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                  <title type="main">Felix Holt, The Radical</title>
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         <div type="Introduction">
            <head>Introduction</head>
            <pb n="75"/>
            <p>FIVE-AND-THIRTY years ago the glory had not yet 
departed from the old coach-roads; the great roadside inns 
were still brilliant with well-polished tankards, the smiling 
glances of pretty barmaids, and the repartees of jocose 
ostlers; the mail still announced itself by the merry notes 
of the horn; the hedge-cutter or the rick-thatcher might still 
know the exact hour by the unfailing yet otherwise meteoric 
apparition of the peagreen Tally-ho or the yellow 
Independent; and elderly gentlemen in pony-chaises, quartering 
nervously to make way for the rolling swinging swiftness, 
had not ceased to remark that times were finely changed 
since they used to see the pack-horses and hear the tinkling 
of their bells on their very highway. 
</p>
            <p>In those days there were pocket boroughs, a Birmingham 
unrepresented in parliament and compelled to make strong 
representations out of it, unrepealed corn laws, 
three-and-sixpenny letters, a brawny and many-breeding pauperism, 
and other departed evils; but there were some pleasant 
things too, which have also departed. Non omnia grandior 
aetas quae fugiamus habet, says the wise goddess: you have 
not the best of it in all things, O youngsters! the elderly 
man has his enviable memories, and not the least of them 
is the memory of a long journey in mid-spring or autumn 
on the outside of a stage-coach. Posterity may be shot, like 
a bullet through a tube, by atmospheric pressure from 
Winchester to Newcastle: that is a fine result to have among 
our hopes; but the slow old-fashioned way of getting from 
one end of our country to the other is the better thing to 
have in the memory. The tube-journey can never lend much 
to picture and narrative; it is as barren as an exclamatory 
O! Whereas the happy outside passenger seated on the box <pb n="76"/>
from the dawn to the gloaming gathered enough stories of 
English life, enough of English labours in town and country, 
enough aspects of earth and sky, to make episodes for a 
modern Odyssey. Suppose only that his journey took him 
through that central plain, watered at one extremity by the 
Avon, at the other by the Trent. As the morning silvered 
the meadows with their long lines of bushy willows 
marking the watercourses, or burnished the golden com-ricks 
clustered near the long roofs of some midland homestead, 
he saw the full-uddered cows driven from their pasture to 
the early milking. Perhaps it was the shepherd, head-servant 
of the farm, who drove them, his sheep-dog following with 
a heedless unofficial air of a beadle in undress. The shepherd 
with a slow and slouching walk, timed by the walk of 
grazing beasts, moved aside, as if unwillingly, throwing out a 
monosyllabic hint to his cattle; his glance, accustomed to 
rest on things very near the earth, seemed to lift itself with 
difficulty to the coachman. Mail or stage coach for him 
belonged to that mysterious distant system of things called 
'Goverment', which, whatever it might be, was no business 
of his, any more than the most out-lying nebula or the 
coal-sacks of the southern hemisphere: his solar system was the 
parish; the master's temper and the casualties of 
lambing-time were his region of storms. He cut his bread and bacon 
with his pocket-knife, and felt no bittemess except in the 
matter of pauper labourers and the bad-luck that sent 
contrarious seasons and the sheep-rot. He and his cows were 
soon left behind, and the homestead too, with its pond 
overhung by elder-trees, its untidy kitchen-garden and 
cone-shaped yew-tree arbour. But everywhere the bushy 
hedgerows wasted the land with their straggling beauty, 
shrouded the grassy borders of the pastures with cat-kined 
hazels, and tossed their long blackberry branches on the 
cornfields. Perhaps they were white with May, or starred 
with pale pink dogroses; perhaps the urchins were already 
nutting amongst them, or gathering the plenteous crabs. It 
was worth the journey only to see those hedgerows, the <pb n="77"/>
liberal homes of unmarketable beauty — of the 
purple-blossomed ruby-berried nightshade, of the wild convulvulus 
climbing and spreading in tendrilled strength till it made 
a great curtain of pale-green hearts and white trumpets, of 
the many-tubed honeysuckle which, in its most delicate 
fragrance, hid a charm more subtle and penetrating than 
beauty. Even if it were winter the hedgerows showed their 
coral, the scarlet haws, the deep-crimson hips, with 
lingering brown leaves to make a resting-place for the jewels of 
the hoar-frost. Such hedgerows were often as tall as the 
labourers' cottages dotted along the lanes, or clustered into 
a small hamlet, their little dingy windows telling, like 
thick-filmed eyes, of nothing but the darkness within. The 
passenger on the coach-box, bowled along above such a hamlet, 
saw chiefly the roofs of it: probably it turned its back on the 
road, and seemed to lie away from everything but its own 
patch of earth and sky, away from the parish church by 
long fields and green lanes, away from all intercourse except 
that of tramps. If its face could be seen, it was most likely 
dirty; but the dirt was Protestant dirt, and the big, bold, 
gin-breathing tramps were Protestant tramps. There was no 
sign of superstition near, no crucifix or image to indicate a 
misguided reverence: the inhabitants were probably so free 
from superstition that they were in much less awe of the 
parson than of the overseer. Yet they were saved from the 
excesses of Protestantism by not knowing how to read, and 
by the absence of handlooms and mines to be the pioneers 
of Dissent: they were kept safely in the via media of 
indifference, and could have registcred themsclves in the 
census by a big black mark as members of the Church of 
England. 
</p>
            <p>But there were trim cheerful villages too, with a neat or 
handsome parsonage and grey church set in the midst; 
there was the pleasant tinkle of the blacksmith's anvil, the 
patient cart-horses waiting at his door; the basket-maker 
peeling his willow wands in the sunshine; the wheelwright 
putting the last touch to a blue cart with red wheels; here <pb n="78"/>
and there a cottage with bright transparent windows 
showing pots of blooming balsams or geraniums, and little 
gardens in front all double daisies or dark wallflowers; at the 
well, clean and comely women carrying yoked buckets, and 
towards the free school small Britons dawdling on, and 
handling their marbles in the pockets of unpatched 
corduroys adorned with brass buttons. The land around was 
rich and marly, great corn-stacks stood in the rickyards — 
for the rick-burners had not found their way hither; the 
homesteads were those of rich fammers who paid no rent, 
or had the rare advantage of a lease, and could afford to 
keep their corn till prices had risen. The coach would be 
sure to overtake some of them on their way to their outlying 
fields or to the market-town, sitting heavily on their 
well-groomed horses, or weighing down one side of an olive-green 
gig. They probably thought of the coach with some 
contempt, as an accommodation for people who had not their 
own gigs, or who, wanting to travel to London and such 
distant places, belonged to the trading and less solid part 
of the nation. The passenger on the box could see that this 
was the district of protuberant optimists, sure that old 
England was the best of all possible countries, and that if there 
were any facts which had not fallen under their own 
observation, they were facts not worth observing: the district 
of clean little market-towns without manufactures, of fat 
livings, an aristocratic clergy, and low poor-rates. But as the 
day wore on the scene would change: the land would begin 
to be blackened with coal-pits, the rattle of handlooms to 
be heard in hamlets and villages. Here were powerful men 
walking queerly with knees bent outward from squatting 
in the mine, going home to throw themselves down in their 
blackened flannel and sleep through the daylight, then rise 
and spend much of their high wages at the ale-house with 
their fellows of the Benefit Club; here the pale eager faces 
of handloom-weavers, men and women, haggard from 
sitting up late at night to finish the week's work, hardly begun 
till the Wednesday. Everywhere the cottages and the small <pb n="79"/>
children were dirty, for the languid mothers gave their 
strength to the loom; pious Dissenting women, perhaps, who 
took life patiently, and thought that salvation depended 
chiefly on predestination, and not at all on cleanliness. The 
gables of Dissenting chapels now made a visible sign of 
religion, and of a meeting-place to counterbalance the 
ale-house, even in the hamlets; but if a couple of old termagants 
were seen tearing each other's caps, it was a safe conclusion 
that, if they had not received the sacraments of the Church, 
they had not at least given in to schismatic rites, and were 
free from the errors of Voluntaryism. The breath of the 
manufacturing town, which made a cloudy day and a red 
gloom by night on the horizon, diffused itself over all the 
surrounding country, filling the air with eager unrest. Here 
was a population not convinced that old England was as 
good as possible; here were multitudinous men and women 
aware that their religion was not exactly the religion of their 
rulers, who might therefore be better than they were, and 
who, if better, might alter many things which now made the 
world perhaps more painful than it need be, and certainly 
more sinful. Yet there were the grey steeples too, and the 
churchyards, with their grassy mounds and venerable 
head-stones, sleeping in the sunlight; there were broad fields and 
homesteads, and fine old woods covering a rising ground, or 
stretching far by the roadside, allowing only peeps at the 
park and mansion which they shut in from the 
working-day world. In these midland districts the traveller passed 
rapidly from one phase of English life to another: after 
looking down on a village dingy with coal-dust, noisy with 
the shaking of looms, he might skirt a parish all of fields, 
high hedges, and deep-rutted lanes; after the coach had 
rattled over the pavement of a manufacturing town, the 
scene of riots and trades-union meetings, it would take him 
in another ten minutes into a rural region, where the 
neighbourhood of the town was only felt in the advantages of a 
near market for corn, cheese, and hay, and where men with 
a considerable banking account were accustomed to say that <pb n="80"/>
'they never meddled with politics themselves'. The busy 
scenes of the shuttle and the wheel, of the roaring furnace, 
of the shaft and the pulley, seemed to make but crowded 
nests in the midst of the large-spaced, slow-moving life of 
homesteads and far-away cottages and oak-sheltered parks. 
Looking at the dwellings scattered amongst the woody flats 
and the ploughed uplands, under the low grey sky which 
overhung them with an unchanging stillness as if Time 
itself were pausing, it was easy for the traveller to conceive 
that town and country had no pulse in common, except 
where the handlooms made a far-reaching straggling fringe 
about the great centres of manufacture; that till the 
agitation about the Catholics in '29, rural Englishmen had 
hardly known more of Catholics than of the fossil mammals; 
and that their notion of Reform was a confused 
combination of rick-burners, trades-union, Nottingham riots, and 
in general whatever required the calling-out of the 
yeomanry. It was still easier to see that, for the most part, they 
resisted the rotation of crops and stood by their fallows: 
and the coachman would perhaps tell how in one parish an 
innovating farmer, who talked of Sir Humphrey Davy, 
had been fairly driven out by popular dislike, as if he had 
been a confounded Radical; and how, the parson having 
one Sunday preached from the words, 'Plough up the 
fallow-ground of your hearts', the people thought he had made 
the text out of his own head, otherwise it would never have 
come 'so pat' on a matter of business; but when they found 
it in the Bible at home, some said it was an argument for 
fallows (else why should the Bible mention fallows?), but a 
few of the weaker sort were shaken, and thought it was an 
argument that fallows should be done away with, else the 
Bible would have said, 'Let your hearts lie fallow;' and the 
next morning the parson had a stroke of apoplexy, which, 
as coincident with a dispute about fallows, so set the parish 
against the innovating farmer and the rotation of crops, 
that he could stand his ground no longer, and transferred 
his lease. <pb n="81"/>
            </p>
            <p>The coachman was an excellent travelling companion 
and commentator on the landscape; he could tell the names 
of sites and persons, and explained the meaning of groups, 
as well as the shade of Virgil in a more memorable 
journey; he had as many stories about parishes, and the men and 
women in them, as the Wanderer in the 'Excursion', only 
his style was different. His view of life had originally been 
genial, and such as became a man who was well warmed 
within and without, and held a position of easy, undisputed 
authority; but the recent initiation of railways had 
embittered him: he now, as in a perpetual vision, saw the ruined 
country strewn with shattered limbs, and regarded Mr 
Huskisson's death as a proof of God's anger against 
Stephenson. 'Why, every inn on the road would be shut 
up!' and at that word the coachman looked before him 
with the blank gaze of one who had driven his coach to the 
outermost edge of the universe, and saw his leaders plunging 
into the abyss. Still he would soon relapse from the high 
prophetic strain to the familiar one of narrative. He knew 
whose the land was wherever he drove; what noblemen had 
half-ruined themselves by gambling; who made handsome 
returns of rent; and who was at daggers-drawn with his 
eldest son. He perhaps remembered the fathers of actual 
baronets, and knew stories of their extravagant or stingy 
housekeeping; whom they had married, whom they had 
horsewhipped, whether they were particular about 
preserving their game, and whether they had had much to do with 
canal companies. About any actual landed proprietor he 
could also tell whether he was a Reformer or an 
anti-Reformer. That was a distinction which had 'turned up' in latter 
times, and along with it the paradox, very puzzling to the 
coachman's mind, that there were men of old family and 
large estate who voted for the Bill. He did not grapple with 
the paradox; he let it pass, with all the discreetness of an 
experienced theologian or learned scholiast, preferring to 
point his whip at some object which could raise no questions. 
</p>
            <p>No such paradox troubled our coachman when, leaving <pb n="82"/>
the town of Treby Magna behind him, he drove between the 
hedges for a mile or so, crossed the queer long bridge over 
the river Lapp, and then put his horses to a swift gallop up 
the hill by the low-nestled village of Little Treby, till they 
were on the fine level road, skirted on one side by grand 
larches, oaks, and wych elms, which sometimes opened so 
far as to let the traveller see that there was a park behind 
them. 
</p>
            <p>How many times in the year, as the coach rolled past the 
neglected-looking lodges which interrupted the screen of 
trees, and showed the river winding through a 
finely-timbered park, had the coachman answered the same 
questions, or told the same things without being questioned! 
That? — oh, that was Transome Court, a place there had 
been a fine sight of lawsuits about. Generations back, the 
heir of the Transome name had somehow bargained away 
the estate, and it fell to the Durfeys, very distant 
connections, who only called themselves Transomes because they 
had got the estate. But the Durfeys' claim had been disputed 
over and over again; and the coachman, if he had been 
asked, would have said, though he might have to fall down 
dead the next minute, that property didn't always get into 
the right hands. However, the lawyers had found their luck 
in it; and people who inherited estates that were lawed about 
often lived in them as poorly as a mouse in a hollow cheese; 
and, by what he could make out, that had been the way 
with these present Durfeys, or Transomes, as they called 
themselves. As for Mr Transome, he was as poor, half-witted 
a fellow as you'd wish to see; but she was master, had come 
of a high family, and had a spirit — you might see it in her 
eye and the way she sat her horse. Forty years ago, when she 
came into this country, they said she was a pictur'; but her 
family was poor, and so she took up with a hatchet-faced 
fellow like this Transome. And the eldest son had been 
just such another as his father, only worse — a wild sort of 
half-natural, who got into bad company. They said his 
mother hated him andwished him dead; for she'd got another <pb n="83"/>
son, quite of a different cut, who had gone to foreign parts 
when he was a youngster, and she wanted her favourite to 
be heir. But heir or no heir, Lawyer Jermyn had had his 
picking out of the estate. Not a door in his big house but 
what was the finest polished oak, all got off the Transome 
estate. If anybody liked to believe he paid for it, they were 
welcome. However, Lawyer Jermyn had sat on that 
box-seat many and many a time. He had made the wills of most 
people thereabout. The coachman would not say that 
Lawyer Jermyn was not the man he would choose to make 
his own will some day. It was not so well for a lawyer to be 
over-honest, else he might not be up to other people's tricks. 
And as for the Transome business, there had been ins and 
outs in time gone by, so that you couldn't look into it straight 
backward. At this Mr Sampson (everybody in North 
Loamshire knew Sampson's coach) would screw his features 
into a grimace expressive of entire neutrality, and appear 
to aim his whip at a particular spot on the horse's flank. If 
the passenger was curious for further knowledge concerning 
the Transome affairs, Sampson would shake his head and 
say there had been fine stories in his time; but he never 
condescended to state what the stories were. Some attributed 
this reticence to a wise incredulity, others to a want of 
memory, others to simple ignorance. But at least Sampson 
was right in saying that there had been fine stories — 
meaning, ironically, stories not altogether creditable to the parties 
concerned. 
</p>
            <p>And such stories often come to be fine in a sense that is 
not ironical. For there is seldom any wrong-doing which 
does not carry along with it some downfall of 
blindly-climbing hopes, some hard entail of suffering, some 
quicklysatiated desire that survives, with the life in death of old 
paralytic vice, to see itself cursed by its woeful progeny — 
some tragic mark of kinship in one brief life to the 
far-stretching life that went before, and to the life that is to 
come after, such as has raised the pity and terror of men 
ever since they began to discern between will and destiny. <pb n="84"/>
But these things are often unknown to the world; for there 
is much pain that is quite noiseless; and vibrations that make 
human agonies are often a mere whisper in the roar of 
hurrying existence. There are glances of hatred that stab 
and raise no cry of murder; robberies that leave man or 
woman for ever beggared of peace and joy, yet kept secret 
by the sufferer — committed to no sound except that of low 
moans in the night, seen in no writing except that made on 
the face by the slow months of suppressed anguish and early 
morning tears. Many an inherited sorrow that has marred 
a life has been breathed into no human ear. 
</p>
            <p>The poets have told us of a dolorous enchanted forest in 
the under world. The thorn-bushes there, and the 
thick-barked stems, have human histories hidden in them; the 
power of unuttered cries dwells in the passionless-seeming 
branches, and the red warm blood is darkly feeding the 
quivering nerves of a sleepless memory that watches through 
all dreams. These things are a parable. 
</p>
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            <head>Chapter 1</head>
            <pb n="85"/>
            <q>
               <l>He left me when the down upon his lip </l>
               <l>Lay like the shadow of a hovering kiss. </l>
               <l>'Beautiful mother, do not grieve,' he said; </l>
               <l>'I will be great, and build our fortunes high, </l>
               <l>And you shall wear the longest train at court, </l>
               <l>And look so queenly, all the lords shall say, </l>
               <l>“She is a royal changeling: there's some crown </l>
               <l>Lacks the right head, since hers wears nought but braids.” ' </l>
               <l>O, he is coming now — but I am grey; </l>
               <l>And he — </l>
            </q>
            <p>ON the 1st of September, in the memorable year 1832, some 
one was expected at Transome Court. As early as two o'clock 
in the afternoon the aged lodge-keeper had opened the heavy 
gate, green as the tree trunks were green with nature's 
powdery paint, deposited year after year. Already in the 
village of Little Treby, which lay on the side of a steep hill 
not far off the lodge gates, the elder matrons sat in their best 
gowns at the few cottage doors bordering the road, that they 
might be ready to get up and make their curtsy when a 
travelling carriage should come in sight; and beyond the 
village several small boys were stationed on the lookout, 
intending to run a race to the barn-like old church, where the 
sexton waited in the belfry ready to set the one bell in joyful 
agitation just at the right moment. 
</p>
            <p>The old lodge-keeper had opened the gate and left it in the 
charge of his lame wife, because he was wanted at the Court 
to sweep away the leaves, and perhaps to help in the stables. 
For though Transome Court was a large mansion, built in 
the fashion of Queen Anne's time, with a park and grounds 
as fine as any to be seen in Loamshire, there were very few 
servants about it. Especially, it seemed, there must be a lack 
of gardeners; for, except on the terrace surrounded with a 
stone parapet in front of the house, where there was a 
parterre kept with some neatness, grass had spread itself over <pb n="86"/>
the gravel walks, and over all the low mounds once carefully 
cut as black beds for the shrubs and larger plants. Many of 
the windows had the shutters closed, and under the grand 
Scotch fir that stooped towards one corner, the brown 
fir-needles of many years lay in a small stone balcony in front of 
two such darkened windows. All round, both near and far, 
there were grand trees, motionless in the still sunshine, and, 
like all large motionless things, seeming to add to the 
stillness. Here and there a leaf fluttered down; petals fell in a 
silent shower; a heavy moth floated by, and, when it settled, 
seemed to fall wearily; the tiny birds alighted on the walks, 
and hopped about in perfect tranquillity; even a stray rabbit 
sat nibbling a leaf that was to its liking, in the middle of a 
grassy space, with an air that seemed quite impudent in so 
timid a creature. No sound was to be heard louder than a 
sleepy hum, and the soft monotony of running water 
hurrying on to the river that divided the park. Standing on the 
south or east side of the house, you would never have guessed 
that an arrival was expected. 
</p>
            <p>But on the west side, where the carriage entrance was, the 
gates under the stone archway were thrown open; and so 
was the double door of the entrance-hall, letting in the warm 
light on the scagliola pillars, the marble statues, and the 
broad stone staircase, with its matting worn into large holes. 
And, stronger sign of expectation than all, from one of the 
doors which surrounded the entrance-hall, there came forth 
from time to time a lady, who walked lightly over the 
polished stone floor, and stood on the doorsteps and watched 
and listened. She walked lightly, for her figure was slim and 
finely formed, though she was between fifty and sixty. She 
was a tall, proud-looking woman, with abundant grey hair, 
dark eyes and eyebrows, and a somewhat eagle-like yet not 
unfeminine face. Her tight-fitting black dress was much 
worn; the fine lace of her cuffs and collar, and of the small 
veil which fell backwards over her high comb, was visibly 
mended; but rare jewels flashed on her hands, which lay on 
her folded black-clad arms like finely cut onyx cameos. <pb n="87"/>
            </p>
            <p>Many times Mrs Transome went to the doorsteps, 
watching and listening in vain. Each time she returned to the same 
room: it was a moderate-sized comfortable room, with low 
ebony bookshelves round it, and it formed an anteroom to a 
large library, of which a glimpse could be seen through an 
open doorway, partly obstructed by a heavy tapestry curtain 
drawn on one side. There was a great deal of tarnished 
gilding and dinginess on the walls and furniture of this smaller 
room, but the pictures above the bookcases were all of a 
cheerful kind: portraits in pastel of pearly-skinned ladies 
with hair-powder; blue ribbons, and low-bodices; a splendid 
portrait in oils of a Transome in the gorgeous dress of the 
Restoration; another of a Transome in his boyhood, with his 
hand on the neck of a small pony; and a large Flemish 
battle-piece, where war seemed only a picturesque 
blue-and-red accident in a vast sunny expanse of plain and sky. 
Probably such cheerful pictures had been chosen because this 
was Mrs Transome's usual sitting-room: it was certainly for 
this reason that, near the chair in which she seated herself 
each time she re-entered, there hung a picture of a youthful 
face which bore a strong resemblance to her own: a 
beardless but masculine face, with rich brown hair hanging low 
on the forehead, and undulating beside each cheek down to 
the loose white cravat. Near this same chair were her 
writing-table, with vellum-covered account-books on it, the cabinet 
in which she kept her neatly-arranged drugs, her basket for 
her embroidery, a folio volume of architectural engravings 
from which she took her embroidery patterns, a number of 
the North Loamshire Herald, and the cushion for her fat 
Blenheim, which was too old and sleepy to notice its 
mistress's restlessness. For, just now, Mrs Transome could not 
abridge the sunny tedium of the day by the feeble interest 
of her usual indoor occupations. Her consciousness was 
absorbed by memories and prospects, and except when she 
walked to the entrance-door to look out, she sat motionless 
with folded arms, involuntarily from time to time turning 
towards the portrait close by her, and as often, when its <pb n="88"/>
young brown eyes met hers, turning away again with 
self-checking resolution. 
</p>
            <p>At last, prompted by some sudden thought or by some 
sound, she rose and went hastily beyond the tapestry curtain 
into the library. She paused near the door without speaking: 
apparently she only wished to see that no harm was being 
done. A man nearer seventy than sixty was in the act of 
ranging on a large library-table a series of shallow drawers, 
some of them containing dried insects, others mineralogical 
specimens. His pale mild eyes, receding lower jaw, and slight 
frame, could never have expressed much vigour, either 
bodily or mental; but he had now the unevenness of gait and 
feebleness of gesture which tell of a past paralytic seizure. 
His threadbare clothes were thoroughly brushed; his soft 
white hair was carefully parted and arranged: he was not a 
neglected-looking old man; and at his side a fine black 
retriever, also old, sat on its haunches, and watched him as 
he went to and fro. But when Mrs Transome appeared 
within the doorway, her husband paused in his work and 
shrank like a timid animal looked at in a cage where flight 
is impossible. He was conscious of a troublesome intention, 
for which he had been rebuked before — that of disturbing 
all his specimens with a view to a new arrangement. 
</p>
            <p>After an interval, in which his wife stood perfectly still, 
observing him, he began to put back the drawers in their 
places in the row of cabinets which extended under the 
bookshelves at one end of the library. When they were all 
put back and closed, Mrs Transome turned away, and the 
frightened old man seated himself with Nimrod the retriever 
on an ottoman. Peeping at him again, a few minutes after, 
she saw that he had his arm round Nimrod's neck, and was 
uttering his thoughts to the dog in a loud whisper, as little 
children do to any object near them when they believe 
themselves unwatched. 
</p>
            <p>At last the sound of the church-bell reached Mrs 
Transome's ear, and she knew that before long the sound of 
wheels must be within hearing; but she did not at once start <pb n="89"/>
up and walk to the entrance-door. She sat still, quivering 
and listening; her lips became pale, her hands were cold and 
trembling. Was her son really coming? She was far beyond 
fifty; and since her early gladness in this best-loved boy, the 
harvest of her life had been scanty. Could it be that now — 
when her hair was grey, when sight had become one of the 
day's fatigues, when her young accomplishments seemed 
almost ludicrous, like the tone of her first harpsichord and 
the words of the songs long browned with age — she was 
going to reap an assured joy? — to feel that the doubtful 
deeds of her life were justified by the result, since a kind 
Providence had sanctioned them? — to be no longer tacitly 
pitied by her neighbours for her lack of money, her imbecile 
husband, her graceless eldest-bom, and the loneliness of her 
life; but to have at her side a rich, clever, possibly a tender, 
son? Yes; but there were the fifteen years of separation, and 
all that had happened in that long time to throw her into 
the background in her son's memory and affection. And 
yet — did not men sometimes become more filial in their 
feeling when experience had mellowed them, and they had 
themselves become fathers? Still, if Mrs Transome had 
expected only her son, she would have trembled less; she 
expected a little grandson also: and there were reasons why 
she had not been enraptured when her son had written to 
her only when he was on the eve of returning that he already 
had an heir born to him. 
</p>
            <p>But the facts must be accepted as they stood, and, after 
all, the chief thing was to have her son back again. Such 
pride, such affection, such hopes as she cherished in this 
fifty-sixth year of her life, must find their gratification in 
him — or nowhere. Once more she glanced at the portrait. 
The young brown eyes seemed to dwell on her pleasantly; 
but, turning from it with a sort of impatience, and saying 
aloud, 'Of course he will be altered!' she rose almost with 
difficulty, and walked more slowly than before across the 
hall to the entrance-door. 
</p>
            <p>Already the sound of wheels was loud upon the gravel. <pb n="90"/>
The momentary surprise of seeing that it was only a 
post-chaise, without a servant or much luggage, that was passing 
under the stone archway and then wheeling round against 
the flight of stone steps, was at once merged in the sense 
that there was a dark face under a red travelling-cap looking 
at her from the window. She saw nothing else: she was not 
even conscious that the small group of her own servants had 
mustered, or that old Hickes the butler had come forward to 
open the chaise door. She heard herself called 'Mother ! ' and 
felt a light kiss on each cheek; but stronger than all that 
sensation was the consciousness which no previous thought 
could prepare her for, that this son who had come back to 
her was a stranger. Three minutes before, she had fancied 
that, in spite of all changes wrought by fifteen years of 
separation, she should clasp her son again as she had done at 
their parting; but in the moment when their eyes met, the 
scnse of strangeness came upon her like a terror. It was not 
hard to understand that she was agitated, and the son led 
her across the hall to the sitting-room, closing the door 
behind them. Then he turned towards her and said, 
smiling — 
'You would not have known me, eh, mother?' 
</p>
            <p>It was perhaps the truth. If she had seen him in a crowd, 
she might have looked at him without recognition — not, 
however, without startled wonder; for though the likeness to 
herself was no longer striking, the years had overlaid it with 
another likeness which would have arrested her. Before she 
answered him, his eyes, with a keen restlessness, as unlike as 
possible to the lingering gaze of the portrait, had travelled 
quickly over the room, alighting on her again as she said — 
</p>
            <p>'Everything is changed, Harold. I am an old woman, you 
see.' 
</p>
            <p>'But straighter and more upright than some of the young 
ones!' said Harold; inwardly, however, feeling that age had 
made his mother's face very anxious and eager. 'The old 
women at Smyrna are like sacks. You've not got clumsy and 
shapeless. How is it I have the trick of getting fat?' (Here <pb n="91"/>
Harold lifted his arm and spread out his plump hand.) 'I 
remember my father was as thin as a herring. How is my 
father? Where is he?' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome just pointed to the curtained doorway, and 
let her son pass through it alone. She was not given to tears; 
but now, under the pressure of emotion that could find no 
other vent, they burst forth. She took care that they should 
be silent tears, and before Harold came out of the library 
again they were dried. Mrs Transome had not the ferninine 
tendency to seek influence through pathos; she had been 
used to rule in virtue of acknowledged superiority. The 
consciousness that she had to make her son's acquaintance, 
and that her knowledge of the youth of nineteen might help 
her little in interpreting the man of thirty-four, had fallen 
like lead on her soul; but in this new acquaintance of theirs 
she cared especially that her son, who had seen a strange 
world, should feel that he was come home to a mother who 
was to be consulted on all things, and who could supply his 
lack of the local experience necessary to an English 
land-holder. Her part in life had been that of the clever sinner, 
and she was equipped with the views, the reasons, and the 
habits which belonged to that character: life would have 
little meaning for her if she were to be gently thrust aside as 
a harmless elderly woman. And besides, there were secrets 
which her son must never know. So, by the time Harold came 
from the library again, the traces of tears were not 
discernible, except to a very careful observer. And he did not 
observe his mother carefully; his eyes only glanced at her 
on their way to the North Loamshire Herald, lying on the 
table near her, which he took up with his left hand, as he 
said — 
</p>
            <p>'Gad ! what a wreck poor father is ! Paralysis, eh? Terribly 
shrunk and shaken — crawls about among his books and 
beetles as usual, though. Well, it's a slow and easy death. 
But he's not much over sixty-five, is he?' 
</p>
            <p>'Sixty-seven, counting by birthdays; but your father was <pb n="92"/>
born old, I think,' said Mrs Transome, a little flushed with 
the determination not to show any unasked-for feeling. 
</p>
            <p>Her son did not notice her. All the time he had been 
speaking his eyes had been running down the columns of the 
newspaper. 
</p>
            <p>'But your little boy, Harold — where is he? How is it he 
has not come with you?' 
</p>
            <p>'O, I left him behind, in town,' said Harold, still looking at 
the paper. 'My man Dominic will bring him, with the rest 
of the luggage. Ah, I see it is young Debarry, and not my 
old friend Sir Maximus, who is offering himself as candidate 
for North Loamshire.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes. You did not answer me when I wrote to you to 
London about your standing. There is no other Tory candidate 
spoken of, and you would have all the Debarry interest.' 
</p>
            <p>'I hardly think that,' said Harold, significantly. 
</p>
            <p>'Why? Jermyn says a Tory candidate can never be got in 
without it.' 
</p>
            <p>'But I shall not be a Tory candidate.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome felt something like an electric shock. 
</p>
            <p>'What then?' she said, almost sharply. 'You will not call 
yourself a Whig?' 
</p>
            <p>'God forbid ! I'm a Radical.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome's limbs tottered; she sank into a chair. Here 
was a distinct confirmation of the vague but strong feeling 
that her son was a stranger to her. Here was a revelation to 
which it seemed almost as impossible to adjust her hopes 
and notions of a dignified life as if her son had said that he 
had been converted to Mahometanism at Smyrna, and had 
four wives, instead of one son, shortly to arrive under the 
care of Dominic. For the moment she had a sickening feeling 
that it was all of no use that the long-delayed good fortune 
had come at last — all of no use though the unloved Durfey 
was dead and buried, and though Harold had come home 
with plenty of money. There were rich Radicals, she was 
aware, as there were rich Jews and Dissenters, but she had 
never thought of them as county people. Sir Francis Burdett <pb n="93"/>
had been generally regarded as a madman. It was 
better to ask no questions, but silently to prepare herself for 
anything else there might be to come. 
</p>
            <p>'Will you go to your rooms, Harold, and see if there is 
anything you would like to have altered?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, let us go,' said Harold, throwing down the newspaper, 
in which he had been rapidly reading almost every 
advertisement while his mother had been going through her 
sharp inward struggle. 'Uncle Lingon is on the bench still, I 
see,' he went on, as he followed her across the hall; 'is he at 
home — will he be here this evening?' 
</p>
            <p>'He says you must go to the rectory when you want to see 
him. You must remember you have come back to a family 
who have old-fashioned notions. Your uncle thought I ought 
to have you to myself in the first hour or two. He 
remembered that I had not seen my son for fifteen years.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah, by Jove ! fifteen years — so it is I ' said Harold, taking 
his mother's hand and drawing it under his arm; for he had 
perceived that her words were charged with an intention. 
'And you are as straight as an arrow still; you will carry the 
shawls I have brought you as well as ever.' 
</p>
            <p>They walked up the broad stone steps together in silence. 
Under the shock of discovering her son's Radicalism, Mrs 
Transome had no impulse to say one thing rather than 
another; as in a man who had just been branded on the 
forehead all wonted motives would be uprooted. Harold, on his 
side, had no wish opposed to filial kindness, but his busy 
thoughts were imperiously determined by habits which had 
no reference to any woman's feeling; and even if he could 
have conceived what his mother's feeling was, his mind, after 
that momentary arrest, would have darted forward on its 
usual course. 
</p>
            <p>'I have given you the south rooms, Harold,' said Mrs 
Transome, as they passed along a corridor lit from above, 
and lined with old family pictures 'I thought they would 
suit you best, as they all open into each other, and this 
middle one will make a pleasant sitting-room for you.' <pb n="94"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Gad ! the furniture is in a bad state,' said Harold, glancing 
round at the middle room which they had just entered; 'the 
moths seem to have got into the carpets and hangings.' 
</p>
            <p>'I had no choice except moths or tenants who would pay 
rent,' said Mrs Transome. 'We have been too poor to keep 
servants for uninhabited rooms.' 
</p>
            <p>'What ! you've been rather pinched, eh?' 
</p>
            <p>'You find us living as we have been living these twelve 
years.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah, you've had Durfey's debts as well as the lawsuits — 
confound them ! It will make a hole in sixty thousand 
pounds to pay off the mortgages. However, he's gone now, 
poor fellow; and I suppose I should have spent more in 
buying an English estate some time or other. I always meant to 
be an Englishman, and thrash a lord or two who thrashed 
me at Eton.' 
</p>
            <p>'I hardly thought you could have meant that, Harold, 
when I found you had married a foreign wife.' 
</p>
            <p>'Would you have had me wait for a consumptive 
lackadaisical Englishwoman, who would have hung all her 
relations round my neck? I hate English wives; they want to give 
their opinion about everything. They interfere with a man's 
life. I shall not marry again.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome bit her lip, and turned away to draw up a 
blind. She would not reply to words which showed how 
completely any conception of herself and her feelings was 
excluded from her son's inward world. 
</p>
            <p>As she turned round again she said, 'I suppose you have 
been used to great luxury; these rooms look miserable to 
you, but you can soon make any alteration you like.' 
</p>
            <p>'O, I must have a private sitting-room fitted up for myself 
down-stairs. And the rest are bedrooms, I suppose,' he went 
on, opening a side-door. 'Ah, I can sleep here a night or two. 
But there's a bedroom down-stairs, with an anteroom, I 
remember, that would do for my man Dominic and the 
little boy. I should like to have that.' 
</p>
            <p>'Your father has slept there for years. He will be like a <pb n="95"/>
distracted insect, and never know where to go, if you alter 
the track he has to walk in.' 
'That's a pity. I hate going up-stairs.' 
</p>
            <p>'There is the steward's room: it is not used, and might be 
turned into a bedroom. I can't offer you my room, for I 
sleep up-stairs.' (Mrs Transome's tongue could be a whip 
upon occasion, but the lash had not fallen on a sensitive 
spot.) 
</p>
            <p>'No; I'm determined not to sleep up-stairs. We'll see about 
the steward's room to-morrow, and I daresay I shall find a 
closet of some sort for Dominic. It's a nuisance he had to 
stay behind, for I shall have nobody to cook for me. Ah, 
there's the old river I used to fish in. I often thought, when I 
was at Smyrna, that I would buy a park with a river through 
it as much like the Lapp as possible. Gad, what fine oaks 
those are opposite ! Some of them must come down, 
though.' 
</p>
            <p>'I've held every tree sacred on the demesne, as I told you, 
Harold. I trusted to your getting the estate some time, and 
releasing it; and I determined to keep it worth releasing. A 
park without fine timber is no better than a beauty without 
teeth and hair.' 
</p>
            <p>'Bravo, mother!' said Harold, putting his hand on her 
shoulder. 'Ah, you've had to worry yourself about things 
that don't properly belong to a woman — my father being 
weakly. We'll set all that right. You shall have nothing to do 
now but to be grandmamma on satin cushions.' 
</p>
            <p>'You must excuse me from the satin cushions. That is a 
part of the old woman's duty I am not prepared for. I am 
used to be chief bailiff, and to sit in the saddle two or three 
hours every day. There are two farms on our hands besides 
the Home Farm.' 
</p>
            <p>'Phew-ew ! Jermyn manages the estate badly, then. That 
will not last under my reign,' said Harold, turning on his 
heel and feeling in his pockets for the keys of his 
portmanteaus, which had been brought up. 
</p>
            <p>'Perhaps when you've been in England a little longer,' <pb n="96"/>
said Mrs Transome, colouring as if she had been a girl, 'you 
will understand better the difficulties there is in letting farms 
in these times.' 
</p>
            <p>'I understand the difficulty perfectly, mother. To let farms, 
a man must have the sense to see what will make them 
inviting to farmers, and to get sense supplied on demand is 
just the most difficult transaction I know of. I suppose if I 
ring there's some fellow who can act as valet and learn to 
attend to my hookah?' 
</p>
            <p>'There is Hickes the butler, and there is Jabez the 
footman; those are all the men in the house. They were here 
when you left.' 
</p>
            <p>'O, I remember Jabez — he was a dolt. I'll have old Hickes. 
He was a neat little machine of a butler; his words used to 
come like the clicks of an engine. He must be an old machine 
now, though.' 
</p>
            <p>'You seem to remember some things about home 
wonderfully well, Harold. 
</p>
            <p>'Never forget places and people — how they look and what 
can be done with them. All the country round here lies like 
a map in my brain. A deuced pretty country too; but the 
people were a stupid set of old Whigs and Tories. I suppose 
they are much as they were.' 
</p>
            <p>'I am, at least, Harold. YOU are the first of your family 
that ever talked of being a Radical. I did not think I was 
taking care of our old oaks for that. I always thought 
Radicals' houses stood staring above poor sticks of young trees 
and iron hurdles.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes. but the Radical sticks are growing, mother, and half 
the Tory oaks are rotting,' said Harold, with gay carelessness. 
'You've arranged for Jermyn to be early to-morrow?' 
</p>
            <p>'He will be here to breakfast at nine. But I leave you to 
Hickes now; we dine in an hour.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome went away and shut herself in her own 
dressing-room. It had come to pass now — this meeting with 
the son who had been the object of so much longing; whom 
she had longed for before he was born, for whom she had <pb n="97"/>
sinned, from whom she had wrenched herself with pain at 
their parting, and whose coming again had been the one 
great hope of her years. The moment was gone by; there 
had been no ecstasy, no gladness even; hardly half an hour 
had passed, and few words had been spoken, yet with that 
quickness in weaving new futures which belongs to women 
whose actions have kept them in habitual fear of 
consequences, Mrs Transome thought she saw with all the 
clearness of demonstration that her son's return had not been a 
good for her in the sense of making her any happier. 
</p>
            <p>She stood before a tall mirror, going close to it and 
looking at her face with hard scrutiny, as if it were unreIated to 
herself. No elderly face can be handsome, looked at in that 
way; every little detail is startlingly prominent, and the 
effect of the whole is lost. She saw the dried-up complexion, 
and the deep lines of bitter discontent about the mouth. 
</p>
            <p>'I am a hag!' she said to herself (she was accustomed to 
give her thoughts a very sharp outline), 'an ugly old woman 
who happens to be his mother. That is what he sees in me, 
as I see a stranger in him. I shall count for nothing. I was 
foolish to expect anything else.' 
</p>
            <p>She turned away from the mirror and walked up and down 
her room. 
</p>
            <p>'What a likeness!' she said, in a loud whisper; 'yet, 
perhaps, no one will see it besides me.' 
</p>
            <p>She threw herself into a chair, and sat with a fixed look, 
seeing nothing that was actually present, but inwardly seeing 
with painful vividness what had been present with her a little 
more than thirty years ago — the little round-limbed creature 
that had been leaning against her knees, and stamping tiny 
feet, and looking up at her with gurgling laughter. She had 
thought that the possession of this child would give unity to 
her life, and make some gladness through the changing 
years that would grow up as fruit out of these early maternal 
caresses. But nothing had come just as she had wished. The 
mother's early raptures had lasted but a short time, and even 
while they lasted there had grown up in the midst of them a <pb n="98"/>
hungry desire, like a black poisonous plant feeding in the 
sunlight, — the desire that her first, rickety, ugly, imbecile 
child should die, and leave room for her darling, of whom 
she could be proud. Such desires make life a hideous lottery, 
where every day may turn up a blank; where men and 
women who have the softest beds and the most delicate 
eating, who have a very large share of that sky and earth which 
some are born to have no more of than the fraction to be got 
in a crowded entry, yet grow haggard, fevered, and restless, 
like those who watch in other lotteries. Day after day, year 
after year, had yielded blanks; new cares had come, 
bringing other desires for results quite beyond her grasp, which 
must also be watched for in the lottery; and all the while the 
round-limbed pet had been growing into a strong youth, who 
liked many things better than his mother's caresses, and who 
had a much keener consciousness of his independent 
existence than of his relation to her: the lizard's egg, that white 
rounded passive prettiness, had become a brown, darting, 
determined lizard. The mother's love is at first an absorbing 
delight, blunting all other sensibilities; it is an expansion of 
the animal existence; it enlarges the imagined range for self 
to move in: but in after years it can only continue to be joy 
on the same terms as other long-lived love — that is, by much 
suppression of self, and power of living in the experience of 
another. Mrs Transome had darkly felt the pressure of that 
unchangeable fact. Yet she had clung to the belief that 
somehow the possession of this son was the best thing she 
lived for; to believe otherwise would have made her memory 
too ghastly a companion. Some time or other, by some 
means, the estate she was struggling to save from the grasp 
of the law would be Harold's. Somehow the hated Durfey, 
the imbecile eldest, who seemed to have become tenacious 
of a despicable squandering life, would be got rid of; vice 
might kill him. Meanwhile the estate was burthened: there 
was no good prospect for any heir. Harold must go and make 
a career for himself: and this was what he was bent on, with 
a precocious clearness of perception as to the conditions on <pb n="99"/>
which he could hope for any advantages in life. Like most 
energetic natures, he had a strong faith in his luck; he had 
been gay at their parting, and had promised to make his 
fortune; and in spite of past disappointments, Harold's 
possible fortune still made some ground for his mother to 
plant her hopes in. His luck had not failed him; yet nothing 
had turned out according to her expectations. Her life had 
been like a spoiled shabby pleasure-day, in which the music 
and the processions are all missed, and nothing is left at 
evening but the weariness of striving after what has been 
failed of. Harold had gone with the Embassy to 
Constantinople, under the patronage of a high relative, his mother's 
cousin; he was to be a diplomatist, and work his way upward 
in public life. But his luck had taken another shape: he had 
saved the life of an Armenian banker, who in gratitude had 
offered him a prospect which his practical mind had 
preferred to the problematic promises of diplomacy and high 
born cousinship. Harold had become a merchant and banker 
at Smyrna; had let the years pass without caring to find the 
possibility of visiting his early home, and had shown no 
eagerness to make his life at all familiar to his mother, 
asking for letters about England, but writing scantily about 
himself. Mrs Transome had kept up the habit of writing to 
her son, but gradually the unfruitful years had dulled her 
hopes and yearnings; increasing anxieties about money had 
worried her, and she was more sure of being fretted by bad 
news about her dissolute eldest son than of hearing anything 
to cheer her from Harold. She had begun to live merely in 
small immediate cares and occupations, and, like all 
eager-minded women who advance in life without any activity of 
tenderness or any large sympathy, she had contracted small 
rigid habits of thinking and acting, she had her 'ways' which 
must not be crossed, and had learned to fill up the great void 
of life with giving small orders to tenants, insisting on 
medicines for infirm cottagers, winning small triumphs in 
bargains and personal economies, and parrying ill-natured 
remarks of Lady Debarry's by lancet-edged epigrams. So <pb n="100"/>
her life had gone on till more than a year ago, when the 
desire which had been so hungry while she was a blooming 
young mother, was at last fulfilled — at last, when her hair 
was grey, and her face looked bitter, resdess, and unenjoying, 
like her life. The news came from Jersey that Durfey, the 
imbecile son, was dead. Now Harold was heir to the estate; 
now the wealth he had gained could release the land from 
its burthens; now he would think it worth while to return 
home. A change had at last come over her life, and the 
sunlight breaking the clouds at evening was pleasant, 
though the sun must sink before long. Hopes, affections, the 
sweeter part of her memories, started from their wintry sleep, 
and it once more seemed a great good to have had a second 
son who in some ways had cost her dearly. But again there 
were conditions she had not reckoned on. When the good 
tidings had been sent to Harold, and he had announced 
that he would return so soon as he could wind up his afEairs, 
he had for the first time informed his mother that he had 
been married, that his Greek wife was no longer living, but 
that he should bring home a litde boy, the finest and most 
desirable of heirs and grandsons. Harold, seated in his 
distant Smyrna home, considered that he was taking a rational 
view of what tbings must have become by this time at the 
old place in England, when he figured his mother as a good 
elderly lady, who would necessarily be delighted with the 
possession on any terms of a healthy grandchild, and would 
not mind much about the particulars of the long-concealed 
marriage. 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome had tom up that letter in a rage. But in 
the months which had elapsed before Harold could actually 
arrive, she had prepared herself as well as she could to 
suppress all reproaches or queries which her son might 
resent, and to acquiesce in his evident wishes. The return 
was still looked for with longing; affection and satisfied 
pride would again warm her later years. She was ignorant 
what sort of man Harold had become now, and of course he 
must be changed in many ways; but though she told herself <pb n="101"/>
this, still the image that she knew, the image fondness clung 
to, necessarily prevailed over the negatives insisted on by her 
reason. 
</p>
            <p>And so it was, that when she had moved to the door to 
meet him, she had been sure that she should clasp her son 
again, and feel that he was the same who had been her boy, 
her little one, the loved child of her passionate youth. An 
hour seemed to have changed everything for her. A woman's 
hopes are woven of sunbeams; a shadow annihilates them. 
The shadow which had fallen over Mrs Transome in this 
first interview with her son was the presentiment of her 
powerlessness. If things went wrong, if Harold got 
unpleasantly disposed in a certain direction where her chief dread 
had always lain, she seemed to foresee that her words would 
be of no avail. The keenness of her anxiety in this matter had 
served as insight; and Harold's rapidity, decision, and 
indifference to any impressions in others which did not further 
or impede his own purposes, had made themselves felt by 
her as much as she would have felt the unmanageable 
strength of a great bird which had alighted near her, and 
allowed her to stroke its wing for a moment because food 
lay near her. 
</p>
            <p>Under the cold weight of these thoughts Mrs Transome 
shivered. That physical reaction roused her from her reverie, 
and she could now hear the gende knocking at the door to 
which she had been deaf before. Notwithstanding her 
activity and the fewness of her servants, she had never dressed 
herself without aid; nor would that small, neat, exquisitely 
clean old woman who now presented herself have wished 
that her labour should be saved at the expense of such a 
sacrifice on her lady's part. The small old woman was Mrs 
Hickes, the butler's wife, who acted as housekeeper, 
lady's-maid, and superintendent of the kitchen — the large stony 
scene of inconsiderable cooking. Forty years ago she had 
entered Mrs Transome's service, when that lady was 
beautiful Miss Lingon, and her mistress still called her Denner, as 
she had done in the old days. <pb n="102"/>
            </p>
            <p>'The bell has rung, then, Denner, without my hearing it?' 
said Mrs Transome, rising. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, madame,' said Denner, reaching from a wardrobe an 
old black velvet dress trimmed with much mended point, in 
which Mrs Transome was wont to look queenly of an 
evening. 
</p>
            <p>Denner had still strong eyes of that shortsighted kind 
which sees through the narrowest chink between the 
eye-lashes. The physical contrast between the tall, eagle-faced, 
dark-eyed lady, and the little peering waidng-woman, who 
had been round-featured and of pale mealy complexion 
from her youth up, had doubdess had a strong influence in 
determining Denner's feeling towards her mistress, which 
was of that worshipful sort paid to a goddess in ages when 
it was not thought necessary or likely that a goddess should 
be very moral. There were different orders of beings — so 
ran Denner's creed — and she belonged to another order than 
that to which her mistress belonged. She had a mind as 
sharp as a needle, and would have seen through and through 
the ridiculous pretensions of a born servant who did not 
submissively accept the rigid fate which had given her born 
superiors. She would have called such pretensions the 
wrigglings of a worm that tried to walk on its tail. There was 
a tacit understanding that Denner knew all her mistress's 
secrets, and her speech was plain and unflattering; yet with 
wonderful subtlety of instinct she never said anything which 
Mrs Transome could feel humiliated by, as by a familiarity 
from a servant who knew too much. Denner idendfied her 
own dignity with that of her mistress. She was a hard-headed 
godless little woman, but with a character to be reckoned on 
as you reckon on the qualities of iron. 
</p>
            <p>Peering into Mrs Transome's face, she saw clearly that the 
meeting with the son had been a disappointment in some 
way. She spoke with a refined accent, in a low, quick, 
monotonous tone — 
</p>
            <p>'Mr Harold is drest; he shook me by the hand in the 
corridor, and was very pleasant.' 
<pb n="103"/>
            </p>
            <p>'What an alteration, Denner! No likeness to me now.' 
</p>
            <p>'Handsome, though, spite of his being so browned and 
stout. There's a fine presence about Mr Harold. I remember 
you used to say, madam, there were some people you would 
always know were in the room though they stood round a 
corner, and others you might never see till you ran against 
them. That's as true as truth. And as for likenesses, 
thirty-five and sixty are not much alike, only to people's memories.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome knew perfectly that Denner had divined 
her thoughts. 
</p>
            <p>'I don't know how things will go on now; but it seems 
something too good to happen that they will go on well. I 
am afraid of ever expecting anything good again.' 
</p>
            <p>'That's weakness, madam. Things don't happen because 
they're bad or good, else all eggs would be addled or none at 
all, and at the most it is but six to the dozen. There's good 
chances and bad chances, and nobody's luck is pulled only 
by one string.' 
</p>
            <p>'What a woman you are, Denner I You talk like a French 
infidel. It seems to me you are afraid of nothing. I have been 
full of fears all my life — always seeing something or other 
hanging over me that I couldn't bear to happen.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, madam, put a good face on it, and don't seem to 
be on the look-out for crows, else you'll set the other people 
watching. Here you have a rich son come home, and the 
debts will all be paid, and you have your health and can 
ride about, and you've such a face and figure, and will have 
if you live to be eighty, that everybody is cap in hand to 
you before they know who you are — let me fasten up your 
veil a little higher: there's a good deal of pleasure in life 
for you yet.' 
</p>
            <p>'Nonsense I there's no pleasure for old women, unless they 
get it out of tormenting other people. What are your 
pleasures, Denner — besides being a slave to me?' 
</p>
            <p>'Oh, there's pleasure in knowing one's not a fool, like 
half the people one sees about. And managing one's 
husband is some pleasure; and doing all one's business well. <pb n="104"/>
Why, if I've only got some orange flowers to candy, I 
shouldn't like to die till I see them all right. Then there's 
the sunshine now and then; I like that, as the cats do. I 
look upon it, life is like our game at whist, when Banks and 
his wife come to the still-room of an evening. I don't enjoy 
the game much, but I like to play my cards well, and see 
what will be the end of it; and I want to see you make the 
best of your hand, madam, for your luck has been mine 
these forty years now. But I must go and see how Kitty 
dishes up the dinner, unless you have any more commands.' 
'No, Denner; I am going down immediately.' 
</p>
            <p>As Mrs Transome descended the stone staircase in her 
old black velvet and point, her appearance justified Denner's 
personal compliment. She had that high-born imperious air 
which would have marked her as an object of hatred and 
reviling by a revolutionary mob. Her person was too typical 
of social distinctions to be passed by with indifference by any 
one; it would have fitted an empress in her own right, who 
had had to rule in spite of faction, to dare the violation of 
treaties and dread retributive invasions, to grasp after new 
territories, to be defiant in desperate circumstances, and to 
feel a woman's hunger of the heart for ever unsatisfied. 
Yet Mrs Transome's cares and occupations had not been at 
all of an imperial sort. For thirty years she had led the 
monotonous narrowing life which used to be the lot of our 
poorer gentry, who never went to town, and were probably 
not on speaking terms with two out of the five families 
whose parks lay within the distance of a drive. When she 
was young she had been thought wonderfully clever and 
accomplished, and had been rather ambitious of intellectual 
superiority — had secretly picked out for private reading 
the lighter parts of dangerous French authors — and in 
company had been able to talk of Mr Burke's style, or of 
Chateaubriand's eloquence — had laughed at the Lyrical 
Ballads and admired Mr Southey's 'Thalaba'. She always 
thought that the dangerous French writers were wicked, 
and that her reading of them was a sin; but many sinful <pb n="105"/>
things were highly agreeable to her, and many things which 
she did not doubt to be good and true were dull and 
meaningless. She found ridicule of Biblical characters very 
amusing, and she was interested in stories of illicit passion: but 
she believed all the while that truth and safety lay in due 
attendance on prayers and sermons, in the admirable 
doctrines and ritual of the Church of England, equally remote 
from Puritanism and Popery; in fact, in such a view of this 
world and the next as would preserve the existing 
arrangements of English society quite unshaken, keeping down the 
obtrusiveness of the vulgar and the discontent of the poor. 
The history of the Jews, she knew, ought to be preferred to 
any profane history; the Pagans, of course, were vicious, 
and their religions quite nonsensical, considered as religions 
— but classical learning came from the Pagans; the Greeks 
were famous for sculpture; the Italians for painting; the 
middle ages were dark and papistical; but now Christianity 
went hand in hand with civilization, and the providential 
government of the world, though a little confused and 
entangled in foreign countries, in our favoured land was clearly 
seen to be carried forward on Tory and Church of England 
principles, sustained by the succession of the House of 
Brunswick, and by sound English divines. For Miss Lingon 
had had a superior governess, who held that a woman should 
be able to write a good letter, and to express herself with 
propriety on general subjects. And it is astonishing how 
effective this education appeared in a handsome girl, who 
sat supremely well on horseback, sang and played a little, 
painted small figures in water-colours, had a naughty sparkle 
in her eyes when she made a daring quotation, and an air 
of serious dignity when she recited something from her 
store of correct opinions. But however such a stock of ideas 
may be made to tell in elegant society, and during a few 
seasons in town, no amount of bloom and beauty can make 
them a perennial source of interest in things not personal; 
and the notion that what is true and, in general, good for 
mankind, is stupid and drug-like, is not a safe theoretic <pb n="106"/>
basis in circumstances of temptation and difficulty. Mrs 
Transome had been in her bloom before this century began, 
and in the long painful years since then, what she had once 
regarded as her knowledge and accomplishments had 
become as valueless as old-fashioned stucco ornaments, of 
which the substance was never worth anything, while the 
form is no longer to the taste of any living mortal. Crosses, 
mortifications, money-cares, conscious blameworthiness, had 
changed the aspect of the world for her: there was anxiety 
in the morning sunlight; there was unkind triumph or 
disapproving pity in the glances of greeting neighbours; there 
was advancing age, and a contracting prospect in the 
changing seasons as they came and went. And what could then 
sweeten the days to a hungry much-exacting self like Mrs 
Transome's?  Under protracted ill every living creature will 
find something that makes a comparative ease, and even 
when life seems woven of pain, will convert the fainter pang 
into a desire. Mrs Transome, whose imperious will had 
availed little to ward off the great evils of her life, found 
the opiate for her discontent in the exertion of her will about 
smaller things. She was not cruel, and could not enjoy 
thoroughly what she called the old woman's pleasure of 
tormenting; but she liked every little sign of power her lot had left 
her. She liked that a tenant should stand bareheaded below 
her as she sat on horseback. She liked to insist that work 
done without her orders should be undone from beginning 
to end. She liked to be curtsied and bowed to by all the 
congregation as she walked up the little barn of a church. 
She liked to change a labourer's medicine fetched from the 
doctor, and substitute a prescription of her own. If she had 
only been more haggard and less majestic, those who had 
glimpses of her outward life might have said she was a 
tyrannical, griping harridan, with a tongue like a razor. No one 
said exactly that; but they never said anything like the full 
truth about her, or divined what was hidden under that 
outward life — a woman's keen sensibility and dread, which 
lay screened behind all her petty habits and narrow notions, <pb n="107"/>
as some quivering thing with eyes and throbbing heart may 
lie crouching behind withered rubbish. The sensibility and 
dread had palpitated all the faster in the prospect of her 
son's return; and now that she had seen him, she said to 
herself, in her bitter way, 'It is a lucky eel that escapes 
skinning. The best happiness I shall ever know, will be to escape 
the worst misery.' 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c2" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 2</head>
            <pb n="108"/>
            <q>
               <l>A jolly parson of the good old stock, </l>
               <l>By birth a gentleman, yet homely too, </l>
               <l>Suiting his phrase to Hodge and Margery </l>
               <l>Whom he once christened, and has married since. </l>
               <l>A little lax in doctrine and in life, </l>
               <l>Not thinking God was captious in such things </l>
               <l>As what a man might drink on holidays, </l>
               <l>But holding true religion was to do </l>
               <l>As you'd be done by — which could never mean </l>
               <l>That he should preach three sermons in a week. </l>
            </q>
            <p/>
            <p>  HAROLD TRANSOME did not choose to spend the whole 
evening with his mother. It was his habit to compress a great 
deal of effective conversation into a short space of time, 
asking rapidly all the questions he wanted to get answered, 
and diluting no subject with irrelevancies, paraphrase, or 
repetitions. He volunteered no information about himself 
and his past life at Smyrna, but answered pleasantly enough, 
though briefly, whenever his mother asked for any detail. 
He was evidently ill-satisfied as to his palate, trying red 
pepper to everything, then asking if there were any relishing 
sauces in the house, and when Hickes brought various 
home-filled bottles, trying several, finding them failures, and 
finally falling back from his plate in despair. Yet he 
remained good-humoured, saying something to his father now 
and then for the sake of being kind, and looking on with a 
pitying shrug as he saw him watch Hickes cutting his food. 
Mrs Transome thought with some bitterness that Harold 
showed more feeling for her feeble husband who had never 
cared in the least about him, than for her, who had given 
him more than the usual share of mother's love. An hour 
after dinner, Harold, who had already been turning over the 
leaves of his mother's account-books, said — 
</p>
            <p>'I shall just cross the park to the parsonage to see my uncle 
Lingon.' 
<pb n="109"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Very well. He can answer more questions for you.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes,' said Harold, quite deaf to the innuendo, and 
accepting the words as a simple statement of the fact. 'I want to 
hear all about the game and the North Loamshire Hunt. 
I'm fond of sport; we had a great deal of it at Smyrna, and 
it keeps down my fat.' 
</p>
            <p>The Reverend John Lingon became very talkative over his 
second bottle of port, which was opened on his nephew's 
arrival. He was not curious about the manners of Smyrna, 
or about Harold's experience, but he unbosomed himself 
very freely as to what he himself liked and disliked, which 
of the farmers he suspected of killing the foxes, what game 
he had bagged that very morning, what spot he would 
recommend as a new cover, and the comparative flatness of 
all existing sport compared with cock-fighting, under which 
Old England had been prosperous and glorious, while, so far 
as he could see, it had gained little by the abolition  of a 
practice which sharpened the faculties of men, gratified the 
instincts of the fowl, and carried out the designs of heaven 
in its admirable device of spurs. From these main topics 
which made his points of departure and return, he rambled 
easily enough at any new suggestion or query; so that when 
Harold got home at a late hour, he was conscious of having 
gathered from amidst the pompous full-toned triviality of 
his uncle's chat some impressions which were of practical 
importance. Among the rector's dislikes, it appeared, was 
Mr Matthew Jermyn. 
</p>
            <p>'A fat-handed, glib-tongued fellow, with a scented cambric 
handkerchief; one of your educated low-bred fellows; a 
foundling who got his Latin for nothing at Christ's Hospital; 
one of your middle-class upstarts who want to rank with 
gentlemen, and think they'll do it with kid gloves and new 
furniture.' 
</p>
            <p>But since Harold meant to stand for the county, Mr 
Lingon was equally emphatic as to the necessity of his not 
quarrelling with Jermyn till the election was over. Jermyn 
must be his agent; Harold must wink hard till he found <pb n="110"/>
himself safely returned; and even then it might be well to 
let Jermyn drop gently and raise no scandal. He himself 
had no quarrel with the fellow: a clergyman should have 
no quarrels, and he made it a point to be able to take wine 
with any man he met at table. And as to the estate, and 
his sister's going too much by Jermyn's advice, he never 
meddled with business: it was not his duty as a clergyman. 
That, he considered, was the meaning of Melchisedec 
and the tithe, a subject into which he had gone to some 
depth thirty years ago, when he preached the Visitation 
sermon. 
</p>
            <p>The discovery that Harold meant to stand on the Liberal 
side — nay, that he boldly declared himself a Radical — was 
rather startling; but to his uncle's good-humour, beatified 
by the sipping of port-wine, nothing could seem highly 
objectionable, provided it did not disturb that operation. In 
the course of half an hour he had brought himself to see 
that anything really worthy to be called British Toryism 
had been entirely extinct since the Duke of Wellington and 
Sir Robert Peel had passed the Catholic Emancipation Bill; 
that Whiggery, with its rights of man stopping short at 
ten-pound householders, and its policy of pacifying a wild beast 
with a bite, was a ridiculous monstrosity; that therefore, 
since an honest man could not call himself a Tory, which it 
was, in fact, as impossible to be now as to fight for the old 
Pretender, and could still less become that execrable 
monstrosity a Whig, there remained but one course open to him. 
'Why, lad, if the world was turned into a swamp, I suppose 
we should leave off shoes and stockings, and walk about like 
cranes' — whence it followed plainly enough that, in these 
hopeless times, nothing was left to men of sense and good 
family but to retard the national ruin by declaring 
themselves Radical, and take the inevitable process of changing 
everything out of the hands of beggarly demagogues and 
purse-proud tradesmen. It is true the rector was helped to 
this chain of reasoning by Harold's remarks; but he soon 
became quite ardent in asserting the conclusion. <pb n="111"/>
            </p>
            <p>'If the mob can't be turned back, a man of family must 
try and head the mob, and save a few homes and hearths, 
and keep the country up on its last legs as long as he can. 
And you're a man of family, my lad — dash it! You're a 
Lingon, whatever else you may be, and I'll stand by you. 
I've no great interest; I'm a poor parson. I've been forced to 
give up hunting; my pointers and a glass of good wine are 
the only decencies becoming my station that I can allow 
myself. But I'll give you my countenance — I'll stick to you 
as my nephew. There's no need for me to change sides 
exactly. I was born a Tory, and I shall never be a bishop. 
But if anybody says you're in the wrong, I shall say, “My 
nephew is in the right; he has turned Radical to save his 
country.” If William Pitt had been living now, he'd have 
done the same; for what did he say when he was dying? 
Not “O save my party!” but “O save my country, heaven !” 
That was what they dinned in our ears about Peel and the 
duke; and now I'll turn it round upon them. They shall be 
hoist with their own petard. Yes, yes, I'll stand by you.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold did not feel sure that his uncle would thoroughly 
retain this satisfactory thread of argument in the uninspired 
hours of the morning; but the old gentleman was sure to 
take the facts easily in the end, and there was no fear of 
family coolness or quarrelling on this side. Harold was glad 
of it. He was not to be turned aside from any course he had 
chosen; but he disliked all quarrelling as an unpleasant 
expenditure of energy that could have no good practical result. 
He was at once active and luxurious; fond of mastery, and 
good-natured enough to wish that every one about him 
should like his mastery; not caring greatly to know other 
people's thoughts, and ready to despise them as blockheads 
if their thoughts differed from his, and yet solicitous that 
they should have no colourable reason for slight thoughts 
about him. The blockheads must be forced to respect him. 
Hence, in proportion as he foresaw that his equals in the 
neighbourhood would be indignant with him for his political 
choice, he cared keenly about making a good figure before <pb n="112"/>
them in every other way. His conduct as a landholder was 
to be judicious, his establishment was to be kept up 
generously, his imbecile father treated with careful regard, his 
family relations entirely without scandal. He knew that 
affairs had been unpleasant in his youth — that there had 
been ugly lawsuits — and that his scapegrace brother Durfey 
had helped to lower still farther the depressed condition of 
the family. All this must be retrieved, now that events had 
made Harold the head of the Transome name. 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn must be used for the election, and after that, if he 
must be got rid of, it would be well to shake him loose 
quietly: his uncle was probably right on both those points. 
But Harold's expectation that he should want to get rid of 
Jermyn was founded on other reasons than his scented 
handkerchief and his charity-school Latin. 
</p>
            <p>If the lawyer had been presuming on Mrs Transome's 
ignorance as a woman, and on the stupid rakishness of the 
original heir, the new heir would prove to him that he had 
calculated rashly. Otherwise, Harold had no prejudice 
against him. In his boyhood and youth he had seen Jermyn 
frequenting Transome Court, but had regarded him with 
that total indifference with which youngsters are apt to view 
those who neither deny them pleasures nor give them any. 
Jermyn used to smile at him, and speak to him affably; but 
Harold, half proud, half shy, got away from such patronage 
as soon as possible: he knew Jermyn was a man of business; 
his father, his uncle, and Sir Maximus Debarry did not 
regard him as a gentleman and their equal. He had known 
no evil of the man; but he saw now that if he were really 
a covetous upstart, there had been a temptation for him in 
the management of the Transome affairs; and it was clear 
that the estate was in a bad condition. 
</p>
            <p>When Mr Jermyn was ushered into the breakfast-room 
the next morning, Harold found him surprisingly little 
altered by the fifteen years. He was grey, but still remarkably 
handsome; fat, but tall enough to bear that trial to man's 
dignity. There was as strong a suggestion of toilette about <pb n="113"/>
him as if he had been five-and-twenty instead of nearly 
sixty. He chose always to dress in black, and was especially 
addicted to black satin waistcoats, which carried out the 
general sleekness of his appearance; and this, together with 
his white, fat, but beautifully-shaped hands, which he was 
in the habit of rubbing gently on his entrance into a room, 
gave him very much the air of a lady's physician. Harold 
remembered with some amusement his uncle's dislike of 
those conspicuous hands; but as his own were soft and 
dimpled, and as he too was given to the innocent practice 
of rubbing those members, his suspicions were not yet 
deepened. 
</p>
            <p>'I congratulate you, Mrs Transome,' said Jermyn, with a 
soft and deferential smile, 'all the more,' he added, turning 
towards Harold, 'now I have the pleasure of actually seeing 
your son. I am glad to perceive that an Eastern climate has 
not been unfavourable to him.' 
</p>
            <p>'No,' said Harold, shaking Jermyn's hand carelessly, and 
speaking with more than his usual rapid brusqueness, 'the 
question is, whether the English climate will agree with me. 
It's deuced shifting and damp: and as for the food, it would 
be the finest thing in the world for this country if the 
southern cooks would change their religion, get persecuted, 
and fly to England, as the old silk-weavers did.' 
</p>
            <p>'There are plenty of foreign cooks for those who are rich 
enough to pay for them, I suppose,' said Mrs Transome, 'but 
they are unpleasant people to have about one's house.' 
</p>
            <p>'Gad! I don't think so,' said Harold. 
</p>
            <p>'The old servants are sure to quarrel with them.' 
</p>
            <p>'That's no concern of mine. The old servants will have to 
put up with my man Dominic, who will show them how to 
cook and do everything else, in a way that will rather 
astonish them.' 
</p>
            <p>'Old people are not so easily taught to change all their 
ways, Harold.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, they can give up and watch the young ones,' said 
Harold, thinking only at that moment of old Mrs Hickes <pb n="114"/>
and Dominic. But his mother was not thinking of them 
only. 
</p>
            <p>'You have a valuable servant, it seems,' said Jermyn, who 
understood Mrs Transome better than her son did, and 
wished to smoothen the current of their dialogue. 
</p>
            <p>'O! one of those wonderful southern fellows that make 
one's life easy. He's of no country in particular. I don't know 
whether he's most of a Jew, a Greek, an Italian, or a 
Spaniard. He speaks five or six languages, one as well as 
another. He's cook, valet, major-domo, and secretary all in 
one; and what's more, he's an affectionate fellow — I can 
trust to his attachment. That's a sort of human specimen 
that doesn't grow here in England, I fancy. I should have 
been badly off if I could not have brought Dominic.' 
</p>
            <p>They sat down to breakfast with such slight talk as this 
going on. Each of the party was preoccupied and uneasy. 
Harold's mind was busy constructing probabilities about 
what he should discover of Jermyn's mismanagement or 
dubious application of funds, and the sort of self-command 
he must in the worst case exercise in order to use the man 
as long as he wanted him. Jermyn was closely observing 
Harold with an unpleasant sense that there was an 
expression of acuteness and determination about him which would 
make him formidable. He would certainly have preferred 
at that moment that there had been no second heir of the 
Transome name to come back upon him from the East. 
Mrs Transome was not observing the two men; rather, her 
hands were cold, and her whole person shaken by their 
presence; she seemed to hear and see what they said and 
did with preternatural acuteness, and yet she was also 
seeing and hearing what had been said and done many years 
before, and feeling a dim terror about the future. There 
were piteous sensibilities in this faded woman, who 
thirty-four years ago, in the splendour of her bloom, had been 
imperious to one of these men, and had rapturously pressed 
the other as an infant to her bosom, and now knew that she 
was of little consequence to either of them. <pb n="115"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Well, what are the prospects about the election?' said 
Harold, as the breakfast was advancing. 'There are two 
Whigs and one Conservative likely to be in the field, I 
know. What is your opinion of the chances?' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Jermyn had a copious supply of words, which often 
led him into periphrase, but he cultivated a hesitating 
stammer, which, with a handsome impassiveness of face, except 
when he was smiling at a woman, or when the latent 
savageness of his nature was thoroughly roused, he had found 
useful in many relations, especially in business. No one 
could have found out that he was not at his ease. 'My 
opinion,' he replied, 'is in a state of balance at present. This 
division of the county, you are aware, contains one 
manufacturing town of the first magnitude, and several smaller 
ones. The manufacturing interest is widely dispersed. So 
far — a — there is a presumption — a — in favour of the two 
Liberal candidates. Still with a careful canvass of the 
agricultural districts, such as those we have round us at Treby 
Magna, I think — a — the auguries — a — would not be 
unfavourable to the return of a Conservative. A fourth 
candidate of good position, who should coalesce with Mr Debarry. 
— a —' 
</p>
            <p>Here Mr Jermyn hesitated for the third time, and Harold 
broke in. 
</p>
            <p>'That will not be my line of action, so we need not discuss 
it. If I put up it will be as a Radical; and I fancy, in any 
county that would return Whigs there would be plenty of 
voters to be combed off by a Radical who offered himself 
with good pretensions.' 
</p>
            <p>There was the slightest possible quiver discernible across 
Jermyn's face. Otherwise he sat as he had done before, with 
his eyes fixed abstractedly on the frill of a ham before him, 
and his hand trifling with his fork. He did not answer 
immediately, but when he did, he looked round steadily at 
Harold. 
</p>
            <p>'I'm delighted to perceive that you have kept yourself so 
thoroughly acquainted with English politics.' <pb n="116"/>
            </p>
            <p>'O, of course,' said Harold, impatiently. 'I'm aware how 
things have been going on in England. I always meant to 
come back ultimately. I suppose I know the state of Europe 
as well as if I'd been stationary at Little Treby for the last 
fifteen years. If a man goes to the East, people seem to think 
he gets turned into something like the one-eyed calender in 
the Arabian Nights.” 
</p>
            <p>'Yet I should think there are some things which people 
who have been stationary at Little Treby could tell you, 
Harold,' said Mrs Transome. 'It did not signify about your 
holding Radical opinions at Smyma; but you seem not to 
imagine how your putting up as a Radical will affect your 
position here, and the position of your family. No one will 
visit you. And then — the sort of people who will support 
you ! You really have no idea what an impression it 
conveys when you say you are a Radical. There are none 
of our equals who will not feel that you have disgraced 
yourself. 
'Pooh!' said Harold, rising and walking along the room. 
</p>
            <p>But Mrs Transome went on with growing anger in her 
voice — 'It seems to me that a man owes something to his 
birth and station, and has no right to take up this notion 
or the other, just as it suits his fancy; still less to work at 
the overthrow of his class. That was what everyone said of 
Lord Grey, and my family at least is as good as Lord 
Grey's. You have wealth now, and might distinguish 
yourself in the county; and if you had been true to your colours 
as a gentleman, you would have had all the greater 
opportunity because the times are so bad. The Debarrys and 
Lord Wyvem would have set all the more store by you. 
For my part, I can't conceive what good you propose to 
yourself. I only entreat you to think again before you take 
any decided step.' 
</p>
            <p>'Mother,' said Harold, not angrily or with any raising of 
his voice, but in a quick, impatient manner, as if the scene 
must be got through as quickly as possible; 'it is natural that 
you should think in this way. Women, very properly, don't <pb n="117"/>
change their views, but keep to the notions in which they 
have been brought up. It doesn't signify what they think — 
they are not called upon to judge or to act. You must really 
leave me to take my own course in these matters, which 
properly belong to men. Beyond that, I will gratify any wish 
you choose to mention. You shall have a new carriage and 
a pair of bays all to yourself; you shall have the house done 
up in first-rate style, and I am not thinking of marrying. 
But let us understand that there shall be no further collision 
between us on subjects in which I must be master of my 
own actions.' 
</p>
            <p>'And you will put the crown to the mortifications of my 
life, Harold. I don't know who would be a mother if she 
could foresee what a slight thing she will be to her son when 
she is old.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome here walked out of the room by the nearest 
way — the glass door open towards the terrace. Mr Jermyn 
had risen too, and his hands were on the back of his chair. 
He looked quite impassive: it was not the first time he had 
seen Mrs Transome angry; but now, for the first time, he 
thought the outburst of her temper would be useful for 
him. She, poor woman, knew quite well that she had been 
unwise, and that she had been making herself disagreeable 
to Harold to no purpose. But half the sorrows of women 
would be averted if they could repress the speech they 
know to be useless; nay, the speech they have resolved not 
to utter. Harold continued his walking a moment longer, 
and then said to Jermyn — 
</p>
            <p>'You smoke?' 
</p>
            <p>'No, I always defer to the ladies. Mrs Jermyn is peculiarly 
sensitive on such matters, and doesn't like tobacco.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold, who, underneath all the tendencies which had 
made him a Liberal, had intense personal pride, thought, 
'Confound the fellow — with his Mrs Jermyn! Does he think 
we are on a footing for me to know anytlung about his 
wife?' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, I took my hookah before breakfast,' he said aloud; <pb n="118"/>
'so, if you like, we'll go into the library. My father never 
gets up till mid-day, I find.' 
</p>
            <p>'Sit down, sit down,' said Harold, as they entered the 
handsome, spacious library. But he himself continued to 
stand before a map of the county which he had opened from 
a series of rollers occupying a compartment among the 
bookshelves. 'The first question, Mr Jermyn, now you know 
my intentions, is, whether you will undertake to be my 
agent in this election, and help me through? There's no 
time to be lost, and I don't want to lose my chance, as I 
may not have another for seven years. I understand,' he 
went on, flashing a look straight at Jermyn, 'that you have 
not taken any conspicuous course in politics; and I know 
that Labron is agent for the Debarrys.' 
</p>
            <p>'O — a — my dear sir — a man necessarily has his political 
convictions, but of what use is it for a professional man — 
a — of some education, to talk of them in a little country 
town? There really is no comprehension of public questions 
in such places. Party feeling, indeed, was quite asleep here 
before the agitation about the Catholic Relief Bill. It is true 
that I concurred with our incumbent in getting up a 
petition against the Reform Bill, but I did not state my reasons. 
The weak points in that Bill are — a — too palpable, and I 
fancy you and I should not differ much on that head. The 
fact is, when I knew that you were to come back to us, I kept 
myself in reserve, though I was much pressed by the friends 
of Sir James Clement, the Ministerial candidate, who 
is —' 
</p>
            <p>'However, you will act for me — that's settled?' said Harold. 
</p>
            <p>'Certainly,' said Jermyn, inwardly irritated by Harold's 
rapid manner of cutting him short. 
</p>
            <p>'Which of the Liberal candidates, as they call themselves, 
has the better chance, eh?' 
</p>
            <p>'I was going to observe that Sir James Clement has not so 
good a chance as Mr Garstin, supposing that a third Liberal 
candidate presents himself. There are two senses in which 
a politician can be liberal' — here Mr Jermyn smiled — 'Sir <pb n="119"/>
James Clement is a poor baronet, hoping for an 
appointment, and can't be expected to be liberal in that wider sense 
which commands majorities.' 
</p>
            <p>'I wish this man were not so much of a talker,' thought 
Harold; 'he'll bore me. We shall see,' he said aloud, 'what 
can be done in the way of combination. I'll come down to 
your office after one o'clock, if it will suit you?' 
</p>
            <p>'Perfectly.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah, and you'll have all the lists and papers and necessary 
information ready for me there. I must get up a dinner for 
the tenants, and we can invite whom we like besides the 
tenants. Just now, I'm going over one of the farms on hand 
with the bailiff. By the way, that's a desperately bad business, 
having three farms unlet — how comes that about, eh?' 
</p>
            <p>'That is precisely what I wanted to say a few words about 
to you. You have observed already how strongly Mrs 
Transome takes certain things to heart. You can imagine that 
she has been severely tried in many ways. Mr Transome's 
want of health; Mr Durfey's habits — a —' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, yes.' 
</p>
            <p>'She is a woman for whom I naturally entertain the highest 
respect, and she has had hardly any gratification for many 
years, except the sense of having affairs to a certain extent 
in her own hands. She objects to changes; she will not have 
a new style of tenants; she likes the old stock of farmers 
who milk their own cows, and send their younger daughters 
out to service: all this makes it difficult to do the best with 
the estate. I am aware things are not as they ought to be, for, 
in point of fact, an improved agricultural management is 
a matter in which I take considerable interest, and the farm 
which I myself hold on the estate you will see, I think, to be 
in a superior condition. But Mrs Transome is a woman of 
strong feeling, and I would urge you, my dear sir, to make 
the changes which you have, but which I had not, the right 
to insist on, as little painful to her as possible.' 
</p>
            <p>'I shall know what to do, sir, never fear,' said Harold, 
much offended. <pb n="120"/>
            </p>
            <p>'You will pardon, I hope, a perhaps undue freedom of 
suggestion from a man of my age, who has been so long in a 
close connection with the family affairs — a — I have never 
considered that connection simply in the light of a 
business — a —' 
</p>
            <p>'Damn him, I'll soon let him know that I do,' thought 
Harold. But in proportion as he found Jermyn's manners 
annoying, he felt the necessity of controlling himself. He 
despised all persons who defeated their own projects by the 
indulgence of momentary impulses. 
</p>
            <p>'I understand, I understand,' he said aloud. 'You've had 
more awkward business on your hands than usually falls to 
the share of the family lawyer. We shall set everything 
right by degrees. But now as to the canvassing. I've made 
arrangements with a first-rate man in London, who 
understands these matters thoroughly — a solicitor of course — he 
has carried no end of men into parliament. I'll engage him 
to meet us at Duffield — say when?' 
</p>
            <p>The conversation after this was driven carefully clear of 
all angles, and ended with determined amicableness. When 
Harold, in his ride an hour or two afterwards, encountered 
his uncle shouldering a gun, and followed by one black and 
one liver-spotted pointer, his muscular person with its red 
eagle face set off by a velveteen jacket and leather leggings, 
Mr Lingon's first question was — 
</p>
            <p>'Well, lad, how have you got on with Jermyn?' 
</p>
            <p>'O, I don't think I shall like the fellow. He's a sort of 
amateur gentleman. But I must make use of him. I expect 
whatever I get out of him will only be something short of 
fair pay for what he has got out of us. But I shall see.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ay, ay, use his gun to bring down your game, and after 
that beat the thief with the butt-end. That's wisdom and 
justice and pleasure all in one — talking between ourselves, 
as uncle and nephew. But I say, Harold, I was going to tell 
you, now I come to think of it, this is rather a nasty business, 
your calling yourself a Radical. I've been turning it over 
in after-dinner speeches, but it looks awkward — it's not <pb n="121"/>
what people are used to — it wants a good deal of Latin to 
make it go down. I shall be worried about it at the sessions, 
and I can think of nothing neat enough to carry about in 
my pocket by way of answer.' 
</p>
            <p>'Nonsense, uncle; I remember what a good speechifier you 
always were: you'll never be at a loss. You only want a few 
more evenings to think of it.' 
</p>
            <p>'But you'll not be attacking the church and the 
institutions of the country — you'll not be going to those lengths; 
you'll keep up the bulwarks, and so on, eh?' 
</p>
            <p>'No, I shan't attack the church — only the incomes of the 
bishops, perhaps, to make them eke out the incomes of the 
poor clergy.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, well, I have no objection to that. Nobody likes our 
bishop: he's all Greek and greediness; too proud to dine with 
his own father. You may pepper the bishops a little. But 
you'll respect the constitution handed down, etc. — and 
you'll rally round the throne — and the king, God bless him, 
and the usual toasts, eh?' 
</p>
            <p>'Of course, of course. I am a Radical only in rooting out 
abuses.' 
</p>
            <p>'That's the word I wanted, my lad!' said the vicar, slapping 
Harold's knee. 'That's a spool to wind a speech on. Abuses 
is the very word; and if anybody shows himself offended, 
he'll put the cap on for himself.' 
</p>
            <p>'I remove the rotten timbers,' said Harold, inwardly 
amused, 'and substitute fresh oak, that's all.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well done, my boy ! By George, you'll be a speaker. But, 
I say, Harold, I hope you've got a little Latin left. This 
young Debarry is a tremendous fellow at the classics, and 
walks on stilts to any length. He's one of the new 
Conservatives. Old Sir Maximus doesn't understand him at all.' 
</p>
            <p>'That won't do at the hustings,' said Harold. 'He'll get 
knocked off his stilts pretty quickly there.' 
</p>
            <p>'Bless me ! it's astonishing how well you're up in the affairs 
of the country, my boy. But rub up a few quotations — “Quod 
turpe bonis decebat Crispinum” — and that sort of thing — <pb n="122"/>
just to show Debarry what you could do if you liked. But 
you want to ride on?' 
'Yes; I have an appointment at Treby. Good-bye.' 
</p>
            <p>'He's a cleverish chap,' muttered the vicar, as Harold rode 
away. 'When he's had plenty of English exercise, and 
brought out his knuckle a bit, he'll be a Lingon again as he 
used to be. I must go and see how Arabella takes his being 
a Radical. It's a little awkward; but a clergyman must keep 
peace in a family. Confound it ! I'm not bound to love 
Toryism better than my own flesh and blood, and the manor I 
shoot over. That's a heathenish, Brutus-like sort of thing, as 
if Providence couldn't take care of the country without my 
quarrelling with my own sister's son!' 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c3" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 3</head>
            <pb n="123"/>
            <q>
               <l>'Twas town, yet country too; you felt the warmth </l>
               <l>Of clustering houses in the wintry time; </l>
               <l>Supped with a friend, and went by lantern home. </l>
               <l>Yet from your chamber window you could hear </l>
               <l>The tiny bleat of new-yeaned lambs, or see </l>
               <l>The children bend beside the hedgerow banks </l>
               <l>To pluck the primroses. </l>
            </q>
            <p>TREBY MAGNA, on which the Reform Bill had thrust the 
new honour of being a polling-place, had been, at the 
beginning of the century, quite a typical old market-town, lying 
in pleasant sleepiness among green pastures, with a 
rush-fringed river meandering through them. Its principal street 
had various handsome and tall-windowed brick houses with 
walled gardens behind them; and at the end, where it 
widened into the market-place, there was the cheerful 
rough-stuccoed front of that excellent inn, the Marquis of Granby, 
where the farmers put up their gigs, not only on fair and 
market days, but on exceptional Sundays when they came 
to church. And the church was one of those fine old English 
structures worth travelling to see, standing in a broad 
churchyard with a line of solemn yew-trees beside it, and 
lifting a majestic tower and spire far above the 
red-and-purple roofs of the town. It was not large enough to hold 
all the parishioners of a parish which stretched over distant 
villages and hamlets; but then they were never so 
unreasonable as to wish to be all in at once, and had never complained 
that the space of a large side-chapel was taken up by the 
tombs of the Debarrys, and shut in by a handsome iron 
screen. For when the black Benedictines ceased to pray and 
chant in this church, when the Blessed Virgin and St 
Gregory were expelled, the Debarrys, as lords of the manor, 
naturally came next to Providence and took the place of the 
saints. Long before that time, indeed, there had been a <pb n="124"/>
Sir Maximus Debarry who had been at the fortifying of the 
old castle, which now stood in ruins in the midst of the green 
pastures, and with its sheltering wall towards the north 
made an excellent strawyard for the pigs of Wace &amp; Co., 
brewers of the celebrated Treby beer. Wace &amp; Co. did not 
stand alone in the town as prosperous traders on a large 
scale, to say nothing of those who had retired from business; 
and in no country town of the same small size as Treby 
was there a larger proportion of families who had handsome 
sets of china without handles, hereditary punchbowls, and 
large silver ladles with a Queen Anne's guinea in the centre. 
Such people naturally took tea and supped together 
frequently; and as there was no professional man or tradesman 
in Treby who was not connected by business, if not by blood, 
with the farmers of the district, the richer sort of these were 
much invited, and gave invitations in their turn. They 
played at whist, ate and drank generously, praised Mr Pitt 
and the war as keeping up prices and religion, and were 
very humorous about each other's property, having much 
the same coy pleasure in allusions to their secret ability to 
purchase, as blushing lasses sometimes have in jokes about 
their secret preferences. The rector was always of the 
Debarry family, associated only with county people, and 
was much respected for his affability; a clergyman who 
would have taken tea with the townspeople would have 
given a dangerous shock to the mind of a Treby 
church-man. 
</p>
            <p>Such was the old-fashioned, grazing, brewing, 
woolpacking, cheese-loading life of Treby Magna, until there 
befell new conditions, complicating its relating with the rest 
of the world, and gradually awakening in it that higher 
consciousness which is known to bring higher pains. First 
came the canal; next, the working of the coal-mines at 
Sproxton, two miles off the town; and, thirdly, the discovery 
of a saline spring, which suggested to a too constructive 
brain the possibility of turning Treby Magna into a 
fashionable watering-place. So daring an idea was not originated <pb n="125"/>
by a native Trebian, but by a young lawyer who came from 
a distance, knew the dictionary by heart, and was probably 
an illegitimate son of somebody or other. The idea, although 
it promised an increase of wealth to the town, was not well 
received at first; ladies objected to seeing 'objects' drawn 
about in hand-carriages, the doctor foresaw the advent of 
unsound practitioners, and most retail tradesmen concurred 
with him that new doings were usually for the advantage of 
new people. The more unanswerable reasons urged that 
Treby had prospered without baths, and it was yet to be 
seen how it would prosper with them; while a report that the 
proposed name for them was Bethesda Spa, threatened to 
give the whole affair a blasphemous aspect. Even Sir 
Maximus Debarry, who was to have an unprecedented 
return for the thousands he would lay out on a pump-room 
and hotel, regarded the thing as a little too new, and held 
back for some time. But the persuasive powers of the young 
lawyer, Mr Matthew Jermyn, together with the opportune 
opening of a stone-quarry, triumphed at last; the handsome 
buildings were erected, an excellent guide-book and 
descriptive cards, surmounted by vignettes, were printed, 
and Treby Magna became conscious of certain facts in its 
own history, of which it had previously been in contented 
ignorance. 
</p>
            <p>But it was all in vain. The Spa, for some mysterious 
reason, did not succeed. Some attributed the failure to the 
coal-mines and the canal, others to the peace, which had 
had ruinous effects on the country, and others, who disliked 
Jermyn, to the original folly of the plan. Among these last 
was Sir Maximus himself, who never forgave the too 
persuasive attorney: it was Jermyn's fault not only that a useless 
hotel had been built, but that he, Sir Maximus, being 
straitened for money, had at last let the building, with the 
adjacent land lying on the river, on a long lease, on the 
supposition that it was to be turned into a benevolent college, 
and had seen himself subsequently powerless to prevent its 
being turned into a tape manufactory — a bitter thing to <pb n="126"/>
any gentleman, and especially to the representative of one 
of the oldest families in England. 
</p>
            <p>In this way it happened that Treby Magna gradually 
passed from being simply a respectable market-town — the 
heart of a great rural district, where the trade was only such 
as had close relations with the local landed interest — and 
took on the more complex life brought by mines and 
manufactures, which belong more directly to the great circulating 
system of the nation than to the local system to which they 
have been superadded; and in this way it was that Trebian 
Dissent gradually altered its character. Formerly it had 
been of a quiescent, well-to-do kind, represented 
architecturally by a small, venerable, dark-pewed chapel, built by 
Presbyterians, but long occupied by a sparse congregation 
of Independents, who were as little moved by doctrinal zeal 
as their church-going neighbours, and did not feel 
themselves deficient in religious liberty, inasmuch as they were 
not hindered from occasionally slumbering in their pews, 
and were not obliged to go regularly to the weekly 
prayer-meeting. But when stone-pits and coal-pits made new 
hamlets that threatened to spread up to the very town, when the 
tape-weavers came with their news-reading inspectors and 
book-keepers, the Independent chapel began to be filled 
with eager men and women, to whom the exceptional 
possession of religious truth was the condition which reconciled 
them to a meagre existence, and made them feel in secure 
alliance with the unseen but supreme rule of a world in 
which their own visible part was small. There were 
Dissenters in Treby now who could not be regarded by the 
church people in the light of old neighbours to whom the 
habit of going to chapel was an innocent, unenviable 
inheritance along with a particular house and garden, a 
tanyard, or a grocery business — Dissenters who, in their turn, 
without meaning to be in the least abusive, spoke of the 
high-bred rector as a blind leader of the blind. And Dissent 
was not the only thing that the times had altered; prices 
had fallen, poor-rates had risen, rent and tithe were not <pb n="127"/>
elastic enough, and the farmer's fat sorrow had become lean; 
he began to speculate on causes, and to trace things back to 
that causeless mystery, the cessation of one-pound notes. 
Thus, when political agitation swept in a great current 
through the country, Treby Magna was prepared to vibrate. 
The Catholic Emancipation Bill opened the eyes of 
neighbours, and made them aware how very injurious they were 
to each other and to the welfare of mankind generally. Mr 
Tiliot, the church spirit-merchant, knew now that Mr 
Nuttwood, the obliging grocer, was one of those Dissenters, 
Deists, Socinians, Papists and Radicals, who were in league 
to destroy the constitution. A retired old London tradesman, 
who was believed to understand politics, said that thinking 
people must wish George the Third alive again in all his 
early vigour of mind; and even the farmers became less 
materialistic in their view of causes, and referred much to 
the agency of the devil and the Irish Romans. The rector, 
the Rev. Augustus Debarry, really a fine specimen of the 
old-fashioned aristocratic clergyman, preaching short 
sermons, understanding business, and acting liberally about 
his tithe, had never before found himself in collision with 
Dissenters; but now he began to feel that these people were 
a nuisance in the parish, that his brother Sir Maximus 
must take care lest they should get land to build more 
chapels, and that it might not have been a bad thing if the 
law had furnished him as a magistrate with a power of 
putting a stop to the political sermons of the Independent 
preacher, which, in their way, were as pernicious sources of 
intoxication as the beerhouses. The Dissenters, on their side, 
were not disposed to sacrifice the cause of truth and 
freedom to a temporizing mildness of language; but they 
defended themselves from the charge of religious indifference, 
and solemnly disclaimed any lax expectations that Catholics 
were likely to be saved — urging, on the contrary, that they 
were not too hopeful about Protestants, who adhered to a 
bloated and worldly prelacy. Thus Treby Magna, which 
had lived quietly through the great earthquakes of the <pb n="128"/>
French Revolution and the Napoleonic wars, which had 
remained unmoved by the Rights of Man, and saw little in 
Mr Cobbett's Weekly Register ' except that he held 
eccentric views about potatoes, began at last to know the higher 
pains of a dim political consciousness; and the development 
had been greatly helped by the recent agitation about the 
Reform Bill. Tory, Whig, and Radical did not perhaps 
become clearer in their definition of each other; but the names 
seemed to acquire so strong a stamp of honour or infamy, 
that definitions would only have weakened the impression. 
As to the short and easy method of judging opinions by the 
personal character of those who held them, it was liable to 
be much frustrated in Treby. It so happened in that 
particular town that the Reformers were not all of them 
large-hearted patriots or ardent lovers of justice; indeed, one of 
them, in the very midst of the agitation, was detected in 
using unequal scales — a fact to which many Tories pointed 
with disgust as showing plainly enough, without further 
argument, that the cry for a change in the representative 
system was hollow trickery. Again, the Tories were far from 
being all oppressors, disposed to grind down the working 
classes into serfdom; and it was undeniable that the 
inspector at the tape manufactory, who spoke with much eloquence 
on the extension of the suffrage, was a more tyrannical 
personage than open-handed Mr Wace, whose chief political 
tenet was, that it was all nonsense giving men votes when they 
had no stake in the country. On the other hand, there were 
some Tories who gave themselves a great deal of leisure to 
abuse hypocrites, Radicals, Dissenters, and atheism 
generally, but whose inflamed faces, theistic swearing, and 
frankness in expressing a wish to borrow, certainly did not mark 
them out strongly as holding opinions likely to save society. 
</p>
            <p>The Reformers had triumphed: it was clear that the 
wheels were going whither they were pulling, and they were 
in fine spirits for exertion. But if they were pulling towards 
the country's ruin, there was the more need for others to 
hang on behind and get the wheels to stick if possible. In <pb n="129"/>
Treby, as elsewhere, people were told they must 'rally' at 
the coming election; but there was now a large number of 
waverers — men of flexible, practical minds, who were not 
such bigots as to cling to any views when a good tangible 
reason could be urged against them; while some regarded it 
as the most neighbourly thing to hold a little with both 
sides, and were not sure that they should rally or vote at all. 
It seemed an invidious thing to vote for one gentleman 
rather than another. 
</p>
            <p>These social changes in Treby parish are comparatively 
public matters, and this history is chiefly concerned with 
the private lot of a few men and women; but there is no 
private life which has not been determined by a wider public 
life, from the time when the primeval milkmaid had to 
wander with the wanderings of her clan, because the cow 
she milked was one of a herd which had made the pastures 
bare. Even in that conservatory existence where the fair 
Camelia is sighed for by the noble young Pineapple, neither 
of them needing to care about the frost or rain outside, there 
is a nether apparatus of hot-water pipes liable to cool down 
on a strike of the gardeners or a scarcity of coal. And the 
lives we are about to look back upon do not belong to those 
conservatory species; they are rooted in the common earth, 
having to endure all the ordinary chances of past and present 
weather. As to the weather of 1832, the Zadkiel of that time 
had predicted that the electrical condition of the clouds in 
the political hemisphere would produce unusual 
perturbations in organic existence, and he would perhaps have seen 
a fulfilment of his remarkable prophecy in that mutual 
influence of dissimilar destinies which we shall see gradually 
unfolding itself. For if the mixed political conditions of 
Treby Magna had not been acted on by the passing of the 
Reform Bill, Mr Harold Transome would not have 
presented himself as a candidate for North Loamshire, Treby 
would not have been a polling-place, Mr Matthew Jermyn 
would not have been on affable terms with a Dissenting 
preacher and his flock, and the venerable town would not <pb n="130"/>
have been placarded with handbills, more or less 
complimentary and retrospective — conditions in this case essential 
to the 'where', and the 'what', without which, as the learned 
know, there can be no event whatever. 
</p>
            <p>For example, it was through these conditions that a young 
man named Felix Holt made a considerable difference in 
the life of Harold Transome, though nature and fortune 
seemed to have done what they could to keep the lots of the 
two men quite aloof from each other. Felix was heir to 
nothing better than a quack medicine; his mother lived up 
a back street in Treby Magna, and her sitting-room was 
ornamented with her best tea-tray and several framed 
testimonials to the virtues of Holt's Cathartic Lozenges and 
Holt's Restorative Elixir. There could hardly have been a 
lot less like Harold Transome's than this of the quack 
doctor's son, except in the superficial facts that he called himself 
a Radical, that he was the only son of his mother, and that 
he had lately returned to his home with ideas and resolves 
not a little disturbing to that mother's mind. 
</p>
            <p>But Mrs Holt, unlike Mrs Transome, was much disposed 
to reveal her troubles, and was not without a counsellor into 
whose ear she could pour them. On this 2nd of September, 
when Mr Harold Transome had had his first interview with 
Jermyn, and when the attorney went back to his office with 
new views of canvassing in his mind, Mrs Holt had put on 
her bonnet as early as nine o'clock in the morning, and had 
gone to see the Rev. Rufus Lyon, minister of the 
Independent Chapel usually spoken of as 'Malthouse Yard.' 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c4" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 4</head>
            <pb n="131"/>
            <q>
               <l>'A pious and painful preacher.' — FULLER. </l>
            </q>
            <p>MR LYON lived in a small house, not quite so good as the 
parish clerk's, adjoining the entry which led to the Chapel 
Yard. The new prosperity of Dissent at Treby had led to an 
enlargement of the chapel, which absorbed all extra funds 
and left none for the enlargement of the minister's income. 
He sat this morning, as usual, in a low up-stairs room, called 
his study, which, by means of a closet capable of holding 
his bed, served also as a sleeping-room. The bookshelves did 
not suffice for his store of old books, which lay about him 
in piles so arranged as to leave narrow lanes between them; 
for the minister was much given to walking about during 
his hours of meditation, and very narrow passages would 
serve for his small legs, unencumbered by any other drapery 
than his black silk stockings and the flexible, though 
prominent, bows of black ribbon that tied his knee-breeches. 
He was walking about now, with his hands clasped behind 
him, an attitude in which his body seemed to bear about 
the same proportion to his head as the lower part of a stone 
Hermes bears to the carven image that crowns it. His face 
looked old and worn, yet the curtain of hair that fell from 
his bald crown and hung about his neck retained much of 
its original auburn tint, and his large, brown, shortsighted 
eyes were still clear and bright. At the first glance, every one 
thought him a very odd-looking rusty old man; the 
freeschool boys often hooted after him, and called him 
'Revelations'; and to many respectable church people, old Lyon's 
little legs and large head seemed to make Dissent 
additionally preposterous. But he was too shortsighted to notice 
those who tittered at him — too absent from the world of small 
facts and petty impulses in which titterers live. With Satan 
to argue against on matters of vital experience as well as of <pb n="132"/>
church government, with great texts to meditate on, which 
seemed to get deeper as he tried to fathom them, it had never 
occurred to him to reflect what sort of image his small person 
made on the retina of a light-minded beholder. The good 
Rufus had his ire and his egoism; but they existed only as 
the red heat which gave force to his belief and his teaching. 
He was susceptible concerning the true office of deacons in 
the primitive church, and his small nervous body was jarred 
from head to foot by the concussion of an argument to 
which he saw no answer. In fact, the only moments when 
he could be said to be really conscious of his body, were 
when he trembled under the pressure of some agitating 
thought. 
</p>
            <p>He was meditating on the text for his Sunday morning 
sermon: 'And all the people said, Amen' — a mere 
mustard-seed of a text, which had split at first only into two divisions, 
'What was said', and 'Who said it'; but these were growing 
into a many-branched discourse, and the preacher's eyes 
dilated, and a smile played about his mouth till, as his 
manner was, when he felt happily inspired, he had begun to 
utter his thoughts aloud in the varied measure and cadence 
habitual to him, changing from a rapid but distinct 
undertone to a loud emphatic rallentando. 
</p>
            <p>'My brethren, do you think that great shout was raised in 
Israel by each man's waiting to say “amen” till his 
neighbours had said amen? Do you think there will ever be a 
great shout for the right — the shout of a nation as of one 
man, rounded and whole, like the voice of the archangel 
that bound together all the listeners of earth and heaven — 
if every Christian of you peeps round to see what his 
neighbours in good coats are doing, or else puts his hat before his 
face that he may shout and never be heard? But this is what 
you do: when the servant of God stands up to deliver his 
message, do you lay your souls beneath the Word as you 
set out your plants beneath the falling rain? No; one of you 
sends his eyes to all corners, he smothers his soul with small 
questions, “What does brother Y. think?” “Is this doctrine <pb n="133"/>
high enough for brother Z?” “Will the church members be 
pleased?” And another —' 
</p>
            <p>Here the door was opened, and old Lyddy, the minister's 
servant, put in her head to say, in a tone of despondency, 
finishing with a groan, 'Here is Mrs Holt wanting to speak 
to you; she says she comes out of season, but she's in trouble.' 
</p>
            <p>'Lyddy,' said Mr Lyon, falling at once into a quiet 
conversational tone, 'if you are wrestling with the enemy, let me 
refer you to Ezekiel the thirteenth and twenty-second, and 
beg of you not to groan. It is a stumbling-block and offence 
to my daughter; she would take no broth yesterday, because 
she said you had cried into it. Thus you cause the truth to be 
lightly spoken of, and make the enemy rejoice. If your 
face-ache gives him an advantage, take a little warm ale with 
your meat — I do not grudge the money.' 
</p>
            <p>'If I thought my drinking warm ale would hinder poor 
dear Miss Esther from speaking light — but she hates the 
smell of it.' 
</p>
            <p>'Answer not again, Lyddy, but send up Mistress Holt to 
me.' 
</p>
            <p>Lyddy closed the door immediately. 
</p>
            <p>'I lack grace to deal with these weak sisters,' said the 
minister, again thinking aloud, and walking. 'Their needs lie too 
much out of the track of my meditations, and take me often 
unawares. Mistress Holt is another who darkens counsel by 
words without knowledge, and angers the reason of the 
natural man. Lord, give me patience. My sins were heavier 
to bear than this woman's folly. Come in, Mistress Holt, 
come in.' 
</p>
            <p>He hastened to disencumber a chair of Matthew Henry's 
Commentary, and begged his visitor to be seated. She was a 
tall elderly woman, dressed in black, with a light-brown front 
and a black band over her forehead. She moved the chair a 
little and seated herself in it with some emphasis, looking 
fixedly at the opposite wall with a hurt and argumentative 
expression. Mr Lyon had placed himself in the chair against 
his desk, and waited with the resolute resignation of a patient <pb n="134"/>
who is about to undergo an operation. But his visitor did not 
speak. 
</p>
            <p>'You have something on your mind, Mistress Holt?' he 
said, at last. 
</p>
            <p>'Indeed I have, sir, else I shouldn't be here.' 
</p>
            <p>'Speak freely.' 
</p>
            <p>'It's well known to you, Mr Lyon, that my husband, Mr 
Holt, came from the north, and was a member in Malthouse 
Yard long before you began to be pastor of it, which was 
seven year ago last Michaelmas. It's the truth, Mr Lyon, and 
I'm not that woman to sit here and say it if it wasn't true.' 
</p>
            <p>'Certainly, it is true.' 
</p>
            <p>'And if my husband had been alive when you'd come to 
preach upon trial, he'd have been as good a judge of your 
gifts as Mr Nuttwood and Mr Muscat, though whether he'd 
have agreed with some that your doctrine wasn't high 
enough, I can't say. For myself, I've my opinion about high 
doctrine.' 
</p>
            <p>'Was it my preaching you came to speak about?' said the 
minister, hurrying in the question. 
</p>
            <p>'No, Mr Lyon, I'm not that woman. But this I will say, 
for my husband died before your time, that he had a 
wonderful gift in prayer, as the old members well know, if 
anybody likes to ask 'em, not believing my words; and he 
believed himself that the receipt for the Cancer Cure, which 
I've sent out in bottles till this very last April before 
September as now is, and have bottles standing by me, — he 
believed it was sent him in answer to prayer; and nobody can 
deny it, for he prayed most regular, and read out of the green 
baize Bible.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Holt paused, appearing to think that Mr Lyon had 
been successfully confuted, and should show himself 
convinced. 
</p>
            <p>'Has any one been aspersing your husband's character?' 
said Mr Lyon, with a slight initiative towards that relief of 
groaning for which he had reproved Lyddy. 
</p>
            <p>'Sir, they daredn't. For though he was a man of prayer, he <pb n="135"/>
didn't want skill and knowledge to find things out for 
himself; and that was what I used to say to my friends when 
they wondered at my marrying a man from Lancashire, 
with no trade or fortune but what he'd got in his head. But 
my husband's tongue 'ud have been a fortune to anybody, 
and there was many a one said it was as good as a dose of 
physic to hear him talk; not but what that got him into 
trouble in Lancashire, but he always said, if the worst came 
to the worst, he could go and preach to the blacks. But he 
did better than that, Mr Lyon, for he married me; and this 
I will say, that for age, and conduct, and managing —' 
</p>
            <p>'Mistress Holt,' interrupted the minister, 'these are not 
the things whereby we may edify one another. Let me beg of 
you to be as brief as you can. My time is not my own.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, Mr Lyon, I've a right to speak to my own 
character; and I'm one of your congregation, though I'm not a 
church member, for I was born in the general Baptist 
connection: and as for being saved without works, there's a 
many, I daresay, can't do without that doctrine; but I thank 
the Lord I never needed to put myself on a level with the 
thief on the cross. I've done my duty, and more, if anybody 
comes to that; for I've gone without my bit of meat to make 
broth for a sick neighbour: and if there's any of the church 
members say they've done the same, I'd ask them if they had 
the sinking at the stomach as I have; for I've ever strove to 
do the right thing, and more, for good-natured I always 
was; and I little thought, after being respected by everybody, 
I should come to be reproached by my own son. And my 
husband said, when he was a-dying — “Mary,” he said, “the 
elixir, and the pills, and the cure will support you, for they've 
a great name in all the country round, and you'll pray for a 
blessing on them.” And so I have done, Mr Lyon; and to say 
they're not good medicines, when they've been taken for 
fifty miles round by high and low, and rich and poor, and 
nobody speaking against 'em but Dr Lukin, it seems to me 
it's a flying in the face of Heaven; for if it was wrong to take 
medicine, couldn't the blessed Lord have stopped it?' <pb n="136"/>
            </p>
            <p>Mrs Holt was not given to tears; she was much sustained 
by conscious unimpeachableness, and by an argumentative 
tendency which usually checks the too great activity of the 
lachrymal gland; nevertheless her eyes had become moist, 
her fingers played on her knee in an agitated manner, and 
she finally plucked a bit of her gown and held it with great 
nicety between her thumb and finger. Mr Lyon, however, 
by listening attentively, had begun partly to divine the 
source of her trouble. 
</p>
            <p>'Am I wrong in gathering from what you say, Mistress 
Holt, that your son has objected in some way to your sale of 
your late husband's medicines?' 
</p>
            <p>'Mr Lyon, he's masterful beyond everything, and he talks 
more than his father did. I've got my reason, Mr Lyon, and 
if anybody talks sense I can follow him; but Felix talks so 
wild, and contradicts his mother. And what do you think he 
says, after giving up his 'prenticeship, and going off to study 
at Glasgow, and getting through all the bit of money his 
father saved for his bringing-up — what has all his learning 
come to? He says I'd better never open my Bible, for it's as 
bad poison to me as the pills are to half the people as swallow 
'em. You'll not speak of this again, Mr Lyon — I don't think 
ill enough of you to believe that. For I suppose a Christian 
can understand the word o' God without going to Glasgow, 
and there's texts upon texts about ointment and medicine, 
and there's one as might have been made for a receipt of my 
husband's — it's just as if it was a riddle, and Holt's Elixir 
was the answer.' 
</p>
            <p>'Your son uses rash words, Mistress Holt,' said the 
minister, 'but it is quite true that we may err in giving a too 
private interpretation to the Scripture. The word of God has to 
satisfy the larger needs of His people, like the rain and the 
sunshine — which no man must think to be meant for his own 
patch of seed-ground solely. Will it not be well that I should 
see your son, and talk with him on these matters? He was at 
chapel, I observed, and I suppose I am to be his pastor.' 
</p>
            <p>'That was what I wanted to ask you, Mr Lyon. For perhaps <pb n="137"/>
he'll listen to you, and not talk you down as he does his poor 
mother. For after we'd been to chapel, he spoke better of you 
than he does of most: he said you was a fine old fellow, and 
an old-fashioned Puritan — he uses dreadful language, Mr 
Lyon; but I saw he didn't mean you ill, for all that. He calls 
most folks' religion rottenness; and yet another time he'll 
tell me I ought to feel myself a sinner, and do God's will and 
not my own. But it's my belief he says first one thing and 
then another only to abuse his mother. Or else he's going off 
his head, and must be sent to a 'sylum. But if he writes to 
the North Loamshire Herald first, to tell everybody the 
medicines are good for nothing, how can I ever keep him 
and myself?' 
</p>
            <p>'Tell him I shall feel favoured if he will come and see me 
this evening,' said Mr Lyon, not without a little prejudice in 
favour of the young man, whose language about the preacher 
in Malthouse Yard did not seem to him to be altogether 
dreadful. 'Meanwhile, my friend, I counsel you to send up a 
supplication, which I shall not fail to offer also, that you 
may receive a spirit of humility and submission, so that you 
may not be hindered from seeing and following the divine 
guidance in this matter by any false lights of pride and 
obstinacy. Of this more when I have spoken with your son.' 
</p>
            <p>'I'm not proud or obstinate, Mr Lyon. I never did say I 
was everything that was bad, and I never will. And why this 
trouble should be sent on me above everybody else — for I 
haven't told you all. He's made himself a journeyman to 
Mr Prowd the watchmaker — after all this learning — and he 
says he'll go with patches on his knees, and he shall like 
himself the better. And as for his having little boys to teach, 
they'll come in all weathers with dirty shoes. If it's madness, 
Mr Lyon, it's no use your talking to him.' 
</p>
            <p>'We shall see. Perhaps it may even be the disguised 
working of grace within him. We must not judge rashly. Many 
eminent servants of God have been led by ways as strange.' 
</p>
            <p>'Then I'm sorry for their mothers, that's all, Mr Lyon; 
and all the more if they'd been well-spoken-on women. For <pb n="138"/>
not my biggest enemy, whether it's he or she, if they'll 
speak the truth, can turn round and say I've deserved this 
trouble. And when everybody gets their due, and people's 
doings are spoke of on the house-tops, as the Bible says they 
will be, it'll be known what I've gone through with those 
medicines — the pounding, and the pouring, and the letting 
stand, and the weighing — up early and down late — there's 
nobody knows yet but One that's worthy to know; and the 
pasting o' the printed labels right side upwards. There's few 
women would have gone through with it; and it's reasonable 
to think it'll be made up to me; for if there's promised and 
purchased blessings, I should think this trouble is 
purchasing 'em. For if my son Felix doesn't have a strait-waistcoat 
put on him, he'll have his way. But I say no more. I wish you 
good-morning, Mr Lyon, and thank you, though I well 
know it's your duty to act as you're doing. And I never 
troubled you about my own soul, as some do who look down 
on me for not being a church member.' 
</p>
            <p>'Farewell, Mistress Holt, farewell. I pray that a more 
powerful teacher than I am may instruct you.' 
</p>
            <p>The door was closed, and the much-tried Rufus walked 
about again, saying aloud, groaningly — 
</p>
            <p>'This woman has sat under the gospel all her life, and she 
is as blind as a heathen, and as proud and stiff-necked as a 
Pharisee; yet she is one of the souls I watch for. 'Tis true 
that even Sara, the chosen mother of God's people, showed 
a spirit of unbelief, and perhaps of selfish anger; and it is a 
passage that bears the unmistakable signet, “doing honour to 
the wife or woman, as unto the weaker vessel”. For therein 
is the greatest check put on the ready scorn of the natural 
man.' 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c5" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 5</head>
            <pb n="139"/>
            <q>
               <l>1ST CITIZEN  Sir, there's a hurry in the veins of youth </l>
               <l>             That makes a vice of virtue by excess. </l>
               <l>2ND CITIZEN  What if the coolness of our tardier veins </l>
               <l>             Be loss of virtue? </l>
               <l>1ST CITIZEN  All things cool with time — </l>
               <l>             The sun itself, they say, till heat shall find </l>
               <l>             A general level, nowhere in excess. </l>
               <l>2ND CITIZEN  'Tis a poor climax, to my weaker thought, </l>
               <l>             That future middlingness. </l>
            </q>
            <p>IN the evening, when Mr Lyon was expecting the knock at 
the door that would announce Felix Holt, he occupied his 
cushionless arm-chair in the sitting-room, and was 
skimming rapidly, in his short-sighted way, by the light of one 
candle, the pages of a missionary report, emitting 
occasionally a slight 'Hm-m' that appeared to be expressive of 
criticism rather than of approbation. The room was dismally 
furnished, the only objects indicating an intention of 
ornament being a bookcase, a map of the Holy Land, an engraved 
portrait of Dr Doddridge, and a black bust with a coloured 
face, which for some reason or other was covered with green 
gauze. Yet any one whose attention was quite awake must 
have been aware, even on entering, of certain things that 
were incongruous with the general air of sombreness and 
privation. There was a delicate scent of dried rose-leaves; 
the light by which the minister was reading was a 
wax-candle in a white earthenware candlestick, and the table on 
the opposite side of the fireplace held a dainty work-basket 
frilled with blue satin. 
