten it. It makes me not die the sooner, but bee the better.
[Page 20] THe commendation of a bad thing, is his shortnesse, of a good thing its continuance: it were happie for the damned, if their torments knew end, 'tis happier for the Saints that their joyes are eternall. If man, that is borne of a woman, bee full of misery, 'tis well that hee hath but a short time to live; if his life be a walke of paine, its a blessing, that his daies are but a spanne-long. [Page 21] Happie miseries that end in joy: happie joyes that know no end: happie end that dissolves to eternity.
HAd I not more confidence in the truth of my Saviour, than in the traditions of men, povertie might stagger my faith, and bring my thoughts into a perplexed Purgatorie. Wherein are the poore blessed, if pardon shall bee purchased onely by expense? Or how is it [Page 22] hard for a rich man to enter into heaven, if money may buy out the past, present and future sinnes of himselfe, his deceased and succeeding progeny? If Heaven bee thus fold, what benefit has my poverty, by the price already paid? I finde no happinesse in Roome on earth, 'Tis happinesse for mee to have Roome in heaven.
[Page 23] THere is no estate of life so happie in this world, as to yeeld a Christian the perfection of content: and yet there is no estate of life so wretched in this world, but a Christian must bee content with it. Though I can have nothing heere that may give mee true content, yet I will learne to bee truely contented heere with what I have What care I though I have not much (If I [Page 24] have enough) I have as much as I desire. If I have as much as I want, I have as much as the most, if I have as much as I desire.
IT is the greatest of all sinnes alway to continue in sinne. For where the custome of sinning waxeth greater, the conscience for sinne growes the lesse: it is easier to quench a sparke, then a fire; I had rather breake the [Page 25] Cockatrices egg, then kill the Serpent. O daughter of Babylon, happie shall hee bee that taketh thy children whilest they are young and dasheth them against the stones.
NAture bids mee love my selfe and hate all that hurt mee, Reason bids me love my friends and hate those that envie mee, Religion bids mee love all and hate none. Nature sheweth care, Reason [Page 26] wit, Religion love. Nature may induce me, Reason perswade mee, but Religion shall rule mee. I will hearken to Nature in much, to Reason in more, to Religion in all. Nature shall make mee carefull of my selfe, but hatefull to none; Reason shall make mee wise for my selfe but harmelesse to all; Religion shall make mee loving to all, but not carelesse of my selfe. I may heare the former, I will hearken onely to the later. I subscribe to [Page 27] some things in all, to all things in Religion.
ABundance is a trouble, want a misery, honour a burthen, basenesse a scorne, advancements dangerous, disgrace odious. Onely a Competent estate yeelds the quiet of content. I will not climbe, least I fall, nor lye in the ground, least I am trod on. I am safest whiles my legges beare me. A competent heate [Page 28] is most helthfull for my body, I would desire neither to freeze nor to burne.
A Large promise without performance is like a false fire to a great Peece, which dischargeth a good expectation with a bad report. I will fore-thinke what I will promise, that I may promise but what I will doe. Thus whilest my words are led by my thoughts, and followed by my actions, [Page 29] I shall bee carefull in my promises, and just in their performance. I had rather doe and not promise, than promise and not doe.
THE good-meaner hath two tongues, the Hypocrite a double tongue. The good mans heart speakes without his tongue, the Hypocrites tongue without his heart. The good man hath oftentimes GOD in his [Page 30] heart, when in his mouth there is no GOD mentioned: the Hypocrite hath GOD often in his mouth, when the foole hath said in his heart there is no GOD. I may soonest heare the tongue, but safest the heart, the tongue speaketh lowdest, but the heart truest.
THe speech of the tongue is best known to men: GOD best understands the language of the heart: the heart [Page 31] without the tongue may pierce the eares of heaven, the tongue without the heart speakes an unknowne language. No marvell then if the desires of the poore are heard, when the prayers of the wicked are unregarded. I had rather speake three words in a speech that God knowes, then pray three houres in a language hee understands not.