</p>
            <p>Felix Holt, when he entered, was not in an observant 
mood; and when, after seating himself, at the minister's 
invitation, near the little table which held the work-basket, 
he stared at the wax-candle opposite to him, he did so 
without any wonder or consciousness that the candle was not of 
tallow. But the minister's sensitiveness gave another interpretation <pb n="140"/>
to the gaze which he divined rather than saw; and 
in alarm lest this inconsistent extravagance should obstruct 
his usefulness, he hastened to say — 
</p>
            <p>'You are doubtless amazed to see me with a wax-light, 
my young friend; but this undue luxury is paid for with the 
earnings of my daughter, who is so delicately framed that 
the smell of tallow is loathsome to her.' 
</p>
            <p>'I heeded not the candle, sir. I thank Heaven I am not a 
mouse to have a nose that takes note of wax or tallow.' 
</p>
            <p>The loud abrupt tones made the old man vibrate a little. 
He had been stroking his chin gently before, with a sense 
that he must be very quiet and deliberate in his treatment 
of the eccentric young man; but now, quite unreflectingly, 
he drew forth a pair of spectacles, which he was in the habit 
of using when he wanted to observe his interlocutor more 
closely than usual. 
</p>
            <p>'And I myself, in fact, am equally indifferent,' he said, as 
he opened and adjusted his glasses, 'so that I have a 
sufficient light on my book.' Here his large eyes looked 
discerningly through the spectacles. 
</p>
            <p>'Tis the quality of the page you care about, not of the 
candle,' said Felix, smiling pleasantly enough at his 
inspector. 'You're thinking that you have a roughly-written page 
before you now.' 
</p>
            <p>That was true. The minister, accustomed to the 
respectable air of provincial townsmen, and especially to the sleek 
well-clipped gravity of his own male congregation, felt a 
slight shock as his glasses made perfectly clear to him the 
shaggy-headed, large-eyed, strong-limbed person of this 
questionable young man, without waistcoat or cravat. But 
the possibility, supported by some of Mrs Holt's words, that 
a disguised work of grace might be going forward in the son 
of whom she complained so bitterly, checked any hasty 
interpretations. 
</p>
            <p>'I abstain from judging by the outward appearance only,' 
he answered, with his usual simplicity. 'I myself have 
experienced that when the spirit is much exercised it is difficult <pb n="141"/>
to remember neckbands and strings and such small 
accidents of our vesture, which are nevertheless decent and 
needful so long as we sojourn in the flesh. And you too, my 
young friend, as I gather from your mother's troubled and 
confused report, are undergoing some travail of mind. You 
will not, I trust, object to open yourself fully to me, 
as to an aged pastor who has himself had much inward 
wrestling, and has especially known much temptation from 
doubt.' 
</p>
            <p>'As to doubt,' said Felix, loudly and brusquely as before, 
'if it is those absurd medicines and gulling advertisements 
that my mother has been talking of to you — and I suppose 
it is — I've no more doubt about them than I have about 
pocket-picking. I know there's a stage of speculation in 
which a man may doubt whether a pickpocket is 
blame-worthy — but I'm not one of your subtle fellows who keep 
looking at the world through their own legs. If I allowed the 
sale of those medicines to go on, and my mother to live out 
of the proceeds when I can keep her by the honest labour 
of my hands, I've not the least doubt that I should be a 
rascal.' 
</p>
            <p>'I would fain inquire more particularly into your objection 
to these medicines,' said Mr Lyon, gravely. Notwithstanding 
his conscientiousness and a certain originality in his own 
mental disposition, he was too little used to high principle 
quite dissociated from sectarian phraseology to be as 
immediately in sympathy with it as he would otherwise have been. 
'I know they have been well reported of, and many wise 
persons have tried remedies providentially discovered by 
those who are not regular physicians, and have found a 
blessing in the use of them. I may mention the eminent Mr 
Wesley, who, though I hold not altogether with his 
Arminian doctrine, nor with the usages of his institution, was 
nevertheless a man of God; and the journals of various 
Christians whose names have left a sweet savour might be 
cited in the same sense. Moreover, your father, who 
originally concocted these medicines and left them as a provision <pb n="142"/>
for your mother, was, as I understand, a man whose walk 
was not unfaithful.' 
</p>
            <p>'My father was ignorant,' said Felix, bluntly. 'He knew 
neither the complication of the human system, nor the way 
in which drugs counteract each other. Ignorance is not so 
damnable as humbug, but when it prescribes pills it may 
happen to do more harm. I know something about these 
things. I was 'prentice for five miserable years to a stupid 
brute of a country apothecary — my poor father left money 
for that — he thought nothing could be finer for me. No 
matter: I know that the Cathartic Pills are a drastic 
compound which may be as bad as poison to half the people who 
swallow them — that the Elixir is an absurd farrago of a dozen 
incompatible things; and that the Cancer Cure might as 
well be bottled ditch-water.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon rose and walked up and down the room. His 
simplicity was strongly mixed with sagacity as well as 
sectarian prejudice, and he did not rely at once on a 
loud-spoken integrity — Satan might have flavoured it with 
ostentation. Presently he asked in a rapid low tone, 'How 
long have you known this, young man?' 
</p>
            <p>'Well put, sir,' said Felix. 'I've known it a good deal longer 
than I've acted on it, like plenty of other things. But you 
believe in conversion?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yea, verily.' 
</p>
            <p>'So do I. I was converted by six weeks' debauchery.' 
</p>
            <p>The minister started. 'Young man,' he said, solemnly, 
going up close to Felix and laying a hand on his shoulder, 
'speak not lightly of the divine operations, and restrain 
unseemly words.' 
</p>
            <p>'I'm not speaking lightly,' said Felix. 'If I had not seen 
that I was making a hog of myself very fast, and that pig 
wash, even if could have got plenty of it, was a poor sort of 
thing, I should never have looked life fairly in the face to see 
what was to be done with it. I laughed out loud at last to 
think of a poor devil like me, in a Scotch garret, with my 
stockings out at heel and a shilling or two to be dissipated <pb n="143"/>
upon, with a smell of raw haggis mounting from below, and 
old women breathing gin as they passed me on the stairs — 
wanting to turn my life into easy pleasure. Then I began to 
see what else it could be turned into. Not much, perhaps. 
This world is not a very fine place for a good many of the 
people in it. But I've made up my mind it shan't be the 
worse for me, if I can help it. They may tell me I can't alter 
the world — that there must be a certain number of sneaks 
and robbers in it, and if I don't lie and filch somebody else 
will. Well, then, somebody else shall, for I won't. That's the 
upshot of my conversion, Mr Lyon, if you want to know it.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon removed his hand from Felix's shoulder and 
walked about again. 'Did you sit under any preacher at 
Glasgow, young man?' 
</p>
            <p>'No: I heard most of the preachers once, but I never 
wanted to hear them twice.' 
</p>
            <p>The good Rufus was not without a slight rising of 
resentment at this young man's want of reverence. It was not yet 
plain whether he wanted to hear twice the preacher in 
Malthouse Yard. But the resentful feeling was carefully 
repressed: a soul in so peculiar a condition must be dealt 
with delicately. 
</p>
            <p>'And now, may I ask,' he said, 'what course you mean to 
take, after hindering your mother from making and selling 
these drugs? I speak no more in their favour after what you 
have said. God forbid that I should strive to hinder you from 
seeking whatsoever things are honest and honourable. But 
your mother is advanced in years; she needs comfortable 
sustenance; you have doubtless considered how you may 
make her amends? “He that provideth not for his own —” I 
trust you respect the authority that so speaks. And I will 
not suppose that, after being tender of conscience towards 
strangers, you will be careless towards your mother. There 
be indeed some who, taking a mighty charge on their 
shoulders, must perforce leave their households to Providence, 
and to the care of humbler brethren, but in such a case the 
call must be clear.' <pb n="144"/>
            </p>
            <p>'I shall keep my mother as well — nay, better — than she 
has kept herself. She has always been frugal. With my watch 
and clock cleaning, and teaching one or two little chaps that 
I've got to come to me, I can earn enough. As for me, I can 
live on bran porridge. I have the stomach of a rhinoceros.' 
</p>
            <p>'But for a young man so well furnished as you, who can 
questionless write a good hand and keep books, were it not 
well to seek some higher situation as clerk or assistant? I 
could speak to Brother Muscat, who is well acquainted with 
all such openings. Any place in Pendrell's Bank, I fear, is 
now closed against such as are not Churchmen. It used not 
to be so, but a year ago he discharged Brother Bodkin, 
although he was a valuable servant. Still, something might be 
found. There are ranks and degrees — and those who can 
serve in the higher must not unadvisedly change what seems 
to be a providential appointment. Your poor mother is not 
altogether —' 
</p>
            <p>'Excuse me, Mr Lyon; I've had all that out with my 
mother, and I may as well save you any trouble by telling 
you that my mind has been made up about that a long while 
ago. I'll take no employment that obliges me to prop up my 
chin with a high cravat, and wear straps, and pass the 
live-long day with a set of fellows who spend their spare money 
on shirt-pins. That sort of work is really lower than many 
handicrafts; it only happens to be paid out of proportion. 
That's why I set myself to learn the watchmaking trade. My 
father was a weaver first of all. It would have been better for 
him if he had remained a weaver. I came home through 
Lancashire and saw an uncle of mine who is a weaver still. 
I mean to stick to the class I belong to — people who don't 
follow the fashions.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon was silent a few moments. This dialogue was far 
from plain sailing; he was not certain of his latitude and 
longitude. If the despiser of Glasgow preachers had been 
arguing in favour of gin and Sabbath-breaking, Mr Lyon's 
course would have been clearer. 'Well, well,' he said, 
deliberately, 'it is true that St Paul exercised the trade of tent-making, <pb n="145"/>
though he was learned in all the wisdom of the 
Rabbis.' 
</p>
            <p>'St Paul was a wise man,' said Felix. 'Why should I want 
to get into the middle class because I have some learning? 
The most of the middle class are as ignorant as the working 
people about everything that doesn't belong to their own 
Brummagem life. That's how the working men are left to 
foolish devices and keep worsening themselves: the best 
heads among them forsake their born comrades, and go in 
for a house with a high door-step and a brass knocker.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon stroked his mouth and chin, perhaps because he 
felt some disposition to smile; and it would not be well to 
smile too readily at what seemed but a weedy resemblance 
of Christian unworldliness. On the contrary, there might be 
a dangerous snare in an unsanctified outstepping of average 
Christian practice. 
</p>
            <p>'Nevertheless,' he observed, gravely, 'it is by such 
self-advancement that many have been enabled to do good 
service to the cause of liberty and to the public wellbeing. The 
ring and the robe of Joseph were no objects for a good man's 
ambition, but they were the signs of that credit which he 
won by his divinely-inspired skill, and which enabled him to 
act as a saviour to his brethren.' 
</p>
            <p>'O yes, your ringed and scented men of the people! — I 
won't be one of them. Let a man once throttle himself with 
a satin stock, and he'll get new wants and new motives. 
Metamorphosis will have begun at his neck-joint, and it will 
go on till it has changed his likings first and then his 
reasoning, which will follow his likings as the feet of a hungry dog 
follow his nose. I'll have none of your clerkly gentility. I 
might end by collecting greasy pence from poor men to buy 
myself a fine coat and a glutton's dinner, on pretence of 
serving the poor men. I'd sooner be Paley's fat pigeon than 
a demagogue all tongue and stomach, though' — here Felix 
changed his voice a little — 'I should like well enough to be 
another sort of demagogue, if I could.' 
</p>
            <p>'Then you have a strong interest in the great political <pb n="146"/>
movements of these times?' said Mr Lyon, with a 
perceptible flashing of the eyes. 
</p>
            <p>'I should think so. I despise every man who has not — or, 
having it, doesn't try to rouse it in other men.' 
</p>
            <p>'Right, my young friend, right,' said the minister, in a deep 
cordial tone. Inevitably his mind was drawn aside from the 
immediate consideration of Felix Holt's spiritual interest by 
the prospect of political sympathy. In those days so many 
instruments of God's cause in the fight for religious and 
political liberty held creeds that were painfully wrong, and, 
indeed, irreconcilable with salvation ! 'That is my own view, 
which I maintain in the face of some opposition from 
brethren who contend that a share in public movements is a 
hindrance to the closer walk, and that the pulpit is no place 
for teaching men their duties as members of the 
common-wealth. I have had much puerile blame cast upon me because 
I have uttered such names as Brougham and Wellington 
in the pulpit. Why not Wellington as well as Rabshakeh? 
and why not Brougham as well as Balaam?' Does God know 
less of men than He did in the days of Hezekiah and Moses? 
— is His arm shortened, and is the world become too wide for 
His providence? But, they say, there are no politics in the 
New Testament —' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, they're right enough there,' said Felix, with his 
usual unceremoniousness. 
</p>
            <p>'What ! you are of those who hold that a Christian 
minister should not meddle with public matters in the pulpit?' 
said Mr Lyon, colouring. 'I am ready to join issue on that 
point.' 
</p>
            <p>'Not I, sir,' said Felix; 'I should say, teach any truth you 
can, whether it's in the Testament or out of it. It's little 
enough anybody can get hold of, and still less what he can 
drive into the skulls of a pence-counting, parcel-tying 
gcneration, such as mostly fill your chapels.' 
</p>
            <p>'Young man,' said Mr Lyon, pausing in front of Felix. He 
spoke rapidly, as he always did, except when his words were 
specially weighted with emotion: he overflowed with matter, <pb n="147"/>
and in his mind matter was always completely organised 
into words. 'I speak not on my own behalf, for not only have 
I no desire that any man should think of me above that 
which he seeth me to be, but I am aware of much that should 
make me patient under a disesteem resting even on too hasty 
a construction. I speak not as claiming reverence for my own 
age and office — not to shame you, but to warn you. It is good 
that you should use plainness of speech, and I am not of 
those who would enforce a submissive silence on the young, 
that they themselves, being elders, may be heard at large; 
for Elihu was the youngest of Job's friends, yet was there a 
wise rebuke in his words; and the aged Eli was taught by a 
revelation to the boy Samuel. I have to keep a special watch 
over myself in this matter, inasmuch as I have a need of 
utterance which makes the thought within me seem as a 
pent-up fire, until I have shot it forth, as it were, in arrowy 
words, each one hitting its mark. Therefore I pray for a 
listening spirit, which is a great mark of grace. Nevertheless, 
my young friend, I am bound, as I said, to warn you. The 
temptations that most beset those who have great natural 
gifts, and are wise after the flesh, are pride and scorn, more 
particularly towards those weak things of the world which 
have been chosen to confound the things which are mighty. 
The scornful nostril and the high head gather not the odours 
that lie on the track of truth The mind that is too ready at 
contempt and reprobation is —' 
</p>
            <p>Here the door opened, and Mr Lyon paused to look round, 
but seeing only Lyddy with the tea-tray, he went on: 
</p>
            <p>'Is, I may say, as a clenched fist that can give blows, but is 
shut up from receiving and holding ought that is precious — 
though it were heaven-sent manna.' 
</p>
            <p>'I understand you, sir,' said Felix, good-humouredly, 
putting out his hand to the little man, who had come close to 
him as he delivered the last sentence with sudden emphasis 
and slowness. 'But I'm not inclined to clench my fist at 
you.' 
'Well, well,' said Mr Lyon, shaking the proffered hand, <pb n="148"/>
'we shall see more of each other, and I trust shall have much 
profitable communing. You will stay and have a dish of tea 
with us: we take the meal late on Thursdays, because my 
daughter is detained by giving a lesson in the French tongue. 
But she is doubtless returned now, and will presently come 
and pour out tea for us.' 
</p>
            <p>'Thank you; I'll stay,' said Felix, not from any curiosity 
to see the minister's daughter, but from a liking for the 
society of the minister himself — for his quaint looks and 
ways, and the transparency of his talk, which gave a charm 
even to his weaknesses. The daughter was probably some 
prim Miss, neat, sensible, pious, but all in a small feminine 
way, in which Felix was no more interested than in Dorcas 
meetings, biographies of devout women, and that amount 
of ornamental knitting which was not inconsistent with 
Nonconforming seriousness. 
</p>
            <p>'I'm perhaps a little too fond of banging and smashing,' he 
went on; 'a phrenologist at Glasgow told me I had large 
veneration; another man there, who knew me, laughed out 
and said I was the most blasphemous iconoclast living. 
“That,” says my phrenologist, “is because of his large 
Ideality, which prevents him from finding anything perfect 
enough to be venerated.” Of course I put my ears down and 
wagged my tail at that stroking.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, yes; I have had my own head explored with 
somewhat similar results. It is, I fear, but a vain show of fulfilling 
the heathen precept, “Know thyself”, and too often leads to 
a self-estimate which will subsist in the absence of that fruit 
by which alone the quality of the tree is made evident. 
Nevertheless — Esther, my dear, this is Mr Holt, whose 
acquaintance I have even now been making with more than 
ordinary interest. He will take tea with us.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther bowed slightly as she walked across the room to 
fetch the candle and place it near her tray. Felix rose and 
bowed, also with an air of indifference, which was perhaps 
exaggerated by the fact that he was inwardly surprised. The 
minister's daughter was not the sort of person he expected. <pb n="149"/>
She was quite incongruous with his notion of ministers' 
daughters in general; and though he had expected 
something nowise delightful, the incongruity repelled him. A 
very delicate scent, the faint suggestion of a garden, was 
wafted as she went. He would not observe her, but he had a 
sense of an elastic walk, the tread of small feet, a long neck 
and a high crown of shining brown plaits with curls that 
floated backward — things, in short, that suggested a fine lady 
to him, and determined him to notice her as little as possible. 
A fine lady was always a sort of spun-glass affair — not 
natural, and with no beauty for him as art; but a fine lady 
as the daughter of this rusty old Puritan was especially 
offensive. 
</p>
            <p>'Nevertheless,' continued Mr Lyon, who rarely let drop 
any thread of discourse, 'that phrenological science is not 
irreconcilable with the revealed dispensations. And it is 
undeniable that we have our varying native dispositions which 
even grace will not obliterate. I myself, from my youth up, 
have been given to question too curiously concerning the 
truth — to examine and sift the medicine of the soul rather 
than to apply it.' 
</p>
            <p>'If your truth happens to be such medicine as Holt's Pills 
and Elixir, the less you swallow of it the better,' said Felix. 
'But truth-vendors and medicine-vendors usually 
recommend swallowing. When a man sees his livelihood in a pill or 
a proposition, he likes to have orders for the dose, and not 
curious inquiries.' 
</p>
            <p>This speech verged on rudeness, but it was delivered with 
a brusque openness that implied the absence of any personal 
intention. The minister's daughter was now for the first time 
startled into looking at Felix. But her survey of this unusual 
speaker was soon made, and she relieved her father from the 
need to reply by saying — 
</p>
            <p>'The tea is poured out, father.' 
</p>
            <p>That was the signal for Mr Lyon to advance towards the 
table, raise his right hand, and ask a blessing at sufficient 
length for Esther to glance at the visitor again. There seemed <pb n="150"/>
to be no danger of his looking at her; he was observing her 
father. She had time to remark that he was a 
peculiar-looking person, but not insignificant, which was the quality that 
most hopelessly consigned a man to perdition. He was 
massively built. The striking points in his face were large clear 
grey eyes and full lips. 
'Will you draw up to the table, Mr Holt?' said the minister. 
</p>
            <p>In the act of rising, Felix pushed back his chair too 
suddenly against the rickety table close by him, and down went 
the blue-frilled work-basket, flying open, and dispersing on 
the floor reels, thimble, muslin work, a small sealed bottle 
of atta of rose, and something heavier than these — a 
duodecimo volume which fell close to him between the table 
and the fender. 
</p>
            <p>'O my stars !' said Felix, 'I beg your pardon.' Esther had 
already started up, and with wonderful quickness had picked 
up half the small rolling things while Felix was lifting the 
basket and the book. This last had opened, and had its leaves 
crushed in falling; and, with the instinct of a bookish man, 
he saw nothing more pressing to be done than to flatten the 
corners of the leaves. 
</p>
            <p>'Byron's Poems!' he said, in a tone of disgust, while Esther 
was recovering all the other articles. ' “The Dream”  — 
he'd better have been asleep and snoring. What! do you 
stuff your memory with Byron, Miss Lyon?' 
</p>
            <p>Felix, on his side, was led at last to look straight at Esther, 
but it was with a strong denunciatory and pedagogic 
intention. Of course he saw more clearly than ever that she was a 
fine lady. 
</p>
            <p>She reddened, drew up her long neck, and said, as she 
retreated to her chair again — 
</p>
            <p>'I have a great admiration for Byron.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon had paused in the act of drawing his chair to the 
tea-table, and was looking on at this scene, wrinkling the 
corners of his eyes with a perplexed smile. Esther would not 
have wished him to know anything about the volume of 
Byron, but she was too proud to show any concern. <pb n="151"/>
            </p>
            <p>'He is a worldly and vain writer, I fear,' said Mr Lyon. 
He knew scarcely anything of the poet, whose books 
embodied the faith and ritual of many young ladies and 
gentlemen. 
</p>
            <p>'A misanthropic debauchee,' said Felix, lifting a chair 
with one hand, and holding the book open in the other, 
'whose notion of a hero was that he should disorder his 
stomach and despise mankind. His corsairs and renegades, 
his Alps and Manfreds, are the most paltry puppets that 
were ever pulled by the strings of lust and pride.' 
</p>
            <p>'Hand the book to me,' said Mr Lyon. 
</p>
            <p>'Let me beg of you to put it aside till after tea, father,' 
said Esther. 'However objectionable Mr Holt may find its 
pages, they would certainly be made worse by being greased 
with bread-and-butter.' 
</p>
            <p>'That is true, my dear,' said Mr Lyon, laying down the 
book on the small table behind him. He saw that his 
daughter was angry. 
</p>
            <p>'Ho, ho!' thought Felix, 'her father is frightened at her. 
How came he to have such a nice-stepping, long-necked 
peacock for his daughter? but she shall see that I am not 
frightened.' Then he said aloud, 'I should like to know how 
you will justify your admiration for such a writer, Miss 
Lyon.' 
</p>
            <p>'I should not attempt it with you, Mr Holt,' said Esther. 
'You have such strong words at command, that they make 
the smallest argument seem formidable. If I had ever met 
the giant Cormoran, I should have made a point of 
agreeing with him in his literary opinions.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther had that excellent thing in woman, a soft voice 
with a clear fluent utterance. Her sauciness was always 
charming, because it was without emphasis, and was 
accompanied with graceful little turns of the head. 
</p>
            <p>Felix laughed at her thrust with young heartiness. 
</p>
            <p>'My daughter is a critic of words, Mr Holt,' said the 
minister, smiling complacently, 'and often corrects mine on the 
ground of niceties, which I profess are as dark to me as if <pb n="152"/>
they were the reports of a sixth sense which I possess not. I 
am an eager seeker for precision, and would fain find 
language subtle enough to follow the utmost intricacies of the 
soul's pathways, but I see not why a round word that means 
some object, made and blessed by the Creator, should be 
branded and banished as a malefactor.' 
</p>
            <p>'O, your niceties — I know what they are,' said Felix, in his 
usual fortissimo. 'They all go on your system of 
make-believe. “Rottenness” may suggest what is unpleasant, so 
you'd better say “sugar-plums”, or something else such a 
long way off the fact that nobody is obliged to think of 
it. Those are your round-about euphuisms that dress up 
swindling till it looks as well as honesty, and shoot with 
boiled pease instead of bullets. I hate your gentlemanly 
speakers.' 
</p>
            <p>'Then you would not like Mr Jermyn, I think,' said Esther. 
'That reminds me, father, that to-day, when I was giving 
Miss Louisa Jermyn her lesson, Mr Jermyn came in and 
spoke to me with grand politeness, and asked me at what 
times you were likely to be disengaged, because he wished 
to make your better acquaintance, and consult you on 
matters of importance. He never took the least notice of me 
before. Can you guess the reason of his sudden 
ceremoniousness?' 
</p>
            <p>'Nay, child,' said the minister, ponderingly. 
</p>
            <p>'Politics, of course,' said Felix. 'He's on some committee. 
An election is coming. Universal peace is declared, and the 
foxes have a sincere interest in prolonging the lives of the 
poultry. Eh, Mr Lyon? Isn't that it?' 
</p>
            <p>'Nay, not so. He is the close ally of the Transome family, 
who are blind hereditary Tories like the Debarrys, and will 
drive their tenants to the poll as if they were sheep. And it 
has even been hinted that the heir who is coming from the 
East may be another Tory candidate, and coalesce with the 
younger Debarry. It is said that he has enormous wealth, 
and could purchase every vote in the county that has a 
price.' <pb n="153"/>
            </p>
            <p>'He is come,' said Esther. 'I heard Miss Jermyn tell her 
sister that she had seen him going out of her father's room.' 
</p>
            <p>' 'Tis strange,' said Mr Lyon. 
</p>
            <p>'Something extraordinary must have happened,' said 
Esther, 'for Mr Jermyn to intend courting us. Miss Jermyn 
said to me only the other day that she could not think how I 
came to be so well educated and ladylike. She always thought 
Dissenters were ignorant, vulgar people. I said, so they were, 
usually, and Church people also in small towns. She 
considers herself a judge of what is ladylike, and she is vulgarity 
personified — with large feet, and the most odious scent on 
her handkerchief, and a bonnet that looks like “The 
Fashion” printed in capital letters.' 
</p>
            <p>'One sort of fine ladyism is as good as another,' said Felix. 
</p>
            <p>'No, indeed. Pardon me,' said Esther. 'A real fine-lady 
does not wear clothes that flare in people's eyes, or use 
importunate scents, or make a noise as she moves: she is 
something refined, and graceful, and charming, and never 
obtrusive.' 
</p>
            <p>'O yes,' said Felix, contemptuously. 'And she reads Byron 
also, and admires Childe Harold — gentlemen of 
unspeakable woes, who employ a hairdresser, and look seriously at 
themselves in the glass.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther reddened, and gave a little toss. Felix went on 
triumphantly. 'A fine lady is a squirrel-headed thing, with 
small airs and small notions, about as applicable to the 
business of life as a pair of tweezers to the clearing of a 
forest. Ask your father what those old persecuted emigrant 
Puritans would have done with fine-lady wives and 
daughters.' 
</p>
            <p>'O there is no danger of such misalliances,' said Esther. 
'Men who are unpleasant companions and make frights of 
themselves, are sure to get wives tasteless enough to suit 
them.' 
</p>
            <p>'Esther, my dear,' said Mr Lyon, 'let not your playfulness 
betray you into disrespect towards those venerable pilgrims. 
They struggled and endured in order to cherish and plant <pb n="154"/>
anew the seeds of scriptural doctrine and of a pure 
discipline.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, I know,' said Esther, hastily, dreading a discourse 
on the pilgrim fathers. 
</p>
            <p>'O they were an ugly lot!' Felix burst in, making Mr 
Lyon start. 'Miss Medora wouldn't have minded if they 
had all been put into the pillory and lost their ears. She 
would have said, “Their ears did stick out so.” I shouldn't 
wonder if that's a bust of one of them.' Here Felix, with 
sudden keenness of observation, nodded at the black bust 
with the gauze over its coloured face. 
</p>
            <p>'No,' said Mr Lyon; 'that is the eminent George 
Whitfield, who, you well know, had a gift of oratory as of one 
on whom the tongue of flame had rested visibly. But 
Providence — doubtless for wise ends in relation to the inner 
man, for I would not inquire too closely into minutiae which 
carry too many plausible interpretations for any one of them 
to be stable — Providence, I say, ordained that the good man 
should squint; and my daughter has not yet learned to bear 
with this infirmity.' 
</p>
            <p>'So she has put a veil over it. Suppose you had squinted 
yourself?' said Felix, looking at Esther. 
</p>
            <p>'Then, doubtless, you could have been more polite to me, 
Mr Holt,' said Esther, rising and placing herself at her 
worktable. 'You seem to prefer what is unusual and ugly.' 
</p>
            <p>'A peacock!' thought Felix. 'I should like to come and 
scold her every day, and make her cry and cut her fine hair 
off.' 
</p>
            <p>Felix rose to go, and said, 'I will not take up more of your 
valuable time, Mr Lyon. I know that you have not many 
spare evenings.' 
</p>
            <p>'That is true, my young friend; for I now go to Sproxton 
one evening in the week. I do not despair that we may some 
day need a chapel there, though the hearers do not multiply 
save among the women, and there is no work as yet begun 
among the miners themselves. I shall be glad of your 
company in my walk thither to-morrow at five o'clock, if you <pb n="155"/>
would like to see how that population has grown of late 
years.' 
</p>
            <p>'O, I've been to Sproxton already several times. I had a 
congregation of my own there last Sunday evening.' 
</p>
            <p>'What! do you preach?' said Mr Lyon, with a brightened 
glance 
</p>
            <p>'Not exactly. I went to the ale-house.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon started. 'I trust you are putting a riddle to me, 
young man, even as Samson did to his companions. From 
what you said but lately, it cannot be that you are given to 
tippling and to taverns.' 
</p>
            <p>'O, I don't drink much. I order a pint of beer, and I get 
into talk with the fellows over their pots and pipes. 
Somebody must take a little knowledge and common sense to 
them in this way, else how are they to get it? I go for 
educating the non-electors, so I put myself in the way of my 
pupils — my academy is the beer-house. I'll walk with you 
to-morrow with great pleasure.' 
</p>
            <p>'Do so, do so,' said Mr Lyon, shaking hands with his old 
acquaintance. 'We shall understand each other better 
by-and-by, I doubt not.' 
</p>
            <p>'I wish you good-evening, Miss Lyon.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther bowed very slightly, without speaking. 
</p>
            <p>'That is a singular young man, Esther,' said the minister, 
walking about after Felix was gone. 'I discern in him a love 
for whatsoever things are honest and true, which I would 
fain believe to be an earnest of further endowment with the 
wisdom that is from on high. It is true that, as the traveller 
in the desert is often lured, by a false vision of water and 
freshness, to turn aside from the track which leads to the 
tried and established fountains, so the Evil One will take 
advantage of a natural yearning towards the better, to 
delude the soul with a self-flattering belief in a visionary 
virtue, higher than the ordinary fruits of the Spirit. But I 
trust it is not so here. I feel a great enlargement in this 
young man's presence, notwithstanding a certain licence in 
his language, which I shall use my efforts to correct.' <pb n="156"/>
            </p>
            <p>'I think he is very coarse and rude,' said Esther, with a 
touch of temper in her voice. 'But he speaks better English 
than most of our visitors. What is his occupation?' 
</p>
            <p>'Watch and clock making, by which, together with a little 
teaching, as I understand, he hopes to maintain his mother, 
not thinking it right that she should live by the sale of 
medicines whose virtues he distrusts. It is no common 
scruple.' 
</p>
            <p>'Dear me,' said Esther, 'I thought he was something 
higher than that.' She was disappointed. 
</p>
            <p>Felix, on his side, as he strolled out in the evening air, 
said to himself: 'Now by what fine meshes of circumstance 
did that queer devout old man, with his awful creed, which 
makes this world a vestibule with double doors to hell, and 
a narrow stair on one side whereby the thinner sort may 
mount to heaven — by what subtle play of flesh and spirit 
did he come to have a daughter so little in his own likeness? 
Married foolishly, I suppose. I'll never marry, though I 
should have to live on raw turnips to subdue my flesh. I'll 
never look back and say, “I had a fine purpose once — I meant 
to keep my hands clean, and my soul upright, and to look 
truth in the face; but pray excuse me, I have a wife and 
children — I must lie and simper a little, else they'll starve ! “ 
or, “My wife is nice, she must have her bread well buttered, 
and her feelings will be hurt if she is not thought genteel.” 
That is the lot Miss Esther is preparing for some man or 
other. I could grind my teeth at such self-satisfied minxes, 
who think they can tell everybody what is the correct thing, 
and the utmost stretch of their ideas will not place them 
on a level with the intelligent fleas. I should like to see if she 
could be made ashamed of herself.' 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c6" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 6</head>
            <pb n="157"/>
            <q>
               <l>'Though she be dead, yet let me think she lives, </l>
               <l>And feed my mind, that dies for want of her.' </l>
               <l>MARLOWE: Tamburlaine the Great. </l>
            </q>
            <p>HARDLY any one in Treby who thought at all of Mr Lyon 
and his daughter had not felt the same sort of wonder about 
Esther as Felix felt. She was not much liked by her father's 
church and congregation. The less serious observed that she 
had too many airs and graces, and held her head much too 
high; the stricter sort feared greatly that Mr Lyon had not 
been sufficiently careful in placing his daughter among 
God-fearing people, and that, being led astray by the 
melancholy vanity of giving her exceptional accomplishments, he 
had sent her to a French school, and allowed her to take 
situations where she had contracted notions not only above 
her own rank, but of too worldly a kind to be safe in any 
rank. But no one knew what sort of woman her mother 
had been, for Mr Lyon never spoke of his past domesticities. 
When he was chosen as pastor at Treby in 1825, it was 
understood that he had been a widower many years, and he 
had no companion but the tearful and much-exercised 
Lyddy, his daughter being still at school. It was only two 
years ago that Esther had come home to live permanently 
with her father, and take pupils in the town. Within that 
time she had excited a passion in two young Dissenting 
breasts that were clad in the best style of Treby waistcoat — 
a garment which at that period displayed much design both 
in the stuff and the wearer; and she had secured an 
astonished admiration of her cleverness from the girls of various 
ages who were her pupils; indeed, her knowledge of French 
was generally held to give a distinction to Treby itself as 
compared with other market-towns. But she had won little 
regard of any other kind. Wise Dissenting matrons were 
divided between fear lest their sons should want to marry <pb n="158"/>
her and resentment that she should treat those 'undeniable' 
young men with a distant scorn which was hardly to be 
tolerated in a minister's daughter; not only because that 
parentage appeared to entail an obligation to show an 
exceptional degree of Christian humility, but because, looked 
at from a secular point of view, a poor minister must be 
below the substantial householders who kept him. For at 
that time the preacher who was paid under the Voluntary 
system was regarded by his flock with feelings not less mixed 
than the spiritual person who still took his tithe-pig or 
his modus. His gifts were admired, and tears were shed 
under best bonnets at his sermons; but the weaker tea was 
thought good enough for him; and even when he went to 
preach a charity sermon in a strange town, he was treated 
with home-made wine and the smaller bedroom. As the 
good churchman's reverence was often mixed with growling, 
and was apt to be given chiefly to an abstract parson who 
was what a parson ought to be, so the good Dissenter 
sometimes mixed his approval of ministerial gifts with 
considerable criticism and cheapening of the human vessel which 
contained these treasures. Mrs Muscat and Mrs Nuttwood 
applied the principle of Christian equality by remarking 
that Mr Lyon had his oddities, and that he ought not to 
allow his daughter to indulge in such unbecoming 
expenditure on her gloves, shoes, and hosiery, even if she did 
pay for them out of her earnings. As for the Church people 
who engaged Miss Lyon to give lessons in their families, 
their imaginations were altogether prostrated by the 
incongruity between accomplishments and Dissent, between 
weekly prayer-meetings and a conversance with so lively 
and altogether worldly a language as the French. Esther's 
own mind was not free from a sense of irreconcilableness 
between the objects of her taste and the conditions of her 
lot. She knew that Dissenters were looked down upon by 
those whom she regarded as the most refined classes; her 
favourite companions, both in France and at an English 
school where she had been a junior teacher, had thought <pb n="159"/>
it quite ridiculous to have a father who was a Dissenting 
preacher; and when an ardently admiring schoolfellow 
induced her parents to take Esther as a governess to the 
younger children, all her native tendencies towards luxury, 
fastidiousness, and scorn of mock gentility, were 
strengthened by witnessing the habits of a well-born and wealthy 
family. Yet the position of servitude was irksome to her, 
and she was glad at last to live at home with her father; 
for though, throughout her girlhood, she had wished to 
avoid this lot, a little experience had taught her to prefer 
its comparative independence. But she was not contented 
with her life: she seemed to herself to be surrounded with 
ignoble, uninteresting conditions, from which there was 
no issue; for even if she had been unamiable enough to 
give her father pain deliberately, it would have been no 
satisfaction to her to go to Treby church, and visibly turn 
her back on Dissent. It was not religious differences, but 
social differences, that Esther was concerned about, and 
her ambitious taste would have been no more gratified 
in the society of the Waces than in that of the Muscats. 
The Waces spoke imperfect English and played whist; the 
Muscats spoke the same dialect and took in the Evangelical 
Magazine. Esther liked neither of these amusements. She 
had one of those exceptional organisations which are quick 
and sensitive without being in the least morbid; she was 
alive to the finest shades of manner, to the nicest 
distinctions of tone and accent; she had a little code of her own 
about scents and colours, textures and behaviour, by which 
she secretly condemned or sanctioned all things and 
persons. And she was well satisfied with herself for her 
fastidious taste, never doubting that hers was the highest 
standard. She was proud that the best-born and 
handsomest girls at school had always said that she might be 
taken for a born lady. Her own pretty instep, clad in a silk 
stocking, her little heel, just rising from a kid slipper, her 
irreproachable nails and delicate wrist, were the objects of 
delighted consciousness to her; and she felt that it was her <pb n="160"/>
superiority which made her unable to use without disgust 
any but the finest cambric handkerchiefs and freshest gloves. 
Her money all went in the gratification of these nice tastes, 
and she saved nothing from her earnings. I cannot say that 
she had any pangs of conscience on this score; for she felt 
sure that she was generous: she hated all meanness, would 
empty her purse impulsively on some sudden appeal to her 
pity, and if she found out that her father had a want, she 
would supply it with some pretty device of a surprise. But 
then the good man so seldom had a want — except the 
perpetual desire, which she could never gratify, of seeing her 
under convictions, and fit to become a member of the 
church. 
</p>
            <p>As for little Mr Lyon, he loved and admired this 
unregenerate child more, he feared, than was consistent with 
the due preponderance of impersonal and ministerial 
regards: he prayed and pleaded for her with tears, humbling 
himself for her spiritual deficiencies in the privacy of his 
study; and then he came downstairs to find himself in 
timorous subjection to her wishes, lest, as he inwardly said, 
he should give his teaching an ill savour, by mingling it 
with outward crossing. There will be queens in spite of 
Salic or other laws of later date than Adam and Eve; and 
here, in this small dingy house of the minister in 
Malthouse Yard, there was a light-footed, sweet-voiced Queen 
Esther. 
</p>
            <p>The stronger will always rule, say some, with an air of 
confidence which is like a lawyer's flourish, forbidding 
exceptions or additions. But what is strength? Is it blind 
wilfulness that sees no terrors, no many-linked consequences, no 
bruises and wounds of those whose cords it tightens? Is it 
the narrowness of a brain that conceives no needs differing 
from its own, and looks to no results beyond the bargains 
of to-day; that tugs with emphasis for every small purpose, 
and thinks it weakness to exercise the sublime power of 
resolved renunciation? There is a sort of subjection which 
is the peculiar heritage of largeness and of love; and <pb n="161"/>
strength is often only another name for willing bondage to 
irremediable weakness 
</p>
            <p>Esther had affection for her father: she recognised the 
purity of his character, and a quickness of intellect in him 
which responded to her own liveliness, in spite of what 
seemed a dreary piety, which selected everything that was 
least interesting and romantic in life and history. But his 
old clothes had a smoky odour, and she did not like to 
walk with him, because, when people spoke to him in the 
street, it was his wont, instead of remarking on the weather 
and passing on, to pour forth in an absent manner some 
reflections that were occupying his mind about the traces of 
the divine government, or about a peculiar incident narrated 
in the life of the eminent Mr Richard Baxter. Esther had 
a horror of appearing ridiculous even in the eyes of vulgar 
Trebians. She fancied that she should have loved her mother 
better than she was able to love her father; and she wished 
she could have remembered that mother more thoroughly. 
</p>
            <p>But she had no more than a broken vision of the time 
before she was five years old — the time when the word 
oftenest on her lips was 'Mamma;' when a low voice spoke 
caressing French words to her, and she in her turn repeated 
the words to her rag-doll; when a very small white hand, 
different from any that came after, used to pat her, and 
stroke her, and tie on her frock and pinafore, and when at 
last there was nothing but sitting with a doll on a bed 
where mamma was lying, till her father once carried her 
away. Where distinct memory began, there was no longer 
the low caressing voice and the small white hand. She knew 
that her mother was a Frenchwoman, that she had been 
in want and distress, and that her maiden name was Annette 
Ledru. Her father had told her no more than this; and 
once, in her childhood, when she had asked him some 
question, he had said, 'My Esther, until you are a woman, 
we will only think of your mother: when you are about to 
be married and leave me, we will speak of her, and I will 
deliver to you her ring and all that was hers; but, without <pb n="162"/>
a great command laid upon me, I cannot pierce my heart 
by speaking of that which was and is lost.' Esther had never 
forgotten these words, and the older she became, the more 
impossible she felt it that she should urge her father with 
questions about the past. 
</p>
            <p>His inability to speak of that past to her depended on 
manifold causes. Partly it came from an initial concealment. 
He had not the courage to tell Esther that he was not really 
her father: he had not the courage to renounce that hold 
on her tenderness which the belief in his natural fatherhood 
must help to give him, or to incur any resentment that her 
quick spirit might feel at having been brought up under a 
false supposition. But there were other things yet more 
difficult for him to be quite open about — deep sorrows of 
his life as a Christian minister that were hardly to be told to 
a girl. 
</p>
            <p>Twenty-two years before, when Rufus Lyon was no more 
than thirty-six years old, he was the admired pastor of a 
large Independent congregation in one of our southern 
seaport towns. He was unmarried, and had met all 
exhortations of friends who represented to him that a bishop — i.e., 
the overseer of an Independent church and congregation — 
should be the husband of one wife, by saying that St Paul 
meant this particular as a limitation, and not as an 
injunction; that a minister was permitted to have one wife, but 
that he, Rufus Lyon, did not wish to avail himself of that 
permission, finding his studies and other labours of his 
vocation all-absorbing, and seeing that mothers in Israel 
were sufficiently provided by those who had not been set 
apart for a more special work. His church and congregation 
were proud of him: he was put forward on platforms, was 
made a 'deputation,' and was requested to preach 
anniversary sermons in far-off towns. Wherever noteworthy 
preachers were discussed, Rufus Lyon was almost sure to 
be mentioned as one who did honour to the Independent 
body; his sermons were said to be full of study yet full of 
fire; and while he had more of human knowledge than <pb n="163"/>
many of his brethren, he showed in an eminent degree the 
marks of a true ministerial vocation. But on a sudden this 
burning and shining light seemed to be quenched: Mr 
Lyon voluntarily resigned his charge and withdrew from the 
town. 
</p>
            <p>A terrible crisis had come upon him; a moment in which 
religious doubt and newly-awakened passion had rushed 
together in a common flood, and had paralysed his 
ministerial gifts. His life of thirty-six years had been a story of 
purely religious and studious fervour; his passion had been 
for doctrines, for argumentative conquest on the side of 
right; the sins he had had chiefly to pray against had been 
those of personal ambition (under such forms as ambition 
takes in the mind of a man who has chosen the career of 
an Independent preacher), and those of a too restless 
intellect, ceaselessly urging questions concerning the mystery 
of that which was assuredly revealed, and thus hindering 
the due nourishment of the soul on the substance of the 
truth delivered. Even at that time of comparative youth, 
his unworldliness and simplicity in small matters (for he was 
keenly awake to the larger affairs of this world) gave a 
certain oddity to his manners and appearance; and though 
his sensitive face had much beauty, his person altogether 
seemed so irrelevant to a fashionable view of things, that 
well-dressed ladies and gentlemen usually laughed at him, 
as they probably did at Mr John Milton after the 
Restoration and ribbons had come in, and still more at that apostle, 
of weak bodily presence, who preached in the back streets 
of Ephesus and elsewhere, a new view of a new religion 
that hardly anybody believed in. Rufus Lyon was the 
singular-looking apostle of the meeting in Skipper's Lane. 
Was it likely that any romance should befall such a man? 
Perhaps not; but romance did befall him. 
</p>
            <p>One winter's evening in 1812, Mr Lyon was returning from 
a village preaching. He walked at his usual rapid rate, with 
busy thoughts undistracted by any sight more distinct than 
the bushes and hedgerow trees, black beneath a faint moon-light, <pb n="164"/>
until something suggested to him that he had perhaps 
omitted to bring away with him a thin account-book in 
which he recorded certain subscriptions. He paused, 
unfastened his outer coat and felt in all his pockets, then he 
took off his hat and looked inside it. The book was not to be 
found, and he was about to walk on, when he was startled 
by hearing a low, sweet voice say, with a suong foreign 
accent — 
'Have pity on me, sir.' 
</p>
            <p>Searching with his short-sighted eyes, he perceived some 
one on a side-bank; and approaching, he found a young 
woman with a baby on her lap. She spoke again, more 
faintly than before — 
</p>
            <p>'Sir, I die with hunger; in the name of God take the little 
one.' 
</p>
            <p>There was no distrusting the pale face and the sweet low 
voice. Without pause, Mr Lyon took the baby in his arms 
and said, 'Can you walk by my side, young woman?' 
</p>
            <p>She rose, but seemed tottering. 'Lean on me,' said Mr 
Lyon. And so they walked slowly on, the minister for the 
first time in his life carrying a baby. 
</p>
            <p>Nothing better occurred to him than to take his charge 
to his own house; it was the simplest way of relieving the 
woman's wants, and finding out how she could be helped 
further; and he thought of no other possibilities. She was 
too feeble for more words to be spoken between them till 
she was seated by his fireside. His elderly servant was not 
easily amazed at anything her master did in the way of 
charity, and at once took the baby, while Mr Lyon 
unfastened the mother's damp bonnet and shawl, and gave 
her something warm to drink. Then, waiting by her till it 
was time to offer her more, he had nothing to do but to 
notice the loveliness of her face, which seemed to him as 
that of an angel, with a benignity in its repose that carried 
a more assured sweetness than any smile. Gradually she 
revived, lifted up her delicate hands between her face and 
the firelight, and looked at the baby which lay opposite to <pb n="165"/>
her on the old servant's lap, taking in spoonfuls with much 
content, and stretching out naked feet towards the warmth. 
Then, as her consciousness of relief grew into contrasting 
memory, she lifted up her eyes to Mr Lyon, who stood close 
by her, and said, in her pretty broken way — 
</p>
            <p>'I knew you had a good heart when you took your hat 
off. You seemed to me as the image of the bien-aime Saint 
Jean.' 
</p>
            <p>The grateful glance of those blue-grey eyes, with their 
long shadow-making eyelashes, was a new kind of good to 
Rufus Lyon; it seemed to him as if a woman had never 
really looked at him before. Yet this poor thing was 
apparently a blind French Catholic — of delicate nurture, surely, 
judging from her hands. He was in a tremor; he felt that 
it would be rude to question her, and he only urged her now 
to take a little food. She accepted it with evident enjoyment, 
looking at the child continually, and then, with a fresh 
burst of gratitude, leaning forward to press the servant's 
hand, and say, 'O, you are good!' Then she looked up at 
Mr Lyon again and said, 'Is there in the world a prettier 
marmot?” 
</p>
            <p>The evening passed; a bed was made up for the strange 
woman, and Mr Lyon had not asked her so much as her 
name. He never went to bed himself that night. He spent it 
in misery, enduring a horrible assault of Satan. He thought 
a frenzy had seized him. Wild visions of an impossible 
future thrust themselves upon him. He dreaded lest the 
woman had a husband; he wished that he might call her 
his own, that he might worship her beauty, that she might 
love and caress him. And what to the mass of men would 
have been only one of many allowable follies — a transient 
fascination, to be dispelled by daylight and contact with 
those common facts of which common-sense is the reflex — 
was to him a spiritual convulsion. He was as one who raved, 
and knew that he raved. These mad wishes were 
irreconcilable with what he was, and must be, as a Christian 
minister; nay, penetrating his soul as tropic heat penetrates the <pb n="166"/>
frame, and changes for it all aspects and all flavours, they 
were irreconcilable with that conception of the world which 
made his faith. All the busy doubt which had before been 
mere impish shadows flitting around a belief that was strong 
with the strength of an unswerving moral bias, had now 
gathered blood and substance. The questioning spirit had 
become suddenly bold and blasphemous: it no longer 
insinuated scepticism — it prompted defiance; it no longer 
expressed cool inquisitive thought, but was the voice of a 
passionate mood. Yet he never ceased to regard it as the 
voice of the tempter: the conviction which had been the 
law of his better life remained within him as a conscience. 
</p>
            <p>The struggle of that night was an abridgment of all the 
struggles that came after. Quick souls have their intensest 
life in the first anticipatory sketch of what may or will be, 
and the pursuit of their wish is the pursuit of that paradisaic 
vision which only impelled them, and is left farther and 
farther behind, vanishing for ever even out of hope in the 
moment which is called success. 
</p>
            <p>The next morning Mr Lyon heard his guest's history. 
She was the daughter of a French officer of considerable 
rank, who had fallen in the Russian campaign. She had 
escaped from France to England with much difficulty in 
order to rejoin her husband, a young Englishman, to whom 
she had become attached during his detention as a prisoner 
of war on parole at Vesoul, where she was living under the 
charge of some relatives, and to whom she had been married 
without the consent of her family. Her husband had served 
in the Hanoverian army, had obtained his discharge in 
order to visit England on some business, with the nature of 
which she was not acquainted, and had been taken prisoner 
as a suspected spy. A short time after their marriage he 
and his fellow-prisoners had been moved to a town nearer 
the coast, and she had remained in wretched uncertainty 
about him, until at last a letter had come from him telling 
her that an exchange of prisoners had occurred, that he was 
in England, that she must use her utmost effort to follow 
him, and that on arriving on English ground she must send <pb n="167"/>
him word under a cover which he enclosed, bearing an 
address in London. Fearing the opposition of her friends, 
she started unknown to them, with a very small supply of 
money; and after enduring much discomfort and many 
fears in waiting for a passage, which she at last got in a 
small trading smack, she arrived at Southampton — ill. 
Before she was able to write her baby was born; and before 
her husband's answer came, she had been obliged to pawn 
some clothes and trinkets. He desired her to travel to 
London, where he would meet her at the Belle Sauvage, adding 
that he was himself in distress and unable to come to her: 
when once he was in London they would take ship and quit 
the country. Arrived at the Belle Sauvage, the poor thing 
waited three days in vain for her husband: on the fourth 
a letter came in a strange hand, saying that in his last 
moments he had desired this letter to be written to inform 
her of his death, and recommend her to return to her 
friends. She could choose no other course, but she had soon 
been reduced to walking, that she might save her pence to 
buy bread with; and on the evening when she made her 
appeal to Mr Lyon, she had pawned the last thing, over and 
above needful clothing, that she could persuade herself to 
part with. The things she had not borne to part with were 
her marriage-ring and a locket containing her husband's 
hair, and bearing his baptismal name. This locket, she said, 
exactly resembled one worn by her husband on his 
watch-chain, only that his bore the name Annette, and contained 
a lock of her hair. The precious trifle now hung round her 
neck by a cord, for she had sold the small gold chain which 
formerly held it. 
</p>
            <p>The only guarantee of this story, besides the exquisite 
candour of her face, was a small packet of papers which she 
carried in her pocket, consisting of her husband's few 
letters, the letter which announced his death, and her 
marriage certificate. It was not so probable a story as that of 
many an inventive vagrant; but Mr Lyon did not doubt it 
for a moment. It was impossible to him to suspect this 
angelic-faced woman, but he had strong suspicions concerning <pb n="168"/>
her husband. He could not help being glad that she had 
not retained the address he had desired her to send to in 
London, as that removed any obvious means of learning 
particulars about him. But inquiries might have been made 
at Vesoul by letter, and her friends there might have been 
appealed to. A consciousness, not to be quite silenced, told 
Mr Lyon that this was the course he ought to take, but it 
would have required an energetic self-conquest, and he was 
excused from it by Annette's own disinclination to return 
to her relatives if any other acceptable possibility could be 
found. 
</p>
            <p>He dreaded, with a violence of feeling which surmounted 
all struggles, lest anything should take her away, and place 
such barriers between them as would make it unlikely or 
impossible that she should ever love him well enough to 
become his wife. Yet he saw with perfect clearness that 
unless he tore up this mad passion by the roots, his 
ministerial usefulness would be frustrated, and the repose of his 
soul would be destroyed. This woman was an unregenerate 
Catholic; ten minutes' listening to her artless talk made that 
plain to him: even if her position had been less equivocal, 
to unite himself to such a woman was nothing less than a 
spiritual fall. It was already a fall that he had wished there 
was no high purpose to which he owed an allegiance — that 
he had longed to fly to some backwoods where there was 
no church to reproach him, and where he might have this 
sweet woman to wife, and know the joys of tenderness. Those 
sensibilities which in most lives are diffused equally through 
the youthful years, were aroused suddenly in Mr Lyon, as 
some men have their special genius revealed to them by a 
tardy concurrence of conditions. His love was the first love 
of a fresh young heart full of wonder and worship. But 
what to one man is the virtue which he has sunk below the 
possibility of aspiring to, is to another the backsliding by 
which he forfeits his spiritual crown. 
</p>
            <p>The end was, that Annette remained in his house. He had 
striven against himself so far as to represent her position to 
some chief matrons in his congregations, praying and yet <pb n="169"/>
dreading that they would so take her by the hand as to 
impose on him that denial of his own longing not to let her go 
out of his sight, which he found it too hard to impose on 
himself. But they regarded the case coldly: the woman was, 
after all, a vagrant. Mr Lyon was observed to be surprisingly 
weak on the subject — his eagerness seemed disproportionate 
and unbecoming; and this young Frenchwoman, unable 
to express herself very clearly, was no more interesting to 
those matrons and their husbands than other pretty young 
women suspiciously circumstanced. They were willing to 
subscribe something to carry her on her way, or if she took 
some lodgings they would give her a little sewing, and 
endeavour to convert her from papistry. If, however, she 
was a respectable person, as she said, the only proper thing 
for her was to go back to her own country and friends. In 
spite of himself, Mr Lyon exulted. There seemed a reason 
now that he should keep Annette under his own eyes. He 
told himself that no real object would be served by his 
providing food and lodging for her elsewhere — an expense 
which he could ill afford. And she was apparently so 
helpless, except as to the one task of attending to her baby, that 
it would have been folly to think of her exerting herself 
for her own support. 
</p>
            <p>But this course of his was severely disapproved by his 
church. There were various signs that the minister was 
under some evil influence: his preaching wanted its old 
fervour, he seemed to shun the intercourse of his brethren, 
and very mournful suspicions were entertained. A formal 
remonstrance was presented to him, but he met it as if he 
had already determined to act in anticipation of it. He 
admitted that external circumstances, conjoined with a 
peculiar state of mind, were likely to hinder the fruitful 
exercise of his ministry, and he resigned it. There was much 
sorrowing, much expostulation, but he declared that for the 
present he was unable to unfold himself more fully; he only 
wished to state solemnly that Annette Ledru, though blind 
in spiritual things, was in a worldly sense a pure and virtuous 
woman. No more was to be said, and he departed to a <pb n="170"/>
distant town. Here he maintained himself, Annette, and the 
child, with the remainder of his stipend, and with the wages 
he earned as a printer's reader. Annette was one of those 
angelic-faced helpless women who take all things as manna 
from heaven: the good image of the well-beloved Saint 
John wished her to stay with him, and there was nothing 
else that she wished for except the unattainable. Yet for a 
whole year Mr Lyon never dared to tell Annette that he 
loved her: he trembled before this woman; he saw that the 
idea of his being her lover was too remote from her mind 
for her to have any idea that she ought not to live with 
him. She had never known, never asked the reason why he 
gave up his ministry. She seemed to entertain as little 
concern about the strange world in which she lived as a bird 
in its nest: an avalanche had fallen over the past, but she 
sat warm and uncrushed — there was food for many 
morrows, and her baby flourished. She did not seem even to care 
about a priest, or about having her child baptised; and on 
the subject of religion Mr Lyon was as timid, and shrank 
as much from speaking to her, as on the subject of his love. 
He dreaded anything that might cause her to feel a sudden 
repulsion towards him. He dreaded disturbing her simple 
gratitude and content. In these days his religious faith was 
not slumbering; it was awake and achingly conscious of 
having fallen in a struggle. He had had a great treasure 
committed to him, and had flung it away: he held himself 
a backslider. His unbelieving thoughts never gained the full 
ear and consent of his soul. His prayers had been stifled by 
the sense that there was something he preferred to complete 
obedience: they had ceased to be anything but intemmittent 
cries and confessions, and a submissive presentiment, rising 
at times even to an entreaty, that some great discipline 
might come, that the dulled spiritual sense might be roused 
to full vision and hearing as of old, and the supreme facts 
become again supreme in his soul. Mr Lyon will perhaps 
seem a very simple personage, with pitiably narrow theories; 
but none of our theories are quite large enough for all the 
disclosures of time, and to the end of men's struggles a <pb n="171"/>
penalty will remain for those who sink from the ranks of 
the heroes into the crowd for whom the heroes fight and 
die. 
</p>
            <p>One day, however, Annette learned Mr Lyon's secret. The 
baby had a tooth coming, and being large and strong now, 
was noisily fretful. Mr Lyon, though he had been working 
extra hours and was much in need of repose, took the child 
from its mother immediately on entering the house and 
walked about with it, patting and talking soothingly to it. 
The stronger grasp, the new sensations, were a successful 
anodyne, and baby went to sleep on his shoulder. But fearful 
lest any movement should disturb it, he sat down, and 
endured the bondage of holding it still against his shoulder. 
</p>
            <p>'You do nurse baby well,' said Annette, approvingly. 'Yet 
you never nursed before I came?' 
</p>
            <p>'No,' said Mr Lyon. 'I had no brothers and sisters.' 
</p>
            <p>'Why were you not married?' Annette had never thought 
of asking that question before. 
</p>
            <p>'Because I never loved any woman — till now. I thought I 
should never marry. Now I wish to marry.' 
</p>
            <p>Annette started. She did not see at once that she was the 
woman he wanted to marry; what had flashed on her mind 
was, that there might be a great change in Mr Lyon's life. 
It was as if the lightning had entered into her dream, and 
half awakened her. 
</p>
            <p>'Do you think it foolish, Annette, that I should wish to 
marry?' 
</p>
            <p>'I did not expect it,' she said, doubtfully. 'I did not know 
you thought about it.' 
</p>
            <p>'You know the woman I should like to marry?' 
</p>
            <p>'I know her?' she said, interrogatively, blushing deeply. 
</p>
            <p>'It is you, Annette — you whom I have loved better than 
my duty. I forsook everything for you.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon paused: he was about to do what he felt would 
be ignoble — to urge what seemed like a claim. 
</p>
            <p>'Can you love me, Annette? Will you be my wife?' 
Annette trembled and looked miserable. 
</p>
            <p>'Do not speak — forget it,' said Mr Lyon, rising suddenly <pb n="172"/>
and speaking with loud energy. 'No, no — I do not want it — 
I do not wish it.' 
</p>
            <p>The baby awoke as he started up; he gave the child into 
Annette's arms, and left her. 
</p>
            <p>His work took him away early the next morning and the 
next again. They did not need to speak much to each other. 
The third day Mr Lyon was too ill to go to work. His frame 
had been overwrought; he had been too poor to have 
sufficiently nourishing food, and under the shattering of his 
long-deferred hope his health had given way. They had no 
regular servant — only occasional help from an old woman, 
who lit the fires and put on the kettles. Annette was forced 
to be the sick-nurse, and this sudden demand on her shook 
away some of her torpor. The illness was a serious one, and 
the medical man one day hearing Mr Lyon in his delirium 
raving with an astonishing fluency in Biblical language, 
suddenly looked round with increased curiosity at Annette, and 
asked if she were the sick man's wife, or some other relative. 
</p>
            <p>'No — no relation,' said Annette, shaking her head. 'He 
has been good to me.' 
</p>
            <p>'How long have you lived with him?' 
</p>
            <p>'More than a year.' 
</p>
            <p>'Was he a preacher once?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes.' 
</p>
            <p>'When did he leave off being a preacher?' 
</p>
            <p>'Soon after he took care of me.' 
</p>
            <p>'Is that his child?' 
</p>
            <p>'Sir,' said Annette, colouring indignantly. 'I am a widow.' 
</p>
            <p>The doctor, she thought, looked at her oddly, but he asked 
no more questions. 
</p>
            <p>When the sick man was getting better, and able to enjoy 
invalid's food, he observed one day, while he was taking 
some broth, that Annette was looking at him; he paused to 
look at her in return, and was struck with a new expression 
in her face, quite distinct from the merely passive sweetness 
which usually characterised it. She laid her little hand on 
his, which was now transparently thin, and said, 'I am getting <pb n="173"/>
very wise; I have sold some of the books to make money 
— the doctor told me where; and I have looked into the shops 
where they sell caps and bonnets and pretty things, and I 
can do all that, and get more money to keep us. And when 
you are well enough to get up, we will go out and be married 
— shall we not? See! and la petite (the baby had never been 
named anything else) shall call you papa — and then we 
shall never part.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon trembled. This illness — something else, perhaps 
— had made a great change in Annette. A fortnight after 
that they were married. The day before, he had ventured to 
ask her if she felt any difficulty about her religion, and if 
she would consent to have la petite baptised and brought 
up as a Protestant. She shook her head and said very simply — 
</p>
            <p>'No: in France, in other days, I would have minded; but 
all is changed. I never was fond of religion, but I knew it was 
right. J'aimais les fleurs, les bals, la musique, et mon mari 
qui etait beau. But all that is gone away. There is nothing 
of my religion in this country. But the good God must be 
here, for you are good; I leave all to you.' 
</p>
            <p>It was clear that Annette regarded her present life as a 
sort of death to the world — an existence on a remote island 
where she had been saved from wreck. She was too indolent 
mentally, too little interested, to acquaint herself with any 
secrets of the isle. The transient energy, the more vivid 
consciousness and sympathy which had been stirred in her 
during Mr Lyon's illness, had soon subsided into the old 
apathy to everything except her child. She withered like a 
plant in strange air, and the three years of life that remained 
were but a slow and gentle death. Those three years were to 
Mr Lyon a period of such self-suppression and life in another 
as few men know. Strange I that the passion for this woman, 
which he felt to have drawn him aside from the right as 
much as if he had broken the most solemn vows — for that 
only was right to him which he held the best and highest — 
the passion for a being who had no glimpse of his thoughts 
induced a more thorough renunciation than he had ever <pb n="174"/>
known in the time of his complete devotion to his ministerial 
career. He had no flattery now, either from himself or the 
world; he knew that he had fallen, and his world had 
forgotten him, or shook their heads at his memory. The only 
satisfaction he had was the satisfaction of his tenderness — 
which meant untiring work, untiring patience, untiring 
wakefulness even to the dumb signs of feeling in a creature 
whom he alone cared for. 
</p>
            <p>The day of parting came, and he was left with little Esther 
as the one visible sign of that four years' break in his life. A 
year afterwards he entered the ministry again, and lived 
with the utmost sparingness that Esther might be so 
educated as to be able to get her own bread in case of his death. 
Her probable facility in acquiring French naturally 
suggested his sending her to a French school, which would give 
her a special advantage as a teacher. It was a Protestant 
school, and French Protestantism had the high 
recommendation of being non-prelatical. It was understood that Esther 
would contract no papistical superstitions; and this was 
perfectly true; but she contracted, as we see, a good deal of 
non-papistical vanity. 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon's reputation as a teacher and devoted pastor 
had revived; but some dissatisfaction beginning to be felt by 
his congregation at a certain laxity detected by them in his 
views as to the limits of salvation, which he had in one 
sermon even hinted might extend to unconscious recipients of 
mercy, he had found it desirable seven years ago to quit this 
ten years' pastorate and accept a call from the less important 
church in Malthouse Yard, Treby Magna. 
</p>
            <p>This was Rufus Lyon's history, at that time unknown in its 
fulness to any human being besides himself. We can perhaps 
guess what memories they were that relaxed the stringency 
of his doctrine on the point of salvation. In the deepest of all 
senses his heart said — 
<q>
                  <l>'Though she be dead, yet let me think she lives, </l>
                  <l>And feed my mind, that dies for want of her ' </l>
               </q>
            </p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c7" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 7</head>
            <pb n="175"/>
            <q>
               <l>M. It was but yesterday you spoke him well — </l>
               <l>   You've changed your mind so soon? </l>
               <l>N.                  Not I — 'tis he </l>
               <l>   That, changing to my thought, has changed my mind. </l>
               <l>   No man puts rotten apples in his pouch </l>
               <l>   Because their upper side looked fair to him. </l>
               <l>   Constancy in mistake is constant folly. </l>
            </q>
            <p>THE news that the rich heir of the Transomes was actually 
come back, and had been seen at Treby, was carried to some 
one else who had more reasons for being interested in it 
than the Reverend Rufus Lyon was yet conscious of having. 
It was owing to this that at three o'clock, two days afterwards, 
a carriage and pair, with coachman and footman in crimson 
and drab, passed through the lodge-gates of Transome 
Court. Inside there was a hale good-natured-looking man of 
sixty, whose hands rested on a knotted stick held between 
his knees; and a blue-eyed, well-featured lady, fat and 
middle-aged — a mountain of satin, lace, and exquisite 
muslin embroidery. They were not persons of highly remarkable 
appearance, but to most Trebians they seemed absolutely 
unique, and likely to be known anywhere. If you had looked 
down on them from the box of Sampson's coach, he would 
have said, after lifting his hat, 'Sir Maximus and his lady — 
did you see?' thinking it needless to add the surname. 
</p>
            <p>'We shall find her greatly elated, doubtless,' Lady 
Debarry was saying. 'She has been in the shade so long.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah, poor thing!' said Sir Maximus. 'A fine woman she 
was in her bloom. I remember the first county ball she 
attended we were all ready to fight for the sake of dancing with 
her. I always liked her from that time — I never swallowed 
the scandal about her myself.' 
</p>
            <p>'If we are to be intimate with her,' said Lady Debarry, 'I <pb n="176"/>
wish you would avoid making such allusions, Sir Maximus. I 
should not like Selina and Harriet to hear them.' 
</p>
            <p>'My dear, I should have forgotten all about the scandal, 
only you remind me of it sometimes,' retorted the baronet, 
smiling and taking out his snuff-box. 
</p>
            <p>'These sudden turns of fortune are often dangerous to an 
excitable constitution,' said Lady Debarry, not choosing to 
notice her husband's epigram. 'Poor Lady Alicia Methurst 
got heart-disease from a sudden piece of luck — the death of 
her uncle, you know. If Mrs Transome were wise she would 
go to town — she can afford it now — and consult Dr 
Truncheon. I should say myself he would order her digitalis: 
I have often guessed exactly what a prescription would be. 
But it certainly was always one of her weak points to think 
that she understood medicine better than other people.' 
</p>
            <p>'She's a healthy woman enough, surely: see how upright 
she is, and she rides about like a girl of twenty.' 
</p>
            <p>'She is so thin that she makes me shudder.' 
</p>
            <p>'Pooh I she's slim and active; women are not bid for by the 
pound.' 
</p>
            <p>'Pray don't be so coarse.' 
</p>
            <p>Sir Maximus laughed and showed his good teeth, which 
made his laughter very becoming. The carriage stopped, 
and they were soon ushered into Mrs Transome's 
sitting-room, where she was working at her worsted embroidery. A 
little daily embroidery had been a constant element in Mrs 
Transome's life; that soothing occupation of taking stitches 
to produce what neither she nor any one else wanted, was 
then the resource of many a well-born and unhappy woman. 
</p>
            <p>She received much warm congratulation and pressure of 
her hand with perfect composure of manner; but she became 
paler than usual, and her hands turned quite cold. The 
Debarrys did not yet know what Harold's politics were. 
</p>
            <p>'Well, our lucky youngster is come in the nick of time,' 
said Sir Maximus: 'if he'll stand, he and Philip can run in 
harness together and keep out both the Whigs.' 
</p>
            <p>'It is really quite a providential thing — his returning just <pb n="177"/>
now,' said Lady Debarry. 'I couldn't help thinking that 
something would occur to prevent Philip from having such a 
man as Peter Garstin for his colleague.' 
</p>
            <p>'I call my friend Harold a youngster,' said Sir Maximus, 
'for, you know, I remember him only as he was when that 
portrait was taken.' 
</p>
            <p>'That is a long while ago,' said Mrs Transome. 'My son 
is much altered, as you may imagine.' 
</p>
            <p>There was a confused sound of voices in the library while 
this talk was going on. Mrs Transome chose to ignore that 
noise, but her face, from being pale, began to flush a little. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, yes, on the outside, I daresay. But he was a fine fellow 
— I always liked him. And if anybody had asked me what I 
should choose for the good of the county, I couldn't have 
thought of anything better than having a young Transome 
for a neighbour who will take an active part. The Transomes 
and the Debarrys were always on the right side together in 
old days. Of course he'll stand — he has made up his mind to 
it?' 
</p>
            <p>The need for an answer to this embarrassing question was 
deferred by the increase of inarticulate sounds accompanied 
by a bark from the library, and the sudden appearance at 
the tapestry-hung doorway of old Mr Transome with a cord 
round his waist, playing a very poor-paced horse for a 
black-maned little boy about three years old, who was urging him 
on with loud encouraging noises and occasional thumps from 
a stick which he wielded with some difficulty. The old man 
paused with a vague gentle smile at the doorway, while the 
baronet got up to speak to him. Nimrod snuffed at his 
master's legs to ascertain that he was not hurt, and the little boy, 
finding something new to be looked at, let go the cord and 
came round in front of the company, dragging his stick, 
and standing at a safe war-dancing distance as he fixed his 
great black eyes on Lady Debarry. 
</p>
            <p>'Dear me, what a splendid little boy, Mrs Transome I why 
— it cannot be — can it be — that you have the happiness to be 
a grandmamma?' 
<pb n="178"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Yes; that is my son's little boy.' 
</p>
            <p>'Indeed!' said Lady Debarry, really amazed. 'I never heard 
you speak of his marriage. He has brought you home a 
daughter-in-law, then?' 
</p>
            <p>'No,' said Mrs Transome, coldly; 'she is dead.' 
</p>
            <p>'O — o — oh!' said Lady Debarry, in a tone ludicrously 
undecided between condolence, satisfaction, and general 
mistiness. 'How very singular — I mean that we should not have 
heard of Mr Harold's marriage. But he's a charming little 
fellow: come to me, you round-cheeked cherub.' 
</p>
            <p>The black eyes continued fixed as if by a sort of fascination 
on Lady Debarry's face, and her affable invitation was 
unheeded. At last, putting his head forward and pouting his 
lips, the cherub gave forth with marked intention the sounds, 
'Nau-o-oom,' many times repeated: apparently they 
summed up his opinion of Lady Debarry, and may perhaps 
have meant 'naughty old woman', but his speech was a 
broken lisping polyglot of hazardous interpretation. Then 
he turned to pull at the Blenheim spaniel, which, being old 
and peevish, gave a little snap. 
</p>
            <p>'Go, go, Harry; let poor Puff alone — he'll bite you,' said 
Mrs Transome, stooping to release her aged pet. 
</p>
            <p>Her words were too suggestive, for Harry immediately laid 
hold of her arm with his teeth, and bit with all his might. 
Happily the stuffs upon it were some protection, but the pain 
forced Mrs Transome to give a low cry; and Sir Maximus, who 
had now turned to reseat himself, shook the little rascal off, 
whereupon he burst away and trotted into the library again. 
</p>
            <p>'I fear you are hurt,' said Lady Debarry, with sincere 
concern. 'What a little savage! Do have your arm attended 
to, my dear — I recommend fomentation — don't think of me.' 
</p>
            <p>'O thank you, it is nothing,' said Mrs Transome, biting 
her lip and smiling alternately; 'it will soon go off. The 
pleasures of being a grandmamma, you perceive. The child 
has taken a dislike to me; but he makes quite a new life for 
Mr Transome;  they were playfellows at once.' 
</p>
            <p>'Bless my heart!' said Sir Maximus, 'it is odd to think of <pb n="179"/>
Harold having been a family man so long. I made up my 
mind he was a young bachelor. What an old stager I am, to 
be sure! And whom has he married? I hope we shall soon 
have the pleasure of seeing Mrs Harold Transome.' Sir 
Maximus, occupied with old Mr Transome, had not over 
heard the previous conversation on that subject. 
</p>
            <p>'She is no longer living,' Lady Debarry hastily interposed: 
'but now, my dear Sir Maximus, we must not hinder Mrs 
Transome from attending to her arm. I am sure she is in 
pain. Don't say another word, my dear — we shall see you 
again — you and Mr Harold will come and dine with us on 
Thursday — say yes, only yes. Sir Maximus is longing to see 
him; and Philip will be down.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, yes!' said Sir Maximus; 'he must lose no time in 
making Philip's acquaintance. Tell him Philip is a fine 
fellow — carried everything before him at Oxford. And your 
son must be returned along with him for North Loamshire. 
You said he meant to stand?' 
</p>
            <p>'I will write and let you know if Harold has any 
engagement for Thursday; he would of course be happy otherwise,' 
said Mrs Transome, evading the question. 
</p>
            <p>'If not Thursday, the next day — the very first day he can.' 
</p>
            <p>The visitors left, and Mrs Transome was almost glad of 
the painful bite which had saved her from being questioned 
further about Harold's politics. 'This is the last visit I shall 
receive from them,' she said to herself as the door closed 
behind them, and she rang for Denner. 
</p>
            <p>'That poor creature is not happy, Sir Maximus,' said Lady 
Debarry as they drove along. 'Something annoys her about 
her son. I hope there is nothing unpleasant in his character. 
Either he kept his marriage a secret from her, or she was 
ashamed of it. He is thirty-four at least by this time. After 
living in the East so long he may have become a sort of 
person one would not care to be intimate with; and that savage 
boy — he doesn't look like a lady's child.' 
</p>
            <p>'Pooh, my dear,' said Sir Maximus, 'women think so much 
of those minutiae. In the present state of the country it is our <pb n="180"/>
duty to look at a man's position and politics. Philip and my 
brother are both of that opinion, and I think they know 
what's right, if any man does. We are bound to regard every 
man of our party as a public instrument, and to pull all 
together. The Transomes have always been a good Tory family, 
but it has been a cipher of late years. This young fellow 
coming back with a fortune to give the family a head and a 
position is a clear gain to the county; and with Philip he'll 
get into the right hands — of course he wants guiding, having 
been out of the country so long. All we have to ask is, whether 
a man's a Tory, and will make a stand for the good of the 
country? — that's the plain English of the matter. And I do 
beg of you, my dear, to set aside all these gossiping niceties, 
and exert yourself, like a woman of sense and spirit as you 
are, to bring the right people together.' 
</p>
            <p>Here Sir Maximus gave a deep cough, took out his 
snuff-box, and tapped it: he had made a serious marital speech, 
an exertion to which he was rarely urged by anything smaller 
than a matter of conscience. And this outline of the whole 
duty of a Tory was matter of conscience with him; though 
the Duffield Watchman had pointed expressly to Sir 
Maximus Debarry amongst others, in branding the co-operation 
of the Tories as a conscious selfishness and reckless 
immorality, which, however, would be defeated by the co-operation of 
all the friends of truth and liberty, who, the Watchman 
trusted, would subordinate all non-political differences in 
order to return representatives pledged to support the present 
government. 
</p>
            <p>'I am sure, Sir Maximus,' Lady Debarry answered, 'you 
could not have observed that anything was wanting in my 
manners to Mrs Transome.' 
</p>
            <p>'No, no, my dear; but I say this by way of caution. Never 
mind what was done at Smyrna, or whether Transome likes 
to sit with his heels tucked up. We may surely wink at a few 
things for the sake of the public interest, if God Almighty 
does; and if He didn't, I don't know what would have become 
of the country — government could never have been carried <pb n="181"/>
on, and many a good battle would have been lost. That's the 
philosophy of the matter, and the common sense too.' 
</p>
            <p>Good Sir Maximus gave a deep cough and tapped his box 
again, inwardly remarking, that if he had not been such a 
lazy fellow he might have made as good a figure as his son 
Philip. 
</p>
            <p>But at this point the carriage, which was rolling by a turn 
towards Treby Magna, passed a well-dressed man, who 
raised his hat to Sir Maximus, and called to the coachman 
to stop. 
</p>
            <p>'Excuse me, Sir Maximus,' said this personage, standing 
uncovered at the carriage-door, 'but I have just learned 
something of importance at Treby, which I thought you 
would like to know as soon as possible.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah! what's that? Something about Garstin or Clement?' 
said Sir Maximus, seeing the other draw a poster from his 
pocket. 
</p>
            <p>'No; rather worse, I fear you will think. A new Radical 
candidate. I got this by a stratagem from the printer's boy. 
They're not posted yet.' 
</p>
            <p>'A Radical!' said Sir Maximus, in a tone of incredulous 
disgust, as he took the folded bill. 'What fool is he? — he'll 
have no chance.' 
</p>
            <p>'They say he's richer than Garstin.' 
</p>
            <p>'Harold Transome!' shouted Sir Maximus, as he read the 
name in three-inch letters. 'I don't believe it — it's a trick — 
it's a squib: why — why — we've just been to his place — eh? 
do you know any more? Speak, sir — speak; don't deal out 
your story like a damned mountebank, who wants to keep 
people gaping.' 
</p>
            <p>'Sir Maximus, pray don't give way so,' said Lady Debarry. 
</p>
            <p>'I'm afraid there's no doubt about it, sir,' said Christian. 
'After getting the bill, I met Mr Labron's clerk, and he said 
he had just had the whole story from Jermyn's clerk. The 
Ram Inn is engaged already, and a committee is being made 
up. He says Jermyn goes like a steam-engine, when he has a 
mind, although he makes such long-winded speeches.' <pb n="182"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Jermyn be hanged for a two-faced rascal! Tell Mitchell to 
drive on. It's of no use to stay chattering here. Jump up on 
the box and go home with us. I may want you.' 
</p>
            <p>'You see I was right, Sir Maximus,' said the baronet's wife, 
'I had an instinct that we should find him an unpleasant 
person.' 
</p>
            <p>'Fudge! if you had such a fine instinct, why did you let us 
go to Transome Court and make fools of ourselves?' 
</p>
            <p>'Would you have listened to me? But of course you will 
not have him to dine with you?' 
</p>
            <p>'Dine with me? I should think not. I'd sooner he should 
dine off me. I see how it is clearly enough. He has become 
a regular beast among those Mahometans — he's got neither 
religion nor morals left. He can't know anything about 
English politics. He'll go and cut his own nose off as a 
land-holder, and never know. However, he won't get in — he'll 
spend his money for nothing.' 
</p>
            <p>'I fear he is a very licentious man,' said Lady Debarry. 
'We know now why his mother seemed so uneasy. I should 
think she reflects a little, poor creature.' 
</p>
            <p>'It's a confounded nuisance we didn't meet Christian on 
our way, instead of coming back; but better now than later. 
He's an uncommonly adroit, useful fellow, that factotum of 
Philip's. I wish Phil would take my man and give me 
Christian. I'd make him house-steward; he might reduce the 
accounts a little.' 
</p>
            <p>Perhaps Sir Maximus would not have been so sanguine as 
to Mr Christian's economical virtues if he had seen that 
gentleman relaxing himself the same evening among the 
other distinguished dependants of the family and 
frequenters of the steward's room. But a man of Sir Maximus's rank 
is like those antediluvian animals whom the system of things 
condemned to carry such a huge bulk that they really could 
not inspect their bodily appurtenance, and had no conception 
of their own tails: their parasites doubtless had a merry 
time of it, and after did extremely well when the 
high-bred saurian himself was ill at ease. Treby Manor, measured <pb n="183"/>
from the front saloon to the remotest shed, was as large as a 
moderate-sized village, and there were certainly more lights 
burning in it every evening, more wine, spirits, and ale drunk, 
more waste and more folly, than could be found in some 
large villages. There was fast revelry in the steward's room, 
and slow revelry in the Scotch bailiff's room; short whist, 
costume, and flirtation in the housekeeper's room, and the 
same at a lower price in the servants' hall; a select Olympian 
feast in the private apartment of the cook, who was a much 
grander person than her ladyship, and wore gold and 
jewellery to a vast amount of suet; a gambling group in the 
stables, and the coachman, perhaps the most innocent 
member of the establishment, tippling in majestic solitude by a 
fire in the harness room. For Sir Maximus, as every one said, 
was a gentleman of the right sort, condescended to no mean 
inquiries, greeted his head-servants with a 'good evening, 
gentlemen', when he met them in the park, and only snarled 
in a subdued way when he looked over the accounts, willing 
to endure some personal inconvenience in order to keep up 
the institutions of the country, to maintain his hereditary 
establishment, and do his duty in that station of life — the 
station of the long-tailed saurian — to which it had pleased 
Providence to call him. 
</p>
            <p>The focus of brilliancy at Treby Manor that evening was 
in no way the dining-room, where Sir Maximus sipped his 
port under some mental depression, as he discussed with his 
brother, the Reverend Augustus, the sad fact, that one of the 
oldest names in the county was to be on the wrong side — 
not in the drawing-room, where Miss Debarry and Miss 
Selina, quietly elegant in their dress and manners, were 
feeling rather dull than otherwise, having finished Mr Bulwer's 
Eugene Aram, and being thrown back on the last great 
prose work of Mr Southey, while their mamma slumbered 
a little on the sofa. No; the centre of eager talk and 
enjoyment was the steward's room, where Mr Scales, 
house-steward and head-butler, a man most solicitous about his 
boots, wristbands, the roll of his whiskers, and other attributes <pb n="184"/>
of a gentleman, distributed cigars, cognac, and whisky, 
to various colleagues and guests who were discussing, with 
that freedom of conjecture which is one of our inalienable 
privileges as Britons, the probable amount of Harold 
Transome's fortune, concerning which fame had already been 
busy long enough to have acquired vast magnifying power. 
</p>
            <p>The chief part in this scene was undoubtedly Mr 
Christian's, although he had hitherto been comparatively silent; 
but he occupied two chairs with so much grace, throwing his 
right leg over the seat of the second, and resting his right 
hand on the back; he held his cigar and displayed a splendid 
seal-ring with such becoming nonchalance, and had his grey 
hair arranged with so much taste, that experienced eyes 
would at once have seen even the great Scales himself to be 
but a secondary character. 
</p>
            <p>'Why,' said Mr Crowder, an old respectable tenant, though 
much in arrear as to his rent, who condescended frequently 
to drink in the steward's room for the sake of the 
conversation; 'why, I suppose they get money so fast in the East — it's 
wonderful. Why,' he went on, with a hesitating look towards 
Mr Scales, 'this Transome has p'raps got a matter of a 
hundred thousand.' 
</p>
            <p>'A hundred thousand, my dear sir! fiddle-stick's end of a 
hundred thousand,' said Mr Scales, with a contempt very 
painful to be borne by a modest man. 
</p>
            <p>'Well,' said Mr Crowder, giving way under torture, as the 
all-knowing butler puffed and stared at him, 'perhaps not so 
much as that.' 
</p>
            <p>'Not so much, sir! I tell you that a hundred thousand 
pounds is a bagatelle.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, I know it's a big sum,' said Mr Crowder, 
deprecatingly. 
</p>
            <p>Here there was a general laugh. All the other intellects 
present were more cultivated than Mr Crowder's. 
</p>
            <p>'Bagatelle is the French for trifle, my friend,' said Mr 
Christian. 'Don't talk over people's heads so, Scales. I shall 
have hard work to understand you myself soon.' <pb n="185"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Come, that's a good one,' said the head-gardener, who 
was a ready admirer; 'I should like to hear the thing you 
don't understand, Christian.' 
</p>
            <p>'He's a first-rate hand at sneering,' said Mr Scales, rather 
nettled. 
</p>
            <p>'Don't be waspish, man. I'll ring the bell for lemons, and 
make some punch. That's the thing for putting people up to 
the unknown tongues,' said Mr Christian, starting up, and 
slapping Scales's shoulder as he passed him. 
</p>
            <p>'What I mean, Mr Crowder, is this.' Here Mr Scales paused 
to puff, and pull down his waistcoat in a gentlemanly 
manner, and drink. He was wont in this way to give his hearers 
time for meditation. 
</p>
            <p>'Come, then, speak English; I'm not against being taught,' 
said the reasonable Crowder. 
</p>
            <p>'What I mean is, that in a large way of trade a man turns 
his capital over almost as soon as he can turn himself. Bless 
your soul! I know something about these matters, eh, Brent?' 
</p>
            <p>'To be sure you do — few men more,' said the gardener, who 
was the person appealed to. 
</p>
            <p>'Not that I've had anything to do with commercial families 
myself. I've those feelings that I look to other things besides 
lucre. But I can't say that I've not been intimate with parties 
who have been less nice than I am myself; and knowing what 
I know, I shouldn't wonder if Transome had as much as five 
hundred thousand. Bless your soul, sir I people who get their 
money out of land are as long scraping five pounds together 
as your trading men are in turning five pounds into a 
hundred.' 
</p>
            <p>'That's a wicked thing, though,' said Mr Crowder, 
meditatively. 'However,' he went on, retreating from this difficult 
ground, 'trade or no trade, the Transomes have been poor 
enough this many a long year. I've a brother a tenant on 
their estate — I ought to know a little bit about that.' 
</p>
            <p>'They've kept up no establishment at all,' said Mr Scales, 
with disgust. 'They've even let their kitchen gardens. I 
suppose it was the eldest son's gambling. I've seen something <pb n="186"/>
of that. A man who has always lived in first-rate families is 
likely to know a thing or two on that subject.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah, but it wasn't gambling did the first mischief,' said 
Mr Crowder, with a slight smile, feeling that it was his turn 
to have some superiority. 'New-comers don't know what 
happened in this country twenty and thirty year ago. I'm 
turned fifty myself, and my father lived under Sir 
Maximus's father. But if anybody from London can tell me more 
than I know about this country-side, I'm willing to listen.' 
</p>
            <p>'What was it, then, if it wasn't gambling?' said Mr Scales, 
with some impatience. 'I don't pretend to know.' 
</p>
            <p>'It was law — law — that's what it was. Not but what the 
Transomes always won.' 
</p>
            <p>'And always lost,' said the too-ready Scales. 'Yes, yes; I 
think we all know the nature of law.' 
</p>
            <p>'There was the last suit of all made the most noise, as I 
understood,' continued Mr Crowder; 'but it wasn't tried 
hereabout. They said there was a deal o' false swearing. 
Some young man pretended to be the true heir — let me see — 
I can't justly remember the names — he'd got two. He swore 
he was one man, and they swore he was another. However, 
Lawyer Jermyn won it — they say he'd win a game against 
the Old One himself — and the young fellow turned out to be 
a scamp. Stop a bit — his name was Scaddon — Henry 
Scaddon.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Christian here let a lemon slip from his hand into the 
punch-bowl with a plash which sent some of the nectar into 
the company's faces. 
</p>
            <p>'Hallo! What a bungler I am!' he said, looking as if he 
were quite jarred by this unusual awkwardness of his. 'Go on 
with your tale, Mr Crowder — a scamp named Harry 
Scaddon.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, that's the tale,' said Mr Crowder. 'He was never 
seen nothing of any more. It was a deal talked of at the time 
— and I've sat by; and my father used to shake his head; and 
always when this Mrs Transome was talked of, he used to 
shake his head, and say she carried things with a high hand <pb n="187"/>
once. But, Lord I it was before the battle of Waterloo, and 
I'm a poor hand at tales; I don't see much good in 'em 
myself — but if anybody'll tell me a cure for the sheep-rot I'll 
thank him.' 
</p>
            <p>Here Mr Crowder relapsed into smoking and silence, a 
little discomfited that the knowledge of which he had been 
delivered had turned out rather a shapeless and insignificant 
birth. 
</p>
            <p>'Well, well, bygones should be bygones; there are secrets in 
most good families,' said Mr Scales, winking, 'and this young 
Transome, coming back with a fortune to keep up the 
establishment, and have things done in a decent and gentlemanly 
way — it would all have been right if he'd not been this sort 
of Radical madman. But now he's done for himself. I heard 
Sir Maximus say at dinner that he would be 
excommunicated; and that's a pretty strong word, I take it.' 
</p>
            <p>'What does it mean, Scales,' said Mr Christian, who loved 
tormenting. 
</p>
            <p>'Ay, what's the meaning?' insisted Mr Crowder, 
encouraged by finding that even Christian was in the dark. 
</p>
            <p>'Well, it's a law term — speaking in a figurative sort of way 
— meaning that a Radical was no gentleman.' 
</p>
            <p>'Perhaps it's partly accounted for by his getting his money 
so fast, and in foreign countries,' said Mr Crowder, 
tentatively. 'It's reasonable to think he'd be against the land and 
this country — eh, Sircome?' 
</p>
            <p>Sircome was an eminent miller who had considerable 
business transactions at the manor, and appreciated Mr Scales's 
merits at a handsome percentage on the yearly account. He 
was a highly honourable tradesman, but in this and in other 
matters submitted to the institutions of his country; for great 
houses, as he observed, must have great butlers. He replied to 
his friend Crowder sententiously. 
</p>
            <p>'I say nothing. Before I bring words to market, I should 
like to see 'em a bit scarcer. There's the land and there's 
trade — I hold with both. I swim with the stream.' 
</p>
            <p>'Hey-day, Mr Sircome! that's a Radical maxim,' said Mr <pb n="188"/>
Christian, who knew that Mr Sircome's last sentence was his 
favourite formula. 'I advise you to give it up, else it will 
injure the quality of your flour.' 
</p>
            <p>'A Radical maxim!' said Mr Sircome, in a tone of angry 
astonishment. I should like to hear you prove that. It's as 
old as my grandfather, anyhow.' 
</p>
            <p>'I'll prove it in one minute,' said the glib Christian. 
'Reform has set in by the will of the majority — that's the rabble 
you know; and the respectability and good sense of the 
country, which are in the minority, are afraid of Reform 
running on too fast. So the stream must be running towards 
Reform and Radicalism; and if you swim with it, Mr Sir — 
come, you're a Reformer and a Radical, and your flour is 
objectionable, and not full weight — and being tried by 
Scales, will be found wanting.' 
</p>
            <p>There was a roar of laughter. This pun upon Scales was 
highly appreciated by every one except the miller and the 
butler. The latter pulled down his waistcoat, and puffed and 
stared in rather an excited manner. Mr Christian's wit, in 
general, seemed to him a poor kind of quibbling. 
</p>
            <p>'What a fellow you are for fence, Christian,' said the 
gardener. 'Hang me, if I don't think you're up to 
everything.' 
</p>
            <p>'That's a compliment you might pay Old Nick, if you come 
to that,' said Mr Sircome, who was in the painful position of 
a man deprived of his formula. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, yes,' said Mr Scales; 'I'm no fool myself, and could 
parry a thrust if I liked, but I shouldn't like it to be said of 
me that I was up to everything. I'll keep a little principle if 
you please.' 
</p>
            <p>'To be sure,' said Christian, ladling out the punch. 'What 
would justice be without Scales?' 
</p>
            <p>The laughter was not quite so full-throated as before. Such 
excessive cleverness was a little Satanic. 
</p>
            <p>'A joke's a joke among gentlemen,' said the butler, getting 
exasperated; 'I think there has been quite liberties enough 
taken with my name. But if you must talk about names, I've <pb n="189"/>
heard of a party before now calling himself a Christian, and 
being anything but it.' 
</p>
            <p>'Come, that's beyond a joke,' said the surgeon's assistant, 
a fast man, whose chief scene of dissipation was the Manor. 
'Let it drop, Scales.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, I daresay it's beyond a joke. I'm not a harlequin to 
talk nothing but jokes. I leave that to other Christians, who 
are up to everything, and have been everywhere — to the 
hulks, for what I know; and more than that, they come 
from nobody knows where, and try to worm themselves into 
gentlemen's confidence, to the prejudice of their betters.' 
</p>
            <p>There was a stricter sequence in Mr Scales's angry 
eloquence than was apparent — some chief links being 
confined to his own breast, as is often the case in energetic 
discourse. The company were in a state of expectation. There 
was something behind worth knowing, and something before 
them worth seeing. In the general decay of other fine British 
pugnacious sports, a quarrel between gentlemen was all the 
more exciting, and though no one would himself have liked 
to turn on Scales, no one was sorry for the chance of seeing 
him put down. But the amazing Christian was unmoved. He 
had taken out his handkerchief and was rubbing his lips 
carefully. After a slight pause, he spoke with perfect 
coolness. 
</p>
            <p>'I don't intend to quarrel with you, Scales. Such talk as 
this is not profitable to either of us. It makes you purple in 
the face — you are apoplectic, you know — and it spoils good 
company. Better tell a few fibs about me behind my back — 
it will heat you less, and do me more harm. I'll leave you to 
it; I shall go and have a game at whist with the ladies.' 
</p>
            <p>As the door closed behind the questionable Christian, Mr 
Scales was in a state of frustration that prevented speech. 
Every one was rather embarrassed. 
</p>
            <p>'That's a most uncommon sort o' fellow,' said Mr Crowder, 
in an under-tone, to his next neighbour, the gardener. 'Why, 
Mr Philip picked him up in foreign parts, didn't he?' 
</p>
            <p>'He was a courier,' said the gardener. 'He's had a deal of <pb n="190"/>
experience. And I believe, by what I can make out — for he's 
been pretty free with me sometimes — there was a time when 
he was in that rank of life that he fought a duel.' 
'Ah I that makes him such a cool chap,' said Mr Crowder. 
</p>
            <p>'He's what I call an overbearing fellow,' said Mr Sircome, 
also sotto voce, to his next neighbour, Mr Filmore, the 
surgeon's assistant. 'He runs you down with a sort of talk that's 
neither here nor there. He's got a deal too many samples in 
his pocket for me.' 
</p>
            <p>'All I know is, he's a wonderful hand at cards,' said Mr 
Filmore, whose whiskers and shirt-pin were quite above the 
average. 'I wish I could play ecarte as he does; it's beautiful 
to see him; he can make a man look pretty blue — he'll empty 
his pocket for him in no time.' 
</p>
            <p>'That's none to his credit,' said Mr Sircome. 
</p>
            <p>The conversation had in this way broken up into 
tete-a-tete, and the hilarity of the evening might be considered a 
failure. Still the punch was drunk, the accounts were duly 
swelled, and, notwithstanding the innovating spirit of the 
time, Sir Maximus Debarry's establishment was kept up in a 
sound hereditary Bridsh manner. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c8" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 8</head>
            <pb n="191"/>
            <q>
               <l>'Rumour doth double like the voice and echo.' — </l>
               <l>                                   SHAKESPEARE. </l>
            </q>
            <p>The mind of a man is as a country which was once open to 
squatters, who have bred and multiplied and become masters 
of the land. But then happeneth a time when new and hungry 
comers dispute the land; and there is trial of strength, and the 
stronger wins. Nevertheless the first squatters be they who have 
prepared the ground, and the crops to the end will be sequent 
(though chiefly on the nature of the soil, as of light sand, 
mixed loam, or heavy clay, yet) somewhat on the primal labour 
and sowing. 
THAT talkative maiden, Rumour, though in the interest of 
art she is figured as a youthful winged beauty with flowing 
garments, soaring above the heads of men, and breathing 
world-thrilling news through a gracefully-curved trumpet, is 
in fact a very old maid, who puckers her silly face by the 
fireside, and really does no more than chirp a wrong guess or 
a lame story into the ear of a fellow-gossip; all the rest of the 
work attributed to her is done by the ordinary working of 
those passions against which men pray in the Litany, with 
the help of a plentiful stupidity against which we have never 
yet had any authorised form of prayer. 
</p>
            <p>When Mr Scales's strong need to make an impressive 
figure in conversation, together with his very slight need of 
any other premise than his own sense of his wide general 
knowledge and probable infallibility, led him to specify five 
hundred thousand as the lowest admissible amount of 
Harold Transome's commercially-acquired fortune, it was 
not fair to put this down to poor old Miss Rumour, who had 
only told Scales that the fortune was considerable. And 
again, when the curt Mr Sircome found occasion at Treby 
to mention the five hundred thousand as a fact that folks 
seemed pretty sure about, this expansion of the butler into 
'folks' was entirely due to Mr Sircome's habitual preference <pb n="192"/>
for words which could not be laid hold of or give people a 
handle over him. It was in this simple way that the report of 
Harold Transome's fortune spread and was magnified, 
adding much lustre to his opinions in the eyes of Liberals, and 
compelling even men of the opposite party to admit that it 
increased his eligibility as a member for North Loamshire. 
It was observed by a sound thinker in these parts that 
property was ballast; and when once the aptness of that 
metaphor had been perceived, it followed that a man was not fit 
to navigate the sea of politics without a great deal of such 
ballast; and that, rightly understood, whatever increased the 
expense of election, inasmuch as it virtually raised the 
property qualification, was an unspeakable boon to the country. 
</p>
            <p>Meanwhile the fortune that was getting larger in the 
imagination of constituents was shrinking a little in the 
imagination of its owner. It was hardly more than a hundred 
and fifty thousand; and there were not only the heavy 
mortgages to be paid off, but also a large amount of capital was 
needed in order to repair the farm-buildings all over the 
estate, to carry out extensive draining, and make allowances 
to incoming tenants, which might remove the difficulty of 
newly letting the farms in a time of agricultural depression. 
The farms actually tenanted were held by men who had 
begged hard to succeed their fathers in getting a little poorer 
every year, on land which was also getting poorer, where the 
highest rate of increase was in the arrears of rent, and where 
the master, in crushed hat and corduroys, looked pitiably 
lean and care-worn by the side of pauper labourers, who 
showed that superior assimilating power often observed to 
attend nourishment by the public money. Mr Goffe, of 
Rabbit's End, had never had it explained to him that, 
according to the true theory of rent, land must inevitably be 
given up when it would not yield a profit equal to the 
ordinary rate of interest; so that from want of knowing what was 
inevitable, and not from a Titanic spirit of opposition, he 
kept on his land. He often said of himself, with a melancholy 
wipe of his sleeve across his brow, that he 'didn't know <pb n="193"/>
which-a-way to turn'; and he would have been still more at 
a loss on the subject if he had quitted Rabbit's End with a 
waggonful of furniture and utensils, a file of receipts, a wife 
with five children, and a shepherd-dog in low spirits. 
</p>
            <p>It took no long time for Harold Transome to discover this 
state of things, and to see, moreover, that, except on the 
demesne immediately around the house, the timber had 
been mismanaged. The woods had been recklessly thinned, 
and there had been insufficient planting. He had not yet 
thoroughly investigated the various accounts kept by his 
mother, by Jermyn, and by Banks the bailiff; but what had 
been done with the large sums which had been received for 
timber was a suspicious mystery to him. He observed that 
the farm held by Jermyn was in first-rate order, that a good 
deal had been spent on the buildings, and that the rent had 
stood unpaid. Mrs Transome had taken an opportunity of 
saying that Jermyn had had some of the mortgage-deeds 
transferred to him, and that his rent was set against so much 
interest. Harold had only said, in his careless yet decisive 
way, 'O, Jermyn be hanged! It seems to me if Durfey hadn't 
died and made room for me, Jermyn would have ended by 
coming to live here, and you would have had to keep the 
lodge and open the gate for his carriage. But I shall pay him 
off — mortgages and all — by-and-by. I'll owe him nothing 
— not even a curse.' Mrs Transome said no more. Harold 
did not care to enter fully into the subject with his mother. 
The fact that she had been active in the management of the 
estate — had ridden about it continually, had busied herself 
with accounts, had been head-bailiff of the vacant farms, and 
had yet allowed things to go wrong — was set down by him 
simply to the general futility of women's attempts to transact 
men's business. He did not want to say anything to annoy 
her: he was only determined to let her understand, as quietly 
as possible, that she had better cease all interference. 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome did understand this; and it was very little 
that she dared to say on business, though there was a 
fierce struggle of her anger and pride with a dread which <pb n="194"/>
was nevertheless supreme. As to the old tenants, she only 
observed, on hearing Harold burst forth about their 
wretched condition 'that with the estate so burthened, the 
yearly loss by arrears could better be borne than the outlay 
and sacrifice necessary in order to let the farms anew'. 
</p>
            <p>'I was really capable of calculating, Harold,' she ended, 
with a touch of bitterness. 'It seems easy to deal with farmers 
and their affairs when you only see them in print, I daresay; 
but it's not quite so easy when you live among them. You 
have only to look at Sir Maximus's estate: you will see 
plenty of the same thing. The times have been dreadful, 
and old families like to keep their old tenants. But I daresay 
that is Toryism.' 
</p>
            <p>'It's a hash of odds and ends, if that is Toryism, my dear 
mother. However, I wish you had kept three more old 
tenants; for then I should have had three more fifty-pound 
voters. And, in a hard run, one may be beaten by a head. 
But,' Harold added, smiling and handing her a ball of 
worsted, which had fallen, 'a woman ought to be a Tory, and 
graceful, and handsome, like you. I should hate a woman 
who took up my opinions, and talked for me. I'm an 
Oriental, you know. I say, mother, shall we have this room 
furnished with rose-colour? I notice that it suits your bright 
grey hair.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold thought it was only natural that his mother should 
have been in a sort of subjection to Jermyn throughout the 
awkward circumstances of the family. It was the way of 
women, and all weak minds, to think that what they had 
been used to was inalterable, and any quarrel with a man 
who managed private affairs was necessarily a formidable 
thing. He himself was proceeding very cautiously, and 
preferred not even to know too much just at present, lest a 
certain personal antipathy he was conscious of toward 
Jermyn, and an occasional liability to exasperation, should 
get the better of a calm and clear-sighted resolve not to 
quarrel with the man while he could be of use. Harold would 
have been disgusted with himself if he had helped to frustrate <pb n="195"/>
his own purpose. And his strongest purpose now was 
to get returned for parliament, to make a figure there as a 
Liberal member, and to become on all grounds a personage 
of weight in North Loamshire. 
</p>
            <p>How Harold Transome came to be a Liberal in opposition 
to all the traditions of his family, was a more subtle inquiry 
than he had ever cared to follow out. The newspapers 
undertook to explain it. The North Loamshire Herald witnessed 
with a grief and disgust certain to be shared by all persons 
who were actuated by wholesome British feeling, an example 
of defection in the inheritor of a family name which in times 
past had been associated with attachment to right principle, 
and with the maintenance of our constitution in Church and 
State; and pointed to it as an additional proof that men who 
had passed any large portion of their lives beyond the limits 
of our favoured country, usually contracted not only a laxity 
of feeling towards Protestantism, nay, towards religion itself 
— a latitudinarian spirit hardly distinguishable from 
atheism — but also a levity of disposition, inducing them to 
tamper with those institutions by which alone Great Britain 
had risen to her pre-eminence among the nations. Such 
men, infected with outlandish habits, intoxicated with 
vanity, grasping at momentary power by flattery of the 
multitude, fearless because godless, liberal because 
un-English, were ready to pull one stone from under another 
in the national edifice, till the great structure tottered to its 
fall. On the other hand, the Duffield Watchman saw in this 
signal instance of self-liberation from the trammels of 
prejudice, a decisive guarantee of intellectual pre-eminence, 
united with a generous sensibility to the claims of man as 
man, which had burst asunder, and cast off, by a 
spontaneous exertion of energy, the cramping out-worn shell of 
hereditary bias and class interest. 
</p>
            <p>But these large-minded guides of public opinion argued 
from wider data than could be furnished by any knowledge 
of the particular case concerned. Harold Transome was 
neither the dissolute cosmopolitan so vigorously sketched by <pb n="196"/>
the Tory Herald, nor the intellectual giant and moral lobster 
suggested by the liberal imagination of the Watchman. 
Twenty years ago he had been a bright, active, 
good-tempered lad, with sharp eyes and a good aim; he delighted in 
success and in predominance; but he did not long for an 
impossible predominance, and become sour and sulky 
because it was impossible. He played at the games he was clever 
in, and usually won; all other games he let alone, and 
thought them of little worth. At home and at Eton he had 
been side by side with his stupid elder brother Durfey, 
whom he despised; and he very early began to reflect that 
since this Caliban in miniature was older than himself, he 
must carve out his own fortune. That was a nuisance; and 
on the whole the world seemed rather ill-arranged, at Eton 
especially, where there were many reasons why Harold made 
no great figure. He was not sorry the money was wanting to 
send him to Oxford; he did not see the good of Oxford; he 
had been surrounded by many things during his short life, 
of which he had distinctly said to himself that he did not see 
the good, and he was not disposed to venerate on the strength 
of any good that others saw. He turned his back on home 
very cheerfully, though he was rather fond of his mother, 
and very fond of Transome Court, and the river where he 
had been used to fish; but he said to himself as he passed 
the lodge-gates, 'I'll get rich somehow, and have an estate of 
my own, and do what I like with it.' This determined aiming 
at something not easy but clearly possible, marked the 
direction in which Harold's nature was strong; he had the 
energetic will and muscle, the self-confidence, the quick 
perception, and the narrow imagination which make what 
is admiringly called the practical mind. 
</p>
            <p>Since then his character had been ripened by a various 
experience, and also by much knowledge which he had set 
himself deliberately to gain. But the man was no more than 
the boy writ large, with an extensive commentary. The years 
had nourished an inclination to as much opposition as would 
enable him to assert his own independence and power without <pb n="197"/>
throwing himself into that tabooed condition which robs 
power of its triumph. And this inclination had helped his 
shrewdness in forming judgments which were at once 
innovating and moderate. He was addicted at once to rebellion 
and to conformity, and only an intimate personal knowledge 
could enable any one to predict where his conformity would 
begin. The limit was not defined by theory, but was drawn in 
an irregular zigzag by early disposition and association; and 
his resolution, of which he had never lost hold, to be a 
thorough Englishman again some day, had kept up the 
habit of considering all his conclusions with reference to 
English politics and English social conditions. He meant to 
stand up for every change that the economical condition of 
the country required, and he had an angry contempt for 
men with coronets on their coaches, but too small a share of 
brains to see when they had better make a virtue of 
necessity. His respect was rather for men who had no coronets, 
but who achieved a just influence by furthering all measures 
which the common sense of the country, and the increasing 
self-assertion of the majority, peremptorily demanded. He 
could be such a man himself. 
</p>
            <p>In fact Harold Transome was a clever, frank, good-natured 
egoist; not stringently consistent, but without any 
disposition to falsity; proud, but with a pride that was moulded in 
an individual rather than an hereditary form; unspeculative, 
unsentimental, unsympathetic; fond of sensual pleasures, but 
disinclined to all vice, and attached as a healthy, 
clear-sighted person, to all conventional morality, construed with 
a certain freedom, like doctrinal articles to which the public 
order may require subscription. A character is apt to look 
but indifferently, written out in this way. Reduced to a map, 
our premises seem insignificant, but they make, 
nevertheless, a very pretty freehold to live in and walk over; and so, 
if Harold Transome had been among your acquaintances, 
and you had observed his qualities through the medium of 
his agreeable person, bright smile, and a certain easy charm 
which accompanies sensuousness when unsullied by coarseness — <pb n="198"/>
through the medium also of the many opportunities 
in which he would have made himself useful or pleasant 
to you — you would have thought him a good fellow, highly 
acceptable as a guest, a colleague, or a brother-in-law. 
Whether all mothers would have liked him as a son, is 
another question. 
</p>
            <p>It is a fact perhaps kept a little too much in the 
back-ground, that mothers have a self larger than their maternity, 
and that when their sons have become taller than 
themselves, and are gone from them to college or into the world, 
there are wide spaces of their time which are not filled with 
praying for their boys, reading old letters, and envying yet 
blessing those who are attending to their shirt-buttons. Mrs 
Transome was certainly not one of those bland, adoring, 
and gently tearful women. After sharing the common dream 
that when a beautiful man-child was born to her, her cup 
of happiness would be full, she had travelled through long 
years apart from that child to find herself at last in the 
presence of a son of whom she was afraid, who was utterly 
unmanageable by her, and to whose sentiments in any 
given case she possessed no key. Yet Harold was a kind 
son: he kissed his mother's brow, offered her his arm, let 
her choose what she liked for the house and garden, asked 
her whether she would have bays or greys for her new 
carriage, and was bent on seeing her make as good a figure 
in the neighbourhood as any other woman of her rank. 
She trembled under this kindness: it was not enough to 
satisfy her; still, if it should ever cease and give place to 
something else — she was too uncertain about Harold's 
feelings to imagine clearly what that something would be. The 
finest threads, such as no eye sees, if bound cunningly about 
the sensitive flesh, so that the movement to break them 
would bring torture, may make a worse bondage than any 
fetters. Mrs Transome felt the fatal threads about her, and 
the bitterness of this helpless bondage mingled itself with 
the new elegancies of the dining and drawing rooms, and 
all the household changes which Harold had ordered to be <pb n="199"/>
brought about with magical quickness. Nothing was as she 
had once expected it would be. If Harold had shown the 
least care to have her stay in the room with him — if he had 
really cared for her opinion — if he had been what she had 
dreamed he would be in the eyes of those people who had 
made her world — if all the past could be dissolved, and 
leave no solid trace of itself — mighty ifs that were all 
impossible — she would have tasted some joy; but now she 
began to look back with regret to the days when she sat in 
loneliness among the old drapery, and still longed for 
something that might happen. Yet, save in a bitter little speech, 
or in a deep sigh heard by no one besides Denner, she kept all 
these things hidden in her heart, and went out in the 
autumn sunshine to overlook the alterations in the 
pleasure-grounds very much as a happy woman might have done. 
One day, however, when she was occupied in this way, an 
occasion came on which she chose to express indirectly a 
part of her inward care. 
</p>
            <p>She was standing on the broad gravel in the afternoon; 
the long shadows lay on the grass; the light seemed the 
more glorious because of the reddened and golden trees. 
The gardeners were busy at their pleasant work; the 
newly-turned soil gave out an agreeable fragrance; and little Harry 
was playing with Nimrod round old Mr Transome, who 
sat placidly on a low garden-chair. The scene would have 
made a charming picture of English domestic life, and the 
handsome, majestic, grey-haired woman (obviously 
grandmamma) would have been especially aclmired. But the artist 
would have felt it requisite to turn her face towards her 
husband and little grandson, and to have given her an 
elderly amiability of expression which would have divided 
remark with his exquisite rendering of her Indian shawl. 
Mrs Transome's face was turned the other way, and for this 
reason she only heard an approaching step, and did not see 
whose it was; yet it startled her: it was not quick enough 
to be her son's step, and besides, Harold was away at 
Duffield. It was Mr Jermyn's. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c9" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 9</head>
            <pb n="200"/>
            <q>
               <l>'A woman, naturally born to fears.' — King John. </l>
               <l/>
               <l>                               'Methinks </l>
               <l>Some unborn sorrow, ripe in fortune's womb, </l>
               <l>Is coming towards me; and my inward soul </l>
               <l>With nothing trembles.' — King Richard II. </l>
            </q>
            <p>MATTHEW JERMYN approached Mrs Transome taking off 
his hat and smiling. She did not smile, but said — 
'You knew Harold was not at home?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes; I came to see you, to know if you had any wishes 
that I could further, since I have not had an opportunity of 
consulting you since he came home.' 
</p>
            <p>'Let us walk towards the Rookery, then.' 
</p>
            <p>They turned together, Mr Jermyn still keeping his hat off 
and holding it behind him; the air was so soft and agreeable 
that Mrs Transome herself had nothing but a large veil over 
her head. 
</p>
            <p>They walked for a little while in silence till they were out 
of sight, under tall trees, and treading noiselessly on fallen 
leaves. What Jermyn was really most anxious about, was to 
learn from Mrs Transome whether anything had transpired 
that was significant of Harold's disposition towards him, 
which he suspected to be very far from friendly. Jermyn 
was not naturally flinty-hearted: at five-and-twenty he had 
written verses, and had got himself wet through in order 
not to disappoint a dark-eyed woman whom he was proud 
to believe in love with him; but a family man with grown-up 
sons and daughters, a man with a professional position and 
complicated affairs that make it hard to ascertain the exact 
relation between property and liabilities, necessarily thinks 
of himself and what may be impending. 
</p>
            <p>'Harold is remarkably acute and clever,' he began at last, 
since Mrs Transome did not speak. 'If he gets into parliament, <pb n="201"/>
I have no doubt he will distinguish himself. He has a 
quick eye for business of all kinds.' 