[Page 32] MEditation is the wombe of our actions, Action the midwife of our Meditations. A good and perfect conception, if it want strength for the birth, perisheth in the wombe of the minde, and, if it may be said to bee borne, it must be said to be stillborne: a bad and imperfect conception, if it hath the happinesse of a birth, yet the minde is but delivered of a burthen of imperfections, in the [Page 33] perfection of deformity, which may beg with the criple at the gate of the Temple, or perisheth through its imperfections. If I meditate what's good to be done, and doe not the good I have meditated, I loose my labour, and make curst my knowledge. If I doe the thing that is good, and intend not that good that I doe, it is a good action, but not well done. Others may injoy some benefit, I deserve no commendations. Resolution without action is a sloathfull folly, [Page 34] Action without resolution is a foolish rashnesse. First know whats good to be done, then do that good being knowne. If forecast be not better than labour, labour is not good without forecast. I would not have my actions done without knowledge, nor against it.
IT is the folly of affection not to comprehend my erring friend, for feare of his anger: it is the abstract of folly, to [Page 35] be angry with my friend, for my errors reprehension. I were not a friend, if I should see my friend out of the way, and not advise him: I were unworthy to have a friend, if hee should advise mee (being out of the way) and I bee angry with him. Rather let mee have my friends anger than deserve it; rather let the righteous smite mee friendly by reproofe, than the pretious oyle of flatterie, or connivence, breake my head. It is a folly to flie illwill, [Page 36] by giving a just cause of hatred. I thinke him a truer friend that deserves my love, than he that desires it.
WHen Children meet with primroses, nuts, or apples in their way, I see those pleasures are oftimes occasions to make them loyter in their errands, so that they are sure to have their Parents displeasure, and oftimes their late retunre findes a [Page 37] barr'd entrance to their home, whereas those who meete with dangers in the way, make haste in their journey, and their speede makes them welcomed, with commendation. Nature hath sent mee abroad into the world, and I am every day travelling homeward: If I meete with store of miseries in my way, discretion shall teach mee a religious haste in my journey: And if I meete with pleasures, they shall pleasure mee onely by putting mee [Page 38] in minde of my pleasures at home, which shall teach me to scorne these, as worse than trifles. I will never more reckon a troublesome life, a curse, but a blessing. A pleasant journey is deere bought with the losse of home.
VVHen I see the fisher bait his hook, I think on Sathans subtile malice, who sugars over his poysoned hookes with seeming. [Page 39] pleasures. Thus Eves apple was canded with divine knowledge, yee shall bee as Gods knowing good and evill. When I see the fish fast hang'd, I thinke upon the covetous Worldling, who leapes at the profit without considering the danger. Thus Achan takes the gold and the garment and ne're considers that his life must answer it. If Sathan be such a fisher of men, its good to looke before wee leape. Honey may bee eaten, so that wee take heede of the sting: [Page 40] I will honestly injoy my delights, but not buy them with danger.
I See, when I have but a short journey to travell, I am quickly at home, soone out of the paine of my travell, soone into the possession of my rest. If my life be but my walke, and heaven my home, why should I desire a long journey? Indeed knowing my home so pleasant, I would not bee weary with a long [Page 41] walke, but yet the shorter my journey, the sooner my rest.
I Cannot see two sawyers worke at the pit, but they put mee in minde of the Pharisee and the Publican: the one casts his eye upward, whiles his actions tend to the pit infernall: the other standing with a dejected Countenance, whiles his hands and heart move upward. 'Tis not a shame to make [Page 42] shew of our profession, so we truely professe what wee make shew of: But of the two, I had rather bee good, and not seeme so, than seeme good, and not bee so. The Publican went home to his house rather justified then the Pharisee.
WHen I thinke on the Eagles carying up of the shell-fish into the ayre, onely to the end hee may breake [Page 43] him by his fall, it puts mee in minde of the divellish costly courtesies, who out of the bountie of his subtilty, is still ready to advance us to destruction. Thus more then once hee dealt with my Redeemer, no sooner had hee rais'd him to the top of an high pinacle, but straight followes, cast thy selfe downe; and having placed him on an high mountaine, let him fall downe and hee shall bee largely rewarded with his owne. If advancement be so dangerous, [Page 44] I will take heed of being ambitious. Any estate shall give mee content: I am high enough if I can stand upright.