</p>
            <p>'That is no comfort to me,' said Mrs Transome. To-day 
she was more conscious than usual of that bitterness which 
was always in her mind in Jermyn's presence, but which 
was carefully suppressed: — suppressed because she could 
not endure that the degradation she inwardly felt should 
ever become visible or audible in acts or words of her own — 
should ever be reflected in any word or look of his. For 
years there had been a deep silence about the past between 
them: on her side, because she remembered; on his, because 
he more and more forgot. 
</p>
            <p>'I trust he is not unkind to you in any way. I know his 
opinions pain you; but I trust you find him in everything 
else disposed to be a good son.' 
</p>
            <p>'O, to be sure — good as men are disposed to be to women, 
giving them cushions and carriages, and recommending 
them to enjoy themselves, and then expecting them to be 
contented under contempt and neglect. I have no power 
over him — remember that — none.' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn turned to look in Mrs Transome's face: it was 
long since he had heard her speak to him as if she were 
losing her self-command. 
</p>
            <p>'Has he shown any unpleasant feeling about your 
management of the affairs?' 
</p>
            <p>'My management of the affairs?' Mrs Transome said, with 
concentrated rage, flashing a fierce look at Jermyn. She 
checked herself: she felt as if she were lighting a torch to 
flare on her own past folly and misery. It was a resolve which 
had become a habit, that she would never quarrel with this 
man — never tell him what she saw him to be. She had kept 
her woman's pride and sensibility intact: through all her 
life there had vibrated the maiden need to have her hand 
kissed and be the object of chivalry. And so she sank into 
silence again, trembling. 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn felt annoyed — nothing more. There was nothing 
in his mind corresponding to the intricate meshes of sensitiveness <pb n="202"/>
in Mrs Transome's. He was anything but stupid; 
yet he always blundered when he wanted to be delicate or 
magnanimous; he constantly sought to soothe others by 
praising himself. Moral vulgarity cleaved to him like an 
hereditary odour. He blundered now. 
</p>
            <p>'My dear Mrs Transome,' he said in a tone of bland 
kindness, 'you are agitated — you appear angry with me. Yet I 
think, if you consider, you will see that you have nothing 
to complain of in me, unless you will complain of the 
inevitable course of man's life. I have always met your wishes 
both in happy circumstances and in unhappy ones. I should 
be ready to do so now, if it were possible.' 
</p>
            <p>Every sentence was as pleasant to her as if it had been 
cut in her bared arm. Some men's kindness and love-making 
are more exasperating, more humiliating than others' 
derision; but the pitiable woman who has once made herself 
secretly dependent on a man who is beneath her in feeling, 
must bear that humiliation for fear of worse. Coarse kindness 
is at least better than coarse anger; and in all private quarrels 
the duller nature is triumphant by reason of its dulness. Mrs 
Transome knew in her inmost soul that those relations which 
had sealed her lips on Jermyn's conduct in business matters, 
had been with him a ground for presuming that he should 
have impunity in any lax dealing into which circumstances 
had led him. She knew that she herself had endured all the 
more privation because of his dishonest selfishness. And 
now, Harold's long-deferred heirship, and his return with 
startlingly unexpected penetration, activity, and assertion of 
mastery, had placed them both in the full presence of a 
difficulty which had been prepared by the years of vague 
uncertainty as to issues. In this position, with a great dread 
hanging over her, which Jermyn knew, and ought to have 
felt that he had caused her, she was inclined to lash him 
with indignation, to scorch him with the words that were 
just the fit names for his doings — inclined all the more 
when he spoke with an insolent blandness, ignoring all that 
was truly in her heart. But no sooner did the words 'You <pb n="203"/>
have brought it on me' rise within her than she heard within 
also the retort, 'You brought it on yourself.' Not for all the 
world beside could she bear to hear that retort uttered from 
without. What did she do? With strange sequence to all 
that rapid tumult, after a few moments' silence she said, in 
a gentle and almost tremulous voice — 
'Let me take your arm.' 
</p>
            <p>He gave it immediately, putting on his hat and 
wondering. For more than twenty years Mrs Transome had never 
chosen to take his arm. 
</p>
            <p>'I have but one thing to ask. Make me a promise.' 
</p>
            <p>'What is it?' 
</p>
            <p>'That you will never quarrel with Harold.' 
</p>
            <p>'You must know that it is my wish not to quarrel with 
him.' 
</p>
            <p>'But make a vow — fix it in your mind as a thing not to be 
done. Bear anything from him rather than quarrel with 
him. 
</p>
            <p>'A man can't make a vow not to quarrel,' said Jermyn, who 
was already a little irritated by the implication that Harold 
might be disposed to use him roughly. 'A man's temper may 
get the better of him at any moment. I am not prepared to 
bear anything.' 
</p>
            <p>'Good God!' said Mrs Transome, taking her hand from his 
arm,' is it possible you don't feel how horrible it would be?' 
</p>
            <p>As she took away her hand, Jermyn let his arm fall, put 
both his hands in his pockets, and shrugging his shoulders 
said, 'I shall use him as he uses me.' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn had turned round his savage side, and the 
blandness was out of sight. It was this that had always frightened 
Mrs Transome: there was a possibility of fierce insolence 
in this man who was to pass with those nearest to her as her 
indebted servant, but whose brand she secretly bore. She 
was as powerless with him as she was with her son. 
</p>
            <p>This woman, who loved rule, dared not speak another 
word of attempted persuasion. They were both silent, taking 
the nearest way into the sunshine again. There was a half-formed <pb n="204"/>
wish in both their minds — even in the mother's — 
that Harold Transome had never been born. 
</p>
            <p>'We are working hard for the election,' said Jermyn, 
recovering himself, as they turned into the sunshine again. 'I 
think we shall get him returned, and in that case he will be 
in high good-humour. Everything will be more propitious 
than you are apt to think. You must persuade yourself,' he 
added, smiling at her, 'that it is better for a man of his 
position to be in parliament on the wrong side than not be 
in at all.' 
</p>
            <p>'Never,' said Mrs Transome. 'I am too old to learn to call 
bitter sweet and sweet bitter. But what I may think or feel 
is of no consequence now. I am as unnecessary as a chimney 
ornament.' 
</p>
            <p>And in this way they parted on the gravel, in that pretty 
scene where they had met. Mrs Transome shivered as she 
stood alone: all around her, where there had once been 
brightness and warmth, there were white ashes, and the 
sunshine looked dreary as it fell on them. 
</p>
            <p>Mr Jermyn's heaviest reflections in riding homeward 
turned on the possibility of incidents between himself and 
Harold Transome which would have disagreeable results, 
requiring him to raise money, and perhaps causing scandal, 
which in its way might also help to create a monetary deficit. 
A man of sixty, with a wife whose Duffield connections were 
of the highest respectability, with a family of tall daughters, 
an expensive establishment, and a large professional 
business, owed a great deal more to himself as the mainstay of 
all those solidities, than to feelings and ideas which were 
quite unsubstantial. There were many unfortunate 
coincidences which placed Mr Jermyn in an uncomfortable 
position just now; he had not been much to blame, he 
considered; if it had not been for a sudden turn of affairs no one 
would have complained. He defied any man to say that he 
had intended to wrong people; he was able to refund, to make 
reprisals, if they could be fairly demanded. Only he would 
certainly have preferred that they should not be demanded. <pb n="205"/>
            </p>
            <p>A German poet was intrusted with a particularly fine 
sausage, which he was to convey to the donor's friend at 
Paris. In the course of the long journey he smelt the sausage; 
he got hungry, and desired to taste it; he pared a morsel 
off, then another, and another, in successive moments of 
temptation, till at last the sausage was, humanly speaking, 
at an end. The offence had not been premeditated. The poet 
had never loved meanness, but he loved sausage; and the 
result was undeniably awkward. 
</p>
            <p>So it was with Matthew Jermyn. He was far from liking 
that ugly abstraction rascality, but he had liked other things 
which had suggested nibbling. He had had to do many 
things in law and in daily life which, in the abstract, he 
would have condemned; and indeed he had never been 
tempted by them in the abstract. Here, in fact, was the 
inconvenience; he had sinned for the sake of particular 
concrete things, and particular concrete consequences were 
likely to follow. 
</p>
            <p>But he was a man of resolution, who, having made out 
what was the best course to take under a difficulty, went 
straight to his work. The election must be won: that would 
put Harold in good-humour, give him something to do, and 
leave himself more time to prepare for any crisis. 
</p>
            <p>He was in anything but low spirits that evening. It was 
his eldest daughter's birthday, and the young people had a 
dance. Papa was delightful — stood up for a quadrille and 
a country-dance, told stories at supper, and made humorous 
quotations from his early readings: if these were Latin, he 
apologised, and translated to the ladies; so that a deaf 
lady-visitor from Duffield kept her trumpet up continually, lest 
she should lose any of Mr Jermyn's conversation, and wished 
that her niece Maria had been present, who was young and 
had a good memory. 
</p>
            <p>Still the party was smaller than usual, for some families in 
Treby refused to visit Jermyn, now that he was concerned 
for a Radical candidate. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c10" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 10</head>
            <pb n="206"/>
            <q>
               <l>'He made love neither with roses, nor with apples, nor with </l>
               <l>locks of hair.' — THEOCRITUS. </l>
            </q>
            <p>ONE Sunday afternoon Felix Holt rapped at the door of 
Mr Lyon's house, although he could hear the voice of the 
minister preaching in the chapel. He stood with a book 
under his arm, apparently confident that there was some 
one in the house to open the door for him. In fact, Esther 
never went to chapel in the afternoon: that 'exercise' made 
her head ache. 
</p>
            <p>In these September weeks Felix had got rather intimate 
with Mr Lyon. They shared the same political sympathies; 
and though, to Liberals who had neither freehold nor 
copyhold nor leasehold, the share in a county election  consisted 
chiefly of that prescriptive amusement of the majority 
known as 'looking on,' there was still something to be said 
on the occasion, if not to be done. Perhaps the most 
delightful friendships are those in which there is much agreement, 
much disputation, and yet more personal liking; and the 
advent of the public-spirited, contradictory, yet affectionate 
Felix, into Treby life, had made a welcome epoch to the 
minister. To talk with this young man, who, though hopeful, 
had a singularity which some might at once have 
pronounced heresy, but which Mr Lyon persisted in regarding 
as orthodoxy 'in the making,' was like a good bite to strong 
teeth after a too plentiful allowance of spoon meat. To 
cultivate his society with a view to checking his erratic tendencies 
was a laudable purpose; but perhaps if Felix had been 
rapidly subdued and reduced to conformity, little Mr Lyon 
would have found the conversation much flatter. 
</p>
            <p>Esther had not seen so much of their new acquaintance 
as her father had. But she had begun to find him amusing, 
and also rather irritating to her woman's love of conquest. 
He always opposed and criticised her; and besides that, he <pb n="207"/>
looked at her as if he never saw a single detail about her 
person — quite as if she were a middle-aged woman in a 
cap. She did not believe that he had ever admired her 
hands, or her long neck, or her graceful movements, which 
had made all the girls at school call her Calypso (doubtless 
from their familiarity with Telemaque). Felix ought 
properly to have been a little in love with her — never 
mentioning it, of course, because that would have been disagreeable, 
and his being a regular lover was out of the question. But 
it was quite clear that, instead of feeling any disadvantage 
on his own side, he held himself to be immeasurably her 
superior: and, what was worse, Esther had a secret 
consciousness that he was her superior. She was all the more vexed 
at the suspicion that he thought slightly of her; and wished 
in her vexation that she could have found more fault with 
him — that she had not been obliged to admire more and 
more the varying expressions of his open face and his 
deliciously good-humoured laugh, always loud at a joke 
against himself. Besides, she could not help having her 
curiosity roused by the unusual combinations both in his 
mind and in his outward position, and she had surprised 
herself as well as her father one day by suddenly starting 
up and proposing to walk with him when he was going to 
pay an afternoon visit to Mrs Holt, to try and soothe her 
concerning Felix. 'What a mother he has!' she said to 
herself when they came away again; 'but, rude and queer 
as he is, I cannot say there is anything vulgar about him. 
Yet — I don't know — if I saw him by the side of a finished 
gentleman.' Esther wished that finished gentleman were 
among her acquaintances: he would certainly admire her, 
and make her aware of Felix's inferiority. 
</p>
            <p>On this particular Sunday afternoon, when she heard the 
knock at the door, she was seated in the kitchen corner 
between the fire and the window reading Rene. Certainly, 
in her well-fitting light-blue dress — she almost always wore 
some shade of blue — with her delicate sandalled slipper 
stretched towards the fire, her little gold watch, which had <pb n="208"/>
cost her nearly a quarter's earnings, visible at her side, her 
slender fingers playing with a shower of brown curls, and 
a coronet of shining plaits at the summit of her head, she 
was a remarkable Cinderella. When the rap came, she 
coloured, and was going to shut her book and put it out of 
the way on the window-ledge behind her; but she desisted 
with a little toss, laid it open on the table beside her, and 
walked to the outer door, which opened into the kitchen. 
There was rather a mischievous gleam in her face: the rap 
was not a small one; it came probably from a large 
personage with a vigorous arm. 
</p>
            <p>'Good afternoon, Miss Lyon,' said Felix, taking off his cloth 
cap: he resolutely declined the expensive ugliness of a hat, 
and in a poked cap and without a cravat, made a figure at 
which his mother cried every Sunday, and thought of with 
a slow shake of the head at several passages in the minister's 
prayer. 
</p>
            <p>'Dear me, it is you, Mr Holt! fear you will have to wait 
some time before you can see my father. The sermon is not 
ended yet, and there will be the hymn and the prayer, and 
perhaps other things to detain him.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, will you let me sit down in the kitchen? I don't 
want to be a bore.' 
</p>
            <p>'O no,' said Esther, with her pretty light laugh, 'I always 
give you credit for not meaning it. Pray come in, if you don't 
mind waiting. I was sitting in the kitchen: the kettle is 
singing quite prettily. It is much nicer than the parlour — 
not half so ugly.' 
</p>
            <p>'There I agree with you.' 
</p>
            <p>'How very extraordinary! But if you prefer the kitchen, 
and don't want to sit with me, I can go into the parlour.' 
</p>
            <p>'I came on purpose to sit with you,' said Felix, in his blunt 
way, 'but I thought it likely you might be vexed at seeing 
me. I wanted to talk to you, but I've got nothing pleasant 
to say. As your father would have it, I'm not given to 
prophesy smooth things — to prophesy deceit.' 
</p>
            <p>'I understand,' said Esther, sitting down. 'Pray be seated. <pb n="209"/>
You thought I had no afternoon sermon, so you came to 
give me one.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes,' said Felix, seating himself sideways in a chair not 
far off her, and leaning over the back to look at her with 
his large clear grey eyes, 'and my text is something you said 
the other day. You said you didn't mind about people 
having right opinions so that they had good taste. Now I want 
you to see what shallow stuff that is.' 
</p>
            <p>'Oh, I don't doubt it if you say so. I know you are a person 
of right opinions.' 
</p>
            <p>'But by opinions you mean men's thoughts about great 
subjects, and by taste you mean their thoughts about small 
ones; dress, behaviour, amusements, ornaments.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well — yes — or rather, their sensibilities about those 
things.' 
</p>
            <p>'It comes to the same thing; thoughts, opinions, 
knowledge, are only a sensibility to facts and ideas. If I 
understand a geometrical problem, it is because I have a sensibility 
to the way in which lines and figures are related to each 
other; and I want you to see that the creature who has the 
sensibilities that you call taste, and not the sensibilities that 
you call opinions, is simply a lower, pettier sort of being — 
an insect that notices the shaking of the table, but never 
notices the thunder.' 
</p>
            <p>'Very well, I am an insect; yet I notice that you are 
thundering at me.' 
</p>
            <p>'No, you are not an insect. That is what exasperates me 
at your making a boast of littleness. You have enough 
understanding to make it wicked that you should add one more 
to the women who hinder men's lives from having any 
nobleness in them.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther coloured deeply: she resented this speech, yet 
she disliked it less than many Felix had addressed to 
her. 
</p>
            <p>'What is my horrible guilt?' she said, rising and standing, 
as she was wont, with one foot on the fender, and looking 
at the fire. If it had been any one but Felix who was near <pb n="210"/>
her, it might have occurred to her that this attitude showed 
her to advantage; but she had only a mortified sense that he 
was quite indifferent to what others praised her for. 
</p>
            <p>'Why do you read this mawkish stuff on a Sunday, for 
example?' he said, snatching up Rene, and running his eye 
over the pages. 
</p>
            <p>'Why don't you always go to chapel, Mr Holt, and read 
Howe's Living Temple, and join the church?' 
</p>
            <p>'There's just the difference between us — I know why I 
don't do those things. I distinctly see that I can do something 
better. I have other principles, and should sink myself by 
doing what I don't recognise as the best.' 
</p>
            <p>'I understand,' said Esther, as lightly as she could, to 
conceal her bitterness. 'I am a lower kind of being, and could 
not so easily sink myself.' 
</p>
            <p>'Not by entering into your father's ideas. If a woman really 
believes herself to be a lower kind of being, she should 
place herself in subjection: she should be ruled by the 
thoughts of her father or husband. If not, let her show her 
power of choosing something better. You must know that 
your father's principles are greater and worthier than what 
guides your life. You have no reason but idle fancy and 
selfish inclination for shirking his teaching and giving your 
soul up to trifles.' 
</p>
            <p>'You are kind enough to say so. But I am not aware that 
I have ever confided my reasons to you.' 
</p>
            <p>'Why, what worth calling a reason could make any mortal 
hang over this trash? — idiotic immorality dressed up to 
look fine, with a little bit of doctrine tacked to it, like a hare's 
foot on a dish, to make believe the mess is not cat's flesh. 
Look here ! “Est-ce ma faute, si je trouve partout les bornes, 
si ce qui est fini n'a pour moi aucune valeur?” Yes, sir, 
distinctly your fault, because you're an ass. Your dunce who 
can't do his sums always has a taste for the infinite. Sir, do 
you know what a rhomboid is? Oh no, I don't value these 
things with limits. “Cependant, j'aime la monotonie des <pb n="211"/>
sentimens de la vie, et si j'avais encore la folie de croire au 
bonheur —” ' 
</p>
            <p>'O pray, Mr Holt, don't go on reading with that dreadful 
accent; it sets one's teeth on edge.' Esther, smarting 
helplessly under the previous lashes, was relieved by this 
diversion of criticism. 
</p>
            <p>'There it is!' said Felix, throwing the book on the table, 
and getting up to walk about. 'You are only happy when you 
can spy a tag or a tassel loose to turn the talk, and get rid 
of any judgment that must carry grave action after it.' 
</p>
            <p>'I think I have borne a great deal of talk without turning 
it.' 
</p>
            <p>'Not enough, Miss Lyon — not all that I came to say. I 
want you to change. Of course I am a brute to say so. I 
ought to say you are perfect. Another man would, perhaps. 
But I say, I want you to change.' 
</p>
            <p>'How am I to oblige you? By joining the church?' 
</p>
            <p>'No; but by asking yourself whether life is not as solemn 
a thing as your father takes it to be — in which you may be 
either a blessing or a curse to many. You know you have 
never done that. You don't care to be better than a bird 
trimming its feathers, and pecking about after what pleases 
it. You are discontented with the world because you can't 
get just the small things that suit your pleasure, not because 
it's a world where myriads of men and women are ground 
by wrong and misery, and tainted with pollution.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther felt her heart swelling with mingled indignation 
at this liberty, wounded pride at this depreciation, and acute 
consciousness that she could not contradict what Felix said. 
He was outrageously ill-bred; but she felt that she should 
be lowering herself by telling him so, and manifesting her 
anger: in that way she would be confirming his accusation 
of a littleness that shrank from severe truth; and, besides, 
through all her mortification there pierced a sense that this 
exasperation of Felix against her was more complimentary 
than anything in his previous behaviour. She had 
self-command enough to speak with her usual silvery voice. <pb n="212"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Pray go on, Mr Holt. Relieve yourself of these burning 
truths. I am sure they must be troublesome to carry 
unuttered.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, they are,' said Felix, pausing, and standing not far 
off her. 'I can't bear to see you going the way of the foolish 
women who spoil men's lives. Men can't help loving them, 
and so they make themselves slaves to the petty desires of 
petty creatures. That's the way those who might do better 
spend their lives for nought — get checked in every great 
effort — toil with brain and limb for things that have no 
more to do with a manly life than tarts and confectionery. 
That's what makes women a curse; all life is stunted to suit 
their littleness. That's why I'll never love, if I can help it; 
and if I love, I'll bear it, and never marry.' 
</p>
            <p>The tumult of feeling in Esther's mind — mortification, 
anger, the sense of a terrible power over her that Felix 
seemed to have as his angry words vibrated through her — 
was getting almost too much for her self-control. She felt 
her lips quivering; but her pride, which feared nothing so 
much as the betrayal of her emotion, helped her to a 
desperate effort. She pinched her own hand to overcome her 
tremor, and said, in a tone of scorn — 
</p>
            <p>'I ought to be very much obliged to you for giving me 
your confidence so freely.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah! now you are offended with me, and disgusted with 
me. I expected it would be so. A woman doesn't like a man 
who tells her the truth.' 
</p>
            <p>'I think you boast a little too much of your truth-telling, 
Mr Holt,' said Esther, flashing out at last. 'That virtue is 
apt to be easy to people when they only wound others and 
not themselves. Telling the truth often means no more than 
taking a liberty.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, I suppose I should have been taking a liberty if I had 
tried to drag you back by the skirt when I saw you running 
into a pit.' 
</p>
            <p>'You should really found a sect. Preaching is your vocation. <pb n="213"/>
It is a pity you should ever have an audience of only 
one.' 
</p>
            <p>'I see; I have made a fool of myself. I thought you had a 
more generous mind — that you might be kindled to a better 
ambition. But I've set your vanity aflame — nothing else. I'm 
going. Good-bye.' 
</p>
            <p>'Good-bye,' said Esther, not looking at him. He did not 
open the door immediately. He seemed to be adjusting his 
cap and pulling it down. Esther longed to be able to throw a 
lasso round him and compel him to stay, that she might say 
what she chose to him; her very anger made this departure 
irritating, especially as he had the last word, and that a very 
bitter one. But soon the latch was lifted and the door closed 
behind him. She ran up to her bedroom and burst into tears. 
Poor maiden! There was a strange contradiction of impulses 
in her mind in those first moments. She could not bear that 
Felix should not respect her, yet she could not bear that he 
should see her bend before his denunciation. She revolted 
against his assumption of superiority, yet she felt herself in a 
new kind of subjection to him. He was ill-bred, he was rude, 
he had taken an unwarrantable liberty; yet his indignant 
words were a tribute to her: he thought she was worth more 
pains than the women of whom he took no notice. It was 
excessively impertinent in him to tell her of his resolving 
not to love — not to marry — as if she cared about that; as if 
he thought himself likely to inspire an affection that would 
incline any woman to marry him after such eccentric steps 
as he had taken. Had he ever for a moment imagined that 
she had thought of him in the light of a man who would 
make love to her? . . . But did he love her one little bit, and 
was that the reason why he wanted her to change? Esther 
felt less angry at that form of freedom; though she was 
quite sure that she did not love him, and that she could 
never love any one who was so much of a pedagogue and 
a master, to say nothing of his oddities. But he wanted her 
to change. For the first time in her life Esther felt herself <pb n="214"/>
seriously shaken in her self-contentment. She knew there 
was a mind to which she appeared trivial, narrow, selfish. 
Every word Felix had said to her seemed to have burnt 
itself into her memory. She felt as if she should for 
evermore be haunted by self-criticism, and never do anything 
to satisfy those fancies on which she had simply piqued 
herself before without being dogged by inward questions. 
Her father's desire for her conversion had never moved her; 
she saw that he adored her all the while, and he never 
checked her unregenerate acts as if they degraded her on 
earth, but only mourned over them as unfitting her for 
heaven. Unfitness for heaven (spoken of as 'Jerusalem' and 
'glory'), the prayers of a good little father, whose thoughts 
and motives seemed to her like the Life of Dr Doddridge, 
which she was content to leave unread, did not attack her 
self-respect and self-satisfaction. But now she had been 
stung — stung even into a new consciousness concerning her 
father. Was it true that his life was so much worthier than 
her own? She could not change for anything Felix said, 
but she told herself he was mistaken if he supposed her 
incapable of generous thoughts. 
</p>
            <p>She heard her father coming into the house. She dried her 
tears, tried to recover herself hurriedly, and went down to 
him. 
</p>
            <p>'You want your tea, father; how your forehead burns!' she 
said gently, kissing his brow, and then putting her cool hand 
on it. 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon felt a little surprise; such spontaneous 
tenderness was not quite common with her; it reminded him of 
her mother. 
</p>
            <p>'My sweet child,' he said gratefully, thinking with wonder 
of the treasures still left in our fallen nature. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c11" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 11</head>
            <pb n="215"/>
            <q>
               <l>Truth is the precious harvest of the earth. </l>
               <l>But once, when harvest waved upon a land, </l>
               <l>The noisome cankerworm and caterpillar, </l>
               <l>Locusts, and all the swarming foul-born broods, </l>
               <l>Fastened upon it with swift, greedy jaws, </l>
               <l>And turned the harvest into pestilence, </l>
               <l>Until men said, What profits it to sow? </l>
            </q>
            <p>FELIX was going to Sproxton that Sunday afternoon. He 
always enjoyed his walk to that out-lying hamlet; it took 
him (by a short cut) through a corner of Sir Maximus 
Debarry's park; then across a piece of common, broken here 
and there into red ridges below dark masses of furze; and 
for the rest of the way alongside the canal, where the 
Sunday peacefulness that seemed to rest on the bordering 
meadows and pastures was hardly broken if a horse pulled 
into sight along the towing-path, and a boat, with a little 
curl of blue smoke issuing from its tin chimney, came slowly 
gliding behind. Felix retained something of his boyish 
impression that the days in a canal-boat were all like Sundays; 
but the horse, if it had been put to him, would probably 
have preferred a more Judaic or Scotch rigour with regard 
to canal-boats, or at least that the Sunday towing should be 
done by asses, as a lower order. 
</p>
            <p>This canal was only a branch of the grand trunk, and 
ended among the coal-pits, where Felix, crossing a network 
of black tram-roads, soon came to his destination — that 
public institute of Sproxton, known to its frequenters chiefly 
as Chubb's, but less familiarly as the Sugar Loaf or the New 
Pits; this last being the name for the more modern and 
lively nucleus of the Sproxton hamlet. The other nucleus, 
known as the Old Pits, also supported its 'public,' but it had 
something of the forlorn air of an abandoned capital; and 
the company at the Blue Cow was of an inferior kind — 
equal, of course, in the fundamental attributes of humanity, 
such as desire for beer, but not equal in ability to pay for it. <pb n="216"/>
            </p>
            <p>When Felix arrived, the great Chubb was standing at the 
door. Mr Chubb was a remarkable publican; none of your 
stock Bonifaces, red, bloated, jolly, and joking. He was thin 
and sallow, and was never, as his constant guests observed, 
seen to be the worse (or the better) for liquor; indeed, as 
among soldiers an eminent general was held to have a 
charmed life, Chubb was held by the members of the Benefit 
Club to have a charmed sobriety, a vigilance over his own 
interest that resisted all narcotics. His very dreams, as stated 
by himself, had a method in them beyond the waking 
thoughts of other men. Pharaoh's dream, he observed, was 
nothing to them; and, as lying so much out of ordinary 
experience, they were held particularly suitable for narration 
on Sunday evenings, when the listening colliers, well washed 
and in their best coats, shook their heads with a sense of 
that peculiar edification which belongs to the inexplicable. 
Mr Chubb's reasons for becoming landlord of the Sugar 
Loaf were founded on the severest calculation. Having an 
active mind, and being averse to bodily labour, he had 
thoroughly considered what calling would yield him the best 
livelihood with the least possible exertion, and in that sort 
of line he had seen that a 'public' amongst miners who 
earned high wages was a fine opening. He had prospered 
according to the merits of such judicious calculation, was 
already a forty-shilling freeholder, and was conscious of a 
vote for the county. He was not one of those mean-spirited 
men who found the franchise embarrassing, and would 
rather have been without it: he regarded his vote as part 
of his investment, and meant to make the best of it. He 
called himself a straightforward man, and at suitable 
moments expressed his views freely; in fact, he was known to 
have one fundamental division for all opinion — 'my idee' 
and 'humbug'. 
</p>
            <p>When Felix approached, Mr Chubb was standing, as 
usual, with his hands nervously busy in his pockets, his eyes 
glancing round with a detective expression at the black <pb n="217"/>
landscape, and his lipless mouth compressed yet in constant 
movement. On a superficial view it might be supposed that 
so eager-seeming a personality was unsuited to the 
publican's business; but in fact it was a great provocative to 
drinking. Like the shrill biting talk of a vixenish wife, it 
would have compelled you to 'take a little something' by way 
of dulling your sensibility. 
</p>
            <p>Hitherto, notwithstanding Felix drank so little ale, the 
publican had treated him with high civility. The coming 
election was a great opportunity for applying his political 
'idee,' which was, that society existed for the sake of the 
individual, and that the name of that individual was Chubb. 
Now, from a conjunction of absurd circumstances 
inconsistent with that idea, it happened that Sproxton had been 
hitherto somewhat neglected in the canvass. The head 
member of the company that worked the mines was Mr Peter 
Garstin, and the same company received the rent for the 
Sugar Loaf. Hence, as the person who had the most power 
of annoying Mr Chubb, and being of detriment to him, Mr 
Garstin was naturally the candidate for whom he had 
reserved his vote. But where there is this intention of 
ultimately gratifying a gentleman by voting for him in an open 
British manner on the day of the poll, a man, whether 
publican or pharisee (Mr Chubb used this generic classification 
of mankind as one that was sanctioned by Scripture), is all the 
freer in his relations with those deluded persons who take 
him for what he is not, and imagine him to be a waverer. 
But for some time opportunity had seemed barren. There 
were but three dubious votes besides Mr Chubb's in the 
small district of which the Sugar Loaf could be regarded as 
the centre of intelligence and inspiration: the colliers, of 
course, had no votes, and did not need political conversion; 
consequently, the interests of Sproxton had only been tacitly 
cherished in the breasts of candidates. But ever since it had 
been known that a Radical candidate was in the field, that 
in consequences of this Mr Debarry had coalesced with Mr 
Garstin, and that Sir James Clement, the poor baronet, had <pb n="218"/>
retired, Mr Chubb had been occupied with the most 
ingenious mental combinations in order to ascertain what 
possibilities of profit to the Sugar Loaf might lie in this altered 
state of the canvass. 
</p>
            <p>He had a cousin in another county, also a publican, but in 
a larger way, and resident in a borough, and from him Mr 
Chubb had gathered more detailed political information 
than he could find in the Loamshire newspapers. He was now 
enlightened enough to know that there was a way of using 
voteless miners and navvies at nominations and elections. 
He approved of that; it entered into his political 'idee'; and 
indeed he would have been for extending the franchise to 
this class — at least in Sproxton. If any one had observed that 
you must draw a line somewhere, Mr Chubb would have 
concurred at once, and would have given permission to draw 
it at a radius of two miles from his own tap. 
</p>
            <p>From the first Sunday evening when Felix had appeared 
at the Sugar Loaf, Mr Chubb had made up his mind that 
this 'cute man who kept himself sober was an electioneering 
agent. That he was hired for some purpose or other there 
was not a doubt; a man didn't come and drink nothing 
without a good reason. In proportion as Felix's purpose was not 
obvious to Chubb's mind, it must be deep; and this growing 
conviction had even led the publican on the last Sunday 
evening privately to urge his mysterious visitor to let a little 
alc be chalked up for him — it was of no consequence. Felix 
knew his man, and had taken care not to betray too soon 
that his real object was so to win the ear of the best fellows 
about him as to induce them to meet him on a Saturday 
evening in the room where Mr Lyon, or one of his deacons, 
habitually held his Wednesday preachings. Only women 
and children, three old men, a journeyman tailor, and a 
consumptive youth, attended those preachings; not a collier 
had been won from the strong ale of the Sugar Loaf, not 
even a navvy from the muddier drink of the Blue Cow. Felix 
was sanguine; he saw some pleasant faces among the miners 
when they were washed on Sundays; they might be taught <pb n="219"/>
to spend their wages better. At all events, he was going to 
try: he had great confidence in his powers of appeal, and it 
was quite true that he never spoke without arresting 
attention. There was nothing better than a dame school in the 
hamlet; he thought that if he could move the fathers, whose 
blackened week-day persons and flannel caps, ornamented 
with tallow candles by way of plume, were a badge of hard 
labour for which he had a more sympathetic fibre than for 
any ribbon in the button-hole — if he could move these men 
to save something from their drink and pay a schoolmaster 
for their boys, a greater service would be done them than if 
Mr Garstin and his company were persuaded to establish a 
school. 
</p>
            <p>'I'll lay hold of them by their fatherhood,' said Felix; 
'I'll take one of their little fellows and set him in the midst. 
Till they can show there's something they love better than 
swilling themselves with ale, extension of the suffrage can 
never mean anything for them but extension of boozing. 
One must begin somewhere: I'll begin at what is under my 
nose. I'll begin at Sproxton. That's what a man would do if 
he had a red-hot superstition. Can't one work for sober truth 
as hard as for megrims?' 
</p>
            <p>Felix Holt had his illusions, like other young men, though 
they were not of a fashionable sort; referring neither to the 
impression his costume and horsemanship might make on 
beholders, nor to the ease with which he would pay the Jews 
when he gave a loose to his talents and applied himself to 
work. He had fixed his choice on a certain Mike Brindle (not 
that Brindle was his real name — each collier had his 
sobriquet) as the man whom he would induce to walk part of the 
way home with him this very evening, and get to invite some 
of his comrades for the next Saturday. Brindle was one of 
the head miners; he had a bright good-natured face, and had 
given especial attention to certain performances with a 
magnet which Felix carried in his pocket. 
</p>
            <p>Mr Chubb, who had also his illusions, smiled graciously as 
the enigmatic customer came up to the door-step. <pb n="220"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Well, sir, Sunday seems to be your day: I begin to look for 
you on a Sunday now.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, I'm a working man; Sunday is my holiday,' said 
Felix, pausing at the door since the host seemed to expect 
this. 
</p>
            <p>'Ah, sir, there's many ways of working. I look at it you're 
one of those as work with your brains. That's what I do 
myself.' 
</p>
            <p>'One may do a good deal of that and work with one's hands 
too.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah, sir,' said Mr Chubb, with a certain bitterness in his 
smile, 'I've that sort of head that I've often wished I was 
stupider. I use things up, sir; I see into things a deal too 
quick. I eat my dinner, as you may say, at breakfast-time. 
That's why I hardly ever smoke a pipe. No sooner do I stick 
a pipe in my mouth than I puff and puff till it's gone before 
other folks are well lit; and then, where am I? I might as well 
have let it alone. In this world it's better not to be too quick. 
But you know what it is, sir.' 
</p>
            <p>'Not I,' said Felix, rubbing the back of his head, with a 
grimace. 'I generally feel myself rather a blockhead. This 
world's a largish place, and I haven't turned everything 
inside out yet.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah, that's your deepness. I think we understand one 
another. And about this here election, I lay two to one we 
should agree if we was to come to talk about it.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah ! ' said Felix, with an air of caution. 
</p>
            <p>'You're none of a Tory, eh, sir? You won't go to vote for 
Debarry? That was what I said at the very first go-off. Says 
I, he's no Tory. I think I was right, sir — eh?' 
</p>
            <p>'Certainly; I'm no Tory.' 
</p>
            <p>'No, no, you don't catch me wrong in a hurry. Well, 
between you and me, I care no more for the Debarrys than I 
care for Johnny Groats. I live on none o' their land, and not 
a pot's worth did they ever send to the Sugar Loaf. I'm not 
frightened at the Debarrys: there's no man more 
independent than me. I'll plump or I'll split for them as treat me the <pb n="221"/>
handsomest and are the most of what I call gentlemen; 
that's my idee. And in the way of hacting for any man, them 
are fools that don't employ me.' 
</p>
            <p>We mortals sometimes cut a pitiable figure in our attempts 
at display. We may be sure of our own merits, yet fatally 
ignorant of the point of view from which we are regarded by 
our neighbour. Our fine patterns in tattooing may be far 
from throwing him into a swoon of admiration, though we 
turn ourselves all round to show them. Thus it was with Mr 
Chubb. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes,' said Felix, dryly; 'I should think there are some 
sorts of work for which you are just fitted.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah, you see that? Well, we understand one another. 
You're no Tory; no more am I. And if I'd got four hands to 
show at a nomination, the Debarry's shouldn't have one of 
'em. My idee is, there's a deal too much of their scutchins 
and their moniments in Treby church. What's their 
scutchins mean? They're a sign with little liquor behind 'em; 
that's how I take it. There's nobody can give account of 'em 
as I ever heard.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Chubb was hindered from further explaining his views 
as to the historical element in society by the arrival of new 
guests, who approached in two groups. The foremost group 
consisted of well-known colliers, in their good Sunday 
beavers and coloured handkerchiefs serving as cravats, with 
the long ends floating. The second group was a more unusual 
one, and caused Mr Chubb to compress his mouth 
and agitate the muscles about it in rather an excited 
manner. 
</p>
            <p>First came a smartly-dressed personage on horseback, with 
a conspicuous expansive shirt-front and figured satin stock. 
He was a stout man, and gave a strong sense of broadcloth. 
A wild idea shot through Mr Chubb's brain: could this 
grand visitor be Harold Transome? Excuse him: he had 
been given to understand by his cousin from the distant 
borough that a Radical candidate in the condescension of 
canvassing had even gone the length of eating bread-and-treacle <pb n="222"/>
with the children of an honest freeman, and 
declaring his preference for that simple fare. Mr Chubb's notion 
of a Radical was that he was a new and agreeable kind of 
lick-spittle who fawned on the poor instead of on the rich, 
and so was likely to send customers to a 'public'; so that he 
argued well enough from the premises at his command. 
</p>
            <p>The mounted man of broadcloth had followers: several 
shabby-looking men, and Sproxton boys of all sizes, whose 
curiosity had been stimulated by unexpected largesse. A 
stranger on horseback scattering halfpence on a Sunday was 
so unprecedented that there was no knowing what he might 
do next; and the smallest hindmost fellows in sealskin caps 
were not without hope that an entirely new order of things 
had set in. 
</p>
            <p>Every one waited outside for the stranger to dismount, 
and Mr Chubb advanced to take the bridle. 
</p>
            <p>'Well, Mr Chubb,' were the first words when the great man 
was safely out of the saddle, 'I've often heard of your fine 
tap, and I'm come to taste it.' 
</p>
            <p>'Walk in, sir — pray walk in,' said Mr Chubb, giving the 
horse to the stable-boy. 'I shall be proud to draw for you. 
If anybody's been praising me, I think my ale will back 
him.' 
</p>
            <p>All entered in the rear of the stranger except the boys, 
who peeped in at the window. 
</p>
            <p>'Won't you please to walk into the parlour, sir?' said 
Chubb, obsequiously. 
</p>
            <p>'No, no, I'll sit down here. This is what I like to see,' said 
the stranger, looking round at the colliers, who eyed him 
rather shyly — 'a bright hearth where working men can enjoy 
themselves. However, I'll step into the other room for three 
minutes, just to speak half-a-dozen words with you.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Chubb threw open the parlour door, and then stepping 
back, took the opportunity of saying, in a low tone, to Felix, 
'Do you know this gentleman?' 
</p>
            <p>'Not I; no.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Chubb's opinion of Felix Holt sank from that moment. <pb n="223"/>
The parlour door was closed, but no one sat down or ordered 
beer. 
</p>
            <p>'I say, master,' said Mike Brindle, going up to Felix, 'don't 
you think that's one o' the 'lection men?' 
</p>
            <p>'Very likely.' 
</p>
            <p>'I heard a chap say they're up and down everywhere,' said 
Brindle; 'and now's the time, they say, when a man can get 
beer for nothing.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ay, that's sin' the Reform,' said a big, red-whiskered man, 
called Dredge. 'That's brought the 'lections and the drink 
into these parts; for afore that, it was all kep up the Lord 
knows wheer.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, but the Reform's niver come anigh Sprox'on,' said 
a grey-haired but stalwart man called Old Sleck. 'I don't 
believe nothing about'n, I don't.' 
</p>
            <p>'Don't you?' said Brindle, with some contempt. 'Well, 
I do. There's folks won't believe beyond the end o' their own 
pickaxes. You can't drive nothing into 'em, not if you split 
their skulls. I know for certain sure, from a chap in the 
cartin' way, as he's got money and drink too, only for 
hollering. Eh, master, what do you say?' Brindle ended, turning 
with some deference to Felix. 
</p>
            <p>'Should you like to know all about the Reform?' said 
Felix, using his opportunity. 'If you would, I can tell you.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ay, ay — tell's; you know, I'll be bound,' said several 
voices at once. 
</p>
            <p>'Ah, but it will take some little time. And we must be 
quiet. The cleverest of you — those who are looked up to in 
the club — must come and meet me at Peggy Button's cottage 
next Saturday, at seven o'clock, after dark. And, Brindle, 
you must bring that little yellow-haired lad of yours. And 
anybody that's got a little boy — a very little fellow, who 
won't understand what is said — may bring him. But you 
must keep it close, you know. We don't want fools there. 
But everybody who hears me may come. I shall be at Peggy 
Button's.' 
</p>
            <p>'Why, that's where the Wednesday preachin' is,' said <pb n="224"/>
Dredge. 'I've been aforced to give my wife a black eye to 
hinder her from going to the preachin'. Lors-a-massy, she 
thinks she knows better nor me, and I can't make head nor 
tail of her talk.' 
</p>
            <p>'Why can't you let the woman alone?' said Brindle, with 
some disgust. 'I'd be ashamed to beat a poor crawling thing 
'cause she likes preaching.' 
</p>
            <p>'No more I did beat her afore, not if she scrat' me,' said 
Dredge, in vindication; 'but if she jabbers at me, I can't 
abide it. Howsomever, I'll bring my Jack to Peggy's o' 
Saturday. His mother shall wash him. He is but four year old, 
and he'll swear and square at me a good un, if I set him on.' 
</p>
            <p>'There you go blatherin',' said Brindle, intending a mild 
rebuke. 
</p>
            <p>This dialogue, which was in danger of becoming too 
personal, was interrupted by the reopening of the parlour door, 
and the reappearance of the impressive stranger with Mr 
Chubb, whose countenance seemed unusually radiant. 
</p>
            <p>'Sit you down here, Mr Johnson,' said Chubb, moving an 
arm-chair. 'This gentleman is kind enough to treat the 
company,' he added, looking round, 'and what's more, he'll take 
a cup with 'em; and I think there's no man but what'll say 
that's a honour.' 
</p>
            <p>The company had nothing equivalent to a 'hear, hear', at 
command, but they perhaps felt the more, as they seated 
themselves with an expectation unvented by utterance. 
There was a general satisfactory sense that the hitherto 
shadowy Reform had at length come to Sproxton in a good 
round shape, with broadcloth and pockets. Felix did not 
intend to accept the treating, but he chose to stay and hear, 
taking his pint as usual. 
</p>
            <p>'Capital ale, capital ale,' said Mr Johnson, as he set down 
his glass, speaking in a quick, smooth treble. 'Now,' he went 
on, with a certain pathos in his voice, looking at Mr Chubb, 
who sat opposite, 'there's some satisfaction to me in finding 
an establishment like this at the Pits. For what would higher 
wages do for the working man if he couldn't get a good <pb n="225"/>
article for his money? Why, gentlemen' — here he looked 
round — 'I've been into ale-houses where I've seen a fine 
fellow of a miner or a stone-cutter come in and have to lay 
down money for beer that I should be sorry to give to my 
pigs ! ' Here Mr Johnson leaned forward with squared elbows, 
hands placed on his knees, and a defiant shake of the 
head. 
</p>
            <p>'Aw, like at the Blue Cow,' fell in the irrepressible Dredge, 
in a deep bass; but he was rebuked by a severe nudge from 
Brindle. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, yes, you know what it is, my friend,' said Mr Johnson, 
looking at Dredge, and restoring his self-satisfaction. 'But it 
won't last much longer, that's one good thing. Bad liquor 
will be swept away with other bad articles. Trade will 
prosper — and what's trade now without steam? and what is steam 
without coal? And mark you this, gentlemen — there's no 
man and no government can make coal.' 
</p>
            <p>A brief loud 'Haw, haw,' showed that this fact was 
appreciated. 
</p>
            <p>'Nor freeston' nayther,' said a wide-mouthed wiry man 
called Gills, who wished for an exhaustive treatment of the 
subject, being a stone-cutter. 
</p>
            <p>'Nor freestone, as you say; else, I think, if coal could be 
made aboveground, honest fellows who are the pith of our 
population would not have to bend their backs and sweat in a 
pit six days out of the seven. No, no: I say, as this country 
prospers it has more and more need of you, sirs. It can do 
without a pack of lazy lords and ladies, but it can never do 
without brave colliers. And the country will prosper. I pledge 
you my word, sirs, this country will rise to the tip-top of 
everything, and there isn't a man in it but what shall have 
his joint in the pot, and his spare money jingling in his 
pocket, if we only exert ourselves to send the right men to 
parliament — men who will speak up for the collier, and the 
stone-cutter, and the navvy' (Mr Johnson waved his hand 
liberally), 'and will stand no nonsense. This is a crisis, and 
we must exert ourselves. We've got Reform, gentlemen, but <pb n="226"/>
now the thing is to make Reform work. It's a crisis — I pledge 
you my word it's a crisis.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Johnson threw himself back as if from the concussion 
of that great noun. He did not suppose that one of his 
audience knew what a crisis meant; but he had large 
experience in the effect of uncomprehended words; and in this 
case the colliers were thrown into a state of conviction 
concerning they did not know what, which was a fine 
preparation for 'hitting out', or any other act carrying a due sequence 
to such a conviction. 
</p>
            <p>Felix felt himself in danger of getting into a rage. There is 
hardly any mental misery worse than that of having our own 
serious phrases, our own rooted beliefs, caricatured by a 
charlatan or a hireling. He began to feel the sharp lower 
edge of his tin pint-measure, and to think it a tempting 
missile. 
</p>
            <p>Mr Johnson certainly had some qualifications as an orator. 
After this impressive pause he leaned forward again, and 
said, in a lowered tone, looking round — 
</p>
            <p>'I think you all know the good news.' 
</p>
            <p>There was a movement of shoe-soles on the quarried floor, 
and a scrape of some chair legs, but no other answer. 
</p>
            <p>'The good news I mean is, that a first-rate man, Mr 
Transome of Transome Court, has offered himself to represent 
you in parliament, sirs. I say you in particular, for what he 
has at heart is the welfare of the working man — of the brave 
fellows that wield the pickaxe, and the saw, and the hammer. 
He's rich — has more money than Garstin — but he doesn't 
want to keep it to himself. What he wants is, to make a good 
use of it, gentlemen. He's come back from foreign parts with 
his pockets full of gold. He could buy up the Debarry's if 
they were worth buying, but he's got something better to do 
with his money. He means to use it for the good of the 
working men in these parts. I know there are some men who put 
up for parliament and talk a little too big. They may say they 
want to befriend the colliers, for example. But I should like 
to put a question to them. I should like to ask them, “What <pb n="227"/>
colliers?” There are colliers up at Newcastle, and there are 
colliers down in Wales. Will it do any good to honest Tom, 
who is hungry in Sproxton, to hear that Jack at Newcastle 
has his bellyful of beef and pudding?' 
</p>
            <p>'It ought to do him good,' Felix burst in, with his loud 
abrupt voice, in odd contrast with glib Mr Johnson's. 'If he 
knows it's a bad thing to be hungry and not have enough to 
eat, he ought to be glad that another fellow, who is not idle, 
is not suffering in the same way.' 
</p>
            <p>Every one was startled. The audience was much impressed 
with the grandeur, the knowledge, and the power of Mr 
Johnson. His brilliant promises confirmed the impression 
that Reform had at length reached the New Pits; and 
Reform, if it were good for anything, must at last resolve itself 
into spare money — meaning 'sport' and drink, and keeping 
away from work for several days in the week. These 'brave' 
men of Sproxton liked Felix as one of themselves, only much 
more knowing — as a working man who had seen many 
distant parts, but who must be very poor, since he never drank 
more than a pint or so. They were quite inclined to hear 
what he had got to say on another occasion, but they were 
rather irritated by his interruption at the present moment. 
Mr Johnson was annoyed, but he spoke with the same glib 
quietness as before, though with an expression of contempt. 
</p>
            <p>'I call it a poor-spirited thing to take up a man's 
straight-forward words and twist them. What I meant to say was 
plain enough — that no man can be saved from starving by 
looking on while others eat. I think that's common sense, eh, 
sirs?' 
</p>
            <p>There was again an approving 'Haw, haw.' To hear 
anything said, and understand it, was a stimulus that had the 
effect of wit. Mr Chubb cast a suspicious and viperous glance 
at Felix, who felt that he had been a simpleton for his 
pains. 
</p>
            <p>'Well, then,' continued Mr Johnson, 'I suppose I may go 
on. But if there is any one here better able to inform the 
company than I am, I give way — I give way.' <pb n="228"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Sir,' said Mr Chubb, magisterially, 'no man shall take the 
words out of your mouth in this house. And,' he added, 
looking pointedly at Felix, 'company that's got no more 
orders to give, and wants to turn up rusty to them that has, 
had better be making room than filling it. Love an' 'armony's 
the word on our club's flag, an' love an' 'armony's the 
meaning of “The Sugar Loaf, William Chubb.” Folks of a 
different mind had better seek another house of call.' 
</p>
            <p>'Very good,' said Felix, laying down his money and taking 
his cap, 'I'm going.' He saw clearly enough that if he said 
more, there would be a disturbance which could have no 
desirable end. 
</p>
            <p>When the door had closed behind him, Mr Johnson said, 
'What is that person's name?' 
</p>
            <p>'Does anybody know it?' said Mr Chubb. 
</p>
            <p>A few noes were heard. 
</p>
            <p>'I've heard him speak like a downright Reformer, else I 
should have looked a little sharper after him. But you may 
see he's nothing partic'lar.' 
</p>
            <p>'It looks rather bad that no one knows his name,' said Mr 
Johnson. 'He's most likely a Tory in disguise — a Tory spy. 
You must be careful, sirs, of men who come to you and say 
they're Radicals, and yet do nothing for you. They'll stuff 
you with words — no lack of words — but words are wind. 
Now, a man like Transome comes forward and says to the 
working men of this country: “Here I am, ready to serve 
you and to speak for you in parliament, and to get the laws 
made all right for you; and in the meanwhile, if there's any 
of you who are my neighbours who want a day's holiday, or a 
cup to drink with friends, or a copy of the king's likeness — 
why, I'm your man. I'm not a paper handbill — all words and 
no substance — nor a man with land and nothing else; I've 
got bags of gold as well as land.” I think you know what I 
mean by the king's likeness?' 
</p>
            <p>Here Mr Johnson took a half-crown out of his pocket and 
held the head towards the company. 
</p>
            <p>'Well, sirs, there are some men who like to keep this pretty <pb n="229"/>
picture a great deal too much to themselves. I don't know 
whether I'm right, but I think I've heard of such a one not a 
hundred miles from here. I think his name was Spratt, and 
he managed some company's coal-pits.' 
</p>
            <p>'Haw, haw ! Spratt — Spratt's his name,' was rolled forth to 
an accompaniment of scraping shoe-soles. 
</p>
            <p>'A screwing fellow, by what I understand — a domineering 
fellow — who would expect men to do as he liked without 
paying them for it. I think there's not an honest man who 
wouldn't like to disappoint such an upstart.' 
</p>
            <p>There was a murmur which was interpreted by Mr Chubb. 
'I'll answer for 'em, sir.' 
</p>
            <p>'Now, listen to me. Here's Garstin: he's one of the 
company you work under. What's Garstin to you? who sees him? 
and when they do see him they see a thin miserly fellow 
who keeps his pockets buttoned. He calls himself a Whig, 
yet he'll split votes with a Tory — he'll drive with the 
Debarrys. Now, gentlemen, if I said I'd got a vote, and anybody 
asked me what I should do with it, I should say, “I'll plump 
for Transome”. You've got no votes, and that's a shame. But 
you will have some day, if such men as Transome are 
returned; and then you'll be on a level with the first 
gentleman in the land, and if he wants to sit in Parliament, he 
must take off his hat and ask your leave. But though you 
haven't got a vote you can give a cheer for the right man, and 
Transome's not a man like Garstin; if you lost a day's wages 
by giving a cheer for Transome, he'll make you amends. 
That's the way a man who has no vote can yet serve himself 
and his country: he can lift up his hand and shout 
“Transome for ever” — “hurray for Transome”. Let the working 
men — let colliers and navvies and stone-cutters, who between 
you and me have a good deal too much the worst of it, as 
things are now — let them join together and give their hands 
and voices for the right man, and they'll make the great 
people shake in their shoes a little; and when you shout for 
Transome, remember you shout for more wages, and more 
of your rights, and you shout to get rid of rats and sprats <pb n="230"/>
and such small animals, who are the tools the rich make use 
of to squeeze the blood out of the poor man.' 
</p>
            <p>'I wish there'd be a row — I'd pommel him,' said Dredge, 
who was generally felt to be speaking to the question. 
</p>
            <p>'No, no, my friend — there you're a little wrong. No 
pommelling — no striking first. There you have the law and the 
constable against you. A little rolling in the dust and 
knocking hats off, a little pelting with soft things that'll stick and 
not bruise — all that doesn't spoil the fun. If a man is to 
speak when you don't like to hear him, it is but fair you 
should give him something he doesn't like in return. And 
the same if he's got a vote and doesn't use it for the good of 
the country; I see no harm in splitting his coat in a quiet 
way. A man must be taught what's right if he doesn't know 
it. But no kicks, no knocking down, no pommelling.' 
</p>
            <p>'It 'ud be good fun, though, if so-be,' said Old Sleck, 
allowing himself an imaginative pleasure. 
</p>
            <p>'Well, well, if a Spratt wants you to say Garstin, it's some 
pleasure to think you can say Transome. Now, my notion is 
this. You are men who can put two and two together — I 
don't know a more solid lot of fellows than you are; and 
what I say is, let the honest men in this country who've got 
no vote show themselves in a body when they have the 
chance. Why, sirs, for every Tory sneak that's got a vote, 
there's fifty-five fellows who must stand by and be expected 
to hold their tongues. But I say, let 'em hiss the sneaks, let 
'em groan at the sneaks, and the sneaks will be ashamed of 
themselves. The men who've got votes don't know how to 
use them. There's many a fool with a vote, who is not sure 
in his mind whether he shall poll, say for Debarry, or Garstin, 
or Transome — whether he'll plump or whether he'll split; 
a straw will turn him. Let him know your mind if he doesn't 
know his own. What's the reason Debarry gets returned? 
Because people are frightened at the Debarrys. What's that 
to you? You don't care for the Debarrys. If people are 
frightened at the Tories, we'll turn round and frighten them. 
You know what a Tory is — one who wants to drive the working <pb n="231"/>
men as he'd drive cattle. That's what a Tory is; and a 
Whig is no better, if he's like Garstin. A Whig wants to 
knock the Tory down and get the whip, that's all. But 
Transome's neither Whig nor Tory; he's the working man's 
friend, the collier's friend, the friend of the honest navvy. 
And if he gets into Parliament, let me tell you, it will be the 
better for you. I don't say it will be the better for overlookers 
and screws, and rats and sprats; but it will be the better for 
every good fellow who takes his pot at the Sugar Loaf.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Johnson's exertions for the political education of the 
Sproxton men did not stop here, which was the more 
disinterested in him as he did not expect to see them again, 
and could only set on foot an organisation by which their, 
instruction could be continued without him. In this he was 
quite successful. A man known among the 'butties' as 
Pack, who had already been mentioned by Mr Chubb, 
presently joined the party, and had a private audience of Mr 
Johnson, that he might be instituted as the 'shepherd' of 
this new flock. 
</p>
            <p>'That's a right down genelman,' said Pack, as he took the 
seat vacated by the orator, who had ridden away. 
</p>
            <p>'What's his trade, think you?' said Gills, the wiry 
stone-cutter. 
</p>
            <p>'Trade?' said Mr Chubb. 'He's one of the top-sawyers of 
the country. He works with his head, you may see that.' 
</p>
            <p>'Let's have our pipes, then,' said Old Sleck; 'I'm pretty 
well tired o' jaw.' 
</p>
            <p>'So am I,' said Dredge. 'It's wriggling work — like follering 
a stoat. It makes a man dry. I'd as lief hear preaching, on'y 
there's nought to be got by't. I shouldn't know which end I 
stood on if it wasn't for the tickets and the treatin'.' 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c12" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 12</head>
            <pb n="232"/>
            <q>
               <p>'Oh, sir, 'twas that mixture of spite and over-fed merriment 
which passes for humour with the vulgar. In their fun they 
have much resemblance to a turkey-cock. It has a cruel beak, 
and a silly iteration of ugly sounds; it spreads its tail in 
self-glorification, but shows you the wrong side of that ornament — 
liking admiration, but knowing not what is admirable.' 
</p>
            </q>
            <p>THIS Sunday evening, which promised to be so memorable 
in the experience of the Sproxton miners, had its drama also 
for those unsatisfactory objects to Mr Johnson's moral sense, 
the Debarrys. Certain incidents occurring at Treby Manor 
caused an excitement there which spread from the 
dining-room to the stables; but no one underwent such agitating 
transitions of feeling as Mr Scales. At six o'clock that 
superior butler was chuckling in triumph at having played a 
fine and original practical joke on his rival Mr Christian. 
Some two hours after that time, he was frightened, sorry, 
and even meek; he was on the brink of a humiliating 
confession; his cheeks were almost livid; his hair was flattened 
for want of due attention from his fingers; and the fine roll 
of his whiskers, which was too firm to give way, seemed only 
a sad reminiscence of past splendour and felicity. His sorrow 
came about in this wise. 
</p>
            <p>After service on that Sunday morning, Mr Philip Debarry 
had left the rest of the family to go home in the carriage, and 
had remained at the Rectory to lunch with his uncle 
Augustus, that he might consult him touching some letters of 
importance. He had returned the letters to his pocket-book 
but had not returned the book to his pocket, and he finally 
walked away leaving the enclosure of private papers and 
bank-notes on his uncle's escritoire. After his arrival at home 
he was reminded of his omission, and immediately 
despatched Christian with a note begging his uncle to seal up 
the pocket-book and send it by the bearer. This commission, 
which was given between three and four o'clock, happened <pb n="233"/>
to be very unwelcome to the courier. The fact was that Mr 
Christian, who had been remarkable through life for that 
power of adapting himself to circumstances which enables 
a man to fall safely on all-fours in the most hurried 
expulsions and escapes, was not exempt from bodily suffering — 
a circumstance to which there is no known way of adapting 
one's self so as to be perfectly comfortable under it, or to 
push it off on to other people's shoulders. He did what he 
could: he took doses of opium when he had an access of 
nervous pains, and he consoled himself as to future 
possibilities by thinking that if the pains ever became intolerably 
frequent a considerable increase in the dose might put an 
end to them altogether. He was neither Cato nor Hamlet, 
and though he had learned their soliloquies at his first 
boarding-school, he would probably have increased his dose 
without reciting those masterpieces. Next to the pain 
itself he disliked that any one should know of it: 
defective health diminished a man's market value; he did not 
like to be the object of the sort of pity he himself gave to 
a poor devil who was forced to make a wry face or 'give in' 
altogether. 
</p>
            <p>He had felt it expedient to take a slight dose this 
afternoon, and still he was not altogether relieved at the time he 
set off to the rectory. On returning with the valuable case 
safely deposited in his hind pocket he felt increasing bodily 
uneasiness, and took another dose. Thinking it likely that 
he looked rather pitiable, he chose not to proceed to the 
house by the carriage-road. The servants often walked in 
the park on a Sunday, and he wished to avoid any meeting. 
He would make a circuit, get into the house privately, and 
after delivering his packet to Mr Debarry, shut himself up 
till the ringing of the half-hour bell. But when he reached 
an elbowed seat under some sycamores, he felt so ill at ease 
that he yielded to the temptation of throwing himself on it 
to rest a little. He looked at his watch: it was but five; he had 
done his errand quickly hitherto, and Mr Debarry had not 
urged haste. But in less than ten minutes he was in a sound <pb n="234"/>
sleep. Certain conditions of his system had determined a 
stronger effect than usual from the opium. 
</p>
            <p>As he had expected, there were servants strolling in the 
park, but they did not all choose the most frequented part. 
Mr Scales, in pursuit of a slight flirtation with the younger 
lady's-maid, had preferred a more sequestered walk in the 
company of that agreeable nymph. And it happened to be 
this pair, of all others, who alighted on the sleeping Christian 
— a sight which at the very first moment caused Mr Scales a 
vague pleasure as at an incident that must lead to 
something clever on his part. To play a trick, and make some one 
or other look foolish, was held the most pointed form of wit 
throughout the back regions of the Manor, and served as a 
constant substitute for theatrical entertainment: what the 
farce wanted in costume or 'make up' it gained in the reality 
of the mortification which excited the general laughter. And 
lo ! here was the offensive, the exasperatingly cool and 
superior, Christian caught comparatively helpless, with his 
head hanging on his shoulder, and one coat-tail hanging 
out heavily below the elbow of the rustic seat. It was this 
coat-tail which served as a suggestion to Mr Scales's genius. 
Putting his finger up in warning to Mrs Cherry, and saying, 
'Hush — be quiet — I see a fine bit of fun' — he took a knife 
from his pocket, stepped behind the unconscious Christian, 
and quickly cut off the pendent coat-tail. Scales knew 
nothing of the errand to the rectory; and as he noticed that there 
was something in the pocket, thought it was probably a 
large cigar-case. So much the better — he had no time to 
pause. He threw the coat-tail as far as he could, and noticed 
that it fell among the elms under which they had been 
walking. Then, beckoning to Mrs Cherry, he hurried away 
with her towards the more open part of the park, not daring 
to explode in laughter until it was safe from the chance of 
waking the sleeper. And then the vision of the graceful 
well-appointed Mr Christian, who sneered at Scales about his 
'get-up', having to walk back to the house with only one tail 
to his coat, was a source of so much enjoyment to the butler, <pb n="235"/>
that the fair Cherry began to be quite jealous of the joke. 
Still she admitted that it really was funny, tittered 
intermittently, and pledged herself to secrecy. Mr Scales 
explained to her that Christian would try to creep in 
unobserved, but that this must be made impossible; and he 
requested her to imagine the figure this interloping fellow 
would cut when everybody was asking what had happened. 
'Hallo, Christian! where's your coat-tail?' would become a 
proverb at the Manor, where jokes kept remarkably well 
without the aid of salt; and Mr Christian's comb would be 
cut so effectually that it would take a long time to grow 
again. Exit Scales, laughing, and presenting a fine example 
of dramatic irony to any one in the secret of Fate. 
</p>
            <p>When Christian awoke, he was shocked to find himself in 
the twilight. He started up, shook himself, missed something, 
and soon became aware what it was he missed. He did not 
doubt that he had been robbed, and he at once foresaw that 
the consequence would be highly unpleasant. In no way 
could the cause of the accident be so represented to Mr 
Philip Debarry as to prevent him from viewing his hitherto 
unimpeachable factotum in a new and unfavourable light. 
And though Mr Christian did not regard his present position 
as brilliant, he did not see his way to anything better. A man 
nearly fifty who is not always quite well is seldom ardently 
hopeful: he is aware that this is a world in which merit is 
often overlooked. With the idea of robbery in full possession 
of his mind, to peer about and search in the dimness, even 
if it had occurred to him, would have seemed a preposterous 
waste of time and energy. He knew it was likely that Mr 
Debarry's pocket-book had important and valuable 
contents, and that he should deepen his offence by deferring his 
announcement of the unfortunate fact. He hastened back 
to the house, relieved by the obscurity from that 
mortification of his vanity on which the butler had counted. Indeed, 
to Scales himself the affair had already begun to appear 
less thoroughly jocose than he had anticipated. For he 
observed that Christian's non-appearance before dinner had <pb n="236"/>
caused Mr Debarry some consternation; and he gathered 
that the courier had been sent on a commission to the 
rectory. 'My uncle must have detained him for some 
reason or other,' he heard Mr Philip say; 'but it is odd. If 
he were less trusty about commissions, or had ever seemed 
to drink too much, I should be uneasy.' Altogether the 
affair was not taking the turn Mr Scales had intended. At 
last, when dinner had been removed and the butler's chief 
duties were at an end, it was understood that Christian had 
entered without his coat-tail, looking serious and even 
agitated; that he had asked leave at once to speak to Mr 
Debarry; and that he was even then in parley with the 
gentlemen in the dining-room. Scales was in alarm; it must 
have been some property of Mr Debarry's that had weighted 
the pocket. He took a lantern, got a groom to accompany 
him with another lantern, and with the utmost practicable 
speed reached the fatal spot in the park. He searched under 
the elms — he was certain that the pocket had fallen there — 
and he found the pocket; but he found it empty, and, in 
spite of further search, did not find the contents, though he 
had at first consoled himself with thinking that they had 
fallen out, and would be lying not far off. He returned with 
the lanterns and the coat-tail and a most uncomfortable 
consciousness in that great seat of a butler's emotion, the 
stomach. He had no sooner re-entered than he was met by 
Mrs Cherry, pale and anxious, who drew him aside to say 
that if he didn't tell everything, she would; that the 
constables were to be sent for; that there had been no end of 
bank-notes and letters and things in Mr Debarry's 
pocket-book, which Christian was carrying in that very pocket 
Scales had cut off; that the rector was sent for, the constable 
was coming, and they should all be hanged. Mr Scales's own 
intellect was anything but clear as to the possible issues. 
Crest-fallen, and with the coal-tail in his hands as an 
attestation that he was innocent of anything more than a joke, he 
went and made his confession. His story relieved Christian 
a little, but did not relieve Mr Debarry, who was more annoyed <pb n="237"/>
at the loss of the letters, and the chance of their 
getting into hands that might make use of them, than at the 
loss of the bank-notes. Nothing could be done for the 
present, but that the rector, who was a magistrate, should 
instruct the constables, and that the spot in the park 
indicated by Scales should again be carefully searched. This 
was done, but in vain; and many of the family at the manor 
had disturbed sleep that night. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c13" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 13</head>
            <pb n="238"/>
            <q>
               <l>'Give sorrow leave awhile, to tutor me </l>
               <l>To this submission.' — Richard II. </l>
            </q>
            <p>MEANWHILE Felix Holt had been making his way back 
from Sproxton to Treby in some irritation and bitterness of 
spirit. For a little while he walked slowly along the direct 
road, hoping that Mr Johnson would overtake him, in which 
case he would have the pleasure of quarrelling with him, 
and telling him what he thought of his intentions in coming 
to cant at the Sugar Loaf. But he presently checked himself 
in this folly and turned off again towards the canal, that he 
might avoid the temptation of getting into a passion to no 
purpose. 
</p>
            <p>'Where's the good,' he thought, 'of pulling at such a 
tangled skein as this electioneering trickery? As long as 
three-fourths of the men in this country see nothing in an 
election but self-interest, and nothing in self-interest but 
some form of greed, one might as well try to purify the 
proceedings of the fishes and say to a hungry cod-fish — “My 
good friend, abstain; don't goggle your eyes so, or show such 
a stupid gluttonous mouth, or think the little fishes are worth 
nothing except in relation to your own inside.” He'd be 
open to no argument short of crimping him. I should get 
into a rage with this fellow, and perhaps end by thrashing 
him. There's some reason in me as long as I keep my temper, 
but my rash humour is drunkenness without wine. I 
shouldn't wonder if he upsets all my plans with these colliers. 
Of course he's going to treat them for the sake of getting up 
a posse at the nomination and speechifyings. They'll drink 
double, and never come near me on a Saturday evening. I 
don't know what sort of man Transome really is. It's no use 
my speaking to anybody else, but if I could get at him, he 
might put a veto on this thing. Though, when once the men 
have been promised and set agoing, the mischief is likely <pb n="239"/>
to be past mending. Hang the Liberal cod-fish! I shouldn't 
have minded so much if he'd been a Tory!' 
</p>
            <p>Felix went along in the twilight struggling in this way 
with the intricacies of life, which would certainly be greatly 
simplified if corrupt practices were the invariable mark of 
wrong opinions. When he had crossed the common and had 
entered the park, the overshadowing trees deepened the grey 
gloom of the evening; it was useless to try and keep the blind 
path, and he could only be careful that his steps should be 
bent in the direction of the park-gate. He was striding along 
rapidly now, whistling 'Bannockburn' in a subdued way as 
an accompaniment to his inward discussion, when 
something smooth and soft on which his foot alighted arrested 
him with an unpleasant startling sensation, and made him 
stoop to examine the object he was treading on. He found 
it to be a large leather pocket-book swelled by its contents, 
and fastened with a sealed ribbon as well as a clasp. In 
stooping he saw about a yard off something whitish and 
square lying on the dark grass. This was an ornamental 
note-book of pale leather stamped with gold. Apparently 
it had burst open in falling, and out of the pocket, formed 
by the cover, there protruded a small gold chain about four 
inches long, with various seals and other trifles attached 
to it by a ring at the end. Felix thrust the chain back, and 
finding that the clasp of the note-book was broken, he closed 
it and thrust it into his side-pocket, walking along under 
some annoyance that fortune had made him the finder of 
articles belonging most probably to one of the family at 
Treby Manor. He was much too proud a man to like any 
contact with the aristocracy, and he could still less endure 
coming within speech of their servants. Some plan must be 
devised by which he could avoid carrying these things up 
to the Manor himself: he thought at first of leaving them at 
the lodge, but he had a scruple against placing property, of 
which the ownership was after all uncertain, in the hands of 
persons unknown to him. It was possible that the large 
pocket-book contained papers of high importance, and that <pb n="240"/>
it did not belong to any of the Debarry family. He resolved 
at last to carry his findings to Mr Lyon, who would perhaps 
be good-natured enough to save him from the necessary 
transactions with the people at the Manor by undertaking 
those transactions himself. With this determination he 
walked straight to Malthouse Yard, and waited outside the 
chapel until the congregation was dispersing, when he passed 
along the aisle to the vestry in order to speak to the minister 
in private. 
</p>
            <p>But Mr Lyon was not alone when Felix entered. Mr 
Nuttwood, the grocer, who was one of the deacons, was 
complaining to him about the obstinate demeanour of the 
singers, who had declined to change the tunes in accordance 
with a change in the selection of hymns, and had stretched 
short metre into long out of pure wilfulness and defiance, 
irreverently adapting the most sacred monosyllables to a 
multitude of wandering quavers, arranged, it was to be 
feared, by some musician who was inspired by conceit rather 
than by the true spirit of psalmody. 
</p>
            <p>'Come in, my friend,' said Mr Lyon, smiling at Felix, and 
then continuing in a faint voice, while he wiped the 
perspiration from his brow and bald crown, 'Brother Nuttwood, 
we must be content to carry a thorn in our sides while the 
necessities of our imperfect state demand that there should 
be a body set apart and called a choir, whose special office 
it is to lead the singing, not because they are more disposed 
to the devout uplifting of praise, but because they are 
endowed with better vocal organs, and have attained more 
of the musician's art. For all office, unless it be accompanied 
by peculiar grace, becomes, as it were, a diseased organ, 
seeking to make itself too much of a centre. Singers, specially 
so called, are, it must be confessed, an anomaly among us 
who seek to reduce the church to its primitive simplicity, 
and to cast away all that may obstruct the direct 
communion of spirit with spirit.' 
</p>
            <p>'They are so headstrong,' said Mr Nuttwood, in a tone 
of sad perplexity, 'that if we dealt not warily with them, <pb n="241"/>
they might end in dividing the church, even now that we 
have had the chapel enlarged. Brother Kemp would side 
with them, and draw the half part of the members after 
him. I cannot but think it a snare when a professing 
Christian has a bass voice like Brother Kemp's. It makes him 
desire to be heard of men; but the weaker song of the 
humble may have more power in the ear of God.' 
</p>
            <p>'Do you think it any better vanity to flatter yourself that 
God likes to hear you, though men don't?' said Felix, with 
unwarrantable bluntness. 
</p>
            <p>The civil grocer was prepared to be scandalised by 
anything that came from Felix. In common with many hearers 
in Malthouse Yard, he already felt an objection to a young 
man who was notorious for having interfered in a question 
of wholesale and retail, which should have been left to 
Providence. Old Mr Holt, being a church member, had 
probably had 'leadings' which were more to be relied on 
than his son's boasted knowledge. In any case, a little visceral 
disturbance and inward chastisement to the consumers of 
questionable medicines would tend less to obscure the divine 
glory than a show of punctilious morality in one who was 
not a 'professor'. Besides, how was it to be known that the 
medicines would not be blessed, if taken with due trust in 
a higher influence? A Christian must consider not the 
medicines alone in their relation to our frail bodies (which are 
dust), but the medicines with Omnipotence behind them. 
Hence a pious vendor will look for 'leadings', and he is 
likely to find them in the cessation of demand and the 
disproportion of expenses and returns. The grocer was thus 
on his guard against the presumptuous disputant. 
</p>
            <p>'Mr Lyon may understand you, sir,' he replied. 'He seems 
to be fond of your conversation. But you have too much of 
the pride of human learning for me. I follow no new lights.' 
</p>
            <p>'Then follow an old one,' said Felix, mischievously 
disposed towards a sleek tradesman. 'Follow the light of the 
old-fashioned Presbyterians that I've heard sing at Glasgow. 
The preacher gives out the psalm, and then everybody <pb n="242"/>
sings a different tune, as it happens to turn up in their 
throats. It's a domineering thing to set a tune and expect 
everybody else to follow it. It's a denial of private 
judgement.' 
</p>
            <p>'Hush, hush, my young friend,' said Mr Lyon, hurt by 
this levity, which glanced at himself as well as at the deacon. 
'Play not with paradoxes. That caustic which you handle in 
order to scorch others may happen to sear your own fingers 
and make them dead to the quality of things. 'Tis difficult 
enough to see our way and keep our torch steady in this 
dim labyrinth: to whirl the torch and dazzle the eyes of 
our fellow-seekers is a poor daring, and may end in total 
darkness. You yourself are a lover of freedom, and a bold 
rebel against usurping authority. But the right to rebellion 
is the right to seek a higher rule, and not to wander in mere 
lawlessness. Wherefore, I beseech you, seem not to say that 
liberty is licence. And I apprehend — though I am not 
endowed with an ear to seize those earthly harmonies, which to 
some devout souls have seemed, as it were, the broken 
echoes of the heavenly choir — I apprehend that there is a 
law in music, disobedience whereunto would bring us in 
our singing to the level of shrieking maniacs or howling 
beasts: so that herein we are well instructed how true liberty 
can be nought but the transfer of obedience from the will 
of one or of a few men to that will which is the norm or 
rule for all men. And though the transfer may sometimes 
be but an erroneous direction of search, yet is the search 
good and necessary to the ultimate finding. And even as 
in music, where all obey and concur to one end, so that 
each has the joy of contributing to a whole whereby he is 
ravished and lifted up into the courts of heaven so will it 
be in that crowning time of the millennial reign, when our 
daily prayer will be fulfilled, and one law shall be written 
on all hearts, and be the very structure of all thought, and 
be the principle of all action. 
</p>
            <p>Tired, even exhausted, as the minister had been when 
Felix Holt entered, the gathering excitement of speech gave <pb n="243"/>
more and more energy to his voice and manner; he walked 
away from the vestry table, he paused, and came back to 
it; he walked away again, then came back, and ended with 
his deepest-toned largo, keeping his hands clasped behind 
him, while his brown eyes were bright with the lasting 
youthfulness of enthusiastic thought and love. But to any 
one who had no share in the energies that were thrilling his 
little body, he would have looked queer enough. No sooner 
had he finished his eager speech, than he held out his hand 
to the deacon, and said, in his former faint tone of fatigue — 
</p>
            <p>'God be with you, brother. We shall meet to-morrow, and 
we will see what can be done to subdue these refractory 
spirits.' 
</p>
            <p>When the deacon was gone, Felix said, 'Forgive me, Mr 
Lyon; I was wrong, and you are right.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, yes, my friend; you have that mark of grace within 
you, that you are ready to acknowledge the justice of a 
rebuke. Sit down; you have something to say — some packet 
there.' 
</p>
            <p>They sat down at a corner of the small table, and Felix 
drew the note-book from his pocket to lay it down with the 
pocket-book, saying — 
</p>
            <p>'I've had the ill-luck to be the finder of these things in 
the Debarrys' Park. Most likely they belong to one of the 
family at the Manor, or to some grandee who is staying 
there. I hate having anything to do with such people. They'll 
think me a poor rascal, and offer me money. You are a 
known man, and I thought you would be kind enough to 
relieve me by taking charge of these things, and writing to 
Debarry, not mentioning me, and asking him to send some 
one for them. I found them on the grass in the park this 
evening about half-past seven, in the corner we cross going 
to Sproxton.' 
</p>
            <p>'Stay,' said Mr Lyon, 'this little book is open; we may 
venture to look in it for some sign of ownership. There be 
others who possess property, and might be crossing that 
end of the park, beside the Debarrys.' <pb n="244"/>
            </p>
            <p>As he lifted the note-book close to his eyes, the chain 
again slipped out. He arrested it and held it in his hand, 
while he examined some writing, which appeared to be a 
name on the inner leather. He looked long, as if he were 
trying to decipher something that was partly rubbed out; 
and his hands began to tremble noticeably. He made a 
movement in an agitated manner, as if he were going to examine 
the chain and seals, which he held in his hand. But he 
checked himself, closed his hand again, and rested it on the 
table, while with the other hand he pressed sides of the 
note-book together. 
</p>
            <p>Felix observed his agitation, and was much surprised; but 
with a delicacy of which he was capable under all his 
abruptness, he said, 'You are overcome with fatigue, sir. I 
was thoughtless to tease you with these matters at the end 
of Sunday, when you have been preaching three sermons.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon did not speak for a few moments, but at last he 
said — 
</p>
            <p>'It is true. I am overcome. It was a name I saw — a name 
that called up a past sorrow. Fear not; I will do what is 
needful with these things. You may trust them to me.' 
</p>
            <p>With trembling fingers he replaced the chain, and tied 
both the large pocket-book and the note-book in his 
handkerchief. He was evidently making a great effort over 
himself. But when he had gathered the knot of the 
handkerchief in his hand, he said — 
</p>
            <p>'Give me your arm to the door, my friend. I feel ill. 
Doubtless I am over-wearied.' 
</p>
            <p>The door was already open, and Lyddy was watching for 
her master's return. Felix therefore said 'Good-night' and 
passed on, sure that this was what Mr Lyon would prefer. 
The minister's supper of warm porridge was ready by the 
kitchen-fire, where he always took it on a Sunday evening, 
and afterwards smoked his weekly pipe up the broad 
chimney — the one great relaxation he allowed himself. Smoking, 
he considered, was a recreation of the travailed spirit, which, 
if indulged in, might endear this world to us by the ignoble <pb n="245"/>
bonds of mere sensuous ease. Daily smoking might be 
lawful, but it was not expedient. And in this Esther concurred 
with a doctrinal eagerness that was unusual in her. It was 
her habit to go to her own room, professedly to bed, very 
early on Sundays — immediately on her return from chapel 
— that she might avoid her father's pipe. But this evening 
she had remained at home, under a true plea of not feeling 
well; and when she heard him enter, she ran out of the 
parlour to meet him. 
</p>
            <p>'Father, you are ill,' she said, as he tottered to the 
wicker-bottomed arm-chair, while Lyddy stood by, shaking her 
head. 
</p>
            <p>'No, my dear,' he answered feebly, as she took off his hat 
and looked in his face inquiringly; 'I am weary.' 
</p>
            <p>'Let me lay these things down for you,' said Esther, 
touching the bundle in the handkerchief. 
</p>
            <p>'No; they are matters which I have to examine,' he said, 
laying them on the table, and putting his arm across them. 
'Go you to bed, Lyddy.' 
</p>
            <p>'Not me, sir. If ever a man looked as if he was struck with 
death, it's you, this very night as here is.' 
</p>
            <p>'Nonsense, Lyddy,' said Esther angrily. 'Go to bed when 
my father desires it. I will stay with him.' 
</p>
            <p>Lyddy was electrified by surprise at this new behaviour of 
Miss Esther's. She took her candle silently and went. 
</p>
            <p>'Go you too, my dear,' said Mr Lyon, tenderly, giving his 
hand to Esther, when Lyddy was gone. 'It is your wont to 
go early. Why are you up?' 
</p>
            <p>'Let me lift your porridge from before the fire, and stay 
with you, father. You think I'm so naughty that I don't like 
doing anything for you,' said Esther, smiling rather sadly 
at him. 
</p>
            <p>'Child, what has happened? you have become the image 
of your mother to-night,' said the minister, in a loud 
whisper. The tears came and relieved him, while Esther, who 
had stooped to lift the porridge from the fender, paused on 
one knee and looked up at him. 
<pb n="246"/>
            </p>
            <p>'She was very good to you?' asked Esther, softly. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, dear. She did not reject my affection. She thought not 
scorn of my love. She would have forgiven me, if I had erred 
against her, from very tenderness. Could you forgive me, 
child?' 
</p>
            <p>'Father, I have not been good to you; but I will be, I will 
be,' said Esther, laying her head on his knee. 
</p>
            <p>He kissed her head. 'Go to bed, my dear; I would be 
alone.' 
</p>
            <p>When Esther was lying down that night, she felt as if the 
little incidents between herself and her father on this 
Sunday had made it an epoch. Very slight words and deeds 
may have a sacramental efficacy, if we can cast our self-love 
behind us, in order to say or do them. And it has been well 
believed through many ages that the beginning of 
compunction is the beginning of a new life; that the mind which 
sees itself blameless may be called dead in trespasses — in 
trespasses on the love of others, in trespasses on their 
weakness, in trespasses on all those great claims which are the 
image of our own need. 
</p>
            <p>But Esther persisted in assuring herself that she was not 
bending to any criticism from Felix. She was full of 
resentment against his rudeness, and yet more against his too 
harsh conception of her character. She was determined to 
keep as much at a distance from him as possible. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c14" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 14</head>
            <pb n="247"/>
            <q>
               <l>This man's metallic; at a sudden blow </l>
               <l>His soul rings hard. I cannot lay my palm, </l>
               <l>Trembling with life, upon that jointed brass. </l>
               <l>I shudder at the cold unanswering touch; </l>
               <l>But if it press me in response, I'm bruised. </l>
            </q>
            <p>THE next morning, when the Debarrys, including the rector, 
who had ridden over to the Manor early, were still seated 
at breakfast, Christian came in with a letter, saying that it 
had been brought by a man employed at the chapel in 
Malthouse Yard, who had been ordered by the minister 
to use aLi speed and care in the delivery. 
The letter was addressed to Sir Maximus. 
</p>
            <p>'Stay, Christian, it may possibly refer to the lost 
pocket-book,' said Philip Debarry, who was beginning to feel rather 
sorry for his factotum, as a reaction from previous suspicions 
and indignation. 
</p>
            <p>Sir Maximus opened the letter and felt for his glasses, but 
then said, 'Here, you read it, Phil: the man writes a hand 
like small print.' 
</p>
            <p>Philip cast his eyes over it, and then read aloud in a tone 
of satisfaction: — 
</p>
            <p>Sir, — I send this letter to apprise you that I have now in my 
possession certain articles, which, last evening, at about half-past 
seven o'clock, were found lying on the grass at the western 
extremity of your park. The articles are — 1, a well-filled 
pocket-book, of brown leather, fastened with a black ribbon and with a 
seal of red wax; 2, a small note-book, covered with gilded 
vellum, whereof the clasp was burst, and from out whereof had 
partly escaped a small gold chain, with seals and a locket 
attached, the locket bearing on the back a device, and round the 
face a female name. 
</p>
            <p>Wherefore I request that you will further my effort to place 
these articles in the right hands, by ascertaining whether any 
person within your walls claims them as his property, and by <pb n="248"/>
sending that person to me (if such be found); for I will on no 
account let them pass from my care save into that of one who, 
declaring himself to be the owner, can state to me what is the 
impression on the seal, and what the device and name upon the 
locket. — I am, Sir, yours to command in all right dealing, 
</p>
            <p>                                          RUFUS LYON. 
Malthouse Yard, Oct. 3, 1832. 
</p>
            <p>'Well done, old Lyon,' said the rector; 'I didn't think that 
any composition of his would ever give me so much 
pleasure.' 
</p>
            <p>'What an old fox it is!' said Sir Maximus. 'Why couldn't 
he send the things to me at once along with the letter?' 
</p>
            <p>'No, no, Max; he uses a justifiable caution,' said the rector, 
a refined and rather severe likeness of his brother, with a 
ring of fearlessness and decision in his voice which startled 
all flaccid men and unruly boys. 'What are you going to do, 
Phil?' seeing his nephew rise. 
</p>
            <p>'To write, of course. Those other matters are yours, I 
suppose?' said Mr Debarry, looking at Christian. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, sir.' 
</p>
            <p>'I shall send you with a letter to the preacher. You can 
describe your own property. And the seal, uncle — was it 
your coat-of-arms?' 
</p>
            <p>'No, it was this head of Achilles. Here, I can take it off 
the ring, and you can carry it, Christian. But don't lose that, 
for I've had it ever since eighteen hundred. I should like to 
send my compliments with it,' the rector went on, looking 
at his brother, 'and beg that since he has so much wise 
caution at command, he would exercise a little in more 
public matters, instead of making himself a firebrand in 
my parish, and teaching hucksters and tape-weavers that it's 
their business to dictate to statesmen.' 
</p>
            <p>'How did Dissenters, and Methodists, and Quakers, and 
people of that sort first come up, uncle?' said Miss Selina, a 
radiant girl of twenty, who had given much time to the 
harp. 
</p>
            <p>'Dear me, Selina,' said her elder sister, Harriet, whose forte <pb n="249"/>
was general knowledge, 'don't you remember Woodstock? 
They were in Cromwell's time.' 
</p>
            <p>'O! Holdenough, and those people? Yes; but they 
preached in the churches; they had no chapels. Tell me, 
uncle Gus; I like to be wise,' said Selina, looking up at the 
face which was smiling down on her with a sort of severe 
benignity. 'Phil says I'm an ignorant puss.' 
</p>
            <p>'The seeds of Nonconformity were sown at the 
Reformation, my dear, when some obstinate men made scruples 
about surplices and the place of the communion-table, and 
other trifles of that sort. But the Quakers came up about 
Cromwell's time, and the Methodists only in the last 
century. The first Methodists were regular clergymen, the 
more's the pity.' 
</p>
            <p>'But all those wrong things — why didn't government put 
them down?' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah, to be sure,' fell in Sir Maximus, in a cordial tone of 
corroboration. 
</p>
            <p>'Because error is often strong, and government is 
often weak, my dear. Well, Phil, have you finished your 
letter?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, I will read it to you,' said Philip, turning and leaning 
over the back of his chair with the letter in his hand. 
</p>
            <p>There is a portrait of Mr Philip Debarry still to be seen 
at Treby Manor, and a very fine bust of him at Rome, where 
he died fifteen years later, a convert to Catholicism. His face 
would have been plain but for the exquisite setting of his 
hazel eyes, which fascinated even the dogs of the household. 
The other features, though slight and irregular, were 
redeemed from triviality by the stamp of gravity and 
intellectual preoccupation in his face and bearing. As he read aloud, 
his voice was what his uncle's might have been if it had 
been modulated by delicate health and a visitation of 
self-doubt. 
</p>
            <p>Sir, — In reply to the letter with which you have favoured me 
this morning, I beg to state that the articles you describe were 
lost from the pocket of my servant, who is the bearer of this <pb n="250"/>
letter to you, and is the claimant of the vellum note-book and 
the gold chain. The large leathern pocket-book is my own 
property, and the impression on the wax, a helmeted head of 
Achilles, was made by my uncle, the Rev. Augustus Debarry, 
who allows me to forward his seal to you in proof that I am not 
making a mistaken claim. 
</p>
            <p>I feel myself under deep obligation to you, sir, for the care 
and trouble you have taken in order to restore to its right owner 
a piece of property which happens to be of particular 
importance to me. And I shall consider myself doubly fortunate 
if at any time you can point out to me some method by which 
I may procure you as lively a satisfaction as I am now feeling, 
in that full and speedy relief from anxiety which I owe to your 
considerate conduct. 
</p>
            <p>I remain, sir, your obliged and faithful servant, 
PHILIP DEBARRY. 
</p>
            <p>'You know best, Phil, of course,' said Sir Maximus, 
pushing his plate from him, by way of interjection. 'But it seems 
to me you exaggerate preposterously every little service a 
man happens to do for you. Why should you make a general 
offer of that sort? How do you know what he will be asking 
you to do? Stuff and nonsense! Tell Willis to send him a few 
head of game. You should think twice before you give a 
blank cheque of that sort to one of these quibbling, 
meddle-some Radicals.' 
</p>
            <p>'You are afraid of my committing myself to “the 
bottomless perjury of an et cetera”,' said Philip, smiling, as he 
turned to fold his letter. 'But I think I am not doing any 
mischief; at all events I could not be content to say less. 
And I have a notion that he would regard a present of 
game just now as an insult. I should, in his place.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, yes, you; but you don't make yourself a measure of 
dissenting preachers, I hope,' said Sir Maximus, rather 
wrathfully. 'What do you say, Gus?' 
</p>
            <p>'Phil is right,' said the rector, in an absolute tone. 'I would 
not deal with a Dissenter, or put profits into the pocket of 
a Radical which I might put into the pocket of a good 
churchman and a quiet subject. But if the greatest scoundrel <pb n="251"/>
in the world made way for me, or picked my hat up, I 
would thank him. So would you, Max.' 
</p>
            <p>'Pooh! I didn't mean that one shouldn't behave like a 
gentleman,' said Sir Maximus, in some vexation. He had 
great pride in his son's superiority even to himself; but he 
did not enjoy having his own opinion argued down as it 
always was, and did not quite trust the dim vision opened 
by Phil's new words and new notions. He could only submit 
in silence while the letter was delivered to Christian, with 
the order to start for Malthouse Yard immediately. 
</p>
            <p>Meanwhile, in that somewhat dim locality the possible 
claimant of the note-book and the chain was thought of 
and expected with palpitating agitation. Mr Lyon was seated 
in his study, looking haggard and already aged from a 
sleepless night. He was so afraid lest his emotion should deprive 
him of the presence of mind necessary to the due attention 
to particulars in the coming interview, that he continued to 
occupy his sight and touch with the objects which had 
stirred the depths, not only of memory, but of dread. Once 
again he unlocked a small box which stood beside his desk, 
and took from it a little oval locket, and compared this 
with one which hung with the seals on the stray gold chain. 
There was the same device in enamel on the back of both: 
clasped hands surrounded with blue flowers. Both had round 
the face a name in gold italics on a blue ground: the name 
on the locket taken from the drawer was Maurice; the name 
on the locket which hung with the seals was Annette, and 
within the circle of this name there was a lover's knot of 
light-brown hair, which matched a curl that lay in the box. 
The hair in the locket which bore the name of Maurice was 
of a very dark brown, and before returning it to the drawer 
Mr Lyon noted the colour and quality of this hair more 
carefully than ever. Then he recurred to the note-book: 
undoubtedly there had been something, probably a third 
name, beyond the names Maurice Christian, which had 
themselves been rubbed and slightly smeared as if by 
accident; and from the very first examination in the vestry, Mr 
Lyon could not prevent himself from transferring the mental <pb n="252"/>
image of the third name in faint lines to the rubbed 
leather. The leaves of the note-book seemed to have been 
recently inserted; they were of fresh white paper, and only 
bore some abbreviations in pencil with a notation of small 
sums. Nothing could be gathered from the comparison of 
the writing in the book with that of the yellow letters which 
lay in the box: the smeared name had been carefully 
printed, and so bore no resemblance to the signature of 
those letters; and the pencil abbreviations and figures had 
been made too hurriedly to bear any decisive witness. 'I will 
ask him to write — to write a description of the locket,' had 
been one of Mr Lyon's thoughts; but he faltered in that 
intention. His power of fulfilling it must depend on what he 
saw in this visitor, of whose coming he had a horrible dread, 
at the very time he was writing to demand it. In that demand 
he was obeying the voice of his rigid conscience, which had 
never left him perfectly at rest under his one act of 
deception — the concealment from Esther that he was not her 
natural father, the assertion of a false claim upon her. 'Let 
my path be henceforth simple,' he had said to himself in 
the anguish of that night; 'let me seek to know what is, and 
if possible to declare it.' If he was really going to find 
himself face to face with the man who had been Annette's 
husband, and who was Esther's father — if that wandering 
of his from the light had brought the punishment of a blind 
sacrilege as the issue of a conscious transgression, — he prayed 
that he might be able to accept all consequences of pain 
to himself. But he saw other possibilities concerning the 
claimant of the book and chain. His ignorance and 
suspicions as to the history and character of Annette's husband 
made it credible that he had laid a plan for convincing her 
of his death as a means of freeing himself from a 
burthensome tie; but it seemed equally probable that he was really 
dead, and that these articles of property had been a 
bequest, or a payment, or even a sale, to their present owner. 
Indeed, in all these years there was no knowing into how 
many hands such pretty trifles might have passed. And the 
claimant might, after all, have no connection with the <pb n="253"/>
Debarrys; he might not come on this day or the next. There 
might be more time left for reflection and prayer. 
</p>
            <p>All these possibilities, which would remove the pressing 
need for difficult action, Mr Lyon represented to himself, 
but he had no effective belief in them; his belief went with 
his strongest feeling, and in these moments his strongest 
feeling was dread. He trembled under the weight that 
seemed already added to his own sin; he felt himself already 
confronted by Annette's husband and Esther's father. 
Perhaps the father was a gentleman on a visit to the Debarrys. 
There was no hindering the pang with which the old man 
said to himself — 
</p>
            <p>'The child will not be sorry to leave this poor home, and 
I shall be guilty in her sight.' 
</p>
            <p>He was walking about among the rows of books when 
there came a loud rap at the outer door. The rap shook him 
so that he sank into his chair, feeling almost powerless. 
Lyddy presented herself. 
</p>
            <p>'Here's ever such a fine man from the Manor wants to see 
you, sir. Dear heart, dear heart I shall I tell him you're too 
bad to see him?' 
</p>
            <p>'Show him up,' said Mr Lyon, making an effort to rally. 
When Christian appeared, the minister half rose, leaning 
on an arm of his chair, and said, 'Be seated, sir,' seeing 
nothing but that a tall man was entering. 
</p>
            <p>'I've brought you a letter from Mr Debarry,' said Christian, 
in an off-hand manner. This rusty little man, in his dismal 
chamber, seemed to the Ulysses of the steward's room a 
pitiable sort of human curiosity, to whom a man of the 
world would speak rather loudly, in accommodation to an 
eccentricity which was likely to be accompanied with 
deafness. One cannot be eminent in everything; and if Mr 
Christian had dispersed his faculties in study that would have 
enabled him to share unconventional points of view, he 
might have worn a mistaken kind of boot, and been less 
competent to win at ecarte, or at betting, or in any other 
contest suitable to a person of figure. 
</p>
            <p>As he seated himself, Mr Lyon opened the letter, and held <pb n="254"/>
it close to his eyes, so that his face was hidden. But at the 
word 'servant' he could not avoid starting, and looking off 
the letter towards the bearer. Christian, knowing what was 
in the letter, conjectured that the old man was amazed to 
learn that so distinguished-looking a personage was a 
servant; he leaned forward with his elbows on his knees, 
balanced his cane on his fingers, and began a whispering 
whistle. The minister checked himself, finished the reading 
of the letter, and then slowly and nervously put on his 
spectacles to survey this man, between whose fate and his 
own there might be a terrible collision. The word 'servant' 
had been a fresh caution to him. He must do nothing rashly. 
Esther's lot was deeply concerned. 
'Here is the seal mentioned in the letter,' said Christian. 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon drew the pocket-book from his desk, and, after 
comparing the seal with the impression, said, 'It is right, 
sir: I deliver the pocket-book to you.' 
</p>
            <p>He held it out with the seal, and Christian rose to take 
them, saying, carelessly, 'The other things — the chain and 
the little book — are mine.' 
 'Your name then is —' 
</p>
            <p>'Maurice Christian.' 
</p>
            <p>A spasm shot through Mr Lyon. It had seemed possible 
that he might hear another name, and be freed from the 
worse half of his anxiety. His next words were not wisely 
chosen, but escaped him impulsively. 
</p>
            <p>'And you have no other name?' 
</p>
            <p>'What do you mean?' said Christian, sharply. 
</p>
            <p>'Be so good as to reseat yourself.' 
</p>
            <p>Christian did not comply. 'I'm rather in a hurry, sir,' he 
said, recovering his coolness. 'If it suits you to restore to me 
those small articles of mine, I shall be glad; but I would 
rather leave them behind than be detained.' He had reflected 
that the minister was simply a punctilious old bore. The 
question meant nothing else. But Mr Lyon had wrought 
himself up to the task of finding out, then and there, if 
possible, whether or not this were Annette's husband. How <pb n="255"/>
could he lay himself and his sin before God if he wilfully 
declined to learn the truth? 
</p>
            <p>'Nay, sir, I will not detain you unreasonably,' he said, in 
a firmer tone than before. 'How long have these articles 
been your property?' 
</p>
            <p>'Oh, for more than twenty years,' said Christian, 
carelessly. He was not altogether easy under the minister's 
persistence, but for that very reason he showed no more 
impatience. 
</p>
            <p>'You have been in France and in Germany?' 
</p>
            <p>'I have been in most countries on the continent.' 
</p>
            <p>'Be so good as to write me your name,' said Mr Lyon, 
dipping a pen in the ink, and holding it out with a piece of 
paper. 
</p>
            <p>Christian was much surprised, but not now greatly 
alarmed. In his rapid conjectures as to the explanation of 
the minister's curiosity, he had alighted on one which might 
carry advantage rather than inconvenience. But he was not 
going to commit himself. 
</p>
            <p>'Before I oblige you there, sir,' he said, laying down the 
pen, and looking straight at Mr Lyon, 'I must know exactly 
the reasons you have for putting these questions to me. 
You are a stranger to me — an excellent person, I daresay — 
but I have no concern about you farther than to get from 
you those small articles. Do you still doubt that they are 
mine? You wished, I think, that I should tell you what the 
locket is like. It has a pair of hands and blue flowers on 
one side, and the name Annette round the hair on the other 
side. That is all I have to say. If you wish for anything 
more from me, you will be good enough to tell me 
why you wish it. Now then, sir, what is your concern with 
me?' 
</p>
            <p>The cool stare, the hard challenging voice, with which 
these words were uttered, made them fall like the beating, 
cutting chill of heavy hail on Mr Lyon. He sank back in his 
chair in utter irresolution and helplessness. How was it 
possible to lay bare the sad and sacred past in answer to such <pb n="256"/>
a call as this? The dread with which he had thought of this 
man's coming, the strongly-confirmed suspicion that he was 
really Annette's husband, intensified the antipathy created 
by his gestures and glances. The sensitive little minister 
knew instinctively that words which would cost him efforts 
as painful as the obedient footsteps of a wounded bleeding 
hound that wills a foreseen throe, would fall on this man 
as the pressure of tender fingers falls on a brazen glove. 
And Esther — if this man was her father — every additional 
word might help to bring down irrevocable, perhaps cruel, 
consequences on her. A thick mist seemed to have fallen 
where Mr Lyon was looking for the track of duty: the 
difficult question, how far he was to care for consequences in 
seeking and avowing the truth, seemed anew obscured. All 
these things, like the vision of a coming calamity, were 
compressed into a moment of consciousness. Nothing could be 
done to-day; everything must be deferred. He answered 
Christian in a low apologetic tone. 
</p>
            <p>'It is true, sir; you have told me all I can demand. I have 
no sufficient reason for detaining your property further.' 
</p>
            <p>He handed the note-book and chain to Christian, who had 
been observing him narrowly, and now said, in a tone of 
indifference, as he pocketed the articles — 
</p>
            <p>'Very good, sir. I wish you a good-morning.' 
</p>
            <p>'Good-morning,' said Mr Lyon, feeling, while the door 
closed behind his guest, that mixture of uneasiness and 
relief which all procrastination of difficulty produces in 
minds capable of strong forecast. The work was still to be 
done. He had still before him the task of learning 
everything that could be learned about this man's relation to 
himself and Esther. 
</p>
            <p>Christian, as he made his way back along Malthouse Lane, 
was thinking, 'This old fellow has got some secret in his 
head. It's not likely he can know anything about me; it must 
be about Bycliffe. But Bycliffe was a gentleman: how should 
he ever have had anything to do with such a seedy old ranter 
as that?' 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c15" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 15</head>
            <pb n="257"/>
            <q>
               <l>And doubt shall be as lead upon the feet </l>
               <l>Of thy most anxious will. </l>
            </q>
            <p>MR LYON was careful to look in at Felix as soon as possible 
after Christian's departure, to tell him that his trust was 
discharged. During the rest of the day he was somewhat 
relieved from agitating reflections by the necessity of attending 
to his ministerial duties, the rebuke of rebellious singers 
being one of them; and on his return from the Monday 
evening prayer-meeting he was so overcome with weariness 
that he went to bed without taking note of any objects in 
his study. But when he rose the next morning, his mind, 
once more eagerly active, was arrested by Philip Debarry's 
letter, which still lay open on his desk, and was arrested by 
precisely that portion which had been unheeded the day 
before: 'I shall consider myself doubly fortunate if at any 
time you can point out to me some method by which I may 
procure you as lively a satisfaction as I am now feeling, in 
that full and speedy relief from anxiety which I owe to your 
considerate conduct.' 
</p>
            <p>To understand how these words could carry the 
suggestion they actually had for the minister in a crisis of peculiar 
personal anxiety and struggle, we must bear in mind that for 
many years he had walked through life with the sense of 
having for a space been unfaithful to what he esteemed the 
highest trust ever committed to man — the ministerial 
vocation. In a mind of any nobleness, a lapse into transgression 
against an object still regarded as supreme, issues in a new 
and purer devotedness, chastised by humility and watched 
over by a passionate regret. So it was with that ardent spirit 
which animated the little body of Rufus Lyon. Once in his 
life he had been blinded, deafened, hurried along by 
rebellious impulse; he had gone astray after his own desires, and 
had let the fire die out on the altar; and as the true penitent, <pb n="258"/>
hating his self-besotted error, asks from all coming life duty 
instead of joy, and service instead of ease, so Rufus was 
perpetually on the watch lest he should ever again postpone 
to some private affection a great public opportunity which 
to him was equivalent to a command. 
</p>
            <p>Now here was an opportunity brought by a combination 
of that unexpected incalculable kind which might be 
regarded as the divine emphasis invoking especial attention 
to trivial events — an opportunity of securing what Rufus 
Lyon had often wished for as a means of honouring truth, 
and exhibiting error in the character of a stammering, 
halting, short-breathed usurper of office and dignity. What was 
more exasperating to a zealous preacher, with whom copious 
speech was not a difficulty but a relief — who never lacked 
argument, but only combatants and listeners — than to 
reflect that there were thousands on thousands of pulpits in 
this kingdom, supplied with handsome sounding-boards, and 
occupying an advantageous position in buildings far larger 
than the chapel in Malthouse Yard — buildings sure to be 
places of resort, even as the markets were, if only from habit 
and interest; and that these pulpits were filled, or rather 
made vacuous, by men whose privileged education in the 
ancient centres of instruction issued in twenty minutes' 
formal reading of tepid exhortation or probably infirm 
deductions from premises based on rotten scaffolding? And 
it is in the nature of exasperation gradually to concentrate 
itself. The sincere antipathy of a dog towards cats in general, 
necessarily takes the form of indignant barking at the 
neighbour's black cat which makes daily trespass; the bark at 
imagined cats, though a frequent exercise of the canine 
mind, is yet comparatively feeble. Mr Lyon's sarcasm was 
not without an edge when he dilated in general on an 
elaborate education for teachers which issued in the minimum of 
teaching, but it found a whetstone in the particular example 
of that bad system known as the rector of Treby Magna. 
There was nothing positive to be said against the Rev. 
Augustus Debarry; his life could not be pronounced blame-worthy <pb n="259"/>
except for its negatives. And the good Rufus was too 
pure-minded not to be glad of that. He had no delight in 
vice as discrediting wicked opponents; he shrank from 
dwelling on the images of cruelty or of grossness, and his 
indignation was habitually inspired only by those moral and 
intellectual mistakes which darken the soul but do not injure 
or degrade the temple of the body. If the rector had been a 
less respectable man, Rufus would have more reluctantly 
made him an object of antagonism; but as an incarnation of 
soul-destroying error, dissociated from those baser sins which 
have no good repute even with the worldly, it would be an 
argumentative luxury to get into close quarters with him, 
and fight with a dialectic short-sword in the eyes of the 
Treby world (sending also a written account thereof to the 
chief organs of dissenting opinion). Vice was essentially 
stupid — a deaf and eyeless monster, insusceptible to 
demonstration: the Spirit might work on it by unseen ways, and 
the unstudied sallies of sermons were often as the arrows 
which pierced and awakened the bmtified conscience; but 
illuminated thought, finely-dividing speech, were the choicer 
weapons of the divine armoury, which whoso could wield 
must be careful not to leave idle. 
</p>
            <p>Here, then, was the longed-for opportunity. Here was an 
engagement — an expression of a strong wish — on the part of 
Philip Debarry, if it were in his power, to procure a 
satisfaction to Rufus Lyon. How had that man of God and 
exemplary Independent minister, Mr Ainsworth, of 
persecuted sanctity, conducted himself when a similar occasion 
had befallen him at Amsterdam? ' He had thought of 
nothing but the glory of the highest cause, and had converted 
the offer of recompense into a public debate with a Jew on 
the chief mysteries of the faith. Here was a model: the case 
was nothing short of a heavenly indication, and he, Rufus 
Lyon, would seize the occasion to demand a public debate 
with the rector on the constitution of the true church. 
</p>
            <p>What if he were inwardly torn by doubt and anxiety 
concerning his own private relations and the facts of his past <pb n="260"/>
life? That danger of absorption within the narrow bounds 
of self only urged him the more towards action which had a 
wider bearing, and might tell on the welfare of England at 
large. It was decided. Before the minister went down to his 
breakfast that morning he had written the following letter 
to Mr Philip Debarry: 
</p>
            <p>Sir, — Referring to your letter of yesterday, I find the following 
words: 'I shall consider myself doubly fortunate if at any time 
you can point out to me some method by which I may procure 
you as lively a satisfaction as I am now feeling, in that full and 
speedy relief from anxiety which I owe to your considerate con 
duct.' 
</p>
            <p>I am not unaware, sir, that, in the usage of the world, there are 
words of courtesy (so called) which are understood, by those 
amongst whom they are current, to have no precise meaning, 
and to constitute no bond or obligation. I will not now insist 
that this is an abuse of language, wherein our fallible nature 
requires the strictest safeguards against laxity and 
misapplication, for I do not apprehend that in writing the words I have 
above quoted, you were open to the reproach of using phrases 
which, while seeming to carry a specific meaning, were really 
no more than what is called a polite form. I believe, sir, that 
you used these words advisedly, sincerely, and with an 
honourable intention of acting on them as a pledge, should such action 
be demanded. No other supposition on my part would 
correspond to the character you bear as a young man who aspires 
(albeit mistakenly) to engraft the finest fruits of public virtue 
on a creed and institutions, whereof the sap is composed rather 
of human self-seeking than of everlasting truth. 
</p>
            <p>Wherefore I act on this my belief in the integrity of your 
written word; and I beg you to procure for me (as it is doubtless 
in your power) that I may be allowed a public discussion with 
your near relative, the rector of this parish, the Reverend 
Augustus Debarry, to be held in the large room of the Free 
School, or in the Assembly Room of the Marquis of Granby, 
these being the largest covered spaces at our command. For I 
presume he would neither allow me to speak within his church, 
nor would consent himself to speak within my chapel; and the 
probable inclemency of the approaching season forbids an <pb n="261"/>
assured expectation that we could discourse in the open air. The 
subjects I desire to discuss are, — first, the constimtion of the 
true church; and, secondly, the bearing thereupon of the English 
Reformation. Confidently expecting that you will comply with 
this request, which is the sequence of your expressed desire, I 
remain, sir, yours, with the respect offered to a sincere 
with-stander, 
</p>
            <p>Malthouse Yard. 
RUFUS LYON. 
</p>
            <p>After writing this letter, the good Rufus felt that serenity 
and elevation of mind which is infallibly brought by a 
preoccupation with the wider relations of things. Already he 
was beginning to sketch the course his argument might most 
judiciously take in the coming debate; his thoughts were 
running into sentences, and marking off careful exceptions 
in parentheses; and he had come down and seated himself 
at the breakfast-table quite automatically, without 
expectation of toast or coffee, when Esther's voice and touch recalled 
him to an inward debate of another kind, in which he felt 
himself much weaker. Again there arose before him the 
image of that cool, hard-eyed, worldly man, who might be 
this dear child's father, and one against whose rights he had 
himself greviously offended. Always as the image recurred 
to him Mr Lyon's heart sent forth a prayer for guidance, but 
no definite guidance had yet made itself visible for him. It 
could not be guidance — it was a temptation — that said, 'Let 
the matter rest: seek to know no more; know only what is 
thrust upon you.' The remembrance that in his time of 
wandering he had wilfully remained in ignorance of facts which 
he might have inquired after, deepened the impression that 
it was now an imperative duty to seek the fullest attainable 
knowledge. And the inquiry might possibly issue in a blessed 
repose, by putting a negative on all his suspicions. But the 
more vividly all the circumstances became present to him, 
the more unfit he felt himself to set about any investigation 
concerning this man who called himself Maurice Christian. 
He could seek no confidant or helper among 'the brethren'; <pb n="262"/>
he was obliged to admit to himself that the members of his 
church, with whom he hoped to go to heaven, were not easy 
to converse with on earth touching the deeper secrets of his 
experience, and were still less able to advise him as to the 
wisest procedure, in a case of high delicacy, with a worldling 
who had a carefully-trimmed whisker and a fashionable 
costume. For the first time in his life it occurred to the 
minister that he should be glad of an adviser who had more 
worldly than spiritual experience, and that it might not be 
inconsistent with his principles to seek some light from one 
who had studied human law. But it was a thought to be 
paused upon, and not followed out rashly; some other 
guidance might intervene. 
</p>
            <p>Esther noticed that her father was in a fit of abstraction, 
that he seemed to swallow his coffee and toast quite 
unconsciously, and that he vented from time to time a low guttural 
interjection, which was habitual with him when he was 
absorbed by an inward discussion. She did not disturb him 
by remarks, and only wondered whether anything unusua, 
had occurred on Sunday evening. But at last she thought it 
needful to say, 'You recollect what I told you yesterday, 
father?' 
</p>
            <p>'Nay, child; what?' said Mr Lyon, rousing himself 
</p>
            <p>'That Mr Jermyn asked me if you would probably be at 
home this morning before one o'clock.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther was surprised to see her father start and change 
colour as if he had been shaken by some sudden collision 
before he answered — 
</p>
            <p>'Assuredly; I do not intend to move from my study after 
I have once been out to give this letter to Zachary.' 
</p>
            <p>'Shall I tell Lyddy to take him up at once to your study 
if he comes? If not, I shall have to stay in my own room, 
because I shall be at home all this morning, and it is rather 
cold now to sit without a fire.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, my dear, let him come up to me; unless, indeed, he 
should bring a second person, which might happen, seeing 
that in all likelihood he is coming, as hitherto, on electioneering <pb n="263"/>
business. And I could not well accommodate two visitors 
up-stairs.' 
</p>
            <p>While Mr Lyon went out to Zachary, the pew-opener, to 
give him a second time the commission of carrying a letter 
to Treby Manor, Esther gave her injunction to Lyddy that 
if one gentleman came he was to be shown up-stairs — if 
two, they were to be shown into the parlour. But she had to 
resolve various questions before Lyddy clearly saw what was 
expected of her, — as that, 'if it was the gentleman as came 
on Thursday in the pepper-and-salt coat, was he to be shown 
up-stairs? And the gentleman from the Manor yesterday as 
went out whistling — had Miss Esther heard about him? 
There seemed no end of these great folks coming to 
Malthouse Yard since there was talk of the election; but they 
might be poor lost creatures the most of 'em.' Whereupon 
Lyddy shook her head and groaned, under an edifying 
despair as to the future lot of gentlemen callers. 
</p>
            <p>Esther always avoided asking questions of Lyddy, who 
found an answer as she found a key, by pouring out a 
pocketful of miscellanies. But she had remarked so many 
indications that something had happened to cause her father 
unusual excitement and mental preoccupation, that she 
could not help connecting with them the fact of this visit 
from the Manor, which he had not mentioned to her. 
</p>
            <p>She sat down in the dull parlour and took up her netting; 
for since Sunday she had felt unable to read when she was 
alone, being obliged, in spite of herself, to think of Felix 
Holt — to imagine what he would like her to be, and what 
sort of views he took of life so as to make it seem valuable 
in the absence of all elegance, luxury, gaiety, or romance. 