WHen I see leaves drop from their trees, in the beginning of Autumne, just such thinke I, is the friendship of the world. Whiles the sap of maintenance lasts, my friends swarme in abundance, but in the winter of my need, they leave me naked. [Page 45] Hee is an happie man that hath a true friend at his need: but hee is more truely happie that hath no need of his friend.
I Should wonder, that the unsatiable desires of ambition can finde no degree of content, but that I see they seeke a perfection of honour on earth, when the fulnesse of glory is onely in heaven. The honour on earth is full of degrees, but no degree [Page 46] admits a perfection: Whereas the glory of heaven admits of degrees, but each degree affoords a fullnesse. Heere, one may bee lower then another in honour, and yet the highest want a glory: There, though one Starre differs from another in glory, yet in the fullnesse of glory they all shine as Starres. Heere, the greatest may want, there the least hath enough: Heere, all the earth may not bee enough for one; There, one heaven is enough [Page 47] for all. LORD let me rather be least there, without honour heere, then the greatest heere, without glory there. I had rather bee a dorekeeper in that house, then a ruler in these tents.
WHen I see the heavenly sun buried under earth in the evening of the day, and in the morning to finde a resurrection to his glory, Why (thinke I) may not the sonnes of heaven, [Page 48] buried in the earth, in the evening of their daies, expect the morning of their glorious Resurrection? Each night is but the pastdayes funerall, and the morning his Resurrection: Why then should our funerall sleepe bee other then our sleepe at night? Why should we not as well awake to our Resurrection, as in the morning? I see night is rather an intermission of day, then a deprivation, and death rather borrowes our life of us then robbs us of it. [Page 49] Since then the glory of the sunne findes a Resurrection, why should not the sonnes of glory? Since a dead man may live againe, I will not so much looke for an end of my life, as waite for the comming of my change.
I See, that candle yeelds mee small benefit at day, which at night much steeds mee: and I know, the cause is not because the candles light was lesse [Page 50] at day, but because the daies light is lesse in the evening. As my friends love to mee, so mine to my friend may bee at all times alike; but wee best see it, when wee most need it: and that, not because our love is then greater, but our want. Though then I welcome a courtesie according to my want, yet I will value a courtesie according to its worth. That my fortunes need not my friends courtesie, is my happinesse: should my happinesse sleight my [Page 51] friends courtesie, 'twere my folly.
I See that candle makes small shew in the day which at night yeelds a glorious lustre, not because the candle has then more light, but because the ayre hath then more darkenesse. How prejudiciall then is that ambition, which makes mee seeme lesse then I am, by presuming to make mee greater then I should bee. They whose glory [Page 52] shines as the sparkes amongst stubble, loose their light, if compared to the Sonne of glory. I will not seat my selfe higher then my place, least I should bee disgraced to an humility, but if I place my selfe lower then my seat, I may be advanced to the honour of, friend sit up higher. I had rather bee exalted by my humility, then be brought low by my exaltation.
[Page 53] I See that candle which is as a sunne in the darkenesse, is but as a darkenesse in the sunne; the candle not more lightning the nights darkenesse, then the sunne darkning the candles light. I will take heed then of contention, especially with great ones. As I may bee too strong for the weaker; so I must bee too weake for the stronger. I cannot so easily vanquish mine inferiors, [Page 54] but my superiors may as easily conquer mee: I will doe much to bee at peace with all men, but suffer much ere I contend with a mighty man.
I See when I follow my shadow it flies me, When I flie my shadow it followes mee: I know pleasures are but shadowes, which hold no longer then the sunshine of my fortunes. Least then my pleasures should forsake mee, I will forsake [Page 55] them. Pleasure most flies me when I most follow it.