Had he yet reflected that he had behaved very rudely to her 
on Sunday? Perhaps not. Perhaps he had dismissed her 
from his mind with contempt. And at that thought Esther's 
eyes smarted unpleasantly. She was fond of netting, because 
it showed to advantage both her hand and her foot; and 
across this image of Felix Holt's indifference and contempt 
there passed the vaguer image of a possible somebody who <pb n="264"/>
would admire her hands and feet, and delight in looking at 
their beauty, and long, yet not dare, to kiss them. Life would 
be much easier in the presence of such a love. But it was 
precisely this longing after her own satisfaction that Felix 
had reproached her with. Did he want her to be heroic? That 
seemed impossible without some great occasion. Her life 
was a heap of fragments, and so were her thoughts: some 
great energy was needed to bind them together. Esther was 
beginning to lose her complacency at her own wit and 
criticism; to lose the sense of superiority in an awakening need for 
reliance on one whose vision was wider, whose nature was 
purer and stronger than her own. But then, she said to 
herself, that 'one' must be tender to her, not rude and 
predominating in his manners. A man with any chivalry in him 
could never adopt a scolding tone towards a woman — that is, 
towards a charming woman. But Felix had no chivalry in 
him. He loved lecturing and opinion too well ever to love 
any woman. 
</p>
            <p>In this way Esther strove to see that Felix was thoroughly 
in the wrong — at least, if he did not come again expressly to 
show that he was sorry. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c16" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 16</head>
            <pb n="265"/>
            <q>
               <l>  TRUEBLUE. These men have no votes. Why should I court them ? </l>
               <l>  GREYFOX. No votes, but power. </l>
               <l>  TRUEBLUE. What I over charities ? </l>
               <l>  CREYFOX. No, over brains; which disturbs the canvass. In a </l>
               <l>natural state of things the average price of a vote at </l>
               <l>Paddlebrook is nine-and-sixpence, throwing the fifty-pound tenants, </l>
               <l>who cost nothing, into the divisor. But these talking men </l>
               <l>cause an artificial rise of prices. </l>
            </q>
            <p>THE expected important knock at the door came about 
twelve o'clock, and Esther could hear that there were two 
visitors. Immediately the parlour door was opened and the 
shaggy-haired, cravatless image of Felix Holt, which was 
then just full in the mirror of Esther's mind, was displaced 
by the highly-contrasted appearance of a personage whose 
name she guessed before Mr Jermyn had announced it. The 
perfect morning costume of that day differed much from our 
present ideal: it was essential that a gentleman's chin should 
be well propped, that his collar should have a voluminous 
roll, that his waistcoat should imply much discrimination, 
and that his buttons should be arranged in a manner which 
would now expose him to general contempt. And it must not 
be forgotten that at the distant period when Treby Magna 
first knew the excitements of an election, there existed many 
other anomalies now obsolete, besides short-waisted coats 
and broad stiffeners. 
</p>
            <p>But we have some notions of beauty and fitness which 
withstand the centuries; and quite irrespective of dates, it 
would be pronounced that at the age of thirty-four Harold 
Transome was a striking and handsome man. He was one of 
those people, as Denner had remarked, to whose presence in 
the room you could not be indifferent: if you do not hate or 
dread them, you must find the touch of their hands, nay, 
their very shadows, agreeable. 
</p>
            <p>Esther felt a pleasure quite new to her as she saw his finely-embrowned <pb n="266"/>
face and full bright eyes turned towards her 
with an air of deference by which gallantry must commend 
itself to a refined woman who is not absolutely free from 
vanity. Harold Transome regarded women as slight things, 
but he was fond of slight things in the intervals of business; 
and he held it among the chief arts of life to keep these 
pleasant diversions within such bonds that they should 
never interfere with the course of his serious ambition. 
Esther was perfectly aware, as he took a chair near her, that 
he was under some admiring surprise at her appearance and 
manner. How could it be otherwise? She believed that in the 
eyes of a high-bred man no young lady in Treby could equal 
her: she felt a glow of delight at the sense that she was 
being looked at. 
</p>
            <p>'My father expected you,' she said to Mr Jermyn. 'I 
delivered your letter to him yesterday. He will be down 
immediately.' 
</p>
            <p>She disentangled her foot from her netting and wound it 
up. 
</p>
            <p>'I hope you are not going to let us disturb you,' said 
Harold, noticing her action. 'We come to discuss election 
affairs, and particularly desire to interest the ladies.' 
</p>
            <p>'I have no interest with any one who is not already on the 
right side,' said Esther, smiling. 
</p>
            <p>'I am happy to see at least that you wear the Liberal 
colours.' 
</p>
            <p>'I fear I must confess that it is more from love of blue than 
from love of Liberalism. Yellow opinions could only have 
brunettes on their side.' Esther spoke with her usual pretty 
fluency, but she had no sooner uttered the words than she 
thought how angry they would have made Felix. 
</p>
            <p>'If my cause is to be recommended by the becomingness 
of my colours, then I am sure you are acting in my interest 
by wearing them.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther rose to leave the room. 
</p>
            <p>'Must you really go?' said Harold, preparing to open the 
door for her. <pb n="267"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Yes; I have an engagement — a lesson at half-past twelve,' 
said Esther, bowing and floating out like a blue-robed Naiad, 
but not without a suffused blush as she passed through the 
doorway. 
</p>
            <p>It was a pity the room was so small, Harold Transome 
thought: this girl ought to walk in a house where there were 
halls and corridors. But he had soon dismissed this chance 
preoccupation with Esther; for before the door was closed 
again Mr Lyon had entered, and Harold was entirely bent on 
what had been the object of his visit. The minister, though 
no elector himself, had considerable influence over Liberal 
electors, and it was the part of wisdom in a candidate to 
cement all political adhesion by a little personal regard, if 
possible. Garstin was a harsh and wiry fellow; he seemed to 
suggest that sour whey, which some say was the original 
meaning of Whig in the Scottish, and it might assist the 
theoretic advantages of Radicalism if it could be associated 
with a more generous presence. What would conciliate the 
personal regard of old Mr Lyon became a curious problem 
to Harold, now the little man made his appearance. But 
canvassing makes a gentleman acquainted with many 
strange animals, together with the ways of catching and 
taming them; and thus the knowledge of natural history 
advances amongst the aristocracy and the wealthy 
commoners of our land. 
</p>
            <p>'I am very glad to have secured this opportunity of making 
your personal acquaintance, Mr Lyon,' said Harold, putting 
out his hand to the minister when Jermyn had mentioned 
his name. 'I am to address the electors here, in the 
Market-Place, to-morrow; and I should have been sorry to do so 
without first paying my respects privately to my chief 
friends, as there may be points on which they particularly 
wish me to explain myself.' 
</p>
            <p>'You speak civilly, sir, and reasonably,' said Mr Lyon, 
with a vague shortsighted gaze, in which a candidate's 
appearance evidently went for nothing. 'Pray be seated, 
gentlemen. It is my habit to stand.' <pb n="268"/>
            </p>
            <p>He placed himself at right angle with his visitors, his worn 
look of intellectual eagerness, slight frame, and rusty attire, 
making an odd contrast with their flourishing persons, 
unblemished costume, and comfortable freedom from 
excitement. The group was fairly typical of the difference between 
the men who are animated by ideas and the men who are 
expected to apply them. Then he drew forth his spectacles, 
and began to rub them with the thin end of his coat-tail. He 
was inwardly exercising great self-mastery — suppressing 
the thought of his personal needs, which Jermyn's presence 
tended to suggest, in order that he might be equal to the 
larger duties of this occasion. 
</p>
            <p>'I am aware — Mr Jermyn has told me,' said Harold, 'what 
good service you have done me already, Mr Lyon. The fact 
is, a man of intellect like you was especially needed in my 
case. The race I am running is really against Garstin only, 
who calls himself a Liberal, though he cares for nothing, 
and understands nothing, except the interests of the wealthy 
traders. And you have been able to explain the difference 
between Liberal and Liberal, which, as you and I know, is 
something like the difference between fish and fish.' 
</p>
            <p>'Your comparison is not unapt, sir,' said Mr Lyon, still 
holding his spectacles in his hand, 'at this epoch, when the 
mind of the nation has been strained on the passing of one 
measure. Where a great weight has to be moved, we require 
not so much selected instruments as abundant horse-power. 
But it is an unavoidable evil of these massive achievements 
that they encourage a coarse undiscriminatingness 
obstructive of more nicely-wrought results, and an exaggerated 
expectation inconsistent with the intricacies of our fallen 
and struggling condition. I say not that compromise is 
unnecessary, but it is an evil attendant on our imperfection; 
and I would pray every one to mark that, where 
compromise broadens, intellect and conscience are thrust into 
narrower room. Wherefore it has been my object to show 
our people that there are many who have helped to draw 
the car of Reform, whose ends are but partial, and who <pb n="269"/>
forsake not the ungodly principle of selfish alliances, but 
would only substitute Syria for Egypt — thinking chiefly of 
their own share in peacocks, gold, and ivory.' 
</p>
            <p>'Just so,' said Harold, who was quick at new languages, 
and still quicker at translating other men's generalities into 
his own special and immediate purposes, 'men who will be 
satisfied if they can only bring in a plutocracy, buy up the 
land, and stick the old crests on their new gateways. Now 
the practical point to secure against these false Liberals at 
present is, that our electors should not divide their votes. As 
it appears that many who vote for Debarry are likely to 
split their votes in favour of Garstin, it is of the first 
consequence that my voters should give me plumpers. If they 
divide their votes they can't keep out Debarry, and they 
may help to keep out me. I feel some confidence in asking 
you to use your influence in this direction, Mr Lyon. We 
candidates have to praise ourselves more than is graceful; 
but you are aware that, while I belong by my birth to the 
classes that have their roots in tradition and all the old 
loyalties, my experience has lain chiefly among those who 
make their own career, and depend on the new rather than 
the old. I have had the advantage of considering national 
welfare under varied lights: I have wider views than those 
of a mere cotton lord. On questions connected with religious 
liberty I would stop short at no measure that was not 
thorough.' 
</p>
            <p>'I hope not, sir — I hope not,' said Mr Lyon, gravely; finally 
putting on his spectacles and examining the face of the 
candidate, whom he was preparing to turn into a 
catechumen. For the good Rufus, conscious of his political 
importance as an organ of persuasion, felt it his duty to catechise 
a little, and also to do his part towards impressing a probable 
legislator with a sense of his responsibility. But the latter 
branch of duty somewhat obstructed the catechising, for 
his mind was so urged by considerations which he held in 
danger of being overlooked, that the questions and answers 
bore a very slender proportion to his exposition. It was impossible <pb n="270"/>
to leave the question of church-rates without noting 
the grounds of their injustice, and without a brief 
enumeration of reasons why Mr Lyon, for his own part, would not 
present that passive resistance to a legal imposition which 
had been adopted by the Friends (whose heroism in this 
regard was nevertheless worthy of all honour). 
</p>
            <p>Comprehensive talkers are apt to be tiresome when we 
are not athirst for information, but, to be quite fair, we must 
admit that superior reticence is a good deal due to the lack 
of matter. Speech is often barren; but silence also does not 
necessarily brood over a full nest. Your still fowl, blinking 
at you without remark, may all the while be sitting on one 
addled nest-egg; and when it takes to cackling, will have 
nothing to announce but that addled delusion. 
</p>
            <p>Harold Transome was not at all a patient man, but in 
matters of business he was quite awake to his cue, and in 
this case it was perhaps easier to listen than to answer 
questions. But Jermyn, who had plenty of work on his hands, 
took an opportunity of rising, and saying, as he looked at his 
watch — 
</p>
            <p>'I must really be at the office in five minutes. You will find 
me there, Mr Transome; you have probably still many 
things to say to Mr Lyon.' 
</p>
            <p>'I beseech you, sir,' said the minister, changing colour, 
and by a quick movement laying his hand on Jermyn's arm 
— 'I beseech you to favour me with an interview on some 
private business — this evening, if it were possible.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon, like others who are habitually occupied with 
impersonal subjects, was liable to this impulsive sort of 
action. He snatched at the details of life as if they were 
darting past him — as if they were like the ribbons at his knees, 
which would never be tied all day if they were not tied on 
the instant. Through these spasmodic leaps out of his 
abstractions into real life, it constantly happened that he 
suddenly took a course which had been the subject of too much 
doubt with him ever to have been determined on by 
continuous thought. And if Jermyn had not startled him by <pb n="271"/>
threatening to vanish just when he was plunged in politics, 
he might never have made up his mind to confide in a 
worldly attorney. 
</p>
            <p>('An odd man,' as Mrs Muscat observed, 'to have such a 
gift in the pulpit. But there's One knows better than we 
do —' which, in a lady who rarely felt her judgment at a 
loss, was a concession that showed much piety.) 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn was surprised at the little man's eagemess. 'By 
all means,' he answered, quite cordially. 'Could you come to 
my office at eight o'dock?' 
</p>
            <p>'For several reasons, I must beg you to come to me.' 
</p>
            <p>'O, very good. I'll walk out and see you this evening, if 
possible. I shall have much pleasure in being of any use to 
you.' Jermyn felt that in the eyes of Harold he was 
appearing all the more valuable when his services were thus in 
request. He went out, and Mr Lyon easily relapsed into 
politics, for he had been on the brink of a favourite subject 
on which he was at issue with his fellow-Liberals. 
</p>
            <p>At that time, when faith in the efficacy of political change 
was at fever-heat in ardent Reformers, many measures 
which men are still discussing with little confidence on either 
side, were then talked about and disposed of like property 
in near reversion. Crying abuses — 'bloated paupers', 
'bloated pluralists', and other corruptions hindering men 
from being wise and happy — had to be fought against and 
slain. Such a time is a time of hope. Afterwards, when the 
corpses of those monsters have been held up to the public 
wonder and abhorrence, and yet wisdom and happiness do 
not follow, but rather a more abundant breeding of the 
foolish and unhappy, comes a time of doubt and 
despondency. But in the great Reform year hope was mighty: the 
prospect of reform had even served the voters instead of 
drink; and in one place, at least, there had been a 'dry 
election'. And now the speakers at Reform banquets were 
exuberant in congratulation and promise: Liberal 
clergymen of the Establishment toasted Liberal Catholic 
clergymen without any allusion to scarlet, and Catholic clergymen <pb n="272"/>
replied with a like tender reserve. Some dwelt on the 
abolition of all abuses, and on millennial blessedness generally; 
others, whose imaginations were less suffused with 
exhalations of the dawn, insisted chiefly on the ballot-box. 
</p>
            <p>Now on this question of the ballot the minister strongly 
took the negative side. Our pet opinions are usually those 
which place us in a minority of a minority amongst our 
own party: — very happily, else those poor opinions, born 
with no silver spoon in their mouths — how would they get 
nourished and fed? So it was with Mr Lyon and his 
objection to the ballot. But he had thrown out a remark on the 
subject which was not quite clear to his hearer, who 
interpreted it according to his best calculation of probabilities. 
</p>
            <p>'I have no objection to the ballot,' said Harold, 'but I 
think that is not the sort of thing we have to work at just 
now. We shouldn't get it. And other questions are imminent.' 
</p>
            <p>'Then, sir, you would vote for the ballot?' said Mr Lyon, 
stroking his chin. 
</p>
            <p>'Certainly, if the point came up. I have too much respect 
for the freedom of the voter to oppose anything which offers 
a chance of making that freedom more complete.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon looked at the speaker with a pitying smile and a 
subdued 'h'm — m — m', which Harold took for a sign of 
satisfaction. He was soon undeceived. 
</p>
            <p>'You grieve me, sir; you grieve me much. And I pray you 
to reconsider this question, for it will take you to the root, as 
I think, of political morality. I engage to show to any 
impartial mind, duly furnished with the principles of public 
and private rectitude, that the ballot would be pernicious, 
and that if it were not pernicious it would still be futile. I 
will show, first, that it would be futile as a preservative from 
bribcry and illegitimate influence; and, secondly, that it 
would be in the worst kind pernicious, as shutting the door 
against those influences whereby the soul of a man and the 
character of a citizen are duly educated for their great 
functions. Be not alarmed if I detain you, sir. It is well worth 
the while.' <pb n="273"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Confound this old man,' thought Harold. 'I'll never make 
a canvassing call on a preacher again, unless he has lost his 
voice from a cold.' He was going to excuse himself as 
prudently as he could, by deferring the subject till the morrow, 
and inviting Mr Lyon to come to him in the 
committee-room before the time appointed for his public speech; but 
he was relieved by the opening of the door. Lyddy put in her 
head to say — 
</p>
            <p>'If you please! sir, here's Mr Holt wants to know if he may 
come in and speak to the gentleman. He begs your pardon, 
but you're to say “no” if you don't like him to come.' 
</p>
            <p>'Nay, show him in at once, Lyddy. A young man,' Mr 
Lyon went on, speaking to Harold, 'whom a representative 
ought to know — no voter, but a man of ideas and study.' 
</p>
            <p>'He is thoroughly welcome,' said Harold, truthfully 
enough, though he felt little interest in the voteless man of 
ideas except as a diversion from the subject of the ballot. He 
had been standing for the last minute or two, feeling less of 
a victim in that attitude, and more able to calculate on 
means of escape. 
</p>
            <p>'Mr Holt, sir,' said the minister, as Felix entered, 'is a 
young friend of mine, whose opinions on some points I hope 
to see altered, but who has a zeal for public justice which I 
trust he will never lose.' 
</p>
            <p>'I am glad to see Mr Holt,' said Harold, bowing. He 
perceived from the way in which Felix bowed to him and turned 
to the most distant spot in the room, that the candidate's 
shake of the hand would not be welcome here. 'A formidable 
fellow,' he thought, 'capable of mounting a cart in the 
market-place to-morrow and cross-examining me, if I say 
anything that doesn't please him.' 
</p>
            <p>'Mr Lyon,' said Felix, 'I have taken a liberty with you 
in asking to see Mr Transome when he is engaged with you. 
But I have to speak to him on a matter which I shouldn't 
care to make public at present, and it is one on which I am 
sure you will back me. I heard that Mr Transome was here, 
so I ventured to come. I hope you will both excuse me, as my <pb n="274"/>
business refers to some electioneering measures which are 
being taken by Mr Transome's agents.' 
'Pray go on,' said Harold, expecting something unpleasant. 
</p>
            <p>'I'm not going to speak against treating voters,' said Felix; 
'I suppose buttered ale, and grease of that sort to make the 
wheels go, belong to the necessary humbug of 
representation. But I wish to ask you, Mr Transome, whether it is with 
your knowledge that agents of yours are bribing rough 
fellows who are no voters — the colliers and navvies at Sproxton 
— with the chance of extra drunkenness, that they may make 
a posse on your side at the nomination and polling?' 
</p>
            <p>'Certainly not,' said Harold. 'You are aware, my dear sir, 
that a candidate is very much at the mercy of his agents as 
to the means by which he is returned, especially when many 
years' absence has made him a stranger to the men actually 
conducting business. But are you sure of your facts?' 
</p>
            <p>'As sure as my senses can make me,' said Felix, who then 
briefly described what had happened on Sunday. 'I believed 
that you were ignorant of all this, Mr Transome,' he ended, 
'and that was why I thought some good might be done by 
speaking to you. If not, I should be tempted to expose the 
whole affair as a disgrace to the Radical party. I'm a Radical 
myself, and mean to work all my life long against privilege, 
monopoly, and oppression. But I would rather be a 
livery-servant proud of my master's title, than I would seem to 
make common cause with scoundrels who turn the best 
hopes of men into by-words for cant and dishonesty.' 
</p>
            <p>'Your energetic protest is needless here, sir,' said Harold, 
offended at what sounded like a threat, and was certainly 
premature enough to be in bad taste. In fact, this error of 
behaviour in Felix proceeded from a repulsion which was 
mutual. It was a constant source of irritation to him that 
the public men on his side were, on the whole, not 
conspicuously better than the public men on the other side; 
that the spirit of innovation, which with him was a part of 
religion, was in many of its mouthpieces no more of a 
religion than the faith in rotten boroughs; and he was thus <pb n="275"/>
predisposed to distrust Harold Transome. Harold, in his 
turn, disliked impracticable notions of loftiness and purity — 
disliked all enthusiasm; and he thought he saw a very 
troublesome, vigorous incorporation of that nonsense in 
Felix. But it would be foolish to exasperate him in any way. 
</p>
            <p>'If you choose to accompany me to Jermyn's office,' he 
went on, 'the matter shall be inquired into in your presence. 
I think you will agree with me, Mr Lyon, that this will be the 
most satisfactory course?' 
</p>
            <p>'Doubtless,' said the minister, who liked the candidate 
very well, and believed that he would be amenable to 
argument; 'and I would caution my young friend against a too 
great hastiness of words and action. David's cause against 
Saul was a righteous one; nevertheless not all who clave unto 
David were righteous men.' 
</p>
            <p>'The more was the pity, sir,' said Felix. 'Especially if he 
winked at their malpractices.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon smiled, shook his head, and stroked his 
favourite's arm deprecatingly. 
</p>
            <p>'It is rather too much for any man to keep the consciences 
of all his party,' said Harold. 'If you had lived in the East, 
as I have, you would be more tolerant. More tolerant, for 
example, of an active industrious selfishness, such as we have 
here, though it may not always be quite scrupulous: you 
would see how much better it is than an idle selfishness. I 
have heard it said, a bridge is a good thing — worth helping 
to make, though half the men who worked at it were rogues.' 
</p>
            <p>'O yes I ' said Felix, scornfully, 'give me a handful of 
generalities and analogies, and I'll undertake to justify 
Burke and Hare, and prove them benefactors of their species. 
I'll tolerate no nuisances but such as I can't help; and the 
question now is, not whether we can do away with all the 
nuisances in the world, but with a particular nuisance under 
our noses.' 
</p>
            <p>'Then we had better cut the matter short, as I propose, by 
going at once to Jermyn's,' said Harold. 'In that case, I must 
bid you good-morning, Mr Lyon.' <pb n="276"/>
            </p>
            <p>'I would fain,' said the minister, looking uneasy — 'I would 
fain have had a further opportunity of considering that 
question of the ballot with you. The reasons against it need 
not be urged lengthily; they only require complete 
enumeration to prevent any seeming hiatus, where an opposing 
fallacy might thrust itself in.' 
</p>
            <p>'Never fear, sir,' said Harold, shaking Mr Lyon's hand 
cordially, 'there will be opportunities. Shall I not see you in 
the committee-room to-morrow?' 
</p>
            <p>'I think not,' said Mr Lyon, rubbing his brow, with a sad 
remembrance of his personal anxieties. 'But I will send you, 
if you will permit me, a brief writing, on which you can 
meditate at your leisure.' 
</p>
            <p>'I shall be delighted. Good-bye.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold and Felix went out together; and the minister, 
going up to his dull study, asked himself whether, under the 
pressure of conflicting experience, he had faithfully 
discharged the duties of the past interview? 
</p>
            <p>If a cynical sprite were present, riding on one of the motes 
in that dusty room, he may have made himself merry at the 
illusions of the little minister who brought so much 
conscience to bear on the production of so slight an effect. I 
confess to smiling myself, being sceptical as to the effect of 
ardent appeals and nice distinctions on gentlemen who are 
got up, both inside and out, as candidates in the style of the 
period; but I never smiled at Mr Lyon's trustful energy 
without falling to penitence and veneration immediately after. 
For what we call illusions are often, in truth, a wider vision 
of past and present realities — a willing movement of a man's 
soul with the larger sweep of the world's forces — a 
movement towards a more assured end than the chances of a 
single life. We see human heroism broken into units and 
say, this unit did little — might as well not have been. But 
in this way we might break up a great army into units; in 
this way we might break the sunlight into fragments, and 
think that this and the other might be cheaply parted with. 
Let us rather raise a monument to the soldiers whose brave <pb n="277"/>
hearts only kept the ranks unbroken, and met death — a 
monument to the faithful who were not famous, and who are 
precious as the continuity of the sunbeams is precious, 
though some of them fall unseen and on barrenness. 
</p>
            <p>At present, looking back on that day at Treby, it seems to 
me that the sadder illusion lay with Harold Transome, who 
was trusting in his own skill to shape the success of his own 
morrows, ignorant of what many yesterdays had 
determined for him beforehand. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c17" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 17</head>
            <pb n="278"/>
            <q>
               <l>It is a good and soothfast saw; </l>
               <l>Half-roasted never will be raw; </l>
               <l>No dough is dried once more to meal </l>
               <l>No crock new-shapen by the wheel; </l>
               <l>You can't turn curds to milk again, </l>
               <l>Nor Now, by wishing, back to Then; </l>
               <l>And having tasted stolen honey, </l>
               <l>You can't buy innocence for money. </l>
            </q>
            <p>JERMYN was not particularly pleased that some chance had 
apparently hindered Harold Transome from making other 
canvassing visits immediately after leaving Mr Lyon, and 
so had sent him back to the office earlier than he had been 
expected to come. The inconvenient chance he guessed at 
once to be represented by Felix Holt, whom he knew very 
well by Trebian report to be a young man with so little of the 
ordinary Christian motives as to making an appearance and 
getting on in the world, that he presented no handle to any 
judicious and respectable person who might be willing to 
make use of him. 
</p>
            <p>Harold Transome, on his side, was a good deal annoyed at 
being worried by Felix into an inquiry about electioneering 
details. The real dignity and honesty there was in him made 
him shrink from this necessity of satisfying a man with a 
troublesome tongue; it was as if he were to show indignation 
at the discovery of one barrel with a false bottom, when he 
had invested his money in a manufactory where a larger or 
smaller number of such barrels had always been made. A 
practical man must seek a good end by the only possible 
means; that is to say, if he is to get into parliament he must 
not be too particular. It was not disgraceful to be neither a 
Quixote nor a theorist, aiming to correct the moral rules of 
the world; but whatever actually was, or might prove to be, 
disgraceful, Harold held in detestation. In this mood he 
pushed on unceremoniously to the inner office without waiting <pb n="279"/>
to ask questions; and when he perceived that Jermyn 
was not alone, he said, with haughty quickness — 
</p>
            <p>'A question about the electioneering at Sproxton. Can you 
give your attention to it at once? Here is Mr Holt, who has 
come to me about the business.' 
</p>
            <p>'A — yes — a — certainly,' said Jermyn, who, as usual, was 
the more cool and deliberate because he was vexed. He was 
standing, and, as he turned round, his broad figure 
concealed the person who was seated writing at the bureau. 'Mr 
Holt — a — will doubtless — a — make a point of saving a busy 
man's time. You can speak at once. This gentleman' — here 
Jermyn made a slight backward movement of his head — 'is 
one of ourselves; he is a true-blue.' 
</p>
            <p>'I have simply to complain,' said Felix, 'that one of your 
agents has been sent on a bribing expedition to Sproxton — 
with what purpose you, sir, may know better than I do. Mr 
Transome, it appears, was ignorant of the affair, and does 
not approve it.' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn, looking gravely and steadily at Felix while he was 
speaking, at the same time drew forth a small sheaf of papers 
from his side-pocket, and then, as he turned his eyes slowly 
on Harold, felt in his waistcoat-pocket for his pencil-case. 
</p>
            <p>'I don't approve it at all,' said Harold, who hated Jermyn's 
calculated slowness and conceit in his own impenetrability. 
'Be good enough to put a stop to it, will you?' 
</p>
            <p>'Mr Holt, I know, is an excellent Liberal,' said Jermyn, 
just inclining his head to Harold, and then alternately 
looking at Felix and docketing his bills; 'but he is perhaps too 
inexperienced to be aware that no canvass — a — can be 
conducted without the action of able men, who must — a — be 
trusted, and not interfered with. And as to any possibility 
of promising to put a stop — a — to any procedure — a — that 
depends. If he had ever held the coachman's ribbons in his 
hands, as I have in my younger days — a — he would know 
that stopping is not always easy.' 
</p>
            <p>'I know very little about holding ribbons,' said Felix; 
'but I saw clearly enough at once that more mischief had <pb n="280"/>
been done than could be well mended. Though I believe, if 
it were heartily tried, the treating might be reduced, and 
something might be done to hinder the men from turning 
out in a body to make a noise, which might end in worse.' 
</p>
            <p>'They might be hindered from making a noise on our 
side,' said Jermyn, smiling. 'That is perfectly true. But if 
they made a noise on the other — would your purpose be 
answered better, sir?' 
</p>
            <p>Harold was moving about in an irritated manner while 
Felix and Jermyn were speaking. He preferred leaving the 
talk to the attorney, of whose talk he himself liked to keep 
as clear as possible. 
</p>
            <p>'I can only say,' answered Felix, 'that if you make use 
of those heavy fellows when the drink is in them, I shouldn't 
like your responsibility. You might as well drive bulls to 
roar on our side as bribe a set of colliers and navvies to shout 
and groan.' 
</p>
            <p>'A lawyer may well envy your command of language, Mr 
Holt,' said Jermyn, pocketing his bills again, and shutting 
up his pencil; 'but he would not be satisfied with the 
accuracy — a — of your terms. You must permit me to check 
your use of the word “bribery”. The essence of bribery is, 
that it should be legally proved; there is not such a thing — 
a — in rerum natura — a — as unproved bribery. There has 
been no such thing as bribery at Sproxton, I'll answer for 
it. The presence of a body of stalwart fellows on — a — the 
Liberal side will tend to preserve order; for we know that 
the benefit clubs from the Pitchley district will show for 
Debarry. Indeed, the gentleman who has conducted the 
canvass at Sproxton is experienced in parliamentary affairs, 
and would not exceed — a — the necessary measures that a 
rational judgment would dictate!' 
</p>
            <p>'What! you mean the man who calls himself Johnson?' 
said Felix, in a tone of disgust. 
</p>
            <p>Before Jermyn chose to answer, Harold broke in, saying, 
quickly and peremptorily, 'The long and short of it is this, 
Mr Holt: I shall desire and insist that whatever can be <pb n="281"/>
done by way of remedy shall be done. Will that satisfy you? 
You see now some of a candidate's difficulties?' said Harold, 
breaking into his most agreeable smile. 'I hope you will have 
some pity for me.' 
</p>
            <p>'I suppose I must be content,' said Felix, not thoroughly 
propitiated. 'I bid you good-morning, gentlemen.' 
</p>
            <p>When he was gone out, and had closed the door behind 
him, Harold, turning round and flashing, in spite of 
himself, an angry look at Jermyn, said — 
</p>
            <p>'And who is Johnson? an alias, I suppose. It seems you 
are fond of the name.' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn turned perceptibly paler, but disagreeables of this 
sort between himself and Harold had been too much in his 
anticipations of late for him to be taken by surprise. He 
turned quietly round and just touched the shoulder of the 
person seated at the bureau, who now rose. 
</p>
            <p>'On the contrary,' Jermyn answered, 'the Johnson in 
question is this gentleman, whom I have the pleasure of 
introducing to you as one of my most active helpmates in 
electioneering business — Mr Johnson, of Bedford Row, 
London. I am comparatively a novice — a — in these matters. 
But he was engaged with James Putty in two 
hardly-contested elections, and there could scarcely be a better 
initiation. Putty is one of the first men of the country as 
an agent — a — on the Liberal side — a — eh, Johnson? I think 
Makepiece is — a — not altogether a match for him, not 
quite of the same calibre — a — haud consimili ingenio — a — 
in tactics — a — and in experience?' 
</p>
            <p>'Makepiece is a wonderful man, and so is Putty,' said the 
glib Johnson, too vain not to be pleased with an opportunity 
of speaking, even when the situation was rather awkward. 
'Makepiece for scheming, but Putty for management. Putty 
knows men, sir,' he went on, turning to Harold; 'it's a 
thousand pities that you have not had his talents employed in 
your service. He's beyond any man for saving a candidate's 
money — does half the work with his tongue. He'll talk of 
anything, from the Areopagus, and that sort of thing, down <pb n="282"/>
to the joke about “Where are you going, Paddy?” — you 
know what I mean, sir! “Back again, says Paddy” — an 
excellent electioneering joke. Putty understands these 
things. He has said to me, “Johnson, bear in mind there are 
two ways of speaking an audience will always like: one is, 
to tell them what they don't understand; and the other is, 
to tell them what they're used to.” I shall never be the man 
to deny that I owe a great deal to Putty. I always say it was 
a most providential thing in the Mugham election last year 
that Putty was not on the Tory side. He managed the 
women; and if you'll believe me, sir, one fourth of the men 
would never have voted if their wives hadn't driven them 
to it for the good of their families. And as for speaking — 
it's currently reported in our London circles that Putty 
writes regularly for the Times. He has that kind of 
language; and I needn't tell you, Mr Transome, that it's the 
apex, which, I take it, means the tiptop — and nobody can 
get higher than that, I think. I've belonged to a political 
debating society myself; I've heard a little language in my 
time; but when Mr Jermyn first spoke to me about having 
the honour to assist in your canvass of North Loamshire' — 
here Johnson played with his watch-seals and balanced 
himself a moment on his toes — 'the very first thing I said was, 
“And there's Garstin has got Putty! No Whig could stand 
against a Whig,” I said, “who had Putty on his side: I hope 
Mr Transome goes in for something of a deeper colour.” I 
don't say that, as a general rule, opinions go for much in 
a return, Mr Transome; it depends on who are in the field 
before you, and on the skill of your agents. But as a Radical, 
and a moneyed Radical, you are in a fine position, sir; and 
with care and judgment — with care and judgment —' 
</p>
            <p>It had been impossible to interrupt Johnson before, 
without the most impolite rudeness. Jermyn was not sorry that 
he should talk, even if he made a fool of himself; for in 
that solid shape, exhibiting the average amount of human 
foibles, he seemed less of the alias which Harold had insinuated <pb n="283"/>
him to be, and had all the additional plausibility 
of a lie with a circumstance. 
</p>
            <p>Harold had thrown himself with contemptuous 
resignation into a chair, had drawn off one of his buff gloves, and 
was looking at his hand. But when Johnson gave his 
iteration with a slightly slackened pace, Harold looked up at him 
and broke in — 
</p>
            <p>'Well, then, Mr Johnson, I shall be glad if you will use 
your care and judgment in putting an end as well as you 
can to this Sproxton affair; else it may turn out an ugly 
business.' 
</p>
            <p>'Excuse me, sir, I must beg you to look at the matter a 
little more closely. You will see that it is impossible to take 
a single step backward at Sproxton. It was a matter of 
necessity to get the Sproxton men; else I know to a certainty the 
other side would have laid hold of them first, and now I've 
undermined Garstin's people. They'll use their authority, 
and give a little shabby treating, but I've taken all the wind 
out of their sails. But if, by your orders, I or Mr Jermyn 
here were to break promise with the honest fellows, and 
offend Chubb the publican, what would come of it? Chubb 
would leave no stone unturned against you, sir; he would 
egg on his customers against you; the colliers and navvies 
would be at the nomination and at the election all the same, 
or rather not all the same, for they would be there against 
us; and instead of hustling people good-humouredly by way 
of a joke, and counterbalancing Debarry's cheers, they'd 
help to kick the cheering and the voting out of our men, and 
instead of being, let us say, half-a-dozen ahead of Garstin, 
you'd be half-a-dozen behind him, that's all. I speak plain 
English to you, Mr Transome, though I've the highest 
respect for you as a gentleman of first-rate talents and 
position. But, sir, to judge of these things a man must know 
the English voter and the English publican; and it would 
be a poor tale indeed' — here Mr Johnson's mouth took an 
expression at once bitter and pathetic — 'that a gentleman 
like you, to say nothing of the good of the country, should <pb n="284"/>
have gone to the expense and trouble of a canvass for 
nothing but to find himself out of parliament at the end of 
it. I've seen it again and again; it looks bad in the cleverest 
man to have to sing small.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Johnson's argument was not the less stringent because 
his idioms were vulgar. It requires a conviction and 
resolution amounting to heroism not to wince at phrases that 
class our foreshadowed endurance among those common 
and ignominious troubles which the world is more likely 
to sneer at than to pity. Harold remained a few moments in 
angry silence looking at the floor, with one hand on his 
knee, and the other on his hat, as if he were preparing to 
start up. 
</p>
            <p>'As to undoing anything that's been done down there,' 
said Johnson, throwing in this observation as something 
into the bargain, 'I must wash my hands of it, sir. I couldn't 
work knowingly against your interest. And that young man 
who is just gone out, — you don't believe that he need be 
listened to, I hope? Chubb, the publican, hates him. Chubb 
would guess he was at the bottom of your having the 
treating stopped, and he'd set half-a-dozen of the colliers to duck 
him in the canal, or break his head by mistake. I'm an 
experienced man, sir. I hope I've put it clear enough.' 
</p>
            <p>'Certainly, the exposition befits the subject,' said Harold, 
scornfully, his dislike of the man Johnson's personality 
being stimulated by causes which Jermyn more than 
conjectured. 'It's a damned, unpleasant, ravelled business that 
you and Mr Jermyn have knit up between you. I've no more 
to say.' 
</p>
            <p>'Then, sir, if you've no more commands, I don't wish to 
intrude. I shall wish you good-morning, sir,' said Johnson, 
passing out quickly. 
</p>
            <p>Harold knew that he was indulging his temper, and he 
would probably have restrained it as a foolish move if he 
had thought there was great danger in it. But he was 
beginning to drop much of his caution and self-mastery where 
Jermyn was concerned, under the growing conviction that <pb n="285"/>
the attorney had very strong reasons for being afraid of 
him; reasons which would only be reinforced by any action 
hostile to the Transome interest. As for a sneak like this 
Johnson, a gendeman had to pay him, not to please him. 
Harold had smiles at command in the right place, but he 
was not going to smile when it was neither necessary nor 
agreeable. He was one of those good-humoured, yet 
energetic men, who have the gift of anger, hatred, and scom 
upon occasion, though they are too healthy and 
selfcontented for such feelings to get generated in them without 
external occasion. And in relation to Jermyn the gift was 
coming into fine exercise. 
</p>
            <p>'A — pardon me, Mr Harold,' said Jermyn, speaking as 
soon as Johnson went out, 'but I am sorry — a — you should 
behave disobligingly to a man who has it in his power to 
do much service — who, in fact, holds many threads in his 
hands. I admit that — a — nemo mortalium omnibus horis 
sapit, as we say — a —' 
</p>
            <p>'Speak for yourself,' said Harold. 'I don't talk in tags of 
Latin, which might be learned by a schoolmaster's footboy. 
I find the King's English express my meaning better.' 
</p>
            <p>'In the King's English, then,' said Jermyn who could be 
idiomatic enough when he was stung, 'a candidate should 
keep his kicks till he's a member.' 
</p>
            <p>'O, I suppose Johnson will bear a kick if you bid him. 
You're his principal, I believe.' 
</p>
            <p>'Certainly, thus far — a — he is my London agent. But he is 
a man of substance, and —' 
</p>
            <p>'I shall know what he is if it's necessary, I daresay. But I 
must jump into the carriage again. I've no time to lose; I 
must go to Hawkins at the factory. Will you go?' 
</p>
            <p>When Harold was gone, Jermyn's handsome face gathered 
blackness. He hardly ever wore his worst expression in the 
presence of others, and but seldom when he was alone, for 
he was not given to believe that any game would ultimately 
go against him. His luck had been good. New conditions 
might always turn up to give him new chances; and if affairs <pb n="286"/>
threatened to come to an extremity between Harold and 
himself, he trusted to finding some sure resource. 
</p>
            <p>'He means to see to the bottom of everything if he can, 
that's quite plain,' said Jermyn to himself. 'I believe he has 
been getting another opinion; he has some new light about 
those annuities on the estate that are held in Johnson's 
name. He has inherited a deuced faculty for business — 
there's no denying that. But I shall beg leave to tell him 
that I've propped up the family. I don't know where they 
would have been without me; and if it comes to balancing, 
I know into which scale the gratitude ought to go. Not that 
he's likely to feel any — but he can feel something else; and if 
he makes signs of setting the dogs on me, I shall make him 
feel it. The people named Transome owe me a good deal 
more than I owe them.' 
</p>
            <p>In this way Mr Jermyn inwardly appealed against an 
unjust construction which he foresaw that his old acquaintance 
the Law might put on certain items in his history. 
</p>
            <p>I have known persons who have been suspected of 
undervaluing gratitude, and excluding it from the list of virtues; 
but on closer observation it has been seen that, if they have 
never felt grateful, it has been for want of an opportunity; 
and that, far from despising gratitude, they regard it as the 
virtue most of all incumbent — on others towards them. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c18" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 18</head>
            <pb n="287"/>
            <q>
               <l>'The little, nameless, unremembered acts </l>
               <l>Of kindness and of love.' </l>
               <l>WORDSWVORTH: Tintern Abbey. </l>
            </q>
            <p>JERMYN did not forget to pay his visit to the minister in 
Malthouse Yard that evening. The mingled irritation, dread, 
and defiance which he was feeling towards Harold 
Transome in the middle of the day, depended on too many and 
far-stretching causes to be dissipated by eight o'clock; but 
when he left Mr Lyon's house he was in a state of 
comparative triumph in the belief that he, and he alone, was now 
in possession of facts which, once grouped together, made a 
secret that gave him new power over Harold. 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon, in his need for help from one who had that 
wisdom of the serpent which, he argued, is not forbidden, but is 
only of hard acquirement to dove-like innocence, had been 
gradually led to pour out to the attorney all the reasons 
which made him desire to know the truth about the man 
who called himself Maurice Christian: he had shown all 
the precious relics, the locket, the letters, and the marriage 
certificate. And Jermyn had comforted him by confidently 
promising to ascertain, without scandal or premature 
betrayals, whether this man were really Annette's husband, 
Maurice Christian Bycliffe. 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn was not rash in making this promise, since he had 
excellent reasons for believing that he had already come to 
a true conclusion on the subject. But he wished both to know 
a little more of this man himself, and to keep Mr Lyon in 
ignorance — not a difficult precaution — in an affair which it 
cost the minister so much pain to speak of. An easy 
opportunity of getting an interview with Christian was sure to 
offer itself before long — might even offer itself to-morrow. 
Jermyn had seen him more than once, though hitherto 
without any reason for observing him with interest; he had <pb n="288"/>
heard that Philip Debarry's courier was often busy in the 
town, and it seemed especially likely that he would be seen 
there when the market was to be agitated by politics, and 
the new candidate was to show his paces. 
</p>
            <p>The world of which Treby Magna was the centre was 
naturally curious to see the young Transome, who had come 
from the East, was as rich as a Jew, and called himself a 
Radical; characteristics all equally vague in the minds of 
various excellent ratepayers, who drove to market in their 
taxed carts, or in their hereditary gigs. Places at convenient 
windows had been secured beforehand for a few best 
bonnets; but, in general, a Radical candidate excited no ardent 
feminine partisanship, even among the Dissenters in Treby, 
if they were of the prosperous and longresident class. Some 
chapel-going ladies were fond of remembering that 'their 
family had been Church'; others objected to politics 
altogether as having spoiled old neighbourliness, and sundered 
friends who had kindred views as to cowslip wine and 
Michaelmas cleaning; others, of the melancholy sort, said 
it would be well if people would think less of reforming 
parliament and more of pleasing God. Irreproachable 
Dissenting matrons, like Mrs Muscat, whose youth had been 
passed in a short-waisted bodice and tight skirt, had never 
been animated by the struggle for liberty, and had a timid 
suspicion that religion was desecrated by being applied to 
the things of this world. Since Mr Lyon had been in 
Malthouse Yard there had been far too much mixing up of 
politics with religion; but, at any rate, these ladies had never 
yet been to hear speechifying in the market-place, and they 
were not going to begin that practice. 
</p>
            <p>Esther, however, had heard some of her feminine 
acquaintances say that they intended to sit at the druggist's 
upper window, and she was inclined to ask her father if he 
could think of a suitable place where she also might see and 
hear. Two inconsistent motives urged her. She knew that 
Felix cared earnestly for all public questions, and she 
supposed that he held it one of her deficiencies not to care <pb n="289"/>
about them: well, she would try to learn the secret of this 
ardour, which was so strong in him that it animated what 
she thought the dullest form of life. She was not too stupid 
to find it out. But this self-correcting motive was presently 
displaced by a motive of a different sort. It had been a 
pleasant variety in her monotonous days to see a man like 
Harold Transome, with a distinguished appearance and 
polished manners, and she would like to see him again: he 
suggested to her that brighter and more luxurious life on 
which her imagination dwelt without the painful effort it 
required to conceive the mental condition which would 
place her in complete sympathy with Felix Holt. It was this 
less unaccustomed prompting of which she was chiefly 
conscious when she awaited her father's coming down to 
breakfast. Why, indeed, should she trouble herself so much about 
Felix? 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon, more serene now that he had unbosomed his 
anxieties and obtained a promise of help, was already 
swimming so happily in the deep water of polemics in 
expectation of Philip Debarry's answer to his challenge, that, in the 
occupation of making a few notes lest certain felicitous 
inspirations should be wasted, he had forgotten to come 
down to breakfast. Esther, suspecting his abstraction, went 
up to his study, and found him at his desk looking up with 
wonder at her interruption. 
</p>
            <p>'Come, father, you have forgotten your breakfast.' 
</p>
            <p>'It is true, child; I will come,' he said, lingering to make 
some final strokes. 
</p>
            <p>'O you naughty father!' said Esther, as he got up from 
his chair, 'your coat-collar is twisted, your waistcoat is 
buttoned all wrong, and you have not brushed your hair. 
Sit down and let me brush it again as I did yesterday.' 
</p>
            <p>He sat down obediently, while Esther took a towel, which 
she threw over his shoulders, and then brushed the thick 
long fringe of soft auburn hair. This very trifling act, which 
she had brought herself to for the first time yesterday, 
meant a great deal in Esther's little history. It had been her <pb n="290"/>
habit to leave the mending of her father's clothes to Lyddy; 
she had not liked even to touch his cloth garments; still less 
had it seemed a thing she would willingly undertake to 
correct his toilette, and use a brush for him. But having once 
done this, under her new sense of faulty omission, the 
affectionateness that was in her flowed so pleasantly, as she saw 
how much her father was moved by what he thought a great 
act of tenderness, that she quite longed to repeat it. This 
morning, as he sat under her hands, his face had such a 
calm delight in it that she could not help kissing the top of 
his bald head; and afterwards, when they were seated at 
breakfast, she said, merrily — 
</p>
            <p>'Father, I shall make a petit maitre of you by-and-by; your 
hair looks so pretty and silken when it is well brushed.' 
</p>
            <p>'Nay, child, I trust that while I would willingly depart 
from my evil habit of a somewhat slovenly forgetfulness in 
my attire, I shall never arrive at the opposite extreme. For 
though there is that in apparel which pleases the eye, and I 
deny not that your neat gown and the colour thereof — which 
is that of certain little flowers that spread themselves in the 
hedgerows, and make a blueness there as of the sky when it 
is deepened in the water, — I deny not, I say, that these minor 
strivings after a perfection which is, as it were, an 
irrecoverable yet haunting memory, are a good in their proportion. 
Nevertheless, the brevity of our life, and the hurry and 
crush of the great battle with error and sin, often oblige us 
to an advised neglect of what is less momentous This, I 
conceive, is the principle on which my friend Felix Holt 
acts; and I cannot but think the light comes from the true 
fount, though it shines through obstructions.' 
</p>
            <p>'You have not seen Mr Holt since Sunday, have you, 
father?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes; he was here yesterday. He sought Mr Transome, 
having a matter of some importance to speak upon with 
him. And I saw him afterwards in the street, when he agreed 
that I should call for him this morning before I go into the 
market-place. He will have it,' Mr Lyon went on, smiling, <pb n="291"/>
'that I must not walk about in the crowd without him to act 
as my special constable.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther felt vexed with herself that her heart was suddenly 
beating with unusual quickness, and that her last resolution 
not to trouble herself about what Felix thought, had 
transformed itself with magic swiftness into mortification that he 
evidently avoided coming to the house when she was there, 
though he used to come on the slightest occasion. He knew 
that she was always at home until the afternoon on market 
days; that was the reason why he would not call for her 
father. Of course, it was because he attributed such littleness 
to her that he supposed she would retain nothing else than 
a feeling of offence towards him for what he had said to her. 
Such distrust of any good in others, such arrogance of 
immeasurable superiority, was extremely ungenerous. But 
presently she said — 
</p>
            <p>'I should have liked to hear Mr Transome speak, but I 
suppose it is too late to get a place now.' 
</p>
            <p>'I am not sure; I would fain have you go if you desire it, 
my dear,' said Mr Lyon, who could not bear to deny Esther 
any lawful wish. 'Walk with me to Mistress Holt's, and we 
will learn from Felix, who will doubtless already have been 
out, whether he could lead you in safety to Friend 
Lambert's.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther was glad of the proposal, because, if it answered no 
other purpose, it would be an easy way of obliging Felix to 
see her, and of showing him that it was not she who 
cherished offence. But when, later in the morning, she was 
walking towards Mrs Holt's with her father, they met Mr 
Jermyn, who stopped them to ask, in his most affable 
manner, whether Miss Lyon intended to hear the candidate, and 
whether she had secured a suitable place. And he ended by 
insisting that his daughters, who were presently coming in 
an open carriage, should call for her, if she would permit 
them. It was impossible to refuse this civility, and Esther 
turned back to await the carriage, pleased with the 
certainty of hearing and seeing, yet sorry to miss Felix. There <pb n="292"/>
was another day for her to think of him with unsatisfied 
resentment, mixed with some longings for a better 
understanding; and in our spring-time every day has its hidden 
growths in the mind, as it has in the earth when the little 
folded blades are getting ready to pierce the ground. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c19" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 19</head>
            <pb n="293"/>
            <q>
               <l>Consistency? — I never changed my mind, </l>
               <l>Which is, and always was, to live at ease. </l>
            </q>
            <p>IT was only in the time of the summer fairs that the 
market-place had ever looked more animated than it did under that 
autumn mid-day sun. There were plenty of blue cockades 
and streamers, faces at all the windows, and a crushing 
buzzing crowd, urging each other backwards and forwards round 
the small hustings in front of the Ram Inn, which showed 
its more plebeian sign at right angles with the venerable 
Marquis of Granby. Sometimes there were scornful shouts, 
sometimes a rolling cascade of cheers, sometimes the shriek 
of a penny whistle; but above all these fitful and feeble 
sounds, the fine old church-tower, which looked down from 
above the trees on the other side of the narrow stream, sent 
vibrating, at every quarter, the sonorous tones of its great 
bell, the Good Queen Bess. 
</p>
            <p>Two carriages, with blue ribbons on the hamess, were 
conspicuous near the hustings. One was Jermyn's, filled with the 
brilliantly-attired daughters, accompanied by Esther, whose 
quieter dress helped to mark her out for attention as the 
most striking of the group. The other was Harold 
Transsome's; but in this there was no lady — only the olive-skinned 
Dominic, whose acute yet mild face was brightened by the 
occupation of amusing little Harry and rescuing from his 
tyrannies a King Charles puppy, with big eyes, much after 
the pattern of the boy's. 
</p>
            <p>This Trebian crowd did not count for much in the political 
force of the nation, but it was not the less determined as to 
lending or not lending its ears. No man was permitted to 
speak from the platform except Harold and his uncle 
Lingon, though, in the interval of expectation, several Liberals 
had come forward. Among these ill-advised persons the one 
whose attempt met the most emphatic resistance was Rufus 
Lyon. This might have been taken for resentment at the <pb n="294"/>
unreasonableness of the cloth, that, not content with pulpits, 
from whence to tyrannise over the ears of men, wishes to 
have the larger share of the platforms; but it was not so, for 
Mr Lingon was heard with much cheering, and would have 
been welcomed again. 
</p>
            <p>The rector of Little Treby had been a favourite in the 
neighbourhood since the beginning of the century. A 
clergy-man thoroughly unclerical in his habits had a piquancy 
about him which made him a sort of practical joke. He had 
always been called Jack Lingon, or Parson Jack — sometimes, 
in older and less serious days, even 'Cock-fighting Jack'. He 
swore a little when the point of a joke seemed to demand it, 
and was fond of wearing a coloured bandana tied loosely 
over his cravat, together with large brown leather leggings; 
he spoke in a pithy familiar way that people could 
understand, and had none of that frigid mincingness called 
dignity, which some have thought a peculiar clerical disease. In 
fact, he was 'a character' — something cheerful to think of, 
not entirely out of connection with Sunday and sermons. 
And it seemed in keeping that he should have turned sharp 
round in politics, his opinions being only part of the 
excellent joke called Parson Jack. When his red eagle face and 
white hair were seen on the platform, the Dissenters hardly 
cheered this questionable Radical; but to make amends, all 
the Tory farmers gave him a friendly 'hurray'. 'Let's hear 
what old Jack will say for himself,' was the predominant 
feeling among them; 'he'll have something funny to say, I'll 
bet a penny.' 
</p>
            <p>It was only Lawyer Labron's young clerks and their 
hangers-on who were sufficiently dead to Trebian traditions 
to assail the parson with various sharp-edged interjections, 
such as broken shells, and cries of 'Cock-a-doodle-doo'. 
</p>
            <p>'Come now, my lads,' he began, in his full, pompous, yet 
jovial tones, thrusting his hands into the stuffed-out pockets 
of his greatcoat, 'I'll tell you what; I'm a parson, you know; 
I ought to return good for evil. So here are some good nuts 
for you to crack in return for your shells.' <pb n="295"/>
            </p>
            <p>There was a roar of laughter and cheering as he threw 
handfuls of nuts and filberts among the crowd. 
</p>
            <p>'Come, now, you'll say I used to be a Tory; and some of 
you, whose faces I know as well as I know the head of my 
own crab-stick, will say that's why I'm a good fellow. But now 
I'll tell you something else. It's for that very reason — that I 
used to be a Tory, and am a good fellow — that I go along 
with my nephew here, who is a thoroughgoing Liberal. For 
will anybody here come forward and say, “A good fellow 
has no need to tack about and change his road?” No, there's 
not one of you such a Tom-noddy. What's good for one time 
is bad for another. If anybody contradicts that, ask him to 
eat pickled pork when he's thirsty, and to bathe in the Lapp 
there when the spikes of ice are shooting. And that's the 
 eason why the men who are the best Liberals now are the 
very men who used to be the best Tories. There isn't a nastier 
horse than your horse that'll jib and back and turn round 
when there is but one road for him to go, and that's the road 
before him. 
</p>
            <p>'And my nephew here — he comes of a Tory breed, you 
know — I'll answer for the Lingons. In the old Tory times 
there was never a pup belonging to a Lingon but would howl 
if a Whig came near him. The Lingon blood is good, rich 
old Tory blood — like good rich milk — and that's why, when 
the right time comes, it throws up a Liberal cream. The best 
sort of Tory turns to the best sort of Radical. There's plenty 
of Radical scum — I say, beware of the scum, and look out for 
the cream. And here's my nephew — some of the cream, if 
there is any: none of your Whigs, none of your painted 
water that looks as if it ran, and it's standing still all the 
while; none of your spinning-jenny fellows. A gentleman; 
but up to all sorts of business. I'm no fool myself; I'm forced 
to wink a good deal, for fear of seeing too much, for a 
neighbourly man must let himself be cheated a little. But though 
I've never been out of my own country, I know less about it 
than my nephew does. You may tell what he is, and only 
look at him. There's one sort of fellow sees nothing but the <pb n="296"/>
end of his own nose, and another sort that sees nothing but 
the hinder side of the moon; but my nephew Harold is of 
another sort; he sees everything that's at hitting distance, 
and he's not one to miss his mark. A good-looking man in 
his prime! Not a greenhorn; not a shrivelled old fellow, 
who'll come to speak to you and find he's left his teeth at 
home by mistake. Harold Transome will do you credit; if 
anybody says the Radicals are a set of sneaks, Brummagem 
halfpennies, scamps who want to play pitch and toss with 
the property of the country, you can say, “Look at the 
member for North Loamshire ! “ And mind what you'll hear him 
say; he'll go in for making everything right — Poor-laws and 
charities and church — he wants to reform 'em all. Perhaps 
you'll say, “There's that Parson Lingon talking about church 
reform — why, he belongs to the church himself — he wants 
reforming too.” Well, well, wait a bit, and you'll hear 
by-and-by that old Parson Lingon is reformed — shoots no more 
cracks his joke no more, has drunk his last bottle: the dogs 
the old pointers, will be sorry; but you'll hear that the parson 
at Little Treby is a new man. That's what church reform is 
sure to come to before long. So now here are some more nuts 
for you, lads, and I leave you to listen to your candidate. 
Here he is — give him a good hurray; wave your hats, and I'll 
begin. Hurray! 
</p>
            <p>Harold had not been quite confident beforehand as to the 
good effect of his uncle's introduction; but he was soon 
reassured. There was no acrid partisanship among the 
oldfashioned Tories who mustered strong about the Marquis of 
Granby, and Parson Jack had put them in a good humour. 
Harold's only interruption came from his own party. The 
oratorical clerk at the factory, acting as the tribune of the 
dissenting interest, and feeling bound to put questions, 
might have been troublesome; but his voice being 
unpleasantly sharp, while Harold's was full and penetrating, the 
questioning was cried down. Harold's speech 'did': it was 
not of the glib-nonsensical sort, not ponderous, not 
hesitating — which is as much as to say, that it was remarkable <pb n="297"/>
among British speeches. Read in print the next day, perhaps 
it would be neither pregnant nor conclusive, which is saying 
no more than that its excellence was not of an abnormal 
kind, but such as is usually found in the best efforts of 
eloquent candidates. Accordingly the applause drowned the 
opposition, and content predominated. 
</p>
            <p>But, perhaps, the moment of most diffusive pleasure from 
public speaking is that in which the speech ceases and the 
audience can turn to commenting on it. The one speech, 
sometimes uttered under great responsibility as to missiles 
and other consequences, has given a text to twenty speakers 
who are under no responsibility. Even in the days of duelling 
a man was not challenged for being a bore, nor does this 
quality apparently hinder him from being much invited to 
dinner, which is the great index of social responsibility in a 
less barbarous age. 
</p>
            <p>Certainly the crowd in the market-place seemed to 
experience this culminating enjoyment when the speaking on 
the platform in front of the Ram had ceased, and there were 
no less than three orators holding forth from the elevation 
of chance vehicles, not at all to the prejudice of the talking 
among those who were on a level with their neighbours. 
There was little ill-humour among the listeners, for Queen 
Bess was striking the last quarter before two, and a savoury 
smell from the inn kitchens inspired them with an 
agreeable consciousness that the speakers were helping to trifle 
away the brief time before dinner. 
</p>
            <p>Two or three of Harold's committee had lingered talking 
to each other on the platform, instead of re-entering; and 
Jermyn, after coming out to speak to one of them, had 
tunred to the corner near which the carriages were standing, 
that he might tell the Transomes' coachman to drive round 
to the side door, and signal to his own coachman to follow. 
But a dialogue which was going on below induced him to 
pause, and, instead of giving the order, to assume the air 
of a careless gazer. Christian, whom the attorney had already 
observed looking out of a window at the Marquis of Granby, <pb n="298"/>
was talking to Dominic. The meeting appeared to be one of 
new recognition, for Christian was saying — 
</p>
            <p>'You've not got grey as I have, Mr Lenoni; you're not a 
day older for the sixteen years. But no wonder you didn't 
know me; I'm bleached like a dried bone.' 
</p>
            <p>'Not so. It is true I was confused a meenute — I could put 
your face nowhere; but after that, Naples came behind it, 
and I said, Mr Creestian. And so you reside at the Manor, 
and I am at Transome Court.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah I it's a thousand pities you're not on our side, else we 
might have dined together at the Marquis,' said Christian. 
'Eh, could you manage it?' he added, languidly, knowing 
there was no chance of a yes. 
</p>
            <p>'No — much obliged — couldn't leave the leetle boy. Ahi I 
Arry, Arry, pinch not poor Moro.' 
</p>
            <p>While Dominic was answering, Christian had stared about 
him, as his manner was when he was being spoken to, and 
had had his eyes arrested by Esther, who was leaning 
forward to look at Mr Harold Transome's extraordinary little 
gipsy of a son. But happening to meet Christian's stare, she 
felt annoyed, drew back, and turned away her head, 
colouring. 
</p>
            <p>'Who are those ladies?' said Christian, in a low tone, to 
Dominic, as if he had been startled into a sudden wish for 
this information. 
</p>
            <p>'They are Meester Jermyn's daughters,' said Dominic, who 
knew nothing either of the lawyer's family or of Esther. 
</p>
            <p>Christian looked puzzled a moment or two, and was silent. 
</p>
            <p>'O, well — au revoir,' he said, kissing the tips of his fingers, 
as the coachman, having had Jermyn's order, began to urge 
on the horses. 
</p>
            <p>'Does he see some likeness in the girl?' thought Jermyn, as 
he turned away. 'I wish I hadn't invited her to come in the 
carriage, as it happens.' 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c20" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 20</head>
            <pb n="299"/>
            <q>
               <l>'Good earthenware pitchers, sir! — of an excellent quaint </l>
               <l>pattern and sober colour.' </l>
            </q>
            <p>THE market dinner at 'the Marquis' was in high repute in 
Treby and its neighbourhood. The frequenters of this 
three-and-sixpenny ordinary liked to allude to it, as men allude to 
anything which implies that they move in good society, and 
habitually converse with those who are in the secret of the 
highest affairs. The guests were not only such rural residents 
as had driven to market, but some of the most substantial 
townsmen, who had always assured their wives that business 
required this weekly sacrifice of domestic pleasure. The 
poorer farmers, who put up at the Ram or the Seven Stars, 
where there was no fish, felt their disadvantage, bearing it 
modestly or bitterly, as the case might be; and although 
the Marquis was a Tory house, devoted to Debarry, it was 
too much to expect that such tenants of the Transomes as 
had always been used to dine there, should consent to eat 
a worse dinner, and sit with worse company, because they 
suddenly found themselves under a Radical landlord, 
opposed to the political party known as Sir Maxim's. Hence 
the recent political divisions had not reduced the handsome 
length of the table at the Marquis; and the many 
gradations of dignity — from Mr Wace, the brewer, to the rich 
butcher from Leek Malton, who always modestly took the 
lowest seat, though without the reward of being asked to 
come up higher — had not been abbreviated by any 
secessions. 
</p>
            <p>To-day there was an extra table spread for expected 
supernumeraries, and it was at this that Christian took his 
place with some of the younger farmers, who had almost 
a sense of dissipation in talking to a man of his 
questionable station and unknown experience. The provision was 
especially liberal, and on the whole the presence of a 
minority destined to vote for Transome was a ground for <pb n="300"/>
joking, which added to the good-humour of the chief talkers. 
A respectable old acquaintance turned Radical rather 
against his will, was rallied with even greater gusto than 
if his wife had had twins twice over. The best Trebian Tories 
were far too sweet-blooded to turn against such old friends, 
and to make no distinction between them and the Radical, 
Dissenting, Papistical, Deistical set with whom they never 
dined, and probably never saw except in their imagination. 
But the talk was necessarily in abeyance until the more 
serious business of dinner was ended, and the wine, spirits, 
and tobacco raised mere satisfaction into beatitude. 
</p>
            <p>Among the frequent though not regular guests, whom 
every one was glad to see, was Mr Nolan, the retired London 
hosier, a wiry old gentleman past seventy, whose square 
tight forehead, with its rigid hedge of grey hair, whose 
bushy eyebrows, sharp dark eyes, and remarkable hooked 
nose, gave a handsome distinction to his face in the midst 
of rural physiognomies. He had married a Miss Pendrell 
early in life, when he was a poor young Londoner, and the 
match had been thought as bad as ruin by her family; but 
fifteen years ago he had had the satisfaction of bringing his 
wife to settle amongst her own friends, and of being 
received with pride as a brother-in-law, retired from business, 
possessed of unknown thousands, and of a most agreeable 
talent for anecdote and conversation generally. No question 
had ever been raised as to Mr Nolan's extraction on the 
strength of his hooked nose, or of his name being Baruch. 
Hebrew names 'ran' in the best Saxon families; the Bible 
accounted for them; and no one among the uplands and 
hedgerows of that district was suspected of having an 
Oriental origin unless he carried a pedlar's jewel-box. 
Certainly, whatever genealogical research might have 
discovered, the worthy Baruch Nolan was so free from any 
distinctive marks of religious persuasion — he went to church 
with so ordinary an irregularity, and so often grumbled at 
the sermon — that there was no ground for classing him 
otherwise than with good Trebian Churchmen. He was generally <pb n="301"/>
regarded as a good-looking old gentleman, and a 
certain thin eagerness in his aspect was attributed to the 
life of the metropolis, where narrow space had the same 
sort of effect on men as on thickly-planted trees. Mr Nolan 
always ordered his pint of port, which, after he had sipped 
it a little, was wont to animate his recollections of the Royal 
Family, and the various ministries which had been 
contemporary with the successive stages of his prosperity. He 
was always listened to with interest: a man who had been 
born in the year when good old King George I came to the 
throne — who had been acquainted with the nude leg of the 
Prince Regent, and hinted at private reasons for believing 
that the Princess Charlotte ought not to have died — had 
conversational matter as special to his auditors as Marco 
Polo could have had on his return from Asiatic 
travel. 
</p>
            <p>'My good sir,' he said to Mr Wace, as he crossed his knees 
and spread his silk handkerchief over them, 'Transome may 
be returned, or he may not be returned — that's a question 
for North Loamshire; but it makes little difference to the 
kingdom. I don't want to say things which may put younger 
men out of spirits, but I believe this country has seen its 
best days — I do indeed.' 
</p>
            <p>'I am sorry to hear it from one of your experience, Mr 
Nolan,' said the brewer, a large happy-looking man. 'I'd 
make a good fight myself before I'd leave a worse world for 
my boys than I've found for myself. There isn't a greater 
pleasure than doing a bit of planting and improving one's 
buildings, and investing one's money in some pretty acres 
of land, when it turns up here and there — land you've 
known from a boy. It's a nasty thought that these Radicals 
are to turn things round so as one can calculate on nothing. 
One doesn't like it for one's self, and one doesn't like it for 
one's neighbours. But somehow, I believe it won't do: if 
we can't trust the government just now, there's providence 
and the good sense of the country; and there's a right in 
things — that's what I've always said — there's a right in <pb n="302"/>
things. The heavy end will get downmost. And if church 
and king, and every man being sure of his own, are things 
good for this country, there's a God above will take care 
of 'em.' 
</p>
            <p>'It won't do, my dear sir,' said Mr Nolan — 'it won't do. 
When Peel and the duke turned round about the Catholics 
in '29, I saw it was all over with us. We could never trust 
ministers any more. It was to keep off a rebellion, they said; 
but I say it was to keep their places. They're monstrously 
fond of place, both of them — that I know.' Here Mr Nolan 
changed the crossing of his legs, and gave a deep cough, 
conscious of having made a point. Then he went on — 'What 
we want is a king with a good will of his own. If we'd had 
that, we shouldn't have heard what we've heard to-day; 
reform would never have come to this pass. When our good 
old King George the Third heard his ministers talking about 
Catholic Emancipation, he boxed their ears all round. Ah, 
poor soul! he did indeed, gentlemen,' ended Mr Nolan, 
shaken by a deep laugh of admiration. 
</p>
            <p>'Well, now, that's something like a king,' said Mr Crowder, 
who was an eager listener. 
</p>
            <p>'It was uncivil, though. How did they take it?' said Mr 
Timothy Rose, a 'gentleman farmer' from Leek Malton, 
against whose independent position nature had provided the 
safeguard of a spontaneous servility. His large porcine 
cheeks, round twinkling eyes, and thumbs habitually 
twirling, expressed a concentrated effort not to get into trouble, 
and to speak everybody fair except when they were safely 
out of hearing. 
</p>
            <p>'Take it! they'd be obliged to take it,' said the impetuous 
young Joyce, a farmer of superior information. 'Have you 
ever heard of the king's prerogative?' 
</p>
            <p>'I don't say but what I have,' said Rose, retreating. 'I've 
nothing against it — nothing at all.' 
</p>
            <p>'No, but the Radicals have,' said young Joyce, winking. 
'The prerogative is what they want to clip close. They want 
us to be governed by delegates from the trades-unions, who <pb n="303"/>
are to dictate to everybody, and make everything square to 
their mastery.' 
</p>
            <p>'They're a pretty set, now, those delegates,' said Mr Wace, 
with disgust. 'I once heard two of 'em spouting away. 
They're a sort of fellow I'd never employ in my brewery, or 
anywhere else. I've seen it again and again. If a man takes 
to tongue-work it's all over with him. “Everything's wrong,” 
says he. That's a big text. But does he want to make 
everything right? Not he. He'd lose his text. “We want every 
man's good,” say they. Why, they never knew yet what a 
man's good is. How should they? It's working for his victual 
— not getting a slice of other people's.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ay, ay,' said young Joyce, cordially. 'I should just have 
liked all the delegates in the country mustered for our 
yeomanry to go into — that's all. They'd see where the 
strength of Old England lay then. You may tell what it is 
for a country to trust to trade when it breeds such spindling 
fellows as those.' 
</p>
            <p>'That isn't the fault of trade, my good sir,' said Mr Nolan, 
who was often a little pained by the defects of provincial 
culture. 'Trade, properly conducted, is good for a man's 
constitution. I could have shown you, in my time, weavers 
past seventy, with all their faculties as sharp as a penknife, 
doing without spectacles. It's the new system of trade that's 
to blame: a country can't have too much trade, if it's 
properly managed. Plenty of sound Tories have made their 
fortune by trade. You've heard of Calibut &amp; Co. — everybody 
has heard of Calibut. Well, sir, I knew old Mr Calibut as 
well as I know you. He was once a crony of mine in a city 
warehouse; and now, I'll answer for it, he has a larger 
rent-roll than Lord Wyvern. Bless your soul! his subscriptions 
to charities would make a fine income for a nobleman. And 
he's as good a Tory as I am. And as for his town 
establishment — why, how much butter do you think is consumed 
there annually?' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Nolan paused, and then his face glowed with triumph 
as he answered his own question. 'Why, gentlemen, not less <pb n="304"/>
than two thousand pounds of butter during the few months 
the family is in town! Trade makes property, my good sir, 
and property is Conservative, as they say now. Calibut's 
son-in-law is Lord Fortinbras. He paid me a large debt on 
his marriage. It's all one web, sir. The prosperity of the 
country is one web.' 
</p>
            <p>'To be sure,' said Christian, who, smoking his cigar with 
his chair turned away from the table, was willing to make 
himself agreeable in the conversation. 'We can't do without 
nobility. Look at France. When they got rid of the old 
nobles they were obliged to make new.' 
</p>
            <p>'True, very true,' said Mr Nolan, who thought Christian a 
little too wise for his position, but could not resist the rare 
gift of an instance in point. 'It's the French Revolution that 
has done us harm here. It was the same at the end of the 
last century, but the war kept it off — Mr Pitt saved us. I 
knew Mr Pitt. I had a particular interview with him once. 
He joked me about getting the length of his foot. “Mr 
Nolan,” said he, “there are those on the other side of the 
water whose name begins with N. who would be glad to 
know what you know.” I was recommended to send an 
account of that to the newspapers after his death, poor 
man! but I'm not fond of that kind of show myself.' Mr 
Nolan swung his upper leg a little, and pinched his lip 
between thumb and finger, naturally pleased with his own 
moderation. 
</p>
            <p>'No, no, very right,' said Mr Wace, cordially. 'But you 
never said a truer word than that about property. If a man's 
got a bit of property, a stake in the country, he'll want to 
keep things square. Where Jack isn't safe, Tom's in danger. 
But that's what makes it such an uncommonly nasty thing 
that a man like Transome should take up with these 
Radicals. It's my belief he does it only to get into parliament; 
he'll turn round when he gets there. Come, Dibbs, there's 
something to put you in spirits,' added Mr Wace, raising his 
voice a little and looking at a guest lower down. 'You've got 
to vote for a Radical with one side of your mouth, and <pb n="305"/>
make a wry face with the other; but he'll turn round 
by-and-by. As Parson Jack says, he's got the right sort of blood 
in him.' 
</p>
            <p>'I don't care two straws who I vote for,' said Dibbs, 
sturdily. 'I'm not going to make a wry face. It stands to 
reason a man should vote for his landlord. My farm's in 
good condition, and I've got the best pasture on the estate. 
The rot's never come nigh me. Let them grumble as are on 
the wrong side of the hedge.' 
</p>
            <p>'I wonder if Jermyn'll bring him in, though,' said Mr 
Sircome, the great miller. 'He's an uncommon fellow for 
carrying things through. I know he brought me through 
that suit about my weir; it cost a pretty penny, but he 
brought me through.' 
</p>
            <p>'It's a bit of a pill for him, too, having to turn Radical,' 
said Mr Wace. 'They say he counted on making friends 
with Sir Maximus, by this young one coming home and 
joining with Mr Philip.' 
</p>
            <p>'But I'll bet a penny he brings Transome in,' said Mr 
Sircome. 'Folks say he hasn't got many votes hereabout; 
but towards Duffield, and all there, where the Radicals are, 
everybody's for him. Eh, Mr Christian? Come — you're at 
the fountainhead — what do they say about it now at the 
Manor?' 
</p>
            <p>When general attention was called to Christian, young 
Joyce looked down at his own legs and touched the curves 
of his own hair, as if measuring his own approximation to 
that correct copy of a gentleman. Mr Wace turned his 
head to listen for Christian's answer with that tolerance 
of inferiority which becomes men in places of public 
resort. 
</p>
            <p>'They think it will be a hard run between Transome and 
Garstin,' said Christian. 'It depends on Transome's getting 
plumpers.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, I know I shall not split for Garstin,' said Mr Wace. 
'It's nonsense for Debarry's voters to split for a Whig. A 
man's either a Tory or not a Tory.' <pb n="306"/>
            </p>
            <p>'It seems reasonable there should be one of each side,' 
said Mr Timothy Rose. 'I don't like showing favour either 
way. If one side can't lower the poor's rates and take off the 
tithe, let the other try.' 
</p>
            <p>'But there's this in it, Wace,' said Mr Sircome. 'I'm not 
altogether against the Whigs. For they don't want to go so 
far as the Radicals do, and when they find they've slipped 
a bit too far, they'll hold on all the tighter. And the Whigs 
have got the upper hand now, and it's no use fighting with 
the current. I run with the —' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Sircome checked himself, looked furtively at Christian, 
and, to divert criticism, ended with — 'eh, Mr Nolan?' 
</p>
            <p>'There have been eminent Whigs, sir. Mr Fox was a 
Whig,' said Mr Nolan. 'Mr Fox was a great orator. He 
gambled a good deal. He was very intimate with the Prince 
of Wales. I've seen him, and the Duke of York' too, go 
home by daylight with their hats crushed. Mr Fox was a 
great leader of the Opposition: Government requires an 
Opposition. The Whigs should always be in opposition, and 
the Tories on the ministerial side. That's what the country 
used to like. “The Whigs for salt and mustard, the Tories 
for meat,” Mr Gottlib the banker used to say to me. Mr 
Gottlib was a worthy man. When there was a great run on 
Gottlib's bank in '16, I saw a gentleman come in with bags 
of gold, and say, “Tell Mr Gottlib there's plenty more where 
that came from.” It stopped the run, gentlemen — it did 
indeed.' 
</p>
            <p>This anecdote was received with great admiration, but Mr 
Sircome returned to the previous question. 
</p>
            <p>'There now, you see, Wace — it's right there should be 
Whigs as well as Tories — Pitt and Fox — I've always heard 
them go together.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, I don't like Garstin,' said the brewer. 'I didn't 
like his conduct about the canal company. Of the two, I like 
Transome best. If a nag is to throw me, I say, let him have 
some blood.' 
</p>
            <p>'As for blood, Wace,' said Mr Salt, the wool-factor, a <pb n="307"/>
relious man, who only spoke when there was a good 
opportunity of contradicting, 'ask my brother-in-law Labron a 
little about that. These Transomes are not the old blood.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, they're the oldest that's forthcoming, I suppose,' 
said Mr Wace, laughing. 'Unless you believe in mad old 
Tommy Trounsem. I wonder where that old poaching 
fellow is now.' 
</p>
            <p>'I saw him half-drunk the other day,' said young Joyce. 
'He'd got a flag-basket with hand-bills in it over his shoulder.' 
</p>
            <p>'I thought the old fellow was dead,' said Mr Wace. 'Hey I 
why, Jermyn,' he went on merrily, as he turned round and 
saw the attorney entering; 'you Radical! how dare you show 
yourself in this Tory house? Come, this is going a bit too 
far. We don't mind Old Harry managing our law for us — 
that's his proper business from time immemorial; but —' 
</p>
            <p>'But — a —' said Jermyn, smiling, always ready to carry on 
a joke, to which his slow manner gave the piquancy of 
surprise, 'if he meddles with politics he must be a Tory.' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn was not afraid to show himself anywhere in 
Treby. He knew many people were not exactly fond of him, 
but a man can do without that, if he is prosperous. A 
provincial lawyer in those old-fashioned days was as 
independent of personal esteem as if he had been a Lord 
Chancellor. 
</p>
            <p>There was a good-humoured laugh at this upper end of 
the room as Jermyn seated himself at about an equal angle 
between Mr Wace and Christian. 
</p>
            <p>'We were talking about old Tommy Trounsem; you 
remember him? They say he's turned up again,' said Mr 
Wace. 
</p>
            <p>'Ah?' said Jermyn, indifferently. 'But — a — Wace — I'm 
very busy to-day — but I wanted to see you about that bit of 
land of yours at the corner of Pod's End. I've had a 
handsome offer for you — I'm not at liberty to say from whom — 
but an offer that ought to tempt you.' 
</p>
            <p>'It won't tempt me,' said Mr Wace, peremptorily; 'if I've <pb n="308"/>
got a bit of land, I'll keep it. It's hard enough to get 
hereabouts.' 
</p>
            <p>'Then I'm to understand that you refuse all negotiation?' 
said Jermyn, who had ordered a glass of sherry, and was 
looking round slowly as he sipped it, till his eyes seemed to 
rest for the first time on Christian, though he had seen 
him at once on entering the room. 
</p>
            <p>'Unless one of the confounded railways should come. But 
then I'll stand out and make 'em bleed for it.' 
</p>
            <p>There was a murmur of approbation; the railways were a 
public wrong much denunciated in Treby. 
</p>
            <p>'A — Mr Philip Debarry at the Manor now?' said Jermyn, 
suddenly questioning Christian, in a haughty tone of 
superiority which he often chose to use. 
</p>
            <p>'No,' said Christian, 'he is expected to-morrow morning.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah! —' Jermyn paused a moment or two, and then said, 
'You are sufficiently in his confidence, I think, to carry a 
message to him with a small document?' 
</p>
            <p>'Mr Debarry has often trusted me so far,' said Christian, 
with much coolness; 'but if the business is yours, you can 
probably find some one you know better.' 
</p>
            <p>There was a little winking and grimacing among those of 
the company who heard this answer. 
</p>
            <p>'A — true — a,' said Jermyn, not showing any offence; 'if 
you decline. But I think, if you will do me the favour to step 
round to my residence on your way back, and learn the 
business, you will prefer carrying it yourself. At my 
residence, if you please — not my office.' 
</p>
            <p>'O very well,' said Christian. 'I shall be very happy.' 
Christian never allowed himself to be treated as a servant 
by any one but his master, and his master treated a servant 
more deferentially than an equal. 
</p>
            <p>'Will it be five o'clock? what hour shall we say?' said 
Jermyn. 
</p>
            <p>Christian looked at his watch and said, 'About five I can 
be there.' 
</p>
            <p>'Very good,' said Jermyn, finishing his sherry. <pb n="309"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Well — a — Wace — a — so you will hear nothing about 
Pod's End?' 
</p>
            <p>'Not I.' 
</p>
            <p>'A mere pocket-handkerchief, not enough to swear by 
— a —' here Jermyn's face broke into a smile — 'without a 
magnifying-glass.' 
</p>
            <p>'Never mind. It's mine into the bowels of the earth and 
up to the sky. I can build the Tower of Babel on it if I like — 
eh, Mr Nolan?' 
</p>
            <p>'A bad investment, my good sir,' said Mr Nolan, who 
enjoyed a certain flavour of infidelity in this smart reply, and 
laughed much at it in his inward way. 
</p>
            <p>'See now, how blind you Tories are,' said Jermyn, rising; 
'if I had been your lawyer, I'd have had you make another 
forty-shilling freeholder with that land, and all in time for 
this election. But — a — the verbum sapientibus comes a little 
too late now.' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn was moving away as he finished speaking, but Mr 
Wace called out after him, 'We're not so badly off for voices 
as you are — good sound votes, that'll stand the revising 
barrister. Debarry at the top of the poll!' 
</p>
            <p>The lawyer was already out of the doorway. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c21" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 21</head>
            <pb n="310"/>
            <q>
               <p>'Tis grievous, that with all amplification of travel both by 
sea and land, a man can never separate himself from his past 
history. 
</p>
            </q>
            <p>MR JERMYN'S handsome house stood a little way out of 
the town, surrounded by garden and lawn and plantations 
of hopeful trees. As Christian approached it he was in a 
perfectly easy state of mind: the business he was going on 
was none of his, otherwise than as he was well satisfied with 
any opportunity of making himself valuable to Mr Philip 
Debarry. As he looked at Jermyn's length of wall and iron 
railing, he said to himself, 'These lawyers are the fellows 
for getting on in the world with the least expense of civility. 
With this cursed conjuring secret of theirs called Law, they 
think everybody's frightened at them. My Lord Jermyn 
seems to have his insolence as ready as his soft sawder. He's 
as sleek as a rat, and has as vicious a tooth. I know the sort 
of vermin well enough. I've helped to fatten one or two.' 
</p>
            <p>In this mood of conscious, contemptuous penetration, 
Christian was shown by the footman into Jermyn's private 
room, where the attorney sat surrounded with massive oaken 
bookcases, and other furniture to correspond, from the 
thickest-legged library-table to the calendar frame and 
card-rack. It was the sort of room a man prepares for himself 
when he feels sure of a long and respectable future. He was 
leaning back in his leather chair, against the broad window 
opening on the lawn, and had just taken off his spectacles 
and let the newspaper fall on his knees, in despair of reading 
by the fading light. 
</p>
            <p>When the footman opened the door and said, 'Mr 
Christian,' Jermyn said, 'Good evening, Mr Christian. Be seated,' 
pointing to a chair opposite himself and the window. 'Light 
the candles on the shelf, John, but leave the blinds alone.' 
</p>
            <p>He did not speak again till the man was gone out, but <pb n="311"/>
appeared to be referring to a document which lay on the 
bureau before him. When the door was closed he drew 
himself up again, began to rub his hands, and turned towards 
his visitor, who seemed perfectly indifferent to the fact that 
the attorney was in shadow, and that the light fell on 
himself. 
'A — your name — a — is Henry Scaddon.' 
</p>
            <p>There was a start through Christian's frame which he was 
quick enough, almost simultaneously, to try and disguise 
as a change of position. He uncrossed his legs and 
unbuttoned his coat. But before he had time to say anything, 
Jermyn went on with slow emphasis. 
</p>
            <p>'You were born on the 16th of December 1782, at 
Blackheath Your father was a cloth-merchant in London: he died 
when you were barely of age, leaving an extensive business; 
before you were five-and-twenty you had run through the 
greater part of the property, and had compromised your 
safety by an attempt to defraud your creditors. 
Subsequently you forged a cheque on your father's elder brother, 
who had intended to make you his heir.' 
</p>
            <p>Here Jermyn paused a moment and referred to the 
document. Christian was silent. 
</p>
            <p>'In 1808 you found it expedient to leave this country in a 
military disguise, and were taken prisoner by the French. 
On the occasion of an exchange of prisoners you had the 
opportunity of returning to your own country, and to the 
bosom of your own family. You were generous enough to 
sacrifice that prospect in favour of a fellow-prisoner, of 
about your own age and figure, who had more pressing 
reasons than yourself for wishing to be on this side of the water. 
You exchanged dress, luggage, and names with him, and 
he passed to England instead of you as Henry Scaddon. 
Almost immediately afterwards you escaped from your 
imprisonment, after feigning an illness which prevented your 
exchange of names from being discovered; and it was 
reported that you — that is, you under the name of your 
fellow-prisoner — were drowned in an open boat, trying to <pb n="312"/>
reach a Neapolitan vessel bound for Malta. Nevertheless I 
have to congratulate you on the falsehood of that report, 
and on the certainty that you are now, after the lapse of 
more than twenty years, seated here in perfect safety.' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn paused so long that he was evidently awaiting 
some answer. At last Christian replied, in a dogged tone — 
</p>
            <p>'Well, sir, I've heard much longer stories than that told 
quite as solemnly, when there was not a word of truth in 
them. Suppose I deny the very peg you hang your statement 
on. Suppose I say I am not Henry Scaddon.' 
</p>
            <p>'A — in that case — a,' said Jermyn, with a wooden 
indifference, 'you would lose the advantage which — a — may attach 
to your possession of Henry Scaddon's knowledge. And at 
the same time, if it were in the least — a — inconvenient to 
you that you should be recognised as Henry Scaddon, your 
denial would not prevent me from holding the knowledge 
and evidence which I possess on that point; it would only 
prevent us from pursuing the present conversation.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, sir, suppose we admit, for the sake of the 
conversation, that your account of the matter is the true one: what 
advantage have you to offer the man named Henry 
Scaddon ?' 
</p>
            <p>'The advantage — a — is problematical; but it may be 
considerable. It might, in fact, release you from the necessity of 
acting as courier, or — a — valet, or whatever other office you 
may occupy which prevents you from being your own 
master. On the other hand, my acquaintance with your secret 
is not necessarily a disadvantage to you. To put the matter 
in a nutshell, I am not inclined — a — gratuitously — to do 
you any harm, and I may be able to do you a considerable 
service.' 
</p>
            <p>'Which you want me to earn somehow?' said Christian. 
'You offer me a turn in a lottery?' 
</p>
            <p>'Precisely. The matter in question is of no earthly interest 
to you, except — a — as it may yield you a prize. We lawyers 
have to do with complicated questions, and — a — legal 
subtleties, which are never — a — fully known even to the <pb n="313"/>
parties immediately interested, still less to the witnesses. 
Shall we agree, then, that you continue to retain two-thirds 
of the name which you gained by exchange, and that you 
oblige me by answering certain questions as to the 
experience of Henry Scaddon?' 
'Very good. Go on.' 
</p>
            <p>'What articles of property, once belonging to your 
fellow-prisoner, Maurice Christian Bycliffe, do you still retain?' 
</p>
            <p>'This ring,' said Christian, twirling round the fine 
seal-ring on his finger, 'his watch, and the little matters that 
hung with it, and a case of papers. I got rid of a gold 
snuff-box once when I was hard-up. The clothes are all gone, of 
course. We exchanged everything; it was all done in a 
hurry. Bycliffe thought we should meet again in England 
before long, and he was mad to get there. But that was 
impossible — I mean that we should meet soon after. I don't 
know what's become of him, else I would give him up his 
papers and the watch, and so on — though, you know, it was 
I who did him the service, and he felt that.' 
</p>
            <p>'You were at Vesoul together before being moved to 
Verdun?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes.' 
</p>
            <p>'What else do you know about Bycliffe?' 
</p>
            <p>'O, nothing very particular,' said Christian, pausing, and 
rapping his boot with his cane. 'He'd been in the 
Hanoverian army — a high-spirited fellow, took nothing easily; 
not overstrong in health. He made a fool of himself with 
marrying at Vesoul; and there was the devil to pay with the 
girl's relations; and then, when the prisoners were ordered 
off, they had to part. Whether they ever got together again 
I don't know.' 
</p>
            <p>'Was the marriage all right, then?' 
</p>
            <p>'O, all on the square — civil marriage, church — 
everything. Bycliffe was a fool — a good-natured, proud, 
head-strong fellow.' 
</p>
            <p>'How long did the marriage take place before you left 
Vesoul?' <pb n="314"/>
'About three months. I was a witness to the marriage.' 
'And you know no more about the wife?' 
</p>
            <p>'Not afterwards. I knew her very well before — pretty 
Annette — Annette Ledru was her name. She was of a good 
family, and they had made up a fine match for her. But she 
was one of your meek little diablesses, who have a will of 
their own once in their lives — the will to choose their own 
master.' 
</p>
            <p>'Bycliffe was not open to you about his other affairs7' 
</p>
            <p>'O no — a fellow you wouldn't dare to ask a question of. 
People told him everything, but he told nothing in return. If 
Madame Annette ever found him again, she found her lord 
and master with a vengeance; but she was a regular lapdog. 
However, her family shut her up — made a prisoner of her — 
to prevent her running away.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah — good. Much of what you have been so obliging as to 
say is irrelevant to any possible purpose of mine, which, in 
fact, has to do only with a mouldy law-case that might be 
aired some day. You will doubtless, on your own account, 
maintain perfect silence on what has passed between us, and 
with that condition duly preserved — a — it is possible that — 
a — the lottery you have put into — as you observe — may turn 
up a prize.' 
</p>
            <p>'This, then, is all the business you have with me?' said 
Christian, rising. 
</p>
            <p>'All. You will, of course, preserve carefully all the papers 
and other articles which have so many — a — recollections — a 
— attached to them?' 
</p>
            <p>'O yes. If there's any chance of Bycliffe turning up again, 
I shall be sorry to have parted with the snuff-box; but I was 
hard-up at Naples. In fact, as you see, I was obliged at last to 
turn courier.' 
</p>
            <p>'An exceedingly agreeable life for a man of some — a — 
accomplishments and — a — no income,' said Jermyn, 
rising, and reaching a candle, which he placed against his 
desk. 
</p>
            <p>Christian knew this was a sign that he was expected to go, <pb n="315"/>
but he lingered standing, with one hand on the back of his 
chair. At last he said, rather sulkily — 
</p>
            <p>'I think you're too clever, Mr Jermyn, not to perceive that 
I'm not a man to be made a fool of.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well — a — it may perhaps be a still better guarantee for 
you,' said Jermyn, smiling, 'that I see no use in attempting 
that — a — metamorphosis.' 
</p>
            <p>The old gentleman, who ought never to have felt himself 
injured, is dead now, and I'm not afraid of creditors after 
more than twenty years.' 
</p>
            <p>'Certainly not; — a — there may indeed be claims which 
can't assert themselves — a — legally, which yet are molesting 
to a man of some reputation. But you may perhaps be 
happily free from such fears.' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn drew round his chair towards the bureau, and 
Christian, too acute to persevere uselessly, said, 'Good-day,' 
and left the room. 
</p>
            <p>After leaning back in his chair to reflect a few minutes, 
Jermyn wrote the following letter: 
</p>
            <p>Dear Johnson, — I learn from your letter, received this 
morning, that you intend returning to town on Saturday. 
</p>
            <p>While you are there, be so good as to see Medwin, who used 
to be with Batt &amp; Cowley, and ascertain from him indirectly, 
and in the course of conversation on other topics, whether in 
that old business in 1810-11, Scaddon alias Bycliffe, or Bycliffe 
alias Scaddon, before his imprisonment, gave Batt &amp; Cowley 
any reason to believe that he was married and expected to have 
a child. The question, as you know, is of no practical importance; 
but I wish to draw up an abstract of the Bycliffe case, and the 
exact position in which it stood before the suit was closed by the 
death of the plaintiiff, in order that, if Mr Harold Transome 
desires it, he may see how the failure of the last claim has secured 
the Durfey-Transome title, and whether there is a hair's-breadth 
of a chance that another claim should be set up. 
</p>
            <p>Of course there is not a shadow of such a chance. For even if 
Batt &amp; Cowley were to suppose that they had alighted on a 
surviving representative of the Bycliffes, it would not enter into 
their heads to set up a new claim, since they brought evidence <pb n="316"/>
that the last life which suspended the Bycliffe remainder was 
extinct before the case was closed, a good twenty years ago. 
</p>
            <p>Still, I want to show the present heir of the Durfey-Transomes 
the exact condition of the family title to the estates. So get me 
an answer from Medwin on the above-mentioned point. 
</p>
            <p>I shall meet you at Duffield next week. We must get Transome 
returned. Never mind his having been a little rough the other 
day, but go on doing what you know is necessary for his interest. 
His interest is mine, which I need not say is John Johnson's. — 
Yours faithfully, 
MATTIEW JERMYN. 
</p>
            <p>When the attorney had sealed this letter and leaned back 
in his chair again, he was inwardly saying — 
</p>
            <p>'Now, Mr Harold, I shall shut up this affair in a private 
drawer till you choose to take any extreme measures which 
will force me to bring it out. I have the matter entirely in my 
own power. No one but old Lyon knows about the girl's 
birth. No one but Scaddon can clinch the evidence about 
Bycliffe, and I've got Scaddon under my thumb. No soul 
except myself and Johnson, who is a limb of myself, knows 
that there is one half-dead life which may presently leave 
the girl a new claim to the Bycliffe heirship. I shall learn 
through Methurst whether Batt &amp; Cowley knew, through 
Bycliffe, of this woman having come to England. I shall hold 
all the threads between my thumb and finger. I can use the 
evidence or I can nullify it. 
</p>
            <p>'And so, if Mr Harold pushes me to extremity, and 
threatens me with Chancery and ruin, I have an opposing 
threat, which will either save me or turn into a punishment 
for him.' 
</p>
            <p>He rose, put out his candles, and stood with his back to the 
fire, looking out on the dim lawn, with its black twilight 
fringe of shrubs, still meditating. Quick thought was 
gleaming over five-and-thirty years filled with devices more or less 
clever, more or less desirable to be avowed. Those which 
might be avowed with impunity were not always to be 
distinguished as innocent by comparison with those which it <pb n="317"/>
was advisable to conceal. In a profession where much that 
is noxious may be done without disgrace, is a conscience 
likely to be without balm when circumstances have urged 
a man to overstep the line where his good technical 
information makes him aware that (with discovery) disgrace is 
likely to begin? 
</p>
            <p>With regard to the Transome affairs, the family had been 
in pressing need of money, and it had lain with him to get it 
for them: was it to be expected that he would not consider 
his own advantage where he had rendered services such as 
are never fully paid? If it came to a question of right and 
wrong instead of law, the least justifiable things he had ever 
done had been done on behalf of the Transomes. It had 
been a deucedly unpleasant thing for him to get Bycliffe 
arrested and thrown into prison as Henry Scaddon — perhaps 
hastening the man's death in that way. But if it had not been 
done by dint of his (Jermyn's) exertions and tact, he would 
like to know where the Durfey-Transomes might have been 
by this time. As for right or wrong, if the truth were known, 
the very possession of the estate by the Durfey-Transomes 
was owing to law-tricks that took place nearly a century ago, 
when the original old Durfey got his base fee. 
</p>
            <p>But inward argument of this sort now, as always, was 
merged in anger, in exasperation, that Harold, precisely 
Harold Transome should have turned out to be the probable 
instrument of a visitation which would be bad luck, not 
justice; for is there any justice where ninety-nine out of a 
hundred escape? He felt himself beginning to hate Harold 
as he had never — 
</p>
            <p>Just then Jermyn's third daughter, a tall slim girl wrapped 
in a white woollen shawl, which she had hung over her 
blanketwise, skipped across the lawn towards the greenhouse 
to get a flower. Jermyn was startled, and did not identify the 
figure, or rather he identified it falsely with another tall 
white-wrapped figure which had sometimes set his heart 
beating quickly more than thirty years before. For a moment 
he was fully back in those distant years when he and another <pb n="318"/>
bright-eyed person had seen no reason why they should not 
indulge their passion and their vanity, and determine for 
themselves how their lives should be made delightful in 
spite of unalterable external conditions. The reasons had 
been unfolding themselves gradually ever since through all 
the years which had converted the handsome, soft-eyed, 
slim young Jermyn (with a touch of sentiment) into a portly 
lawyer of sixty, for whom life had resolved itself into the 
means of keeping up his head among his professional 
brethren and maintaining an establishment — into a 
grey-haired husband and father, whose third affectionate and 
expensive daughter now rapped at the window and called to 
him, 'Papa, papa, get ready for dinner; don't you remember 
the Lukyns are coming?' 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c22" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 22</head>
            <pb n="319"/>
            <q>
               <l>Her gentle looks shot arrows, piercing him </l>
               <l>As gods are pierced, with poison of sweet pity. </l>
            </q>
            <p>THE evening of the market-day had passed, and Felix had 
not looked in at Malthouse Yard to talk over the public 
events with Mr Lyon. When Esther was dressing the next 
morning, she had reached a point of irritated anxiety to see 
Felix, at which she found herself devising little schemes for 
attaining that end in some way that would be so elaborate as 
to seem perfectly natural. Her watch had a long-standing 
ailment of losing; possibly it wanted cleaning; Felix would 
tell her if it merely wanted regulating, whereas Mr Prowd 
might detain it unnecessarily, and cause her useless 
inconvenience. Or could she not get a valuable hint from Mrs Holt 
about the home-made bread, which was something as 'sad' 
as Lyddy herself? Or, if she came home that way at twelve 
o'clock, Felix might be going out, she might meet him, and 
not be obliged to call. Or — but it would be very much 
beneath her to take any steps of this sort. Her watch had been 
losing for the last two months — why should it not go on 
losing a little longer? She could think of no devices that were 
not so transparent as to be undignified. All the more 
undignified because Felix chose to live in a way that would prevent 
any one from classing him according to his education and 
mental refinement — 'which certainly are very high', said 
Esther inwardly, colouring, as if in answer to some contrary 
allegation, 'else I should not think his opinion of any 
consequence'. But she came to the conclusion that she could not 
possibly call at Mrs Holt's. 
</p>
            <p>It followed that up to a few minutes past twelve, when she 
reached the turning towards Mrs Holt's, she believed that 
she should go home the other way; but at the last moment 
there is always a reason not existing before — namely, the 
impossibility of further vacillation. Esther turned the corner 
without any visible pause, and in another minute was knocking <pb n="320"/>
at Mrs Holt's door, not without an inward flutter, which 
she was bent on disguising. 
</p>
            <p>'It's never you, Miss Lyon! who'd have thought of seeing 
you at this time? Is the minister ill? I thought he looked 
creechy. If you want help, I'll put my bonnet on.' 
</p>
            <p>'Don't keep Miss Lyon at the door, mother; ask her to 
come in,' said the ringing voice of Felix, surmounting various 
small shufflings and babbling voices within. 
</p>
            <p>'It's my wish for her to come in, I'm sure,' said Mrs Holt, 
making way; 'but what is there for her to come in to? a floor 
worse than any public. But step in, pray, if you're so inclined. 
When I've been forced to take my bit of carpet up, and have 
benches, I don't see why I need mind nothing no more.' 
</p>
            <p>'I only came to ask Mr Holt if he would look at my watch 
for me,' said Esther, entering, and blushing a general 
rose-colour. 
</p>
            <p>'He'll do that fast enough,' said Mrs Holt, with emphasis; 
'that's one of the things he will do.' 
</p>
            <p>'Excuse my rising, Miss Lyon,' said Felix; 'I'm binding up 
Job's finger.' 
</p>
            <p>Job was a small fellow about five, with a germinal nose, 
large round blue eyes, and red hair that curled close to his 
head like the wool on the back of an infantine lamb. He had 
evidently been crying, and the corners of his mouth were still 
dolorous. Felix held him on his knee as he bound and tied up 
very cleverly a tiny forefinger. There was a table in front of 
Felix and against the window, covered with his watchmaking 
implements and some open books. Two benches stood at 
right angles on the sanded floor, and six or seven boys of 
various ages up to twelve were getting their caps and 
preparing to go home. They huddled themselves together and 
stood still when Esther entered. Felix could not look up till 
he had finished his surgery, but he went on speaking. 
</p>
            <p>'This is a hero, Miss Lyon. This is Job Tudge, a bold 
Briton whose finger hurts him, but who doesn't mean to cry. 
Good morning, boys. Don't lose your time. Get out into the 
air.' <pb n="321"/>
            </p>
            <p>Esther seated herself on the end of the bench near Felix, 
much relieved that Job was the immediate object of 
attention; and the other boys rushed out behind her with a brief 
chant of 'Good morning!' 
</p>
            <p>'Did you ever see,' said Mrs Holt, standing to look on, 
'how wonderful Felix is at that small work with his large 
fingers? And that's because he learnt doctoring. It isn't for 
want of cleverness he looks like a poor man, Miss Lyon. I've 
left off speaking, else I should say it's a sin and a shame.' 
</p>
            <p>'Mother,' said Felix, who often amused himself and kept 
good-humoured by giving his mother answers that were 
unintelligible to her, 'you have an astonishing readiness in the 
Ciceronian antiphrasis, considering you have never studied 
oratory. There, Job — thou patient man — sit still if thou wilt; 
and now we can look at Miss Lyon.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther had taken off her watch and was holding it in her 
hand. But he looked at her face, or rather at her eyes, as he 
said, 'You want me to doctor your watch?' 
</p>
            <p>Esther's expression was appealing and timid, as it had 
never been before in Felix's presence; but when she saw the 
perfect calmness, which to her seemed coldness, of his clear 
grey eyes, as if he saw no reason for attaching any emphasis 
to this first meeting, a pang swift as an electric shock darted 
through her. She had been very foolish to think so much of 
it. It seemed to her as if her inferiority to Felix made a great 
gulf between them. She could not at once rally her pride and 
self-command, but let her glance fall on her watch, and said, 
rather tremulously, 'It loses. It is very troublesome. It has 
been losing a long while.' 
</p>
            <p>Felix took the watch from her hand; then, looking round 
and seeing that his mother was gone out of the room, he 
said, very gently — 
</p>
            <p>'You look distressed, Miss Lyon. I hope there is no trouble 
at home' (Felix was thinking of the minister's agitation on 
the previous Sunday). 'But I ought perhaps to beg your 
pardon for saying so much.' 
</p>
            <p>Poor Esther was quite helpless. The mortification which <pb n="322"/>
had come like a bruise to all the sensibilities that had been in 
keen activity, insisted on some relief. Her eyes filled 
instantly, and a great tear rolled down while she said in a loud 
sort of whisper, as involuntary as her tears — 
</p>
            <p>'I wanted to tell you that I was not offended — that I am 
not ungenerous — I thought you might think — but you have 
not thought of it.' 
</p>
            <p>Was there ever more awkward speaking? — or any 
behaviour less like that of the graceful, self-possessed Miss 
Lyon, whose phrases were usually so well turned, and whose 
repartees were so ready? 
</p>
            <p>For a moment there was silence. Esther had her two little 
delicately-gloved hands clasped on the table. The next 
moment she felt one hand of Felix covering them both and 
pressing them firmly; but he did not speak. The tears were 
both on her cheeks now, and she could look up at him. His 
eyes had an expression of sadness in them, quite new to her. 
Suddenly little Job, who had his mental exercises on the 
occasion, called out, impatiently — 
</p>
            <p>'She's tut her finger!' 
</p>
            <p>Felix and Esther laughed, and drew their hands away; and 
as Esther took her handkerchief to wipe the tears from her 
cheeks, she said — 
</p>
            <p>'You see, Job, I am a naughty coward I can't help crying 
when I've hurt myself.' 
</p>
            <p>'Zoo soodn't kuy,' said Job, energetically, being much 
impressed with a moral doctrine which had come to him 
after a sufficient transgression of it. 
</p>
            <p>'Job is like me,' said Felix, 'fonder of preaching than of 
practice. But let us look at this same watch,' he went on, 
opening and examining it. 'These little Geneva toys are 
cleverly constructed to go always a little wrong. But if you 
wind them up and set them regularly every night, you may 
know at least that it's not noon when the hand points there.' 
</p>
            <p>Felix chatted, that Esther might recover herself; but now 
Mrs Holt came back and apologised. 
</p>
            <p>'You'll excuse my going away, I know, Miss Lyon. But <pb n="323"/>
there were the dumplings to see to, and what little I've got 
left on my hands now, I like to do well. Not but what I've 
more cleaning to do than ever I had in my life before, as you 
may tell soon enough if you look at this floor. But when 
you've been used to doing things, and they've been taken 
away from you, it's as if your hands had been cut off, and 
you felt the fingers as are of no use to you.' 
</p>
            <p>'That's a great image, mother,' said Felix, as he snapped 
the watch together, and handed it to Esther: 'I never heard 
you use such an image before.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, I know you've always some fault to find with what 
your mother says. But if ever there was a woman could talk 
with the open Bible before her, and not be afraid, it's me. I 
never did tell stories, and I never will — though I know it's 
done, Miss Lyon, and by church members too, when they 
have candles to sell, as I could bring you the proof. But I 
never was one of 'em, let Felix say what he will about the 
printing on the tickets. His father believed it was gospel 
truth, and it's presumptious to say it wasn't. For as for 
curing, how can anybody know? There's no physic'll cure 
without a blessing, and with a blessing I know I've seen a mustard 
plaister work when there was no more smell nor strength in 
the mustard than so much flour. And reason good — for the 
mustard had laid in paper nobody knows how long — so I'll 
leave you to guess.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Holt looked hard out of the window and gave a slight 
inarticulate sound of scorn. 
</p>
            <p>Felix had leaned back in his chair with a resigned smile, 
and was pinching Job's ears. 
</p>
            <p>Esther said, 'I think I had better go now,' not knowing 
what else to say, yet not wishing to go immediately, lest she 
should seem to be running away from Mrs Holt. She felt 
keenly how much endurance there must be for Felix. And 
she had often been discontented with her father, and called 
him tiresome! 
</p>
            <p>'Where does Job Tudge live?' she said, still sitting, and 
looking at the droll little figure, set off by a ragged jacket <pb n="324"/>
with a tail about two inches deep sticking out above the 
funniest of corduroys. 
</p>
            <p>'Job has two mansions,' said Felix. 'He lives here chiefly; 
but he has another home, where his grandfather, Mr Tudge 
the stone-breaker, lives. My mother is very good to Job, Miss 
Lyon. She has made him a little bed in a cupboard, and she 
gives him sweetened porridge.' 
</p>
            <p>The exquisite goodness implied in these words of Felix 
impressed Esther the more, because in her hearing his talk 
had usually been pungent and denunciatory. Looking at 
Mrs Holt, she saw that her eyes had lost their bleak 
north-easterly expression, and were shining with some mildness on 
little Job, who had turned round towards her, propping his 
head against Felix. 
</p>
            <p>'Well, why shouldn't I be motherly to the child, Miss 
Lyon?' said Mrs Holt, whose strong powers of argument 
required the file of an imagined contradiction, if there were no 
real one at hand. 'I never was hard-hearted, and I never will 
be. It was Felix picked the child up and took to him, you may 
be sure, for there's nobody else master where he is; but I 
wasn't going to beat the orphin child and abuse him because 
of that, and him as straight as an arrow when he's stript, 
and me so fond of children, and only had one of my own to 
live. I'd three babies, Miss Lyon, but the blessed Lord only 
spared Felix, and him the masterfullest and the brownest of 
'em all. But I did my duty by him, and I said, he'll have 
more schooling than his father, and he'll grow up a doctor, 
and marry a woman with money to furnish — as I was myself, 
spoons and everything — and I shall have the grandchildren 
to look up to me, and be drove out in the gig sometimes, 
like old Mrs Lukyn. And you see what it's all come to, Miss 
Lyon: here's Felix made a common man of himself, and says 
he'll never be married — which is the most unreasonable 
thing, and him never easy but when he's got the child on his 
lap, or when —' 
</p>
            <p>'Stop, stop, mother,' Felix burst in; 'pray don't use that 
limping argument again — that a man should marry because <pb n="325"/>
he's fond of children. That's a reason for not marrying. A 
bachelor's children are always young: they're immortal 
children — always lisping, waddling, helpless, and with a 
chance of turning out good.' 
</p>
            <p>'The Lord above may know what you mean! And haven't 
other folk's children a chance of turning out good?' 
</p>
            <p>'O, they grow out of it very fast. Here's Job Tudge now,' 
said Felix, turning the little one round on his knee, and 
holding his head by the back — 'Job's limbs will get lanky; this 
little fist, that looks like a puff-ball, and can hide nothing 
bigger than a gooseberry, will get large and bony, and 
perhaps want to clutch more than its share; these wide blue eyes 
that tell me more truth than Job knows, will narrow and 
narrow and try to hide truth that Job would be better 
without knowing; this little negative nose will become long and 
self-asserting; and this little tongue — put out thy tongue, 
Job' — Job, awe-struck under this ceremony, put out a little 
red tongue very timidly — 'this tongue, hardly bigger than 
a rose-leaf, will get large and thick, wag out of season, do 
mischief, brag and cant for gain or vanity, and cut as cruelly, 
for all its clumsiness as if it were a sharp-edge blade. Big 
Job will perhaps be naughty —' As Felix, speaking with the 
loud emphatic distinctness habitual to him, brought out this 
terribly familiar word, Job's sense of mystification became 
too painful: he hung his lip, and began to cry. 
</p>
            <p>'See there,' said Mrs Holt, 'you're frightening the innicent 
child with such talk — and it's enough to frighten them that 
think themselves the safest.' 
</p>
            <p>'Look here, Job, my man,' said Felix, setting the boy down 
and turning him towards Esther; 'go to Miss Lyon, ask her 
to smile at you, and that will dry up your tears like the 
sunshine.' 
</p>
            <p>Job put his two brown fists on Esther's lap, and she stooped 
to kiss him. Then holding his face between her hands, she 
said, 'Tell Mr Holt we don't mean to be naughty, Job. 
He should believe in us more. But now I must really go 
home.' <pb n="326"/>
            </p>
            <p>Esther rose and held out her hand to Mrs Holt who kept it 
while she said, a little to Esther's confusion — 
</p>
            <p>'I'm very glad it's took your fancy to come here 
sometimes, Miss Lyon. I know you're thought to hold your head 
high, but I speak of people as I find 'em. And I'm sure 
anybody had need be humble that comes where there's a floor 
like this — for I've put by my best tea-trays, they're so out 
of all charicter — I must look Above for comfort now; but I 
don't say I'm not worthy to be called on for all that.' 
</p>
            <p>Felix had risen and moved towards the door that he might 
open it and shield Esther from more last words on his 
mother's part. 
</p>
            <p>'Good-bye, Mr Holt.' 
</p>
            <p>'Will Mr Lyon like me to sit with him an hour this 
evening, do you think?' 
</p>
            <p>'Why not? He always likes to see you.' 
</p>
            <p>'Then I will come. Good-bye.' 
</p>
            <p>'She's a very straight figure,' said Mrs Holt. 'How she 
carries herself! But I doubt there's some truth in what our 
people say. If she won't look at young Muscat, it's the better 
for him. He'd need have a big fortune that marries her.' 
</p>
            <p>'That's true, mother,' said Felix, sitting down, snatching 
up little Job, and finding a vent for some unspeakable feeling 
in the pretence of worrying him. 
</p>
            <p>Esther was rather melancholy as she went home, yet 
happier withal than she had been for many days before. She 
thought, 'I need not mind having shown so much anxiety 
about his opinion. He is too clear-sighted to mistake our 
mutual position; he is quite above putting a false 
interpretation on what I have done. Besides, he had not thought of me 
at all — I saw that plainly enough. Yet he was very kind. 
There is something greater and better in him than I had 
imagined. His behaviour to-day — to his mother and me too 
— I should call it the highest gentlemanliness, only it seems in 
him to be something deeper. But he has chosen an 
intolerable life; though I suppose, if I had a mind equal to his, and 
if he loved me very dearly, I should choose the same life.' <pb n="327"/>
            </p>
            <p>Esther felt that she had prefixed an impossible 'if' to that 
result. But now she had known Felix, her conception of what 
a happy love must be had become like a dissolving view, in 
which the once-clear images were gradually melting into 
new forms and new colours. The favourite Byronic heroes 
were beginning to look something like last night's 
decorations seen in the sober dawn. So fast does a little leaven 
spread within us — so incalculable is the effect of one 
personality on another. Behind all Esther's thoughts, like an 
unacknowledged yet constraining presence, there was the 
sense, that if Felix Holt were to love her, her life would be 
exalted into something quite new — into a sort of difficult 
blessedness, such as one may imagine in beings who are 
conscious of painfully growing into the possession of higher 
powers. 
</p>
            <p>It was quite true that Felix had not thought the more of 
Esther because of that Sunday afternoon's interview which 
had shaken her mind to the very roots. He had avoided 
intruding on Mr Lyon without special reason, because he 
believed the minister to be preoccupied with some private 
care. He had thought a great deal of Esther with a mixture 
of strong disapproval and strong liking, which both together 
made a feeling the reverse of indifference; but he was not 
going to let her have any influence on his life. Even if his 
determination had not been fixed, he would have believed 
that she would utterly scorn him in any other light than 
that of an acquaintance, and the emotion she had shown 
to-day did not change that belief. But he was deeply touched 
by this manifestation of her better qualities, and felt that 
there was a new tie of friendship between them. That was 
the brief history Felix would have given of his relation to 
Esther. And he was accustomed to observe himself. But 
very close and diligent looking at living creatures, even 
through the best microscope, will leave room for new and 
contradictory discoveries. 
</p>
            <p>Felix found Mr Lyon particularly glad to talk to him. The 
minister had never yet disburthened himself about his letter <pb n="328"/>
to Mr Philip Debarry concerning the public conference; and 
as by this time he had all the heads of his discussion 
thoroughly in his mind, it was agreeable to recite them, as 
well as to express his regret that time had been lost by Mr 
Debarry's absence from the Manor, which had prevented the 
immediate fulfilment of his pledge. 
</p>
            <p>'I don't see how he can fulfil it if the rector refuses,' said 
Felix, thinking it well to moderate the little man's 
confidence. 
</p>
            <p>'The rector is of a spirit that will not incur earthly 
impeachment, and he cannot refuse what is necessary to his 
nephew's honourable discharge of an obligation,' said Mr 
Lyon. 'My young friend, it is a case wherein the prearranged 
conditions tend by such a beautiful fitness to the issue I 
have sought, that I should have for ever held myself a traitor 
to my charge had I neglected the indication.' 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c23" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 23</head>
            <pb n="329"/>
            <q>
               <p>'I will not excuse you; you shall not be excused; excuses shall 
not be admitted; there's no excuse shall serve; you shall not be 
excused.' — Henry IV. 
</p>
            </q>
            <p>WHEN Philip Debarry had come home that morning and 
read the letters which had not been forwarded to him, he 
laughed so heartily at Mr Lyon's that he congratulated 
himself on being in his private room. Otherwise his laughter 
would have awakened the curiosity of Sir Maximus, and 
Philip did not wish to tell any one the contents of the letter 
until he had shown them to his uncle. He determined to 
ride over to the rectory to lunch; for as Lady Mary was away, 
he and his uncle might be tete-a-tete. 
</p>
            <p>The rectory was on the other side of the river, close to the 
church of which it was the fitting companion: a fine old 
brick-and-stone house, with a great bow-window opening 
from the library on to the deep-turfed lawn, one fat dog 
sleeping on the door-stone, another fat dog waddling on the 
gravel, the autumn leaves duly swept away, the lingering 
chrysanthemums cherished, tall trees stooping or soaring in 
the most picturesque variety, and a Virginian creeper 
turning a little rustic hut into a scarlet pavilion. It was one of 
those rectories which are among the bulwarks of our 
venerable institutions — which arrest disintegrating doubt, serve 
as a double embankment against Popery and Dissent, and 
rally feminine instinct and affection to reinforce the 
decisions of masculine thought. 
</p>
            <p>'What makes you look so merry, Phil?' said the rector, as 
his nephew entered the pleasant library. 
</p>
            <p>'Something that concerns you,' said Philip, taking out the 
letter. 'A clerical challenge. Here's an opportunity for you 
to emulate the divines of the sixteenth century and have a 
theological duel. Read this letter.' 
</p>
            <p>'What answer have you sent the crazy little fellow?' said 
the rector, keeping the letter in his hand and running over <pb n="330"/>
it again and again, with brow knit, but eyes gleaming 
without any malignity. 
'O, I sent no answer. I awaited yours.' 
</p>
            <p>'Mine!' said the rector, throwing down the letter on the 
table. 'You don't suppose I'm going to hold a public debate 
with a schismatic of that sort? I should have an infidel 
shoe-maker next expecting me to answer blasphemies delivered in 
bad grammar.' 
</p>
            <p>'But you see how he puts it,' said Philip. With all his 
gravity of nature he could not resist a slightly michievous 
prompting, though he had a serious feeling that he should 
not like to be regarded as failing to fulfil his pledge. 'I think 
if you refuse, I shall be obliged to offer myself.' 
</p>
            <p>'Nonsense! Tell him he is himself acting a dishonourable 
part in interpreting your words as a pledge to do any 
preposterous thing that suits his fancy. Suppose he had asked 
you to give him land to build a chapel on; doubtless that 
would have given him a “lively satisfaction.” A man who 
puts a non-natural strained sense on a promise is no better 
than a robber.' 
</p>
            <p>'But he has not asked for land. I daresay he thinks you 
won't object to his proposal. I confess there's a simplicity and 
quaintness about the letter that rather pleases me.' 
</p>
            <p>'Let me tell you, Phil, he's a crazy little firefly, that does a 
great deal of harm in my parish. He inflames the Dissenters' 
minds on politics. There's no end to the mischief done by 
these busy prating men. They make the ignorant multitude 
the judges of the largest questions, both political and 
religious, till we shall soon have no institution left that is not on 
a level with the comprehension of a huckster or a drayman. 
There can be nothing more retrograde — losing all the results 
of civilisation, all the lessons of Providence — letting the 
windlass run down after men have been turning at it 
painfully for generations. If the instructed are not to judge for 
the uninstructed, why, let us set Dick Stubbs to make our 
almanacs, and have a President of the Royal Society elected 
by universal suffrage.' <pb n="331"/>
            </p>
            <p>The rector had risen, placed himself with his back to the 
fire, and thrust his hands in his pockets, ready to insist 
further on this wide argument. Philip sat nursing one leg, 
listening respectfully, as he always did, though often 
listening to the sonorous echo of his own statements, which suited 
his uncle's needs so exactly that he did not distinguish them 
from his old impressions. 
</p>
            <p>'True,' said Philip, 'but in special cases we have to do with 
special conditions. You know I defend the casuists. And 
it may happen that, for the honour of the church in Treby 
and a little also for my honour, circumstances may 
demand a concession even to some notions of a dissenting 
preacher.' 
</p>
            <p>'Not at all. I should be making a figure which my brother 
clergy might well take as an affront to themselves. The 
character of the establishment has suffered enough already 
through the Evangelicals, with their extempore incoherence 
and their pipe-smoking piety. Look at Wimple, the man who 
is vicar of Shuttleton — without his gown and bands, 
anybody would take him for a grocer in mourning.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, I shall cut a still worse figure, and so will you, in the 
dissenting magazines and newspapers. It will go the round of 
the kingdom. There will be a paragraph headed, “Tory 
Falsehood and Clerical Cowardice,” or else “The Meanness 
of the Aristocracy and the Incompetence of the Beneficed 
Clergy.” ' 
</p>
            <p>'There would be a worse paragraph if I were to consent to 
the debate. Of course it would be said that I was beaten 
hollow, and that now the question had been cleared up at 
Treby Magna, the church had not a sound leg to stand on. 
Besides,' the rector went on, frowning and smiling, 'it's all 
very well for you to talk, Phil, but this debating is not so 
easy when a man's close upon sixty. What one writes or says 
must be something good and scholarly; and after all had 
been done, this little Lyon would buzz about one like a 
wasp, and cross-question and rejoin. Let me tell you, a plain 
truth may be so worried and mauled by fallacies as to get <pb n="332"/>
the worst of it. There's no such thing as tiring a talking 
machine like Lyon.' 
'Then you absolutely refuse?' 
'Yes, I do.' 
</p>
            <p>'You remember that when I wrote my letter of thanks to 
Lyon you approved my offer to serve him if possible.' 
</p>
            <p>'Certainly I remember it. But suppose he had asked you 
to vote for civil marriage, or to go and hear him preach 
every Sunday?' 
</p>
            <p>'But he has not asked that.' 
</p>
            <p>'Something as unreasonable, though.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well,' said Philip, taking up Mr Lyon's letter and looking 
graver — looking even vexed, 'it is rather an unpleasant 
business for me. I really felt obliged to him. I think there's a sort 
of worth in the man beyond his class. Whatever may be the 
reason of the case, I shall disappoint him instead of doing 
him the service I offered.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, that's a misfortune; we can't help it.' 
</p>
            <p>'The worst of it is, I should be insulting him to say, “I will 
do anything else, but not just this that you want.” He 
evidently feels himself in company with Luther and Zwingli 
and Calvin and considers our letters part of the history of 
Protestantism.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, yes. I know it's rather an unpleasant thing, Phil. 
You are aware that I would have done anything in reason to 
prevent you from becoming unpopular here. I consider your 
character a possession to all of us.' 
</p>
            <p>'I think I must call on him forthwith, and explain and 
apologise.' 
</p>
            <p>'No, sit still; I've thought of something,' said the rector, 
with a sudden revival of spirits. 'I've just seen Sherlock 
coming in. He is to lunch with me to-day. It would do no 
harm for him to hold the debate — a curate and a young man 
— he'll gain by it; and it would release you from any 
awkwardness, Phil. Sherlock is not going to stay here long, you 
know; he'll soon have his title. I'll put the thing to him. He 
won't object if I wish it. It's a capital idea. It will do <pb n="333"/>
Sherlock good. He's a clever fellow, but he wants 
confidence.' 
</p>
            <p>Philip had not time to object before Mr Sherlock 
appeared — a young divine of good birth and figure, of sallow 
complexion and bashful address. 
</p>
            <p>'Sherlock, you have came in most opportunely,' said the 
rector. 'A case has turned up in the parish in which you can 
be of eminent use. I know that is what you have desired ever 
since you have been with me. But I'm about so much myself 
that there really has not been sphere enough for you. You 
are a studious man, I know; I daresay you have all the 
necessary matter prepared — at your finger-ends, if not on paper.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Sherlock smiled with rather a trembling lip, willing to 
distinguish himself, but hoping that the rector only alluded 
to a dialogue on baptism by aspersion, or some other 
pamphlet suited to the purposes of the Christian Knowledge 
Society. But as the rector proceeded to unfold the 
circumstances under which his eminent service was to be rendered, 
he grew more and more nervous. 
</p>
            <p>'You'll oblige me very much, Sherlock,' the rector ended, 
'by going into this thing zealously. Can you guess what time 
you will require? because it will rest with us to fix the day.' 
</p>
            <p>'I should be rejoiced to oblige you, Mr Debarry, but I 
really think I am not competent to —' 
</p>
            <p>'That's your modesty, Sherlock. Don't let me hear any 
more of that. I know Filmore of Corpus said you might be a 
first-rate man if your diffidence didn't do you injustice. And 
you can refer anything to me, you know. Come, you will set 
about the thing at once. But, Phil, you must tell the preacher 
to send a scheme of the debate — all the different heads — 
and he must agree to keep rigidly within the scheme. There, 
sit down at my desk and write the letter now; Thomas shall 
carry it.' 
</p>
            <p>Philip sat down to write, and the rector, with his firm 
ringing voice, went on at his ease, giving 'indications' to his 
agitated curate. 
</p>
            <p>'But you can begin at once preparing a good, cogent, clear <pb n="334"/>
statement, and considering the probable points of assault. 
You can look into Jewel, Hall, Hooker, Whitgift, and the 
rest: you'll find them all here. My library wants nothing 
in English divinity. Sketch the lower ground taken by Usher 
and those men, but bring all your force to bear on marking 
out the true High-Church doctrine. Expose the wretched 
cavils of the Nonconformists, and the noisy futility that 
belongs to schismatics generally. I will give you a telling 
passage from Burke on the Dissenters, and some good 
quotations which I brought together in two sermons of my 
own on the Position of the English Church in Christendom. 
How long do you think it will take you to bring your 
thoughts together? You can throw them afterwards into the 
form of an essay; we'll have the thing printed; it will do you 
good with the bishop.' 
</p>
            <p>With all Mr Sherlock's timidity, there was fascination for 
him in this distinction. He reflected that he could take coffee 
and sit up late, and perhaps produce something rather fine. 
It might be a first step towards that eminence which it was no 
more than his duty to aspire to. Even a polemical fame 
like that of a Philpotts must have had a beginning. Mr 
Sherlock was not insensible to the pleasure of turning 
sentences successfully, and it was a pleasure not always 
unconnected with preferment. A diffident man likes the idea of 
doing something remarkable, which will create belief in him 
without any immediate display of brilliancy. Celebrity may 
blush and be silent, and win a grace the more. Thus Mr 
Sherlock was constrained, trembling all the while, and much 
wishing that his essay were already in print. 
</p>
            <p>'I think I could hardly be ready under a fortnight.' 
</p>
            <p>'Very good. Just write that, Phil, and tell him to fix the 
precise day and place. And then we'll go to lunch.' 
</p>
            <p>The rector was quite satisfied. He had talked himself into 
thinking that he should like to give Sherlock a few useful 
hints, look up his own earlier sermons, and benefit the curate 
by his criticism, when the argument had been got into 
shape. He was a healthy-natured man, but that was not at all <pb n="335"/>
a reason why he should not have those sensibilities to the 
odour of authorship which belong to almost everybody who 
is not expected to be a writer — and especially to that form 
of authorship which is called suggestion, and consists in 
telling another man that he might do a great deal with a 
given subject, by bringing a sufficient amount of 
knowledge, reasoning, and wit to bear upon it. 
</p>
            <p>Philip would have had some twinges of conscience about 
the curate, if he had not guessed that the honour thrust 
upon him was not altogether disagreeable. The church 
might perhaps have had a stronger supporter; but for 
himself, he had done what he was bound to do: he had done his 
best towards fulfilling Mr Lyon's desire. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c24" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 24</head>
            <pb n="336"/>
            <q>
               <l>'If he come not, the play is marred.' — Midsummer Night's Dream </l>
            </q>
            <p>RUFUS LYON was very happy on that mild November 
morning appointed for the great conference in the larger 
room at the Free School, between himself and the Rev. 
Theodore Sherlock, B.A. The disappointment of not 
contending with the rector in person, which had at first been 
bitter, had been gradually lost sight of in the positive 
enjoyment of an opportunity for debating on any terms. Mr Lyon 
had two grand elements of pleasure on such occasions: 
confidence in the strength of his case, and confidence in his 
own power of advocacy. Not — to use his own phrase — not 
that he 'glorified himself herein'; for speech and exposition 
were so easy to him, that if he argued forcibly, he believed 
it to be simply because the truth was forcible. He was not 
proud of moving easily in his native medium. A panting 
man thinks of himself as a clever swimmer; but a fish swims 
much better, and takes his performance as a matter of 
course. 
</p>
            <p>Whether Mr Sherlock were that panting, self-gratulating 
man, remained a secret. Philip Debarry, much occupied with 
his electioneering affairs, had only once had an opportunity 
of asking his uncle how Sherlock got on, and the rector had 
said, curtly, 'I think he'll do. I've supplied him well with 
references. I advise him to read only, and decline everything 
else as out of order. Lyon will speak to a point, and then 
Sherlock will read: it will be all the more telling. It will give 
variety.' But on this particular morning peremptory business 
connected with the magistracy called the rector away. 
</p>
            <p>Due notice had been given, and the feminine world of 
Treby Magna was much more agitated by the prospect than 
by that of any candidate's speech. Mrs Pendrell at the Bank, 
Mrs Tiliot, and the church ladies generally, felt bound to 
hear the curate, who was known, apparently by an intuition <pb n="337"/>
concerning the nature of curates, to be a very clever young 
man; and he would show them what learning had to say on 
the right side. One or two Dissenting ladies were not without 
emotion at the thought that, seated on the front benches, 
they should be brought near to old Church friends, and 
have a longer greeting than had taken place since the 
Catholic Emancipation. Mrs Muscat, who had been a beauty, and 
was as nice in her millinery as any Trebian lady belonging 
to the establishment, reflected that she should put on her 
best large embroidered collar, and that she should ask Mrs 
Tiliot where it was in Duffield that she once got her 
bedhangings dyed so beautifully. When Mrs Tiliot was Mary 
Salt, the two ladies had been bosom friends; but Mr Tiliot 
had looked higher and higher since his gin had become so 
famous; and in the year '29 he had, in Mr Muscat's hearing, 
spoken of Dissenters as sneaks, — a personality which could 
not be overlooked. 
</p>
            <p>The debate was to begin at eleven, for the rector would 
not allow the evening to be chosen, when low men and boys 
might want to be admitted out of mere mischief. This was 
one reason why the female part of the audience 
outnumbered the males. But some chief Trebians were there, even 
men whose means made them as independent of theory as 
Mr Pendrell and Mr Wace; encouraged by reflecting that 
they were not in a place of worship, and would not be obliged 
to stay longer than they chose. There was a muster of all 
Dissenters who could spare the morning time, and on the 
back benches were all the aged churchwomen who shared 
the remnants of the sacrament wine, and who were humbly 
anxious to neglect nothing ecclesiastical or connected with 
'going to a better place'. 
</p>
            <p>At eleven the arrival of listeners seemed to have ceased. 
Mr Lyon was seated on the school tribune or dais at his 
particular round table; another round table, with a chair, 
awaited the curate, with whose superior position it was quite 
in keeping that he should not be first on the ground. A 
couple of extra chairs were placed further back, and more <pb n="338"/>
than one important personage had been requested to act as 
chairman; but no churchman would place himself in a 
position so equivocal as to dignity of aspect, and so unequivocal 
as to the obligation of sitting out the discussion; and the 
rector had beforehand put a veto on any Dissenting 
chairman. 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon sat patiently absorbed in his thoughts, with his 
notes in minute handwriting lying before him, seeming to 
look at the audience, but not seeing them. Every one else was 
contented that there should be an interval in which there 
could be a little neighbourly talk. 
</p>
            <p>Esther was particularly happy, seated on a side-bench near 
her father's side of the tribune, with Felix close behind her, 
so that she could turn her head and talk to him. He had been 
very kind ever since that morning when she had called at his 
home, more disposed to listen indulgently to what she had to 
say, and less blind to her looks and movements. If he had 
never railed at her or ignored her, she would have been less 
sensitive to the attention he gave her; but as it was, the 
prospect of seeing him seemed to light up her life, and to disperse 
the old dulness. She looked unusually charming to-day, 
from the very fact that she was not vividly conscious of 
anything but of having a mind near her that asked her to be 
something better than she actually was. The consciousness 
of her own superiority amongst the people around her was 
superseded, and even a few brief weeks had given a softened 
expression to her eyes, a more feminine beseechingness and 
self-doubt to her manners. Perhaps, however, a little new 
defiance was rising in place of the old contempt — defiance 
of the Trebian views concerning Felix Holt. 
</p>
            <p>'What a very nice-looking young woman your minister's 
daughter is ! ' said Mrs Tiliot in an undertone to Mrs Muscat, 
who, as she had hoped, had found a seat next to her 
quondam friend — 'quite the lady'. 
</p>
            <p>'Rather too much so, considering,' said Mrs Muscat. 'She's 
thought proud, and that's not pretty in a girl, even if there 
was anything to back it up. But now she seems to be encouraging <pb n="339"/>
that young Holt, who scoffs at everything, as you 
may judge by his appearance. She has despised his betters 
before now; but I leave you to judge whether a young man 
who has taken to low ways of getting his living can pay for 
fine cambric handkerchiefs and light kid gloves.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Muscat lowered her blond eyelashes and swayed her 
neat head just perceptibly from side to side, with a sincere 
desire to be moderate in her expressions, not withstanding 
any shock that facts might have given her. 
</p>
            <p>'Dear, dear,' said Mrs Tiliot. 'What! that is young Holt 
leaning forward now without a cravat? I've never seen him 
before to notice him, but I've heard Tiliot talking about him. 
They say he's a dangerous character, and goes stirring up the 
working men at Sproxton. And — well, to be sure, such great 
eyes and such a great head of hair — it is enough to frighten 
one. What can she see in him? Quite below her.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, and brought up a governess,' said Mrs Muscat; 'you'd 
have thought she'd know better how to choose. But the 
minister has let her get the upper hand sadly too much. 
It's a pity in a man of God — I don't deny he's that.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, I am sorry,' said Mrs Tiliot, 'for I meant her to give 
my girls lessons when they came from school.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Wace and Pendrell meanwhile were standing up and 
looking round at the audience, nodding to their 
fellow-townspeople with the affability due from men in their 
position. 
</p>
            <p>'It's time he came now,' said Mr Wace, looking at his watch 
and comparing it with the schoolroom clock. 'This debating 
is a newfangled sort of thing; but the rector would never 
have given in to it if there hadn't been good reasons. Nolan 
said he wouldn't come. He says this debating is an atheistical 
sort of thing; the Atheists are very fond of it. Theirs is a bad 
book to take a leaf out of. However, we shall hear nothing 
but what's good from Mr Sherlock. He preaches a capital 
sermon — for such a young man.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, it was our duty to support him — not to leave him 
alone among the Dissenters,' said Mr Pendrell. 'You see, <pb n="340"/>
everybody hasn't felt that. Labron might have shown 
himself, if not Lukyn. I could have alleged business myself if I 
had thought proper.' 
</p>
            <p>'Here he comes, I think,' said Mr Wace, turning round on 
hearing a movement near the small door on a level with the 
platform. 'By George! it's Mr Debarry. Come now, this is 
handsome.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Wace and Mr Pendrell clapped their hands, and the 
example was followed even by most of the Dissenters. Philip 
was aware that he was doing a popular thing, of a kind that 
Treby was not used to from the elder Debarrys; but his 
appearance had not been long premeditated. He was driving 
through the town towards an engagement at some distance, 
but on calling at Labron's office he had found that the affair 
which demanded his presence had been deferred, and so had 
driven round to the Free School. Christian came in behind 
him. 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon was now roused from his abstraction, and, 
stepping from his slight elevation, begged Mr Debarry to act as 
moderator or president on the occasion. 
</p>
            <p>'With all my heart,' said Philip. 'But Mr Sherlock has 
not arrived, apparently?' 
</p>
            <p>'He tarries somewhat unduly,' said Mr Lyon. 
'Nevertheless there may be a reason of which we know not. Shall I 
collect the thoughts of the assembly by a brief introductory 
address in the interval?' 
</p>
            <p>'No, no, no,' said Mr Wace, who saw a limit to his powers 
of endurance. 'Mr Sherlock is sure to be here in a minute or 
two.' 
</p>
            <p>'Christian,' said Philip Debarry, who felt a slight 
misgiving, 'just be so good — but stay, I'll go myself. Excuse me, 
gentlemen; I'll drive round to Mr Sherlock's lodgings. He 
may be under a little mistake as to the time. Studious men 
are sometimes rather absent. You needn't come with me, 
Christian.' 
</p>
            <p>As Mr Debarry went out, Rufus Lyon stepped on to the 
tribune again in rather an uneasy state of mind. A few ideas <pb n="341"/>
had occurred to him, eminently fitted to engage the audience 
profitably, and so to wrest some edification out of an 
unforeseen delay. But his native delicacy made him feel that in this 
assembly the church people might fairly decline any 
'deliverance' on his part which exceeded the programme, and Mr 
Wace's negative had been energetic. But the little man 
suffered from imprisoned ideas, and was as restless as a racer 
held in. He could not sit down again, but walked backwards 
and forwards, stroking his chin, emitting his low guttural 
interjection under the pressure of clauses and sentences 
which he longed to utter aloud, as he would have done in his 
own study. There was a low buzz in the room which helped 
to deepen the minister's sense that the thoughts within him 
were as divine messengers unheeded or rejected by a trivial 
generation. Many of the audience were standing; all, except 
the old churchwomen on the back seats, and a few devout 
Dissenters who kept their eyes shut and gave their bodies a 
gentle oscillating motion, were interested in chat. 
'Your father is uneasy,' said Felix to Esther. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes; and now, I think, he is feeling for his spectacles. I 
hope he has not left them at home: he will not be able to see 
anything two yards before him without them; — and it makes 
him so unconscious of what people expect or want.' 
</p>
            <p>'I'll go and ask him whether he has them,' said Felix, 
striding over the form in front of him, and approaching Mr 
Lyon, whose face showed a gleam of pleasure at this relief 
from his abstracted isolation. 
</p>
            <p>'Miss Lyon is afraid that you are at a loss for your 
spectacles, sir,' said Felix. 
</p>
            <p>'My dear young friend,' said Mr Lyon, laying his hand on 
Felix Holt's fore-arm, which was about on a level with the 
minister's shoulder, 'it is a very glorious truth, albeit made 
somewhat painful to me by the circumstances of the present 
moment, that as a counterpoise to the brevity of our mortal 
life (wherein, as I apprehend, our powers are being trained 
not only for the transmission of an improved heritage, as I 
have heard you insist, but also for our own entrance into a <pb n="342"/>
higher initiation in the divine scheme) — it is, I say, a very 
glorious truth, that even in what are called the waste 
minutes of our time, like those of expectation, the soul may soar 
and range, as in some of our dreams which are brief as a 
broken rainbow in duration, yet seem to comprise a long 
history of terror or of joy. And again, each moment may be 
a beginning of a new spiritual energy; and our pulse would 
doubtless be a coarse and clumsy notation of the passage 
from that which was not to that which is, even in the finer 
processes of the material world — and how much more —' 
</p>
            <p>Esther was watching her father and Felix, and though she 
was not within hearing of what was being said, she guessed 
the actual state of the case — that the inquiry about the 
spectacles had been unheeded, and that her father was 
losing himself and embarrassing Felix in the intricacies of 
a dissertation. There was not the stillness around her that 
would have made a movement on her part seem conspicuous, 
and she was impelled by her anxiety to step on the tribune 
and walk up to her father, who paused, a little startled. 
</p>
            <p>'Pray see whether you have forgotten your spectacles, 
father. If so, I will go home at once and look for them.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon was automatically obedient to Esther, and he 
began immediately to feel in his pockets. 
</p>
            <p>'How is it that Miss Jermyn is so friendly with the 
Dissenting parson?' said Christian to Quorlen, the Tory 
printer, who was an intimate of his. 'Those grand Jermyns 
are not Dissenters surely?' 
</p>
            <p>'What Miss Jermyn?' 
</p>
            <p>'Why — don't you see? — that fine girl who is talking to 
him.' 
</p>
            <p>'Miss Jermyn! Why, that's the little parson's daughter.' 
</p>
            <p>'His daughter!' Christian gave a low brief whistle, which 
seemed a natural expression of surprise that 'the rusty old 
ranter' should have a daughter of such distinguished 
appearance. 
</p>
            <p>Meanwhile the search for the spectacles had proved vain. 
</p>
            <p>'Tis a grievous fault in me, my dear,' said the little man, <pb n="343"/>
humbly; 'I become thereby sadly burthensome to you.' 
</p>
            <p>'I will go at once,' said Esther, refusing to let Felix go 
instead of her. But she had scarcely stepped off the tribune 
when Mr Debarry re-entered, and there was a commotion 
which made her wait. After a low-toned conversation with 
Mr Pendrell and Mr Wace, Philip Debarry stepped on to 
the tribune with his hat in his hand, and said, with an air 
of much concern and annoyance — 
</p>
            <p>'I am sorry to have to tell you, ladies and gentlemen, that 
— doubtless owing to some accidental cause which I trust 
will soon be explained as nothing serious — Mr Sherlock is 
absent from his residence, and is not to be found. He went 
out early, his landlady informs me, to refresh himself by 
a walk on this agreeable morning, as is his habit, she tells 
me, when he has been kept up late by study; and he has not 
returned. Do not let us be too anxious. I shall cause inquiry 
to be made in the direction of his walk. It is easy to imagine 
many accidents, not of a grave character, by which he might 
nevertheless be absolutely detained against his will. Under 
these circumstances, Mr Lyon,' continued Philip, turning 
to the minister, 'I presume that the debate must be 
adjourned.' 
</p>
            <p>'The debate, doubtless,' began Mr Lyon; but his further 
speech was drowned by a general rising of the church people 
from their seats, many of them feeling that even if the 
cause were lamentable, the adjournment was not altogether 
disagreeable. 
</p>
            <p>'Good gracious me!' said Mrs Tiliot, as she took her 
husband's arm, 'I hope the poor young man hasn't fallen into 
the river or broken his leg.' 
</p>
            <p>But some of the more acrid Dissenters, whose temper was 
not controlled by the habits of retail business, had 
begun to hiss, implying that in their interpretation the 
curate's absence had not depended on any injury to life or 
limb. 
</p>
            <p>'He's turned tail, sure enough,' said Mr Muscat to the 
neighbour behind him, lifting his eyebrows and shoulders, <pb n="344"/>
and laughing in a way that showed that, deacon as he was, 
he looked at the affair in an entirely secular light. 
</p>
            <p>But Mrs Muscat thought it would be nothing but right 
to have all the waters dragged, agreeing in this with the 
majority of the church ladies. 
</p>
            <p>'I regret sincerely, Mr Lyon,' said Philip Debarry, 
addressing the minister with politeness, 'that I must say 
goodmorning to you, with the sense that I have not been able at 
present to contribute to your satisfaction as I had wished.' 
</p>
            <p>'Speak not of it in the way of apology, sir,' said Mr Lyon, 
in a tone of depression. 'I doubt not that you yourself have 
acted in good faith. Nor will I open any door of egress to 
constructions such as anger often deems ingenious, but 
which the disclosure of the simple truth may expose as 
erroneous and uncharitable fabrications. I wish you 
goodmorning, sir.' 
</p>
            <p>When the room was deared of the church people, Mr 
Lyon wished to soothe his own spirit and that of his flock 
by a few reflections introductory to a parting prayer. But 
there was a general resistance to this effect. The men 
mustered round the minister, and declared their opinion that 
the whole thing was disgraceful to the church. Some said 
the curate's absence had been contrived from the first. 
Others more than hinted that it had been a folly in Mr 
Lyon to set on foot any procedure in common with Tories 
and clergymen, who, if they ever aped civility to Dissenters, 
would never do anything but laugh at them in their sleeves. 
Brother Remp urged in his heavy bass that Mr Lyon should 
lose no time in sending an account of the affair to the 
Patriot; and Brother Hawkins, in his high tenor, observed 
that it was an occasion on which some stinging things might 
be said with all the extra effect of an apro pos. 
</p>
            <p>The position of receiving a many-voiced lecture from the 
members of his church was familiar to Mr Lyon, but now 
he felt weary, frustrated, and doubtful of his own temper. 
Felix, who stood by and saw that this man of sensitive fibre 
was suffering from talkers whose noisy superficiality cost <pb n="345"/>
them nothing, got exasperated. 'It seems to me, sirs,' he 
burst in, with his predominant voice, 'that Mr Lyon has 
hitherto had the hard part of the business, while you of his 
congregation have had the easy one. Punish the church 
clergy, if you like — they can take care of themselves. But 
don't punish your own minister. It's no business of mine, 
perhaps, except so far as fair-play is everybody's business; 
but it seems to me the time to ask Mr Lyon to take a little 
rest, instead of setting on him like so many wasps.' 
</p>
            <p>By this speech Felix raised a displeasure which fell on the 
minister as well as on himself; but he gained his immediate 
end. The talkers dropped off after a slight show of 
persistence, and Mr Lyon quitted the field of no combat with 
a small group of his less imperious friends, to whom he 
confided his intention of committing his argument fully to 
paper, and forwarding it to a discriminating editor. 
</p>
            <p>'But regarding personalities,' he added, 'I have not the 
same clear showing. For, say that this young man was 
pusillanimous — I were but ill provided with arguments if I 
took my stand even for a moment on so poor an irrelevancy 
as that because one curate is ill furnished therefore 
episcopacy is false. If I held up any one to just obloquy, it would 
be the well-designated incumbent of this parish, who, calling 
himself one of the church militant, sends a young and 
weak-kneed substitute to take his place in the fight.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Philip Debarry did not neglect to make industrious 
inquiry concerning the accidents which had detained the 
Rev. Theodore Sherlock on his moming walk. That 
well-intentioned young divine was seen no more in Treby Magna. 
But the river was not dragged, for by the evening coach 
the rector received an explanatory letter. The Rev. 
Theodore's agitation had increased so much during his walk, 
that the passing coach had been a means of deliverance 
not to be resisted, and, literally at the eleventh hour, he had 
hailed and mounted the cheerful Tally-ho! and carried 
away his portion of the debate in his pocket. 
</p>
            <p>But the rector had subsequently the satisfaction of receiving <pb n="346"/>
Mr Sherlock's painstaking production in print, with 
a dedication to the Rev. Augustus Debarry, a motto from 
St Chrysostum, and other additions, the fruit of ripening 
leisure. He was 'sorry for poor Sherlock, who wanted 
confidence'; but he was convinced that for his own part he had 
taken the course which under the circumstances was the 
least compromising to the church. Sir Maximus, however, 
observed to his son and brother that he had been right and 
they had been wrong as to the danger of vague, enormous 
expressions of gratitude to a Dissenting preacher, and on 
any differences of opinion seldom failed to remind them 
of that precedent. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c25" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 25</head>
            <pb n="347"/>
            <q>
               <l>Your fellow-man? — Divide the epithet: </l>
               <l>Say rather, you're the fellow, he the man. </l>
            </q>
            <p>WHEN Christian quitted the Free School with the discovery 
that the young lady whose appearance had first startled 
him with an indefinable impression in the market-place was 
the daughter of the old Dissenting preacher who had shown 
so much agitated curiosity about his name, he felt very 
much like an uninitiated chess-player who sees that the 
pieces are in a peculiar position on the board, and might 
open the way for him to give checkmate, if he only knew 
how. Ever since his interview with Jermyn, his mind had 
been occupied with the charade it offered to his ingenuity. 
What was the real meaning of the lawyer's interest in him, 
and in his relations with Maurice Christian Bycliffe? Here 
was a secret; and secrets were often a source of profit, of that 
agreeable kind which involved little labour. Jermyn had 
hinted at profit which might possibly come through him; 
but Christian said inwardly, with well-satisfied self-esteem, 
that he was not so pitiable a nincompoop as to trust Jermyn. 
On the contrary, the only problem before him was to find 
out by what combination of independent knowledge he 
could outwit Jermyn, elude any purchase the attorney had 
on him through his past history, and get a handsome bonus, 
by which a somewhat shattered man of pleasure might live 
well without a master. Christian, having early exhausted the 
more impulsive delights of life, had become a sober 
calculator; and he had made up his mind that, for a man who 
had long ago run through his own money, servitude in a 
great family was the best kind of retirement after that of a 
pensioner; but if a better chance offered, a person of talent 
must not let it slip through his fingers. He held various ends 
of threads, but there was danger in pulling at them too 
impatiently. He had not forgotten the surprise which had <pb n="348"/>
made him drop the punch-ladle, when Mr Crowder, talking 
in the steward's room, had said that a scamp named Henry 
Scaddon had been concerned in a lawsuit about the 
Transome estate. Again, Jermyn was the family lawyer of the 
Transomes; he knew about the exchange of names between 
Scaddon and Bycliffe; he clearly wanted to know as much as 
he could about Bycliffe's history. The conclusion was not 
remote that Bycliffe had had some claim on the Transome 
property, and that a difficulty had arisen from his being 
confounded with Henry Scaddon. But hitherto the other 
incident which had been apparently connected with the 
interchange of names — Mr Lyon's demand that he should 
write down the name Maurice Christian, accompanied with 
the question whether that were his whole name — had had 
no visible link with the inferences arrived at through 
Crowder and Jermyn. 
</p>
            <p>The discovery made this morning at the Free School that 
Esther was the daughter of the Dissenting preacher at last 
suggested a possible link. Until then, Christian had not 
known why Esther's face had impressed him so peculiarly; 
but the minister's chief association for him was with 
Bycliffe, and that association served as a flash to show him that 
Esther's features and expression, and still more her bearing, 
now she stood and walked, revived Bycliffe's image. 
Daughter? There were various ways of being a daughter. Suppose 
this were a case of adoption: suppose Bycliffe were known 
to be dead, or thought to be dead. 'Begad, if the old parson 
had fancied the original father was come to life again, it 
was enough to frighten him a little. Slow and steady,' 
Christian said to himself; 'I'll get some talk with the old 
man again. He's safe enough: one can handle him without 
cutting one's self. I'll tell him I knew Bycliffe, and was his 
fellow-prisoner. I'll worm out the truth about this daughter. 
Could pretty Annette have married again, and married this 
little scarecrow? There's no knowing what a woman will 
not do.' 
</p>
            <p>Christian could see no distinct result for himself from his <pb n="349"/>
industry; but if there were to be any such result, it must 
be reached by following out every clue; and to the 
non-legal mind there are dim possibilities in law and heirship 
which prevent any issue from seeming too miraculous. 
</p>
            <p>The consequence of these meditations was, that Christian 
hung about Treby more than usual in his leisure time, and 
that on the first opportunity he accosted Mr Lyon in the 
street with suitable civility, stating that since the occasion 
which had brought them together some weeks before he 
had often wished to renew their conversation, and, with 
Mr Lyon's permission, would now ask to do so. After being 
assured, as he had been by Jermyn, that this courier, who 
had happened by some accident to possess the memorable 
locket and pocket-book, was certainly not Annette's 
husband, and was ignorant whether Maurice Christian Bycliffe 
were living or dead, the minister's mind had become easy 
again; his habitual lack of interest in personal details 
rendering him gradually oblivious of Jermyn's precautionary 
statement that he was pursuing inquiries, and that if 
anything of interest turned up, Mr Lyon should be made 
acquainted with it. Hence, when Christian addressed him, 
the minister, taken by surprise and shaken by the 
recollections of former anxieties, said, helplessly — 
</p>
            <p>'If it is business, sir, you would perhaps do better to 
address yourself to Mr Jermyn.' 
</p>
            <p>He could not have said anything that was a more valuable 
hint to Christian. He inferred that the minister had made 
a confidant of Jermyn, and it was needful to be wary 
</p>
            <p>'On the contrary, sir,' he answered, 'it may be of the utmost 
importance to you that what passes between us should not 
be known to Mr Jermyn.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon was perplexed, and felt at once that he was no 
more in clear daylight concerning Jermyn than concerning 
Christian. He dared not neglect the possible duty of 
hearing what this man had to say, and he invited him to proceed 
to Malthouse Yard, where they could converse in private. 
</p>
            <p>Once in Mr Lyon's study, Christian opened the dialogue <pb n="350"/>
by saying that since he was in this room before it had 
occurred to him that the anxiety he had observed in Mr 
Lyon might be owing to some acquaintance with Maurice 
Christian Bycliffe — a fellow-prisoner in France whom he, 
Christian, had assisted in getting freed from his 
imprisonment, and who, in fact, had been the owner of the trifles 
which Mr Lyon had recently had in his possession and had 
restored. Christian hastened to say that he knew nothing 
of Bycliffe's history since they had parted in France, but 
that he knew of his marriage with Annette Ledru, and had 
been acquainted with Annette herself. He would be very 
glad to know what became of Bycliffe, if he could, for he 
liked him uncommonly. 
</p>
            <p>Here Christian paused; but Mr Lyon only sat changing 
colour and trembling. This man's bearing and tone of mind 
were made repulsive to him by being brought in contact 
with keenly-felt memories, and he could not readily 
summon the courage to give answers or ask questions. 
</p>
            <p>'May I ask if you knew my friend Bycliffe?' said Christian, 
trying a more direct method. 
</p>
            <p>'No, sir; I never saw him.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah I well — you have seen a very striking likeness of him. 
It's wonderful — unaccountable; but when I saw Miss Lyon 
at the Free School the other day, I could have sworn she 
was Bycliffe's daughter.' 
</p>
            <p>'Sir!' said Mr Lyon, in his deepest tone, half rising, and 
holding by the arms of his chair, 'these subjects touch me 
with too sharp a point for you to be justified in thrusting 
them on me out of mere levity. Is there any good you seek 
or any injury you fear in relation to them?' 
</p>
            <p>'Precisely, sir. We shall come now to an understanding. 
Suppose I believed that the young lady who goes by the 
name of Miss Lyon was the daughter of Bycliffe?' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon moved his lips silently. 
</p>
            <p>'And suppose I had reason to suspect that there would be 
some great advantage for her if the law knew who was her 
father?' <pb n="351"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Sir!' said Mr Lyon, shaken out of all reticence, 'I would 
not conceal it. She believes herself to be my daughter. But 
I will bear all things rather than deprive her of a right. 
Nevertheless I will appeal to the pity of any fellow-man, 
not to thrust himself between her and me, but to let me 
disclose the truth to her myself.' 
</p>
            <p>'All in good time,' said Christian. 'We must do nothing 
rash. Then Miss Lyon is Annette's child?' 
</p>
            <p>The minister shivered as if the edge of a knife had been 
drawn across his hand. But the tone of the question, by the 
very fact that it intensified his antipathy to Christian, 
enabled him to collect himself for what must be simply the 
endurance of a painful operation. After a moment or two 
he said more coolly, 'It is true, sir. Her mother became my 
wife. Proceed with any statement which may concern my 
duty.' 
</p>
            <p>'I have no more to say than this: If there's a prize that 
the law might hand over to Bycliffe's daughter, I am much 
mistaken if there isn't a lawyer who'll take precious good 
care to keep the law hoodwinked. And that lawyer is Mat 
Jermyn. Why, my good sir, if you've been taking Jermyn 
into your confidence, you've been setting the fox to keep 
off the weasel. It strikes me that when you were made a 
little anxious about those articles of poor Bycliffe's, you put 
Jermyn on making inquiries of me. Eh? I think I am right?' 
</p>
            <p>'I do not deny it.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah! — it was very well you did, for by that means I've 
found out that he's got hold of some secrets about Bycliffe 
which he means to stifle. Now, sir, if you desire any justice 
for your daughter, step-daughter, I should say — don't so 
much as wink to yourself before Jermyn; and if you've got 
any papers or things of that sort that may come in evidence, 
as these confounded rescals the lawyers call it, clutch them 
tight, for if they get into Jermyn's hands they may soon 
fly up the chimney. Have I said enough?' 
</p>
            <p>'I had not purposed any further communication with Mr 
Jermyn, sir; indeed, I have nothing further to communicate. <pb n="352"/>
Except that one fact concerning my daughter's birth, which 
I have erred in concealing from her, I neither seek 
disclosures nor do I tremble before them.' 
</p>
            <p>'Then I have your word that you will be silent about this 
conversation between us? It is for your daughter's interest, 
mind.' 
</p>
            <p>'Sir, I shall be silent,' said Mr Lyon, with cold gravity. 
'Unless,' he added, with an acumen as to possibilities rather 
disturbing to Christian's confident contempt for the old 
man — 'unless I were called upon by some tribunal to 
declare the whole truth in this relation; in which case I should 
submit myself to that authority of investigation which is a 
requisite of social order.' 
</p>
            <p>Christian departed, feeling satisfied that he had got the 
utmost to be obtained at present out of the Dissenting 
preacher, whom he had not dared to question more closely. 
He must look out for chance lights, and perhaps, too, he 
might catch a stray hint by stirring the sediment of Mr 
Crowder's memory. But he must not venture on inquiries 
that might be noticed. He was in awe of Jermyn. 
</p>
            <p>When Mr Lyon was alone he paced up and down among 
his books, and thought aloud, in order to relieve himself 
after the constraint of this interview. 'I will not wait for 
the urgency of necessity,' he said, more than once. 'I will 
tell the child, without compulsion. And then I shall fear 
nothing. And an unwonted spirit of tenderness has filled her 
of late. She will forgive me.' 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c26" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 26</head>
            <pb n="353"/>
            <q>
               <l>'Consideration like an angel came </l>
               <l>And whipped the of ending Adam out of her </l>
               <l>Leaving her body as a paradise </l>
               <l>To envelop and contain celestial spirits.' </l>
               <l>SHAKESPEARE: Henry V. </l>
            </q>
            <p>THE next morning, after much prayer for the needful 
strength and wisdom, Mr Lyon came downstairs with the 
resolution that another day should not pass without the 
fulfilment of the task he had laid on himself; but what 
hour he should choose for his solemn disclosure to Esther, 
must depend on their mutual occupations. Perhaps he must 
defer it till they sat up alone together, after Lyddy was gone 
to bed. But at breakfast Esther said — 
</p>
            <p>'To-day is a holiday, father. My pupils are all going to 
Duffield to see the wild beasts. What have you got to do 
to-day? Come, you are eating no breakfast. O, Lyddy, 
Lyddy, the eggs are hard again. I wish you would not read 
Alleyne's Alarm before breakfast; it makes you cry and 
forget the eggs.' 
</p>
            <p>'They are hard, and that's the truth; but there's hearts 
as are harder, Miss Esther,' said Lyddy. 
</p>
            <p>'I think not,' said Esther. 'This is leathery enough for 
the heart of the most obdurate Jew. Pray give it little 
Zachary for a football.' 
</p>
            <p>'Dear, dear, don't you be so light, miss. We may all be 
dead before night.' 
</p>
            <p>'You speak out of season, my good Lyddy,' said Mr Lyon, 
wearily; 'depart into the kitchen.' 
</p>
            <p>'What have you got to do to-day, father?' persisted 
Esther. 'I have a holiday.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon felt as if this were a fresh summons not to delay. 
'I have something of great moment to do, my dear; and since 
you are not otherwise demanded, I will ask you to come 
and sit with me up-stairs.' <pb n="354"/>
            </p>
            <p>Esther wondered what there could be on her father's mind 
more pressing than his morning studies. 
</p>
            <p>She soon knew. Motionless, but mentally stirred as she had 
never been before, Esther listened to her mother's story, 
and to the outpouring of her step-father's long-pent-up 
experience. The rays of the morning sun which fell athwart 
the books, the sense of the beginning day, had deepened 
the solemnity more than night would have done. All 
knowledge which alters our lives penetrates us more when it 
comes in the early morning: the day that has to be travelled 
with something new and perhaps for ever sad in its light, is 
an image of the life that spreads beyond. But at night the 
time of rest is near. 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon regarded his narrative as a confession — as a 
revelation to this beloved child of his own miserable 
weakness and error. But to her it seemed a revelation of another 
sort: her mind seemed suddenly enlarged by a vision of 
passion and struggle, of delight and renunciation, in the 
lot of beings who had hitherto been a dull enigma to her. 
And in the act of unfolding to her that he was not her real 
father, but had only striven to cherish her as a father, had 
only longed to be loved as a father, the odd, wayworn, 
unworldly man became the object of a new sympathy in which 
Esther felt herself exalted. Perhaps this knowledge would 
have been less powerful within her, but for the mental 
preparation that had come during the last two months from 
her acquaintance with Felix Holt, which had taught her to 
doubt the infallibility of her own standard, and raised a 
presentiment of moral depths that were hidden from her. 
</p>
            <p>Esther had taken her place opposite to her father, and 
had not moved even her clasped hands while he was 
speaking. But after the long out-pouring in which he seemed to 
lose the sense of everything but the memories he was giving 
utterance to, he paused a little while and then said timidly — 
</p>
            <p>'This is a late retrieval of a long error, Esther. I make not 
excuses for myself, for we ought to strive that our affections 
be rooted in the truth. Nevertheless you —' <pb n="355"/>
            </p>
            <p>Esther had risen, and had glided on to the wooden stool 
on a level with her father's chair, where he was accustomed 
to lay books. She wanted to speak, but the floodgates could 
not be opened for words alone. She threw her arms round the 
old man's neck and sobbed out with a passionate cry, 
'Father, father! forgive me if I have not loved you enough 
I will — I will!' 
</p>
            <p>The old man's little delicate frame was shaken by a 
surprise and joy that were almost painful in their intensity. He 
had been going to ask forgiveness of her who asked it for 
herself. In that moment of supreme complex emotion one 
ray of the minister's joy was the thought, 'Surely the work 
of grace is begun in her — surely here is a heart that the 
Lord hath touched.' 
</p>
            <p>They sat so, enclasped in silence, while Esther relieved 
her full heart. When she raised her head, she sat quite still 
for a minute or two looking fixedly before her, and keeping 
one little hand in the minister's. Presently she looked at 
him and said — 
</p>
            <p>'Then you lived like a working man, father; you were very, 
very poor. Yet my mother had been used to luxury. She 
was well born — she was a lady.' 
</p>
            <p>'It is true, my dear; it was a poor life that I could give 
her.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon answered in utter dimness as to the course 
Esther's mind was taking. He had anticipated before his 
disclosure, from his long-standing discernment of tendencies 
in her which were often the cause of silent grief to him, 
that the discovery likely to have the keenest interest for her 
would be that her parents had a higher rank than that of 
the poor Dissenting preacher; but she had shown that other 
and better sensibilities were predominant. He rebuked 
himself now for a hasty and shallow judgment concerning the 
child's inner life, and waited for new clearness. 
</p>
            <p>'But that must be the best life, father,' said Esther, 
suddenly rising, with a flush across her paleness, and standing 
with her head thrown a little backward, as if some illumination <pb n="356"/>
had given her a new decision. 'That must be the best 
life.' 
'What life, my dear child?' 
</p>
            <p>'Why, that where one bears and does everything because 
of some great and strong feeling — so that this and that in 
one's circumstances don't signify.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yea, verily; but the feeling that should be thus supreme 
is devotedness to the Divine Will.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther did not speak; her father's words did not fit on to 
the impressions wrought in her by what he had told her. 
She sat down again, and said, more quietly — 
</p>
            <p>'Mamma did not speak much of my — first father?' 
</p>
            <p>'Not much, dear. She said he was beautiful to the eye, and 
good and generous; and that his family was of those who 
have been long privileged among their fellows. But now I 
will deliver to you the letters, which, together with a ring 
and locket, are the only visible memorials she retained of 
him.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon reached and delivered to Esther the box 
containing the relics. 'Take them, and examine them in privacy, 
my dear. And that I may no more err by concealment, I 
will tell you some late occurrences that bear on these 
memorials, though to my present apprehension doubtfully 
and confusedly.' 
</p>
            <p>He then narrated to Esther all that had passed between 
himself and Christian. The possibility — to which Mr Lyon's 
alarms had pointed — that her real father might still be 
living, was a new shock. She could not speak about it to her 
present father, but it was registered in silence as a painful 
addition to the uncertainties which she suddenly saw 
hanging over her life. 
</p>
            <p>'I have little confidence in this man's allegations,' Mr 
Lyon ended. 'I confess his presence and speech are to me 
as the jarring of metal. He bears the stamp of one who has 
never conceived aught of more sanctity than the lust of the 
eye and the pride of life. He hints at some possible 
inheritance for you, and denounces mysteriously the devices <pb n="357"/>
of Mr Jermyn. All this may or may not have a true 
foundation. But it is not my part to move in this matter save on a 
clearer showing. 
</p>
            <p>'Certainly not, father,' said Esther, eagerly. A little while 
ago, these problematic prospects might have set her 
dreaming pleasantly; but now, for some reasons that she could 
not have put distinctly into words, they affected her with 
dread. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c27" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 27</head>
            <pb n="358"/>
            <q>
               <l>'To hear with eyes is part of love's rare wit.' </l>
               <l>— SHAKESPEARE: Sonnets. </l>
               <l/>
               <l>                      'Custom calls me to't :— </l>
               <l>What custom wills, in all things should we do't? </l>
               <l>The dust on antique time would lie unswept, </l>
               <l>And mountainous error be too highly heaped </l>
               <l>For truth to over-peer.' — Coriolanus. </l>
            </q>
            <p>IN the afternoon Mr Lyon went out to see the sick amongst 
his flock, and Esther, who had been passing the morning 
in dwelling on the memories and the few remaining relics 
of her parents, was left alone in the parlour amidst the 
lingering odours of the early dinner, not easily got rid of in 
that small house. Rich people, who know nothing of these 
vulgar details, can hardly imagine their significance in the 
history of multitudes of human lives in which the 
sensibilities are never adjusted to the external conditions. Esther 
always felt so much discomfort from those odours that she 
usually seized any possibility of escaping from them, and 
to-day they oppressed her the more because she was weary 
with long-continued agitation. Why did she not put on her 
bonnet as usual and get out into the open air? It was one of 
those pleasant November afternoons — pleasant in the wide 
country — when the sunshine is on the clinging brown leaves 
of the young oaks, and the last yellow leaves of the elms 
flutter down in the fresh but not eager breeze. But Esther 
sat still on the sofa — pale and with reddened eyelids, her 
curls all pushed back carelessly, and her elbow resting on 
the ridgy black horse-hair, which usually almost set her 
teeth on edge if she pressed it even through her sleeve — 
while her eyes rested blankly on the dull street. Lyddy had 
said, 'Miss, you look sadly; if you can't take a walk, go 
and lie down.' She had never seen the curls in such disorder, 
and she reflected that there had been a death from typhus 
recently. But the obstinate miss only shook her head. <pb n="359"/>
            </p>
            <p>Esther was waiting for the sake of — not a probability, but 
— a mere possibility, which made the brothy odours 
endurable. Apparently, in less than half an hour, the possibility 
came to pass, for she changed her attitude, almost started 
from her seat, sat down again, and listened eagerly. If 
Lyddy should send him away, could she herself rush out 
and call him back? Why not? Such things were permissible 
where it was understood, from the necessity of the case, that 
there was only friendship. But Lyddy opened the door and 
said, 'Here's Mr Holt, miss, wants to know if you'll give him 
leave to come in. I told him you was sadly.' 
</p>
            <p>'O yes, Lyddy, beg him to come in.' 
</p>
            <p>'I should not have persevered,' said Felix, as they shook 
hands, 'only I know Lyddy's dismal way. But you do look 
ill,' he went on, as he seated himself at the other end of the 
sofa. 'Or rather — for that's a false way of putting it — you 
look as if you had been very much distressed. Do you mind 
about my taking notice of it?' 
</p>
            <p>He spoke very kindly, and looked at her more persistently 
than he had ever done before, when her hair was perfect. 
</p>
            <p>'You are quite right. I am not at all ill. But I have been 
very much agitated this morning. My father has been telling 
me things I never heard before about my mother, and giving 
me things that belonged to her. She died when I was a very 
little creature.' 
</p>
            <p>'Then it is no new pain or trouble for you and Mr Lyon? 
I could not help being anxious to know that.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther passed her hand over her brow before she answered. 
'I hardly know whether it is pain, or something better than 
pleasure. It has made me see things I was blind to before — 
depths in my father's nature.' 
</p>
            <p>As she said this, she looked at Felix, and their eyes met 
very gravely. 
</p>
            <p>'It is such a beautiful day,' he said, 'it would do you good 
to go into the air. Let me take you along the river towards 
Little Treby, will you?' 
</p>
            <p>'I will put my bonnet on,' said Esther, unhesitatingly, <pb n="360"/>
though they had never walked out together before. 
</p>
            <p>It is true that to get into the fields they had to pass through 
the street; and when Esther saw some acquaintances, she 
reflected that her walking alone with Felix might be a 
subject of remark — all the more because of his cap, patched 
boots, no cravat, and thick stick. Esther was a little amazed 
herself at what she had come to. So our lives glide on: the 
river ends we don't know where, and the sea begins, and 
then there is no more jumping ashore. 
</p>
            <p>When they were in the streets Esther hardly spoke. Felix 
talked with his usual readiness, as easily as if he were not 
doing it solely to divert her thoughts, first about Job Tudge's 
delicate chest, and the probability that the little white-faced 
monkey would not live long; and then about a miserable 
beginning of a night-school, which was all he could get 
together at Sproxton; and the dismalness of that hamlet, 
which was a sort of lip to the coalpit on one side and the 
'public' on the other — and yet a paradise compared with the 
wynds of Glasgow, where there was little more than a 
chink of daylight to show the hatred in women's faces. 
</p>
            <p>But soon they got into the fields, where there was a right 
of way towards Little Treby, now following the course of 
the river, now crossing towards a lane, and now turning 
into a cart-track through a plantation. 
</p>
            <p>'Here we are!' said Felix, when they had crossed the 
wooden bridge, and were treading on the slanting shadows 
made by the elm trunks. 'I think this is delicious. I never 
feel less unhappy than in these late autumn afternoons 
when they are sunny.' 
</p>
            <p>'Less unhappy! There now!' said Esther, smiling at him 
with some of her habitual sauciness, 'I have caught you in 
self-contradiction. I have heard you quite furious against 
puling, melancholy people. If I had said what you have just 
said, you would have given me a long lecture, and told me 
to go home and interest myself in the reason of the rule of 
three.' 
</p>
            <p>'Very likely,' said Felix, beating the weeds, according to <pb n="361"/>
the foible of our common humanity when it has a stick in 
its hand. 'But I don't think myself a fine fellow because I'm 
melancholy. I don't measure my force by the negations in 
me, and think my soul must be a mighty one because it is 
more given to idle suffering than to beneficent activity. 
That's what your favourite gentlemen do, of the Byronic 
bilious style.' 
'I don't admit that those are my favourite gentlemen.' 
</p>
            <p>'I've heard you defend them — gentlemen like your Renes, 
who have no particular talent for the finite, but a general 
sense that the infinite is the right thing for them. They 
might as well boast of nausea as a proof of a strong inside.' 
</p>
            <p>'Stop, stop! You run on in that way to get out of my 
reach. I convicted you of confessing that you are 
melancholy.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes!' said Felix, thrusting his left hand into his pocket, 
with a shrug; 'as I could confess to a great many other 
things I'm not proud of. The fact is, there are not many 
easy lots to be drawn in the world at present; and such as 
they are I am not envious of them. I don't say life is not 
worth having: it is worth having to a man who has some 
sparks of sense and feeling and bravery in him. And the 
finest fellow of all would be the one who could be glad to 
have lived because the world was chiefly miserable, and his 
life had come to help some one who needed it. He would 
be the man who had the most powers and the fewest selfish 
wants. But I'm not up to the level of what I see to be best. 
I'm often a hungry discontented fellow.' 
</p>
            <p>'Why have you made life so hard then?' said Esther, 
rather frightened as she asked the question. 'It seems to me 
you have tried to find just the most difficult task.' 
</p>
            <p>'Not at all,' said Felix, with curt decision. 'My course 
was a very simple one. It was pointed out to me by 
conditions that I saw as clearly as I see the bars of this stile. It's 
a difficult stile too,' added Felix, striding over. 'Shall I help 
you, or will you be left to yourself?' 
</p>
            <p>'I can do without help, thank you.' <pb n="362"/>
            </p>
            <p>'It was all simple enough,' continued Felix, as they walked 
on. 'If I meant to put a stop to the sale of those drugs, I 
must keep my mother, and of course at her age she would 
not leave the place she had been used to. And I had made 
up my mind against what they call genteel businesses.' 
</p>
            <p>'But suppose every one did as you do? Please to forgive 
me for saying so; but I cannot see why you could not have 
lived as honourably with some employment that 
presupposes education and refinement.' 
</p>
            <p>'Because you can't see my history or my nature,' said 
Felix, bluntly. 'I have to determine for myself, and not for 
other men. I don't blame them, or think I am better than 
they; their circumstances are different. I would never choose 
to withdraw myself from the labour and common burthen 
of the world; but I do choose to withdraw myself from the 
push and the scramble for money and position. Any man 
is at liberty to call me a fool, and say that mankind are 
benefited by the push and the scramble in the long-run. But 
I care for the people who live now and will not be living 
when the long-run comes. As it is, I prefer going shares with 
the unlucky.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther did not speak, and there was silence between them 
for a minute or two, till they passed through a gate into a 
plantation where there was no large timber, but only 
thin-stemmed trees and underwood, so that the sunlight fell on 
the mossy spaces which lay open here and there. 
</p>
            <p>'See how beautiful those stooping birch-stems are with 
the light on them!' said Felix. 'Here is an old felled trunk 
they have not thought worth carrying away. Shall we sit 
down a little while?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, the mossy ground with the dry leaves sprinkled over 
it is delightful to one's feet.' Esther sat down and took off 
her bonnet, that the light breeze might fall on her head. 
Felix, too, threw down his cap and stick, lying on the ground 
with his back against the felled trunk. 
</p>
            <p>'I wish I felt more as you do,' she said, looking at the 
point of her foot, which was playing with a tuft of moss. <pb n="363"/>
'I can't help caring very much what happens to me. And 
you seem to care so little about yourself.' 
</p>
            <p>'You are thoroughly mistaken,' said Felix. 'It is just 
because I'm a very ambitious fellow, with very hungry 
passions, wanting a great deal to satisfy me, that I have chosen 
to give up what people call worldly good. At least that has 
been one determining reason. It all depends on what a man 
gets into his consciousness — what life thrusts into his mind, 
so that it becomes present to him as remorse is present to 
the guilty, or a mechanical problem to an inventive genius. 
There are two things I've got present in that way: one of 
them is the picture of what I should hate to be. I'm 
determined never to go about making my face simpering or 
solemn, and telling professional lies for profit; or to get 
tangled in affairs where I must wink at dishonesty and 
pocket the proceeds, and justify that knavery as part of a 
system that I can't alter. If I once went into that sort of 
struggle for success, I should want to win — I should defend 
the wrong that I had once identified myself with. I should 
become everything that I see now beforehand to be 
detestable. And what's more, I should do this, as men are doing 
it every day, for a ridiculously small prize — perhaps for 
none at all — perhaps for the sake of two parlours, a rank 
eligible for the church-wardenship, a discontented wife and 
several unhopeful children.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther felt a terrible pressure on her heart — the certainty 
of her remoteness from Felix — the sense that she was utterly 
trivial to him. 
</p>
            <p>'The other thing that's got into my mind like a splinter,' 
said Felix, after a pause, 'is the life of the miserable — the 
spawning life of vice and hunger. I'll never be one of the 
sleek dogs. The old Catholics are right, with their higher 
rule and their lower. Some are called to subject themselves 
to a harder discipline, and renounce things voluntarily 
which are lawful for others. It is the old word — “necessity 
is laid upon me”.' 
</p>
            <p>'It seems to me you are stricter than my father is.' <pb n="364"/>
            </p>
            <p>'No! I quarrel with no delight that is not base or cruel, 
but one must sometimes accommodate one's self to a small 
share. That is the lot of the majority. I would wish the 
minority joy, only they don't want my wishes.' 
</p>
            <p>Again there was silence. Esther's cheeks were hot in spite 
of the breeze that sent her hair floating backward. She felt 
an inward strain, a demand on her to see things in a light 
that was not easy or soothing. When Felix had asked her 
to walk, he had seemed so kind, so alive to what might be 
her feelings, that she had thought herself nearer to him 
than she had ever been before; but since they had come out, 
he had appeared to forget all that. And yet she was 
conscious that this impatience of hers was very petty. Battling 
in this way with her own little impulses, and looking at the 
birch-stems opposite till her gaze was too wide for her to 
see anything distinctly, she was unaware how long they had 
remained without speaking. She did not know that Felix 
had changed his attitude a little, and was resting his elbow 
on the tree-trunk, while he supported his head, which was 
turned towards her. Suddenly he said, in a lower tone than 
was habitual to him — 
</p>
            <p>'You are very beautiful.' 
</p>
            <p>She started and looked round at him, to see whether his 
face would give some help to the interpretation of this novel 
speech. He was looking up at her quite calmly, very much 
as a reverential Protestant might look at a picture of the 
Virgin, with a devoutness suggested by the type rather than 
by the image. Esther's vanity was not in the least gratified: 
she felt that, somehow or other, Felix was going to reproach 
her. 
</p>
            <p>'I wonder,' he went on, still looking at her, 'whether the 
subtle measuring of forces will ever come to measuring 
the force there would be in one beautiful woman whose mind 
was as noble as her face was beautiful — who made a man's 
passion for her rush in one current with all the great aims 
of his life.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther's eyes got hot and smarting. It was no use trying to <pb n="365"/>
be dignified. She had turned away her head, and now said, 
rather bitterly, 'It is difficult for a woman ever to try to be 
anything good when she is not believed in — when it is 
always supposed that she must be contemptible.' 
</p>
            <p>'No, dear Esther' — it was the first time Felix had been 
prompted to call her by her Christian name, and as he did 
so he laid his large hand on her two little hands, which were 
clasped on her knees. 'You don't believe that I think you 
contemptible. When I first saw you —' 
</p>
            <p>'I know, I know,' said Esther, interrupting him 
impetuously, but still looking away. 'You mean you did think me 
contemptible then. But it was very narrow of you to judge 
me in that way, when my life had been so different from 
yours. I have great faults. I know I am selfish, and think too 
much of my own small tastes and too little of what affects 
others. But I am not stupid. I am not unfeeling. I can see 
what is better.' 
</p>
            <p>'But I have not done you injustice since I knew more of 
you,' said Felix, gently. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, you have,' said Esther, turning and smiling at him 
through her tears. 'You talk to me like an angry pedagogue. 
Were you always wise? Remember the time when you were 
foolish or naughty.' 
</p>
            <p>'That is not far off,' said Felix, curtly, taking away his hand 
and clasping it with the other at the back of his head. The 
talk, which seemed to be introducing a mutual 
understanding, such as had not existed before, seemed to have 
undergone some check. 
</p>
            <p>'Shall we get up and walk back now?' said Esther, after a 
few moments. 
</p>
            <p>'No,' said Felix, entreatingly. 'Don't move yet. I 
daresay we shall never walk together or sit here again.' 
</p>
            <p>'Why not?' 
</p>
            <p>'Because I am a man who am warned by visions. Those 
old stories of visions and dreams guiding men have their 
truth: we are saved by making the future present to 
ourselves.' <pb n="366"/>
            </p>
            <p>'I wish I could get visions, then,' said Esther, smiling at 
him, with an effort at playfulness, in resistance to something 
vaguely mournful within her. 
</p>
            <p>'That is what I want,' said Felix, looking at her very 
earnestly. 'Don't turn your head. Do look at me, and then 
I shall know if I may go on speaking. I do believe in you; but 
I want you to have such a vision of the future that you may 
never lose your best self. Some charm or other may be flung 
about you — some of your atta-of-rose fascinations — and 
nothing but a good strong terrible vision will save you. And 
if it did save you, you might be that woman I was thinking 
of a little while ago when I looked at your face: the woman 
whose beauty makes a great task easier to men instead of 
turning them away from it. I am not likely to see such fine 
issues; but they may come where a woman's spirit is finely 
touched. I should like to be sure they would come to you.' 
</p>
            <p>'Why are you not likely to know what becomes of me?' 
said Esther, turning away her eyes in spite of his command. 
'Why should you not always be my father's friend and 
mine?' 
</p>
            <p>'O, I shall go away as soon as I can to some large town,' 
said Felix, in his more usual tone, — 'some ugly, wicked, 
miserable place. I want to be a demagogue of a new sort; an 
honest one, if possible, who will tell the people they are blind 
and foolish, and neither flatter them nor fatten on them. I 
have my heritage — an order I belong to. I have the blood of a 
line of handicraftsmen in my veins, and I want to stand up 
for the lot of the handicraftsmen as a good lot, in which a 
man may be better trained to all the best functions of his 
nature than if he belonged to the grimacing set who have 
visiting-cards, and are proud to be thought richer than their 
neighbours.' 
</p>
            <p>'Would nothing ever make it seem right to you to change 
your mind?' said Esther (she had rapidly woven some 
possibilities out of the new uncertainties in her own lot, though 
she would not for the world have had Felix know of her 
weaving). 'Suppose, by some means or other, a fortune might <pb n="367"/>
come to you honourably — by marriage, or in any other 
unexpected way — would you see no change in your course?' 
</p>
            <p>'No,' said Felix, peremptorily: 'I will never be rich. I 
don't count that as any peculiar virtue. Some men do well to 
accept riches, but that is not my inward vocation: I have no 
fellow-feeling with the rich as a class; the habits of their 
lives are odious to me. Thousands of men have wedded 
poverty because they expect to go to heaven for it; I don't 
expect to go to heaven for it, but I wed it because it enables 
me to do what I most want to do on earth. Whatever the 
hopes for the world may be — whether great or small — I am 
a man of this generation; I will try to make life less bitter 
for a few within my reach. It is held reasonable enough to 
toil for the fortunes of a family, though it may turn to 
imbecility in the third generation. I choose a family with 
more chances in it.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther looked before her dreamily till she said, 'That 
seems a hard lot; yet it is a great one.' She rose to walk back. 
</p>
            <p>'Then you don't think I'm a fool,' said Felix, loudly, 
starting to his feet, and then stooping to gather up his cap and 
stick. 
</p>
            <p>'Of course you suspected me of that stupidity.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well — women, unless they are Saint Theresas or 
Elizabeth Frys, generally think this sort of thing madness, unless 
when they read of it in the Bible.' 
</p>
            <p>'A woman can hardly ever choose in that way; she is 
dependent on what happens to her. She must take meaner 
things, because only meaner things are within her reach.' 
</p>
            <p>'Why, can you imagine yourself choosing hardship as the 
better lot?' said Felix, looking at her with a sudden question 
in his eyes. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, I can,' she said, flushing over neck and brow. 
</p>
            <p>Their words were charged with a meaning dependent 
entirely on the secret consciousness of each. Nothing had 
been said which was necessarily personal. They walked a few 
yards along the road by which they had come, without 
further speech, till Felix said gently, 'Take my arm.' She took <pb n="368"/>
it, and they walked home so, entirely without conversation. 
Felix was struggling as a firm man struggles with a 
temptation, seeing beyond it and disbelieving its lying promise. 
Esther was struggling as a woman struggles with the 
yearning for some expression of love, and with vexation under 
that subjection to a yearning which is not likely to be 
satisfied. Each was conscious of a silence which each was unable 
to break, till they entered Malthouse Lane, and were within 
a few yards of the minister's door. 
</p>
            <p>'It is getting dusk,' Felix then said; 'will Mr Lyon be 
anxious about you?' 
</p>
            <p>'No, I think not. Lyddy would tell him that I went out 
with you, and that you carried a large stick,' said Esther, 
with her light laugh. 
</p>
            <p>Felix went in with Esther to take tea, but the conversation 
was entirely between him and Mr Lyon about the tricks of 
canvassing, and foolish personality of the placards, and the 
probabilities of Transome's return, as to which Felix 
declared himself to have become indifferent. This scepticism 
made the minister uneasy: he had great belief in the old 
political watchwords, had preached that universal suffrage 
and no ballot were agreeable to the will of God, and liked to 
believe that a visible 'instrument' was forthcoming in the 
Radical candidate who had pronounced emphatically against 
Whig finality. Felix, being in a perverse mood, contended 
that universal suffrage would be equally agreeable to the 
devil; that he would change his politics a little, having a 
larger traffic, and see himself more fully represented in 
parliament. 
</p>
            <p>'Nay, my friend,' said the minister, 'you are again sporting 
with paradox; for you will not deny that you glory in the 
name of Radical, or Root-and-branch man, as they said in 
the great times when Nonconformity was in its giant 
youth.' 
</p>
            <p>'A Radical — yes; but I want to go to some roots a good deal 
lower down than the franchise.' 
</p>
            <p>'Truly there is a work within which cannot be dispensed <pb n="369"/>
with; but it is our preliminary work to free men from the 
stifled life of political nullity, and bring them into what 
Milton calls “the liberal air”, wherein alone can be wrought 
the final triumphs of the Spirit.' 
</p>
            <p>'With all my heart. But while Caliban is Caliban, though 
you multiply him by a million, he'll worship every Trinculo 
that carries a bottle. I forget, though — you don't read 
Shakspeare, Mr Lyon.' 
</p>
            <p>'I am bound to confess that I have so far looked into a 
volume of Esther's as to conceive your meaning; but the 
fantasies therein were so little to be reconciled with a steady 
contemplation of that divine economy which is hidden from 
sense and revealed to faith, that I forbore the reading, as 
likely to perturb my ministrations.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther sat by in unusual silence. The conviction that Felix 
willed her exclusion from his life was making it plain that 
something more than friendship between them was not so 
thoroughly out of the question as she had always inwardly 
asserted. In her pain that his choice lay aloof from her, she 
was compelled frankly to admit to herself the longing that 
it had been otherwise, and that he had entreated her to 
share his difficult life. He was like no one else to her: he had 
seemed to bring at once a law, and the love that gave strength 
to obey the law. Yet the next moment, stung by his 
independence of her, she denied that she loved him; she had only 
longed for a moral support under the negations of her life. If 
she were not to have that support, all effort seemed useless. 
</p>
            <p>Esther had been so long used to hear the formulas of her 
father's belief without feeling or understanding them, that 
they had lost all power to touch her. The first religious 
experience of her life — the first self-questioning, the first 
voluntary subjection, the first longing to acquire the strength 
of greater motives and obey the more strenuous rule — had 
come to her through Felix Holt. No wonder that she felt as 
if the loss of him were inevitable backsliding. 
</p>
            <p>But was it certain that she should lose him? She did not 
believe that he was really indifferent to her. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c28" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 28</head>
            <pb n="370"/>
            <q>
               <l>'Titus. But what says Jupiter, I ask thee? </l>
               <l>CLOWN.  Alas, sir, I know not Jupiter: </l>
               <l>I never drank with him in all my life.' </l>
               <l>Titus Andronicus. </l>
            </q>
            <p>THE multiplication of uncomplimentary placards noticed 
by Mr Lyon and Felix Holt was one of several signs that the 
days of nomination and election were approaching. The 
presence of the revising barrister in Treby was not only an 
opportunity for all persons not otherwise busy to show their 
zeal for the purification of the voting-lists, but also to 
reconcile private ease and public duty by standing about the 
streets and lounging at doors. 
</p>
            <p>It was no light business for Trebians to form an opinion; 
the mere fact of a public functionary with an unfamiliar 
title was enough to give them pause, as a premiss that was 
not to be quickly started from. To Mr Pink the saddler, for 
example, until some distinct injury or benefit had accrued 
to him, the existence of the revising barrister was like the 
existence of the young giraffe which Wombwell had lately 
brought into those parts — it was to be contemplated, and not 
criticised. Mr Pink professed a deep-dyed Toryism; but he 
regarded all fault-finding as Radical and somewhat impious, 
as disturbing to trade, and likely to offend the gentry or the 
servants through whom their harness was ordered: there 
was a Nemesis in things which made objection unsafe, and 
even the Reform Bill was a sort of electric eel which a 
thriving tradesman had better leave alone. It was only 
the 'Papists' who lived far enough off to be spoken of 
uncivilly. 
</p>
            <p>But Mr Pink was fond of news, which he collected and 
retailed with perfect impartiality, noting facts and rejecting 
comments. Hence he was well pleased to have his shop so 
constant a place of resort for loungers, that to many 
Trebians there was a strong association between the pleasures 
of gossip and the smell of leather. He had the satisfaction <pb n="371"/>
of chalking and cutting, and of keeping his journeymen 
close at work, at the very time that he learned from his 
visitors who were those whose votes had been called in 
question before His Honour, how Lawyer Jermyn had been too 
much for Lawyer Labron about Todd's cottages, and how, 
in the opinion of some townsmen, this looking into the value 
of people's property, and swearing it down below a certain 
sum, was a nasty, inquisitorial kind of thing; while others 
observed that being nice to a few pounds was all nonsense — 
they should put the figure high enough, and then never 
mind if a voter's qualification was thereabouts. But, said 
Mr Sims the auctioneer, everything was done for the sake of 
the lawyers. Mr Pink suggested impartially that lawyers 
must live; but Mr Sims, having a ready auctioneering wit, 
did not see that so many of them need live, or that babies 
were born lawyers. Mr Pink felt that this speculation was 
complicated by the ordering of side-saddles for lawyers' 
daughters, and, returning to the firm ground of fact, stated 
that it was getting dusk. 
</p>
            <p>The dusk seemed deepened the next moment by a tall 
figure obstructing the doorway, at sight of whom Mr Pink 
rubbed his hands and smiled and bowed more than once, 
with evident solicitude to show honour where honour was 
due, while he said — 
</p>
            <p>'Mr Christian, sir, how do you do, sir?' 
</p>
            <p>Christian answered with the condescending familiarity of 
a superior. 'Very badly, I can tell you, with these confounded 
braces that you were to make such a fine job of. See, old 
fellow, they've burst out again.' 
</p>
            <p>'Very sorry, sir. Can you leave them with me?' 
</p>
            <p>'O yes, I'll leave them. What's the news, eh?' said Christian, 
half seating himself on a high stool, and beating his boot 
with a hand-whip. 
</p>
            <p>'Well, sir, we look to you to tell us that,' said Mr Pink, 
with a knowing smile. 'You're at headquarters — eh, sir? 
That was what I said to Mr Scales the other day. He came 
for some straps, Mr Scales did, and he asked that question in <pb n="372"/>
pretty near the same terms that you've done, sir, and I 
answered him, as I may say, ditto. Not meaning any 
disrespect to you, sir, but a way of speaking.' 
</p>
            <p>'Come, that's gammon, Pink,' said Christian. 'You know 
everything. You can tell me, if you will, who is the fellow 
employed to paste up Transome's handbills?' 
</p>
            <p>'What do you say, Mr Sims?' said Pink, looking at the 
auctioneer. 
</p>
            <p>'Why, you know and I know well enough. It's Tommy 
Trounsem — an old, crippling, half-mad fellow. Most people 
know Tommy. I've employed him myself for charity.' 
</p>
            <p>'Where shall I find him?' said Christian. 
</p>
            <p>'At the Cross-Keys, in Pollard's End, most likely,' said Mr 
Sims. 'I don't know where he puts himself when he isn't at 
the public.' 
</p>
            <p>'He was a stoutish fellow fifteen year ago, when he carried 
pots,' said Mr Pink. 
</p>
            <p>'Ay, and has snared many a hare in his time,' said Mr 
Sims. 'But he was always a little cracked. Lord bless you! 
he used to swear he'd a right to the Transome estate.' 
</p>
            <p>'Why, what put that notion into his head?' said Christian, 
who had learned more than he expected. 
</p>
            <p>'The lawing, sir — nothing but the lawing about the estate. 
There was a deal of it twenty year ago,' said Mr Pink. 
'Tommy happened to turn up hereabout at that time; a big, 
lungeous fellow, who would speak disrespectfully of 
hanybody.' 
</p>
            <p>'O, he meant no harm,' said Mr Simms. 'He was fond of a 
drop to drink, and not quite right in the upper story, and 
he could hear no difference between Trounsem and 
Transome. It's an odd way of speaking they have in that part 
where he was born — a little north'ard. You'll hear it in his 
tongue now, if you talk to him.' 
</p>
            <p>'At the Cross-Keys I shall find him, eh?' said Christian, 
getting off his stool. 'Good-day, Pink, good-day.' 
</p>
            <p>Christian went straight from the saddler's to Quorlen's, the <pb n="373"/>
Tory printer's, with whom he had contrived a political spree. 
Quorlen was a new man in Treby, who had so reduced the 
trade of Dow, the old hereditary printer, that Dow had 
lapsed to Whiggery and Radicalism and opinions in general, 
so far as they were contented to express themselves in a 
small stock of types. Quorlen had brought his Duffield wit 
with him, and insisted that religion and joking were the 
handmaids of politics; on which principle he and Christian 
undertook the joking, and left the religion to the rector. 
The joke at present in question was a practical one. Christian, 
turning into the shop, merely said, 'I've found him out — 
give me the placards'; and, tucking a thickish flat bundle, 
wrapped in a black glazed cotton bag, under his arm, walked 
out into the dusk again. 
</p>
            <p>'Suppose now,' he said to himself, as he strode along — 
'suppose there should be some secret to be got out of this old 
scamp, or some notion that's as good as a secret to those who 
know how to use it? That would be virtue rewarded. But 
I'm afraid the old tosspot is not likely to be good for much. 
There's truth in wine, and there may be some in gin and 
muddy beer; but whether it's truth worth my knowing, is 
another question. I've got plenty of truth in my time out of 
men who were half-seas-over, but never any that was worth 
a sixpence to me.' 
</p>
            <p>The Cross-Keys was a very old-fashioned 'public': its bar 
was a big rambling kitchen, with an undulating brick floor; 
the small-paned windows threw an interesting obscurity over 
the far-off dresser, garnished with pewter and tin, and with 
large dishes that seemed to speak of better times; the two 
settles were half pushed under the wide-mouthed chimney; 
and the grate, with its brick hobs, massive iron crane, and 
various pothooks, suggested a generous plenty possibly 
existent in all moods and tenses except the indicative 
present. One way of getting an idea of our fellow-countrymen's 
miseries is to go and look at their pleasures. The Cross-Keys 
had a fungous-featured landlord and a yellow sickly 
landlady, with a napkin bound round her head like a resuscitated <pb n="374"/>
Lazarus; it had doctored ale, an odour of bad tobacco, and 
remarkably strong cheese. It was not what Astraea, when 
come back, might be expected to approve as the scene of 
ecstatic enjoyment for the beings whose special prerogative 
it is to lift their sublime faces towards heaven. Still, there 
was ample space on the hearth — accommodation for 
narrative bagmen or boxmen — room for a man to stretch his 
legs; his brain was not pressed upon by a white wall within a 
yard of him, and the light did not stare in mercilessly on 
bare ugliness, turning the fire to ashes. Compared with some 
beerhouses of this more advanced period, the Cross-Keys of 
that day presented a high standard of pleasure. 
</p>
            <p>But though this venerable 'public' had not failed to share 
in the recent political excitement of drinking, the pleasures 
it offered were not at this early hour of the evening sought by 
a numerous company. There were only three or four pipes 
being smoked by the firelight, but it was enough for 
Christian when he found that one of these was being smoked by 
the bill-sticker, whose large flat basket stuffed with placards, 
leaned near him against the settle. So splendid an apparition 
as Christian was not a little startling at the Cross-Keys, and 
was gazed at in expectant silence; but he was a stranger in 
Pollard's End, and was taken for the highest style of traveller 
when he declared that he was deucedly thirsty, ordered 
six-pennyworth of gin and a large jug of water, and, putting a 
few drops of the spirit into his own glass, invited Tommy 
Trounsem, who sat next him, to help himself. Tommy was 
not slower than a shaking hand obliged him to be in 
accepting this invitation. He was a tall broad-shouldered old 
fellow, who had once been good-looking; but his cheeks 
and chest were both hollow now, and his limbs were 
shrunken. 
</p>
            <p>'You've got some bills there, master, eh?' said Christian, 
pointing to the basket. 'Is there an auction coming on?' 
</p>
            <p>'Auction? no,' said Tommy, with a gruff hoarseness, which 
was the remnant of a jovial bass, and with an accent which 
differed from the Trebian fitfully, as an early habit is wont <pb n="375"/>
to reassert itself 'I've nought to do wi' auctions; I'm a 
pol'tical charicter. It's me am getting Trounsem into 
parliament.' 
</p>
            <p>'Trounsem, says he,' the landlord observed, taking out his 
pipe with a low laugh. 'It's Transome, sir. Maybe you don't 
belong to this part. It's the candidate 'ull do most for the 
working men, and's proved it too, in the way o' being 
openhanded and wishing 'em to enjoy themselves. If I'd twenty 
votes, I'd give one for Transome, and I don't care who hears 
me.' 
</p>
            <p>The landlord peeped out from his fungous cluster of 
features with a beery confidence that the high figure of twenty 
had somehow raised the hypothetic value of his vote. 
</p>
            <p>'Spilkins, now,' said Tommy, waving his hand to the 
landlord, 'you let one genelman speak to another, will you? This 
genelman wants to know about my bills. Does he, or doesn't 
he?' 
</p>
            <p>'What then? I spoke according,' said the landlord, mildly 
holding his own. 
</p>
            <p>'You're all very well, Spilkins,' returned Tommy, 'but 
y'aren't me. I know what the bills are. It's public business. 
I'm none o' your common bill-stickers, master; I've left off 
sticking up ten guineas reward for a sheep-stealer, or low 
stuff like that. These are Trounsem's bills; and I'm the 
rightful family, and so I give him a lift. A Trounsem I am, and a 
Trounsem I'll be buried; and if Old Nick tries to lay hold on 
me for poaching, I'll say, “You be hanged for a lawyer, Old 
Nick; every hare and pheasant on the Trounsem's land is 
mine”; and what rises the family, rises old Tommy; and 
we're going to get into parl'ment — that's the long and the 
short on't, master. And I'm the head o' the family, and I 
stick the bills. There's Johnsons, and Thomsons, and 
Jacksons, and Billsons; but I'm a Trounsem, I am. What do you 
say to that, master?' 
</p>
            <p>This appeal, accompanied by a blow on the table, while 
the landlord winked at the company, was addressed to 
Christian, who answered, with severe gravity — <pb n="376"/>
'I say there isn't any work more honourable than 
bill-sticking.' 
</p>
            <p>'No, no,' said Tommy, wagging his head from side to side. 
'I thought you'd come in to that. I thought you'd know 
better than say contrairy. But I'll shake hands wi' you; I 
don't want to knock any man's head off. I'm a good chap — 
a sound crock — an old family kep' out o' my rights. I shall 
go to heaven, for all Old Nick.' 
</p>
            <p>As these celestial prospects might imply that a little extra 
gin was beginning to tell on the bill-sticker, Christian wanted 
to lose no time in arresting his attention. He laid his hand on 
Tommy's arm and spoke emphatically. 
</p>
            <p>'But I'll tell you what you bill-stickers are not up to. You 
should be on the look-out when Debarry's side have stuck up 
fresh bills, and go and paste yours over them. I know where 
there's a lot of Debarry's bills now. Come along with me, 
and I'll show you. We'll paste them over, and then we'll 
come back and treat the company.' 
</p>
            <p>'Hooray ! ' said Tommy. 'Let's be off then.' 
</p>
            <p>He was one of the thoroughly inured, originally hale 
drunkards, and did not easily lose his head or legs or the 
ordinary amount of method in his talk. Strangers often 
supposed that Tommy was tipsy when he had only taken what 
he called 'one blessed pint', chiefly from that glorious 
contentment with himself and his adverse fortunes which is not 
usually characteristic of the sober Briton. He knocked the 
ashes out of his pipe, seized his paste-vessel and his basket, 
and prepared to start, with a satisfactory promise that he 
could know what he was about. 
</p>
            <p>The landlord and some others had confidently concluded 
that they understood all about Christian now. He was a 
Transome's man, come to see after the bill-sticking in 
Transome's interest. The landlord, telling his yellow wife 
snappishly to open the door for the gentleman, hoped soon to see 
him again. 
</p>
            <p>'This is a Transome's house, sir,' he observed, 'in respect 
of entertaining customers of that colour. I do my duty as a <pb n="377"/>
publican, which, if I know it, is to turn back no genelman's 
money. I say, give every genelman a chanch, and the more 
the merrier, in parl'ment and out of it. And if anybody says 
they want but two parl'ment men, I say it 'ud be better for 
trade if there was six of 'em, and voters according.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ay, ay,' said Christian; 'you're a sensible man, landlord. 
You don't mean to vote for Debarry then, eh?' 
</p>
            <p>'Not nohow,' said the landlord, thinking that where 
negatives were good the more you heard of them the better. 
</p>
            <p>As soon as the door had closed behind Christian and his 
new companion, Tommy said — 
</p>
            <p>'Now, master, if you're to be my lantern, don't you be a 
Jacky Lantern, which I take to mean one as leads you the 
wrong way. For I'll tell you what — if you've had the luck to 
fall in wi' Tommy Trounsem, don't you let him drop.' 
</p>
            <p>'No, no — to be sure not,' said Christian. 'Come along here. 
We'll go to the Back Brewery wall first.' 
</p>
            <p>'No, no; don't you let me drop. Give me a shilling any day 
you like, and I'll tell you more nor you'll hear from Spilkins 
in a week. There isna many men like me. I carried pots for 
fifteen years off and on — what do you think o' that now, for a 
man as might ha' lived up there at Trounsem Park, and 
snared his own game? Which I'd ha' done,' said Tommy, 
wagging his head at Christian in the dimness undisturbed 
by gas. 'None o' your shooting for me — it's two to one you'll 
miss. Snaring's more fishing-like. You bait your hook, and 
if it isna the fishes' goodwill to come, that's nothing 
again' the sporting genelman. And that's what I say by 
snaring.' 
</p>
            <p>'But if you'd a right to the Transome estate, how was it 
you were kept out of it, old boy? It was some foul shame or 
other, eh?' 
</p>
            <p>'It's the law — that's what it is. You're a good sort o' chap; 
I don't mind telling you. There's folks born to property, 
and there's folks catch hold on it; and the law's made for 
them as catch hold. I'm pretty deep; I see a good deal further 
than Spilkins. There was Ned Patch, the pedlar, used to say <pb n="378"/>
to me “You canna read, Tommy,” says he. “No; thank you,” 
says I; “I'm not going to crack my headpiece to make myself 
as big a fool as you.” I was fond o' Ned. Many's the pot we've 
had together.' 
</p>
            <p>'I see well enough you're deep, Tommy. How came you to 
know you were born to property?' 
</p>
            <p>'It was the regester — the parish regester,' said Tommy, 
with his knowing wag of the head, 'that shows as you was 
born. I allays felt it inside me as I was somebody, and I 
could see other chaps thought it on me too; and so one day 
at Littleshaw, where I kept ferrets and a little bit of a public, 
there comes a fine man looking after me, and walking me 
up and down wi' questions. And I made out from the clerk 
as he'd been at the regester; and I gave the clerk a pot or 
two, and he got it of our parson as the name o' Trounsem 
was a great name hereabout. And I waits a bit for my fine 
man to come again. Thinks I, if there's property wants a 
right owner, I shall be called for; for I didn't know the law 
then. And I waited and waited, till I see'd no fun i' waiting. 
So I parted wi' my public and my ferrets — for she was dead 
a'ready, my wife was, and I hadn't no cumbrance. And off I 
started a pretty long walk to this countryside, for I could 
walk for a wager in them days.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah! well, here we are at the Back Brewery wall. Put down 
your paste and your basket now, old boy, and I'll help you. 
You paste, and I'll give you the bills, and then you can go on 
talking.' 
</p>
            <p>Tommy obeyed automatically, for he was now carried 
away by the rare opportunity of talking to a new listener, 
and was only eager to go on with his story. As soon as his 
back was turned, and he was stooping over his paste-pot, 
Christian, with quick adroitness, exchanged the placards in 
his own bag for those in Tommys basket. Christian's 
placards had not been printed at Treby, but were a new lot 
which had been sent from Duffield that very day — 'highly 
spiced', Quorlen had said, 'coming from a pen that was up to 
that sort of thing'. Christian had read the first of the sheaf, <pb n="379"/>
and supposed they were all alike. He proceeded to hand one 
to Tommy, and said — 
</p>
            <p>'Here, old boy, paste this over the other. And so, when 
you got into this country-side, what did you do?' 
</p>
            <p>'Do? Why, I put up at a good public and ordered the best, 
for I'd a bit o' money in my pocket; and I axed about, and 
they said to me, if it's Trounsem business you're after, you 
go to Lawyer Jermyn. And I went; and says I, going along, 
he's maybe the fine man as walked me up and down. But no 
such thing. I'll tell you what Lawyer Jermyn was. He stands 
you there, and holds you away from him wi' a pole three 
yards long. He stares at you, and says nothing, till you feel 
like a Tomfool; and then he threats you to set the justice on 
you; and then he's sorry for you, and hands you money, and 
preaches you a sarmint, and tells you you're a poor man, and 
he'll give you a bit of advice — and you'd better not be 
meddling wi' things belonging to the law, else you'll be catched 
up in a big wheel and fly to bits. And I went of a cold sweat, 
and I wished I might never come i' sight o' Lawyer Jermyn 
again. But he says, if you keep i' this neighbourhood, 
behave yourself well, and I'll pertect you. I were deep enough, 
but it's no use being deep, 'cause you can never know the law. 
And there's times when the deepest fellow's worst 
frightened.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, yes. There! Now for another placard. And so that 
was all?' 
</p>
            <p>'All?' said Tommy, turning round and holding the 
pastebrush in suspense. 'Don't you be running too quick. Thinks 
I, “I'll meddle no more. I've got a bit o' money — I'll buy a 
basket, and be a potman. It's a pleasant life. I shall live at 
publics and see the world, and pick up 'quaintance, and get a 
chanch penny.” But when I'd turned into the Red Lion, and 
got myself warm again wi' a drop o' hot, something jumps 
into my head. Thinks I, Tommy, you've done finely for 
yourself: you're a rat as has broke up your house to take a 
journey, and show yourself to a ferret. And then it jumps into my 
head: I'd once two ferrets as turned on one another, and the <pb n="380"/>
little un killed the big un. Says I to the landlady, “Missis, 
could you tell me of a lawyer,” says I, “not very big or fine, 
but a second size — a pig-potato, like?” “That I can,” says 
she; “there's one now in the bar-parlour.” “Be so kind as 
bring us together,” says I. And she cries out — I think I hear 
her now — “Mr Johnson ! “ And what do you think?' 
</p>
            <p>At this crisis in Tommy's story the grey clouds, which had 
been gradually thinning, opened sufficiently to let down the 
sudden moonlight, and show his poor battered old figure 
and face in the attitude and with the expression of a narrator 
sure of the coming effect on his auditor; his body and neck 
stretched a little on one side, and his paste-brush held out 
with an alarming intention of tapping Christian's 
coat-sleeve at the right moment. Christian started to a safe 
distance, and said — 
</p>
            <p>'It's wonderful. I can't tell what to think.' 
</p>
            <p>'Then never do you deny Old Nick,' said Tommy, with 
solemnity. 'I've believed in him more ever since. Who was 
Johnson? Why, Johnson was the fine man as had walked me 
up and down with questions. And I out with it to him then 
and there. And he speaks me civil, and says, “Come away wi' 
me, my good fellow.” And he told me a deal o' law. And he 
says, whether you're a Tommy Trounsem or no, it's no good 
to you, but only to them as have got hold o' the property. 
If you was a Tommy Trounsem twenty times over, it 'ud be 
no good, for the law's bought you out; and your life's no 
good, only to them as have catched hold o' the property. 
The more you live, the more they'll stick in. Not as they 
want you now, says he — you're no good to anybody, and you 
might howl like a dog for iver, and the law 'ud take no notice 
on you. Says Johnson. I'm doing a kind thing by you, to tell 
you. For that's the law. And if you want to know the law, 
master, you ask Johnson. I heard 'em say after, as he was an 
understrapper at Jermyn's. I've never forgot it from that day 
to this. But I saw clear enough, as if the law hadn't been 
again' me, the Trounsem estate 'ud ha' been mine. But folks 
are fools hereabouts, and I've left off talking. The more you <pb n="381"/>
tell 'em the truth, the more they'll niver believe you. And I 
went and bought my basket and the pots, and —' 
</p>
            <p>'Come, then, fire away,' said Christian. 'Here's another 
placard.' 
</p>
            <p>'I'm getting a bit dry, master.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, then, make haste, and you'll have something to 
drink all the sooner.' 
</p>
            <p>Tommy turned to his work again, and Christian, 
continuing his help, said, 'And how long has Mr Jermyn been 
employing you?' 
</p>
            <p>'Oh, no particular time — off and on; but a week or two ago 
he sees me upo' the road, and speaks to me uncommon civil, 
and tells me to go up to his office, and he'll give me employ. 
And I was noways unwilling to stick the bills to get the 
family into parl'ment. For there's no man can help the law. 
And the family's the family, whether you carry pots or no. 
Master, I'm uncommon dry — my head's a turning round — it's 
talking so long on end.' 
</p>
            <p>The unwonted excitement of poor Tommy's memory was 
producing a reaction. 
</p>
            <p>'Well, Tommy,' said Christian, who had just made a 
discovery among the placards which altered the bent of his 
thoughts, 'you may go back to the Cross-Keys now, if you 
like; here's a half-crown for you to spend handsomely. I can't 
go back there myself just yet; but you may give my respects 
to Spilkins, and mind you paste the rest of the bills early 
to-morrow morning. 
</p>
            <p>'Ay, ay. But don't you believe too much i' Spilkins,' said 
Tommy, pocketing the half-crown, and showing his 
gratitude by giving this advice — 'he's no harm much — but weak. 
He thinks he's at the bottom o' things because he scores you 
up. But I bear him no ill-will. Tommy Trounsem's a good 
chap; and any day you like to give me half-a-crown, I'll tell 
you the same story over again. Not now; I'm dry. Come, 
help me up wi' these things; you're a younger chap than me. 
Well, I'll tell Spilkins you'll come again another day.' 
</p>
            <p>The moonlight, which had lit up poor Tommy's oratorical <pb n="382"/>
attitude, had served to light up for Christian the print 
of the placards. He had expected the copies to be various, 
and had turned them half over at different depths of the 
sheaf before drawing out those he offered to the bill-sticker. 
Suddenly the clear light had shown him on one of them a 
name which was just then especially interesting to him, and 
all the more when occurring in a placard intended to 
dissuade the electors of North Loamshire from voting for the 
heir of the Transomes. He hastily turned over the lists that 
preceded and succeeded, that he might draw out and carry 
away all of this pattern; for it might turn out to be wiser for 
him not to contribute to the publicity of handbills which 
contained allusions to Bycliffe versus Transome. There were 
about a dozen of them; he pressed them together and thrust 
them into his pocket, returning all the rest to Tommy's 
basket. To take away this dozen might not be to prevent 
similar bills from being posted up elsewhere, but he had 
reason to believe that these were all of the same kind which 
had been sent to Treby from Duffield. 
</p>
            <p>Christian's interest in his practical joke had died out like a 
morning rushlight. Apart from this discovery in the placards, 
old Tommy's story had some indications in it that were 
worth pondering over. Where was that well-informed 
Johnson now? Was he still an understrapper of Jermyn's? 
</p>
            <p>With this matter in his thoughts, Christian only turned in 
hastily at Quorlen's, threw down the black bag which 
contained the captured Radical handbills, said he had done the 
job, and hurried back to the Manor that he might study his 
problem. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c29" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 29</head>
            <pb n="383"/>
            <q>
               <p>'I doe believe that, as the gall has several receptacles in 
several creatures, soe there's scarce any creature but hath that 
emunctorye somewhere.' — SIR THOMAS BROWNE. 
</p>
            </q>
            <p>FANCY what a game at chess would be if all the chessmen 
had passions and intellects, more or less small and cunning: 
if you were not only uncertain about your adversary's men, 
but a little uncertain also about your own; if your knight 
could shuffle himself on to a new square by the sly; if your 
bishop, in disgust at your castling, could wheedle your 
pawns out of their places; and if your pawns, hating you 
because they are pawns, could make away from their 
appointed posts that you might get checkmate on a sudden. 
You might be the longest-headed of deductive reasoners, 
and yet you might be beaten by your own pawns. You would 
be especially likely to be beaten, if you depended 
arrogantly on your mathematical imagination, and regarded 
your passionate pieces with contempt. 
</p>
            <p>Yet this imaginary chess is easy compared with the game 
a man has to play against his fellow-men with other 
fellow-men for his instruments. He thinks himself sagacious, 
perhaps, because he trusts no bond except that of self-interest; 
but the only self-interest he can safely rely on is what seems 
to be such to the mind he would use or govern. Can he ever 
be sure of knowing this? 
</p>
            <p>Matthew Jermyn was under no misgivings as to the fealty 
of Johnson. He had 'been the making of Johnson'; and this 
seems to many men a reason for expecting devotion, in spite 
of the fact that they themselves, though very fond of their 
own persons and lives, are not at all devoted to the Maker 
they believe in. Johnson was a most serviceable subordinate. 
Being a man who aimed at respectability, a family man, who 
had a good church-pew, subscribed for engravings of 
banquet pictures where there were portraits of political celebrities, <pb n="384"/>
and wished his children to be more unquestionably 
genteel than their father, he presented all the more 
numerous handles of worldly motive by which a judicious superior 
might keep a hold on him. But this useful regard to 
respectability had its inconvenience in relation to such a superior: 
it was a mark of some vanity and some pride, which, if they 
were not touched just in the right handlling-place, were 
liable to become raw and sensitive. Jermyn was aware of 
Johnson's weaknesses, and thought he had flattered them 
sufficiently. But on the point of knowing when we are 
disagreeable, our human nature is fallible. Our lavender-water, 
our smiles, our compliments, and other polite falsities, are 
constantly offensive, when in the very nature of them they 
can only be meant to attract admiration and regard. Jermyn 
had often been unconsciously disagreeable to Johnson, over 
and above the constant offence of being an ostentatious 
patron. He would never let Johnson dine with his wife and 
daughters; he would not himself dine at Johnson's house 
when he was in town. He often did what was equivalent to 
pooh-poohing his conversation by not even appearing to 
listen, and by suddenly cutting it short with a query on a 
new subject. Jermyn was able and politic enough to have 
commanded a great deal of success in his life, but he could 
not help being handsome, arrogant, fond of being heard, 
indisposed to any kind of comradeship, amorous and bland 
towards women, cold and self-contained towards men. You 
will hear very strong denial that an attorney's being 
handsome could enter into the dislike he excited; but conversation 
consists a good deal in the denial of what is true. From the 
British point of view masculine beauty is regarded very 
much as it is in the drapery business: as good solely for 
the fancy department — for young noblemen, artists, poets, 
and the clergy. Some one who, like Mr Lingon, was disposed 
to revile Jermyn (perhaps it was Sir Maximus), had called 
him 'a cursed, sleek, handsome, long-winded, over-bearing 
sycophant;' epithets which expressed, rather confusedly, 
the mingled character of the dislike he excited. And serviceable <pb n="385"/>
John Johnson, himself sleek, and mindful about his 
broadcloth and his cambric fronts, had what he considered 
'spirit' enough within him to feel that dislike of Jermyn 
gradually gathering force through years of obligation and 
subjection, till it had become an actuating motive disposed 
to use an opportunity, if not to watch for one. 
</p>
            <p>It was not this motive, however, but rather the ordinary 
course of business, which accounted for Johnson's playing a 
double part as an electioneering agent. What men do in 
elections is not to be classed either among sins or marks of 
grace: it would be profane to include business in religion, 
and conscience refers to failure, not to success. Still, the 
sense of being galled by Jermyn's harness was an additional 
reason for cultivating all relations that were independent 
of him; and pique at Harold Transome's behaviour to him 
in Jermyn's office perhaps gave all the more zest to 
Johnson's use of his pen and ink when he wrote a handbill in the 
service of Garstin, and Garstin's incomparable agent, Putty, 
full of innuendoes against Harold Transome, as a 
descendant of the Durfey-Transomes. It is a natural subject of 
self-congratulation to a man, when special knowledge, gained 
long ago without any forecast, turns out to afford a special 
inspiration in the present; and Johnson felt a new pleasure 
in the consciousness that he of all people in the world next 
to Jermyn had the most intimate knowledge of the 
Transome affairs. Still better — some of these affairs were secrets 
of Jermyn's. If in an uncomplimentary spirit he might have 
been called Jermyn's 'man of straw', it was a satisfaction to 
know that the unreality of the man John Johnson was 
confined to his appearance in annuity deeds, and that elsewhere 
he was solid, locomotive, and capable of remembering 
anything for his own pleasure and benefit. To act with 
doubleness towards a man whose own conduct was double, was so 
near an approach to virtue that it deserved to be called by 
no meaner name than diplomacy. 
</p>
            <p>By such causes it came to pass that Christian held in his 
hands a bill in which Jermyn was playfully alluded to as Mr <pb n="386"/>
German Cozen, who won games by clever shuffling and odd 
tricks without any honour, and backed Durfey's crib against 
Bycliffe, — in which it was adroitly implied that the so-called 
head of the Transomes was only the tail of the Durfeys, — 
and that some said the Durfeys would have died out and left 
their nest empty if it had not been for their German Cozen. 
</p>
            <p>Johnson had not dared to use any recollections except 
such as might credibly exist in other minds besides his own. 
In the truth of the case, no one but himself had the 
prompting to recall these outworn scandals; but it was likely enough 
that such foul-winged things should be revived by election 
heats for Johnson to escape all suspicion. 
</p>
            <p>Christian could gather only dim and uncertain inferences 
from this 'dat irony and heavy joking; but one chief thing 
was clear to him. He had been right in his conjecture that 
Jermyn's interest about Bycliffe had its source in some claim 
of Bycliffe's on the Transome property. And then, there was 
that story of the old bill-sticker's, which, closely considered, 
indicated that the right of the present Transomes depended, 
or at least had depended, on the continuance of some other 
lives. Christian in his time had gathered enough legal notions 
to be aware that possession by one man sometimes depended 
on the life of another; that a man might sell his own interest 
in property, and the interest of his descendants, while a 
claim on that property would still remain to some one else 
than the purchaser, supposing the descendants became 
extinct, and the interest they had sold were at an end. But 
under what conditions the claim might be valid or void in 
any particular case, was all darkness to him. Suppose 
Bycliffe had any such claim on the Transome estates: how 
was Christian to know whether at the present moment it was 
worth anything more than a bit of rotten parchment? Old 
Tommy Trounsem had said that Johnson knew all about 
it. But even if Johnson were still above-ground — and all 
Johnsons are mortal — he might still be an understrapper of 
Jermyn's, in which case his knowledge would be on the 
wrong side of the hedge for the purposes of Henry Scaddon. <pb n="387"/>
His immediate care must be to find out all he could about 
Johnson. He blamed himself for not having questioned 
Tommy further while he had him at command; but on this 
head the bill-sticker could hardly know more than the less 
dilapidated denizens of Treby. 
</p>
            <p>Now it had happened that during the weeks in which 
Christian had been at work in trying to solve the enigma of 
Jermyn's interest about Bycliffe, Johnson's mind also had 
been somewhat occupied with suspicion and conjecture as 
to new information on the subject of the old Bycliffe claims 
which Jermyn intended to conceal from him. The letter 
which, after his interview with Christian, Jermyn had 
written with a sense of perfect safety to his faithful ally Johnson, 
was, as we know, written to a Johnson who had found his 
self-love incompatible with that faithfulness of which it was 
supposed to be the foundation. Anything that the patron 
felt it inconvenient for his obliged friend and servant to 
know, became by that very fact an object of peculiar 
curiosity. The obliged friend and servant secretly doted on his 
patron's inconvenience, provided that he himself did not 
share it; and conjecture naturally became active. 
</p>
            <p>Johnson's legal imagination, being very differently 
furnished from Christian's, was at no loss to conceive 
conditions under which there might arise a new claim on the 
Transome estates. He had before him the whole history of 
the settlement of those estates made a hundred years ago 
by John Justus Transome, entailing them, whilst in his 
possession, on his son Thomas and his heirs-male, with 
remainder to the Bycliffes in fee. He knew that Thomas, son 
of John Justus, proving a prodigal, had, without the 
knowledge of his father, the tenant in possession, sold his own and 
his descendants' rights to a lawyer-cousin named Durfey; 
that, therefore, the title of the Durfey-Transomes, in spite of 
that old Durfey's tricks to show the contrary, depended 
solely on the purchase of the 'base fee' thus created by 
Thomas Transome; and that the Bycliffes were the 
'remainder-men' who might fairly oust the Durfey-Transomes <pb n="388"/>
if ever the issue of the prodigal Thomas went clean out of 
existence, and ceased to represent a right which he had 
bargained away from them. 
</p>
            <p>Johnson, as Jermyn's subordinate, had been closely 
cognisant of the details concerning the suit instituted by successive 
Bycliffes, of whom Maurice Christian Bycliffe was the last, 
on the plea that the extinction of Thomas Transome's line 
had actually come to pass — a weary suit, which had eaten 
into the fortunes of two families, and had only made the 
cankerworms fat. The suit had closed with the death of 
Maurice Christian Bycliffe in prison; but before his death, 
Jermyn's exertions to get evidence that there was still issue 
of Thomas Transome's line surviving, as a security of the 
Durfey title, had issued in the discovery of a Thomas 
Transome at Littleshaw, in Stonyshire, who was the representative 
of a pawned inheritance. The death of Maurice had made 
this discovery useless — had made it seem the wiser part to 
say nothing about it; and the fact had remained a secret 
known only to Jermyn and Johnson. No other Bycliffe was 
known or believed to exist, and the Durfey-Transomes might 
be considered safe, unless — yes, there was an 'unless' which 
Johnson could conceive: an heir or heiress of the Bycliffes 
— if such a personage turned out to be in existence — might 
some time raise a new and valid claim when once informed 
that wretched old Tommy Trounsem the bill-sticker, 
tottering drunkenly on the edge of the grave, was the last issue 
remaining above ground from that dissolute Thomas who 
played his Esau part a century before. While the poor old 
bill-sticker breathed, the Durfey-Transomes could legally 
keep their possession in spite of a possible Bycliffe proved 
real; but not when the parish had buried the bill-sticker. 
</p>
            <p>Still, it is one thing to conceive conditions, and another to 
see any chance of proving their existence. Johnson at present 
had no glimpse of such a chance; and even if he ever gained 
the glimpse, he was not sure that he should ever make any 
use of it. His inquiries of Medwin, in obedience to Jermyn's 
letter, had extracted only a negative as to any information <pb n="389"/>
possessed by the lawyers of Bycliffe concerning a marriage, 
or expectation of offspring on his part. But Johnson felt not 
the less stung by curiosity to know what Jermyn had found 
out that he had found something in relation to a possible 
Bycliffe, Johnson felt pretty sure. And he thought with 
satisfaction that Jermyn could not hinder him from 
knowing what he already knew about Thomas Transome's issue. 
Many things might occur to alter his policy and give a new 
value to facts. Was it certain that Jermyn would always be 
fortunate? 
</p>
            <p>When greed and unscrupulousness exhibit themselves on 
a grand historical scale, and there is question of peace or 
war or amicable partition, it often occurs that gentlemen of 
high diplomatic talents have their minds bent on the same 
object from different points of view. Each, perhaps, is 
thinking of a certain duchy or province, with a view to arranging 
the ownership in such a way as shall best serve the purposes 
of the gentleman with high diplomatic talents in whom each 
is more especially interested. But these select minds in high 
office can never miss their aims from ignorance of each 
other's existence or whereabouts. Their high titles may be 
learned even by common people from every pocket almanac. 
</p>
            <p>But with meaner diplomatists, who might be mutually 
useful, such ignorance is often obstructive. Mr John Johnson 
and Mr Christian, otherwise Henry Scaddon, might have 
had a concentration of purpose and an ingenuity of device 
fitting them to make a figure in the parcelling of Europe, 
and yet they might never have met, simply because Johnson 
knew nothing of Christian, and because Christian did not 
know where to find Johnson. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c30" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 30</head>
            <pb n="390"/>
            <q>
               <l>'His nature is too noble for the world: </l>
               <l>He would not flatter Neptune for his trident, </l>
               <l>Or Jove for his power to thunder. His heart's his mouth: </l>
               <l>What his breast forges, that his tongue must vent; </l>
               <l>And, being angry, doth forget that ever </l>
               <l>He heard the name of death.' — Coriolanus. </l>
            </q>
            <p>CHRISTIAN and Johnson did meet, however, by means that 
were quite incalculable. The incident which brought them 
into communication was due to Felix Holt, who of all men 
in the world had the least affinity either for the indusuious 
or the idle parasite. 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon had urged Felix to go to Duffield on the 15th of 
December, to witness the nomination of the candidates for 
North Loamshire. The minister wished to hear what took 
place; and the pleasure of gratifying him helped to 
outweigh some opposing reasons. 
</p>
            <p>'I shall get into a rage at something or other,' Felix had 
said. 'I've told you one of my weak points. Where I have 
any particular business, I must incur the risks my nature 
brings. But I've no particular business at Duffield. However, 
I'll make a holiday and go. By dint of seeing folly, I shall 
get lessons in patience.' 
</p>
            <p>The weak point to which Felix referred was his liability 
to be carried completely out of his own mastery by indignant 
anger. His strong health, his renunciation of selfish claims, 
his habitual preoccupation with large thoughts and with 
purposes independent of everyday casualties, secured him 
a fine and even temper, free from moodiness or irritability. 
He was full of long-suffering towards his unwise mother, 
who 'pressed him daily with her words and urged him, so 
that his soul was vexed'; he had chosen to fill his days in a 
way that required the utmost exertion of patience, that 
required those little rill-like out-flowings of goodness which in 
minds of great energy must be fed from deep sources of <pb n="391"/>
thought and passionate devotedness. In this way his energies 
served to make him gentle; and now, in this twenty-sixth 
year of his life, they had ceased to make him angry, except 
in the presence of something that roused his deep 
indignation. When once exasperated, the passionateness of his 
nature threw off the yoke of a long-trained consciousness in 
which thought and emotion had been more and more 
completely mingled and concentrated itself in a rage as 
ungovernable as that of boyhood. He was thoroughly aware of the 
liability, and knew that in such circumstances he could not 
answer for himself. Sensitive people with feeble frames have 
often the same sort of fury within them; but they are 
themselves shattered, and shatter nothing. Felix had a terrible 
arm: he knew that he was dangerous; and he avoided the 
conditions that might cause him exasperation, as he would 
have avoided intoxicating drinks if he had been in danger 
of intemperance. 
</p>
            <p>The nomination-day was a great epoch of successful 
trickery, or, to speak in a more parliamentary manner, of 
war-stratagem, on the part of skilful agents. And Mr 
Johnson had his share of inward chuckling and self-approval, as 
one who might justly expect increasing renown, and be some 
day in as general request as the great Putty himself. To 
have the pleasure and the praise of electioneering ingenuity, 
and also to get paid for it, without too much anxiety whether 
the ingenuity will achieve its ultimate end, perhaps gives to 
some select persons a sort of satisfaction in their superiority 
to their more agitated fellow-men that is worthy to be 
classed with those generous enjoyments of having the truth 
chiefly to yourself, and of seeing others in danger of 
drowning while you are high and dry, which seem to have been 
regarded as unmixed privileges by Lucretius and Lord 
Bacon. 
</p>
            <p>One of Mr Johnson's great successes was this. Spratt, the 
hated manager of the Sproxton Colliery, in careless 
confidence that the colliers and other labourers under him would 
follow his orders, had provided carts to carry some loads <pb n="392"/>
of voteless enthusiasm to Duffield on behalf of Garstin; 
enthusiasm which, being already paid for by the recognised 
benefit of Garstin's existence as a capitalist with a share in 
the Sproxton mines, was not to cost much in the form of 
treating. A capitalist was held worthy of pious honour as 
the cause why working men existed. But Mr Spratt did not 
sufficiently consider that a cause which has to be proved by 
argument or testimony is not an object of passionate 
devotion to colliers: a visible cause of beer acts on them much 
more strongly. And even if there had been any love of the 
far-off Garstin, hatred of the too-immediate Spratt would 
have been the stronger motive. Hence Johnson's calculations, 
made long ago with Chubb, the remarkable publican, had 
been well founded, and there had been diligent care to 
supply treating at Duffield in the name of Transome. After 
the election was over, it was not improbable that there 
would be much friendly joking between Putty and Johnson 
as to the success of this trick against Putty's employer, and 
Johnson would be conscious of rising in the opinion of his 
celebrated senior. 