IT is not good to speake evill of all whom wee know bad: it is worse to judge evill of any, who may prove good. To speake ill upon knowledge, shewes a want of charity: to speake ill upon suspition shewes a want of honesty. I will not speake so bad as I know of many: I will not speake worse [Page 56] then I know of any. To know evill by others, and not speake it, is sometimes discretion: to speake evill by others, and not know it, is alway dishonesty. Hee may bee evill himselfe who speakes good of others upon knowledge, but hee can never bee good himselfe, who speakes evill of others upon suspition.
[Page 57] A Bad great one is a great bad one. For the greatnesse of an evill man, makes the mans evill the greater. It is the unhappie priviledge of authority, not so much to act, as teach wickednesse, and by a liberall crueltie, to make the offenders sinne not more his owne then others. Each fault in a leader is not so much a crime, as a rule for error: And their vices are [Page 58] made, (if not warrants, yet) presidents for evill. To sinne by prescription, is as usuall as damnable: and men run poast in their journey, when they goe to the divell with authority. When then the vices of the rulers of others, are made the rules for vices to others, the offences of all great ones must needs bee the greatest of all offences. Either then let mee bee great in goodnesse, or else it were good for mee to bee without greatnesse. My owne [Page 59] sinnes are a burthen too heavie for mee, why then should I lade my selfe with others offences.
To speake all that is true, is the property of fooles: to speake more then is true, is the folly of—too many. Hee that spends all that is his owne, is an unthrifty prodigall: Hee that spends more then is his owne, is a dishonest unthrift. I may sometimes know [Page 60] what I will not utter, I must never utter what I doe not know. I should bee loath to have my tongue so large as my heart, I would scorne to have my heart lesse then my tongue. For if to speake all that I know, shewes too much folly, to speake more then I know shewes too little honesty.
IT is the ambitious folly of too many, to [Page 61] imitate rather greatnesse then goodnesse. They will sooner follow the example of their Lord, then the precepts of their GOD. I will alway honour greatnesse, I will onely imitate goodnesse: and rather doe good without a patterne, then commit evill in imitation. 'Tis better to bee saved without a president, then to bee damn'd by example.
[Page 62] THere is no security in evill society, where the good are often made worse, the bad seldome better. For it is the peevish industry of wickednesse, to finde, or make a fellow. 'Tis like, they will bee birds of a feather, that use to flocke together. For such commonly doth their conversation make us, as they are with whom wee use to converse. [Page 63] I cannot bee certaine, not to meet with evill company, but I will bee carefull, not to keepe with evill company. I would willingly sort my selfe with such, as should either teach, or learne goodnesse: and if my companion cannot make mee better, nor I him good, I will rather leave him ill, then hee shall make me worse.
[Page 64] TO teach goodnesse is the greatest praise, to learne goodnesse, the greatest profit. Though he bee wisest that can teach, yet he that doth learne is wiser. I will not therefore be unwilling to teach, nor ashamed to learne. I cannot bee so ignorant, but I may learne somewhat, nor so wise but I may teach more, I will therefore teach what I know, and learne what I know not. Though [Page 65] it be a greater praise to teach, then to learne, yet it is a lesser shame to learne then to be ignorant.
AS there is a misery in want, so there is a danger in excesse. I would therefore desire neither more, nor lesse, then enough. I may as well die of a surfet, as of hunger.
[Page 66] IT is the apish nature of many, to follow rather example then precepts: but it would bee the safest course of all, to learne rather by precept then example. For ther's many a good Divine that cannot learne his owne teaching. It is easier to say this doe, then to doe it. When therefore. I see good doctrine with an evill life, I may pittie the one, but I will practise [Page 67] onely the other. The good sayings belong to all, the evill actions onely to their authors.