</p>
            <p>For the show of hands and the cheering, the hustling and 
the pelting, the roaring and the hissing, the hard hits with 
small missiles, and the soft hits with small jokes, were strong 
enough on the side of Transome to balance the similar 
'demonstrations' for Garstin, even with the Debarry interest 
in his favour. And the inconvenient presence of Spratt was 
early got rid of by a dexterously managed accident, which 
sent him bruised and limping from the scene of action. Mr 
Chubb had never before felt so thoroughly that the occasion 
was up to a level with his talents, while the clear daylight in 
which his virtue would appear when at the election he voted, 
as his duty to himself bound him, for Garstin only, gave 
him thorough repose of conscience. 
</p>
            <p>Felix Holt was the only person looking on at the senseless 
exhibitions of this nomination-day, who knew from the 
beginning the history of the trick with the Sproxton men. 
He had been aware all along that the treating at Chubb's <pb n="393"/>
had been continued, and that so far Harold Transome's 
promise had produced no good fruits; and what he was 
observing to-day, as he watched the uproarious crowd, 
convinced him that the whole scheme would be carried out just 
as if he had never spoken about it. He could be fair enough 
to Transome to allow that he might have wished, and yet 
have been unable, with his notions of success, to keep his 
promise; and his bitterness towards the candidate only took 
the form of contemptuous pity; for Felix was not sparing 
in his contempt for men who put their inward honour in 
pawn by seeking the prizes of the world. His scorn fell too 
readily on the fortunate. But when he saw Johnson passing 
to and fro, and speaking to Jermyn on the hustings, he felt 
himself getting angry, and jumped off the wheel of the 
stationary cart on which he was mounted that he might no 
longer be in sight of this man, whose vitiating cant had 
made his blood hot and his fingers tingle on the first day of 
encountering him at Sproxton. It was a little too 
exasperating to look at this pink-faced rotund specimen of prosperity, 
to witness the power for evil that lay in his vulgar cant, 
backed by another man's money, and to know that such 
stupid iniquity flourished the flags of Reform, and 
Liberalism, and justice to the needy. While the roaring and the 
scuffling were still going on, Felix, with his thick stick in 
his hand, made his way through the crowd, and walked on 
through the Duffield streets till he came out on a grassy 
suburb, where the houses surrounded a small common: Here 
he walked about in the breezy air, and ate his bread and 
apples, telling himself that this angry haste of his about 
evils that could only be remedied slowly, could be nothing 
else than obstructive, and might some day — he saw it so 
clearly that the thought seemed like a presentiment — be 
obstructive of his own work. 
</p>
            <p>'Not to waste energy, to apply force where it would tell, 
to do small work close at hand, not waiting for speculative 
chances of heroism, but preparing for them' — these were the 
rules he had been constantly urging on himseIf. But what <pb n="394"/>
could be a greater waste than to beat a scoundrel who had 
law and opodeldoc at command? After this meditation, 
Felix felt cool and wise enough to return into the town, not, 
however, intending to deny himself the satisfaction of a 
few pungent words wherever there was place for them. 
Blows are sarcasms turned stupid: wit is a form of force 
that leaves the limbs at rest. 
</p>
            <p>Anything that could be called a crowd was no longer to 
be seen. The show of hands having been pronounced to be 
in favour of Debarry and Transome, and a poll having been 
demanded for Garstin, the business of the day might be 
considered at an end. But in the street where the hustings 
were erected, and where the great hotels stood, there were 
many groups, as well as strollers and steady walkers to and 
fro. Men in superior greatcoats and well-brushed hats were 
awaiting with more or less impatience an important dinner, 
either at the Crown, which was Debarry's house, or at the 
Three Cranes, which was Garstin's, or at the Fox and 
Hounds, which was Transome's. Knots of sober retailers, 
who had already dined, were to be seen at some shop-doors; 
men in very shabby coats and miscellaneous head-coverings, 
inhabitants of Duffield and not county voters, were lounging 
about in dull silence, or listening, some to a grimy man in 
a flannel shirt, hatless and with turbid red hair, who was 
insisting on political points with much more ease than had 
seemed to belong to the gentlemen speakers on the hustings, 
and others to a Scotch vendor of articles useful to sell, whose 
unfamiliar accent seemed to have a guarantee of truth in 
it wanting as an association with everyday English. Some 
rough-looking pipe-smokers, or distinguished cigar-smokers, 
chose to walk up and down in isolation and silence. But the 
majority of those who had shown a buming interest in the 
nomination had disappeared, and cockades no longer 
studded a close-pressed crowd, like, and also very unlike, 
meadow flowers among the grass. The street pavement was 
strangely painted with fragments of perishable missiles 
ground flat under heavy feet: but the workers were resting <pb n="395"/>
from their toil, and the buzz and tread and the fitfully 
discernible voices seemed like stillness to Felix after the 
roar with whuch the wide space had been filled when he 
left it. 
</p>
            <p>The group round the speaker in the flannel shirt stood 
at the corner of a side-street, and the speaker himself was 
elevated by the head and shoulders above his hearers, not 
because he was tall, but because he stood on a projecting 
stone. At the opposite corner of the turning was the great 
inn of the Fox and Hounds, and this was the ultra-Liberal 
quarter of the High Street. Felix was at once attracted by 
this group; he liked the look of the speaker, whose bare arms 
were powerfully muscular, though he had the pallid 
complexion of a man who lives chiefly amidst the heat of 
furnaces. He was leaning against the dark stone building behind 
him with folded arms, the grimy paleness of his shirt and 
skin standing out in high relief against the dark stone 
building behind him. He lifted up one fore-finger, and 
marked his emphasis with it as he spoke. His voice was high 
and not strong, but Felix recognised the fluency and the 
method of a habitual preacher or lecturer. 
</p>
            <p>'It's the fallacy of all monopolists,' he was saying. 'We 
know what monopolists are: men who want to keep a 
trade all to themselves, under the pretence that they'll 
furnish the public with a better article. We know what that 
comes to: in some countries a poor man can't afford to buy 
a spoonful of salt, and yet there's salt enough in the world 
to pickle every living thing in it. That's the sort of benefit 
monopolists do to mankind. And these are the men who tell 
us we're to let politics alone; they'll govern us better 
without our knowing anything about it. We must mind our 
business; we are ignorant; we've no time to study great 
questions. But I tell them this: the greatest question in the 
world is, how to give every man a man's share in what goes 
on in life —' 
</p>
            <p>'Hear, hear!' said Felix, in his sonorous voice, which 
seemed to give a new impressiveness to what the speaker <pb n="396"/>
had said. Every one looked at him: the well-washed face 
and its educated expression, along with a dress more careless 
than that of most well-to-do workmen on a holiday, made his 
appearance strangely arresting. 
</p>
            <p>'Not a pig's share,' the speaker went on, 'not a horse's 
share, not the share of a machine fed with oil only to make it 
work and nothing else. It isn't a man's share just to mind 
your pin-making, or your glass-blowing, and higgle about 
your own wages, and bring up your family to be ignorant 
sons of ignorant fathers, and no better prospect; that's a 
slave's share; we want a freeman's share, and that is to think 
and speak and act about what concerns us all, and see 
whether these fine gentlemen who undertake to govern us 
are doing the best they can for us. They've got the 
knowledge, say they. Very well, we've got the wants. There's many 
a one who would be idle if hunger didn't pinch him; but the 
stomach sets us to work. There's a fable told where the 
nobles are the belly and the people the members. But I make 
another sort of fable. I say, we are the belly that feels the 
pinches, and we'll set these aristocrats, these great people 
who call themselves our brains, to work at some way of 
satisfying us a bit better. The aristocrats are pretty sure to 
try and govern for their own benefit; but how are we to be 
sure they'll try and govern for ours? They must be looked 
after, I think, like other workmen. We must have what we 
call inspectors, to see whether the work's well done for us. 
We want to send our inspectors to parliament. Well, they 
say — you've got the Reform Bill; what more can you want? 
Send your inspectors. But I say, the Reform Bill is a trick — 
it's nothing but swearing-in special constables to keep the 
aristocrats safe in their monopoly; it's bribing some of the 
people with votes to make them hold their tongues about 
giving votes to the rest. I say, if a man doesn't beg or steal, 
but works for his bread, the poorer and the more miserable 
he is, the more he'd need have a vote to send an inspector 
to parliament — else the man who is worst off is likely to be 
forgotten; and I say, he's the man who ought to be first <pb n="397"/>
remembered. Else what does their religion mean? Why do 
they build churches and endow them that their sons may 
get well paid for preaching a Saviour, and making 
themselves as little like Him as can be? If I want to believe in 
Jesus Christ, I must shut my eyes for fear I should see a 
parson. And what's a bishop? A bishop's a parson dressed 
up, who sits in the House of Lords to help and throw out 
Reform Bills. And because it's hard to get anything in the 
shape of a man to dress himself up like that, and do such 
work, they gave him a palace for it, and plenty of thousands 
a-year. And then they cry out — “The church is in danger,” — 
“the poor man's church”. And why is it the poor man's 
church? Because he can have a seat for nothing. I think it is 
for nothing; for it would be hard to tell what he gets by it. 
If the poor man had a vote in the matter, I think he'd choose 
a different sort of a church to what that is. But do you think 
the aristocrats will ever alter it, if the belly doesn't pinch 
them? Not they. It's part of their monopoly. They'll supply 
us with our religion like everything else, and get a profit 
on it. They'll give us plenty of heaven. We may have land 
there. That's the sort of religion they like — a religion that 
gives us working men heaven, and nothing else. But we'll 
offer to change with 'em. Well give them back some of their 
heaven, and take it out in something for us and our children 
in this world. They don't seem to care so much about heaven 
themselves till they feel the gout very bad — but you won't 
get them to give up anything else, if you don't pinch 'em 
for it. And to pinch them enough, we must get the suffrage, 
we must get votes, that we may send the men to parliament 
who will do our work for us; and we must have parliament 
dissolved every year, that we may change our man if he 
doesn't do what we want him to do; and we must have the 
country divided so that the little kings of the counties can't 
do as they like, but must be shaken up in one bag with us. 
I say, if we working men are ever to get a man's share, we 
must have universal suffrage, and annual parliaments, and 
the vote by ballot, and electoral districts.” <pb n="398"/>
            </p>
            <p>'No! — something else before all that,' said Felix, again 
startling the audience into looking at him. But the speaker 
glanced coldly at him and went on. 
</p>
            <p>'That's what Sir Francis Burdett went in for fifteen years 
ago; and it's the right thing for us, if it was Tomfool who 
went in for it. You must lay hold of such handles as you 
can. I don't believe much in Liberal aristocrats; but if there's 
any fine carved gold-headed stick of an aristocrat will make 
a broom-stick of himself, I'll lose no time but I'll sweep with 
him. And that's what I think about Transome. And if any 
of you have acquaintance among county voters, give 'em a 
hint that you wish 'em to vote for Transome.' 
</p>
            <p>At the last word, the speaker stepped down from his slight 
eminence, and walked away rapidly, like a man whose leisure 
was exhausted, and who must go about his business. But he 
had left an appetite in his audience for further oratory, and 
one of them seemed to express a general sentiment as he 
turned immediately to Felix, and said, 'Come, sir, what do 
you say?' 
</p>
            <p>Felix did at once what he would very likely have done 
without being asked — he stepped on to the stone, and took 
off his cap by an instinctive prompting that always led him 
to speak uncovered. The effect of his figure in relief against 
the stone background was unlike that of the previous 
speaker. He was considerably taller, his head and neck 
were more massive, and the expression of his mouth and 
eyes was something very different from the mere acuteness 
and rather hard-lipped antagonism of the trades-union man. 
Felix Holt's face had the look of the habitual meditative 
abstraction from objects of mere personal vanity or desire, 
which is the peculiar stamp of culture, and makes a very 
roughly-cut face worthy to be called 'the human face divine'. 
Even lions and dogs know a distinction between men's 
glances; and doubtless those Duffield men, in the 
expectation with which they looked up at Felix, were unconsciously 
influenced by the grandeur of his full yet firm mouth, and 
the calm clearness of his grey eyes, which were somehow <pb n="399"/>
unlike what they were accustomed to see along with an old 
brown velveteen coat, and an absence of chin-propping. 
When he began to speak, the contrast of voice was still 
stronger than that of appearance. The man in the flannel 
shirt had not been heard — had probably not cared to be 
heard — beyond the immediate group of listeners. But Felix 
at once drew the attention of persons comparatively at a 
distance. 
</p>
            <p>'In my opinion,' he said, almost the moment after he was 
addressed, 'that was a true word spoken by our friend when 
he said the great question was how to give every man a 
man's share in life. But I think he expects voting to do more 
towards it than I do. I want the working men to have power. 
I'm a working man myself, and I don't want to be anything 
else. But there are two sorts of power. There's a power to 
do mischief — to undo what has been done with great 
expense and labour, to waste and destroy, to be cruel to the 
weak, to lie and quarrel, and to talk poisonous nonsense. 
That's the sort of power that ignorant numbers have. It 
never made a joint stool or planted a potato. Do you think 
it's likely to do much towards governing a great country, 
and making wise laws, and giving shelter, food, and clothes 
to millions of men? Ignorant power comes in the end to the 
same thing as wicked power; it makes misery. It's another 
sort of power that I want us working men to have, and I 
can see plainly enough that our all having votes will do little 
towards it at present. I hope we, or the children that come 
after us, will get plenty of political power some time. I tell 
everybody plainly, I hope there will be great changes, and 
that some time, whether we live to see it or not, men will 
have come to be ashamed of things they're proud of now. 
But I should like to convince you that votes would never 
give you political power worth having while things are as 
they are now, and that if you go the right way to work 
you may get power sooner without votes. Perhaps all you 
who hear me are sober men, who try to learn as much of 
the nature of things as you can, and to be as little like fools <pb n="400"/>
as possible. A fool or idiot is one who expects things to 
happen that never can happen; he pours milk into a can 
without a bottom, and expects the milk to stay there. The 
more of such vain expectations a man has, the more he is 
of a fool or idiot. And if any working man expects a 
vote to do for him what it never can do, he's foolish to 
that amount, if no more. I think that's clear enough, 
eh?' 
</p>
            <p>'Hear, hear,' said several voices, but they were not those 
of the original group; they belonged to some strollers who 
had been attracted by Felix Holt's vibrating voice, and were 
Tories from the Crown. Among them was Christian, who 
was smoking a cigar with a pleasure he always felt in being 
among people who did not know him, and doubtless took 
him to be something higher than he really was. Hearers 
from the Fox and Hounds also were slowly adding 
themselves to the nucleus. Felix, accessible to the pleasure of 
being listened to, went on with more and more animation — 
</p>
            <p>'The way to get rid of folly is to get rid of vain 
expectations, and of thoughts that don't agree with the nature of 
things. The men who have had true thoughts about water, 
and what it will do when it is turned into steam and under 
all sorts of circumstances, have made themselves a great 
power in the world: they are turning the wheels of engines 
that will help to change most things. But no engines would 
have done, if there had been false notions about the way 
water would act. Now, all the schemes about voting, and 
districts, and annual parliaments, and the rest, are engines, 
and the water or steam — the force that is to work them — 
must come out of human nature — out of men's passions, 
feelings, desires. Whether the engines will do good work 
or bad depends on these feelings; and if we have false 
expectations about men's characters, we are very much like 
the idiot who thinks he'll carry milk in a can without a 
bottom. In my opinion, the notions about what mere voting 
will do are very much of that sort.' 
</p>
            <p>'That's very fine,' said a man in dirty fustian, with a <pb n="401"/>
scornful laugh. 'But how are we to get the power without 
votes?' 
</p>
            <p>'I'll tell you what's the greatest power under heaven,' said 
Felix, 'and that is public opinion — the ruling belief in 
society about what is right and what is wrong, what is 
honourable and what is shameful. That's the steam that is to 
work the engines. How can political freedom make us better 
any more than a religion we don't believe in, if people laugh 
and wink when they see men abuse and defile it? And while 
public opinion is what it is — while men have no better 
beliefs about public duty — while corruption is not felt to be 
a damning disgrace — while men are not ashamed in 
parliament and out of it to make public questions which concern 
the welfare of millions a mere screen for their own petty 
private ends, — I say, no fresh scheme of voting will much 
mend our condition. For, take us working men of all sorts. 
Suppose out of every hundred who had a vote there were 
thirty who had some soberness, some sense to choose with, 
some good feeling to make them wish the right thing for all. 
And suppose there were seventy out of the hundred who 
were, half of them, not sober, who had no sense to choose 
one thing in politics more than another, and who had so 
little good feeling in them that they wasted on their own 
drinking the money that should have helped to feed and 
clothe their wives and children; and another half of them 
who, if they didn't drink, were too ignorant or mean or 
stupid to see any good for themselves better than pocketing 
a five-shilling piece when it was offered them. Where would 
be the political power of the thirty sober men? The power 
would lie with the seventy drunken and stupid votes; and 
I'll tell you what sort of men would get the power — what 
sort of men would end by returning whom they pleased to 
parliament.' 
</p>
            <p>Felix had seen every face around him, and had particularly 
noticed a recent addition to his audience; but now he looked 
before him without appearing to fix his glance on any one. 
In spite of his cooling meditations an hour ago, his pulse <pb n="402"/>
was getting quickened by indignation, and the desire to 
crush what he hated was likely to vent itself in articulation. 
His tone became more biting. 
</p>
            <p>'They would be men who would undertake to do the 
business for a candidate, and return him: men who have no 
real opinions, but who pilfer the words of every opinion, and 
turn them into a cant which will serve their purpose at the 
moment; men who look out for dirty work to make their 
fortunes by, because dirty work wants little talent and no 
conscience; men who know aU the ins and outs of bribery, 
because there is not a cranny in their own souls where a 
bribe can't enter. Such men as these will be the masters 
wherever there's a majority of voters who care more for 
money, more for drink, more for some mean little end which 
is their own and nobody else's, than for anything that has 
ever been called Right in the world. For suppose there's a 
poor voter named Jack, who has seven children, and twelve 
or fifteen shillings a-week wages, perhaps less. Jack can't 
read — I don't say whose fault that is — he never had the 
chance to learn; he knows so little that he perhaps thinks 
God made the poor-laws, and if anybody said the pattem 
of the workhouse was laid down in the Testament, he 
wouldn't be able to contradict them. What is poor Jack likely 
to do when he sees a smart stranger coming to him, who 
happens to be just one of those men that I say will be the 
masters till public opinion gets too hot for them? He's a 
middle-sized man, we'll say; stout, with coat upon coat of 
fine broadcloth, open enough to show a fine gold chain: 
none of your dark, scowling men, but one with an innocent 
pink-and-white skin and very smooth light hair — a most 
respectable man, who calls himself by a good, sound, 
well-known English name — as Green, or Baker, or Wilson, or, 
let us say, Johnson —' 
</p>
            <p>Felix was interrupted by an explosion of laughter from a 
majority of the bystanders. Some eyes had been turned on 
Johnson, who stood on the right hand of Felix, at the very 
beginning of the description, and these were gradually followed <pb n="403"/>
by others, till at last every hearer's attention was 
fixed on him, and the first burst of laughter from the two or 
three who knew the attorney's name, let every one 
sufficiently into the secret to make the amusement common. 
Johnson, who had kept his ground till his name was 
mentioned, now turned away, looking unusually white after 
being unusually red, and feeling by an attorney's instinct 
for his pocket-book, as if he felt it was a case for taking 
down the names of witnesses. 
</p>
            <p>All the well-dressed hearers turned away too, thinking they 
had had the cream of the speech in the joke against 
Johnson, which, as a thing worth telling, helped to recall them 
to the scene of dinner. 
</p>
            <p>'Who is this Johnson?' said Christian to a young man who 
had been standing near him, and had been one of the first to 
laugh. Christian's curiosity had naturally been awakened 
by what might prove a golden opportunity. 
</p>
            <p>'O — a London attorney. He acts for Transome. That 
tremendous fellow at the comer there is some red-hot 
Radical demagogue, and Johnson has offended him, I 
suppose; else he wouldn't have turned in that way on a man 
of their own party.' 
</p>
            <p>'I had heard there was a Johnson who was an 
understrapper of Jermyn's,' said Christian. 
</p>
            <p>'Well, so this man may have been for what I know. But 
he's a London man now — a very busy fellow — on his own 
legs in Bedford Row. Ha ha! It's capital, though, when 
these Liberals get a slap in the face from the working men 
they're so very fond of.' 
</p>
            <p>Another turn along the street enabled Christian to come 
to a resolution. Having seen Jermyn drive away an hour 
before, he was in no fear: he walked at once to the Fox and 
Hounds and asked to speak to Mr Johnson. A brief 
interview, in which Christian ascertained that he had before him 
the Johnson mentioned by the bill-sticker, issued in the 
appointment of a longer one at a later hour; and before they 
left Duffield they had come not exactly to a mutual understanding, <pb n="404"/>
but to an exchange of information mutually welcome. 
</p>
            <p>Christian had been very cautious in the commencement, 
only intimating that he knew something important which 
some chance hints had induced him to think might be 
interesting to Mr Johnson, but that this entirely depended on 
how far he had a common interest with Mr Jermyn. 
Johnson replied that he had much business in which that 
gentleman was not concerned, but that to a certain extent they 
had a common interest. Probably then, Christian observed, 
the affairs of the Transome estate were part of the business 
in which Mr Jermyn and Mr Johnson might be understood 
to represent each other — in which case he need not detain 
Mr Johnson? At this hint Johnson could not conceal that 
he was becoming eager. He had no idea what Christian's 
information was, but there were many grounds on which 
Johnson desired to know as much as he could about the 
Transome affairs independently of Jermyn. By little and 
little an understanding was arrived at. Christian told of his 
interview with Tommy Trounsem, and stated that if 
Johnson could show him whether the knowledge could have 
any legal value, he could bring evidence that a legitimate 
child of Bycliffe's existed: he felt certain of this fact, and 
of his proof. Johnson explained, that in this case the death 
of the old bill-sticker would give the child the first valid 
claim to the Bycliffe heirship; that for his own part he 
should be glad to further a true claim, but that caution 
must be observed. How did Christian know that Jermyn 
was informed on this subject? Christian, more and more 
convinced that Johnson would be glad to counteract Jermyn, 
at length became explicit about Esther, but still withheld 
his own real name, and the nature of his relations with 
Bycliffe. He said he would bring the rest of his information 
when Mr Johnson took the case up seriously, and placed it 
in the hands of Bycliffe's old lawyers — of course he would 
do that? Johnson replied that he would certainly do that; 
but that there were legal niceties which Mr Christian was <pb n="405"/>
probably not acquainted with; that Esther's claim had not 
yet accrued; and that hurry was useless. 
</p>
            <p>The two men parted, each in distrust of the other, but 
each well pleased to have learned something. Johnson was 
not at all sure how he should act, but thought it likely that 
events would soon guide him. Christian was beginning to 
meditate a way of securing his own ends without depending 
in the least on Johnson's procedure. It was enough for him 
that he was now assured of Esther's legal claim on the 
Transome estates. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c31" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 31</head>
            <pb n="406"/>
            <q>
               <p>'In the copia of the factious language the word Tory was 
entertained, ... and being a vocal clever-sounding word, 
readily pronounced, it kept its hold, and took possession of the 
foul mouths of the faction.... The Loyalists began to cheer 
up and to take heart of grace, and in the working of this crisis, 
according to the common laws of scolding, they considered 
which way to make payment for so much of Tory as they had 
been treated with, to clear scores.... Immediately the train 
took, and ran like wildfire and became general. And so the 
account of Tory was balanced, and soon began to run up a 
sharp score on the other side.' — NORTH'S Examen, p. 321. 
</p>
            </q>
            <p>AT last the great epoch of the election for North Loamshire 
had arrived. The roads approaching Treby were early 
traversed by a large number of vehicles, horsemen, and also 
foot-passengers, than were ever seen there at the annual 
fair. Treby was the polling-place for many voters whose 
faces were quite strange in the town; and if there were 
some strangers who did not come to poll, though they had 
business not unconnected with the election, they were not 
liable to be regarded with suspicion or especial curiosity. 
It was understood that no division of a county had ever been 
more thoroughly canvassed, and that there would be a 
hard run between Garstin and Transome. Mr Johnson's 
head-quarters were at Duffield; but it was a maxim which 
he repeated after the great Putty, that a capable agent makes 
himself omnipresent; and quite apart from the express 
between him and Jermyn, Mr John Johnson's presence in 
the universe had potent effects on this December day at 
Treby Magna. 
</p>
            <p>A slight drizzling rain which was observed by some Tories 
who looked out of their bedroom windows before six o'clock, 
made them hope that, after all, the day might pass off better 
than alarmists had expected. The rain was felt to be 
somehow on the side of quiet and Conservatism; but soon the 
breaking of the clouds and the mild gleams of a December <pb n="407"/>
sun brought back previous apprehensions. As there were 
already precedents for riot at a Reformed election, and as 
the Trebian district had had its confidence in the natural 
course of things somewhat shaken by a landed proprietor 
with an old name offering himself as a Radical candidate, 
the election had been looked forward to by many with a 
vague sense that it would be an occasion something like 
a fighting match, when bad characters would probably 
assemble, and there might be struggles and alarms for 
respectable men, which would make it expedient for them 
to take a little neat brandy as a precaution beforehand and 
a restorative afterwards. The tenants on the Transome estate 
were comparatively fearless: poor Mr Goffe, of Rabbit's 
End, considered that 'one thing was as mauling as another', 
and that an election was no worse than the sheep-rot, while 
Mr Dibbs, taking the more cheerful view of a prosperous 
man, reflected that if the Radicals were dangerous, it was 
safer to be on their side. It was the voters for Debarry and 
Garstin who considered that they alone had the right to 
regard themselves as targets for evil-minded men; and Mr 
Crowder, if he could have got his ideas countenanced, would 
have recommended a muster of farm-servants with defensive 
pitchforks on the side of church and king. But the bolder 
men were rather gratified by the prospect of being groaned 
at, so that they might face about and groan in return. 
</p>
            <p>Mr Crow, the high constable of Treby, inwardly rehearsed 
a brief address to a riotous crowd in case it should be 
wanted, having been warned by the rector that it was a 
primary duty on these occasions to keep a watch against 
provocation as well as violence. The rector, with a brother 
magistrate who was on the spot, had thought it desirable to 
swear in some special constables, but the presence of loyal 
men not absolutely required for the polling was not looked 
at in the light of a provocation. The benefit clubs from 
various quarters made a show, some with the 
orange-coloured ribbons and streamers of the true Tory candidate, 
some with the mazarine of the Whig. The orange-coloured <pb n="408"/>
bands played 'Auld Langsyne', and a louder mazarine 
band came across them with 'O whistle and I will come to 
thee, my lad' — probably as the tune the most symbolical of 
Liberalism which their repertory would furnish. There was 
not a single club bearing the Radical blue: the Sproxton 
Club members wore the mazarine, and Mr Chubb wore 
so much of it that he looked (at a sufficient distance) like a 
very large gentianella. It was generally understood that 
'these brave fellows', representing the fine institution of 
benefit clubs, and holding aloft the motto, 'Let brotherly 
love continue', were a civil force calculated to encourage 
voters of sound opinions and keep up their spirits. But a 
considerable number of unadorned heavy navvies, colliers, 
and stone-pit men, who used their freedom as British 
subjects to be present in Treby on this great occasion, looked 
like a possibly uncivil force whose politics were dubious 
until it was clearly seen for whom they cheered and for 
whom they groaned. 
</p>
            <p>Thus the way up to the polling-booths was variously lined, 
and those who walked it, to whatever side they belonged, 
had the advantage of hearing from the opposite side what 
were the most marked defects or excesses in their personal 
appearance; for the Trebians of that day held, without 
being aware that they had Cicero's authority for it, that 
the bodily blemishes of an opponent were a legitimate 
ground for ridicule; but if the voter frustrated wit by being 
handsome, he was groaned at and satirised according to a 
formula, in which the adjective was Tory, Whig, or Radical, 
as the case might be, and the substantive blank to be filled 
up after the taste of the speaker. 
</p>
            <p>Some of the more timid had chosen to go through this 
ordeal as early as possible in the morning. One of the earliest 
was Mr Timothy Rose, the gentleman-farmer from Leek 
Malton. He had left home with some foreboding, having 
swathed his more vital parts in layers of flannel, and put 
on two greatcoats as a soft kind of armour. But reflecting 
with some trepidation that there were no resources for protecting <pb n="409"/>
his head, he once more wavered in his intention to 
vote; he once more observed to Mrs Rose that these were 
hard times when a man of independent property was 
expected to vote 'willy-nilly;' but finally, coerced by the sense 
that he should be looked ill on 'in these times' if he did not 
stand by the gentlemen round about, he set out in his gig, 
taking with him a powerful waggoner, whom he ordered to 
keep him in sight as he went to the polling-booth. It was 
hardly more than nine o'clock when Mr Rose, having thus 
come up to the level of his times, cheered himself with a 
little cherry-brandy at the Marquis, drove away in a much 
more courageous spirit, and got down at Mr Nolan's, just 
outside the town. The retired Londoner, he considered, was 
a man of experience, who would estimate properly the 
judicious course he had taken, and could make it known 
to others. Mr Nolan was superintending the removal of some 
shrubs in his garden. 
</p>
            <p>'Well, Mr Nolan,' said Rose, twinkling a self-complacent 
look over the red prominence of his cheeks, 'have you been 
to give your vote yet?' 
</p>
            <p>'No; all in good time. I shall go presently.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, I wouldn't lose an hour, I wouldn't. I said to myself, 
if I've got to do gentlemen a favour, I'll do it at once. You 
see, I've got no landlord, Nolan — I'm in that position o' 
life that I can be independent.' 
</p>
            <p>'Just so, my dear sir,' said the wiry-faced Nolan, pinching 
his under-lip between his thumb and finger, and giving one 
of those wonderful universal shrugs, by which he seemed 
to be recalling all his garments from a tendency to disperse 
themselves. 'Come in and see Mrs Nolan?' 
</p>
            <p>'No, no, thankye. Mrs Rose expects me back. But, as I 
was saying, I'm an independent man, and I consider it's not 
my part to show favour to one more than another, but to 
make things as even as I can. If I'd been a tenant to 
anybody, well, in course I must have voted for my landlord — 
that stands to sense. But I wish everybody well; and if one's 
returned to parliament more than another, nobody can say <pb n="410"/>
it's my doing; for when you can vote for two, you can make 
things even. So I gave one to Debarry and one to Transome; 
and I wish Garstin no ill, but I can't help the odd number, 
and he hangs on to Debarry, they say.' 
</p>
            <p>'God bless me, sir,' said Mr Nolan, coughing down a 
laugh, 'don't you perceive that you might as well have stayed 
at home, and not voted at all, unless you would rather send 
a Radical to parliament than a sober Whig?' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, I'm sorry you should have anything to say against 
what I've done, Nolan,' said Mr Rose, rather crestfallen, 
though sustained by inward warmth. 'I thought you'd agree 
with me, as you're a sensible man. But the most an 
independent man can do is to try and please all; and if he hasn't 
the luck — here's wishing I may do it another time,' added 
Mr Rose, apparently confounding a toast with a salutation, 
for he put out his hand for a passing shake, and then stepped 
into his gig again. 
</p>
            <p>At the time that Mr Timothy Rose left the town, the 
crowd in King Street and in the market-place, where the 
polling-booths stood, was fluctuating. Voters as yet were 
scanty, and brave fellows who had come from any distance 
this morning, or who had sat up late drinking the night 
before, required some reinforcement of their strength and 
spirits. Every public-house in Treby, not excepting the 
venerable and sombre Cross-Keys, was lively with changing 
and numerous company. Not, of course, that there was any 
treating: treating necessarily had stopped, from moral 
scruples, when once 'the writs were out'; but there was 
drinking, which did equally well under any name. 
</p>
            <p>Poor Tommy Trounsem, breakfasting here on Falstaff's 
proportion of bread, and something which, for gentility's 
sake, I will call sack, was more than usually victorious over 
the ills of life, and felt himself one of the heroes of the day. 
He had an immense light-blue cockade in his hat, and an 
amount of silver in a dirty little canvas bag which astonished 
himself. For some reason, at first inscrutable to him, he had 
been paid for his bill-sticking with great liberality at Mr <pb n="411"/>
Jermyn's office, in spite of his having been the victim of a 
trick by which he had once lost his own bills and pasted up 
Debarry's; but he soon saw that this was simply a 
recognition of his merit as 'an old family kept out of its rights', 
and also of his peculiar share in an occasion when the family 
was to get into parliament. Under these circumstances, it was 
due from him that he should show himself prominently 
where business was going forward, and give additional value 
by his presence to every vote for Transome. With this view 
he got a half-pint bottle filled with his peculiar kind of 
'sack', and hastened back to the market-place, feeling 
good-natured and patronising towards all political parties, and 
only so far partial as his family bound him to be. 
</p>
            <p>But a disposition to concentrate at that extremity of Ring 
Street which issued in the market-place was not universal 
among the increasing crowd. Some of them seemed attracted 
towards another nucleus at the other extremity of King 
Street, near the Seven Stars. This was Garsdn's chief house, 
where his committee sat, and it was also a point which must 
necessarily be passed by many voters entering the town on 
the eastern side. It seemed natural that the mazarine colours 
should be visible here, and that Pack, the tall 'shepherd' of 
the Sproxton men, should be seen moving to and fro where 
there would be a frequent opportunity of cheering the voters 
for a gentleman who had the chief share in the Sproxton 
mines. But the side lanes and entries out of Ring Street 
were numerous enough to relieve any pressure if there was 
need to make way. The lanes had a distinguished reputation. 
Two of them had odours of brewing; one had a side entrance 
to Mr Tiliot's wine and spirit vaults; up another Mr Muscat's 
cheeses were frequently being unloaded; and even some of 
the entries had those cheerful suggestions of plentiful 
provision which were among the characteristics of 
Treby. 
</p>
            <p>Between ten and eleven the voters came in more rapid 
succession, and the whole scene became spirited. Cheers, 
sarcasms, and oaths, which seemed to have a flavour of wit <pb n="412"/>
for many hearers, were beginning to be reinforced by more 
practical demonstrations, dubiously jocose. There was a 
disposition in the crowd to close and hem in the way for voters, 
either going or coming, until they had paid some kind of 
toll. It was difficult to see who set the example in the 
transition from words to deeds. Some thought it was due to Jacob 
Cuff, a Tory charity-man, who was a well-known ornament 
of the pothouse, and gave his mind much leisure for 
amusing devices; but questions of origination in stirring periods 
are notoriously hard to settle. It is by no means necessary 
in human things that there should be only one beginner. 
This, however, is certain — that Mr Chubb, who wished it to 
be noticed that he voted for Garstin solely, was one of the 
first to get rather more notice than he wished, and that he 
had his hat knocked off and crushed in the interest of 
Debarry by Tories opposed to coalition. On the other hand, 
some said it was at the same time that Mr Pink, the saddler, 
being stopped on his way and made to declare that he was 
going to vote for Debarry, got himself well chalked as to his 
coat, and pushed up an entry, where he remained the 
prisoner of terror combined with the want of any back 
outlet, and never gave his vote that day. 
</p>
            <p>The second Tory joke was performed with much gusto. 
The majority of the Transome tenants came in a body from 
the Ram Inn, with Mr Banks the bailiff leading them. Poor 
Goffe was the last of them, and his worn melancholy look 
and forward-leaning gait gave the jocose Cuff the notion 
that the farmer was not what he called 'compus'. Mr Goffe 
was cut off from his companions and hemmed in; asked, by 
voices with hot breath close to his ear, how many horses he 
had, how many cows, how many fat pigs; then jostled from 
one to another, who made trumpets with their hands and 
deafened him by telling him to vote for Debarry. In this 
way the melancholy Goffe was hustled on till he was at the 
polling-booth — filled with confused alarms, the immediate 
alarm being that of having to go back in still worse fashion 
than he had come. Arriving in this way after the other <pb n="413"/>
tenants had left, he astonished all hearers who knew him 
for a tenant of the Transomes by saying 'Debarry', and was 
jostled back trembling amid shouts of laughter. 
</p>
            <p>By stages of this kind the fun grew faster, and was in 
danger of getting rather serious. The Tories began to feel 
that their jokes were returned by others of a heavier sort, 
and that the main strength of the crowd was not on the side 
of sound opinion, but might come to be on the side of sound 
cudgelling and kicking. The navvies and pitmen in 
dishabille seemed to be multiplying, and to be clearly not 
belonging to the party of Order. The shops were freely 
resorted to for various forms of playful missiles and weapons; 
and news came to the magistrates, watching from the large 
window of the Marquis, that a gentleman coming in on 
horseback at the other end of the street to vote for Garstin 
had had his horse turned round and frightened into a 
head-long gallop out of it again. 
</p>
            <p>Mr Crow and his subordinates, and all the special 
constables, felt that it was necessary to make some energetic 
effort, or else every voter would be intimidated and the poll 
must be adjoumed. The rector determined to get on 
horseback and go amidst the crowd with the constables; and he 
sent a message to Mr Lingon, who was at the Ram, calling 
on him to do the same. 'Sporting Jack' was sure the good 
fellows meant no harm, but he was courageous enough to 
face any bodily dangers, and rode out in his brown leggings 
and coloured bandanna, speaking persuasively. 
</p>
            <p>It was nearly twelve o'clock when this sally was made: the 
constables and magistrates tried the most pacific measures, 
and they seemed to succeed. There was a rapid thinning of 
the crowd: the most boisterous disappeared, or seemed to do 
so by becoming quiet; missiles ceased to fly, and a sufficient 
way was cleared for voters along King Street. The 
magistrates returned to their quarters, and the constables took 
convenient posts of observation. Mr Wace, who was one of 
Debarry's committee, had suggested to the rector that it 
might be wise to send for the military from Duffield, with <pb n="414"/>
orders that they should station themselves at Hathercote, 
three miles off: there was so much property in the town 
that it would be better to make it secure against risks. But 
the rector felt that this was not the part of a moderate and 
wise magistrate, unless the signs of riot recurred. He was a 
brave man, and fond of thinking that his own authority 
sufficed for the maintenance of the general good in Treby. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c32" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 32</head>
            <pb n="415"/>
            <q>
               <l>'Go from me. Yet I feel that I shall stand </l>
               <l>Henceforward in thy shadow. Never more </l>
               <l>Alone upon the threshold of my door </l>
               <l>Of individual life, I shall command </l>
               <l>The uses of my soul, nor lift my hand </l>
               <l>Serenely in the sunshine as before </l>
               <l>Without the sense of that which I forbore — </l>
               <l>Thy touch upon the palm. The widest land </l>
               <l>Doom takes to part us, leaves thy heart in mine </l>
               <l>With pulses that beat double. What I do </l>
               <l>And what I dream include thee, as the wine </l>
               <l>Must taste of its own grapes. And when I sue </l>
               <l>God for myself, He hears that name of thine, </l>
               <l>And sees within my eyes the tears of two.' </l>
               <l>MRS BROWNING. </l>
            </q>
            <p>FELIX HOLT, seated at his work without his pupils, who 
had asked for a holiday with a notion that the wooden booths 
promised some sort of show, noticed about eleven o'clock 
that the noises which reached him from the main street were 
getting more and more tumultuous. He had long seen bad 
auguries for this election, but, like all people who dread the 
prophetic wisdom that ends in desiring the fulfilment of its 
own evil forebodings, he had checked himself with 
remembering that, though many conditions were possible which 
might bring on violence, there were just as many which 
might avert it. There would, perhaps, be no other mischief 
than what he was already certain of. With these thoughts 
he had sat down quietly to his work, meaning not to vex his 
soul by going to look on at things he would fain have made 
different if he could. But he was of a fibre that vibrated too 
strongly to the life around him to shut himself away in 
quiet, even from suffering and irremediable wrong. As the 
noises grew louder, and wrought more and more strongly 
on his imagination, he was obliged to lay down his delicate 
wheel-work. His mother came from her turnip-paring in 
the kitchen, where little Job was her companion, to observe <pb n="416"/>
that they must be killing everybody in the High Street, 
and that the election, which had never been before at 
Treby, must have come for a judgment; that there were 
mercies where you didn't look for them, and that she 
thanked God in His wisdom for making her live up a back 
street. 
</p>
            <p>Felix snatched his cap and rushed out. But when he got 
to the turning into the market-place the magistrates were 
already on horseback there, the constables were moving 
about, and Felix observed that there was no strong spirit of 
resistance to them. He stayed long enough to see the partial 
dispersion of the crowd and the restoration of tolerable 
quiet, and then went back to Mrs Holt to tell her that there 
was nothing to fear now: he was going out again, and she 
must not be in any anxiety at his absence. She might set by 
his dinner for him. 
</p>
            <p>Felix had been thinking of Esther and her probable alarm 
at the noises that must have reached her more distinctly 
than they had reached him, for Malthouse Yard was 
removed but a little way from the main street. Mr Lyon was 
away from home, having been called to preach charity 
sermons and attend meetings in a distant town; and Esther, 
with the plaintive Lyddy for her sole companion, was not 
cheerfully circumstanced. Felix had not been to see her yet 
since her father's departure, but to-day he gave way to new 
reasons. 
</p>
            <p>'Miss Esther was in the garret,' Lyddy said, trying to see 
what was going on. But before she was fetched she came 
running down the stairs, drawn by the knock at the door, 
which had shaken the small dwelling. 
</p>
            <p>'I am so thankful to see you,' she said eagerly. 'Pray come 
in.' 
</p>
            <p>When she had shut the parlour door behind him, Felix 
said, 'I suspected that you might have been made anxious by 
the noises. I came to tell you that things are quiet now. 
Though, indeed, you can hear that they are.' 
</p>
            <p>'I was frightened,' said Esther. 'The shouting and roaring <pb n="417"/>
of rude men is so hideous. It is a relief to me that my 
father is not at home — that he is out of the reach of any 
danger he might have fallen into if he had been here. But I 
gave you credit for being in the midst of the danger,' she 
added, smiling, with a determination not to show much 
feeling. 'Sit down and tell me what has happened.' 
</p>
            <p>They sat down at the extremities of the old black sofa, 
and Felix said — 
</p>
            <p>'To tell you the truth, I had shut myself up, and tried to 
be as indifferent to the election as if I'd been one of the 
fishes in the Lapp, till the noises got too strong for me. But I 
only saw the tail end of the disturbance. The poor noisy 
simpletons seemed to give way before the magistrates and 
the constables. I hope nobody has been much hurt. The 
fear is that they may turn out again by-and-by; their giving 
way so soon may not be altogether a good sign. There's a 
great number of heavy fellows in the town. If they go 
and drink more, the last end may be worse than the first. 
However —' 
</p>
            <p>Felix broke off, as if this talk were futile, clasped his hands 
behind his head, and, leaning backward, looked at Esther, 
who was looking at him. 
</p>
            <p>'May I stay here a little while?' he said, after a moment, 
which seemed long. 
</p>
            <p>'Pray do,' said Esther, colouring. To relieve herself she 
took some work and bowed her head over her stitching. It 
was in reality a little heaven to her that Felix was there, but 
she saw beyond it — saw that by-and-by he would be gone, 
and that they should be farther on their way, not towards 
meeting, but parting. His will was impregnable. He was a 
rock, and she was no more to him than the white clinging 
mist-cloud. 
</p>
            <p>'I wish I could be sure that you see things just as I do,' he 
said, abruptly, after a minute's silence. 
</p>
            <p>'I am sure you see them much more wisely than I do,' 
said Esther, almost bitterly, without looking up. 
</p>
            <p>'There are some people one must wish to judge one truly. <pb n="418"/>
Not to wish it would be mere hardness. I know you think I 
am a man without feeling — at least, without strong 
affections. You think I love nothing but my own resolutions.' 
</p>
            <p>'Suppose I reply in the same sort of strain?' said Esther, 
with a little toss of the head. 
</p>
            <p>'How?' 
</p>
            <p>'Why, that you think me a shallow woman, incapable of 
believing what is best in you, setting down everything that 
is too high for me as a deficiency.' 
</p>
            <p>'Don't parry what I say. Answer me.' There was an 
expression of painful beseeching in the tone with which Felix 
said this. Esther let her work fall on her lap and looked at 
him, but she was unable to speak. 
</p>
            <p>'I want you to tell me — once — that you know it would be 
easier to me to give myself up to loving and being loved, as 
other men do, when they can, than to —' 
</p>
            <p>This breaking-off in speech was something quite new in 
Felix. For the first time he had lost his self-possession, and 
turned his eyes away. He was at variance with himself. He 
had begun what he felt that he ought not to finish 
</p>
            <p>Esther, like a woman as she was — a woman waiting for 
love, never able to ask for it — had her joy in these signs of 
her power; but they made her generous, not chary, as they 
might have done if she had had a pettier disposition. She 
said, with deep yet timid earnestness — 
</p>
            <p>'What you have chosen to do has only convinced me that 
your love would be the better worth having.' 
</p>
            <p>All the finest part of Esther's nature trembled in those 
words. To be right in great memorable moments, is perhaps 
the thing we need most desire for ourselves. 
</p>
            <p>Felix as quick as lightning turned his look upon her again, 
and, leaning forward, took her sweet hand and held it to his 
lips some moments before he let it fall again and raised his 
head. 
</p>
            <p>'We shall always be the better for thinking of each other,' 
he said, leaning his elbow on the back of the sofa, and 
supporting his head as he looked at her with calm sadness. <pb n="419"/>
'This thing can never come to me twice over. It is my 
knight-hood. That was always a business of great cost.' 
</p>
            <p>He smiled at her, but she sat biting her inner lip, and 
pressing her hands together. She desired to be worthy of 
what she reverenced in Felix, but the inevitable 
renunciation was too difficult. She saw herself wandering through the 
future weak and forsaken. The charming sauciness was all 
gone from her face, but the memory of it made this 
child-like dependent sorrow all the more touching. 
</p>
            <p>'Tell me what you would —' Felix burst out, leaning nearer 
to her; but the next instant he started up, went to the table, 
took his cap in his hand, and came in front of her. 
</p>
            <p>'Good-bye,' he said, very gently, not daring to put out his 
hand. But Esther put up hers instead of speaking. He just 
pressed it and then went away. 
</p>
            <p>She heard the doors close behind him, and felt free to be 
miserable. She cried bitterly. If she might have married 
Felix Holt, she could have been a good woman. She felt no 
trust that she could ever be good without him. 
</p>
            <p>Felix reproached himself. He would have done better not 
to speak in that way. But the prompting to which he had 
chiefly listened had been the desire to prove to Esther that 
he set a high value on her feelings. He could not help seeing 
that he was very important to her; and he was too simple 
and sincere a man to ape a sort of humility which would 
not have made him any the better if he had possessed it. 
Such pretences turn our lives into sorry dramas. And Felix 
wished Esther to know that her love was dear to him as the 
beloved dead are dear. He felt that they must not marry — 
that they would ruin each other's lives. But he had longed 
for her to know fully that his will to be always apart from 
her was renunciation, not an easy preference. In this he was 
thoroughly generous; and yet, now some subtle, mysterious 
conjuncture of impressions and circumstances had made 
him speak, he questioned the wisdom of what he had done. 
Express confessions give definiteness to memories that 
might more easily melt away without them; and Felix felt <pb n="420"/>
for Esther's pain as the strong soldier, who can march on 
hungering without fear that he shall faint, feels for the 
young brother — the maiden-cheeked conscript whose load 
is too heavy for him. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c33" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 33</head>
            <pb n="421"/>
            <q>
               <l>'Mischief, thou art afoot.' — Julius Caesar. </l>
            </q>
            <p>FELIX could not go home again immediately after quitting 
Esther. He got out of the town, skirted it a little while, 
looking across the December stillness of the fields, and then 
re-entered it by the main road into the market-place, 
thinking that, after all, it would be better for him to look at the 
busy doings of men than to listen in solitude to the voices 
within him; and he wished to know how things were going 
on. 
</p>
            <p>It was now nearly half-past one, and Felix perceived that 
the street was filling with more than the previous crowd. By 
the time he got in front of the booths, he was himself so 
surrounded by men who were being thrust hither and 
thither that retreat would have been impossible; and he 
went where he was obliged to go, although his height and 
strength were above the average even in a crowd where 
there were so many heavy-armed workmen used to the 
pick-axe. Almost all shabby-coated Trebians must have been 
there, but the entries and back-streets of the town did not 
supply the mass of the crowd; and besides the rural 
incomers, both of the more decent and the rougher sort, Felix, 
as he was pushed along, thought he discerned here and 
there men of that keener aspect which is only common in 
manufacturing towns. 
</p>
            <p>But at present there was no evidence of any distinctly 
mischievous design. There was only evidence that the majority 
of the crowd were excited with drink, and that their action 
could hardly be calculated on more than those of oxen and 
pigs congregated amidst hootings and pushings. The 
confused deafening shouts, the incidental fighting, the 
knocking over, pulling and scuffling, seemed to increase every 
moment. Such of the constables as were mixed with the 
crowd were quite helpless; and if an official staff was seen <pb n="422"/>
above the heads, it moved about fitfully, showing as little 
sign of a guiding hand as the summit of a buoy on the 
waves. Doubtless many hurts and bruises had been received 
but no one could know the amount of injuries that were 
wildly scattered. 
</p>
            <p>It was clear that no more voting could be done, and the 
poll had been adjourned. The probabilities of serious 
mischief had grown strong enough to prevail over the rector's 
objection to getting military aid within reach; and when 
Felix re-entered the town, a galloping messenger had 
already been despatched to Duffield. The rector wished to ride 
out again, and read the Riot Act from a point where he 
could be better heard than from the window of the Marquis; 
but Mr Crow, the high constable, who had returned from 
closer observation, insisted that the risk would be too great. 
New special constables had been sworn in, but Mr Crow 
said prophetically that if once mischief began, the mob 
was past caring for constables. 
</p>
            <p>But the rector's voice was ringing and penetrating, and 
when he appeared on the narrow balcony and read the 
formula, commanding all men to go to their homes or about 
their lawful business, there was a strong transient effect. 
Every one within hearing listened, and for a few moments 
after the final words, 'God save the King!' the comparative 
silence continued. Then the people began to move, the buzz 
rose again, and grew, and grew, till it turned to shouts and 
roaring as before. The movement was that of a flood 
hemmed in; it carried nobody away. Whether the crowd 
would obey the order to disperse themselves within an hour, 
was a doubt that approached nearer and nearer to a 
negative certainty. 
</p>
            <p>Presently Mr Crow, who held himself a tactician, took a 
well-intentioned step, which went far to fulfill his own 
prophecy. He had arrived with the magistrates by a back 
way at the Seven Stars, and here again the Riot Act was read 
from a window, with much the same result as before. The 
rector had returned by the same way to the Marquis, as the <pb n="423"/>
headquarters most suited for administration, but Mr Crow 
remained at the other extremity of King Street, where some 
awe-striking presence was certainly needed. Seeing that the 
time was passing, and all effect from the voice of law had 
disappeared, he showed himself at an upper window, and 
addressed the crowd, telling them that the soldiers had been 
sent for, and that if they did not disperse they would have 
cavalry upon them instead of constables. 
</p>
            <p>Mr Crow, like some other high constables more celebrated 
in history, 'enjoyed a bad reputation'; that is to say, he 
enjoyed many things which caused his reputation to be bad, 
and he was anything but popular in Treby. It is probable 
that a pleasant message would have lost something from 
his lips, and what he actually said was so unpleasant, that, 
instead of persuading the crowd, it appeared to enrage 
them. Some one, snatching a raw potato from a sack in the 
greengrocer's shop behind him, threw it at the constable, 
and hit him on the mouth. Straightway raw potatoes and 
turnips were flying by twenties at the windows of the Seven 
Stars, and the panes were smashed. Felix, who was half-way 
up the street, heard the voices turning to a savage roar, and 
saw a rush towards the hardware shop, which furnished 
more effective weapons and missiles than turnips and 
potatoes. Then a cry ran along that the Tories had sent for the 
soldiers, and if those among the mob who called themselves 
Tories as willingly as anything else were disposed to take 
whatever called itself the Tory side, they only helped the 
main result of reckless disorder. 
</p>
            <p>But there were proofs that the predominant will of the 
crowd was against 'Debarry's men,' and in favour of 
Transome. Several shops were invaded, and they were all of 
them 'Tory shops'. The tradesmen who could do so, now 
locked their doors and barricaded their windows within. 
There was a panic among the householders of this hitherto 
peaceful town, and a general anxiety for the military to 
arrive. The rector was in painful anxiety on this head: he 
had sent out two messengers as secretly as he could towards <pb n="424"/>
Hathercote, to order the soldiers to ride straight to the town; 
but he feared that these messengers had been somehow 
intercepted. 
</p>
            <p>It was three o'clock: more than an hour had elapsed since 
the reading of the Riot Act. The rector of Treby Magna 
wrote an indignant message and sent it to the Ram, to Mr 
Lingon, the rector of Little Treby, saying that there was 
evidently a Radical animus in the mob, and that Mr 
Transome's party should hold themselves peculiarly responsible. 
Where was Mr Jermyn? 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lingon replied that he was going himself out towards 
Duffield to see after the soldiers. As for Jermyn, he was not 
that attorney's sponsor: he believed that Jermyn was gone 
away somewhere on business — to fetch voters. 
</p>
            <p>A serious effort was now being made by all the civil force 
at command. The December day would soon be passing into 
evening, and all disorder would be aggravated by obscurity. 
The horrors of fire were as likely to happen as any minor 
evil. The constables, as many of them as could do so, armed 
themselves with carbines and sabres; all the respectable 
inhabitants who had any courage prepared themselves to 
struggle for order; and many felt with Mr Wace and Mr 
Tiliot that the nearest duty was to defend the breweries and 
the spirit and wine vaults, where the property was of a sort 
at once most likely to be threatened and most dangerous in 
its effects. The rector, with fine determination, got on 
horseback again, as the best mode of leading the constables, who 
could only act efficiently in a close body. By his direction 
the column of armed men avoided the main street, and 
made their way along a back road, that they might occupy 
the two chief lanes leading to the wine-vaults and the 
brewery, and bear down on the crowd from these openings, 
which it was especially desirable to guard. 
</p>
            <p>Meanwhile Felix Holt had been hotly occupied in King 
Street. After the first window-smashing at the Seven Stars, 
there was a sufficient reason for damaging that inn to the 
utmost. The destructive spirit tends towards completeness; <pb n="425"/>
and any object once maimed or otherwise injured, is as 
readily doomed by unreasoning men as by unreasoning 
boys. Also the Seven Stars sheltered Spratt; and to some 
Sproxton men in front of that inn it was exasperating that 
Spratt should be safe and sound on a day when blows were 
going, and justice might be rendered. And again, there was 
the general desirableness of being inside a public-house. 
</p>
            <p>Felix had at last been willingly urged on to this spot. 
Hitherto swayed by the crowd, he had been able to do 
nothing but defend himself and keep on his legs; but he 
foresaw that the people would burst into the inn; he heard 
cries of 'Spratt!' 'Fetch him out!' 'We'll pitch him out!' 
'Pummel him ! ' It was not unlikely that lives might be 
sacrificed; and it was intolerable to Felix to be witnessing the 
blind outrages of this mad crowd, and yet be doing nothing 
to counteract them. Even some vain effort would satisfy him 
better than mere gazing. Within the walls of the inn he 
might save some one. He went in with a miscellaneous set, 
who dispersed themselves with different objects — some to 
the taproom, and to search for the cellar; some upstairs to 
search in all rooms for Spratt, or any one else perhaps, as a 
temporary scapegoat for Spratt. Guided by the screams of 
women, Felix at last got to a high up-stairs passage, where 
the landlady and some of her servants were running away in 
helpless terror from two or three half-tipsy men, who had 
been emptying a spirit-decanter in the bar. Assuming the 
tone pf a mob-leader, he cried out, 'Here, boys, here's better 
fun this way — come with me ! ' and drew the men back with 
him along the passage. They reached the lower staircase in 
time to see the unhappy Spratt being dragged, coatless and 
screaming, down the steps. No one at present was striking or 
kicking him; it seemed as if he were being reserved for 
punishment on some wider area, where the satisfaction 
might be more generally shared. Felix followed close, 
determined, if he could, to rescue both assailers and assaulted 
from the worst consequences. His mind was busy with 
possible devices. <pb n="426"/>
            </p>
            <p>Down the stairs, out along the stones through the 
gateway, Spratt was dragged as a mere heap of linen and cloth 
rags. When he was got outside the gateway, there was an 
immense hooting and roaring, though many there had no 
grudge against him, and only guessed that others had the 
grudge. But this was the narrower part of the street; it 
widened as it went onwards, and Spratt was dragged on, his 
enemies crying, 'We'll make a ring — we'll see how 
frightened he looks ! ' 
</p>
            <p>'Kick him, and have done with him,' Felix heard another 
say. 'Let's go to Tiliot's vaults — there's more gin there!' 
</p>
            <p>Here were two hideous threats. In dragging Spratt 
onward the people were getting very near to the lane leading 
up to Tiliot's. Felix kept as close as he could to the 
threatened victim. He had thrown away his own stick, and carried 
a bludgeon which had escaped from the hands of an invader 
at the Seven Stars! his head was bare; he looked, to 
undiscerning eyes, like a leading spirit of the mob. In this 
condition he was observed by several persons looking 
anxiously from their upper windows, and finally observed 
to push himself, by violent efforts, close behind the dragged 
man. 
</p>
            <p>Meanwhile the foremost among the constables, who, 
coming by the back way, had now reached the opening of 
Tiliot's Lane, discerned that the crowd had a victim amongst 
them. One spirited fellow, named Tucker, who was a regular 
constable, feeling that no time was to be lost in meditation, 
called on his neighbour to follow him, and with the sabre 
that happened to be his weapon got a way for himself where 
he was not expected, by dint of quick resolution. At this 
moment Spratt had been let go — had been dropped, in fact, 
almost lifeless with terror, on the street stones, and the men 
round him had retreated for a little space, as if to amuse 
themselves with looking at him. Felix had taken his 
opportunity; and seeing the first step towards a plan he was bent 
on, he sprang forward close to the cowering Spratt. As he 
did this, Tucker had cut his way to the spot, and imagining <pb n="427"/>
Felix to be the destined executioner of Spratt — for any 
discrimination of Tucker's lay in his muscles rather than his 
eyes — he rushed up to Felix, meaning to collar him and 
throw him down. But Felix had rapid senses and quick 
thoughts; he discerned the situation; he chose between two 
evils. Quick as lightning he frustrated the constable, fell 
upon him, and tried to master his weapon. In the struggle, 
which was watched without interference, the constable fell 
undermost, and Felix got his weapon. He started up with 
the bare sabre in his hand. The crowd round him cried 
'Hurray ! ' with a sense that he was on their side against the 
constable. Tucker did not rise immediately; but Felix did 
not imagine that he was much hurt. 
</p>
            <p>'Don't touch him!' said Felix. 'Let him go. Here, bring 
Spratt, and follow me.' 
</p>
            <p>Felix was perfectly conscious that he was in the midst of 
a tangled business. But he had chiefly before his 
imagination the horrors that might come if the mass of wild chaotic 
desires and impulses around him were not diverted from 
any further attack on places where they would get in the 
midst of intoxicating and inflammable materials. It was 
not a moment in which a spirit like his could calculate the 
effect of misunderstanding as to himself: nature never 
makes men who are at once energetically sympathetic and 
minutely calculating. He believed he had the power, and 
he was resolved to try, to carry the dangerous mass out of 
mischief till the military came to awe them — which he 
supposed, from Mr Crow's announcement long ago, must be 
a near event. 
</p>
            <p>He was followed the more willingly, because Tiliot's Lane 
was seen by the hindmost to be now defended by constables, 
some of whom had fire-arms; and where there is no strong 
counter-movement, any proposition to do something 
unspecified stimulates stupid curiosity. To many of the 
Sproxton men who were within sight of him, Felix was 
known personally, and vaguely believed to be a man who 
meant many queer things, not at all of an every-day kind. 
<pb n="428"/>
            </p>
            <p>Pressing along like a leader, with the sabre in his hand, and 
inviting them to bring on Spratt, there seemed a better 
reason for following him than for doing anything else. A 
man with a definite will and an energetic personality acts 
as a sort of flag to draw and bind together the foolish units 
of a mob. It was on this sort of influence over men whose 
mental state was a mere medley of appetites and confused 
impressions, that Felix had dared to count. He hurried 
them along with words of invitation, telling them to hold 
up Spratt and not drag him; and those behind followed him, 
with a growing belief that he had some design worth 
knowing, while those in front were urged along partly by the 
same notion, partly by the sense that there was a motive in 
those behind them, not knowing what the motive was. It 
was that mixture of pushing forward and being pushed 
forward, which is a brief history of most human things. 
</p>
            <p>What Felix really intended to do, was to get the crowd 
by the nearest way out of the town, and induce them to 
skirt it on the north side with him, keeping up in them the 
idea that he was leading them to execute some strategem 
by which they would surprise something worth attacking, 
and circumvent the constables who were defending the 
lanes. In the meantime he trusted that the soldiers would 
have arrived, and with this sort of mob, which was animated 
by no real political passion or fury against social distinctions 
it was in the highest degree unlikely that there would be any 
resistance to a military force. The presence of fifty soldiers 
would probably be enough to scatter the rioting hundreds. 
How numerous the mob was, no one ever knew: many 
inhabitants afterwards were ready to swear that there must 
have been at least two thousand rioters. Felix knew he was 
incurring great risks; but 'his blood was up:' we hardly 
allow enough in common life for the results of that 
enkindled passionate enthusiasm which, under other 
conditions, makes world-famous deeds. 
</p>
            <p>He was making for a point where the street branched off 
on one side towards a speedy opening between hedgerows, <pb n="429"/>
on the other towards the shabby wideness of Pollard's End. 
At this forking of the street there was a large space, in 
the centre of which there was a small stone platform, 
mounting by three steps, with an old green finger-post upon it. 
Felix went straight to this platform and stepped upon it, 
crying 'Halt ! ' in a loud voice to the men behind and before 
him, and calling to those who held Spratt to bring him 
there. All came to a stand with faces towards the finger-post, 
and perhaps for the first time the extremities of the crowd 
got a definite idea that a man with a sabre in his hand was 
taking the command. 
</p>
            <p>'Now!' said Felix, when Spratt had been brought on to 
the stone platform, faint and trembling, 'has anybody got 
cord? if not, handkerchiefs knotted fast; give them to me.' 
</p>
            <p>He drew out his own handkerchief, and two or three 
others were mustered and handed to him. He ordered them 
to be knotted together, while curious eyes were fixed on him. 
Was he going to have Spratt hanged? Felix kept fast hold 
of his weapon, and ordered others to act. 
</p>
            <p>'Now, put it round his waist, wind his arms in, draw them 
a little backward — so I and tie it fast on the other side of the 
post.' 
</p>
            <p>When that was done, Felix said, imperatively — 
</p>
            <p>'Leave him there — we shall come back to him; let us make 
haste; march along, lads! Up Park Street and down Hobb's 
Lane.' 
</p>
            <p>It was the best chance he could think of for saving Spratt's 
life. And he succeeded. The pleasure of seeing the helpless 
man tied up sufficed for the moment, if there were any who 
had ferocity enough to count much on coming back to him. 
Nobody's imagination represented the certainty that some 
one out of the houses at hand would soon come and untie 
him when he was left alone. 
</p>
            <p>And the rioters pushed up Park Street, a noisy stream, 
with Felix still in the midst of them, though he was 
labouring hard to get his way to the front. He wished to determine 
the course of the crowd along a by-road called Hobb's Lane, <pb n="430"/>
which would have taken them to the other — the Duffield 
end of the town. He urged several of the men round him, 
one of whom was no less a person than the big Dredge, our 
old Sproxton acquaintance, to get forward, and be sure that 
all the fellows would go down the lane, else they would 
spoil sport. Hitherto Felix had been successful, and he had 
gone along with an unbroken impulse. But soon something 
occurred which brought with a terrible shock the sense that 
his plan might turn out to be as mad as all bold projects 
are seen to be when they have failed. 
</p>
            <p>Mingled with the more headlong and half-drunken crowd 
there were some sharp-visaged men who loved the 
irrationality of riots for something else than its own sake, and who 
at present were not so much the richer as they desired to be, 
for the pains they had taken in coming to the Treby 
election, induced by certain prognostics gathered at Duffield on 
the nomination-day that there might be the conditions 
favourable to that confusion which was always a 
harvest-time. It was known to some of these sharp men that Park 
Street led out towards the grand house of Treby Manor, 
which was as good — nay, better for their purpose than the 
bank. While Felix was entertaining his ardent purpose, 
these other sons of Adam were entertaining another ardent 
purpose of their peculiar sort, and the moment was come 
when they were to have their triumph 
</p>
            <p>From the front ranks backward towards Felix there ran 
a new summons — a new invitation. 
</p>
            <p>'Let us go to Treby Manor!' 
</p>
            <p>From that moment Felix was powerless; a new definite 
suggestion overrode his vaguer influence. There was a 
determined rush past Hobb's Lane, and not down it. Felix was 
carried along too. He did not know whether to wish the 
contrary. Once on the road, out of the town, with openings 
into fields and with the wide park at hand, it would have 
been easy for him to liberate himself from the crowd. At 
first it seemed to him the better part to do this, and to get 
back to the town as fast as he could, in the hope of finding <pb n="431"/>
the military and getting a detachment to come and save the 
Manor. But he reflected that the course of the mob had 
been sufficiently seen, and that there were plenty of people 
in Park Street to carry the information faster than he 
could. It seemed more necessary that he should secure the 
presence of some help for the family at the Manor by going 
there himself. The Debarrys were not of the class he was 
wont to be anxious about; but Felix Holt's conscience was 
alive to the accusation that any danger they might be in 
now was brought on by a deed of his. In these moments of 
bitter vexation and disappointment, it did occur to him that 
very unpleasant consequences might be hanging over him 
of a kind quite different from inward dissatisfaction; but it 
was useless now to think of averting such consequences. 
As he was pressed along with the multitude into Treby Park, 
his very movement seemed to him only an image of the 
day's fatalities, in which the multitudinous small 
wickednesses of small selfish ends, really undirected towards any 
larger result, had issued in widely-shared mischief that 
might yet be hideous. 
</p>
            <p>The light was declining: already the candles shone 
through many windows of the Manor. Already the 
foremost part of the crowd had burst into the offices, and adroit 
men were busy in the right places to find plate, after setting 
others to force the butler into unlocking the cellars; and 
Felix had only just been able to force his way on to the 
front terrace, with the hope of getting to the rooms where he 
would find the ladies of the household and comfort them 
with the assurance that rescue must soon come, when the 
sound of horses' feet convinced him that the rescue was 
nearer than he had expected. Just as he heard the horses, 
he had approached the large window of a room, where a 
brilliant light suspended from the ceiling showed him a 
group of women clinging together in terror. Others of the 
crowd were pushing their way up the terrace-steps and 
gravel-slopes at various points. Hearing the horses, he kept 
his post in front of the window, and, motioning with his <pb n="432"/>
sabre, cried out to the oncomers, 'Keep back! I hear the 
soldiers coming.' Some scrambled back, some paused 
automatically. 
</p>
            <p>The louder and louder sound of the hoofs changed its 
pace and distribution. 'Halt! Fire!' Bang! bang! bang! — 
came deafening the ears of the men on the terrace. 
</p>
            <p>Before they had time or nerve to move, there was a 
rushing sound closer to them — again 'Fire!' a bullet whizzed, 
and passed through Felix Holt's shoulder — the shoulder of 
the arm that held the naked weapon which shone in the 
light from the window. 
</p>
            <p>Felix fell. The rioters ran confusedly, like terrified sheep. 
Some of the soldiers, turning, drove them along vvith the 
flat of their swords. The greater difficulty was to clear the 
invaded offices. 
</p>
            <p>The rector, who with another magistrate and several other 
gentlemen on horseback had accompanied the soldiers, now 
jumped on to the terrace, and hurried to the ladies of the 
family. 
</p>
            <p>Presently, there was a group round Felix, who had fainted 
and, reviving, had fainted again. He had had little food 
during the day, and had been overwrought. Two of the 
group were civilians, but only one of them knew Felix, the 
other being a magistrate not resident in Treby. The one 
who knew Felix was Mr John Johnson, whose zeal for the 
public peace had brought him from Duffield when he heard 
that the soldiers were summoned. 
</p>
            <p>'I know this man very well,' said Mr Johnson. 'He is a 
dangerous character — quite revolutionary.' 
</p>
            <p>It was a weary night; and the next day, Felix, whose 
wound was declared trivial, was lodged in Loamford Jail. 
He was committed on three counts — for having assaulted a 
constable, for having committed manslaughter (Tucker was 
dead from spinal concussion), and for having led a riotous 
onslaught on a dwelling-house. 
</p>
            <p>Four other men were committed: one of them for 
possessing himself of a gold cup with the Debarry arms on it; the <pb n="433"/>
three others, one of whom was the collier Dredge, for riot 
and assault. 
</p>
            <p>That morning Treby town was no longer in terror; but it 
was in much sadness. Other men, more innocent than the 
hated Spratt, were groaning under severe bodily injuries. 
And poor Tucker's corpse was not the only one that had 
been lifted from the pavement. It is true that none grieved 
much for the other dead man, unless it be grief to say, 'Poor 
old fellow!' He had been trampled upon, doubtless where 
he fell drunkenly, near the entrance of the Seven Stars. This 
second corpse was old Tommy Trounsem, the bill-sticker — 
otherwise Thomas Transome, the last of a very old 
family-line. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c34" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 34</head>
            <pb n="434"/>
            <q>
               <l>The fields are hoary with December's frost. </l>
               <l>I too am hoary with the chills of age. </l>
               <l>But through the fields and through the untrodden woods </l>
               <l>Is rest and stillness — only in my heart </l>
               <l>The pall of winter shrouds a throbbing life. </l>
            </q>
            <p>A WEEK after that Treby Riot, Harold Transome was at 
Transome Court. He had returned from a hasty visit to 
town, to keep his Christmas at this delightful country 
home, not in the best Christmas spirits. He had lost the 
election; but if that had been his only annoyance, he had good 
humour and good sense enough to have borne it as well as 
most men, and to have paid the eight or nine thousand, 
which had been the price of ascertaining that he was not to 
sit in the next parliament, without useless grumbling. But 
the disappointments of life can never, any more than its 
pleasures, be estimated singly; and the healthiest and most 
agreeable of men is exposed to that coincidence of various 
vexations, each heightening the effect of the other, which 
may produce in him something corresponding to the 
spontaneous and externally unaccountable moodiness of the 
morbid and disagreeable. 
</p>
            <p>Harold might not have grieved much at a small riot in 
Treby, even if it had caused some expenses to fall on the 
county; but the turn which the riot had actually taken, was 
a bitter morsel for rumination, on more grounds than one. 
However the disturbances had arisen and been aggravated 
— and probably no one knew the whole truth on these points 
— the conspicuous, gravest incidents had all tended to throw 
the blame on the Radical party, that is to say, on Transome 
and on Transome's agents; and so far the candidateship 
and its results had done Harold dishonour in the county: 
precisely the opposite effect to that which was a dear object 
of his ambition. More than this, Harold's conscience was 
active enough to be very unpleasantly affected by what had <pb n="435"/>
befallen Felix Holt. His memory, always good, was particularly 
vivid in its retention of Felix Holt's complaint to him 
about the treating of the Sproxton men, and of the 
subsequent irritating scene in Jermyn's office when the personage 
with the inauspicious name of Johnson had expounded to 
him the impossibility of revising an electioneering scheme 
once begun, and of turning your vehicle back when it had 
already begun to roll downhill. Remembering Felix Holt's 
words of indignant warning about hiring men with drink in 
them to make a noise, Harold could not resist the urgent 
impression that the offences for which Felix was committed 
were fatalities, not brought about by any willing 
co-operation of his with the rioters, but arising probably from some 
ill-judged efforts to counteract their violence. And this 
impression, which insisted on growing into a conviction, 
became in one of its phases an uneasy sense that he held 
evidence which would at once tend to exonerate Felix, and 
to place himself and his agents in anything but a desirable 
light. It was likely that some one else could give equivalent 
evidence in favour of Felix — the little talkative Dissenting 
preacher, for example; but, anyhow, the affair with the 
Sproxton men would be ripped open and made the worst of 
by the opposite parties. The man who has failed in the use 
of some indirectness, is helped very little by the fact that his 
rivals are men to whom that indirectness is a something 
human, very far from being alien. There remains this grand 
distinction, that he has failed, and that the jet of light is 
thrown entirely on his misdoings. 
</p>
            <p>In this matter Harold felt himself a victim. Could he 
hinder the tricks of his agents? In this particular case he 
had tried to hinder them, and had tried in vain. He had 
not loved the two agents in question, to begin with; and 
now at this later stage of events he was more innocent than 
ever of bearing them anything but the most sincere ill-will. 
He was more utterly exasperated with them than he would 
probably have been if his one great passion had been for 
public virtue. Jermyn, with his John Johnson, had added this <pb n="436"/>
ugly dirty business of the Treby election to all the 
long-accumulating list of offences, which Harold was resolved to 
visit on him to the utmost. He had seen some handbills 
carrying the insinuation that there was a discreditable 
indebtedness to Jermyn on the part of the Transomes. If any 
such notions existed apart from electioneering slander, 
there was all the more reason for letting the world see 
Jermyn severely punished for abusing his power over the family 
affairs, and tampering with the family property. And the 
world certainly should see this with as little delay as 
possible. The cool confident assuming fellow should be bled 
to the last drop in compensation, and all connection with 
him be finally got rid of. Now that the election was done 
with, Harold meant to devote himself to private affairs, till 
everything lay in complete order under his own 
supervision. 
</p>
            <p>This morning he was seated as usual in his private room, 
which had now been handsomely fitted up for him. It was 
but the third morning after the first Christmas he had spent 
in his English home for fifteen years, and the home looked 
like an eminently desirable one. The white frost lay on the 
broad lawn, on the many-formed leaves of the evergreens, 
and on the giant trees at a distance. Logs of dry oak blazed 
on the hearth; the carpet was like warm moss under his feet; 
he had breakfasted just according to his taste, and he had 
the interesting occupations of a large proprietor to fill the 
morning. All through the house now, steps were noiseless 
on carpets or on fine matting; there was warmth in hall and 
corridors; there were servants enough to do everything, 
and to do it at the right time. Skilful Dominic was always 
at hand to meet his master's demands, and his bland 
presence diffused itself like a smile over the household, infecting 
the gloomy English mind with the belief that life was easy, 
and making his real predominance seem as soft and light 
as a down quilt. Old Mr Transome had gathered new 
courage and strength since little Harry and Dominic had come 
and since Harold had insisted on his taking drives. Mrs <pb n="437"/>
Transome herself was seen on a fresh background with a 
gown of rich new stuff. And if, in spite of this, she did not 
seem happy, Harold either did not observe it, or kindly 
ignored it as the necessary frailty of elderly women whose 
lives have had too much of dulness and privation. Our 
minds get tricks and attitudes as our bodies do, thought 
Harold, and age stiffens them into unalterableness. 'Poor 
mother! I confess I should not like to be an elderly woman 
myself. One requires a good deal of the purring cat for 
that, or else of the loving grandame. I wish she would take 
more to little Harry. I suppose she has her suspicions about 
the lad's mother, and is as rigid in those matters as in her 
Toryism. However, I do what I can; it would be difficult to 
say what there is wanting to her in the way of indulgence 
and luxury to make up for the old niggardly life.' 
</p>
            <p>And certainly Transome Court was now such a home as 
many women would covet. Yet even Harold's own 
satisfaction in the midst of its elegant comfort needed at present to 
be sustained by the expectation of gratified resentment. He 
was obviously less bright and enjoying than usual, and his 
mother, who watched him closely without daring to ask 
questions, had gathered hints and drawn inferences enough 
to make her feel sure that there was some storm gathering 
between him and Jermyn. She did not dare to ask questions, 
and yet she had not resisted the temptation to say 
something bitter about Harold's failure to get returned as a 
Radical, helping, with feminine self-defeat, to exclude 
herself more completely from any consultation by him. In this 
way poor women, whose power lies solely in their influence, 
make themselves like music out of tune, and only move 
men to run away. 
</p>
            <p>This morning Harold had ordered his letters to be 
brought to him at the breakfast-table, which was not his 
usual practice. His mother could see that there were 
London business letters about which he was eager, and she 
found out that the letter brought by a clerk the day before 
was to make an appointment with Harold for Jermyn to <pb n="438"/>
come to Transome Court at eleven this morning. She 
observed Harold swallow his coffee and push away his plate 
with an early abstraction from the business of breakfast 
which was not at all after his usual manner. She herself ate 
nothing; her sips of tea seemed to excite her; her cheeks 
flushed, and her hands were cold. She was still young and 
ardent in her terrors; the passions of the past were living in 
her dread. 
</p>
            <p>When Harold left the table she went into the long 
drawing-room, where she might relieve her restlessness by 
walking up and down, and catch the sound of Jermyn's entrance 
into Harold's room, which was close by. Here she moved to 
and fro amongst the rose-coloured satin of chairs and 
curtains — the great story of this world reduced for her to the 
little tale of her own existence — dull obscurity everywhere, 
except where the keen light fell on the narrow track of her 
own lot, wide only for a woman's anguish. At last she heard 
the expected ring and footstep, and the opening and closing 
door. Unable to walk about any longer, she sank into a 
large cushioned chair, helpless and prayerless. She was not 
thinking of God's anger or mercy, but of her son's. She was 
thinking of what might be brought, not by death, but by 
life. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c35" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 35</head>
            <pb n="439"/>
            <q>
               <l>M. Check to your queen! </l>
               <l>N.           Nay, your own king is bare, </l>
               <l>   And moving so, you give yourself checkmate. </l>
            </q>
            <p>WHEN Jermyn entered the room, Harold, who was seated at 
his library table examining papers, with his back towards 
the light and his face towards the door, moved his head 
coldly. Jermyn said an ungracious 'Good-morning' — as little 
as possible like a salutation to one who might regard 
himself as a patron. On the attorney's handsome face there was 
a black cloud of defiant determination, slightly startling to 
Harold, who had expected to feel that the overpowering 
weight of temper in the interview was on his own side. 
Nobody was ever prepared beforehand for this expression of 
Jermyn's face, which seemed as strongly contrasted with 
the cold inpenetrableness which he preserved under the 
ordinary annoyances of business as with the bland radiance 
of his lighter moments. 
</p>
            <p>Harold himself did not look amiable just then, but his 
anger was of the sort that seeks a vent without waiting to 
give a fatal blow; it was that of a nature more subtly mixed 
than Jermyn's — less animally forcible, less unwavering in 
selfishness, and with more of high-bred pride. He looked at 
Jermyn with increased disgust and secret wonder. 
</p>
            <p>'Sit down,' he said, curtly. 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn seated himself in silence, opened his greatcoat, 
and took some papers from a side-pocket. 
</p>
            <p>'I have written to Makepeace,' said Harold, 'to tell him to 
take the entire management of the election expenses. So 
you will transmit your accounts to him.' 
</p>
            <p>'Very well. I am come this morning on other business.' 
</p>
            <p>'If it's about the riot and the prisoners, I have only to say 
that I shall enter into no plans. If I am called on, I shall 
say what I know about that young fellow Felix Holt. People <pb n="440"/>
may prove what they can about Johnson's damnable tricks, 
or yours either.' 
</p>
            <p>'I am not come to speak about the riot. I agree with you 
in thinking that quite a subordinate subject.' (When 
Jermyn had the black cloud over his face, he never hesitated 
or drawled, and made no Latin quotations.) 
</p>
            <p>'Be so good, then, as to open your business at once,' said 
Harold, in a tone of imperious indifference. 
</p>
            <p>'That is precisely what I wish to do. I have here 
information from a London correspondent that you are about to file 
a bill against me in Chancery.' Jermyn, as he spoke, laid 
his hand on the papers before him, and looked straight at 
Harold. 
</p>
            <p>'In that case the question for you is, how far your conduct 
as the family solicitor will bear investigation. But it is a 
question which you will consider quite apart from me.' 
</p>
            <p>'Doubtless. But prior to that there is a question which we 
must consider together.' 
</p>
            <p>The tone in which Jermyn said this gave an unpleasant 
shock to Harold's sense of mastery. Was it possible that he 
should have the weapon wrenched out of his hand? 
</p>
            <p>'I shall know what to think of that,' he replied, as 
haughtily as ever, 'when you have stated what the question 
is.' 
</p>
            <p>'Simply, whether you will choose to retain the family 
estates, or lay yourself open to be forthwith legally deprived 
of them.' 
</p>
            <p>'I presume you refer to some underhand scheme of your 
own, on a par with the annuities you have drained us by in 
the name of Johnson,' said Harold, feeling a new movement 
of anger. 'If so, you had better state your scheme to my 
lawyers, Dymock and Halliwell.' 
</p>
            <p>'No. I think you will approve of my stating in your own 
ear first of all, that it depends on my will whether you 
remain an important landed proprietor in North Loamshire, 
or whether you retire from the county with the remainder 
of the fortune you have acquired in trade.' <pb n="441"/>
            </p>
            <p>Jermyn paused, as if to leave time for this morsel to be 
tasted. 
</p>
            <p>'What do you mean?' said Harold, sharply 
</p>
            <p>'Not any scheme of mine; but a state of the facts, 
resulting from the settlement of the estate made in 1729: a state 
of the facts which renders your father's title and your own 
title to the family estates utterly worthless as soon as the 
true claimant is made aware of his right.' 
</p>
            <p>'And you intend to inform him?' 
</p>
            <p>'That depends. I am the only person who has the 
requisite knowledge. It rests with you to decide whether I shall 
use that knowledge against you; or whether I shall use it in 
your favour — by putting an end to the evidence that would 
serve to oust you in spite of your “robust title of 
occupancy”.' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn paused again. He had been speaking slowly, but 
without the least hesitation, and with a bitter definiteness of 
enunciation. There was a moment or two before Harold 
answered, and then he said abruptly — 
</p>
            <p>'I don't believe you.' 
</p>
            <p>'I thought you were more shrewd,' said Jermyn, with a 
touch of scorn. 'I thought you understood that I had had 
too much experience to waste my time in telling fables to 
persuade a man who has put himself into the attitude of 
my deadly enemy.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, then, say at once what your proofs are,' said 
Harold, shaking in spite of himself, and getting 
nervous. 
</p>
            <p>'I have no inclination to be lengthy. It is not more than 
a few weeks since I ascertained that there is in existence an 
heir of the Bycliffes, the old adversaries of your family. 
More curiously, it is only a few days ago — in fact, only since 
the day of the riot — that the Bycliffe claim has become 
valid, and that the right of remainder accrues to the heir in 
question.” 
</p>
            <p>'And how pray?' said Harold, rising from his chair, and 
making a turn in the room, with his hands thrust in his <pb n="442"/>
pockets. Jermyn rose too, and stood near the hearth facing 
Harold, as he moved to and fro. 
</p>
            <p>'By the death of an old fellow who got drunk, and was 
trampled to death in the riot. He was the last of that 
Thomas Transome's line, by the purchase of whose interest 
your family got its title to the estate. Your title died with 
him. It was supposed that the line had become extinct 
before — and on that supposition the old Bycliffes founded 
their claim. But I hunted up this man just about the time 
the last suit was closed. His death would have been of no 
consequence to you if there had not been a Bycliffe in 
existence; but I happen to know that there is, and that the 
fact can be legally proved.' 
</p>
            <p>For a minute or two Harold did not speak, but continued 
to pace the room, while Jermyn kept his position, holding 
his hands behind him. At last Harold said, from the other 
end of the room, speaking in a scornful tone — 
</p>
            <p>'That sounds alarming. But it is not to be proved simply 
by your statement.' 
</p>
            <p>'Clearly. I have here a document, with a copy, which will 
back my statement. It is the opinion given on the case 
more than twenty years ago, and it bears the signature of 
the Attorney-General and the first conveyancer of the day.' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn took up the papers he had laid on the table, 
opening them slowly and coolly as he went on speaking, and as 
Harold advanced towards him. 
</p>
            <p>'You may suppose that we spared no pains to ascertain 
the state of the title in the last suit against Maurice 
Christian Bycliffe, which threatened to be a hard run. This 
document is the result of a consultation; it gives an opinion 
which must be taken as a final authority. You may cast 
your eyes over that, if you please; I will wait your time. Or 
you may read the summing-up here,' Jermyn ended, 
holding out one of the papers to Harold, and pointing to a final 
passage. 
</p>
            <p>Harold took the paper, with a slight gesture of 
impatience. He did not choose to obey Jermyn's indication, and <pb n="443"/>
confine himself to the summing-up. He ran through the 
document. But in truth he was too much excited really to 
follow the details, and was rather acting than reading, till 
at length he threw himself into his chair and consented to 
bend his attention on the passage to which Jermyn had 
pointed. The attorney watched him as he read and twice 
re-read: 
</p>
            <p>To sum up ... we are of opinion that the title of the present 
possessors of the Transome estates can be strictly proved to rest 
solely upon a base fee created under the original settlement of 
1729, and to be good so long only as issue exists of the tenant in 
tail by whom that base fee was created. We feel satisfied by the 
evidence that such issue exists in the person of Thomas 
Transome, otherwise Trounsem, of Littleshaw. But upon his decease 
without issue we are of opinion that the right in remainder of 
the Bycliffe family will arise, which right would not be barred 
by any statute of limitation. 
</p>
            <p>When Harold's eyes were on the signatures to this 
document for the third time, Jermyn said — 
</p>
            <p>'As it turned out, the case being closed by the death of 
the claimant, we had no occasion for producing Thomas 
Transome, who was the old fellow I tell you of. The 
inquiries about him set him agog, and after they were 
dropped he came into this neighbourhood, thinking there 
was something fine in store for him. Here, if you like to take 
it, is a memorandum about him. I repeat, that he died in 
the riot. The proof is ready. And I repeat, that, to my 
knowledge, and mine only, there is a Bycliffe in existence; 
and that I know how the proof can be made out.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold rose from his chair again, and again paced the 
room. He was not prepared with any defiance. 
</p>
            <p>'And where is he — this Bycliffe?' he said at last, stopping 
in his walk, and facing round towards Jermyn. 
</p>
            <p>'I decline to say more till you promise to suspend 
proceedings against me.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold turned again, and looked out of the window 
without speaking for a moment or two. It was impossible <pb n="444"/>
that there should not be a conflict within him, and at 
present it was a very confused one. At last he said — 
'This person is in ignorance of his claim?' 
'Yes.' 
'Has been brought up in an inferior station?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes,' said Jermyn, keen enough to guess part of what 
was going on in Harold's mind. 'There is no harm in leaving 
him in ignorance. The question is a purely legal one. And, 
as I said before, the complete knowledge of the case, as one 
of evidence, lies exclusively with me. I can nullify the 
evidence, or I can make it tell with certainty against you. The 
choice lies with you.' 
</p>
            <p>'I must have time to think of this,' said Harold, conscious 
of a terrible pressure. 
</p>
            <p>'I can give you no time unless you promise me to suspend 
proceedings.' 
</p>
            <p>'And then, when I ask you, you will lay the details before 
me?' 
</p>
            <p>'Not without a thorough understanding beforehand. If I 
engage not to use my knowledge against you, you must 
engage in writing that on being satisfied by the details, you 
will cancel all hostile proceedings against me, and will not 
institute fresh ones on the strength of any occurrences now 
past.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, I must have time,' said Harold, more than ever 
inclined to thrash the attorney, but feeling bound hand and 
foot with knots that he was not sure he could ever 
unfasten. 
</p>
            <p>'That is to say,' said Jermyn, with his black-browed 
persistence, 'you will write to suspend proceedings.' 
</p>
            <p>Again Harold paused. He was more than ever 
exasperated, but he was threatened, mortified, and confounded by 
the necessity for an immediate decision between 
alternatives almost equally hateful to him. It was with difficulty 
that he could prevail on himself to speak any conclusive 
words. He walked as far as he could from Jermyn — to the 
other end of the room — then walked back to his chair and <pb n="445"/>
threw himself into it. At last he said, without looking at 
Jermyn, 'I agree — I must have time.' 
'Very well. It is a bargain.' 
</p>
            <p>'No further than this,' said Harold, hastily, flashing a 
look at Jermyn — 'no further than this, that I require time, 
and therefore I give it to you.' 
</p>
            <p>'Of course. You require time to consider whether the 
pleasure of trying to ruin me — me to whom you are really 
indebted — is worth the loss of the Transome estates. I shall 
wish you good-morning.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold did not speak to him or look at him again, and 
Jermyn walked out of the room. As he appeared outside the 
door and closed it behind him, Mrs Transome showed her 
white face at another door which opened on a level with 
Harold's in such a way that it was just possible for Jermyn 
not to see her. He availed himself of that possibility, and 
walked straight across the hall, where there was no servant 
in attendance to let him out, as if he believed that no one 
was looking at him who could expect recognition. He did 
not want to speak to Mrs Transome at present; he had 
nothing to ask from her, and one disagreeable interview 
had been enough for him this morning. 
</p>
            <p>She was convinced that he had avoided her, and she was 
too proud to arrest him. She was as insignificant now in his 
eyes as in her son's. 'Men have no memories in their hearts,' 
she said to herself, bitterly. Turning into her sitting-room 
she heard the voices of Mr Transome and little Harry at 
play together. She would have given a great deal at this 
moment if her feeble husband had not always lived in 
dread of her temper and her tyranny, so that he might have 
been fond of her now. She felt herself loveless — if she was 
important to any one, it was only to her old waiting-woman 
Denner. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c36" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 36</head>
            <pb n="446"/>
            <q>
               <l>'Are these things then necessities? </l>
               <l>Then let us meet them like necessities.' </l>
               <l>SHAKESPEARE: Henry IV. </l>
            </q>
            <q>
               <l>See now the virtue living in a word I </l>
               <l>Hobson will think of swearing it was noon </l>
               <l>When he saw Dobson at the May-day fair, </l>
               <l>To prove poor Dobson did not rob the mail. </l>
               <l>'Tis neighbourly to save a neighbour's neck: </l>
               <l>What harm is lying when you mean no harm? </l>
               <l>But say 'tis perjury, then Hobson quakes — </l>
               <l>He'll none of perjury. </l>
               <l>                     Thus words embalm </l>
               <l>The conscience of mankind; and Roman laws </l>
               <l>Bring still a conscience to poor Hobson's aid. </l>
            </q>
            <p>FEW men would have felt otherwise than Harold Transome 
felt, if, having a reversion tantamount to possession of a fine 
estate, carrying an association with an old name and 
considerable social importance, they were suddenly informed 
that there was a person who had a legal right to deprive 
them of these advantages; that person's right having never 
been contemplated by any one as more than a chance, and 
being quite unknown to himself. In ordinary cases a shorter 
possession than Harold's family had enjoyed was allowed 
by the law to constitute an indefeasible right; and if in rare 
and peculiar instances the law left the possessor of a long 
inheritance exposed to deprivation as a consequence of old 
obscure transactions, the moral reasons for giving legal 
validity to the title of long occupancy were not the less 
strong. Nobody would have said that Harold was bound to 
hunt out this alleged remainder-man and urge his rights 
upon him; on the contrary, all the world would have 
laughed at such conduct, and he would have been thought 
an interesting patient for a mad-doctor. The unconscious 
remainder-man was probably much better off left in his 
original station: Harold would not have been called upon to <pb n="447"/>
consider his existence, if it had not been presented to him 
in the shape of a threat from one who had power to execute 
the threat. 
</p>
            <p>In fact, what he would have done had the circumstances 
been different was much clearer than what he should choose 
to do or feel himself compelled to do in the actual crisis. He 
would not have been disgraced if, on a valid claim being 
urged, he had got his lawyers to fight it out for him on the 
chance of eluding the claim by some adroit technical 
management. Nobody off the stage could be sentimental about 
these things, or pretend to shed tears of joy because an 
estate was handed over from a gentleman to a mendicant 
sailor with a wooden leg. And this chance remainder-man 
was perhaps some such specimen of inheritance as the 
drunken fellow killed in the riot. All the world would think 
the actual Transomes in the right to contest any adverse 
claim to the utmost. But then — it was not certain that they 
would win in the contest; and not winning, they would 
incur other loss besides that of the estate. There had been a 
little too much of such loss already. 
</p>
            <p>But why, if it were not wrong to contest the claim, should 
he feel the most uncomfortable scruples about robbing the 
claim of its sting by getting rid of its evidence? It was a 
mortal disappointment — it was a sacrifice of 
indemnification — to abstain from punishing Jermyn. But even if he 
brought his mind to contemplate that as the wiser course, 
he still shrank from what looked like complicity with 
Jermyn; he still shrank from the secret nullification of a just 
legal claim. If he had only known the details, if he had 
known who this alleged heir was, he might have seen his 
way to some course that would not have grated on his 
sense of honour and dignity. But Jermyn had been too acute 
to let Harold know this: he had even carefully kept to the 
masculine pronoun. And he believed that there was no one 
besides himself who would or could make Harold any wiser. 
He went home persuaded that between this interview and 
the next which they would have together, Harold would be <pb n="448"/>
left to an inward debate, founded entirely on the 
information he himself had given. And he had not much doubt that 
the result would be what he desired. Harold was no fool: 
there were many good things he liked better in life than an 
irrational vindictiveness. 
</p>
            <p>And it did happen that, after writing to London in 
fulfilment of his pledge, Harold spent many hours over that 
inward debate, which was not very different from what 
Jermyn imagined. He took it everywhere with him, on foot 
and on horseback, and it was his companion through a 
great deal of the night. His nature was not of a kind given 
to internal conflict, and he had never before been long 
undecided and puzzled. This unaccustomed state of mind was 
so painfully irksome to him — he rebelled so impatiently 
against the oppression of circumstances in which his quick 
temperament and habitual decision could not help him — 
that it added tenfold to his hatred of Jermyn, who was the 
cause of it. And thus, as the temptation to avoid all risk 
of losing the estate grew and grew till scruples looked 
minute by the side of it, the difficulty of bringing himself to 
make a compact with Jermyn seemed more and more 
insurmountable. 
</p>
            <p>But we have seen that the attorney was much too 
confident in his calculations. And while Harold was being galled 
by his subjection to Jermyn's knowledge, independent 
information was on its way to him. The messenger was 
Christian, who, after as complete a survey of probabilities as he 
was capable of, had come to the conclusion that the most 
profitable investment he could make of his peculiar 
experience and testimony in relation to Bycliffe and Bycliffe's 
daughter, was to place them at the disposal of Harold 
Transome. He was afraid of Jermyn; he utterly distrusted 
Johnson; but he thought he was secure in relying on Harold 
Transome's care for his own interest; and he preferred 
above all issues the prospect of forthwith leaving the 
country with a sum that at least for a good while would put him 
at his ease. <pb n="449"/>
            </p>
            <p>When, only three mornings after the interview with 
Jermyn, Dominic opened the door of Harold's sitting-room, 
and said that 'Meester Chreestian', Mr Philip Debarry's 
courier and an acquaintance of his own at Naples, requested 
to be admitted on business of importance, Harold's 
immediate thought was that the business referred to the so-called 
political affairs which were just now his chief association 
with the name of Debarry, though it seemed an oddness 
requiring explanation that a servant should be personally 
an intermediary. He assented, expecting something rather 
disagreeable than otherwise. 
</p>
            <p>Christian wore this morning those perfect manners of a 
subordinate who is not servile, which he always adopted 
towards his unquestionable superiors. Mr Debarry, who 
preferred having some one about him with as little resemblance 
as possible to a regular servant, had a singular liking for the 
adroit, quiet-mannered Christian, and would have been 
amazed to see the insolent assumption he was capable of in 
the presence of people like Lyon, who were of no account 
in society. Christian had that sort of cleverness which is 
said to 'know the world' — that is to say, he knew the 
price-current of most things. 
</p>
            <p>Aware that he was looked at as a messenger while he 
remained standing near the door with his hat in his hand, 
he said, with respectful ease — 
</p>
            <p>'You will probably be surprised, sir, at my coming to 
speak to you on my own account; and, in fact, I could not 
have thought of doing so if my business did not happen to 
be something of more importance to you than to any one 
else.' 
</p>
            <p>'You don't come from Mr Debarry, then?' said Harold, 
with some surprise. 
</p>
            <p>'No, sir. My business is a secret; and, if you please, must 
remain so.' 
</p>
            <p>'Is it a pledge you are demanding from me?' said Harold, 
rather suspiciously, having no ground for confidence in a 
man of Christian's position. <pb n="450"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Yes, sir; I am obliged to ask no less than that you will 
pledge yourself not to take Mr Jermyn into confidence 
concerning what passes between us.' 
</p>
            <p>'With all my heart,' said Harold, something like a gleam 
passing over his face. His circulation had become more 
rapid. 'But what have you had to do with Jermyn?' 
</p>
            <p>'He has not mentioned me to you then — has he, sir?' 
</p>
            <p>'No; certainly not — never.' 
</p>
            <p>Christian thought, 'Aha, Mr Jermyn! you are keeping 
the secret well are you?' He said, aloud — 
</p>
            <p>'Then Mr Jermyn has never mentioned to you, sir, what 
I believe he is aware of — that there is danger of a new suit 
being raised against you on the part of a Bycliffe, to get 
the estate?' 
</p>
            <p>'Aha !' said Harold, starting up, and placing himself with 
his back against the mantelpiece. He was electrified by 
surprise at the quarter from which this information was 
coming. Any fresh alarm was counteracted by the flashing 
thought that he might be enabled to act independently of 
Jermyn; and in the rush of feelings he could utter no more 
than an interjection. Christian concluded that Harold had 
had no previous hint. 
</p>
            <p>'It is this fact, sir, that I came to tell you of ' 
</p>
            <p>'From some other motive than kindness to me, I presume,' 
said Harold, with a slight approach to a smile. 
</p>
            <p>'Certainly,' said Christian, as quietly as if he had been 
stating yesterday's weather. 'I should not have the folly to 
use any affectation with you, Mr Transome. I lost 
considerable property early in life, and am now in the receipt of a 
salary simply. In the affair I have just mentioned to you I 
can give evidence which will turn the scale against you. I 
have no wish to do so, if you will make it worth my while 
to leave the country.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold listened as if he had been a legendary hero, 
selected for peculiar solicitation by the Evil One. Here was 
temptation in a more alluring form than before, because it 
was sweetened by the prospect of eluding Jermyn. But the <pb n="451"/>
desire to gain time served all the purposes of caution and 
resistance, and his indifference to the speaker in this case 
helped him to preserve perfect self-command. 
</p>
            <p>'You are aware,' he said, coolly, 'that silence is not a 
commodity worth purchasing unless it is loaded. There are 
many persons, I dare say, who would like me to pay their 
travelling expenses for them. But they might hardly be able 
to show me that it was worth my while.' 
</p>
            <p>'You wish me to state what I know?' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, that is a necessary preliminary to any further 
conversation.' 
</p>
            <p>'I think you will see, Mr Transome, that, as a matter of 
justice, the knowledge I can give is worth something, quite 
apart from my future appearance or non-appearance as a 
witness. I must take care of my own interest, and if 
anything should hinder you from choosing to satisfy me for 
taking an essential witness out of the way, I must at least 
be paid for bringing you the information.' 
</p>
            <p>'Can you tell me who and where this Bycliffe is?' 
</p>
            <p>'I can.' 
</p>
            <p>'- And give me a notion of the whole affair?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes: I have talked to a lawyer — not Jermyn — who is at 
the bottom of the law in the affair.' 
</p>
            <p>'You must not count on any wish of mine to suppress 
evidence or remove a witness. But name your price for the 
information.' 
</p>
            <p>'In that case I must be paid the higher for my 
information. Say, two thousand pounds.' 
</p>
            <p>'Two thousand devils!' burst out Harold, throwing 
himself into his chair again, and turning his shoulder towards 
Christian. New thoughts crowded upon him. 'This fellow 
may want to decamp for some reason or other,' he said to 
himself. 'More people besides Jermyn know about his 
evidence, it seems. The whole thing may look black for me if it 
comes out. I shall be believed to have bribed him to run 
away, whether or not.' Thus the outside conscience came in 
aid of the inner. <pb n="452"/>
            </p>
            <p>'I will not give you one sixpence for your information,' 
he said, resolutely, 'until time has made it clear that you do 
not intend to decamp, but will be forthcoming when you 
are called for. On those terms I have no objection to give 
you a note, specifying that after the fulfilment of that 
condition — that is, after the occurrence of a suit, or the 
understanding that no suit is to occur — I will pay you a certain 
sum in consideration of the information you now give me!' 
</p>
            <p>Christian felt himself caught in a vice. In the first 
instance he had counted confidently on Harold's ready seizure 
of his offer to disappear, and after some words had seemed 
to cast a doubt on this presupposition, he had inwardly 
determined to go away, whether Harold wished it or not, if he 
could get a sufficient sum. He did not reply immediately, 
and Harold waited in silence, inwardly anxious to know 
what Christian could tell, but with a vision at present so 
far cleared that he was determined not to risk incurring the 
imputation of having anything to do with scoundrelism. 
We are very much indebted to such a linking of events as 
makes a doubtful action look wrong. 
</p>
            <p>Christian was reflecting that if he stayed, and faced some 
possible inconveniences of being known publicly as Henry 
Scaddon for the sake of what he might get from Esther, it 
would at least be wise to be certain of some money from 
Harold Transome, since he turned out to be of so peculiar 
a disposition as to insist on a punctilious honesty to his own 
disadvantage. Did he think of making a bargain with the 
other side? If so, he might be content to wait for the 
knowledge till it came in some other way. Christian was beginning 
to be afraid lest he should get nothing by this clever move 
of coming to Transome Court. At last he said — 
</p>
            <p>'I think, sir, two thousand would not be an unreasonable 
sum, on those conditions.' 
</p>
            <p>'I will not give two thousand.' 
</p>
            <p>'Allow me to say, sir, you must consider that there is no 
one whose interest it is to tell you as much as I shall, even if 
they could; since Mr Jermyn, who knows it, has not thought <pb n="453"/>
fit to tell you. There may be use you don't think of in 
getting the information at once.' 
'Well?' 
</p>
            <p>'I think a gentleman should act liberally under such 
circumstances.' 
</p>
            <p>'So I will.' 
</p>
            <p>I could not take less than a thousand pounds. It really 
would not be worth my while. If Mr Jermyn knew I gave 
you the information, he would endeavour to injure me.' 
</p>
            <p>'I will give you a thousand,' said Harold, immediately, 
for Christian had unconsciously touched a sure spring. 'At 
least, I'll give you a note to the effect I spoke of.' 
</p>
            <p>He wrote as he had promised, and gave the paper to 
Christian. 
</p>
            <p>'Now, don't be circuitous,' said Harold. 'You seem to have 
a business-like gift of speech Who and where is this 
Bycliffe?' 
</p>
            <p>'You will be surprised to hear, sir, that she is supposed to 
be the daughter of the old preacher, Lyon, in Malthouse.' 
</p>
            <p>'Good God! How can that be?' said Harold. At once, the 
first occasion on which he had seen Esther rose in his 
memory — the little dark parlour — the graceful girl in blue, 
with the surprisingly distinguished manners and 
appearance. 
</p>
            <p>'In this way. Old Lyon, by some strange means or other, 
married Bycliffe's widow when this girl was a baby. And the 
preacher didn't want the girl to know that he was not her 
real father: he told me that himself. But she is the image 
of Bycliffe, whom I knew well — an uncommonly fine woman 
— steps like a queen.' 
</p>
            <p>I have seen her,' said Harold, more than ever glad to 
have purchased this knowledge. 'But now, go on.' 
</p>
            <p>Christian proceeded to tell all he knew, including his 
conversation with Jermyn, except so far as it had an 
unpleasant relation to himself. 
</p>
            <p>'Then,' said Harold, as the details seemed to have come <pb n="454"/>
to a close, 'you believe that Miss Lyon and her supposed 
father are at present unaware of the claims that might be 
urged for her on the strength of her birth?' 
</p>
            <p>'I believe so. But I need not tell you that where the 
lawyers are on the scent you can never be sure of anything 
long together. I must remind you, sir, that you have 
promised to protect me from Mr Jermyn by keeping my 
confidence.' 
</p>
            <p>'Never fear. Depend upon it, I shall betray nothing to 
Mr Jermyn.' 
</p>
            <p>Christian was dismissed with a 'good-morning'; and while 
he cultivated some friendly reminiscences with Dominic, 
Harold sat chewing the cud of his new knowledge, and 
finding it not altogether so bitter as he had expected. 
</p>
            <p>From the first, after his interview with Jermyn, the recoil 
of Harold's mind from the idea of strangling a legal right 
threw him on the alternative of attempting a compromise. 
Some middle course might be possible, which would be a 
less evil than a costly lawsuit, or than the total 
renunciation of the estates. And now he had learned that the new 
claimant was a woman — a young woman, brought up under 
circumstances that would make the fourth of the 
Transome property seem to her an immense fortune. Both the 
sex and the social condition were of the sort that lies open 
to many softening influences. And having seen Esther, it 
was inevitable that, amongst the various issues, agreeable 
and disagreeable, depicted by Harold's imagination, there 
should present itself a possibility that would unite the two 
claims — his own, which he felt to be the rational, and 
Esther's, which apparently was the legal claim. 
</p>
            <p>Harold, as he had constantly said to his mother, was 'not 
a marrying man;' he did not contemplate bringing a wife to 
Transome Court for many years to come, if at all. Having 
little Harry as an heir, he preferred freedom. Western 
women were not to his taste: they showed a transition from 
the feebly animal to the thinking being, which was simply 
troublesome. Harold preferred a slow-witted large-eyed <pb n="455"/>
woman, silent and affectionate, with a load of black hair 
weighing much more heavily than her brains. He had seen 
no such woman in England, except one whom he had 
brought with him from the East. 
</p>
            <p>Therefore Harold did not care to be married until or 
unless some surprising chance presented itself; and now that 
such a chance had occurred to suggest marriage to him, he 
would not admit to himself that he contemplated marrying 
Esther as a plan; he was only obliged to see that such an 
issue was not inconceivable. He was not going to take any 
step expressly directed towards that end: what he had made 
up his mind to, as the comse most satisfactory to his nature 
under present urgencies, was to behave to Esther with a 
frank gentlemanliness, which must win her good-will, and 
incline her to save his family interest as much as possible. 
He was helped to this determination by the pleasure of 
frustrating Jermyn's contrivance to shield himself from 
punishment; and his most distinct and cheering prospect was, that 
within a very short space of time he should not only have 
effected a satisfactory compromise with Esther, but should 
have made Jermyn aware, by a very disagreeable form of 
announcement, that Harold Transome was no longer afraid 
of him. Jermyn should bite the dust. 
</p>
            <p>At the end of these meditations he felt satisfied with 
himself and light-hearted. He had rejected two dishonest 
propositions, and he was going to do something that seemed 
eminently graceful. But he needed his mother's assistance, 
and it was necessary that he should both confide in her and 
persuade her. 
</p>
            <p>Within two hours after Christian left him, Harold begged 
his mother to come into his private room, and there he told 
her the strange and startling story, omitting, however, any 
particulars which would involve the identification of 
Christian as his informant. Harold felt that his engagement 
demanded this reticence; and he told his mother that he was 
bound to conceal the source of that knowledge which he 
had got independently of Jermyn. 
<pb n="456"/>
            </p>
            <p>Mrs Transome said little in the course of the story: she 
made no exclamations, but she listened with close 
attention, and asked a few questions so much to the point as to 
surprise Harold. When he showed her the copy of the legal 
opinion which Jermyn had left with him, she said she knew 
it very well; she had a copy herself. The particulars of that 
last lawsuit were too well engraven on her mind: it 
happened at a time when there was no one to supersede her, and 
she was the virtual head of the family affairs. She was 
prepared to understand how the estate might be in danger; 
but nothing had prepared her for the strange details — for 
the way in which the new claimant had been reared and 
brought within the range of converging motives that had 
led to this revelation, least of all for the part Jermyn had 
come to play in the revelation. Mrs Transome saw these 
things through the medium of certain dominant emotions 
that made them seem like a long-ripening retribution. 
Harold perceived that she was painfully agitated, that she 
trembled, and that her white lips would not readily lend 
themselves to speech. And this was hardly more than he 
expected. He had not liked the revelation himself when it 
had first come to him. 
</p>
            <p>But he did not guess what it was in his narrative which 
had most pierced his mother. It was something that made 
the threat about the estate only a secondary alarm. Now, 
for the first time, she heard of the intended proceedings 
against Jermyn. Harold had not chosen to speak of them 
before; but having at last called his mother into 
consultation, there was nothing in his mind to hinder him from 
speaking without reserve of his determination to visit on 
the attorney his shameful maladministration of the family 
affairs. 
</p>
            <p>Harold went through the whole narrative — of what he 
called Jermyn's scheme to catch him in a vice, and his power 
of triumphantly frustrating that scheme — in his usual rapid 
way, speaking with a final decisiveness of tone: and his 
mother felt that if she urged any counter-consideration <pb n="457"/>
at all, she could only do so when he had no more to 
say. 
</p>
            <p>'Now, what I want you to do, mother, if you can see this 
matter as I see it,' Harold said in conclusion, 'is to go with 
me to call on this girl in Malthouse Yard. I will open the 
affair to her; it appears she is not likely to have been 
informed yet; and you will invite her to visit you here at once, 
that all scandal, all hatching of law-mischief, may be 
avoided, and the thing may be brought to an amicable 
conclusion.' 
</p>
            <p>'It seems almost incredible — extraordinary — a girl in her 
position,' said Mrs Transome, with difficulty. It would have 
seemed the bitterest humiliating penance if another sort of 
suffering had left any room in her heart. 
</p>
            <p>'I assure you she is a lady; I saw her when I was 
canvassing, and was amazed at the time. You will be quite 
struck with her. It is no indignity for you to invite her.' 
</p>
            <p>'Oh,' said Mrs Transome, with low-toned bitterness, 'I 
must put up with all things as they are determined for me. 
When shall we go?' 
</p>
            <p>'Well,' said Harold, looking at his watch, 'it is hardly two 
yet. We could really go to-day, when you have lunched. It 
is better to lose no time. I'll order the carriage.' 
</p>
            <p>'Stay,' said Mrs Transome, making a desperate effort. 
'There is plenty of time. I shall not lunch. I have a word 
to say.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold withdrew his hand from the bell, and leaned 
against the mantelpiece to listen. 
</p>
            <p>'You see I comply with your wish at once, Harold?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, mother, I'm much obliged to you for making no 
difficulties.' 
</p>
            <p>'You ought to listen to me in return.' 
</p>
            <p>'Pray go on,' said Harold, expecting to be annoyed. 
</p>
            <p>'What is the good of having these Chancery proceedings 
against Jermyn?' 
</p>
            <p>'Good? This good; that fellow has burdened the estate 
with annuities and mortgages to the extent of three thousand <pb n="458"/>
a-year; and the bulk of them, I am certain, he holds 
himself under the name of another man. And the advances 
this yearly interest represents, have not been much more 
than twenty thousand. Of course he has hoodwinked you, 
and my father never gave attention to these things. He 
has been up to all sorts of devil's work with the deeds; he 
didn't count on my coming back from Smyrna to fill poor 
Durfey's place. He shall feel the difference. And the good 
will be, that I shall save almost all the annuities for the rest 
of my father's life, which may be ten years or more, and I 
shall get back some of the money, and I shall punish a 
scoundrel. That is the good.' 
'He will be ruined.' 
'That's what I intend,' said Harold, sharply. 
</p>
            <p>'He exerted himself a great deal for us in the old suits: 
every one said he had wonderful zeal and ability,' said Mrs 
Transome, getting courage and warmth as she went on. Her 
temper was rising. 
</p>
            <p>'What he did, he did for his own sake, you may depend 
on that,' said Harold, with a scornful laugh. 
</p>
            <p>'There were very painful things in that last suit. You 
seem anxious, about this young woman, to avoid all further 
scandal and contests in the family. Why don't you wish to 
do it in this case? Jermyn might be willing to arrange 
things amicably — to make restitution as far as he can — if 
he has done anything wrong.' 
</p>
            <p>'I will arrange nothing amicably with him,' said Harold, 
decisively. 'If he has ever done anything scandalous as our 
agent, let him bear the infamy. And the right way to throw 
the infamy on him is to show the world that he has robbed 
us, and that I mean to punish him. Why do you wish to 
shield such a fellow, mother? It has been chiefly through 
him that you have had to lead such a thrifty miserable life 
— you who used to make as brilliant a figure as a woman 
need wish.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome's rising temper was turned into a horrible 
sensation, as painful as a sudden concussion from something <pb n="459"/>
hard and immovable when we have struck out with 
our fist, intending to hit something warm, soft, and 
breathing, like ourselves. Poor Mrs Transome's strokes were sent 
jarring back on her by a hard unalterable past. She did not 
speak in answer to Harold, but rose from the chair as if she 
gave up the debate. 
</p>
            <p>'Women are frightened at everything, I know,' said 
Harold, kindly, feeling that he had been a little harsh after 
his mother's compliance. 'And you have been used for so 
many years to think Jermyn a law of nature. Come, mother,' 
he went on, looking at her gently, and resting his hands on 
her shoulders, 'look cheerful. We shall get through all these 
difficulties. And this girl — I daresay she will be quite an 
interesting visitor for you. You have not had any young girl 
about you for a long while. Who knows? she may fall deeply 
in love with me, and I may be obliged to marry her.' 
</p>
            <p>He spoke laughingly, only thinking how he could make 
his mother smile. But she looked at him seriously and said, 
'Do you mean that, Harold?' 
</p>
            <p>'Am I not capable of making a conquest? Not too fat yet 
— a handsome, well-rounded youth of thirty-four?' 
</p>
            <p>She was forced to look straight at the beaming face with 
its rich dark colour, just bent a little over her. Why could 
she not be happy in this son whose future she had once 
dreamed of, and who had been as fortunate as she had ever 
hoped? The tears came, not plenteously, but making her 
dark eyes as large and bright as youth had once made them 
without tears. 
</p>
            <p>'There, there!' said Harold, coaxingly. 'Don't be afraid. 
You shall not have a daughter-in-law unless she is a pearl. 
Now we will get ready to go.' 
</p>
            <p>In half an hour from that time Mrs Transome came 
down, looking majestic in sables and velvet, ready to call 
on 'the girl in Malthouse Yard'. She had composed herself 
to go through this task. She saw there was nothing better 
to be done. After the resolutions Harold had taken, some 
sort of compromise with this oddly-placed heiress was the <pb n="460"/>
result most to be hoped for; if the compromise turned out 
to be a marriage — well, she had no reason to care much: 
she was already powerless. It remained to be seen what this 
girl was. 
</p>
            <p>The carriage was to be driven round the back way, to 
avoid too much observation. But the late election affairs 
might account for Mr Lyon's receiving a visit from the 
unsuccessful Radical candidate. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c37" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 37</head>
            <pb n="461"/>
            <q>
               <p>'I also could speak as ye do; if your soul were in my soul's 
stead, I could heap up words against you, and shake mine head 
at you.' — Book of Job. 
</p>
            </q>
            <p>IN the interval since Esther parted with Felix Holt on the 
day of the riot, she had gone through so much emotion, 
and had already had so strong a shock of surprise, that she 
was prepared to receive any new incident of an unwonted 
kind with comparative equanimity. 
</p>
            <p>When Mr Lyon had got home again from his preaching 
excursion, Felix was already on his way to Loamford Jail. 
The little minister was terribly shaken by the news. He saw 
no clear explanation of Felix Holt's conduct; for the 
statements Esther had heard were so conflicting that she had 
not been able to gather distinctly what had come out in the 
examination by the magistrates. But Mr Lyon felt confident 
that Felix was innocent of any wish to abet a riot or the 
infliction of injuries; what he chiefly feared was that in the 
fatal encounter with Tucker he had been moved by a rash 
temper, not sufficiently guarded against by a prayerful and 
humble spirit. 
</p>
            <p>'My poor young friend is being taught with mysterious 
severity the evil of a too confident self-reliance,' he said to 
Esther, as they sat opposite to each other, listening and 
speaking sadly. 
</p>
            <p>'You will go and see him, father?' 
</p>
            <p>'Verily will I. But I must straightway go and see that poor 
afflicted woman, whose soul is doubtless whirled about in 
this trouble like a shapeless and unstable thing driven by 
divided winds.' Mr Lyon rose and took his hat hastily, 
ready to walk out, with his greatcoat flying open and 
exposing his small person to the keen air. 
</p>
            <p>'Stay, father, pray, till you have had some food,' said <pb n="462"/>
Esther, putting her hand on his arm. 'You look quite weary 
and shattered.' 
</p>
            <p>'Child, I cannot stay. I can neither eat bread nor drink 
water till I have learned more about this young man's deeds, 
what can be proved and what cannot be proved against him. 
I fear he has none to stand by him in this town, for even by 
the friends of our church I have been oft times rebuked 
because he seemed dear to me. But, Esther, my beloved 
child —' 
</p>
            <p>Here Mr Lyon grasped her arm, and seemed in the need 
of speech to forget his previous haste. 'I bear in mind this: 
the Lord knoweth them that are His; but we — we are left to 
judge by uncertain signs, that so we may learn to exercise 
hope and faith towards one another; and in this uncertainty 
I cling with awful hope to those whom the world loves not 
because their conscience, albeit mistakenly, is at war with 
the habits of the world. Our great faith, my Esther, is the 
faith of martyrs: I will not lightly turn away from any man 
who endures harshness because he will not lie; nay, though 
I would not wantonly grasp at ease of mind through an 
arbitrary choice of doctrine, I cannot but believe that the 
merits of the divine sacrifice are wider than our utmost 
charity. I once believed otherwise — but not now, not now.' 
</p>
            <p>The minister paused, and seemed to be abstractedly 
gazing at some memory: he was always liable to be snatched 
away by thoughts from the pursuit of a purpose which had 
seemed pressing. Esther seized the opportunity and 
prevailed on him to fortify himself with some of Lyddy's 
porridge before he went out on his tiring task of seeking 
definite trustworthy knowledge from the lips of various 
witnesses, beginning with that feminine darkener of counsel, 
poor Mrs Holt. 
</p>
            <p>She, regarding all her trouble about Felix in the light of a 
fulfilment of her own prophecies, treated the sad history 
with a preference for edification above accuracy, and for 
mystery above relevance, worthy of a commentator on the 
Apocalypse. She insisted chiefly, not on the important facts <pb n="463"/>
that Felix had sat at his work till after eleven, like a deaf 
man, had rushed out in surprise and alarm, had come back 
to report with satisfaction that things were quiet, and had 
asked her to set by his dinner for him — facts which would 
tell as evidence that Felix was disconnected with any 
project of disturbances, and was averse to them. These things 
came out incidentally in her long plaint to the minister — but 
what Mrs Holt felt it essential to state was, that long before 
Michaelmas was turned, sitting in her chair, she had said to 
Felix that there would be a judgment on him for being so 
certain sure about the pills and the elixir. 
</p>
            <p>'And now, Mr Lyon,' said the poor woman, who had 
dressed herself in a gown previously cast off, a front all out 
of curl, and a cap with no starch in it, while she held little 
coughing Job on her knee, — 'and now you see — my words 
have come true sooner than I thought they would. Felix 
may contradict me if he will; but there he is in prison, and 
here am I, with nothing in the world to bless myself with 
but half-a-crown a-week as I've saved by my own scraping 
and this house I've got to pay rent for. It's not me has done 
wrong. Mr Lyon; there's nobody can say it of me — not the 
orphin child on my knee is more innicent o' riot and 
murder and anything else as is bad. But when you've got a son 
so masterful and stopping medicines as providence has sent, 
and his betters have been taking up and down the country 
since before he was a baby, it's o' no use being good here 
below. But he was a baby, Mr Lyon, and I gave him the 
breast,' — here poor Mrs Holt's motherly love overcame her 
expository eagerness, and she fell more and more to crying 
as she spoke — 'And to think there's folks saying now as he'll 
be transported, and his hair shaved off, and the treadmill, 
and everything. O dear!' 
</p>
            <p>As Mrs Holt broke off into sobbing, little Job also, who 
had got a confused yet profound sense of sorrow, and of 
Felix being hurt and gone away, set up a little wail of 
wondering misery. 
</p>
            <p>'Nay, Mistress Holt,' said the minister soothingly, 'enlarge <pb n="464"/>
not your grief by more than warrantable grounds. I 
have good hope that my young friend your son will be 
delivered from any severe consequences beyond the death of 
the man Tucker, which I fear will ever be a sore burthen 
on his memory. I feel confident that a jury of his 
countrymen will discern between misfortune or it may be 
misjudgment, and an evil will, and that he will be acquitted of any 
grave offence.' 
</p>
            <p>'He never stole anything in his life, Mr Lyon,' said Mrs 
Holt, reviving. 'Nobody can throw it in my face as my son 
ran away with money like the young man at the bank — 
though he looked most respectable, and far different on a 
Sunday to what Felix ever did. And I know it's very hard 
fighting with constables; but they say Tucker's wife'll be a 
deal better off than she was before, for the great folks'll 
pension her, and she'll be put on all the charities, and her 
children at the Free School, and everything. Your trouble's 
easy borne when everybody gives it a lift for you; and if 
judge and jury wants to do right by Felix, they'll think of 
his poor mother, with the bread took out of her mouth, all 
but half-a-crown a-week and furniture — which, to be sure, 
is most excellent, and of my own buying — and got to keep 
this orphin child as Felix himself brought on me. And I 
might send him back to his old grandfather on parish pay, 
but I'm not that woman, Mr Lyon; I've a tender heart. 
And here's his little feet and toes, like marbil; do but look' 
— here Mrs Holt drew off Job's sock and shoe, and showed a 
well-washed little foot — 'and you'll perhaps say I might 
take a lodger; but it's easy talking; it isn't everybody at a 
loose-end wants a parlour and a bedroom; and if anything 
bad happens to Felix, I may as well go and sit in the parish 
pound, and nobody to buy me out; for it's beyond 
everything how the church members find fault with my son. But 
I think they might leave his mother to find fault; for queer 
and masterful he might be, and flying in the face of the 
very Scripture about the physic, but he was most clever 
beyond anything — that I will say — and was his own father's <pb n="465"/>
lawful child, and me his mother, that was Mary Wall thirty 
years before ever I married his father.' Here Mrs Holt's 
feelings again became too much for her, but she struggled 
on to say, sobbingly, 'And if they're to transport him, I 
should like to go to the prison and take the orphin child; 
for he was most fond of having him on his lap, and said 
he'd never marry; and there was One above overheard him, 
for he's been took at his word.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon listened with low groans, and then tried to 
comfort her by saying that he would himself go to Loamford as 
soon as possible, and would give his soul no rest till he had 
done all he could do for Felix. 
</p>
            <p>On one point Mrs Holt's plaint tallied with his own 
forebodings, and he found them verified: the state of 
feeling in Treby among the Liberal dissenting flock was 
unfavourable to Felix. None who had observed his 
conduct from the windows saw anything tending to excuse him, 
and his own account of his motives, given on his 
examination, was spoken of with head-shaking; if it had not been 
for his habit of always thinking himself wiser than other 
people, he would never have entertained such a wild 
scheme. He had set himself up for something 
extraordinary, and had spoken ill of respectable tradespeople. He had 
put a stop to the making of saleable drugs, contrary to the 
nature of buying and selling, and to a due reliance on what 
providence might effect in the human inside through the 
instrumentality of remedies unsuitable to the stomach, 
looked at in a merely secular light; and the result was what 
might have been expected. He had brought his mother to 
poverty, and himself into trouble. And what for? He had 
done no good to 'the cause'; if he had fought about 
churchrates, or had been worsted in some struggle in which he 
was distinctly the champion of Dissent and Liberalism, his 
case would have been one for gold, silver, and copper 
subscriptions, in order to procure the best defence; sermons 
might have been preached on him, and his name might 
have floated on flags from Newcastle to Dorchester. But <pb n="466"/>
there seemed to be no edification in what had befallen 
Felix. The riot at Treby, 'turn it which way you would,' as 
Mr Muscat observed, was no great credit to Liberalism; 
and what Mr Lyon had to testify as to Felix Holt's 
conduct in the matter of the Sproxton men, only made it clear 
that the defence of Felix was the accusation of his party. 
The whole affair, Mr Nuttwood said, was dark and 
inscrutable, and seemed not to be one in which the 
interference of God's servants would tend to give the glory where 
the glory was due. That a candidate for whom the richer 
church members had all voted should have his name 
associated with the encouragement of drunkenness, riot, and 
plunder, was an occasion for the enemy to blaspheme; and 
it was not clear how the enemy's mouth would be stopped 
by exertions in favour of a rash young man, whose 
interference had made things worse instead of better. Mr Lyon 
was warned lest his human partialities should blind him 
to the interests of truth; it was God's cause that was 
endangered in this matter. 
</p>
            <p>The little minister's soul was bruised; he himself was 
keenly alive to the complication of public and private 
regards in this affair, and suffered a good deal at the thought 
of Tory triumph in the demonstration that, excepting the 
attack on the Seven Stars, which called itself a Whig house, 
all damage to property had been borne by Tories. He cared 
intensely for his opinions, and would have liked events to 
speak for them in a sort of picture-writing that everybody 
could understand. The enthusiasms of the world are not to 
be stimulated by a commentary in small and subtle 
characters which alone can tell the whole truth; and the 
picture-writing in Felix Holt's troubles was of an entirely puzzling 
kind: if he were a martyr, neither side wanted to claim him. 
Yet the minister, as we have seen, found in his Christian 
faith a reason for clinging the more to one who had not a 
large party to back him. That little man's heart was heroic: 
he was not one of those Liberals who make their anxiety 
for 'the cause' of Liberalism a plea for cowardly desertion. <pb n="467"/>
            </p>
            <p>Besides himself, he believed there was no one who could 
bear testimony to the remonstrances of Felix concerning 
the treating of the Sproxton men, except Jermyn, Johnson, 
and Harold Transome. Though he had the vaguest idea 
of what could be done in the case, he fixed his mind on the 
probability that Mr Transome would be moved to the 
utmost exertion, if only as an atonement; but he dared not 
take any step until he had consulted Felix, who he 
foresaw was likely to have a very strong determination as to 
the help he would accept or not accept. 
</p>
            <p>This last expectation was fulfilled. Mr Lyon returned to 
Esther, after his days journey to Loamford and back, 
with less of trouble and perplexity in his mind: he had at 
least got a definite course marked out, to which he must 
resign himself. Felix had declared that he would receive no 
aid from Harold Transome, except the aid he might give as 
an honest witness. There was nothing to be done for him 
but what was perfectly simple and direct. Even if the 
pleading of counsel had been permitted (and at that time 
it was not) on behalf of a prisoner on trial for felony, Felix 
would have declined it: he would in any case have spoken 
in his own defence. He had a perfectly simple account to 
give, and needed not to avail himself of any legal 
adroitness. He consented to accept the services of a respectable 
solicitor in Loamford, who offered to conduct his case 
without any fees. The work was plain and easy, Felix said. The 
only witnesses who had to be hunted up at all were some 
who could testify that he had tried to take the crowd down 
Hobb's Lane, and that they had gone to the Manor in spite 
of him. 
</p>
            <p>'Then he is not so much cast down as you feared, father?' 
said Esther. 
</p>
            <p>'No, child; albeit he is pale and much shaken for one so 
stalwart. He hath no grief, he says, save for the poor man 
Tucker, and for his mother; otherwise his heart is without 
a burthen. We discoursed greatly on the sad effect of all 
this for his mother, and on the perplexed condition of <pb n="468"/>
human things, whereby even right action seems to bring 
evil consequences, if we have respect only to our own brief 
lives, and not to that larger rule whereby we are stewards 
of the eternal dealings, and not contrivers of our own 
success.' 
</p>
            <p>'Did he say nothing about me, father?' said Esther, 
trembling a little, but unable to repress her egoism. 
</p>
            <p>'Yea; he asked if you were well, and sent his affectionate 
regards. Nay, he bade me say something which appears 
to refer to your discourse together when I was not present. 
“Tell her,” he said, “whatever they sentence me to, she 
knows they can't rob me of my vocation. With poverty for 
my bride, and preaching and pedagogy for my business, I 
am sure of a handsome establishment.” He laughed — 
doubtless bearing in mind some playfulness of thine.' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon seemed to be looking at Esther as he smiled, but 
she was not near enough for him to discern the expression 
of her face. Just then it seemed made for melancholy rather 
than for playfulness. Hers was not a childish beauty; and 
when the sparkle of mischief, wit, and vanity was out of her 
eyes, and the large look of abstracted sorrow was there, you 
would have been surprised by a certain grandeur which the 
smiles had hidden. That changing face was the perfect 
symbol of her mixed susceptible nature, in which battle was 
inevitable, and the side of victory uncertain. 
</p>
            <p>She began to look on all that had passed between herself 
and Felix as something not buried, but embalmed and kept 
as a relic in a private sanctuary. The very entireness of her 
preoccupation about him, the perpetual repetition in her 
memory of all that had passed between them, tended to 
produce this effect. She lived with him in the past; in the 
future she seemed shut out from him. He was an influence 
above her life, rather than a part of it; some time or other, 
perhaps, he would be to her as if he belonged to the solemn 
admonishing skies, checking her self-satisfied pettiness with 
the suggestion of a wider life. 
</p>
            <p>But not yet — not while her trouble was so fresh For it <pb n="469"/>
was still her trouble, and not Felix Holt's. Perhaps it was a 
subtraction from his power over her, that she could never 
think of him with pity, because he always seemed to her too 
great and strong to be pitied: he wanted nothing. He evaded 
calamity by choosing privation. The best part of a woman's 
love is worship; but it is hard to her to be sent away with 
her precious spikenard rejected, and her long tresses too, 
that were let fall ready to soothe the wearied feet. 
</p>
            <p>While Esther was carrying these things in her heart, the 
January days were beginning to pass by with their wonted 
wintry monotony, except that there was rather more of good 
cheer than usual remaining from the feast of Twelfth Night 
among the triumphant Tories, and rather more scandal than 
usual excited among the mortified Dissenters by the 
wilfulness of their minister. He had actually mentioned Felix 
Holt by name in his evening sermon, and offered up a 
petition for him in the evening prayer, also by name — not as 'a 
young Ishmaelite, whom we would fain see brought back 
from the lawless life of the desert, and seated in the same 
fold even with the sons of Judah and of Benjamin', a 
suitable periphrasis which Brother Kemp threw off without any 
effort, and with all the felicity of a suggestive critic. Poor Mrs 
Holt, indeed, even in the midst of her grief, experienced a 
proud satisfaction, that though not a church member she 
was now an object of congregational remark and ministerial 
allusion. Feeling herself a spotless character standing out in 
relief on a dark background of affliction, and a practical 
contradiction to that extreme doctrine of human depravity 
which she had never 'given in to', she was naturally gratified 
and soothed by a notice which must be a recognition. But 
more influential hearers were of opinion, that in a man who 
had so many long sentences at command as Mr Lyon, so 
many parentheses and modifying clauses, this naked use of 
a non-scriptural Treby name in an address to the Almighty 
was all the more offensive. In a low unlettered local preacher 
of the Wesleyan persuasion such things might pass; but a 
certain style in prayer was demanded from Independents, <pb n="470"/>
the most educated body in the ranks of orthodox Dissent. 
To Mr Lyon such notions seemed painfully perverse, and 
the next morning he was declaring to Esther his resolution 
stoutly to withstand them, and to count nothing common 
or unclean on which a blessing could be asked, when the 
tenor of his thoughts was completely changed by a great 
shock of surprise which made both himself and Esther sit 
looking at each other in speechless amazement. 
</p>
            <p>The cause was a letter brought by a special messenger 
from Duffield; a heavy letter addressed to Esther in a 
business-like manner, quite unexampled in her correspondence. 
And the contents of the letter were more startling than its 
exterior. It began: 
</p>
            <p>Madam, — Herewith we send you a brief abstract of evidence 
which has come within our knowledge, that the right of 
remainder whereby the lineal issue of Edward Bycliffe can claim 
possession of the estates of which the entail was settled by John 
Justus Transome in 1729, now first accrues to you as the sole and 
lawful issue of Maurice Christian Bycliffe. We are confident of 
success in the prosecution of this claim, which will result to you 
in the possession of estates to the value, at the lowest, of from 
five to six thousand per annum — 
</p>
            <p>It was at this point that Esther, who was reading aloud, 
let her hand fall with the letter on her lap, and with a pal 
pitating heart looked at her father, who looked again, in 
silence that lasted for two or three minutes. A certain terror 
was upon them both, though the thoughts that laid that 
weight on the tongue of each were different. 
</p>
            <p>It was Mr Lyon who spoke first. 
</p>
            <p>'This, then, is what the man named Christian referred to. 
I distrusted him, yet it seems he spoke truly.' 
</p>
            <p>'But,' said Esther, whose imagination ran necessarily to 
those conditions of wealth which she could best appreciate, 
'do they mean that the Transomes would be turned out of 
Transome Court, and that I should go and live there? It 
seems quite an impossible thing.' <pb n="471"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Nay, child, I know not. I am ignorant in these things, and 
the thought of worldly grandeur for you hath more of terror 
than of gladness for me. Nevertheless we must duly weigh 
all things, not considering aught that befalls us as a bare 
event, but rather as an occasion for faithful stewardship. 
Let us go to my study and consider this writing further.' 
</p>
            <p>How this announcement, which to Esther seemed as 
unprepared as if it had fallen from the skies, came to be made 
to her by solicitors other than Batt &amp; Cowley, the old lawyers 
of the Bycliffes, was by a sequence as natural, that is to say, 
as legally-natural, as any in the world. The secret worker of 
the apparent wonder was Mr Johnson, who, on the very day 
when he wrote to give his patron, Mr Jermyn, the serious 
warning that a bill was likely to be filed in Chancery against 
him, had carried forward with added zeal the business 
already commenced, of arranging with another firm his 
share in the profits likely to result from the prosecution of 
Esther Bycliffe's claim. 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn's star was certainly going down, and Johnson did 
not feel an unmitigated grief. Beyond some troublesome 
declarations as to his actual share in transactions in which 
his name had been used, Johnson saw nothing formidable 
in prospect for himself. He was not going to be ruined, 
though Jermyn probably was: he was not a highflyer, but a 
mere climbing-bird, who could hold on and get his 
livelihood just as well if his wings were clipped a little. And, in 
the meantime, here was something to be gained in this 
Bycliffe business, which, it was not unpleasant to think, was 
a nut that Jermyn had intended to keep for his own 
particular cracking, and which would be rather a severe 
astonishment to Mr Harold Transome, whose manners towards 
respectable agents were such as leave a smart in a man of 
spirit. 
</p>
            <p>Under the stimulus of small many-mixed motives like 
these, a great deal of business has been done in the world by 
well-clad and, in 1833, clean-shaven men, whose names are 
on charity-lists, and who do not know that they are base. Mr <pb n="472"/>
Johnson's character was not much more exceptional than 
his double chin. 
</p>
            <p>No system, religious or political, I believe, has laid it 
down as a principle that all men are alike virtuous, or even 
that all the people rated for  \034 80 houses are an honour to 
their species. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c38" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 38</head>
            <pb n="473"/>
            <q>
               <l>The down we rest on in our aery dreams </l>
               <l>Has not been plucked from birds that live and smart: </l>
               <l>'Tis but warm snow, that melts not. </l>
            </q>
            <p>THE story and the prospect revealed to Esther by the 
lawyers' letter, which she and her father studied together, 
had made an impression on her very different from what 
she had been used to figure to herself in her many 
daydreams as to the effect of a sudden elevation in rank and 
fortune. In her day-dreams she had not traced out the 
means by which such a change could be brought about; in 
fact, the change had seemed impossible to her, except in 
her little private Utopia, which, like other Utopias, was 
filled with delightful results, independent of processes. But 
her mind had fixed itself habitually on the signs and 
luxuries of ladyhood, for which she had the keenest 
perception. She had seen the very mat in her carriage, had 
scented the dried rose-leaves in her corridors, had felt the 
soft carpets under her pretty feet, and seen herself, as she 
rose from her sofa cushions, in the crystal panel that 
reflected a long drawing-room, where the conservatory flowers 
and the pictures of fair women left her still with the 
supremacy of charm. She had trodden the marble-firm gravel 
of her garden-walks and the soft deep turf of her lawn; she 
had had her servants about her filled with adoring respect, 
because of her kindness as well as her grace and beauty; 
and she had had several accomplished cavaliers all at once 
suing for her hand — one of whom, uniting very high birth 
with long dark eyelashes and the most distinguished talents, 
she secretly preferred, though his pride and hers hindered 
an avowal, and supplied the inestimable interest of 
retardation. The glimpses she had had in her brief life as a family 
governess, supplied her ready faculty with details enough of 
delightful still life to furnish her day-dreams; and no one <pb n="474"/>
who has not, like Esther, a strong natural prompting and 
susceptibility towards such things, and has at the same time 
suffered from the presence of opposite conditions, can 
understand how powerfully those minor accidents of rank 
which please the fastidious sense can preoccupy the 
imagination. 
</p>
            <p>It seemed that almost everything in her day-dreams — 
cavaliers apart — must be found at Transome Court. But 
now that fancy was becoming real, and the impossible 
appeared possible, Esther found the balance of her attention 
reversed: now that her ladyhood was not simply in Utopia, 
she found herself arrested and painfully grasped by the 
means through which the ladyhood was to be obtained. To 
her inexperience this strange story of an alienated 
inheritance, of such a last representative of pure-blooded lineage 
as old Thomas Transome the bill-sticker, above all of the 
dispossession hanging over those who actually held, and 
had expected always to hold, the wealth and position which 
were suddenly announced to be rightfully hers — all these 
things made a picture, not for her own tastes and fancies to 
float in with Elysian indulgence, but in which she was 
compelled to gaze on the degrading hard experience of 
other human beings, and on a humiliating loss which was 
the obverse of her own proud gain. Even in her times of 
most untroubled egoism Esther shrank from anything 
ungenerous; and the fact that she had a very lively image of 
Harold Transome and his gipsy-eyed boy in her mind, gave 
additional distinctness to the thought that if she entered 
they must depart. Of the elder Transomes she had a 
dimmer vision, and they were necessarily in the background to 
her sympathy. 
</p>
            <p>She and her father sat with their hands locked, as they 
might have done if they had been listening to a solemn 
oracle in the days of old revealing unknown kinship and 
rightful heirdom. It was not that Esther had any thought of 
renouncing her fortune; she was incapable, in these 
moments, of condensing her vague ideas and feelings into <pb n="475"/>
any distinct plan of action, nor indeed did it seem that she 
was called upon to act with any promptitude. It was only 
that she was conscious of being strangely awed by 
something that was called good fortune; and the awe shut out 
any scheme of rejection as much as any triumphant joy in 
acceptance. Her first father, she learned, had died 
disappointed and in wrongful imprisonment, and an undefined 
sense of Nemesis seemed half to sanctify her inheritance, 
and counteract its apparent arbitrariness. 
</p>
            <p>Felix Holt was present in her mind throughout: what he 
would say was an imaginary commentary that she was 
constantly framing, and the words that she most frequently 
gave him — for she dramatised under the inspiration of a 
sadness slightly bitter — were of this kind: 'That is clearly 
your destiny — to be aristocratic, to be rich. I always saw that 
our lots lay widely apart. You are not fit for poverty, or any 
work of difficulty. But remember what I once said to you 
about a vision of consequences; take care where your 
fortune leads you.' 
</p>
            <p>Her father had not spoken since they had ended their 
study and discussion of the story and the evidence as it 
was presented to them. Into this he had entered with his 
usual penetrating activity; but he was so accustomed to the 
impersonal study of narrative, that even in these exceptional 
moments the habit of half a century asserted itself, and he 
seemed sometimes not to distinguish the case of Esther's 
inheritance from a story in ancient history, until some detail 
recalled him to the profound feeling that a great, great 
change might be coming over the life of this child who was 
so close to him. At last he relapsed into total silence, and 
for some time Esther was not moved to interrupt it. He had 
sunk back in his chair, with his hand locked in hers, and was 
pursuing a sort of prayerful meditation: he lifted up no 
formal petition, but it was as if his soul travelled again 
over the facts he had been considering in the company of 
a guide ready to inspire and correct him. He was striving to 
purify his feeling in this matter from selfish or worldly <pb n="476"/>
dross — a striving which is that prayer without ceasing, sure 
to wrest an answer by its sublime importunity. 
</p>
            <p>There is no knowing how long they might have sat in this 
way, if it had not been for the inevitable Lyddy reminding 
them dismally of dinner. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, Lyddy, we come,' said Esther; and then, before 
moving — 
</p>
            <p>'Is there any advice you have in your mind for me, father?' 
The sense of awe was growing in Esther. Her intensest life 
was no longer in her dreams, where she made things to 
her own mind; she was moving in a world charged with 
forces. 
</p>
            <p>'Not yet, my dear — save this: that you will seek special 
illumination in this juncture, and, above all, be watchful 
that your soul be not lifted up within you by what, righdy 
considered, is rather an increase of charge, and a call upon 
you to walk along a path which is indeed easy to the flesh, 
but dangerous to the spirit.' 
</p>
            <p>'You would always live with me, father?' Esther spoke 
under a strong impulse — partly affection, partly the need to 
grasp at some moral help. But she had no sooner uttered the 
words than they raised a vision, showing, as by a flash of 
lightning, the incongruity of that past which had created 
the sanctities and affections of her life with that future 
which was coming to her.... The little rusty old minister, 
with the one luxury of his Sunday evening pipe, smoked up 
the kitchen chimney, coming to live in the midst of 
grandeur ... but not her father, with the grandeur of his 
past sorrow and his long struggling labours, forsaking his 
vocation, and vulgarly accepting an existence unsuited to 
him.... Esther's face flushed with the excitement of this 
vision and its reversed interpretation, which five months 
ago she would have been incapable of seeing. Her question 
to her father seemed like a mockery; she was ashamed. He 
answered slowly — 
</p>
            <p>'Touch not that chord yet, child. I must learn to think of 
thy lot according to the demands of Providence. We will <pb n="477"/>
rest a while from the subject; and I will seek calmness in 
my ordinary duties.' 
</p>
            <p>The next morning nothing more was said. Mr Lyon was 
absorbed in his sermon-making, for it was near the end of 
the week, and Esther was obliged to attend to her pupils. 
Mrs Holt came by invitation with little Job to share their 
dinner of roast-meat; and, after much of what the minister 
called unprofitable discourse, she was quitting the house 
when she hastened back with an astonished face, to tell Mr 
Lyon and Esther, who were already in wonder at crashing, 
thundering sounds on the pavement, that there was a 
carriage stopping and stamping at the entry into Malthouse 
Yard, with 'all sorts of fine liveries', and a lady and 
gentleman inside. Mr Lyon and Esther looked at each other, both 
having the same name in their minds. 
</p>
            <p>'If it's Mr Transome or somebody else as is great, Mr 
Lyon,' urged Mrs Holt, 'you'll remember my son, and say 
he's got a mother with a character they may inquire into as 
much as they like. And never mind what Felix says, for he's 
so masterful he'd stay in prison and be transported whether 
or no, only to have his own way. For it's not to be thought 
but what the great people could get him off if they would; 
and it's very hard with a king in the country and all the 
texts in Proverbs about the king's countenance, and Solomon 
and the live baby —' 
</p>
            <p>Mr Lyon lifted up his hand deprecatingly, and Mrs Holt 
retreated from the parlour-door to a comer of the kitchen, 
the outer doorway being occupied by Dominic, who was 
inquiring if Mr and Miss Lyon were at home, and could 
receive Mrs Transome and Mr Harold Transome. While 
Dominic went back to the carriage Mrs Holt escaped with 
her tiny companion to Zachary's, the pew-opener, observing 
to Lyddy that she knew herself, and was not that woman to 
stay where she might not be wanted; whereupon Lyddy, 
differing fundamentally, admonished her parting ear that 
it was well if she knew herself to be dust and ashes — silently 
extending the application of this remark to Mrs Transome <pb n="478"/>
as she saw the tall lady sweep in arrayed in her rich black 
and fur, with that fine gentleman behind her whose thick 
topknot of wavy hair, sparkling ring, dark complexion, and 
general air of worldly exaltation unconnected with chapel 
were painfully suggestive to Lyddy of Herod, Pontius Pilate 
or the much-quoted Gallio. 
</p>
            <p>Harold Transome, greeting Esther gracefully, presented 
his mother, whose eagle-like glance, fixed on her from the 
first moment of entering, seemed to Esther to pierce her 
through. Mrs Transome hardly noticed Mr Lyon, not from 
studied haughtiness, but from sheer mental inability to 
consider him — as a person ignorant of natural history is 
unable to consider a fresh-water polype otherwise than as 
a sort of animated weed, certainly not fit for table. But 
Harold saw that his mother was agreeably struck by Esther, 
who indeed showed to much advantage. She was not at all 
taken by surprise, and maintained a dignified quietude; but 
her previous knowledge and reflection about the possible 
dispossession of these Transomes gave her a softened feeling 
towards them which tinged her manners very agreeably. 
</p>
            <p>Harold was carefully polite to the minister, throwing out a 
word to make him understand that he had an important 
part in the important business which had brought this 
unannounced visit; and the four made a group seated not far 
off each other near the window, Mrs Transome and Esther 
being on the sofa. 
</p>
            <p>'You must be astonished at a visit from me, Miss Lyon,' 
Mrs Transome began; 'I seldom come to Treby Magna. 
Now I see you, the visit is an unexpected pleasure; but the 
cause of my coming is business of a serious nature, which my 
son will communicate to you.' 
</p>
            <p>'I ought to begin by saying that what I have to announce 
to you is the reverse of disagreeable, Miss Lyon,' said Harold, 
with lively ease. 'I don't suppose the world would consider 
it very good news for me; but a rejected candidate, Mr 
Lyon,' Harold went on, turning graciously to the minister, 
'begins to be inured to loss and misfortune.' <pb n="479"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Truly, sir,' said Mr Lyon, with a rather sad solemnity, 
'your allusion hath a grievous bearing for me, but I will not 
retard your present purpose by further remark.' 
</p>
            <p>'You will never guess what I have to disclose,' said Harold, 
again looking at Esther, 'unless, indeed, you have had some 
previous intimation of it.' 
</p>
            <p>'Does it refer to law and inheritance?' said Esther, with a 
smile. She was already brightened by Harold's manner. The 
news seemed to be losing its chillness, and to be something 
really belonging to warm, comfortable, interesting life. 
</p>
            <p>'Then you have already heard of it?' said Harold, 
inwardly vexed, but sufficiendy prepared not to seem so. 
</p>
            <p>'Only yesterday,' said Esther, quite simply. 'I received 
a letter from some lawyers with a statement of many 
surprising things, showing that I was an heiress' — here she 
turned very prettily to address Mrs Transome — 'which, as 
you may imagine, is one of the last things I could have 
supposed myself to be.' 
</p>
            <p>'My dear,' said Mrs Transome with elderly grace, just 
laying her hand for an instant on Esther's, 'it is a lot that 
would become you admirably.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther blushed, and said playfully — 
</p>
            <p>'O, I know what to buy with fifty pounds a-year, but I 
know the price of nothing beyond that.' 
</p>
            <p>Her father sat looking at her through his spectacles, 
stroking his chin. It was amazing to herself that she was 
taking so lightly now what had caused her such deep 
emotion yesterday. 
</p>
            <p>'I daresay, then,' said Harold, 'you are more fully 
possessed of particulars than I am. So that my mother and I 
need only tell you what no one else can tell you — that is, 
what are her and my feelings and wishes under these new 
and unexpected circumstances.' 
</p>
            <p>'I am most anxious,' said Esther, with a grave beautiful 
look of respect to Mrs Transome — 'most anxious on that 
point. Indeed, being of course in uncertainty about it, I 
have not yet known whether I could rejoice.' Mrs Transome's <pb n="480"/>
glance had softened. She liked Esther to look at her. 
</p>
            <p>'Our chief anxiety,' she said, knowing what Harold wished 
her to say, 'is, that there may be no contest, no useless 
expenditure of money. Of course we will surrender what can 
be rightfully claimed.' 
</p>
            <p>'My mother expresses our feeling precisely, Miss Lyon,' 
said Harold. 'And I'm sure, Mr Lyon, you will understand 
our desire.' 
</p>
            <p>'Assuredly, sir. My daughter would in any case have had 
my advice to seek a conclusion which would involve no 
strife. We endeavour, sir, in our body, to hold to the 
apostolic rule that one Christian brother should not go to 
law with another; and I, for my part, would extend this 
rule to all my fellow-men, apprehending that the practice 
of our courts is little consistent with the simplicity that is in 
Christ.' 
</p>
            <p>'If it is to depend on my will,' said Esther, 'there is nothing 
that would be more repugnant to me than any struggle on 
such a subject. But can't the lawyers go on doing what they 
will in spite of me? It seems that this is what they mean?' 
</p>
            <p>'Not exactly,' said Harold, smiling. 'Of course they live 
by such struggles as you dislike. But we can thwart them 
by determining not to quarrel. It is desirable that we should 
consider the affair together, and put it into the hands of 
honourable solicitors. I assure you we Transomes will not 
contend for what is not our own.' 
</p>
            <p>'And this is what I have come to beg of you,' said Mrs 
Transome. 'It is that you will come to Transome Court — 
and let us take full time to arrange matters. Do oblige me: 
you shall not be teased more than you like by an old woman: 
you shall do just as you please, and become acquainted with 
your future home, since it is to be yours. I can tell you 
a world of things that you will want to know; and the 
business can proceed properly.' 
</p>
            <p>'Do consent,' said Harold, with winning brevity. 
</p>
            <p>Esther was flushed, and her eyes were bright. It was 
impossible for her not to feel that the proposal was a more <pb n="481"/>
tempting step towards her change of condition than she 
could have thought of beforehand. She had forgotten that 
she was in any trouble. But she looked towards her father, 
who was again stroking his chin, as was his habit when he 
was doubting and deliberating. 
</p>
            <p>'I hope you do not disapprove of Miss Lyon's granting us 
this favour?' said Harold to the minister. 
</p>
            <p>'I have nothing to oppose to it, sir, if my daughter's own 
mind is clear as to her course.' 
</p>
            <p>'You will come — now — with us,' said Mrs Transome, 
persuasively. 'You will go back with us in the carriage.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold was highly gratified with the perfection of his 
mother's manner on this occasion, which he had looked 
forward to as difficult. Since he had come home again, he 
had never seen her so much at her ease, or with so much 
benignancy in her face. The secret lay in the charm of 
Esther's sweet young deference, a sort of charm that had 
not before entered into Mrs Transome's elderly life. Esther's 
pretty behaviour, it must be confessed, was not fed 
entirely from lofty moral sources: over and above her really 
generous feeling, she enjoyed Mrs Transome's accent, the 
high-bred quietness of her speech, the delicate odour of 
her drapery. She had always thought that life must be 
particularly easy if one could pass it among refined people; and 
so it seemed at this moment. She wished, unmixedly, to 
go to Transome Court. 
</p>
            <p>'Since my father has no objection,' she said, 'and you 
urge me so kindly. But I must beg for time to pack up a few 
clothes. 
</p>
            <p>'By all means,' said Mrs Transome. 'We are not at all 
pressed.' 
</p>
            <p>When Esther had left the room, Harold said, 'Apart from 
our immediate reason for coming, Mr Lyon, I could have 
wished to see you about these unhappy consequences of 
the election contest. But you will understand that I have 
been much preoccupied with private affairs.' 
</p>
            <p>'You have well said that the consequences are unhappy, <pb n="482"/>
sir. And but for a reliance on something more than human 
calculation, I know not which I should most bewail — the 
scandal which wrong-dealing has brought on right 
principles, or the snares which it laid for the feet of a young 
man who is dear to me. “One soweth, and another reapeth,” 
is a verity that applies to evil as well as good.' 
</p>
            <p>'You are referring to Felix Holt. I have not neglected 
steps to secure the best legal help for the prisoners; but I 
am given to understand that Holt refuses any aid from me. 
I hope he will not go rashly to work in speaking in his own 
defence without any legal instruction. It is an opprobrium 
of our law that no counsel is allowed to plead for the prisoner 
in cases of felony. A ready tongue may do a man as much 
harm as good in a court of justice. He piques himself on 
making a display, and displays a little too much.' 
</p>
            <p>'Sir, you know him not,' said the little minister, in his 
deeper tone. 'He would not accept, even if it were accorded, 
a defence wherein the truth was screened or avoided — not 
from a vainglorious spirit of self-exhibition, for he hath a 
singular directness and simplicity of speech; but from an 
averseness to a profession wherein a man may without 
shame seek to justify the wicked for reward, and take away 
the righteousness of the righteous from him.' 
</p>
            <p>'It's a pity a fine young fellow should do himself harm by 
fanatical notions of that sort. I could at least have procured 
the advantage of first-rate consultation. He didn't look to 
me like a dreamy personage.' 
</p>
            <p>'Nor is he dreamy; rather, his excess lies in being too 
practical.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, I hope you will not encourage him in such 
irrationality: the question is not one of misrepresentation, but of 
adjusting fact, so as to raise it to the power of evidence. 
Don't you see that?' 
</p>
            <p>'I do, I do. But I distrust not Felix Holt's discernment in 
regard to his own case. He builds not on doubtful things, 
and hath no illusory hopes; on the contrary, he is of a 
too-scornful incredulity where I would fain see a more childlike <pb n="483"/>
faith. But we will hold no belief without action 
corresponding thereto; and the occasion of his return to this 
his native place at a time which has proved fatal, was no 
other than his resolve to hinder the sale of some drugs, 
which had chiefly supported his mother, but which his 
better knowledge showed him to be pernicious to the human 
frame. He undertook to support her by his own labour: 
but, sir, I pray you to mark — and old as I am, I will not deny 
that this young man instructs me herein — I pray you to 
mark the poisonous confusion of good and evil which is 
the wide-spreading effect of vicious practices. Through the 
use of undue electioneering means — concerning which, 
however, I do not accuse you farther than of having acted 
the part of him who washes his hands when he delivers up 
to others the exercise of an iniquitous power — Felix Holt is, 
I will not scruple to say, the innocent victim of a riot; and 
that deed of strict honesty, whereby he took on himself the 
charge of his aged mother, seems now to have deprived 
her of sufficient bread, and is even an occasion of reproach 
to him from the weaker brethren.' 
</p>
            <p>'I shall be proud to supply her as amply as you think 
desirable,' said Harold, not enjoying this lecture. 
</p>
            <p>'I will pray you to speak of this question with my 
daughter, who, it appears, may herself have large means at 
command, and would desire to minister to Mistress Holt's needs 
with all friendship and delicacy. For the present, I can take 
care that she lacks nothing essential.' 
</p>
            <p>As Mr Lyon was speaking, Esther re-entered, equipped 
for her drive. She laid her hand on her father's arm, and 
said, 'You will let my pupils know at once, will you, father?' 
</p>
            <p>'Doubtless, my dear,' said the old man, trembling a little 
under the feeling that this departure of Esther's was a 
crisis. Nothing again would be as it had been in their 
mutual life. But he feared that he was being mastered by 
a too-tender self-regard, and struggled to keep himself 
calm. 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome and Harold had both risen. <pb n="484"/>
            </p>
            <p>'If you are quite ready, Miss Lyon,' said Harold, divining 
that the father and daughter would like to have an 
unobserved moment, 'I will take my mother to the carriage, 
and come back for you.' 
</p>
            <p>When they were alone, Esther put her hands on her 
father's shoulders, and kissed him. 
</p>
            <p>'This will not be a grief to you, I hope, father? You think 
it is better that I should go?' 
</p>
            <p>'Nay, child, I am weak. But I would fain be capable of 
a joy quite apart from the accidents of my aged earthly 
existence, which, indeed, is a petty and almost dried-up 
fountain — whereas to the receptive soul the river of life 
pauseth not, nor is diminished.' 
</p>
            <p>'Perhaps you will see Felix Holt again, and tell him 
everything?' 
</p>
            <p>'Shall I say aught to him for you?' 
</p>
            <p>'O no; only that Job Tudge has a little flannel shirt and 
a box of lozenges,' said Esther, smiling. 'Ah, I hear Mr 
Transome coming back. I must say good-bye to Lyddy, else 
she will cry over my hard heart.' 
</p>
            <p>In spite of all the grave thoughts that had been, Esther 
felt it a very pleasant as well as new experience to be led 
to the carriage by Harold Transome, to be seated on soft 
cushions, and bowled along, looked at admiringly and 
deferentially by a person opposite, whom it was agreeable 
to look at in return, and talked to with suavity and liveliness. 
Towards what prospect was that easy carriage really 
leading her? She could not be always asking herself 
Mentor-like questions. Her young bright nature was rather weary 
of the sadness that had grown heavier in these last weeks, 
like a chill white mist hopelessly veiling the day. Her 
fortune was beginning to appear worthy of being called good 
fortune. She had come to a new stage in her journey; a 
new day had arisen on new scenes, and her young untired 
spirit was full of curiosity. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c39" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 39</head>
            <pb n="485"/>
            <q>
               <p>No man believes that many-textured knowledge and skill — as 
a just idea of the solar system, or the power of painting flesh, 
or of reading written harmonies — can come late and of a 
sudden; yet many will not stick at believing that happiness can 
come at any day and hour solely by a new disposition of events; 
though there is nought less capable of a magical production 
than a mortal's happiness, which is mainly a complex of 
habitual relations and dispositions not to be wrought by news from 
foreign parts, or any whirling of fortune's wheel for one on 
whose brow Time has written legibly. 
</p>
            </q>
            <p>SOME days after Esther's arrival at Transome Court, 
Denner, coming to dress Mrs Transome before dinner — a labour 
of love for which she had ample leisure now — found her 
mistress seated with more than ever of that marble aspect 
of self-absorbed suffering, which to the waiting-woman's 
keen observation had been gradually intensifying itself 
during the past week. She had tapped at the door without 
having been summoned, and she had ventured to enter 
though she had heard no voice saying 'Come in.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome had on a dark warm dressing-gown, 
hanging in thick folds about her, and she was seated before 
a mirror which filled a panel from the floor to the ceiling. 
The room was bright with the light of the fire and of wax 
candles. For some reason, contrary to her usual practice, 
Mrs Transome had herself unfastened her abundant grey 
hair, which rolled backward in a pale sunless stream over 
her dark dress. She was seated before the mirror apparently 
looking at herself, her brow knit in one deep furrow, and her 
jewelled hands laid one above the other on her knee. 
Probably she had ceased to see the reflection in the mirror, for 
her eyes had the fixed wide-open look that belongs not to 
examination, but to reverie. Motionless in that way, her 
clear-cut features keeping distinct record of past beauty, 
she looked like an image faded, dried, and bleached by 
uncounted suns, rather than a breathing woman who had <pb n="486"/>
numbered the years as they passed, and had a 
consciousness within her which was the slow deposit of those ceaseless 
rolling years.' 
</p>
            <p>Denner, with all her ingrained and systematic reserve, 
could not help showing signs that she was startled, when, 
peering from between her half-closed eyelids, she saw the 
motionless image in the mirror opposite to her as she 
entered. Her gentle opening of the door had not roused her 
mistress, to whom the sensations produced by Denner's 
presence were as little disturbing as those of a favourite 
cat. But the slight cry, and the start reflected in the glass, 
were unusual enough to break the reverie: Mrs Transome 
moved, leaned back in her chair, and said — 
</p>
            <p>'So you're come at last, Denner?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, madam; it is not late. I'm sorry you should have 
undone your hair yourself.' 
</p>
            <p>'I undid it to see what an old hag I am. These fine clothes 
you put on me, Denner, are only a smart shroud.' 
</p>
            <p>'Pray don't talk so, madam. If there's anybody doesn't 
think it pleasant to look at you, so much the worse for them. 
For my part, I've seen no young ones fit to hold up your 
train. Look at your likeness down below; and though you're 
older now, what signifies? I wouldn't be Letty in the scullery 
because she's got red cheeks. She mayn't know she's a poor 
creature, but I know it, and that's enough for me: I know 
what sort of a dowdy draggletail she'll be in ten years' 
time. I would change with nobody, madam. And if troubles 
were put up to market, I'd sooner buy old than new. It's 
something to have seen the worst.' 
</p>
            <p>'A woman never has seen the worst till she is old, Denner,' 
said Mrs Transome, bitterly. 
</p>
            <p>The keen little waiting-woman was not clear as to the 
cause of her mistress's added bitterness; but she rarely 
brought herself to ask questions, when Mrs Transome did 
not authorise them by beginning to give her information. 
Banks the bailiff and the head-servant had nodded and 
winked a good deal over the certainty that Mr Harold was <pb n="487"/>
'none so fond' of Jermyn, but this was a subject on which 
Mrs Transome had never made up her mind to speak, and 
Denner knew nothing definite. Again, she felt quite sure 
that there was some important secret connected with 
Esther's presence in the house; she suspected that the close 
Dominic knew the secret, and was more trusted than she 
was, in spite of her forty years' service; but any resentment 
on this ground would have been an entertained reproach 
against her mistress, inconsistent with Denner's creed and 
character. She inclined to the belief that Esther was the 
immediate cause of the new discontent. 
</p>
            <p>'If there's anything worse coming to you, I should like to 
know what it is, madam,' she said, after a moment's silence, 
speaking always in the same low quick way, and keeping up 
her quiet labours. 'When I awake at cock-crow, I'd sooner 
have one real grief on my mind than twenty false. It's better 
to know you're robbed than to think one's going to be 
murdered.' 
</p>
            <p>'I believe you are the creature in the world that loves me 
best, Denner; yet you will never understand what I 
suffered. It's of no use telling you. There's no folly in you and 
no heartache. You are made of iron. You have never had 
any trouble.' 
</p>
            <p>'I've had some of your trouble, madam.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, you good thing. But as a sick-nurse, that never 
caught the fever. You never even had a child.' 
</p>
            <p>'I can feel for things I never went through. I used to be 
sorry for the poor French queen when I was young: I'd 
have lain cold for her to lie warm. I know people have 
feelings according to their birth and station. And you 
always took things to heart, madam, beyond anybody else. 
But I hope there's nothing new, to make you talk of the 
worst.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, Denner, there is — there is,' said Mrs Transome, 
speaking in a low tone of misery, while she bent for her 
headdress to be pinned on. 
</p>
            <p>'Is it this young lady?' <pb n="488"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Why, what do you think about her, Denner?' said Mrs 
Transome, in a tone of more spirit, rather curious to hear 
what the old woman would say. 
</p>
            <p>'I don't deny she's graceful, and she has a pretty smile 
and very good manners: it's quite unaccountable by what 
Banks says about her father. I know nothing of those Treby 
townsfolk myself, but for my part I'm puzzled. I'm fond of 
Mr Harold. I always shall be, madam. I was at his bringing 
into the world, and nothing but his doing wrong by you 
would turn me against him. But the servants all say he's 
in love with Miss Lyon.' 
</p>
            <p>'I wish it were true, Denner,' said Mrs Transome, 
energetically. 'I wish he were in love with her, so that she could 
master him, and make him do what she pleased.' 
</p>
            <p>'Then it is not true — what they say?' 
</p>
            <p>'Not true that she will ever master him. No woman ever 
will. He will make her fond of him, and afraid of him. That's 
one of the things you have never gone through, Denner. A 
woman's love is always freezing into fear. She wants 
everything, she is secure of nothing. This girl has a fine spirit — 
plenty of fire and pride and wit. Men like such captives, 
as they like horses that champ the bit and paw the ground: 
they feel more triumph in their mastery. What is the use 
of a woman's will? — if she tries, she doesn't get it, and she 
ceases to be loved. God was cruel when he made women.' 
</p>
            <p>Denner was used to such outbursts as this. Her mistress's 
rhetoric and temper belonged to her superior rank, her 
grand person, and her piercing black eyes. Mrs Transome 
had a sense of impiety in her words which made them 
all the more tempting to her impotent anger. The 
waiting-woman had none of that awe which could be turned into 
defiance: the Sacred Grove was a common thicket to her. 
</p>
            <p>'It mayn't be good-luck to be a woman,' she said. 'But 
one begins with it from a baby: one gets used to it. And I 
shouldn't like to be a man — to cough so loud, and stand 
straddling about on a wet day, and be so wasteful with 
meat and drink. They're a coarse lot, I think. Then I <pb n="489"/>
needn't make a trouble of this young lady, madam,' she 
added, after a moment's pause. 
</p>
            <p>'No, Denner. I like her. If that were all — I should like 
Harold to marry her. It would be the best thing. If the 
truth were known — and it will be known soon — the estate 
is hers by law — such law as it is. It's a strange story: she's 
a Bycliffe really.' 
</p>
            <p>Denner did not look amazed, but went on fastening her 
mistress's dress, as she said — 
</p>
            <p>'Well, madam, I was sure there was something wonderful 
at the bottom of it. And turning the old lawsuits and 
everything else over in my mind, I thought the law might have 
something to do with it. Then she is a born lady?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes; she has good blood in her veins.' 
</p>
            <p>'We talked that over in the housekeeper's room — what a 
hand and an instep she has, and how her head is set on her 
shoulders — almost like your own, madam. But her lightish 
complexion spoils her, to my thinking. And Dominic said 
Mr Harold never admired that sort of woman before. 
There's nothing that smooth fellow couldn't tell you if he 
would: he knows the answers to riddles before they're made. 
However, he knows how to hold his tongue; I'll say that for 
him. And so do I, madam.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, yes; you will not talk of it till other people are 
talking of it.' 
</p>
            <p>'And so, if Mr Harold married her, it would save all fuss 
and mischief?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes — about the estate.' 
</p>
            <p>'And he seems inclined; and she'll not refuse him, I'll 
answer for it. And you like her, madam. There's everything 
to set your mind at rest.' 
</p>
            <p>Denner was putting the finishing-touch to Mrs 
Transome's dress by throwing an Indian scarf over her shoulders, 
and so completing the contrast between the majestic lady 
in costume and the dishevelled Hecuba-like woman whom 
she had found half an hour before. 
</p>
            <p>'I am not at rest!' Mrs Transome said, with slow distinctness, <pb n="490"/>
moving from the mirror to the window, where the blind 
was not drawn down, and she could see the chill white 
landscape and the far-off unheeding stars. 
</p>
            <p>Denner, more distressed by her mistress's suffering than 
she could have been by anything else, took up with the 
instinct of affection a gold vinaigrette which Mrs Transome 
often liked to carry with her, and going up to her put it into 
her hand gently. Mrs Transome grasped the little woman's 
hand hard, and held it so. 
</p>
            <p>'Denner,' she said, in a low tone, 'if I could choose at this 
moment, I would choose that Harold should never have 
been born.' 
</p>
            <p>'Nay, my dear' (Denner had only once before in her life 
said 'my dear' to her mistress), 'it was a happiness to you 
then.' 
</p>
            <p>'I don't believe I felt the happiness then as I feel the 
misery now. It is foolish to say people can't feel much when 
they are getting old. Not pleasure, perhaps — little comes. 
But they can feel they are forsaken — why, every fibre in me 
seems to be a memory that makes a pang. They can feel 
that all the love in their lives is turned to hatred or 
contempt.' 
</p>
            <p>'Not mine, madam, not mine. Let what would be, I should 
want to live for your sake, for fear you should have nobody 
to do for you as I would.' 
</p>
            <p>'Ah, then, you are a happy woman, Denner; you have 
loved somebody for forty years who is old and weak now, 
and can't do without you.' 
</p>
            <p>The sound of the dinner-gong resounded below, and Mrs 
Transome let the faithful hand fall again. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c40" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 40</head>
            <pb n="491"/>
            <q>
               <l>'She's beautiful; and therefore to be wooed: </l>
               <l>She is a woman; therefore to be won.' — Henry VI. </l>
            </q>
            <p>IF Denner had had a suspicion that Esther's presence at 
Transome Court was not agreeable to her mistress, it was 
impossible to entertain such a suspicion with regard to the 
other members of the family. Between her and little Harry 
there was an extraordinary fascination. This creature, with 
the soft broad brown cheeks, low forehead, great black eyes, 
tiny well-defined nose, fierce biting tricks towards every 
person and thing he disliked, and insistence on entirely 
occupying those he liked, was a human specimen such as 
Esther had never seen before, and she seemed to be equally 
original in Harry's experience. At first sight her light 
complexion and her blue gown, probably also her sunny smile 
and her hands stretched out towards him, seemed to make 
a show for him as of a new sort of bird: he threw himself 
backward against his 'Gappa', as he called old Mr 
Transome, and stared at this new-comer with the gravity of a 
wild animal. But she had no sooner sat down on the sofa 
in the library than he climbed up to her, and began to 
treat her as an attractive object in natural history, snatched 
up her curls with his brown fist, and, discovering that there 
was a little ear under them, pinched it and blew into it, 
pulled at her coronet of plaits, and seemed to discover with 
satisfaction that it did not grow at the summit of her head, 
but could be dragged down and altogether undone. Then 
finding that she laughed, tossed him back, kissed, and 
pretended to bite him — in fact, was an animal that understood 
fun — he rushed off and made Dominic bring a small 
menagerie of white-mice, squirrels, and birds, with Moro, 
the black spaniel, to make her acquaintance. Whomsoever 
Harry liked, it followed that Mr Transome must like: 
'Gappa', along with Nimrod the retriever, was part of the <pb n="492"/>
menagerie, and perhaps endured more than all the other 
live creatures in the way of being tumbled about. Seeing 
that Esther bore having her hair pulled down quite merrily, 
and that she was willing to be harnessed and beaten, the 
old man began to confide in her, in his feeble, smiling, and 
rather jerking fashion, Harry's remarkable feats: how he 
had one day, when Gappa was asleep, unpinned a whole 
drawerful of beetles, to see if they would fly away; then, 
disgusted with their stupidity, was about to throw them 
all on the ground and stamp on them, when Dominic came 
in and rescued these valuable specimens; also, how he had 
subtly watched Mrs Transome at the cabinet where she kept 
her medicines, and, when she had left it for a little while 
without locking it, had gone to the drawers and scattered 
half the contents on the floor. But what old Mr Transome 
thought the most wonderful proof of an almost 
preter-natural cleverness was, that Harry would hardly ever talk, 
but preferred making inarticulate noises, or combining 
syllables after a method of his own. 
</p>
            <p>'He can talk well enough if he likes,' said Gappa, evidently 
thinking that Harry, like the monkeys, had deep reasons 
for his reticence. 
</p>
            <p>'You mind him,' he added, nodding at Esther, and 
shaking with low-toned laughter. 'You'll hear: he knows 
the right names of things well enough, but he likes 
to make his own. He'll give you one all to yourself before 
long.' 
</p>
            <p>And when Harry seemed to have made up his mind 
distinctly that Esther's name was 'Boo', Mr Transome nodded 
at her with triumphant satisfaction, and then told her in 
a low whisper, looking round cautiously beforehand, that 
Harry would never call Mrs Transome 'Gamma,' but always 
'Bite.' 
</p>
            <p>'It's wonderful ! ' said he, laughing slyly. 
</p>
            <p>The old man seemed so happy now in the new world 
created for him by Dominic and Harry, that he would 
perhaps have made a holocaust of his flies and beetles if it had <pb n="493"/>
been necessary in order to keep this living, lively kindness 
about him. He no longer confined himself to the library, 
but shuffled along from room to room, staying and looking 
on at what was going forward wherever he did not find 
Mrs Transome alone. 
</p>
            <p>To Esther the sight of this feeble-minded, timid, paralytic 
man, who had long abdicated all mastery over the things 
that were his, was something piteous. Certainly this had 
never been part of the furniture she had imagined for the 
delightful aristocratic dwelling in her Utopia; and the sad 
irony of such a lot impressed her the more because in her 
father she was accustomed to age accompanied with mental 
acumen and activity. Her thoughts went back in conjecture 
over the past life of Mr and Mrs Transome, a couple so 
strangely different from each other. She found it 
impossible to arrange their existence in the seclusion of this fine 
park and in this lofty large-roomed house, where it seemed 
quite ridiculous to be anything so small as a human being, 
without finding it rather dull. Mr Transome had always 
had his beetles, but Mrs Transome — ? It was not easy to 
conceive that the husband and wife had ever been very 
fond of each other. 
</p>
            <p>Esther felt at her ease with Mrs Transome: she was 
gratified by the consciousness — for on this point Esther was 
very quick — that Mrs Transome admired her, and looked 
at her with satisfied eyes. But when they were together in 
the early days of her stay, the conversation turned chiefly 
on what happened in Mrs Transome's youth — what she 
wore when she was presented at Court — who were the most 
distinguished and beautiful women at that time — the 
terrible excitement of the French Revolution — the emigrants 
she had known, and the history of various titled members 
of the Lingon family. And Esther, from native delicacy, 
did not lead to more recent topics of a personal kind. She 
was copiously instructed that the Lingon family was better 
than that even of the elder Transomes, and was privileged 
with an explanation of the various quarterings, which <pb n="494"/>
proved that the Lingon blood had been continually 
enriched. Poor Mrs Transome, with her secret bitterness and 
dread, still found a flavour in this sort of pride; none the 
less because certain deeds of her own life had been in fatal 
inconsistency with it. Besides, genealogies entered into her 
stock of ideas, and her talk on such subjects was as 
necessary as the notes of the linnet or the blackbird. She had no 
ultimate analysis of things that went beyond blood and 
family — the Herons of Fenshore or the Badgers of 
Hillbury. She had never seen behind the canvas with which her 
life was hung. In the dim background there was the 
burning mount and the tables of the law; in the foreground 
there was Lady Debarry privately gossiping about her, and 
Lady Wyvern finally deciding not to send her invitations to 
dinner. Unlike that Semiramis who made laws to suit her 
practical licence, she lived, poor soul, in the midst of 
desecrated sanctities, and of honours that looked tarnished 
in the light of monotonous and weary suns. Glimpses of 
the Lingon heraldry in their freshness were interesting to 
Esther; but it occurred to her that when she had known 
about them a good while they would cease to be succulent 
themes of converse or meditation, and Mrs Transome, 
having known them all along, might have felt a vacuum in 
spite of them. 
</p>
            <p>Nevertheless it was entertaining at present to be seated 
on soft cushions with her netting before her, while Mrs 
Transome went on with her embroidery, and told in that 
easy phrase, and with that refined high-bred tone and 
accent which she possessed in perfection, family stories 
that to Esther were like so many novelettes: what diamonds 
were in the earl's family, own cousins to Mrs Transome; 
how poor Lady Sara's husband went off into jealous 
madness only a month after their marriage, and dragged that 
sweet blue-eyed thing by the hair; and how the brilliant 
Fanny, having married a country parson, became so 
niggardly that she had gone about almost begging for fresh 
eggs from the farmers' wives, though she had done very <pb n="495"/>
well with her six sons, as there was a bishop and no end of 
interest in the family, and two of them got appointments 
in India. 
</p>
            <p>At present Mrs Transome did not touch at all on her own 
time of privation, or her troubles with her eldest son, or on 
anything that lay very close to her heart. She conversed 
with Esther, and acted the part of hostess as she performed 
her toilette and went on with her embroidery: these things 
were to be done whether one were happy or miserable. 
Even the patriarch Job, if he had been a gentleman of the 
modern West, would have avoided picturesque disorder 
and poetical laments; and the friends who called on him, 
though not less disposed than Bildad the Shuhite to hint 
that their unfortunate friend was in the wrong, would have 
sat on chairs and held their hats in their hands. The harder 
problems of our life have changed less than our manners; 
we wrestle with the old sorrows, but more decorously. 
Esther's inexperience prevented her from divining much 
about this fine grey-haired woman, whom she could not 
help perceiving to stand apart from the family group, as if 
there were some cause of isolation for her both within and 
without. To her young heart there was a peculiar interest 
in Mrs Transome. An elderly woman, whose beauty, 
position, and graceful kindness towards herself, made deference 
to her spontaneous, was a new figure in Esther's experience. 
Her quick light movement was always ready to anticipate 
what Mrs Transome wanted; her bright apprehension and 
silvery speech were always ready to cap Mrs Transome's 
narratives or instructions even about doses and liniments, 
with some lively commentary. She must have behaved 
charmingly; for one day when she had tripped across the 
room to put the screen just in the right place, Mrs 
Transome said, taking her hand, 'My dear, you make me wish 
I had a daughter!' 
</p>
            <p>That was pleasant; and so it was to be decked by Mrs 
Transome's own hands in a set of turquoise ornaments, 
which became her wonderfully, worn with a white Cashmere <pb n="496"/>
dress, which was also insisted on. Esther never 
reflected that there was a double intention in these pretty 
ways towards her; with young generosity, she was rather 
preoccupied by the desire to prove that she herself 
entertained no low triumph in the fact that she had rights 
prejudicial to this family whose life she was learning. And 
besides, through all Mrs Transome's perfect manners there 
pierced some indefinable indications of a hidden anxiety 
much deeper than anything she could feel about this affair 
of the estate — to which she often alluded slightly as a 
reason for informing Esther of something. It was impossible 
to mistake her for a happy woman; and young speculation 
is always stirred by discontent for which there is no obvious 
cause. When we are older, we take the uneasy eyes and the 
bitter lips more as a matter of course. 
</p>
            <p>But Harold Transome was more communicative about 
recent years than his mother was. He thought it well that 
Esther should know how the fortune of his family had 
been drained by law expenses, owing to suits mistakenly 
urged by her family; he spoke of his mother's lonely life 
and pinched circumstances, of her lack of comfort in her 
elder son, and of the habit she had consequently acquired 
of looking at the gloomy side of things. He hinted that she 
had been accustomed to dictate, and that, as he had left 
her when he was a boy, she had perhaps indulged the dream 
that he would come back a boy. She was still sore on the 
point of his politics. These things could not be helped, 
but, so far as he could, he wished to make the rest of her 
life as cheerful as possible. 
</p>
            <p>Esther listened eagerly, and took these things to heart. 
The claim to an inheritance, the sudden discovery of a 
right to a fortune held by others, was acquiring a very 
distinct and unexpected meaning for her. Every day she 
was getting more clearly into her imagination what it 
would be to abandon her own past, and what she would 
enter into in exchange for it; what it would be to disturb 
a long possession, and how difficult it was to fix a point at <pb n="497"/>
which the disturbance might begin, so as to be contemplated 
without pain. 
</p>
            <p>Harold Transome's thoughts turned on the same subject, 
but accompanied by a different state of feeling and with 
more definite resolutions. He saw a mode of reconciling all 
difficulties which looked pleasanter to him the longer he 
looked at Esther. When she had been hardly a week in the 
house, he had made up his mind to marry her; and it had 
never entered into that mind that the decision did not rest 
entirely with his inclination. It was not that he thought 
slightly of Esther's demands; he saw that she would require 
considerable attractions to please her, and that there were 
difficulties to be overcome. She was clearly a girl who must 
be wooed; but Harold did not despair of presenting the 
requisite attractions, and the difficulties gave more interest 
to the wooing than he could have believed. When he had 
said that he would not marry an Englishwoman, he had 
always made a mental reservation in favour of peculiar 
circumstances; and now the peculiar circumstances were 
come. To be deeply in love was a catastrophe not likely to 
happen to him; but he was readily amorous. No woman 
could make him miserable, but he was sensitive to the 
presence of women, and was kind to them; not with 
grimaces, like a man of mere gallantry, but beamingly, easily, 
like a man of genuine good-nature. And each day that he 
was near Esther, the solution of all difficulties by marriage 
became a more pleasing prospect; though he had to confess 
to himself that the difficulties did not diminish on a nearer 
view, in spite of the flattering sense that she brightened at 
his approach. 
</p>
            <p>Harold was not one to fail in a purpose for want of 
assiduity. After an hour or two devoted to business in the 
morning, he went to look for Esther, and if he did not find 
her at play with Harry and old Mr Transome, or chatting 
with his mother, he went into the drawing-room, where she 
was usually either seated with a book on her knee and 
'making a bed for her cheek' with one little hand, while she <pb n="498"/>
looked out of the window, or else standing in front of one 
of the full-length family portraits with an air of rumination. 
Esther found it impossible to read in these days; her life 
was a book which she seemed herself to be constructing — 
trying to make character clear before her, and looking into 
the ways of destiny. 
</p>
            <p>The active Harold had almost always something definite 
to propose by way of filling the time: if it were fine, she 
must walk out with him and see the grounds; and when the 
snow melted and it was no longer slippery, she must get on 
horseback and learn to ride. If they stayed indoors, she must 
learn to play at billiards, or she must go over the house 
and see the pictures he had hung anew, or the costumes he 
had brought from the East, or come into his study and 
look at the map of the estate, and hear what — if it had 
remained in his family — he had intended to do in every 
corner of it in order to make the most of its capabilities. 
</p>
            <p>About a certain time in the morning Esther had learned 
to expect him. Let every woocr make himself strongly 
expected; he may succeed by dint of being absent, but hardly 
in the first instance. One morning Harold found her in the 
drawing-room, leaning against a consol table, and looking 
at the full-length portrait of a certain Lady Betty 
Transome, who had lived a century and a half before, and had 
the usual charm of ladies in Sir Peter Lely's style. 
</p>
            <p>'Don't move, pray,' he said on entering; 'you look as if 
you were standing for your own portrait.' 
</p>
            <p>'I take that as an insinuation,' said Esther, laughing, and 
moving towards her seat on an ottoman near the fire, 'for 
I notice almost all the portraits are in a conscious, affected 
attitude. That fair Lady Betty looks as if she had been 
drilled into that posture, and had not will enough of her 
own ever to move again unless she had a little push given 
to her.' 
</p>
            <p>'She brightens up that panel well with her long satin 
skirt,' said Harold, as he followed Esther, 'but alive I 
daresay she would have been less cheerful company.' <pb n="499"/>
            </p>
            <p>'One would certainly think that she had just been 
unpacked from silver paper. Ah, how chivalrous you are!' said 
Esther, as Harold, kneeling on one knee, held her silken 
netting-stirrup for hcr to put her foot through. She had 
often fancied pleasant scenes in which such homage was 
rendered to her, and the homage was not disagreeable now 
it was really come; but, strangely enough, a little darting 
sensation at that moment was accompanied by the vivid 
remembrance of some one who had never paid the least 
attention to her foot. There had been a slight blush, such as 
often came and went rapidly, and she was silent a moment. 
Harold naturally believed that it was he himself who was 
filling the field of vision He would have liked to place 
himself on the ottoman near Esther, and behave very much 
more like a lover; but he took a chair opposite to her at a 
circumspect distance. He dared not do otherwise. Along 
with Esther's playful charm she conveyed an impression of 
personal pride and high spirit which warned Harold's 
acuteness that in the delicacy of their present position he 
might easily make a false move and offend her. A woman 
was likely to be credulous about adoration, and to find no 
difficulty in referring it to her intrinsic attractions; but 
Esther was too dangerously quick and critical not to discern 
the least awkwardness that looked like offering her 
marriage as a convenient compromise for himself. Beforehand, 
he might have said that such characteristics as hers were 
not lovable in a woman; but, as it was, he found that the 
hope of pleasing her had a piquancy quite new to him. 
</p>
            <p>'I wonder,' said Esther, breaking her silence in her usual 
light silvery tones — 'I wonder whether the woman who 
looked in that way ever felt any troubles. I see there are 
two old ones upstairs in the billiard-room who have only 
got fat; the expression of their faces is just of the same sort.' 
</p>
            <p>'A woman ought never to have any trouble. There should 
always be a man to guard her from it.' (Harold Transome 
was masculine and fallible; he had incautiously sat down 
this morning to pay his addresses by talk about nothing in <pb n="500"/>
particular; and, clever experienced man as he was, he fell 
into nonsense.) 
</p>
            <p>'But suppose the man himself got into trouble — you 
would wish her to mind about that. Or suppose,' added 
Esther, suddenly looking up merrily at Harold, 'the man 
himself was troublesome?' 
</p>
            <p>'O you must not strain probabilities in that way. The 
generality of men are perfect. Take me, for example.' 
</p>
            <p>'You are a perfect judge of sauces,' said Esther, who 
had her triumphs in letting Harold know that she was 
capable of taking notes. 
</p>
            <p>'That is perfection number one. Pray go on.' 
</p>
            <p>'O, the catalogue is too long — I should be tired before I 
got to your magnificent ruby ring and your gloves always 
of the right colour.' 
</p>
            <p>'If you would let me tell you your perfections, I should 
not be tired.' 
</p>
            <p>'That is not complimentary; it means that the list is 
short.' 
</p>
            <p>'No; it means that the list is pleasant to dwell upon.' 
</p>
            <p>'Pray don't begin,' said Esther, with her pretty toss of the 
head; 'it would be dangerous to our good understanding. 
The person I liked best in the world was one who did 
nothing but scold me and tell me of my faults.' 
</p>
            <p>When Esther began to speak, she meant to do no more 
than make a remote unintelligible allusion, feeling, it must 
be owned, a naughty will to flirt and be saucy, and thwart 
Harold's attempts to be felicitous in compliment. But she 
had no sooner uttered the words than they seemed to her 
like a confession. A deep flush spread itself over her face 
and neck, and the sense that she was blushing went on 
deepening her colour. Harold felt himself unpleasantly 
illuminated as to a possibility that had never yet occurred 
to him. His surprise made an uncomfortable pause, in 
which Esther had time to feel much vexation. 
</p>
            <p>'You speak in the past tense,' said Harold, at last; 'yet I 
am rather envious of that person. I shall never be able to <pb n="501"/>
win your regard in the same way. Is it any one at Treby? 
Because in that case I can inquire about your faults.' 
</p>
            <p>'O you know I have always lived among grave people,' 
said Esther, more able to recover herself now she was 
spoken to. 'Before I came home to be with my father I was 
nothing but a school-girl first, and then a teacher in 
different stages of growth. People in those circumstances are 
not usually flattered. But there are varieties in fault-finding. 
At our Paris school the master I liked best was an old man 
who stormed at me terribly when I read Racine, but yet 
showed that he was proud of me.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther was getting quite cool again. But Harold was not 
entirely satisfied; if there was any obstacle in his way, he 
wished to know exactly what it was. 
</p>
            <p>'That must have been a wretched life for you at Treby,' 
he said, — 'a person of your accomplishments.' 
</p>
            <p>'I used to be dreadfully discontented,' said Esther, much 
occupied with mistakes she had made in her netting. 'But 
I was becoming less so. I have had time to get rather wise, 
you know; I am two-and-twenty.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes,' said Harold, rising and walking a few paces 
backwards and forwards, 'you are past your majority; you are 
empress of your own fortunes — and more besides.' 
</p>
            <p>'Dear me,' said Esther, letting her work fall, and leaning 
back against the cushions; 'I don't think I know very well 
what to do with my empire.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well,' said Harold, pausing in front of her, leaning one 
arm on the mantelpiece, and speaking very gravely, 'I hope 
that in any case, since you appear to have no near relative 
who understands affairs, you will confide in me, and trust 
me with all your intentions as if I had no other personal 
concern in the matter than a regard for you. I hope you 
believe me capable of acting as the guardian of your 
interest, even where it turns out to be inevitably opposed to my 
own.' 
</p>
            <p>'I am sure you have given me reason to believe it,' said 
Esther, with seriousness, putting out her hand to Harold. <pb n="502"/>
She had not been left in ignorance that he had had 
opportunities twice offered of stifling her claims. 
</p>
            <p>Harold raised the hand to his lips, but dared not retain 
it more than an instant. Still the sweet reliance in Esther's 
manner made an irresistible temptation to him. After 
standing still a moment or two, while she bent over her 
work, he glided to the ottoman and seated himself close by 
her, looking at her busy hands. 
</p>
            <p>'I see you have made mistakes in your work,' he said, 
bending still nearer, for he saw that she was conscious yet 
not angry. 
</p>
            <p>'Nonsense I you know nothing about it,' said Esther, 
laughing, and crushing up the soft silk under her palms. 
'Those blunders have a design in them.' 
</p>
            <p>She looked round, and saw a handsome face very near 
her. Harold was looking, as he felt, thoroughly enamoured 
of this bright woman, who was not at all to his 
preconceived taste. Perhaps a touch of hypothetic jealousy now 
helped to heighten the effect. But he mastered all 
indiscretion, and only looked at her as he said — 
</p>
            <p>'I am wondering whether you have any deep wishes and 
secrets that I can't guess.' 
</p>
            <p>'Pray don't speak of my wishes,' said Esther, quite 
overmastered by this new and apparently involuntary 
manifestation in Harold; 'I could not possibly tell you one at this 
moment — I think I shall never find them out again. O yes 
she said, abruptly, struggling to relieve herself from the 
oppression of unintelligible feelings — 'I do know one wish 
distinctly. I want to go and see my father. He writes me 
word that all is well with him, but still I want to see him.' 
'You shall be driven there when you like.' 
</p>
            <p>'May I go now — I mean as soon as it is convenient?' said 
Esther, rising. 
</p>
            <p>'I will give the order immediately, if you wish it,' said 
Harold, understanding that the audience was broken up. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c41" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 41</head>
            <pb n="503"/>
            <q>
               <l>He rates me as a merchant does the wares </l>
               <l>He will not purchase — 'quality not high I — </l>
               <l>'Twill lose its colour opened to the sun, </l>
               <l>Has no aroma, and, in fine, is naught — </l>
               <l>I barter not for such commodities — </l>
               <l>There is no ratio betwixt sand and gems.' </l>
               <l>'Tis wicked judgment ! for the soul can grovv, </l>
               <l>As embryos, that live and move but blindly, </l>
               <l>Burst from the dark, emerge regenerate, </l>
               <l>And lead a life of vision and of choice. </l>
            </q>
            <p>ESTHER did not take the carriage into Malthouse Lane, 
but left it to wait for her outside the town; and when she 
entered the house she put her finger on her lip to Lyddy 
and ran lightly upstairs. She wished to surprise her father 
by this visit, and she succeeded. The little minister was just 
then almost surrounded by a wall of books, with merely his 
head peeping above them, being much embarrassed to find 
a substitute for tables and desks on which to arrange the 
volumes he kept open for reference. He was absorbed in 
mastering all those painstaking interpretations of the Book 
of Daniel, which are by this time well gone to the limbo of 
mistaken criticism; and Esther, as she opened the door 
softly, heard him rehearsing aloud a passage in which he 
declared, with some parenthetic provisoes, that he 
conceived not how a perverse ingenuity could blunt the edge 
of prophetic explicitness, or how an open mind could fail 
to see in the chronology of 'the little horn' the resplendent 
lamp of an inspired symbol searching out the germinal 
growth of an antichristian power. 
</p>
            <p>'You will not like me to interrupt you, father?' said 
Esther slyly. 
</p>
            <p>'Ah, my beloved child!' he exclaimed, upsetting a pile 
of books, and thus unintentionally making a convenient 
breach in his wall, through which Esther could get up to <pb n="504"/>
him and kiss him. 'Thy appearing is as a joy despaired of. 
I had thought of thee as the blinded think of the daylight 
— which indeed is a thing to rejoice in, like all other good, 
though we see it not nigh.' 
</p>
            <p>'Are you sure you have been as well and comfortable as 
you said you were in your letters?' said Esther, seating 
herself close in front of her father, and laying her hand on his 
shoulder. 
</p>
            <p>'I wrote truly, my dear, according to my knowledge at 
the time. But to an old memory like mine the present days 
are but as a little water poured on the deep. It seems now 
that all has been as usual, except my studies, which have 
gone somewhat curiously into prophetic history. But I fear 
you will rebuke me for my negligent apparel,' said the 
little man, feeling in front of Esther's brightness like a 
bat overtaken by the morning. 
</p>
            <p>'That is Lyddy's fault, who sits crying over her want of 
Christian assurance instead of brushing your clothes and 
putting out your clean cravat. She is always saying her 
righteousness is filthy rags, and really I don't think that is 
a very strong expression for it. I'm sure it is dusty clothes 
and furniture.' 
</p>
            <p>'Nay, my dear, your playfulness glances too severely on 
our faithful Lyddy. Doubtless I am myself deficient, in that 
I do not aid her infirm memory by admonition. But now 
tell me aught that you have left untold about yourself 
Your heart has gone out somewhat towards this family — 
the old man and the child, whom I had not reckoned of?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, father. It is more and more difficult to me to see 
how I can make up my mind to disturb these people at 
all.' 
</p>
            <p>'Something should doubtless be devised to lighten the 
loss and the change to the aged father and mother. I would 
have you in any case seek to temper a vicissitude, which 
is nevertheless a providential arrangement not to be wholly 
set aside.' 
</p>
            <p>'Do you think, father — do you feel assured that a case of <pb n="505"/>
inheritance like this of mine is a sort of providential 
arrangement that makes a command?' 
</p>
            <p>'I have so held it,' said Mr Lyon, solemnly; 'in all my 
meditations I have so held it. For you have to consider, 
my dear, that you have been led by a peculiar path, and 
into experience which is not ordinarily the lot of those 
who are seated in high places; and what I have hinted to 
you already in my letters on this head, I shall wish on a 
future opportunity to enter into more at large.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther was uneasily silent. On this great question of her 
lot she saw doubts and difficulties, in which it seemed as 
if her father could not help her. There was no illumination 
for her in this theory of providential arrangement. She said 
suddenly (what she had not thought of at all suddenly) — 
</p>
            <p>'Have you been again to see Felix Holt, father? You have 
not mentioned him in your letters.' 
</p>
            <p>'I have been since I last wrote, my dear, and I took his 
mother with me, who, I fear, made the time heavy to him 
with her plaints. But afterwards I carried her away to the 
house of a brother minister of Loamford, and returned to 
Felix, and then we had much discourse.' 
</p>
            <p>'Did you tell him of everything that has happened — I 
mean about me — about the Transomes?' 
</p>
            <p>'Assuredly I told him, and he listened as one astonished. 
For he had much to hear, knowing nought of your birth, 
and that you had any other father than Rufus Lyon. 'Tis 
a narrative I trust I shall not be called on to give to 
others; but I was not without satisfaction in unfolding the 
truth to this young man, who hath wrought himself into 
my affection strangely — I would fain hope for ends that 
will be a visible good in his less way-worn life, when mine 
shall be no longer.' 
</p>
            <p>'And you told him how the Transomes had come, and 
that I was staying at Transome Court?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, I told these things with some particularity, as is 
my wont concerning what hath imprinted itself on my 
mind.' 
<pb n="506"/>
            </p>
            <p>'What did Felix say?' 
</p>
            <p>'Truly, my dear, nothing desirable to recite,' said Mr 
Lyon, rubbing his hand over his brow. 
</p>
            <p>'Dear father, he did say something, and you always 
remember what people say. Pray tell me; I want to know.' 
</p>
            <p>'It was a hasty remark, and rather escaped him than was 
consciously framed. He said, “Then she will marry 
Transome; that is what Transome means.” ' 
</p>
            <p>'That was all?' said Esther, turning rather pale, and 
biting her lip with the determination that the tears should 
not start. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, we did not go further into that branch of the 
subject. I apprehend there is no warrant for his seeming 
prognostic, and I should not be without disquiet if I thought 
otherwise. For I confess that in your accession to this great 
position and property, I contemplate with hopeful 
satisfaction your remaming attached to that body of 
congregational Dissent, which, as I hold, hath retained most of 
pure and primitive discipline. Your education and peculiar 
history would thus be seen to have coincided with a long 
train of events in making this family property a means of 
honouring and illustrating a purer form of Christianity 
than that which hath unhappily obtained the pre-eminence 
in this land. I speak, my child, as you know, always in the 
hope that you will fully join our communion; and this dear 
wish of my heart — nay, this urgent prayer — would seem 
to be frustrated by your marriage with a man, of whom 
there is at least no visible indication that he would unite 
himself to our body.' 
</p>
            <p>If Esther had been less agitated, she would hardly have 
helped smiling at the picture her father's words suggested 
of Harold Transome 'joining the church' in Malthouse 
Yard. But she was too seriously preoccupied with what 
Felix had said, which hurt her in a two-edged fashion that 
was highly significant. First, she was angry with him for 
daring to say positively whom she would marry; secondly, 
she was angry at the implication that there was from the <pb n="507"/>
first a cool deliberate design in Harold Transome to marry 
her. Esther said to herself that she was quite capable of 
discerning Harold Transome's disposition. and judging of 
his conduct. She felt sure he was generous and open. It did 
not lower him in her opinion that since circumstances had 
brought them together he evidently admired her — was in 
love with her — in short, desired to marry her; and she 
thought that she discerned the delicacy which hindered 
him from being more explicit. There is no point on which 
young women are more easily piqued than this of their 
sufficiency to judge the men who make love to them. And 
Esther's generous nature delighted to believe in generosity. 
All these thoughts were making a tumult in her mind 
while her father was suggesting the radiance her lot might 
cast on the cause of congregational Dissent. She heard 
what he said, and remembered it afterwards, but she made 
no reply at present, and chose rather to start up in search 
of a brush — an action which would seem to her father 
quite a usual sequence with her. It served the purpose of 
diverting him from a lengthy subject. 
</p>
            <p>'Have you yet spoken with Mr Transome concerning 
Mistress Holt, my dear?' he said, as Esther was moving 
about the room. 'I hinted to him that you would best decide 
how assistance should be tendered to her.' 
</p>
            <p>'No, father, we have not approached the subject. Mr 
Transome may have forgotten it, and, for several reasons, 
I would rather not talk of this — of money matters to him 
at present. There is money due to me from the Lukyns and 
the Pendrells.' 
</p>
            <p>'They have paid it,' said Mr Lyon, opening his desk. 'I 
have it here ready to deliver to you.' 
</p>
            <p>'Keep it, father, and pay Mrs Holt's rent with it, and do 
anything else that is wanted for her. We must consider 
everything temporary now,' said Esther, enveloping her 
father in a towel, and beginning to brush his auburn fringe 
of hair, while he shut his eyes in preparation for this 
pleasant passivity. 'Everything is uncertain — what may become <pb n="508"/>
of Felix — what may become of us all. O dear!' she went on, 
changing suddenly to laughing merriment, 'I am 
beginning to talk like Lyddy, I think.' 
</p>
            <p>'Truly,' said Mr Lyon, smiling, 'the uncertainty of things 
is a text rather too wide and obvious for fruitful 
application; and to discourse of it is, as one might say, to bottle up 
the air, and make a present of it to those who are already 
standing out of doors.' 
</p>
            <p>'Do you think,' said Esther, in the course of their chat, 
'that the Treby people know at all about the reasons of my 
being at Transome Court?' 
</p>
            <p>'I have had no sign thereof; and indeed there is no one, 
as it appears, who could make the story public. The man 
Christian is away in London with Mr Debarry, parliament 
now beginning; and Mr Jermyn would doubtless respect 
the confidence of the Transomes. I have not seen him 
lately. I know nothing of his movements. And so far as my 
own speech is concerned, and my strict command to 
Lyddy, I have withheld the means of information even as to 
your having returned to Transome Court in the carriage, 
not wishing to give any occasion to solicitous questioning 
till time hath somewhat inured me. But it hath got abroad 
that you are there, and is the subject of conjectures, 
whereof, I imagine, the chief is, that you are gone as companion 
to Mistress Transome; for some of our friends have already 
hinted a rebuke to me that I should permit your taking 
a position so little likely to further your spiritual welfare.' 
</p>
            <p>'Now, father, I think I shall be obliged to run away from 
you, not to keep the carriage too long,' said Esther, as she 
finished her reforms in the minister's toilette. 'You look 
beautiful now, and I must give Lyddy a little lecture 
before I go.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, my dear; I would not detain you, seeing that my 
duties demand me. But take with you this Treatise, which 
I have purposely selected. It concerns all the main questions 
between ourselves and the establishment — government, 
discipline, state-support. It is seasonable that you should <pb n="509"/>
give a nearer attention to these polemics, lest you be drawn 
aside by the fallacious association of a state church with 
elevated rank.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther chose to take the volume submissively, rather 
than to adopt the ungraceful sincerity of saying that she 
was unable at present to give her mind to the original 
functions of a bishop, or the comparative merit of 
endowments and voluntaryism. But she did not run her eyes over 
the pages during her solitary drive to get a foretaste of the 
argument, for she was entirely occupied with Felix Holt's 
prophecy that she would marry Harold Transome. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c42" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 42</head>
            <pb n="510"/>
            <q>
               <l>'Thou sayst it, and not I; for thou hast done </l>
               <l>The ugly deed that made these ugly words.' </l>
               <l>SOPHOCLES: Electra. </l>
            </q>
            <q>
               <l>  'Yea, it becomes a man </l>
               <l>To cherish memory, where he had delight. </l>
               <l>For kindness is the natural birth of kindness. </l>
               <l>Whose soul records not the great debt of joy, </l>
               <l>Is stamped for ever an ignoble man.' </l>
               <l>SOPHOCLES: Ajax. </l>
            </q>
            <p>IT SO happened that, on the morning of the day when 
Esther went to see her father, Jermyn had not yet heard 
of her presence at Transome Court. One fact conducing 
to keep him in this ignorance was, that some days after his 
critical interview with Harold — days during which he had 
been wondering how long it would be before Harold made 
up his mind to sacrifice the luxury of satisfied anger for 
the solid advantage of securing fortune and position — he 
was peremptorily called away by business to the south 
of England, and was obliged to inform Harold by letter of 
his absence. He took care also to notify his return; but 
Harold made no sign in reply. The days passed without 
bringing him any gossip concerning Esther's visit, for such 
gossip was almost confined to Mr Lyon's congregation, her 
Church pupils, Miss Louisa Jermyn among them, having 
been satisfied by her father's written statement that she 
was gone on a visit of uncertain duration. But on this day 
of Esther's call in Malthouse Yard, the Miss Jermyns in 
their walk saw her getting into the Transome's carriage, 
which they had previously observed to be waiting, and 
which they now saw bowled along on the road towards 
Little Treby. It followed that only a few hours later the 
news reached the astonished ears of Matthew Jermyn. 
</p>
            <p>Entirely ignorant of those converging indications and 
small links of incident which had raised Christian's conjectures, <pb n="511"/>
and had gradually contributed to put him in 
possession of the facts; ignorant too of some busy motives 
in the mind of his obliged servant Johnson; Jermyn was 
not likely to see at once how the momentous information 
that Esther was the surviving Bycliffe could possibly have 
reached Harold. His daughters naturally leaped, as others 
had done, to the conclusion that the Transomes, seeking 
a governess for little Harry, had had their choice directed 
to Esther, and observed that they must have attracted her 
by a high salary to induce her to take charge of such a 
small pupil; though of course it was important that his 
English and French should be carefully attended to from 
the first. Jermyn, hearing this suggestion, was not without 
a momentary hope that it might be true, and that Harold 
was still safely unconscious of having under the same roof 
with him the legal claimant of the family estate. 
</p>
            <p>But a mind in the grasp of a terrible anxiety is not 
credulous of easy solutions. The one stay that bears up our 
hopes is sure to appear frail, and if looked at long will 
seem to totter. Too much depended on that 
unconsciousness of Harold's; and although Jermyn did not see the 
course of things that could have disclosed and combined 
the various items of knowledge which he had imagined to 
be his own secret, and therefore his safeguard, he saw 
quite clearly what was likely to be the result of the 
disclosure. Not only would Harold Transome be no longer 
afraid of him, but also, by marrying Esther (and Jermyn 
at once felt sure of this issue), he would be triumphantly 
freed from my unpleasant consequences, and could pursue 
much at his ease the gratification of ruining Matthew 
Jermyn. The prevision of an enemy's triumphant case is in 
any case sufficiently irritating to hatred, and there were 
reasons why it was peculiarly exasperating here; but 
Jermyn had not the leisure now for mere fruitless emotion; 
he had to think of a possible device which might save 
him from imminent ruin — not an indefinite adversity, but 
a ruin in detail, which his thoughts painted out with the <pb n="512"/>
sharpest, ugliest intensity. A man of sixty, with an 
unsuspicious wife and daughters capable of shrieking and 
fainting at a sudden revelation, and of looking at him 
reproachfully in their daily misery under a shabby lot to 
which he had reduced them — with a mind and with habits 
dried hard by the years — with no glimpse of an endurable 
standing-ground except where he could domineer and be 
prosperous according to the ambitions of pushing 
middle-class gentility, — such a man is likely to find the prospect of 
worldly ruin ghastly enough to drive him to the most 
uninviting means of escape. He will probably prefer any 
private scorn that will save him from public infamy or that 
will leave him money in his pocket, to the humiliation and 
hardship of new servitude in old age, a shabby hat, and a 
melancholy hearth, where the firing must be used and the 
women look sad. But though a man may be willing to 
escape through a sewer, a sewer with an outlet into the dry 
air is not always at hand. Running away, especially when 
spoken of as absconding, seems at a distance to offer a 
good modern substitute for the right of sanctuary; but 
seen closely, it is often found inconvenient and scarcely 
possible. 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn, on thoroughly considering his position, saw that 
he had no very agreeable resources at command. But he 
soon made up his mind what he would do next. He wrote to 
Mrs Transome requesting her to appoint an hour in which 
he could see her privately: he knew she would understand 
that it was to be an hour when Harold was not at home. As 
he sealed the letter, he indulged a faint hope that in this 
interview he might be assured of Esther's birth being 
unknown at Transome Court; but in the worst case, perhaps 
some help might be found in Mrs Transome. To such uses 
may tender relations come when they have ceased to be 
tender! The Hazaels of our world who are pushed on 
quickly against their preconceived confidence in themselves 
to do doglike actions by the sudden suggestion of a wicked 
ambition, are much fewer than those who are led on <pb n="513"/>
through the years by the gradual demands of a selfishness 
which has spread its fibres far and wide through the 
intricate vanities and sordid cares of an everyday existence. 
</p>
            <p>In consequence of that letter to Mrs Transome, Jennyn 
was two days afterwards ushered into the smaller drawing 
room at Transome Court. It was a charming little room in 
its refurbished condition: it had two pretty inlaid cabinets, 
great china vases with contents that sent forth odours of 
paradise, groups of flowers in oval frames on the walls, 
and Mrs Transome's own portrait in the evening costume 
of 1800, with a garden in the background. That brilliant 
young woman looked smilingly down on Mr Jermyn as he 
passed in front of the fire; and at present hers was the only 
gaze in the room. He could not help meeting the gaze as 
he waited, holding his hat behind him — could not help 
seeing many memories lit up by it; but the strong bent of 
his mind was to go on arguing each memory into a claim, 
and to see in the regard others had for him a merit of his 
own. There had been plenty of roads open to him when he 
was a young man; perhaps if he had not allowed himself 
to be determined (chiefly, of course, by the feelings of 
others, for of what effect would his own feelings have been 
without them?) into the road he actually took, he might 
have done better for himself. At any rate, he was likely 
at last to get the worst of it, and it was he who had most 
reason to complain. The fortunate Jason, as we know from 
Euripides, piously thanked the goddess, and saw clearly 
that he was not at all obliged to Medea: Jermyn was 
perhaps not aware of the precedent, but thought out his own 
freedom from obligation and the indebtedness of others 
towards him with a native faculty not inferior to Jason's. 
 Before three minutes had passed, however, as if by some 
sorcery, the brilliant smiling young woman above the 
mantel-piece seemed to be appearing at the doorway withered 
and frosted by many winters, and with lips and eyes from 
which the smile had departed. Jermyn advanced, and they 
shook hands, but neither of them said anything by way of <pb n="514"/>
greeting. Mrs Transome seated herself, and pointed to a 
chair opposite and near her. 
</p>
            <p>'Harold has gone to Loamford,' she said, in a subdued 
tone. 'You had something particular to say to me?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes,' said Jermyn, with his soft and deferential air. 'The 
last time I was here I could not take the opportunity of 
speaking to you. But I am anxious to know whether you 
are aware of what has passed between me and Harold?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, he has told me everything.' 
</p>
            <p>'About his proceedings against me? and the reason he 
stopped them?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes: have you had notice that he has begun them 
again?' 
</p>
            <p>'No,' said Jermyn, with a very unpleasant sensation. 
</p>
            <p>'Of course he will now,' said Mrs Transome. 'There is 
no reason in his mind why he should not.' 
</p>
            <p>'Has he resolved to risk the estate then?' 
</p>
            <p>'He feels in no danger on that score. And if there were, 
the danger doesn't depend on you. The most likely thing 
is, that he will marry this girl.' 
</p>
            <p>'He knows everything then?' said Jermyn, the expression 
of his face getting clouded. 
</p>
            <p>'Everything. It's of no use for you to think of mastering 
him: you can't do it. I used to wish Harold to be fortunate 
— and he is fortunate,' said Mrs Transome, with intense 
bitterness. 'It's not my star that he inherits.' 
</p>
            <p>'Do you know how he came by the information about 
this girl?' 
</p>
            <p>'No; but she knew it all before we spoke to her. It's no 
secret.' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn was confounded by this hopeless frustration to 
which he had no key. Though he thought of Christian, the 
thought shed no light; but the more fatal point was clear: 
he held no secret that could help him. 
</p>
            <p>'You are aware that these Chancery proceedings may 
ruin me?' 
</p>
            <p>'He told me they would. But if you are imagining that I <pb n="515"/>
can do anything, dismiss the notion. I have told him as 
plainly as I dare that I wish him to drop all public quarrel 
with you, and that you could make an arrangement 
without scandal. I can do no more. He will not listen to me; 
he doesn't mind about my feelings. He cares more for 
Mr Transome than he does for me. He will not listen to 
me any more than if I were an old ballad-singer.' 
</p>
            <p>'It's very hard on me, I know,' said Jermyn, in the tone 
with which a man flings out a reproach 
</p>
            <p>'I besought you three months ago to bear anything 
rather than quarrel with him.' 
</p>
            <p>'I have not quarrelled with him. It is he who has been 
always seeking a quarrel with me. I have borne a good 
deal — more than any one else would. He set his teeth against 
me from the first.' 
</p>
            <p>'He saw things that annoyed him — and men are not like 
women,' said Mrs Transome. There was a bitter innuendo 
in that truism. 
</p>
            <p>'It's very hard on me — I know that,' said Jermyn, with an 
intensification of his previous tone, rising and walking a 
step or two, then turning and laying his hand on the back 
of the chair. 'Of course the law in this case can't in the least 
represent the justice of the matter. I made a good many 
sacrifices in times past. I gave up a great deal of fine 
business for the sake of attending to the family affairs, and in 
that lawsuit they would have gone to rack and ruin if it 
hadn't been for me.' 
</p>
            <p>He moved away again, laid down his hat, which he had 
been previously holding, and thrust his hands into his 
pockets as he returned. Mrs Transome sat motionless as 
marble, and almost as pale. Her hands lay crossed on her 
knees. This man, young, slim, and graceful, with a 
selfishness which then took the form of homage to her, had at 
one time kneeled to her and kissed those hands fervently; 
and she had thought there was a poetry in such passion 
beyond any to be found in everyday domesticity. 
</p>
            <p>'I stretched my conscience a good deal in that affair of <pb n="516"/>
Bycliffe, as you know perfectly well. I told you everything 
at the time. I told you I was very uneasy about those 
witnesses, and about getting him thrown into prison. I know 
it's the blackest thing anybody could charge me with, if 
they knew my life from beginning to end; and I should 
never have done it, if I had not been under an infatuation 
such as makes a man do anything. What did it signify to 
me about the loss of the lawsuit? I was a young bachelor — 
I had the world before me.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes,' said Mrs Transome, in a low tone. 'It was a pity 
you didn't make another choice.' 
</p>
            <p>'What would have become of you?' said Jermyn, carried 
along a climax, like other self-justifiers. 'I had to think of 
you. You would not have liked me to make another choice 
then.' 
</p>
            <p>'Clearly,' said Mrs Transome, with concentrated 
bitterness, but still quietly; 'the greater mistake was mine.' 
</p>
            <p>Egoism is usually stupid in a dialogue; but Jermyn's did 
not make him so stupid that he did not feel the edge of 
Mrs Transome's words. They increased his irritation. 
</p>
            <p>'I hardly see that,' he rcplied, with a slight laugh of 
scorn. 'You had an estate and a position to save, to go no 
further. I remember very well what you said to me — “A 
clever lawyer can do anything if he has the will; if it's 
impossible, he will make it possible. And the property is sure 
to be Harold's some day.” He was a baby then.' 
</p>
            <p>'I remember most things a little too well: you had better 
say at once what is your object in recalling them.' 
</p>
            <p>'An object that is nothing more than justice. With the 
relation I stood in, it was not likely I should think myself 
bound by all the forms that are made to bind strangers. I 
had often immense trouble to raise the money necessary to 
pay off debts and carry on the affairs; and, as I said before, 
I had given up other lines of advancement which would 
have been open to me if I had not stayed in this 
neighbourhood at a critical time when I was fresh to the world. 
Anybody who knew the whole circumstances would say that my <pb n="517"/>
being hunted and run down on the score of my past 
transactions with regard to the family affairs, is an abominably 
unjust and unnatural thing.' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn paused a moment, and then added, 'At my time 
of life ... and with a family about me — and after what has 
passed ... I should have thought there was nothing you 
would care more to prevent.' 
</p>
            <p>'I do care. It makes me miserable. That is the extent of 
my power — to feel miserable.' 
</p>
            <p>'No, it is not the extent of your power. You could save 
me if you would. It is not to be supposed that Harold would 
go on against me ... if he knew the whole truth.' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn had sat down before he uttered the last words. He 
had lowered his voice slightly. He had the air of one who 
thought that he had prepared the way for an 
understanding. That a man with so much sharpness, with so much 
suavity at command — a man who piqued himself on his 
persuasiveness towards women, — should behave just as 
Jermyn did on this occasion, would be surprising, but for the 
constant experience that temper and selfish insensibility 
will defeat excellent gifts — will make a sensible person 
shout when shouting is out of place, and will make a 
polished man rude when his polish might be of eminent use 
to him. 
</p>
            <p>As Jermyn, sitting down and leaning forward with an 
elbow on his knee, uttered his last words — 'if he knew the 
whole truth' — a slight shock seemed to pass through Mrs 
Transome's hitherto motionless body, followed by a 
sudden light in her eyes, as in an animal's about to spring. 
</p>
            <p>'And you expect me to tell him?' she said, not loudly, but 
yet with a clear metallic ring in her voice. 
</p>
            <p>'Would it not be right for him to know?' said Jermyn, in 
a more bland and persuasive tone than he had yet used. 
</p>
            <p>Perhaps some of the most terrible irony of the human lot 
is this of a deep truth coming to be uttered by lips that 
have no right to it. 
</p>
            <p>'I will never tell him!' said Mrs Transome, starting up, <pb n="518"/>
her whole frame thrilled with a passion that seemed almost 
to make her young again. Her hands hung beside her 
clenched tightly, her eyes and lips lost the helpless 
repressed bitterness of discontent, and seemed suddenly fed 
with energy. 'You reckon up your sacrifices for me: you 
have kept a good account of them, and it is needful; they 
are some of them what no one else could guess or find out. 
But you made your sacrifices when they seemed pleasant to 
you; when you told me they were your happiness; when 
you told me that it was I who stooped, and I who bestowed 
favours.' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn rose too, and laid his hand on the back of the 
chair. He had grown visibly paler, but seemed about to 
speak. 
</p>
            <p>'Don't speak!' Mrs Transome said peremptorily. 'Don't 
open your lips again. You have said enough; I will speak 
now. I have made sacrifices too, but it was when I knew that 
they were not my happiness. It was after I saw that I had 
stooped — after I saw that your tenderness had turned into 
calculation — after I saw that you cared for yourself only, 
and not for me. I heard your explanations — of your duty in 
life — of our mutual reputation — of a virtuous young lady 
attached to you. I bore it; I let everything go; I shut my 
eyes; I might almost have let myself starve, rather than 
have scenes of quarrel with the man I had loved, in which 
I must accuse him of turning my love into a good bargain.' 
There was a slight tremor in Mrs Transome's voice in the 
last words, and for a moment she paused; but when she 
spoke again it seemed as if the tremor had frozen into a 
cutting icicle. 'I suppose if a lover picked one's pocket, 
there's no woman would like to own it. I don't say I was not 
afraid of you: I was afraid of you, and I know now I was 
right.' 
</p>
            <p>'Mrs Transome,' said Jermyn, white to the lips, 'it is 
needless to say more. I withdraw any words that have offended 
you.' 
'You can't withdraw them. Can a man apologise for being <pb n="519"/>
a dastard? ... And I have caused you to strain your 
conscience, have I? — it is I who have sullied your purity? I 
should think the demons have more honour — they are not 
so impudent to one another. I would not lose the misery of 
being a woman, now I see what can be the baseness of a 
man. One must be a man — first to tell a woman that her 
love has made her your debtor, and then ask her to pay you 
by breaking the last poor threads between her and her son.' 
</p>
            <p>'I do not ask it,' said Jermyn, with a certain asperity. He 
was beginning to find this intolerable. The mere brute 
strength of a masculine creature rebelled. He felt almost 
inclined to throttle the voice out of this woman. 
</p>
            <p>'You do ask it: it is what you would like. I have had a 
terror on me lest evil should happen to you. From the first, 
after Harold came home, I had a horrible dread. It seemed 
as if murder might come between you — I didn't know what. 
I felt the horror of his not knowing the truth. I might have 
been dragged at last, by my own feeling — by my own 
memory — to tell him all, and make him as well as myself 
miserable, to save you.' 
</p>
            <p>Again there was a slight tremor, as if at the remembrance 
of womanly tenderness and pity. But immediately she 
launched forth again. 
</p>
            <p>'But now you have asked me, I will never tell him! Be 
ruined — no — do something more dastardly to save yourself. 
If I sinned, my judgment went beforehand — that I should 
sin for a man like you.' 
</p>
            <p>Swiftly upon those last words Mrs Transome passed out 
of the room. The softly-padded door closed behind her 
making no noise, and Jermyn found himself alone. 
</p>
            <p>For a brief space he stood still. Human beings in moments 
of passionate reproach and denunciation, especially when 
their anger is on their own account, are never so wholly in 
the right that the person who has to wince cannot possibly 
protest against some unreasonableness or unfairness in their 
outburst. And if Jermyn had been capable of feeling that 
he had thoroughly merited this infliction, he would not <pb n="520"/>
have uttered the words that drew it down on him. Men do 
not become penitent and learn to abhor themselves by 
having their backs cut open with the lash; rather, they learn 
to abhor the lash. What Jermyn felt about Mrs Transome 
when she disappeared was, that she was a furious woman — 
who would not do what he wanted her to do. And he was 
supported as to his justifiableness by the inward repetition 
of what he had already said to her: it was right that Harold 
should know the truth. He did not take into account (how 
should he?) the exasperation and loathing excited by his 
daring to urge the plea of right. A man who had stolen the 
pyx, and got frightened when justice was at his heels, might 
feel the sort of penitence which would induce him to run 
back in the dark and lay the pyx where the sexton might 
find it; but if in doing so he whispered to the Blessed 
Virgin that he was moved by considering the sacredness of all 
property, and the peculiar sacredness of the pyx, it is not to 
be believed that she would like him the better for it. Indeed, 
one often seems to see why the saints should prefer candles 
to words, especially from penitents whose skin is in danger. 
Some salt of generosity would have made Jermyn conscious 
that he had lost the citizenship which authorised him to 
plead the right; still more, that his self-vindication to Mrs 
Transome would be like the exhibition of a brand-mark, 
and only show that he was shame-proof. There is heroism 
even in the circles of hell for fellow-sinners who cling to 
each other in the fiery whirlwind and never recriminate. 
But these things, which are easy to discern when they are 
painted for us on the large canvas of poetic story, become 
confused and obscure even for well-read gentlemen when 
their affection for themselves is alarmed by pressing details 
of actual experience. If their comparison of instances is 
active at such times, it is chiefly in showing them that their 
own case has subde distinctions from all other cases, which 
should free them from unmitigated condemnation. 
</p>
            <p>And it was in this way with Matthew Jermyn. So many 
things were more distinctly visible to him, and touched him <pb n="521"/>
more acutely, than the effect of his acts or words on Mrs 
Transome's feelings! In fact — he asked, with a touch of 
something that makes us all akin — was it not preposterous, 
this excess of feeling on points which he himself did not 
find powerfully moving? She had treated him most 
unreasonably. It would have been right for her to do what he 
had — not asked, but only hinted at in a mild and 
interrogatory manner. But the clearest and most unpleasant result 
of the interview was, that this right thing which he desired 
so much would certainly not be done for him by Mrs 
Transome. 
</p>
            <p>As he was moving his arm from the chair-back, and 
turning to take his hat, there was a boisterous noise in the 
entrance-hall; the door of the small drawing-room, which 
had closed without latching, was pushed open, and old Mr 
Transome appeared with a face of feeble delight, playing 
horse to little Harry, who roared and flogged behind him, 
while Moro yapped in a puppy voice at their heels. But 
when Mr Transome saw Jermyn in the room he stood still 
in the doorway, as if he did not know whether entrance were 
permissible. The majority of his thoughts were but ravelled 
threads of the past. The attorney came forward to shake 
hands with due politeness, but the old man said, with a 
bewildered look, and in a hesitating way — 
</p>
            <p>'Mr Jermyn? — why — why — where is Mrs Transome?' 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn smiled his way out past the unexpected group; 
and little Harry, thinking he had an eligible opportunity, 
turned round to give a parting stroke on the stranger's 
coattails. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c43" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 43</head>
            <pb n="522"/>
            <q>
               <l>'Whichever way my days decline, </l>
               <l>I felt and feel, though left alone, </l>
               <l>His being working in mine own, </l>
               <l>The footsteps of his life in mine. </l>
               <l/>
               <l>Dear friend, far off, my lost desire, </l>
               <l>So far, so near, in woe and weal; </l>
               <l>O, loved the most when most I feel </l>
               <l>There is a lower and a higher!' </l>
               <l>TENNYSON: In Memoriam. </l>
            </q>
            <p>AFTER that moming on which Esther found herself 
reddened and confused by the sense of having made a distant 
allusion to Felix Holt, she felt it impossible that she should 
even, as she had sometimes intended, speak of him 
explicitly to Harold, in order to discuss the probabilities as to the 
issue of his trial. She was certain she could not do it 
without betraying emotion, and there were very complex reasons 
in Esther's mind why she could not bear that Harold should 
detect her sensibility on this subject. It was not only all the 
fibres of maidenly pride and reserve, of a bashfulness 
undefinably peculiar towards this man, who, while much older 
than herself, and bearing the stamp of an experience quite 
hidden from her imagination, was taking strongly the 
aspect of a lover — it was not only this exquisite kind of shame 
which was at work within her: there was another sort of 
susceptibility in Esther, which her present circumstances 
tended to encourage, though she had come to regard it as 
not at all lofty, but rather as something which condemned 
her to littleness in comparison with a mind she had learned 
to venerate. She knew quite well that, to Harold Transome, 
Felix Holt was one of the common people who could come 
into question in no other than a public light. She had a 
native capability for discerning that the sense of ranks and 
degrees has its repulsions corresponding to the repulsions <pb n="523"/>
dependent on difference of race and colour; and she 
remembered her own impressions too well not to foresee that it 
would come on Harold Transome as a shock, if he 
suspected there had been any love-passages between her and 
this young man, who to him was of course no more than 
any other intelligent member of the working class. 'To him,' 
said Esther to herself, with a reaction of her newer, better 
pride, 'who has not had the sort of intercourse in which Felix 
Holt's cultured nature would have asserted its superiority.' 
And in her fluctuations on this matter, she found herself 
mentally protesting that, whatever Harold might think, 
there was a light in which he was vulgar compared with 
Felix. Felix had ideas and motives which she did not believe 
that Harold could understand. More than all, there was this 
test: she herself had no sense of inferiority and just 
subjection when she was with Harold Transome; there were even 
points in him for which she felt a touch, not of angry, but 
of playful scorn; whereas with Felix she had always a sense 
of dependence and possible illumination. In those large, 
grave, candid grey eyes of his, love seemed something that 
belonged to the high enthusiasm of life, such as might now 
be for ever shut out from her. 
</p>
            <p>All the same, her vanity winced at the idea that Harold 
should discern what, from his point of view, would seem 
like a degradation of her taste and refinement. She could 
not help being gratified by all the manifestations from those 
around her that she was thought thoroughly fitted for a 
high position — could not help enjoying, with more or less 
keenness, a rehearsal of that demeanour amongst luxuries 
and dignities which had often been a part of her 
daydreams, and the rehearsal included the reception of more 
and more emphatic attentions from Harold, and of an 
effusiveness in his manners, which, in proportion as it would 
have been offensive if it had appeared earlier, became 
flattering as the effect of a growing acquaintance and daily 
contact. It comes in so many forms in this life of ours — the 
knowledge that there is something sweetest and noblest of <pb n="524"/>
which we despair, and the sense of something present that 
solicits us with an immediate and easy indulgence. And 
there is a pernicious falsity in the pretence that a woman's 
love lies above the range of such temptations. 
</p>
            <p>Day after day Esther had an arm offered her, had very 
beaming looks upon her, had opportunities for a great deal 
of light, airy talk, in which she knew herself to be 
charming, and had the attractive interest of noticing Harold's 
practical cleverness — the masculine ease with which he 
governed everybody and administered everything about 
him, without the least harshness, and with a facile 
good-nature which yet was not weak. In the background, too, 
there was the ever-present consideration, that if Harold 
Transome wished to marry her, and she accepted him, the 
problem of her lot would be more easily solved than in 
any other way. It was difficult by any theory of providence, 
or consideration of results, to see a course which she could 
call duty: if something would come and urge itself strongly 
as pleasure, and save her from the effort to find a clue of 
principle amid the labyrinthine confusions of right and 
possession, the promise could not but seem alluring. And 
yet, this life at Transome Court was not the life of her 
daydreams: there was dulness already in its ease, and in the 
absence of high demand; and there was the vague 
consciousness that the love of this not unfascinating man who 
hovered about her gave an air of moral mediocrity to all 
her prospects. She would not have been able perhaps to 
define this impression; but somehow or other by this 
elevation of fortune it seemed that the higher ambition which 
had begun to spring in her was for ever nullified. All life 
seemed cheapened; as it might seem to a young student 
who, having believed that to gain a certain degree he must 
write a thesis in which he would bring his powers to bear 
with memorable effect, suddenly ascertained that no thesis 
was expected, but the sum (in English money) of 
twenty-seven pounds ten shillings and sixpence. 
</p>
            <p>After all, she was a woman, and could not make her own <pb n="525"/>
lot. As she had once said to Felix, 'A woman must choose 
meaner things, because only meaner things are offered to 
her.' Her lot is made for her by the love she accepts. And 
Esther began to think that her lot was being made for her 
by the love that was surrounding her with the influence of 
a garden on a summer morning. 