THere are two things necessary for a traveller, to bring him to the end of his journey: a knowledge of his way, a perseverance in his walke. If hee walke in a wrong way, the faster he goes the further he is from home: if he sit still in a right way, he may know his home, but ne're come [Page 68] to it: Discreet stayes make speedie journeyes. I will first then know my way, ere I begin my walke: the knowledge of my way is a good part of my journey. Hee that faints in the execution looseth the glory of the action. I will therefore not onely know my way, but also goe on in my way: I had rather my journey should want a beginning, then come to an untimely end. If heaven bee my home, and CHRIST my way, I will learne to [Page 69] know my way, ere I haste to travell to my home. Hee that runs hastily in a way hee knowes not, may come speedily to an home he loves not. If CHRIST be my way, and heaven my home, I will rather indure my painefull walke, then want my perfect rest. I more esteeme my home then my journey; my actions shall bee led by knowledge, my knowledge be followed by my actiions. Ignorance is a bad mother to devotion, and idlenesse a bad steward to [Page 70] to knowledge.
I Cannot but wonder at the folly of those hearts, who are like to kill themselves with the feare of dying, making the newes of an insuing mischiefe, a worse mischiefe then that they have newes of: whereas the fore-knowledge of an approaching evill, is a benefit of no small good. For if it cannot teach us to prevent it by providence, [Page 71] it may shew us, how to sustaine it by patience. I may grieve with the smart of an evill, as soone as I feele it: But I will not smart with the griefe of an evill as soone as I heare of it. My evill when it commeth may make my griefe too great, why then should my griefe before it comes make my evill greater?
[Page 72] AS I see in the body, so I know in the soule, they are oft most desperately sicke, who are least sensible of their disease: whereas hee that feares each light wound▪ for mortall, seekes a timely cure, and is healed. I will not reckon it my happinesse, that I have many sores, but since I have them, I am glad they greeve mee. I know the cure is not the more dangerous, [Page 73] because my wounds are more grievous; I should be more sicke if I plained lesse.
IT is one, not of the least evills; not to avoid the appearance of evill, which oft makes the innocent justly punished with undeserved suspition. I would desire to bee thought good, but yet I had rather be so. It is no small happinesse to be free from suspicion, but a greater to bee void of offence. I [Page 74] would willingly be neither evill nor suspected: but of the two I had rather be suspected and not deserve it, then deserve evill and not be suspected.
I Know but one way to heaven, I have but one Mediator in heaven, even one Christ: and yet I heare of more Waies, more Mediators. Are there then more Christs? Are the Lords waies as your waies that wee must goe to the King of heaven as [Page 75] unto a King on earth? Or if wee must, yet if my King bid me come shall I send an other? If he bid me come unto him, shall I goe unto another? If he bid me aske for peace onely in the name of the Prince of peace, why should I mention the Lady Mary? If I shall be heard onely in the name of his sonne, why should I use the name of his servants? Were it a want of manners, or a want of obedience to come when I am bid? Is another better, or am I too [Page 76] good to goe in mine owne errands to the Almighty? Because the sonne was worse used then the servants on earth, shall the servants therefore bee sooner heard then the Sonne in heaven? There are still unjust Husbandmen in the Lords vineyard, who not onely abuse the servants, but kill againe the Sonne, and rob him of his due inheritance. When the LORD therefore of the Vineyard commeth, what will he doe to these Husbandmen? I doe not envie [Page 77] your glory yee Saints of GOD, yet I will not attribute the glory of my GOD to his Saints. How shall my GOD glorifie mee, if I should give his glory to another?
TO be without passion is worse then a beast, to be without reason, is to bee lesse then a man. Since I can be without neither, I am blessed, in that I have both. For, if it bee not against reason to be passionate, I will [Page 78] not be passionate against reason. I will both greeve and joy, if I have reason for it, but not joy nor grieve above reason. I will so joy at my good as not to take evill by my joy: so grieve at any evill as not to increase my evill by my griefe. For it is not a folly to have passion, but to want reason. I would bee neither senselesse, nor beastly.
[Page 79] IT is the folly of wit in some, to take paines to trimme their labours in obscurity. It is the ignorance of learning in others, to labour to devest their paine by bluntnesse; the one thinking hee never speakes wisely, till he goes beyond his owne, and all mens understandings: the other thinking hee never speakes plainely, till hee dive beneath the shallowest apprehension. I as little affect curiosity [Page 80] in the one, as I care for the affectation of baldnesse in the other. I would not have the pearle of heavens kingdome so curiously set in gold, as that the art of the workeman should hide the beauty of the jewell: nor yet so sleightly valued, as to be set in lead: or so beastly used as to be slubbered with durt. I know the pearle (how ever placed) still retaines its vertue, yet I had rather have it set in gold, then seeke it in a dunghill. Neat apparell is an ornament [Page 81] to the body, but a disgrace, if either proud or slovenly.
I See corruption so largely rewarded, that I doubt not, but I should thrive in the world, could I but get a dispensation of my conscience for the liberty of trading. A little flattery would get mee a great deale of favour, and I could buy a world of this worlds love, with the sale of this little trifle Honestie. Were this [Page 82] world my home, I might perhaps be trading: but alas, these merchandize yeeld lesse then nothing in heaven. I would willingly be at quiet with the world, but rather at peace with my conscience. The love of men is good, whiles it lasteth, the love of GOD is better being everlasting. Let me then trade for those heavenly marchandize: if I finde these other in my way, they are a great deale more then I looke for, and (within little) more then I care for.
[Page 83] AS faith is the evidence of things not seene: so things that are seene are the perfecting of faith. I beleeve a tree will be greene, when I see him leavelesse in winter: I know he is greene when I see him flourishing in summer. It was a fault in Thomas not to beleeve till he did see. It were a madnesse in him not to beleeve when he did see. Beleefe may somtime exceed reason, not oppose it, and faith be often [Page 84] above sense not against it. Thus whiles faith doth assure mee that I eate CHRIST effectually, sense must assure me that I taste bread really. For though I oftentimes see not those things that I beleeve, yet I must still beleeve those things that I see.
THere is none so innocent as not to be evill spoken of, none so wicked as to want all commendation. There are too many who condemne the [Page 85] just, and not a few who justifie the wicked. I oft heare both envie and flattery speaking falsehoods of my selfe, to my selfe, and may not the like tongues performe the liketaskes, of others to others? I will know Others by what they doe themselves, but not learn my selfe by what I heare of others. I will be carefull of mine own actions, not credulous of others relations.
[Page 86] THe Crosse is but a signe of CHRIST crucified, CHRIST crucified the substance of this Crosse. The signe without the substance is as nothing, the substance without the signe is all things. I hate not the signe, though I adore but the substance. I will not blaspheme the Crosse of CHRIST, I will not worship but CHRIST crucified. I will take up my Crosse, I will love [Page 87] my Crosse, I will beare my Crosse, I will imbrace my Crosse, yet not adore my Crosse. All knees shall bend in reverence to his name, mine never bow in idolatry to his image.
IT is the nature of man to be proud, when man by nature hath nothing to be proud of. Hee more adorneth the Creature, then he adoreth the Creator▪ and makes, not onely his belly his God, [Page 88] but his body. I am ashamed of their glory, whose glory is their shame. If nature will needs have me to bee proud of something, I will bee proud onely of this, that I am proud of nothing.
AS the Giver of all things, so each receiver loveth a cheerefull giver. For a bargaine is valued by the worth of the thing bought, but a gift by the [Page 89] minde of the party giving: which made the widowes mite of more worth, then the riches of superfluitie. I see then, he gives not best that gives most, but he gives most, that gives best. If then I cannot give bountifully, yet I will give freely, and what I want in my hand, supply by my heart. Hee gives well that gives willingly.
[Page 90] I See at a feast, that others seed heartily on that dish which perhaps would not suite with my appetite, whilest I make as good a meale on those cates, that perhaps their palats could not relish. I will not therefore thinke I doe well because my actions please not others, nor bee confident that my actions are good, because my doings please my selfe: but bee [Page 91] more carefull to provide what is good at a feast, then what's delightfull: and more study to expresse what is honest in my actions, then what's pleasing. So, if sicke stomackes cannot relish my sound meates, the fault shall light on their ill appetites: and if unseasoned judgements like not my honest intentions, the fault shall fall on their ill relished apprehensions. It would please mee well to have praise when I deserve it; [Page 92] but joy mee more to deserve praise when I have it.