</p>
            <p>Harold, on his side, was conscious that the interest of his 
wooing was not standing still. He was beginning to think it 
a conquest, in which it would be disappointing to fail, even 
if this fair nymph had no claim to the estate. He would 
have liked — and yet he would not have liked — that just a 
slight shadow of doubt as to his success should be removed. 
There was something about Esther that he did not 
altogether understand. She was clearly a woman that could be 
governed; she was too charming for him to fear that she 
would ever be obstinate or interfering. Yet there was a 
lightning that shot out of her now and then, which seemed 
the sign of a dangerous judgment; as if she inwardly saw 
something more admirable than Harold Transome. Now, to 
be perfectly charming, a woman should not see this. 
</p>
            <p>One fine February day, when already the golden and 
purple crocuses were out on the terrace — one of those 
flattering days which sometimes precede the north-east 
winds of March, and make believe that the coming spring 
will be enjoyable — a very striking group, of whom Esther 
and Harold made a part, came out at mid-day to walk upon 
the gravel at Transome Court. They did not, as usual, go 
towards the pleasure-grounds on the eastern side, because 
Mr Lingon, who was one of them, was going home, and his 
road lay through the stone gateway into the park. 
</p>
            <p>Uncle Lingon, who disliked painful confidences, and 
preferred knowing 'no mischief of anybody', had not objected 
to being let into the important secret about Esther, and 
was sure at once that the whole affair, instead of being a 
misfortune, was a piece of excellent luck. For himself, he 
did not profess to be a judge of women, but she seemed to 
have all the 'points', and carry herself as well as Arabella <pb n="526"/>
did, which was saying a good deal. Honest Jack Lingon's 
first impressions quickly became traditions, which no 
subsequent evidence could disturb. He was fond of his sister, 
and seemed never to be conscious of any change for the 
worse in her since their early time. He considered that man 
a beast who said anything unpleasant about the persons to 
whom he was attached. It was not that he winked; his 
wide-open eyes saw nothing but what his easy disposition inclined 
him to see. Harold was a good fellow; a clever chap; and 
Esther's peculiar fitness for him, under all the 
circumstances, was extraordinary: it reminded him of something 
in the classics, though he couldn't think exactly what — in 
fact, a memory was a nasty uneasy thing. Esther was always 
glad when the old rector came. With an odd contrariety to 
her former niceties she liked his rough attire and careless 
frank speech; they were something not point device that 
seemed to connect the life of Transome Court with that 
rougher, commoner world where her home had been. 
</p>
            <p>She and Harold were walking a little in advance of the 
rest of the party, who were retarded by various causes. Old 
Mr Transome, wrapped in a cloth cloak trimmed with sable, 
and with a soft warm cap also trimmed with fur on his head, 
had a shuffling uncertain walk. Little Harry was dragging 
a toy-vehicle, on the seat of which he had insisted on 
tying Moro, with a piece of scarlet drapery round him, 
making him look like a barbaric prince in a chariot. Moro, 
having little imagination, objected to this, and barked with 
feeble snappishness as the tyrannous lad ran forward, then 
whirled the chariot round, and ran back to 'Gappa', then 
came to a dead stop, which overset the chariot, that he 
might watch Uncle Lingon's water-spaniel run for the 
hurled stick and bring it in his mouth. Nimrod kept close to 
his old master's legs, glancing with much indifference at this 
youthful ardour about sticks — he had 'gone through all 
that'; and Dominic walked by, looking on blandly, and 
taking care both of young and old. Mrs Transome was not 
there. <pb n="527"/>
            </p>
            <p>Looking back and seeing that they were a good deal in 
advance of the rest, Esther and Harold paused. 
</p>
            <p>'What do you think about thinning the trees over there?' 
said Harold, pointing with his stick. 'I have a bit of a 
notion that if they were divided into clumps so as to show 
the oaks beyond, it would be a great improvement. It would 
give an idea of extent that is lost now. And there might 
be some very pretty clumps got out of those mixed trees. 
What do you think?' 
</p>
            <p>'I should think it would be an improvemcnt. One likes a 
“beyond” everywhere. But I never heard you express 
yourself so dubiously,' said Esther, looking at him rather 
archly: 'you generally see things so clearly, and are so 
convinced, that I shall begin to feel quite tottering if I find you 
in uncertainty. Pray don't begin to be doubtful; it is so 
infectious.' 
</p>
            <p>'You think me a great deal too sure — too confident?' said 
Harold. 
</p>
            <p>'Not at all. It is an immense advantage to know your 
own will, when you always mean to have it.' 
</p>
            <p>'But suppose I couldn't get it, in spite of meaning?' said 
Harold, with a beaming inquiry in his eyes. 
</p>
            <p>'O then,' said Esther, turning her head aside, carelessly, 
as if she were considering the distant birch-stems, 'you` 
would bear it quite easily, as you did your not getting into 
parliament. You would know you could get it another time 
— or get something else as good.' 
</p>
            <p>'The fact is,' said Harold, moving on a little, as if he did 
not want to be quite overtaken by the others, 'you consider 
me a fat, fatuous, self-satisfied fellow.' 
</p>
            <p>'O there are degrees,' said Esther, with a silvery laugh; 
'you have just as much of those qualities as is 
becoming. There are different styles. You are perfect in your 
own.' 
</p>
            <p>'But you prefer another style, I suspect. A more 
submissive, tearful, devout worshipper, who would offer his 
incense with more trembling.' <pb n="528"/>
            </p>
            <p>'You are quite mistaken,' said Esther, still lightly. 'I find 
I am very wayward. When anything is offered to me, it 
seems that I prize it less, and don't want to have it.' 
</p>
            <p>Here was a very baulking answer, but in spite of it Harold 
could not help believing that Esther was very far from 
objecting to the sort of incense he had been offering just 
then. 
</p>
            <p>'I have often read that that is in human nature,' she went 
on, 'yet it takes me by surprise in myself. I suppose,' she 
added, smiling, 'I didn't think of myself as human nature.' 
</p>
            <p>'I don't confess to the same waywardness,' said Harold. 
'I am very fond of things that I can get. And I never longed 
much for anything out of my reach. Whatever I feel sure of 
getting I like all the better. I think half those priggish 
maxims about human nature in the lump are no more to 
be relied on than universal remedies. There are different 
sorts of human nature. Some are given to discontent and 
longing, others to securing and enjoying. And let me tell 
you, the discontented longing style is unpleasant to live 
with.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold nodded with a meaning smile at Esther. 
</p>
            <p>'O, I assure you I have abjured all admiration for it,' she 
said, smiling up at him in return. 
</p>
            <p>She was remembering the schooling Felix had given her 
about her Byronic heroes, and was inwardly adding a third 
sort of human nature to those varieties which Harold had 
mentioned. He naturally supposed that he might take the 
abjuration to be entirely in his own favour. And his face 
did look very pleasant; she could not help liking him, 
although he was certainly too particular about sauces, 
gravies, and wines, and had a way of virtually measuring 
the value of everything by the contribution it made to his 
own pleasure. His very good-nature was unsympathetic: it 
never came from any thorough understanding or deep 
respect for what was in the mind of the person he obliged or 
indulged; it was like his kindness to his mother — an 
arrangement of his for the happiness of others, which, if they <pb n="529"/>
were sensible, ought to succeed. And an inevitable 
comparison which haunted her, showed her the same quality in his 
political views: the utmost enjoyment of his own 
advantages was the solvent that blended pride in his family and 
position, with the adhesion to changes that were to 
obliterate tradition and melt down enchased gold heirlooms into 
plating for the egg-spoons of 'the people.' It is terrible — the 
keen bright eye of a woman when it has once been turned 
with admiration on what is severely true; but then, the 
severely true rarely comes within its range of vision. Esther 
had had an unusuaI illumination; Harold did not know 
how, but he discerned enough of the effect to make him 
more cautious than he had ever been in his life before. That 
caution would have prevented him just then from following 
up the question as to the style of person Esther would think 
pleasant to live with, even if Uncle Lingon had not joined 
them, as he did, to talk about soughing tiles; saying 
presently that he should turn across the grass and get on to the 
Home Farm, to have a look at the improvements that 
Harold was making with such racing speed. 
</p>
            <p>'But you know, lad,' said the rector, as they paused at the 
expected parting, 'you can't do everything in a hurry. The 
wheat must have time to grow, even when you've reformed 
all us old Tories off the face of the ground. Dash it! now 
the election's over: I'm an old Tory again. You see, Harold, 
a Radical won't do for the county. At another election, you 
must be on the look-out for a borough where they want a 
bit of blood. I should have liked you uncommonly to stand 
for the county; and a Radical of good family squares well 
enough with a new-fashioned Tory like young Debarry; but 
you see, these riots — it's been a nasty business. I shall have 
my hair combed at the sessions for a year to come. But 
hey-day ! What dame is this, with a small boy? — not one of my 
parishioners?' 
</p>
            <p>Harold and Esther turned, and saw an elderly woman 
advancing with a tiny red-haired boy, scantily attired as to 
his jacket, which merged into a small sparrow-tail a little <pb n="530"/>
higher than his waist, but muffled as to his throat with a 
blue woollen comforter. Esther recognised the pair too well, 
and felt very uncomfortable. We are so pitiably in 
subjection to all sorts of vanity — even the very vanities we are 
practically renouncing! And in spite of the almost solemn 
memories connected with Mrs Holt, Esther's first shudder 
was raised by the idea of what things this woman would 
say, and by the mortification of having Felix in any way 
represented by his mother. 
</p>
            <p>As Mrs Holt advanced into closer observation, it became 
more evident that she was attired with a view not to charm 
the eye, but rather to afflict it with all that expression of 
woe which belongs to very rusty bombazine and the limpest 
state of false hair. Still, she was not a woman to lose the 
sense of her own value, or become abject in her manners 
under any circumstances of depression; and she had a 
peculiar sense on the present occasion that she was justly 
relying on the force of her own character and judgment, in 
independence of anything that Mr Lyon or the masterful 
Felix would have said, if she had thought them worthy to 
know of her undertaking. She curtsied once, as if to the 
entire group, now including even the dogs, who showed 
various degrees of curiosity, especially as to what kind of 
game the smaller animal Job might prove to be after due 
investigation; and then she proceeded at once towards 
Esther, who, in spite of her annoyance, took her arm from 
Harold's, said, 'How do you do, Mrs Holt?' very kindly, and 
stooped to pat little Job. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes — you know him, Miss Lyon,' said Mrs Holt, in that 
tone which implies that the conversation is intended for 
the edification of the company generally; 'you know the 
orphin child, as Felix brought home for me that am his 
mother to take care of. And it's what I've done — nobody 
more so — though it's trouble is my reward.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther had raised herself again, to stand in helpless 
endurance of whatever might be coming. But by this time 
young Harry, struck even more than the dogs by the appearance <pb n="531"/>
of Job Tudge, had come round dragging his 
chariot, and placed himself close to the pale child, whom 
he exceeded in height and breadth, as well as in depth of 
colouring. He looked into Job's eyes, peeped round at the 
tail of his jacket and pulled it a little, and then, taking off 
the tiny cloth-cap, observed with much interest the tight 
red curls which had been hidden underneath it. Job looked 
at his inspector with the round blue eyes of astonishment, 
until Harry, purely by way of experiment, took a bon-bon 
from a fantastic wallet which hung over his shoulder, 
and applied the test to Job's lips. The result was 
satisfactory to both. Every one had been watching this small 
comedy, and when Job crunched the bon-bon while Harry 
looked down at him inquiringly and patted his back, there 
was general laughter except on the part of Mrs Holt, who 
was shaking her head slowly, and slapping the back of her 
left hand with the painful patience of a tragedian whose 
part is in abeyance to an ill-timed introduction of the 
humorous. 
</p>
            <p>'I hope Job's cough has been better lately,' said Esther, in 
mere uncertainty as to what it would be desirable to say or 
do. 
</p>
            <p>'I daresay you hope so, Miss Lyon,' said Mrs Holt, 
looking at the distant landscape. 'I've no reason to disbelieve but 
what you wish well to the child, and to Felix, and to me. 
I'm sure nobody has any occasion to wish me otherways. 
My character will bear inquiry, and what you, as are young, 
don't know, others can tell you. That was what I said to 
myself when I made up my mind to come here and see you, 
and ask you to get me the freedom to speak to Mr 
Transome. I said, whatever Miss Lyon may be now, in the way 
of being lifted up among great people, she's our minister's 
daughter, and was not above coming to my house and 
walking with my son Felix — though I'll not deny he made that 
figure on the Lord's Day, that'll perhaps go against him 
with the judge, if anybody thinks well to tell him.' 
</p>
            <p>Here Mrs Holt paused a moment, as with a mind <pb n="532"/>
arrested by the painful image it had called up. 
</p>
            <p>Esther's face was glowing, when Harold glanced at her; 
and seeing this, he was considerate enough to address Mrs 
Holt instead of her. 
</p>
            <p>'You are then the mother of the unfortunate young man 
who is in prison?' 
</p>
            <p>'Indeed, I am, sir,' said Mrs Holt, feeling that she was 
now in deep water. 'It's not likely I should claim him if he 
wasn't my own; though it's not by my will, nor my advice, 
sir, that he ever walked; for I gave him none but good. But 
if everybody's son was guided by their mothers, the world 
'ud be different; my son is not worse than many another 
woman's son, and that in Treby, whatever they may say as 
haven't got their sons in prison. And as to his giving up the 
doctoring, and then stopping his father's medicines, I know 
it's bad — that I know — but it's me as has had to suffer, and 
it's me a king and parliament 'ud consider, if they meant 
to do the right thing, and had anybody to make it known 
to 'em. And as for the rioting and killing the constable — 
my son said most plain to me he never meant it, and there 
was his bit of potato-pie for his dinner getting dry by the 
fire, the whole blessed time as I sat and never knew what 
was coming on me. And it's my opinion as if great people 
make elections to get themselves into parliament, and 
there's riot and murder to do it, they ought to see as the 
widow and the widow's son doesn't suffer for it. I well know 
my duty: and I read my Bible; and I know in Jude where 
it's been stained with the dried tulip-leaves this many a 
year, as you're told not to rail at your betters if they was the 
devil himself; nor will I; but this I do say, if it's three Mr 
Transomes instead of one as is listening to me, as there's 
them ought to go to the king and get him to let off my son 
Felix.' 
</p>
            <p>This speech, in its chief points, had been deliberately 
prepared. Mrs Holt had set her face like a flint, to make 
the gentry know their duty as she knew hers: her defiant, <pb n="533"/>
defensive tone was due to the consciousness, not only that 
she was braving a powerful audience, but that she was 
daring to stand on the strong basis of her own judgment in 
opposition to her son's. Her proposals had been waived off 
by Mr Lyon and Felix; but she had long had the feminine 
conviction that if she could 'get to speak' in the right 
quarter, things might be different. The daring bit of impromptu 
about the three Mr Transomes was immediately suggested 
by a movement of old Mr Transome to the foreground in a 
line with Mr Lingon and Harold; his furred and unusual 
costume appearing to indicate a mysterious dignity which 
she must hasten to include in her appeal. 
</p>
            <p>And there were reasons that none could have foreseen, 
which made Mrs Holt's remonstrance immediately 
effective. While old Mr Transome stared, very much like a 
waxen image in which the expression is a failure, and the 
rector, accustomed to female parishioners and 
complainants, looked on with a smile in his eyes, Harold said at once, 
with cordial kindness — 
</p>
            <p>'I think you are quite right, Mrs Holt. And for my part, I 
am determined to do my best for your son, both in the 
witness-box and elsewhere. Take comfort; if it is necessary, 
the king shall be appealed to. And rely upon it, I shall bear 
you in mind, as Felix Holt's mother.' 
</p>
            <p>Rapid thoughts had convinced Harold that in this way 
he was best commending himself to Esther. 
</p>
            <p>'Well, sir,' said Mrs Holt, who was not going to pour forth 
disproportionate thanks, 'I'm glad to hear you speak so 
becoming; and if you had been the king himself, I should 
have made free to tell you my opinion. For the Bible says, 
the king's favour is towards a wise servant; and it's 
reasonable to think he'd make all the more account of them as 
have never been in service, or took wage, which I never did, 
and never thought of my son doing; and his father left 
money, meaning otherways, so as he might have been a 
doctor on horseback at this very minute, instead of being in 
prison.' <pb n="534"/>
            </p>
            <p>'What! was he regularly apprenticed to a doctor?' said 
Mr Lingon, who had not understood this before. 
</p>
            <p>'Sir, he was, and most clever, like his father before him, 
only he turned contrairy. But as for harming anybody, 
Felix never meant to harm anybody but himself and his 
mother, which he certainly did in respect of his clothes, and 
taking to be a low working man, and stopping my living 
respectable, more particular by the pills, which had a sale, 
as you may be sure they suited people's insides. And what 
folks can never have boxes enough of to swallow, I should 
think you have a right to sell. And there's many and many 
a text for it, as I've opened on without ever thinking; for if 
it's true, “Ask, and you shall have,” I should think it's truer 
when you're willing to pay for what you have.' 
</p>
            <p>This was a little too much for Mr Lingon's gravity; he 
exploded, and Harold could not help following him. Mrs 
Holt fixed her eyes on the distance, and slapped the back of 
her left hand again: it might be that this kind of mirth was 
the peculiar effect produced by forcible truth on high and 
worldly people who were neither in the Independent nor 
the General Baptist connection. 
</p>
            <p>'I'm sure you must be tired with your long walk, and 
little Job too,' said Esther, by way of breaking this awkward 
scene. 'Aren't you, Job?' she added, stooping to caress the 
child, who was timidly shrinking from Harry's invitation to 
him to pull the little chariot — Harry's view being that Job 
would make a good horse for him to beat, and would run 
faster than Gappa. 
</p>
            <p>'It's well you can feel for the orphin child, Miss Lyon,' 
said Mrs Holt, choosing an indirect answer rather than to 
humble herself by confessing fatigue before gentlemen who 
seemed to be taking her too lightly. 'I didn't believe but 
what you'd behave pretty, as you always did to me, though 
everybody used to say you held yourself high. But I'm 
sure you never did to Felix, for you let him sit by you at 
the Free School before all the town, and him with never a 
bit of stock round his neck. And it shows you saw that in <pb n="535"/>
him worth taking notice of; — and it is but right, if you 
know my words are true, as you should speak for him to 
the gentleman.' 
</p>
            <p>'I assure you, Mrs Holt,' said Harold, coming to the 
rescue — 'I assure you that enough has been said to make me 
use my best efforts for your son. And now, pray, go on to 
the house with the little boy and take some rcst. Dominic 
show Mrs Holt the way, and ask Mrs Hickes to make her 
comfortable, and see that somebody takes her back to Treby 
in the buggy.' 
</p>
            <p>'I will go back with Mrs Holt,' said Esther, making an 
effort against herself. 
</p>
            <p>'No, pray,' said Harold, with that kind of entreaty which 
is rcally a decision. 'Let Mrs Holt have time to rest. We 
shall have returned, and you can see her before she goes. 
We will say good-bye for the present, Mrs Holt.' 
</p>
            <p>The poor woman was not sorry to have the prospect of 
rest and food, especially for 'the orphin child', of whom 
she was tenderly careful. Like many women who appear to 
others to have a masculine decisiveness of tone, and to 
themselves to have a masculine force of mind, and who 
come into severe collision with sons arrived at the masterful 
stage, she had the maternal cord vibrating strongly within 
her towards all tiny children. And when she saw Dominic 
pick up Job and hoist him on his arm for a little while, by 
way of making acquaintance, she regarded him with an 
approval which she had not thought it possible to extend to a 
foreigner. Since Dominic was going, Harry and old Mr 
Transome chose to follow. Uncle Lingon shook hands and 
turned off across the grass, and thus Esther was left alone 
with Harold. 
</p>
            <p>But there was a new consciousness between them. Harold's 
quick perception was least likely to be slow in seizing 
indications of anything that might affect his position with 
regard to Esther. Some time before, his jealousy had been 
awakened to the possibility that before she had known him 
she had been deeply interested in some one else. Jealousy <pb n="536"/>
of all sorts — whether for our fortune or our love — is ready 
at combinations, and likely even to outstrip the fact. And 
Esther's renewed confusion, united with her silence about 
Felix, which now first seemed noteworthy, and with Mrs 
Holt's graphic details as to her walking with him and 
letting him sit by her before all the town, were grounds not 
merely for a suspicion, but for a conclusion in Harold's 
mind. The effect of this, which he at once regarded as a 
discovery, was rather different from what Esther had 
anticipated. It seemed to him that Felix was the least formidable 
person that he could have found out as an object of interest 
antecedent to himself. A young workman who had got 
himself thrown into prison, whatever recommendations he 
might have had for a girl at a romantic age in the 
dreariness of Dissenting society at Treby, could hardly be 
considered by Harold in the light of a rival. Esther was too 
clever and tasteful a woman to make a ballad heroine of 
herself, by bestowing her beauty and her lands on this 
lowly lover. Besides, Harold cherished the belief that, at the 
present time, Esther was more wisely disposed to bestow 
these things on another lover in every way eligible. But in 
two directions this discovery had a determining effect on 
him; his curiosity was stirred to know exactly what the 
relation with Felix had been, and he was solicitous that his 
behaviour with regard to this young man should be such 
as to enhance his own merit in Esther's eyes. At the same 
time he was not inclined to any euphemisms that would 
seem by any possibility to bring Felix into the lists with 
humself. 
</p>
            <p>Naturally, when they were left alone, it was Harold who 
spoke first. 'I should think there's a good deal of worth in 
this young fellow — this Holt, notwithstanding the mistakes 
he has made. A little queer and conceited, perhaps; but 
that is usually the case with men of his class when they are 
at all superior to their fellows.' 
</p>
            <p>'Felix Holt is a highly cultivated man; he is not at all 
conceited,' said Esther. The different kinds of pride within <pb n="537"/>
her were coalescing now. She was aware that there had been 
a betrayal. 
</p>
            <p>'Ah?' said Harold, not quite liking the tone of this answer. 
'This eccentricity is a sort of fanaticism, then? — this giving 
up being a doctor on horseback, as the old woman calls it, 
and taking to — let me see — watchmaking, isn't it?' 
</p>
            <p>'If it is eccentricity to be very much better than other 
men, he is certainly eccentric; and fanatical too, if it is 
fanatical to renounce all small selfish motives for the sake 
of a great and unselfish one. I never knew what nobleness 
of character really was before I knew Felix Holt!' 
</p>
            <p>It seemed to Esther as if, in the excitement of this 
moment, her own words were bringing her a clearer revelation. 
</p>
            <p>'God bless me!' said Harold, in a tone of surprised yet 
thorough belief, and looking in Esther's face. 'I wish you 
had talked to me about this before.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther at that moment looked perfectly beautiful, with 
an expression which Harold had never hitherto seen. All 
the confusion which had depended on personal feeling had 
given way before the sense that she had to speak the truth 
about the man whom she felt to be admirable. 
</p>
            <p>'I think I didn't see the meaning of anything fine — I 
didn't even see the value of my father's character, until I 
had been taught a little by hearing what Felix Holt said, 
and seeing that his life was like his words.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold looked and listened, and felt his slight jealousy 
allayed rather than heightened. 'This is not like love,' he 
said to himself, with some satisfaction. With all due 
regard to Harold Transome, he was one of those men who 
are liable to make the greater mistakes about a 
particular woman's feelings, because they pique themselves on 
a power of interpretation derived from much experience. 
Experience is enlightening, but with a difference. 
Experiments on live animals may go on for a long period, and 
yet the fauna on which they are made may be limited. 
There may be a passion in the mind of a woman which <pb n="538"/>
precipitates her, not along the path of easy beguilement, 
but into a great leap away from it. Harold's experience had 
not taught him this; and Esther's enthusiasm about Felix 
Holt did not seem to him to be dangerous. 
</p>
            <p>'He's quite an apostolic sort of fellow, then,' was the 
self-quieting answer he gave to her last words. 'He didn't look 
like that; but I had only a short interview with him, and 
I was given to understand that he refused to see me in 
prison. I believe he's not very well inclined towards me. But 
you saw a great deal of him, I suppose; and your testimony 
to any one is enough for me,' said Harold, lowering his 
voice rather tenderly. 'Now I know what your opinion is, I 
shall spare no effort on behalf of such a young man. In fact, 
I had come to the same resolution before, but your wish 
would make difficult things easy ' 
</p>
            <p>After that energetic speech of Esther's, as often happens 
the tears had just suffused her eyes. It was nothing more 
than might have been expected in a tender-hearted woman 
considering Felix Holt's circumstances, and the tears only 
made more lovely the look with which she met Harold's 
when he spoke so kindly She felt pleased with him — she 
was open to the fallacious delight of being assured that 
she had power over him to make him do what she liked, and 
quite forgot the many impressions which had convinced her 
that Harold had a padded yoke ready for the neck of every 
man, woman, and child that depended on him. 
</p>
            <p>After a short silence, they were getting near the stone 
gateway, and Harold said, with an air of intimate 
consultation — 
</p>
            <p>'What could we do for this young man, supposing he 
were let off? I shall send a letter with fifty pounds to the 
old woman to-morrow. I ought to have done it before, but 
it really slipped my memory, amongst the many things that 
have occupied me lately. But this young man — what do 
you think would be the best thing we could do for him, 
if he gets at large again? He should be put in a position 
where his qualities could be more telling.' <pb n="539"/>
            </p>
            <p>Esther was recovering her liveliness a little, and was 
disposed to encourage it for the sake of veiling other feelings, 
about which she felt renewed reticence, now that the 
overpowering influence of her enthusiasm was past. She was 
rather wickedly amused and scornful at Harold's 
misconceptions and ill-placed intentions of patronage. 
</p>
            <p>'You are hopelessly in the dark,' she said, with a light 
laugh and toss of her head. 'What would you offer Felix 
Holt? a place in the Excise? You might as well think of 
offering it to John the Baptist. Felix has chosen his lot. He 
means always to be a poor man.' 
</p>
            <p>'Means? Yes,' said Harold, slightly piqued, 'but what a 
man means usually depends on what happens. I mean to be 
a commoner; but a peerage might present itself under 
acceptable circumstances.' 
</p>
            <p>'O there is no sum in proportion to be done there,' said 
Esther, again gaily. 'As you are to a peerage, so is not Felix 
Holt to any offer an advantage that you could imagine for 
him.' 
</p>
            <p>'You must think him fit for any position — the first in the 
county.' 
</p>
            <p>'No, I don't,' said Esther shaking her head mischievously. 
'I think him too high for it.' 
</p>
            <p>'I see you can be ardent in your admiration.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, it is my champagne; you know I don't like the 
other kind.' 
</p>
            <p>'That would be satisfactory if one were sure of getting 
your admiration,' said Harold, leading her up to the terrace, 
and amongst the crocuses, from whence they had a fine 
view of the park and river. They stood still near the east 
parapet, and saw the dash of light on the water, and the 
pencilled shadows of the trees on the grassy lawn. 
</p>
            <p>'Would it do as well to admire you, instead of being 
worthy to be admired?' said Harold, turning his eyes from 
that landscape to Esther's face. 
</p>
            <p>'It would be a thing to be put up with,' said Esther, <pb n="540"/>
smiling at him rather roguishly. 'But you are not in that 
state of self-despair.' 
</p>
            <p>'Well, I am conscious of not having those severe virtues 
that you have been praising.' 
</p>
            <p>'That is true. You are quite in another genre.' 
</p>
            <p>'A woman would not find me a tragic hero.' 
</p>
            <p>'O, no! She must dress for genteel comedy — such as 
your mother once described to me — where the most 
thrilling event is the drawing of a handsome cheque.' 
</p>
            <p>'You are a naughty fairy,' said Harold, daring to press 
Esther's hand a little more closely to him, and drawing 
her down the eastern steps into the pleasure-ground, as if 
he were unwilling to give up the conversation. 'Confess 
that you are disgusted with my want of romance.' 
</p>
            <p>'I shall not confess to being disgusted. I shall ask you to 
confess that you are not a romantic figure.' 
</p>
            <p>'I am a little too stout.' 
</p>
            <p>'For romance — yes. At least you must find security for 
not getting stouter.' 
</p>
            <p>'And I don't look languishing enough?' 
</p>
            <p>'O yes — rather too much so — at a fine cigar.' 
</p>
            <p>'And I am not in danger of committing suicide?' 
</p>
            <p>'No; you are a widower.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold did not reply immediately to this last thrust of 
Esther's. She had uttered it with innocent thoughtlessness 
from the playful suggestions of the moment; but it was 
a fact that Harold's previous married life had entered 
strongly into her impressions about him. The presence of 
Harry made it inevitable. Harold took the allusion of 
Esther's as an indication that his quality of widower was 
a point that made against him; and after a brief silence he 
said, in an altered, more serious tone — 
</p>
            <p>'You don't suppose, I hope, that any other woman has 
ever held the place that you could hold in my life?' 
</p>
            <p>Esther began to tremble a little, as she always did when 
the love-talk between them seemed getting serious. She 
only gave the rather stumbling answer, 'How so?' 
<pb n="541"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Harry's mother had been a slave — was bought, in fact.' 
</p>
            <p>It was impossible for Harold to preconceive the effect 
this had on Esther. His natural disqualification for judging 
of a girl's feelings was heightened by the blinding effect of 
an exclusive object — which was to assure her that her own 
place was peculiar and supreme. Hitherto Esther's 
acquaintance with Oriental love was derived chiefly from Byronic 
poems, and this had not sufficed to adjust her mind to a 
new story, where the Giaour concerned was giving her his 
arm. She was unable to speak; and Harold went on — 
</p>
            <p>'Though I am close on thirty-five, I never met with a 
woman at all like you before. There are new eras in one's 
life that are equivalent to youth — are something better 
than youth. I was never an aspirant till I knew you.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther was still silent. 
</p>
            <p>'Not that I dare to call myself that. I am not so confident 
a personage as you imagine. I am necessarily in a 
painful position for a man who has any feeling.' 
</p>
            <p>Here at last Harold had stirred the right fibre. Esther's 
generosity seized at once the whole meaning implied in 
that last sentence. She had a fine sensibility to the line at 
which flirtation must cease; and she was now pale, and 
shaken with feelings she had not yet defined for herself. 
</p>
            <p>'Do not let us speak of difficult things any more now,' 
she said, with gentle seriousness. 'I am come into a new 
world of late, and have to learn life all over again. Let us 
go in. I must see poor Mrs Holt again, and my little friend 
Job.' 
</p>
            <p>She paused at the glass door that opened on the 
terrace, and entered there, while Harold went round to the 
stables. 
</p>
            <p>When Esther had been upstairs and descended again 
into the large entrance-hall, she found its stony spaciousness 
made lively by human figures extremely unlike the statues. 
Since Harry insisted on playing with Job again, Mrs Holt 
and her orphan, after dining, had just been brought to this 
delightful scene for a game at hide-and-seek, and for exhibiting <pb n="542"/>
the climbing powers of the two pet squirrels. Mrs 
Holt sat on a stool, in singular relief against the pedestal 
of the Apollo, while Dominic and Denner (otherwise Mrs 
Hickes) bore her company; Harry, in his bright red and 
purple, flitted about like a great tropic bird after the 
sparrow-tailed Job, who hid himself with much intelligence 
behind the scagliola pillars and the pedestals; while one of 
the squirrels perched itself on the head of the tallest statue, 
and the other was already peeping down from among the 
heavy stuccoed angels on the ceiling, near the summit of a 
pillar. 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Holt held on her lap a basket filled with good things 
for Job, and seemed much soothed by pleasant company 
and excellent treatment. As Esther, descending softly and 
unobserved, leaned over the stone bannisters and looked 
at the scene for a minute or two, she saw that Mrs Holt's 
attention, having been directed to the squirrel which had 
scampered on to the head of the Silenus carrying the infant 
Bacchus, had been drawn downward to the tiny babe looked 
at with so much affection by the rather ugly and hairy 
gentleman, of whom she nevertheless spoke with reserve as 
of one who possibly belonged to the Transome family. 
</p>
            <p>'It's most pretty to see its little limbs, and the gentleman 
holding it. I should think he was amiable by his look; but it 
was odd he should have his likeness took without any 
clothes. Was he Transome by name?' (Mrs Holt suspected 
that there might be a mild madness in the family.) 
</p>
            <p>Denner, peering and smiling quietly, was about to reply, 
when she was prevented by the appearance of old Mr 
Transome, who since his walk had been having 'forty winks' on 
the sofa in the library, and now came out to look for Harry. 
He had doffed his furred cap and cloak, but in lying down 
to sleep he had thrown over his shoulders a soft Oriental 
scarf which Harold had given him, and this still hung over 
his scanty white hair and down to his knees, held fast by 
his wooden-looking arms and laxly clasped hands, which fell 
in front of him. <pb n="543"/>
            </p>
            <p>This singular appearance of an undoubted Transome 
fitted exactly into Mrs Holt's thought at the moment. It 
lay in the probabilities of things that gentry's intellects 
should be peculiar: since they had not to get their own 
living, the good Lord might have economised in their case 
that common sense which others were so much more in 
need of; and in the shuffling figure before her she saw a 
descendant of the gentleman who had chosen to be 
represented without his clothes — all the more eccentric where 
there were the means of buying the best. But these oddities 
'said nothing' in great folks, who were powerful in high 
quarters all the same. And Mrs Holt rose and curtsied 
with a proud respect, precisely as she would have done if 
Mr Transome had looked as wise as Lord Burleigh. 
</p>
            <p>'I hope I'm in no ways taking a liberty, sir,' she began, 
while the old gentleman looked at her with bland 
feebleness; 'I'm not that woman to sit anywhere out of my own 
home without inviting, and pressing too. But I was brought 
here to wait, because the little gentleman wanted to play 
with the orphin child.' 
</p>
            <p>'Very glad, my good woman — sit down — sit down,' said 
Mr Transome, nodding and smiling between his clauses. 
'Nice little boy. Your grandchild?' 
</p>
            <p>'Indeed, sir, no,' said Mrs Holt, continuing to stand. 
Quite apart from any awe of Mr Transome — sitting down, 
she felt, would be a too great familiarity with her own 
pathetic importance on this extra and unlooked-for 
occasion. 'It's not me has any grandchild, nor ever shall have, 
though most fit. But with my only son saying he'll never be 
married, and in prison besides, and some saying he'll be 
transported, you may see yourself — though a gentleman — 
as there isn't much chance of my having grandchildren of 
my own. And this is old Master Tudge's grandchild, as my 
own Felix took to for pity because he was sickly and 
clemm'd, and I was noways against it, being of a tender 
heart. For I'm a widow myself, and my son Felix, though 
big, is fatherless, and I know my duty in consequence. And <pb n="544"/>
it's to be wished, sir, as others should know it as are more 
in power and live in great houses, and can ride in a 
carriage where they will. And if you're the gentleman as is the 
head of everything — and it's not to be thought you'd give 
up to your son as a poor widow's been forced to do — it 
behoves you to take the part of them as are deserving; for 
the Bible says, grey hairs should speak.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, yes — poor woman — what shall I say?' said old Mr 
Transome, feeling himself scolded, and as usual desirous 
of mollifying displeasure. 
</p>
            <p>'Sir, I can tell you what to say fast enough; for it's what 
I should say myself if I could get to speak to the king. For 
I've asked them that know, and they say it's the truth 
both out of the Bible and in, as the king can pardon 
anything and anybody. And judging by his countenance on 
the new signs, and the talk there was a while ago about his 
being the people's friend, as the minister once said it from 
the very pulpit — if there's any meaning in words, he'll do 
the right thing by me and my son, if he's asked proper.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes — a very good man — he'll do anything right,' said 
Mr Transome, whose own ideas about the king just then 
were somewhat misty, consisting chiefly in broken 
reminiscences of George the Third. 'I'll ask him anything you 
like,' he added, with a pressing desire to satisfy Mrs Holt, 
who alarmed him slightly. 
</p>
            <p>'Then, sir, if you'll go in your carriage and say, This 
young man, Felix Holt by name, as his father was known the 
country round, and his mother most respectable — he never 
meant harm to anybody, and so far from bloody murder and 
fighting, would part with his victual to them that needed it 
more — and if you'd get other gentlemen to say the same, 
and if they're not satisfied to inquire — I'll not believe but 
what the king 'ud let my son out of prison. Or if it's true he 
must stand his trial, the king 'ud take care no mischief 
happened to him. I've got my senses, and I'll never believe 
as in a country where there's a God above and a king below, <pb n="545"/>
the right thing can't be done if great people was willing to 
do it.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Holt, like all orators, had waxed louder and more 
energetic, ceasing to propel her arguments, and being 
propelled by them. Poor old Mr Transome, getting more and 
more frightened at this severe-spoken woman, who had the 
horrible possibility to his mind of being a novelty that was 
to become permanent, seemed to be fascinated by fear, and 
stood helplessly forgetful that if he liked he might turn 
round and walk away. 
</p>
            <p>Little Harry, alive to anything that had relation to 
'Gappa', had paused in his game, and, discerning what he 
thought a hostile aspect in this naughty black old woman, 
rushed towards her and proceeded first to beat her with his 
mimic jockey's whip, and then, suspecting that her 
bombazine was not sensitive, to set his teeth in her arm. While 
Dominic rebuked him and pulled him off, Nimrod began to 
bark anxiously, and the scene was become alarming even to 
the squirrels, which scrambled as far off as possible. 
</p>
            <p>Esther, who had been waiting for an opportunity of 
intervention, now came up to Mrs Holt to speak some soothing 
words; and old Mr Transome, seeing a sufficient screen 
between himself and his formidable suppliant, at last gathered 
courage to turn round and shuffle away with unusual 
swiftness into the library. 
</p>
            <p>'Dear Mrs Holt,' said Esther, 'do rest comforted. I assure 
you, you have done the utmost that can be done by your 
words. Your visit has not been thrown away. See how the 
children have enjoyed it I I saw little Job actually laughing. 
I think I never saw him do more than smile before.' Then, 
turning round to Dominic, she said, 'Will the buggy come 
round to this door?' 
</p>
            <p>This hint was sufficient. Dominic went to see if the vehicle 
was ready, and Denner, remarking that Mrs Holt would like 
to mount it in the inner court, invited her to go back into 
the housekeeper's room. But there was a fresh resistance 
raised in Harry by the threatened departure of Job, who <pb n="546"/>
had seemed an invaluable addition to the menagerie of 
tamed creatures; and it was barely in time that Esther had 
the relief of seeing the entrance-hall cleared so as to prevent 
any further encounter of Mrs Holt with Harold, who was 
now coming up the flight of steps at the entrance. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c44" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 44</head>
            <pb n="547"/>
            <q>
               <l> I'm sick at heart. The eye of day, </l>
               <l>The insistent summer noon, seems pitiless, </l>
               <l>Shining in all the barren crevices </l>
               <l>Of weary life, leaving no shade, no dark, </l>
               <l>Where I may dream that hidden waters lie. </l>
            </q>
            <p>SHORTLY after Mrs Holt's striking presentation of herself 
at Transome Court, Esther went on a second visit to her 
father. The Loamford Assizes were approaching; it was 
expected that in about ten days Felix Holt's trial would 
come on, and some hints in her father's letters had given 
Esther the impression that he was taking a melancholy 
view of the result. Harold Transome had once or twice 
mentioned the subject with a facile hopefulness as to 'the 
young fellow's coming off easily', which, in her anxious 
mind, was not a counterpoise to disquieting suggestions, 
and she had not chosen to introduce another conversation 
about Felix Holt, by questioning Harold concerning the 
probabilities he relied on. Since those moments on the 
terrace, Harold had daily become more of the solicitous and 
indirectly beseeching lover; and Esther, from the very fact 
that she was weighed on by thoughts that were painfully 
bewildering to her — by thoughts which, in their newness to 
her young mind, seemed to shake her belief that life could 
be anything else than a compromise with things repugnant 
to the moral taste — had become more passive to his 
attentions at the very time that she had begun to feel more 
profoundly that in accepting Harold Transome she left the 
high mountain air, the passionate serenity of perfect love 
for ever behind her, and must adjust her wishes to a life of 
middling delights, overhung with the languorous haziness 
of motiveless ease, where poetry was only literature, and the 
fine ideas had to be taken down from the shelves of the 
library when her husband's back was turned. But it seemed 
as if all outward conditions concurred, along with her generous <pb n="548"/>
sympathy for the Transomes, and with those native 
tendencies against which she had once begun to struggle, 
to make this middling lot the best she could attain to. She 
was in this half-sad half-satisfied resignation to something 
like what is called worldly wisdom, when she went to see her 
father, and learn what she could from him about Felix. 
</p>
            <p>The little minister was much depressed, unable to resign 
himself to the dread which had begun to haunt him, that 
Felix might have to endure the odious penalty of 
transportation for the manslaughter, which was the offence that 
no evidence in his favour could disprove. 
</p>
            <p>'I had been encouraged by the assurances of men 
instructed in this regard,' said Mr Lyon, while Esther sat on 
the stool near him, and listened anxiously, 'that though he 
were pronounced guilty in regard to this deed whereinto he 
hath calamitously fallen, yet that a judge mildly disposed, 
and with a due sense of that invisible activity of the soul 
whereby the deeds which are the same in the outward 
appearance and effect, yet differ as the knife-stroke of the 
surgeon, even though it kill, differs from the knife-stroke 
of a wanton mutilator, might use his discretion in 
tempering the punishment, so that it would not be very evil to 
bear. But now it is said that the judge who cometh is a 
severe man, and one nourishing a prejudice against the 
bolder spirits who stand not in the old paths.' 
</p>
            <p>'I am going to be present at the trial, father,' said Esther, 
who was preparing the way to express a wish, which she 
was timid about even with her father. 'I mentioned to Mrs 
Transome that I should like to do so, and she said that 
she used in old days always to attend the assizes, and that 
she would take me. You will be there, father?' 
</p>
            <p>'Assuredly I shall be there, having been summoned to 
bear witness to Felix's character, and to his having uttered 
remonstrances and warnings long beforehand whereby he 
proved himself an enemy to riot. In our ears, who knew 
him, it sounds strangely that aught else should be 
credible; but he hath few to speak for him, though I trust <pb n="549"/>
that Mr Harold Transome's testimony will go far, if, as you 
say, he is disposed to set aside all minor regards, and not 
to speak the truth grudgingly and reluctantly. For the 
very truth hath a colour from the disposition of the utterer.' 
'He is kind; he is capable of being generous,' said Esther. 
</p>
            <p>'It is well. For I verily believe that evil-minded men have 
been at work against Felix. The Duffield Watchman hath 
written continually in allusion to him as one of those 
mischievous men who seek to elevate themselves through 
the dishonour of their party; and as one of those who go 
not heart and soul with the needs of the people, but seek 
only to get a hearing for themselves by raising their voices 
in crotchety discord. It is those things that cause me 
heaviness of spirit: the dark secret of this young man's lot is a 
cross I carry daily.' 
</p>
            <p>'Father,' said Esther, timidly, while the eyes of both were 
filling with tears, 'I should like to see him again, before 
his trial. Might I? Will you ask him? Will you take 
me?' 
</p>
            <p>The minister raised his suffused eyes to hers, and did not 
speak for a moment or two. A new thought had visited him. 
But his delicate tenderness shrank even from an inward 
inquiry that was too curious — that seemed like an effort 
to peep at sacred secrets. 
</p>
            <p>'I see nought against it, my dear child, if you arrived 
early enough, and would take the elderly lady into your 
confidence, so that you might descend from the carriage at 
some suitable place — the house of the Independent 
minister, for example — where I could meet and accompany 
you. I would forewarn Felix, who would doubtless delight 
to see your face again; seeing that he may go away, and be, 
as it were, buried from you, even though it may be only in 
prison, and not — 
</p>
            <p>This was too much for Esther. She threw her arms round 
her father's neck and sobbed like a child. It was an 
unspeakable relief to her after all the pent-up stifling 
experience, all the inward incommunicable debate of the last <pb n="550"/>
few weeks. The old man was deeply moved too, and held 
his arm close round the dear child, praying silently. 
</p>
            <p>No word was spoken for some minutes, till Esther raised 
herself, dried her eyes, and with an action that seemed 
playful, though there was no smile on her face, pressed her 
handkerchief against her father's cheeks. Then, when she 
had put her hand in his, he said, solemnly — 
</p>
            <p>'Tis a great and mysterious gift, this clinging of the 
heart, my Esther, whereby, it hath often seemed to me that 
even in the very moment of suffering our souls have the 
keenest foretaste of heaven. I speak not lightly, but as one 
who hath endured. And 'tis a strange truth that only in 
the agony of parting we look into the depths of love.' 
</p>
            <p>So the interview ended, without any question from Mr 
Lyon concerning what Esther contemplated as the 
ultimate arrangement between herself and the Transomes. 
</p>
            <p>After this conversation, which showed him that what 
happened to Felix touched Esther more closely than he 
had supposed, the minister felt no impulse to raise the 
images of a future so unlike anything that Felix would 
share. And Esther would have been unable to answer any 
such questions. The successive weeks, instead of bringing 
her nearer to clearness and decision, had only brought that 
state of disenchantment belonging to the actual presence 
of things which have long dwelt in the imagination with all 
the factitious charms of arbitrary arrangement. Her 
imaginary mansion had not been inhabited just as Transome 
Court was; her imaginary fortune had not been attended 
with circumstances which she was unable to sweep away. 
She herself, in her Utopia, had never been what she was 
now — a woman whose heart was divided and oppressed. 
The first spontaneous offering of her woman's devotion, 
the first great inspiration of her life, was a sort of vanished 
ecstasy which had left its wounds. It seemed to her a cruel 
misfortune of her young life that her best feeling, her 
most precious dependence, had been called forth just 
where the conditions were hardest, and that all the easy <pb n="551"/>
invitations of circumstance were towards something which 
that previous consecration of her longing had made a 
moral descent for her. It was characteristic of her that 
she scarcely at all entertained the alternative of such a 
compromise, as would have given her the larger portion of the 
fortune to which she had a legal claim, and yet have 
satisfied her sympathy by leaving the Transomes in possession 
of their old home. Her domestication with his family had 
brought them into the foreground of her imagination; the 
gradual wooing of Harold had acted on her with a constant 
immediate influence that predominated over all indefinite 
prospects; and a solitary elevation to wealth, which out of 
Utopia she had no notion how she should manage, looked 
as chill and dreary as the offer of dignities in an unknown 
country. 
</p>
            <p>In the ages since Adam's marriage, it has been good for 
some men to be alone, and for some women also. But Esther 
was not one of these women: she was intensely of the 
feminine type, verging neither towards the saint nor the angel. 
She was 'a fair divided excellence, whose fulness of 
perfection' must be in marriage. And, like all youthful creatures, 
she felt as if the present conditions of choice were final. It 
belonged to the freshness of her heart that, having had her 
emotions strongly stirred by real objects, she never 
speculated on possible relations yet to come. It seemed to her that 
she stood at the first and last parting of the ways. And, in 
one sense, she was under no illusion. It is only in that 
freshness of our time that the choice is possible which gives 
unity to life, and makes the memory a temple where all 
relics and all votive offerings, all worship and all grateful 
joy, are an unbroken history sanctified by one religion. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c45" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 45</head>
            <pb n="552"/>
            <q>
               <l>We may not make this world a paradise </l>
               <l>By walking it together with clasped hands </l>
               <l>And eyes that meeting feed a double strength. </l>
               <l>We must be only joined by pains divine, </l>
               <l>Of spirits blent in mutual memories. </l>
            </q>
            <p>IT was a consequence of that interview with her father, that 
when Esther stepped early on a grey March morning into 
the carriage with Mrs Transome, to go to the Loamford 
Assizes, she was full of an expectation that held her lips in 
trembling silence, and gave her eyes that sightless beauty 
which tells that the vision is all within. 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome did not disturb her with unnecessary 
speech. Of late, Esther's anxious observation had been 
drawn to a change in Mrs Transome, shown in many small 
ways which only women notice. It was not only that when 
they sat together the talk seemed more of an effort to her: 
that might have come from the gradual draining away of 
matter for discourse pertaining to most sorts of 
companionship, in which repetition is not felt to be as desirable as 
novelty. But while Mrs Transome was dressed just as usual, 
took her seat as usual, trifled with her drugs and had her 
embroidery before her as usual, and still made her 
morning greetings with that finished easy politeness and 
consideration of tone which to rougher people seems like 
affection, Esther noticed a strange fitfulness in her movements. 
Sometimes the stitches of her embroidery went on with 
silent unbroken swiftness for a quarter of an hour as if she 
had to work out her deliverance from bondage by finishing 
a scroll-patterned border; then her hands dropt suddenly 
and her gaze fell blankly on the table before her, and she 
would sit in that way motionless as a seated statue, 
apparently unconscious of Esther's presence, till some thought 
darting within her seemed to have the effect of an external 
shock and rouse her with a start, when she looked round <pb n="553"/>
hastily like a person ashamed of having slept. Esther, 
touched with wondering pity at signs of unhappiness that 
were new in her experience, took the most delicate care to 
appear inobservant, and only tried to increase the gentle 
attention that might help to soothe or gratify this uneasy 
woman. But, one morning, Mrs Transome had said, 
breaking rather a long silence — 
</p>
            <p>'My dear, I shall make this house dull for you. You sit 
with me like an embodied patience. I am unendurable; I am 
getting into a melancholy dotage. A fidgety old woman like 
me is as unpleasant to see as a rook with its wing broken. 
Don't mind me, my dear. Run away from me without 
ceremony. Every one else does, you see. I am part of the old 
furniture with new drapery.' 
</p>
            <p>'Dear Mrs Transome,' said Esther, gliding to the low 
ottoman close by the basket of embroidery, 'do you dislike 
my sitting with you?' 
</p>
            <p>'Only for your sake, my fairy,' said Mrs Transome, 
smiling faintly, and putting her hand under Esther's chin. 
'Doesn't it make you shudder to look at me?' 
</p>
            <p>'Why will you say such naughty things?' said Esther, 
affectionately. 'If you had had a daughter, she would have 
desired to be with you most when you most wanted 
cheering. And surely every young woman has something of a 
daughter's feeling towards an older one who has been kind 
to her.' 
</p>
            <p>'I should like you to be really my daughter,' said Mrs 
Transome, rousing herself to look a little brighter. 'That is 
something still for an old woman to hope for.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther blushed: she had not foreseen this application of 
words that came from pitying tenderness. To divert the 
train of thought as quickly as possible, she at once asked 
what she had previously had in her mind to ask. Before her 
blush had disappeared she said — 
</p>
            <p>'O, you are so good; I shall ask you to indulge me very 
much. It is to let us set out very early to Loamford on 
Wednesday, and put me down at a particular house, that I <pb n="554"/>
may keep an engagement with my father. It is a private 
matter, that I wish no one to know about, if possible. And 
he will bring me back to you wherever you appoint.' 
</p>
            <p>In that way Esther won her end without needing to 
betray it; and as Harold was already away at Loamford, she 
was the more secure. 
</p>
            <p>The Independent minister's house at which she was set 
down, and where she was received by her father, was in a 
quiet street not far from the jail. Esther had thrown a dark 
cloak over the handsomer coverings which Denner had 
assured her was absolutely required of ladies who sat 
anywhere near the judge at a great trial; and as the bonnet of 
that day did not throw the face into high relief, but rather 
into perspective, a veil drawn down gave her a sufficiently 
inconspicuous appearance. 
</p>
            <p>'I have arranged all things, my dear,' said Mr Lyon, 'and 
Felix expects us. We will lose no time.' 
</p>
            <p>They walked away at once, Esther not asking a question. 
She had no consciousness of the road along which they 
passed; she could never remember anything but a dim sense 
of entering within high walls and going along passages, till 
they were ushered into a larger space than she expected, 
and her father said — 
</p>
            <p>'It is here that we are permitted to see Felix, my Esther. 
He will presently appear.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther automatically took off her gloves and bonnet, as 
if she had entered the house after a walk. She had lost the 
complete consciousness of everything except that she was 
going to see Felix. She trembled. It seemed to her as if he 
too would look altered after her new life — as if even the 
past would change for her and be no longer a steadfast 
remembrance, but something she had been mistaken about, 
as she had been about the new life. Perhaps she was 
growing out of that childhood to which common things have 
rareness, and all objects look larger. Perhaps from 
henceforth the whole world was to be meaner for her. The dread 
concentrated in those moments seemed worse than anything <pb n="555"/>
she had known before. It was what the dread of a 
pilgrim might be who has it whispered to him that the holy 
places are a delusion, or that he will see them with a soul 
unstirred and unbelieving. Every minute that passes may 
be charged with some such crisis in the little inner world 
of man or woman. 
</p>
            <p>But soon the door opened slightly; some one looked in; 
then it opened wide, and Felix Holt entered. 
</p>
            <p>'Miss Lyon — Esther!' and her hand was in his grasp. 
</p>
            <p>He was just the same — no, something inexpressibly 
better, because of the distance and separation, and the 
half-weary novelties, which made him like the return of 
morning. 
</p>
            <p>'Take no heed of me, children,' said Mr Lyon. 'I have 
some notes to make, and my time is precious. We may 
remain here only a quarter of an hour.' And the old man sat 
down at a window with his back to them, writing with his 
head bent close to the paper. 
</p>
            <p>'You are very pale; you look ill, compared with your old 
self,' said Esther. She had taken her hand away, but they 
stood still near each other, she looking up at him. 
</p>
            <p>'The fact is, I'm not fond of prison,' said Felix, smiling; 
'but I suppose the best I can hope for is to have a good 
deal more of it.' 
</p>
            <p>'It is thought that in the worst case a pardon may be 
obtained,' said Esther, avoiding Harold Transome's name. 
</p>
            <p>'I don't rely on that,' said Felix, shaking his head. 'My 
wisest course is to make up my mind to the very ugliest 
penalty they can condemn me to. If I can face that, 
anything less will seem easy. But you know,' he went on, 
smiling at her brightly, 'I never went in for fine company and 
cushions. I can't be very heavily disappointed in that way.' 
</p>
            <p>'Do you see things just as you used to do?' said Esther, 
turning pale as she said it — 'I mean — about poverty, and 
the people you will live among. Has all the 
misunderstanding and sadness left you just as obstinate?' She tried to 
smile, but could not succeed. <pb n="556"/>
            </p>
            <p>'What — about the sort of life I should lead if I were free 
again?' said Felix. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes. I can't help being discouraged for you by all these 
things that have happened. See how you may fail!' Esther 
spoke timidly. She saw a peculiar smile, which she knew 
well, gathering in his eyes. 'Ah, I daresay I am silly,' she 
said, deprecatingly. 
</p>
            <p>'No, you are dreadfully inspired,' said Felix. 'When the 
wicked tempter is tired of snarling that word failure in a 
man's cell, he sends a voice like a thrush to say it for him. 
See now what a messenger of darkness you are!' He smiled, 
and took her two hands between his, pressed together as 
children hold them up in prayer. Both of them felt too 
solemnly to be bashful. They looked straight into each 
other's eyes, as angels do when they tell some truth. And 
they stood in that way while he went on speaking. 
</p>
            <p>'But I'm proof against that word failure. I've seen behind 
it. The only failure a man ought to fear is failure in cleaving 
to the purpose he sees to be best. As to just the amount of 
result he may see from his particular work — that's a 
tremendous uncertainty: the universe has not been arranged 
for the gratification of his feelings. As long as a man sees 
and believes in some great good, he'll prefer working 
towards that in the way he's best fit for, come what may. I 
put effects at their minimum, but I'd rather have the 
minimum of effect, if it's of the sort I care for, than the 
maximum of effect I don't care for — a lot of fine things that are 
not to my taste — and if they were, the conditions of 
holding them while the world is what it is, are such as would 
jar on me like grating metal.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes,' said Esther, in a low tone, 'I think I understand 
that now, better than I used to do.' The words of Felix at 
last seemed strangely to fit her own experience. But she said 
no more, though he seemed to wait for it a moment or two, 
looking at her. But then he went on — 
</p>
            <p>'I don't mean to be illustrious, you know, and make a new 
era, else it would be kind of you to get a raven and teach <pb n="557"/>
it to croak “failure” in my ears. Where great things can't 
happen, I care for very small things, such as will never 
be known beyond a few garrets and workshops. And then, 
as to one thing I believe in, I don't think I can altogether 
fail. If there's anything our people want convincing of, it 
is, that there's some dignity and happiness for a man other 
than changing his station. That's one of the beliefs I choose 
to consecrate my life to. If anybody could demonstrate to 
me that I was a flat for it, I shouldn't think it would follow 
that I must borrow money to set up genteelly and order 
new clothes. That's not a rigorous consequence to my 
understanding.' 
</p>
            <p>They smiled at each other, with the old sense of 
amusement they had so often had together. 
</p>
            <p>'You are just the same,' said Esther. 
</p>
            <p>'And you?' said Felix. 'My affairs have been settled long 
ago. But yours — a great change has come in them — magic 
at work.' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes,' said Esther, rather falteringly. 
</p>
            <p>'Well,' said Felix, looking at her gravely again, 'it's a case 
of fitness that seems to give a chance sanction to that musty 
law. The first time I saw you, your birth was an immense 
puzzle to me. However, the appropriate conditions are 
come at last.' 
</p>
            <p>These words seemed cruel to Esther. But Felix could not 
know all the reasons for their seeming so. She could not 
speak; she was turning cold and feeling her heart beat 
painfully. 
</p>
            <p>'All your tastes are gratified now,' he went on innocently. 
'But you'll remember the old pedagogue and his lectures?' 
</p>
            <p>One thought in the mind of Felix was, that Esther was 
sure to marry Harold Transome. Men readily believe these 
things of the women who love them. But he could not allude 
to the marriage more directly. He was afraid of this destiny 
for her, without having any very distinct knowledge by 
which to justify his fear to the mind of another. It did not 
satisfy him that Esther should marry Harold Transome. <pb n="558"/>
            </p>
            <p>'My children,' said Mr Lyon at this moment, not looking 
round, but only looking close at his watch, 'we have just two 
minutes more.' Then he went on writing. 
</p>
            <p>Esther did not speak, but Felix could not help observing 
now that her hands had turned to a deathly coldness, and 
that she was trembling. He believed, he knew, that 
whatever prospects she had, this feeling was for his sake. An 
overpowering impulse from mingled love, gratitude, and 
anxiety, urged him to say — 
</p>
            <p>'I had a horrible struggle, Esther. But you see I was right. 
There was a fitting lot in reserve for you. But remember you 
have cost a great price — don't throw what is precious away. 
I shall want the news that you have a happiness worthy of 
you.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther felt too miserable for tears to come. She looked 
helplessly at Felix for a moment, then took her hands from 
his, and, turning away mutely, walked dreamily towards 
her father, and said, 'Father, I am ready — there is no more 
to say.' 
</p>
            <p>She turned back again, towards the chair where her 
bonnet lay, with a face quite corpse-like above her dark 
garment. 
</p>
            <p>'Esther!' 
</p>
            <p>She heard Felix say the word, with an entreating cry, and 
went towards him with the swift movement of a frightened 
child towards its protector. He clasped her, and they kissed 
each other. 
</p>
            <p>She never could recall anything else that happened, till 
she was in the carriage again with Mrs Transome. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c46" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 46</head>
            <pb n="559"/>
            <q>
               <l>Why, there are maidens of heroic touch, </l>
               <l>And yet they seem like things of gossamer </l>
               <l>You'd pinch the life out of, as out of moths. </l>
               <l>O, it is not loud tones and mouthingness </l>
               <l>'Tis not the arms akimbo and large strides, </l>
               <l>That makes a woman's force. The tiniest birds, </l>
               <l>With softest downy breasts, have passions in them </l>
               <l>And are brave with love. </l>
            </q>
            <p>ESTHER was so placed in the court, under Mrs Transome's 
wing as to see and hear everything without effort. Harold 
had received them at the hotel, and had observed that 
Esther looked ill, and was unusually abstracted in her 
manner, but this seemed to be sufiiciently accounted for by 
her sympathetic anxiety about the result of a trial in which 
the prisoner at the bar was a friend, and in which both her 
father and himself were important witnesses. Mrs 
Transome had no reluctance to keep a small secret from her son, 
and no betrayal was made of that previous 'engagement' of 
Esther's with her father. Harold was particularly delicate 
and unobtrusive in his attentions to-day: he had the 
consciousness that he was going to behave in a way that would 
gratify Esther and win her admiration, and we are all of 
us made more graceful by the inward presence of what we 
believe to be a generous purpose; our actions move to a 
hidden music — 'a melody that's sweetly pitched in tune'. 
</p>
            <p>If Esther had been less absorbed by supreme feelings, she 
would have been aware that she was an object of special 
notice. In the bare squareness of a public hall, where there 
was not one jutting angle to hang a guess or a thought 
upon, not an image or a bit of colour to stir the fancy, and 
where the only objects of speculation, of admiration, or of 
any interest whatever, were human beings, and especially 
the human beings that occupied positions indicating some 
importance, the notice bestowed on Esther would not have <pb n="560"/>
been surprising, even if it had been merely a tribute to her 
youthful charm, which was well companioned by Mrs 
Transome's elderly majesty. But it was due also to 
whisperings that she was an hereditary claimant of the Transome 
estates, whom Harold Transome was about to marry. Harold 
himself had of late not cared to conceal either the fact or 
the probability: they both tended rather to his honour than 
his dishonour. And to-day, when there was a good 
proportion of Trebians present, the whisperings spread rapidly. 
</p>
            <p>The court was still more crowded than on the previous 
day, when our poor acquaintance Dredge and his two 
collier companions were sentenced to a year's imprisonment 
with hard labour, and the more enlightened prisoner, who 
stole the Debarrys' plate, to transportation for life. Poor 
Dredge had cried, had wished he'd 'never heared of a 
'lection,' and in spite of sermons from the jail chaplain, fell 
back on the explanation that this was a world in which 
Spratt and Old Nick were sure to get the best of it; so that 
in Dredge's case, at least, most observers must have had 
the melancholy conviction that there had been no 
enhancement of public spirit and faith in progress from that wave 
of political agitation which had reached the Sproxton Pits. 
</p>
            <p>But curiosity was necessarily at a higher pitch to-day, 
when the character of the prisoner and the circumstances 
of his offence were of a highly unusual kind. As soon as 
Felix appeared at the bar, a murmur rose and spread into a 
loud buzz, which continued until there had been repeated 
authoritative calls for silence in the court. Rather 
singularly, it was now for the first time that Esther had a feeling of 
pride in him on the ground simply of his appearance. At 
this moment, when he was the centre of a multitudinous 
gaze, which seemed to act on her own vision like a broad 
unmitigated daylight, she felt that there was something 
pre-eminent in him, notwithstanding the vicinity of 
numerous gentlemen. No apple-woman would have 
admired him; not only to feminine minds like Mrs Tiliot's, 
but to many minds in coat and waistcoat, there was something <pb n="561"/>
dangerous and perhaps unprincipled in his bare 
throat and great Gothic head; and his somewhat massive 
person would doubtless have come out very oddly from the 
hands of a fashionable tailor of that time. But as Esther saw 
his large grey eyes looking round calmly and undefiantly, 
first at the audience generally, and then with a more 
observant expression at the lawyers and other persons 
immediately around him, she felt that he bore the outward stamp 
of a distinguished nature. Forgive her if she needed this 
satisfaction: all of us — whether men or women — are liable 
to this weakness of liking to have our preference justified 
before others as well as ourselves. Esther said inwardly, 
with a certain triumph, that Felix Holt looked as worthy 
to be chosen in the midst of this large assembly, as he had 
ever looked in their tete-a-tete under the sombre light of 
the little parlour in Malthouse Yard. 
</p>
            <p>Esther had felt some relief in hearing from her father 
that Felix had insisted on doing without his mother's 
presence; and since to Mrs Holt's imagination, 
notwithstanding her general desire to have her character inquired into, 
there was no greatly consolatory difference between being a 
witness and a criminal, and an appearance of any kind 
'before the judge' could hardly be made to suggest anything 
definite that would overcome the dim sense of unalleviated 
disgrace, she had been less inclined than usual to complain 
of her son's decision. Esther had shuddered beforehand at 
the inevitable farce there would be in Mrs Holt's testimony. 
But surely Felix would lose something for want of a witness 
who could testify to his behaviour in the morning before 
he became involved in the tumult? 
</p>
            <p>'He is really a fine young fellow,' said Harold, coming to 
speak to Esther after a colloquy with the prisoner's solicitor. 
'I hope he will not make a blunder in defending himself.' 
</p>
            <p>'He is not likely to make a blunder,' said Esther. She had 
recovered her colour a little, and was brighter than she had 
been all the morning before. 
</p>
            <p>Felix had seemed to include her in his general glance, but <pb n="562"/>
had avoided looking at her particularly. She understood 
how delicate feeling for her would prevent this, and that she 
might safely look at him, and towards her father, whom 
she could see in the same direction. Turning to Harold to 
make an observation, she saw that he was looking towards 
the same point, but with an expression on his face that 
surprised her. 
</p>
            <p>'Dear me,' she said, prompted to speak without any 
reflection; 'how angry you look! I never saw you look so 
angry before. It is not my father you are looking at?' 
</p>
            <p>'Oh no ! I am angry at something I'm looking away from,' 
said Harold, making an effort to drive back the 
troublesome demon who would stare out at window. 'It's that 
Jermyn,' he added, glancing at his mother as well as Esther. 
'He will thrust himself under my eyes everywhere since I 
refused him an interview and returned his letter. I'm 
determined never to speak to him directly again, if I can help 
it.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome heard with a changeless face. She had for 
some time been watching, and had taken on her marble 
look of immobility. She said an inward bitter 'Of course!' 
to everything that was unpleasant. 
</p>
            <p>After this Esther soon became impatient of all speech: 
her attention was riveted on the proceedings of the court, 
and on the mode in which Felix bore himself. In the case 
for the prosecution there was nothing more than a 
reproduction, with irrelevancies added by witnesses, of the facts 
already known to us. Spratt had retained consciousness 
enough, in the midst of his terror, to swear that, when he 
was tied to the finger-post, Felix was presiding over the 
actions of the mob. The landlady of the Seven Stars, who 
was indebted to Felix for rescue from pursuit by some 
drunken rioters, gave evidence that went to prove his 
assumption of leadership prior to the assault on Spratt, — 
remembering only that he had called away her pursuers to 
'better sport'. Various respectable witnesses swore to Felix's 
'encouragement' of the rioters who were dragging Spratt in <pb n="563"/>
King Street; to his fatal assault on Tucker; and to his 
attitude in front of the drawing-room window at the Manor. 
</p>
            <p>Three other witnesses gave evidence of expressions used 
by the prisoner, tending to show the character of the acts 
with which he was charged. Two were Treby tradesmen, 
the third was a clerk from Duffield. The clerk had heard 
Felix speak at Duffield; the Treby men had frequently 
heard him declare himself on public matters; and they all 
quoted expressions which tended to show that he had a 
virulent feeling against the respectable shop-keeping class, 
and that nothing was likely to be more congenial to him 
than the gutting of retailers' shops. No one else knew — the 
witnesses themselves did not know fully — how far their 
strong perception and memory on these points was due to a 
fourth mind, namely, that of Mr John Johnson, the 
attorney, who was nearly related to one of the Treby witnesses, 
and a familiar acquaintance of the Duffield clerk. Man 
cannot be defined as an evidence-giving animal; and in the 
difficulty of getting up evidence on any subject, there is 
room for much unrecognised action of diligent persons who 
have the extra stimulus of some private motive. Mr 
Johnson was present in court to-day, but in a modest, retired 
situation. He had come down to give information to Mr 
Jermyn, and to gather information in other quarters, which 
was well illuminated by the appearance of Esther in 
company with the Transomes. 
</p>
            <p>When the case for the prosecution closed, all strangers 
thought that it looked black for the prisoner. In two 
instances only Felix had chosen to put a cross-examining 
question. The first was to ask Spratt if he did not believe 
that his having been tied to the post had saved him from 
a probably mortal injury? The second was to ask the 
tradesman who swore to his having heard Felix tell the rioters to 
leave Tucker alone and come along with him, whether he 
had not, shortly before, heard cries among the mob 
summoning to an attack on the wine-vaults and brewery. 
</p>
            <p>Esther had hitherto listened closely but calmly. She knew <pb n="564"/>
that there would be this strong adverse testimony; and all 
her hopes and fears were bent on what was to come beyond 
it. It was when the prisoner was asked what he had to 
adduce in reply that she felt herself in the grasp of that 
tremor which does not disable the mind, but rather gives 
keener consciousness of a mind having a penalty of body 
attached to it. 
</p>
            <p>There was a silence as of night when Felix Holt began 
to speak. His voice was firm and clear: he spoke with 
simple gravity, and evidently without any enjoyment of the 
occasion. Esther had never seen his face look so weary. 
</p>
            <p>'My Lord, I am not going to occupy the time of the court 
with unnecessary words. I believe the witnesses for the 
prosecution have spoken the truth as far as a superficial 
observation would enable them to do it; and I see nothing 
that can weigh with the jury in my favour, unless they 
believe my statement of my own motives, and the 
testimony that certain witnesses will give to my character and 
purposes as being inconsistent with my willingly abetting 
disorder. I will tell the court in as few words as I can, how I 
got entangled in the mob, how I came to attack the 
constable, and how I was led to take a course which seems 
rather mad to myself, now I look back upon it.' 
</p>
            <p>Felix then gave a concise narrative of his motives and 
conduct on the day of the riot, from the moment when he 
was startled into quitting his work by the earlier uproar of 
the morning. He omitted, of course, his visit to Malthouse 
Yard, and merely said that he went out to walk again after 
returning to quiet his mother's mind. He got warmed by the 
story of his experience, which moved him more strongly 
than ever, now he recalled it in vibrating words before a 
large audience of his fellow-men. The sublime delight of 
truthful speech to one who has the great gift of uttering it, 
will make itself felt even through the pangs of sorrow. 
</p>
            <p>'That is all I have to say for myself, my Lord. I pleaded 
“Not guilty” to the charge of manslaughter, because I know 
that word may carry a meaning which would not fairly <pb n="565"/>
apply to my act. When I threw Tucker down, I did not see 
the possibility that he would die from a sort of attack 
which ordinarily occurs in fighting without any fatal effect. 
As to my assaulting a constable, it was a quick choice 
between two evils: I should else have been disabled. And he 
attacked me under a mistake about my intentions. I'm not 
prepared to say I never would assault a constable where I 
had more chance of deliberation. I certainly should assault 
him if I saw him doing anything that made my blood boil: 
I reverence the law, but not where it is a pretext for wrong, 
which it should be the very object of law to hinder. I 
consider that I should be making an unworthy defence, if I let 
the court infer from what I say myself, or from what is said 
by my witnesses, that because I am a man who hates 
drunken disorder, or any wanton harm, therefore I am a man 
who would never fight against authority. I hold it blasphemy 
to say that a man ought not to fight against authority: 
there is no great religion and no great freedom that has not 
done it, in the beginning. It would be impertinent for me to 
speak of this now, if I did not need to say in my own 
defence, that I should hold myself the worst sort of traitor if 
I put my hand either to fighting or disorder — which must 
mean injury to somebody — if I were not urged to it by what 
I hold to be sacred feelings, making a sacred duty either 
to my own manhood or to my fellow-man. And certainly,' 
Felix ended with a strong ring of scorn in his voice, I 
never held it a sacred duty to try and get a Radical 
candidate returned for North Loamshire, by willingly heading 
a drunken howling mob, whose public action must consist 
in breaking windows, destroying hard-got produce, and 
endangering the lives of men and women. I have no more to 
say, my Lord.' 
</p>
            <p>'I foresaw he would make a blunder,' said Harold, in a 
low voice to Esther. Then, seeing her shrink a little, he 
feared she might suspect him of being merely stung by the 
allusion to himself. 'I don't mean what he said about the 
Radical candidate,' he added hastily, in correction. 'I don't <pb n="566"/>
mean the last sentence. I mean that whole peroration of 
his, which he ought to have left unsaid. It has done him 
harm with the jury — they won't understand it, or rather 
will misunderstand it. And I'll answer for it, it has soured 
the judge. It remains to be seen what we witnesses can say 
for him, to nullify the effect of what he has said for 
himself. I hope the attorney has done his best in collecting the 
evidence: I understand the expense of the witnesses is 
undertaken by some Liberals at Glasgow and in Lancashire 
friends of Holt's. But I suppose your father has told you.' 
</p>
            <p>The first witness called for the defence was Mr Lyon. 
The gist of his statements was, that from the beginning of 
September last until the day of election he was in very 
frequent intercourse with the prisoner; that he had become 
intimately acquainted with his character and views of life, 
and his conduct with respect to the election, and that these 
were totally inconsistent with any other supposition than 
that his being involved in the riot, and his fatal encounter 
with the constable, were due to the calamitous failure of a 
bold but good purpose. He stated further that he had been 
present when an interview had occurred in his own house 
between the prisoner and Mr Harold Transome, who was 
then canvassing for the representation of North Loamshire. 
That the object of the prisoner in seeking this interview 
had been to inform Mr Transome of treating given in his 
name to the workmen in the pits and on the canal at 
Sproxton, and to remonstrate against its continuance; the 
prisoner fearing that disturbance and mischief might result 
from what he believed to be the end towards which this 
treating was directed — namely, the presence of these men 
on the occasions of the nomination and polling. Several 
times after this interview, Mr Lyon said, he had heard Felix 
Holt recur to the subject therein discussed with expressions 
of grief and anxiety. He himself was in the habit of visiting 
Sproxton in his ministerial capacity: he knew fully what 
the prisoner had done there in order to found a 
night-school, and was certain that the prisoner's interest in the <pb n="567"/>
working men of that district turned entirely on the 
possibility of converting them somewhat to habits of soberness 
and to a due care for the instruction of their children. 
Finally, he stated that the prisoner, in compliance with his 
request, had been present at Duffield on the day of the 
nomination, and had on his return expressed himself with 
strong indignation concerning the employment of the 
Sproxton men on that occasion, and what he called the 
wickedness of hiring blind violence. 
</p>
            <p>The quaint appearance and manner of the little 
Dissenting minister could not fail to stimulate the peculiar wit of 
the bar. He was subjected to a troublesome 
cross-examination, which he bore with wide-eyed shortsighted quietude 
and absorption in the duty of truthful response. On being 
asked, rather sneeringly, if the prisoner was not one of his 
flock? he answered, in that deeper tone which made one 
of the most effective transitions of his varying voice — 
</p>
            <p>'Nay — would to God he were! I should then feel that the 
great virtues and the pure life I have beheld in him were a 
witness to the efficacy of the faith I believe in and the 
discipline of the church whereunto I belong.' 
</p>
            <p>Perhaps it required a larger power of comparison than 
was possessed by any of that audience to appreciate the 
moral elevation of an Independent minister who could utter 
those words. Nevertheless there was a murmur, which was 
clearly one of sympathy. 
</p>
            <p>The next witness, and the one on whom the interest of 
the spectators was chiefly concentrated, was Harold 
Transome. There was a decided predominance of Tory feeling 
in the court, and the human disposition to enjoy the 
infliction of a little punishment on an opposite party, was, in 
this instance, of a Tory complexion. Harold was keenly alive 
to this, and to everything else that might prove disagreeable 
to him in his having to appear in the witness-box. But he 
was not likely to lose his self-possession, or to fail in 
adjusting himself gracefully, under conditions which most men 
would find it difficult to carry without awkwardness. He had <pb n="568"/>
generosity and candour enough to bear Felix Holt's proud 
rejection of his advances without any petty resentment; he 
had all the susceptibilities of a gentleman; and these moral 
qualities gave the right direction to his acumen, in judging 
of the behaviour that would best secure his dignity. 
Everything requiring self-command was easier to him because 
of Esther's presence; for her admiration was just then the 
object which this well-tanned man of the world had it most 
at heart to secure. 
</p>
            <p>When he entered the witness-box he was much admired 
by the ladies amongst the audience, many of whom sighed 
a little at the thought of his wrong course in politics. He 
certainly looked like a handsome portrait by Sir Thomas 
Lawrence, in which that remarkable artist had happily 
omitted the usual excess of honeyed blandness mixed with 
alert intelligence, which is hardly compatible with the state 
of man out of paradise. He stood not far off Felix; and the 
two Radicals certainly made a striking contrast. Felix might 
have come from the hands of a sculptor in the later Roman 
period, when the plastic impulse was stirred by the 
grandeur of barbaric forms — when rolled collars were not yet 
conceived, and satin stocks were not. 
</p>
            <p>Harold Transome declared that he had had only one 
interview with the prisoner: it was the interview referred to by 
the previous witness, in whose presence and in whose house 
it was begun. The interview, however, was continued 
beyond the observation of Mr Lyon. The prisoner and himself 
quitted the Dissenting minister's house in Malthouse Yard 
together, and proceeded to the office of Mr Jermyn, who 
was then conducting electioneering business on his behalf. 
His object was to comply with Holt's remonstrance by 
inquiring into the alleged proceedings at Sproxton, and, if 
possible to put a stop to them. Holt's language, both in 
Malthouse Yard and in the attorney's office, was strong: 
he was evidently indignant, and his indignation turned on 
the danger of employing ignorant men excited by drink on 
an occasion of popular concourse. He believed that Holt's <pb n="569"/>
sole motive was the prevention of disorder, and what he 
considered the demoralisation of the workmen by treating. 
The event had certainly justified his remonstrances. He had 
not had any subsequent opportunities of observing the 
prisoner; but if any reliance was to be placed on a rational 
conclusion, it must, he thought, be plain that the anxiety 
thus manifested by Holt was a guarantee of the statement 
he had made as to his motives on the day of the riot. His 
entire impression from Holt's manner in that single 
interview was, that he was a moral and political enthusiast, who, 
if he sought to coerce others, would seek to coerce them 
into a difficult, and perhaps impracticable, scrupulosity. 
</p>
            <p>Harold spoke with as noticeable a directness and 
emphasis, as if what he said could have no reaction on himself. 
He had of course not entered unnecessarily into what 
occurred in Jermyn's office. But now he was subjected to a 
cross-examination on this subject, which gave rise to some 
subdued shrugs, smiles, and winks, among county 
gentlemen. 
</p>
            <p>The questions were directed so as to bring out, if possible, 
some indication that Felix Holt was moved to his 
remonstrance by personal resentment against the political agents 
concerned in setting on foot the treating at Sproxton, but 
such questioning is a sort of target-shooting that 
sometimes hits about widely. The cross-examining counsel had 
close connections among the Tories of Loamshire, and 
enjoyed his business to-day. Under the fire of various 
questions about Jermyn and the agent employed by him at 
Sproxton, Harold got warm, and in one of his replies said, 
with his rapid sharpness — 
</p>
            <p>'Mr Jermyn was my agent then, not now: I have no 
longer any but hostile relations with him.' 
</p>
            <p>The sense that he had shown a slight heat would have 
vexed Harold more if he had not got some satisfaction out 
of the thought that Jermyn heard those words. He recovered 
his good temper quickly, and when, subsequently, the 
question came — <pb n="570"/>
            </p>
            <p>'You acquiesced in the treating of the Sproxton men, as 
necessary to the efficient working of the reformed 
constituency?' Harold replied, with quiet fluency — 
</p>
            <p>'Yes; on my return to England, before I put up for North 
Loamshire, I got the best advice from practised agents, both 
Whig and Tory. They all agreed as to electioneering 
measures.' 
</p>
            <p>The next witness was Michael Brincey, otherwise Mike 
Brindle, who gave evidence of the sayings and doings of 
the prisoner amongst the Sproxton men. Mike declared that 
Felix went 'uncommon again' drink, and pitch-and-toss, 
and quarrelling, and sich,' and was 'all for schooling and 
bringing up the little chaps'; but on being cross-examined, 
he admitted that he 'couldn't give much account'; that 
Felix did talk again' idle folks, whether poor or rich, and 
that most like he meant the rich, who had 'a rights to be 
idle', which was what he, Mike, liked himself sometimes, 
though for the most part he was 'a hard-working butty'. 
On being checked for this superfluous allegation of his own 
theory and practice, Mike became timidly conscious that 
answering was a great mystery beyond the reaches of a 
butty's soul, and began to err from defect instead of excess. 
However, he reasserted that what Felix most wanted was, 
'to get 'em to set up a school for the little chaps'. 
</p>
            <p>With the two succeeding witnesses, who swore to the fact 
that Felix had tried to lead the mob along Hobb's Lane 
instead of towards the Manor, and to the violently 
threatening character of Tucker's attack on him, the case for the 
defence was understood to close. 
</p>
            <p>Meanwhile Esther had been looking on and listening 
with growing misery, in the sense that all had not been said 
which might have been said on behalf of Felix. If it was the 
jury who were to be acted on, she argued to herself, there 
might have been an impression made on their feeling 
which would determine their verdict. Was it not constantly 
said and seen that juries pronounced Guilty or Not Guilty 
from sympathy for or against the accused? She was too <pb n="571"/>
inexperienced to check her own argument by thoroughly 
representing to herself the course of things: how the 
counsel for the prosecution would reply, and how the judge 
would sum up, with the object of cooling down sympathy 
into deliberation. What she had painfully pressing on her 
inward vision was, that the trial was coming to an end, 
and that the voice of right and truth had not been strong 
enough. 
</p>
            <p>When a woman feels purely and nobly, that ardour of 
hers which breaks through formulas too rigorously urged 
on men by daily practical needs, makes one of her most 
precious influences: she is the added impulse that shatters 
the stiffening crust of cautious experience. Her inspired 
ignorance gives a sublimity to actions so incongruously 
simple, that otherwise they would make men smile. Some of 
that ardour which has flashed out and illuminated all 
poetry and history was burning to-day in the bosom of 
sweet Esther Lyon. In this, at least, her woman's lot was 
perfect: that the man she loved was her hero; that her 
woman's passion and her reverence for rarest goodness 
rushed together in an undivided current. And to-day they 
were making one danger, one terror, one irresistible 
impulse for her heart. Her feelings were growing into a 
necessity for action, rather than a resolve to act. She could not 
support the thought that the trial would come to an end, 
that sentence would be passed on Felix, and that all the 
while something had been omitted which might have been 
said for him. There had been no witness to tell what had 
been his behaviour and state of mind just before the riot. 
She must do it. It was possible. There was time. But not 
too much time. All other agitation became merged in 
eagerness not to let the moment escape. The last witness 
was being called. Harold Transome had not been able to get 
back to her on leaving the witness-box, but Mr Lingon was 
close by her. With firm quickness she said to him — 
</p>
            <p>'Pray tell the attorney that I have evidence to give for 
the prisoner — lose no time.' <pb n="572"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Do you know what you are going to say, my dear?' said 
Mr Lingon, looking at her in astonishment. 
</p>
            <p>'Yes — I entreat you, for God's sake,' said Esther, in that 
low tone of urgent beseeching which is equivalent to a cry; 
and with a look of appeal more penetrating still, 'I would 
rather die than not do it.' 
</p>
            <p>The old rector, always leaning to the good-natured view 
of things, felt chiefly that there seemed to be an additional 
chance for the poor fellow who had got himself into 
trouble. He disputed no farther, but went to the attorney. 
</p>
            <p>Before Harold was aware of Esther's intention she was on 
her way to the witness-box. When she appeared there, it 
was as if a vibration, quick as light, had gone through the 
court and had shaken Felix himself, who had hitherto 
seemed impassive. A sort of gleam seemed to shoot across 
his face, and any one close to him could have seen that his 
hand, which lay on the edge of the dock, trembled. 
</p>
            <p>At the first moment Harold was startled and alarmed; the 
next, he felt delight in Esther's beautiful aspect, and in 
the admiration of the court. There was no blush on her 
face: she stood, divested of all personal considerations 
whether of vanity or shyness. Her clear voice sounded as 
it might have done if she had been making a confession 
of faith. She began and went on without query or 
interruption. Every face looked grave and respectful. 
</p>
            <p>'I am Esther Lyon, the daughter of Mr Lyon, the 
Independent minister at Treby, who has been one of the 
witnesses for the prisoner. I know Felix Holt well. On the 
day of the election at Treby, when I had been much 
alarmed by the noises that reached me from the main 
street, Felix Holt came to call upon me. He knew that my 
father was away, and he thought that I should be alarmed 
by the sounds of disturbance. It was about the middle of 
the day, and he came to tell me that the disturbance was 
quieted, and that the streets were nearly emptied. But he 
said he feared that the men would collect again after 
drinking, and that something worse might happen later in <pb n="573"/>
the day. And he was in much sadness at this thought. He 
stayed a little while, and then he left me. He was very 
melancholy. His mind was full of great resolutions that 
came from his kind feeling towards others. It was the last 
thing he would have done to join in riot or to hurt any 
man, if he could have helped it. His nature is very noble; 
he is tender-hearted; he could never have had any 
intention that was not brave and good.' 
</p>
            <p>There was something so naive and beautiful in this action 
of Esther's, that it conquered every low or petty suggestion 
even in the commonest minds. The three men in that 
assembly who knew her best — even her father and Felix 
Holt — felt a thrill of surprise mingling with their 
admiration. This bright, delicate, beautiful-shaped thing that 
seemed most like a toy or ornament — some hand had 
touched the chords, and there came forth music that 
brought tears. Half a year before, Esther's dread of being 
ridiculous spread over the surface of her life; but the depth 
below was sleeping. 
</p>
            <p>Harold Transome was ready to give her his hand and 
lead her back to her place. When she was there, Felix, for 
the first time, could not help looking towards her, and their 
eyes met in one solemn glance. 
</p>
            <p>Afterwards Esther found herself unable to listen so as to 
form any judgment on what she heard. The acting out of 
that strong impulse had exhausted her energy. There was 
a brief pause, filled with a murmur, a buzz, and much 
coughing. The audience generally felt as if dull weather 
was setting in again. And under those auspices the counsel 
for the prosecution got up to make his reply. Esther's deed 
had its effect beyond the momentary one, but the effect was 
not visible in the rigid necessities of legal procedure. The 
counsel's duty of restoring all unfavourable facts to due 
prominence in the minds of the jurors, had its effect 
altogether reinforced by the summing-up of the judge. Even 
the bare discernment of facts, much more their 
arrangement with a view to inferences, must carry a bias: human <pb n="574"/>
impartiality, whether judicial or not, can hardly escape 
being more or less loaded. It was not that the judge had 
severe intentions; it was only that he saw with severity. The 
conduct of Felix was not such as inclined him to 
indulgent consideration, and, in his directions to the jury, that 
mental attitude necessarily told on the light in which he 
placed the homicide. Even to many in the court who were 
not constrained by judicial duty, it seemed that though this 
high regard felt for the prisoner by his friends, and 
especially by a generous-hearted woman, was very pretty, 
such conduct as his was not the less dangerous and foolish 
and assaulting and killing a constable was not the less an 
offence to be regarded without leniency. 
</p>
            <p>Esther seemed now so tremulous, and looked so ill, that 
Harold begged her to leave the court with his mother and 
Mr Lingon. He would come and tell her the issue. But she 
said, quietly, that she would rather stay; she was only a 
little overcome by the exertion of speaking. She was 
inwardly resolved to see Felix to the last moment before he 
left the court. 
</p>
            <p>Though she could not follow the address of the counsel or 
the judge, she had a keen ear for what was brief and 
decisive. She heard the verdict, 'Guilty of manslaughter.' 
And every word uttered by the judge in pronouncing 
sentence fell upon her like an unforgettable sound that would 
come back in dreaming and in waking. She had her eyes 
on Felix, and at the word, 'Imprisonment for four years,' 
she saw his lip tremble. But otherwise he stood firm and 
calm. 
</p>
            <p>Esther gave a start from her seat. Her heart swelled with 
a horrible sensation of pain; but, alarmed lest she should 
lose her self-command, she grasped Mrs Transome's hand, 
getting some strength from that human contact. 
</p>
            <p>Esther saw that Felix had turned. She could no longer 
see his face. 'Yes,' she said, drawing down her veil, 'let us 
go.' 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c47" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 47</head>
            <pb n="575"/>
            <q>
               <l>The devil tempts us not — 'tis we tempt him. </l>
               <l>Beckoning his skill with opportunity. </l>
            </q>
            <p>THE more permanent effect of Esther's action in the trial 
was visible in a meeting which took place the next day in 
the principal room of the White Hart at Loamford. To 
the magistrates and other county gentlemen who were 
drawn together about noon, some of the necessary impulse 
might have been lacking but for that stirring of heart in 
certain just-spirited men and good fathers among them, 
which had been raised to a high pitch of emotion by 
Esther's maidenly fervour. Among these one of the 
foremost was Sir Maximus Debarry, who had come to the 
assizes with a mind, as usual, slightly rebellious under an 
influence which he never ultimately resisted — the influence 
of his son. Philip Debarry himself was detained in London, 
but in his correspondence with his father he had urged 
him, as well as his uncle Augustus, to keep eyes and 
interest awake on the subject of Felix Holt, whom, from all 
the knowledge of the case he had been able to obtain, he 
was inclined to believe peculiarly unfortunate rather than 
guilty. Philip had said he was the more anxious that his 
family should intervene benevolently in this affair, if it 
were possible, because he understood that Mr Lyon took 
the young man's case particularly to heart, and he should 
always regard himself as obliged to the old preacher. At 
this superfineness of consideration Sir Maximus had 
vented a few 'pshaws!' and, in relation to the whole affair, had 
grumbled that Phil was always setting him to do he didn't 
know what — always seeming to turn nothing into 
something by dint of words which hadn't so much substance 
as a mote behind them. Nevertheless he was coerced; and 
in reality he was willing to do anything fair or good-natured 
which had a handle that his understanding could lay hold <pb n="576"/>
of. His brother, the rector, desired to be rigorously just; 
but he had come to Loamford with a severe opinion 
concerning Felix, thinking that some sharp punishment might 
be a wholesome check on the career of a young man 
disposed to rely too much on his own crude devices. 
</p>
            <p>Before the trial commenced, Sir Maximus had naturally 
been one of those who had observed Esther with curiosity, 
owing to the report of her inheritance, and her probable 
marriage to his once welcome but now exasperating 
neighbour, Harold Transome; and he had made the emphatic 
comment — 'A fine girl! something thoroughbred in the 
look of her. Too good for a Radical; that's all I have to say.' 
But during the trial Sir Maximus was wrought into a 
state of sympathetic ardour that needed no fanning. As 
soon as he could take his brother by the buttonhole, he 
said — 
</p>
            <p>'I tell you what, Gus! we must exert ourselves to get a 
pardon for this young fellow. Confound it! what's the use 
of mewing him up for four years? Example? Nonsense. 
Will there be a man knocked down the less for it? That girl 
made me cry. Depend upon it, whether she's going to 
marry Transome or not, she's been fond of Holt — in her 
poverty, you know. She's a modest, brave, beautiful woman. 
I'd ride a steeplechase, old as I am, to gratify her feelings. 
Hang it ! the fellow's a good fellow if she thinks so. And he 
threw out a fine sneer, I thought, at the Radical candidate. 
Depend upon it, he's a good fellow at bottom.' 
</p>
            <p>The rector had not exactly the same kind of ardour, nor 
was he open to precisely that process of proof which 
appeared to have convinced Sir Maximus; but he had been so 
far influenced as to be inclined to unite in an effort on the 
side of mercy, observing, also, that he 'knew Phil would 
be on that side'. And by the co-operation of similar 
movements in the minds of other men whose names were of 
weight, a meeting had been determined on to consult about 
getting up a memorial to the Home Secretary on behalf of 
Felix Holt. His case had never had the sort of significance <pb n="577"/>
that could rouse political partisanship; and such interest as 
was now felt in him was still more unmixed with that 
inducement. The gentlemen who gathered in the room at 
the White Hart were — not as the large imagination of the 
North Loamshire Herald suggested, 'of all shades of 
political opinion,' but — of as many shades as were to be found 
among the gentlemen of that county. 
</p>
            <p>Harold Transome has been energetically active in 
bringing about this meeting. Over and above the stings of 
conscience and a determination to act up to the level of all 
recognised honourableness, he had the powerful motive of 
desiring to do what would satisfy Esther. His gradually 
heightened perception that she had a strong feeling towards 
Felix Holt had not made him uneasy. Harold had a 
conviction that might have seemed like fatuity if it had not been 
that he saw the effect he produced on Esther by the light 
of his opinions about women in general. The conviction 
was, that Felix Holt could not be his rival in any 
formidable sense: Esther's admiration for this eccentric young 
man was, he thought, a moral enthusiasm, a romantic 
fervour, which was one among those many attractions quite 
novel in his own experience; her distress about the trouble 
of one who had been a familiar object in her former home, 
was no more than naturally followed from a tender woman's 
compassion. The place young Holt had held in her regard 
had necessarily changed its relations now that her lot was 
so widely changed. It is undeniable, that what most 
conduced to the quieting nature of Harold's conclusions was 
the influence on his imagination of the more or less detailed 
reasons that Felix Holt was a watchmaker, that his home 
and dress were of a certain quality, that his person and 
manners — that, in short (for Harold, like the rest of us, 
had many impressions which saved him the trouble of 
distinct ideas), Felix Holt was not the sort of man a woman 
would be likely to be in love with when she was wooed by 
Harold Transome. 
</p>
            <p>Thus, he was sufficiently at rest on this point not to be <pb n="578"/>
exercising any painful self-conquest in acting as the zealous 
advocate of Felix Holt's cause with all persons worth 
influencing; but it was by no direct intercourse between him 
and Sir Maximus that they found themselves in 
co-operation, for the old baronet would not recognise Harold by 
more than the faintest bow, and Harold was not a man to 
expose himself to a rebuff. Whatever he in his inmost soul 
regarded as nothing more than a narrow prejudice, he 
could defy, not with airs of importance, but with easy 
indifference. He could bear most things good-humouredly 
where he felt that he had the superiority. The object of the 
meeting was discussed, and the memorial agreed upon 
without any clashing. Mr Lingon was gone home, but it was 
expected that his concurrence and signature would be 
given, as well as those of other gentlemen who were absent. 
The business gradually reached that stage at which the 
concentration of interest ceases — when the attention of all 
but a few who are more practically concerned drops off and 
disperses itself in private chat, and there is no longer any 
particular reason why everybody stays except that 
everybody is there. The room was rather a long one, and invited 
to a little movement: one gentleman drew another aside to 
speak in an under-tone about Scotch bullocks, another had 
something to say about the North Loamshire Hunt to a 
friend who was the reverse of good-looking, but who, 
nevertheless, while listening, showed his strength of mind 
by giving a severe attention also to his full-length reflection 
in the handsome tall mirror that filled the space between 
two windows. And in this way the groups were continually 
shifting 
</p>
            <p>But in the meantime there were moving towards this 
room at the White Hart the footsteps of a person whose 
presence had not been invited, and who, very far from 
being drawn thither by the belief that he would be 
welcome, knew well that his entrance would, to one person at 
least, be bitterly disagreeable. They were the footsteps of 
Mr Jermyn, whose appearance that morning was not less <pb n="579"/>
comely and less carefully tended than usual, but who was 
suffering the torment of a compressed rage, which, if not 
impotent to inflict pain on another, was impotent to avert 
evil from himself. After his interview with Mrs Transome 
there had been for some reasons a delay of positive 
procedures against him by Harold, of which delay Jermyn had 
twice availed himself; first, to seek an interview with 
Harold and then to send him a letter. The interview had 
been refused; and the letter had been returned, with the 
statement that no communication could take place except 
through Harold's lawyers. And yesterday Johnson had 
brought Jermyn the information that he would quickly 
hear of the proceedings in Chancery being resumed: the 
watch Johnson kept in town had given him secure 
knowledge on this head. A doomed animal, with every issue 
earthed up except that where its enemy stands, must, if 
it has teeth and fierceness, try its one chance without delay. 
And a man may reach a point in his life in which his 
impulses are not distinguished from those of a hunted brute 
by any capability of scruples. Our selfishness is so robust 
and many-clutching, that, well encouraged, it easily devours 
all sustenance away from our poor little scmples. 
</p>
            <p>Since Harold would not give Jermyn access to him, that 
vigorous attorney was resolved to take it. He knew all about 
the meeting at the White Hart, and he was going thither 
with the determination of accosting Harold. He thought he 
knew what he should say, and the tone in which he should 
say it. It would be a vague intimation, carrying the effect 
of a threat, which should compel Harold to give him a 
private interview. To any counter-consideration that 
presented itself in his mind — to anything that an imagined 
voice might say — that imagined answer arose, 'That's all 
very fine, but I'm not going to be ruined if I can help it — 
least of all, mined in that way.' Shall we call it 
degeneration or gradual development — this effect of thirty 
additional winters on the soft-glancing, versifying young 
Jermyn? <pb n="580"/>
            </p>
            <p>When Jermyn entered the room at the White Hart he 
did not immediately see Harold. The door was at the 
extremity of the room, and the view was obstructed by groups 
of gentlemen with figures broadened by overcoats. His 
entrance excited no peculiar observation: several persons had 
come in late. Only one or two, who knew Jermyn well, were 
not too much pre-occupied to have a glancing 
remembrance of what had been chatted about freely the day 
before — Harold's irritated reply about his agent, from 
the witness-box. Receiving and giving a slight nod here 
and there, Jermyn pushed his way, looking round keenly, 
until he saw Harold standing near the other end of the 
room. The solicitor who had acted for Felix was just then 
speaking to him. but having put a paper into his hand 
turned away; and Harold, standing isolated, though at no 
great distance from others, bent his eyes on the paper. He 
looked brilliant that moming; his blood was flowing 
prosperously. He had come in after a ride, and was additionally 
brightened by rapid talk and the excitement of seeking 
to impress himself favourably, or at least powerfully, on 
the minds of neighbours nearer or more remote. He had 
just that amount of flush which indicates that life is more 
enjoyable than usual; and as he stood with his left hand 
caressing his whisker, and his right holding the paper and 
his riding-whip, his dark eyes running rapidly along the 
written lines, and his lips reposing in a curve of 
good-humour which had more happiness in it than a smile, all 
beholders might have seen that his mind was at ease. 
</p>
            <p>Jermyn walked quickly and quietly close up to him. The 
two men were of the same height, and before Harold 
looked round Jermyn's voice was saying, close to his ear, 
not in a whisper, but in a hard, incisive, disrespectful and 
yet not loud tone — 
</p>
            <p>'Mr Transome, I must speak to you in private.' 
</p>
            <p>The sound jarred through Harold with a sensation all the 
more insufferable because of the revulsion from the 
satisfied, almost elated, state in which it had seized him. He 
started and looked round into Jermyn's eyes. For an instant, <pb n="581"/>
which seemed long, there was no sound between 
them, but only angry hatred gathering in the two faces. 
Harold felt himself going to crush this insolence: Jermyn 
felt that he had words within him that were fangs to clutch 
this obstinate strength, and wring forth the blood and 
compel submission. And Jermyn's impulse was the more urgent. 
He said, in a tone that was rather lower, but yet harder and 
more biting — 
'You will repent else — for your mother's sake.' 
</p>
            <p>At that sound, quick as a leaping flame, Harold had 
struck Jermyn across the face with his whip. The brim of 
the hat had been a defence. Jermyn, a powerful man, had 
instantly thrust out his hand and clutched Harold hard by 
the clothes just below the throat, pushing him slightly 
so as to make him stagger. 
</p>
            <p>By this time everybody's attention had been called to this 
end of the room, but both Jermyn and Harold were beyond 
being arrested by any consciousness of spectators. 
</p>
            <p>'Let me go, you scoundrel!' said Harold, fiercely, 'or I'll 
be the death of you.' 
</p>
            <p>'Do,' said Jermyn, in a grating voice; 'I am your father.' 
</p>
            <p>In the thrust by which Harold had been made to stagger 
backward a little, the two men had got very near the long 
mirror. They were both white — both had anger and hatred 
in their faces; the hands of both were upraised. As Harold 
heard the last terrible words he started at a leaping throb 
that went through him, and in the start turned his eyes 
away from Jermyn's face. He turned them on the same 
face in the glass with his own beside it, and saw the hated 
fatherhood reasserted. 
</p>
            <p>The young strong man reeled with a sick faintness. But 
in the same moment Jermyn released his hold, and Harold 
felt himself supported by the arm. It was Sir Maximus 
Debarry who had taken hold of him. 
</p>
            <p>'Leave the room, sir!' the baronet said to Jermyn, in a 
voice of imperious scorn. 'This is a meeting of gentlemen.' 
</p>
            <p>'Come, Harold,' he said, in the old friendly voice, 'come 
away with me.' 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c48" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 48</head>
            <pb n="582"/>
            <q>
               <l>'Tis law as stedfast as the throne of Zeus — </l>
               <l>Our days are heritors of days gone by.' </l>
               <l>AESCHYLUS: Agamemnon. </l>
            </q>
            <p>A LITTLE after five o'clock that day, Harold arrived at 
Transome Court. As he was winding along the broad road 
of the park, some parting gleams of the March sun pierced 
the trees here and there, and threw on the grass a long 
shadow of himself and the groom riding, and illuminated 
a window or two of the home he was approaching. But the 
bittemess in his mind made these sunny gleams almost as 
odious as an artificial smile. He wished he had never come 
back to this pale English sunshine. 
</p>
            <p>In the course of his eighteen miles' drive, he had made 
up his mind what he would do. He understood now, as he 
had never understood before, the neglected solitariness of 
his mother's life, the allusions and innuendoes which had 
come out during the election. But with a proud 
insurrection against the hardship of an ignominy which was not 
of his own making, he inwardly said, that if the 
circumstances of his birth were such as to warrant any man in 
regarding his character of gentleman with ready suspicion, 
that character should be the more strongly asserted in his 
conduct. No one should be able to allege with any show of 
proof that he had inherited meanness. 
</p>
            <p>As he stepped from the carriage and entered the hall, 
there were the voice and the trotting feet of little Harry as 
usual, and the rush to clasp his father's leg and make his 
joyful puppy-like noises. Harold just touched the boy's 
head, and then said to Dominic in a weary voice — 
</p>
            <p>'Take the child away. Ask where my mother is.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome, Dominic said, was upstairs. He had seen 
her go up after coming in from her walk with Miss Lyon, 
and she had not come down again. <pb n="583"/>
            </p>
            <p>Harold, throwing off his hat and greatcoat, went straight 
to his mother's dressing-room. There was still hope in his 
mind. He might be suffering simply from a lie. There is 
much misery created in the world by mere mistake or 
slander, and he might have been stunned by a lie suggested 
by such slander. He rapped at his mother's door. 
</p>
            <p>Her voice said immediately, 'Come in.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome was resting in her easy-chair, as she often 
did between an afternoon walk and dinner. She had taken 
off her walking-dress and wrapped herself in a soft 
dressinggown. She was neither more nor less empty of joy than 
usual. But when she saw Harold, a dreadful certainty took 
possession of her. It was as if a long-expected letter, with 
a black seal, had come at last. 
</p>
            <p>Harold's face told her what to fear the more decisively, 
because she had never before seen it express a man's deep 
agitation. Since the time of its pouting childhood and 
careless youth she had seen only the confident strength and 
good-humoured imperiousness of maturity. The last five 
hours had made a change as great as illness makes. Harold 
looked as if he had been wrestling, and had had some 
terrible blow. His eyes had that sunken look which, 
because it is unusual, seems to intensify expression. 
</p>
            <p>He looked at his mother as he entered, and her eyes 
followed him as he moved, till he came and stood in front 
of her, she looking up at him, with white lips. 
</p>
            <p>'Mother,' he said, speaking with a distant slowness, in 
strange contrast with his habitual manner, 'tell me the 
truth, that I may know how to act.' 
</p>
            <p>He paused a moment, and then said, 'Who is my father?' 
</p>
            <p>She was mute: her lips only trembled. Harold stood 
silent for a few moments, as if waiting. Then he spoke 
again. 
</p>
            <p>'He has said — said it before others — that he is my father.' 
</p>
            <p>He looked still at his mother. She seemed as if age was 
striking her with a sudden wand — as if her trembling face 
were getting haggard before him. She was mute. But her <pb n="584"/>
eyes had not fallen; they looked up in helpless misery at 
her son. 
</p>
            <p>Her son turned away his eyes from her, and left her. In 
that moment Harold felt hard: he could show no pity. All 
the pride of his nature rebelled against his sonship. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c49" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 49</head>
            <pb n="585"/>
            <q>
               <l>Nay, falter not — 'tis an assured good </l>
               <l>To seek the noblest — 'tis your only good </l>
               <l>Now you have seen it; for that higher vision </l>
               <l>Poisons all meaner choice for evermore. </l>
            </q>
            <p>THAT day Esther dined with old Mr Transome only. 
Harold sent word that he was engaged and had already 
dined, and Mrs Transome that she was feeling ill. Esther 
was much disappointed that any tidings Harold might have 
brought relating to Felix were deferred in this way; and, 
her anxiety making her fearful, she was haunted by the 
thought that if there had been anything cheering to tell, 
he would have found time to tell it without delay. Old Mr 
Transome went as usual to his sofa in the library to sleep 
after dinner, and Esther had to seat herself in the small 
drawing-room, in a well-lit solitude that was unusually 
dispiriting to her. Pretty as this room was, she did not like 
it. Mrs Transome's full-length portrait, being the only 
picture there, urged itself too strongly on her attention: 
the youthful brilliancy it represented saddened Esther by 
its inevitable association with what she daily saw had come 
instead of it — a joyless, embittered age. The sense that 
Mrs Transome was unhappy, affected Esther more and 
more deeply as the growing familiarity which relaxed the 
efforts of the hostess revealed more and more the 
thread-bare tissue of this majestic lady's life. Even the flowers and 
the pure sunshine and the sweet waters of Paradise would 
have been spoiled for a young heart, if the bowered walks 
had been haunted by an Eve gone grey with bitter 
memories of an Adam who had complained, 'The woman ... she 
gave me of the tree, and I did eat.' And many of us know 
how, even in our childhood, some blank discontented face 
on the background of our home has marred our summer 
mornings. Why was it, when the birds were singing, when <pb n="586"/>
the fields were a garden, and when we were clasping another 
little hand just larger than our own, there was somebody 
who found it hard to smile? Esther had got far beyond 
that childhood to a time and circumstances when this daily 
presence of elderly dissatisfaction amidst such outward 
things as she had always thought must greatly help to 
satisfy, awaked, not merely vague questioning emotion, but 
strong determining thought. And now, in these hours since 
her return from Loamford, her mind was in that state of 
highly-wrought activity, that large discourse, in which we 
seem to stand aloof from our own life — weighing 
impartially our own temptations and the weak desires that 
most habitually solicit us. 'I think I am getting that power 
Felix wished me to have: I shall soon see strong visions,' 
she said to herself, with a melancholy smile flitting across 
her face, as she put out the wax lights that she might get 
rid of the oppressive urgency of walls and upholstery and 
that portrait smiling with deluded brightness, unwitting of 
the future. 
</p>
            <p>Just then Dominic came to say that Mr Harold sent his 
compliments, and begged that she would grant him an 
interview in his study. He disliked the small drawing-room: 
if she would oblige him by going to the study at once, he 
would join her very soon. Esther went, in some wonder and 
anxiety. What she most feared or hoped in these moments 
related to Felix Holt, and it did not occur to her that 
Harold could have anything special to say to her that 
evening on other subjects. 
</p>
            <p>Certainly the study was pleasanter than the small 
drawing-room. A quiet light shone on nothing but 
greenness and dark wood, and Dominic had placed a delightful 
chair for her opposite to his master's, which was still empty. 
All the little objects of luxury around indicated Harold's 
habitual occupancy; and as Esther sat opposite all these 
things along with the empty chair which suggested the 
coming presence, the expectation of his beseeching homage 
brought with it an impatience and repugnance which she <pb n="587"/>
had never felt before. While these feelings were strongly 
upon her, the door opened and Harold appeared. 
</p>
            <p>He had recovered his self-possession since his interview 
with his mother: he had dressed, and was perfectly calm. 
He had been occupied with resolute thoughts, determining 
to do what he knew that perfect honour demanded, let 
it cost him what it would. It is true he had a tacit hope 
behind, that it might not cost him what he prized most 
highly: it is true he had a glimpse even of reward; but it 
was not less true that he would have acted as he did 
without that hope or glimpse. It was the most serious moment 
in Harold Transome's life: for the first time the iron had 
entered into his soul, and he felt the hard pressure of our 
common lot, the yoke of that mighty resistless destiny laid 
upon us by the acts of other men as well as our own. 
</p>
            <p>When Esther looked at him she relented, and felt 
ashamed of her gratuitous impatience. She saw that his 
mind was in some way burdened. But then immediately 
sprang the dread that he had to say something hopeless 
about Felix. 
</p>
            <p>They shook hands in silence, Esther looking at him with 
anxious surprise. He released her hand, but it did not 
occur to her to sit down, and they both continued 
standing on the hearth. 
</p>
            <p>'Don't let me alarm you,' said Harold, seeing that her 
face gathered solemnity from his. 'I suppose I carry the 
marks of a past agitation. It relates entirely to troubles of 
my own — of my own family. No one beyond is involved 
in them.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther wondered still more, and felt still more relenting. 
</p>
            <p>'But,' said Harold, after a slight pause, and in a voice 
that was weighted with new feeling, 'it involves a difference 
in my position with regard to you; and it is on this point 
that I wished to speak to you at once. When a man sees 
what ought to be done, he had better do it forthwith. He 
can't answer for himself to-morrow.' 
</p>
            <p>While Esther continued to look at him, with eyes widened <pb n="588"/>
by anxious expectation, Harold turned a little, leaned on 
the mantelpiece, and ceased to look at her as he spoke. 
</p>
            <p>'My feelings drag me another way. I need not tell you 
that your regard has become very important to me — that if 
our mutual position had been different — that, in short, you 
must have seen — if it had not seemed to be a matter of 
worldly interest, I should have told you plainly already that 
I loved you, and that my happiness could be complete only 
if you would consent to marry me.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther felt her heart beginning to beat painfully. 
Harold's voice and words moved her so much that her own 
task seemed more difficult than she had before imagined. 
It seemed as if the silence, unbroken by anything but the 
clicking of the fire, had been long, before Harold turned 
round towards her again and said — 
</p>
            <p>'But to-day I have heard something that affects my own 
position. I cannot tell you what it is. There is no need. It is 
not any culpability of my own. But I have not just the same 
unsullied name and fame in the eyes of the world around 
us, as I believed that I had when I allowed myself to 
entertain that wish about you. You are very young, entering on 
a fresh life with bright prospects — you are worthy of 
everything that is best. I may be too vain in thinking it was at 
all necessary; but I take this precaution against myself. I 
shut myself out from the chance of trying, after to-day, to 
induce you to accept anything which others may regard as 
specked and stained by any obloquy, however slight.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther was keenly touched. With a paradoxical longing, 
such as often happens to us, she wished at that moment 
that she could have loved this man with her whole heart. 
The tears came into her eyes; she did not speak, but, with 
an angel's tenderness in her face, she laid her hand on his 
sleeve. Harold commanded himself strongly, and said — 
</p>
            <p>'What is to be done now is, that we should proceed at 
once to the necessary legal measures for putting you in 
possession of your own, and arranging mutual claims. After 
that I shall probably leave England.' <pb n="589"/>
            </p>
            <p>Esther was oppressed by an overpowering difficulty. Her 
sympathy with Harold at this moment was so strong, that 
it spread itself like a mist over all previous thought and 
resolve. It was impossible now to wound him afresh. With 
her hand still resting on his arm, she said timidly — 
</p>
            <p>'Should you be urged — obliged to go — in any case?' 
</p>
            <p>'Not in every case, perhaps,' Harold said, with an evident 
movement of the blood towards his face; 'at least not for 
long, not for always.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther was conscious of the gleam in his eyes. With terror 
at herself, she said, in difficult haste, 'I can't speak. I can't 
say anything to-night. A great decision has to be made: I 
must wait — till to-morrow.' 
</p>
            <p>She was moving her hand from his arm, when Harold 
took it reverentially and raised it to his lips. She turned 
towards her chair, and as he released her hand she sank 
down on the seat with a sense that she needed that 
support. She did not want to go away from Harold yet. All the 
while there was something she needed to know, and yet 
she could not bring herself to ask it. She must resign 
herself to depend entirely on his recollection of anything 
beyond his own immediate trial. She sat helpless under 
contending sympathies, while Harold stood at some distance 
from her, feeling more harassed by weariness and 
uncertainty, now that he had fulfilled his resolve, and was no 
longer under the excitement of actually fulfilling it. 
</p>
            <p>Esther's last words had forbidden his revival of the 
subject that was necessarily supreme with him. But still she 
sat there, and his mind, busy as to the probabilities of her 
feeling, glanced over all she had done and said in the 
later days of their intercourse. It was this retrospect that 
led him to say at last — 
</p>
            <p>'You will be glad to hear that we shall get a very 
powerfully signed memorial to the Home Secretary about young 
Holt. I think your speaking for him helped a great deal. 
You made all the men wish what you wished.' 
</p>
            <p>This was what Esther had been yearning to hear and <pb n="590"/>
dared not ask, as well from respect for Harold's absorption 
in his own sorrow, as from the shrinking that belongs to 
our dearest need. The intense relief of hearing what she 
longed to hear, affected her whole frame: her colour, her 
expression, changed as if she had been suddenly freed from 
some torturing constraint. But we interpret signs of 
emotion as we interpret other signs — often quite erroneously, 
unless we have the right key to what they signify. Harold 
did not gather that this was what Esther had waited for, or 
that the change in her indicated more than he had 
expected her to feel at this allusion to an unusual act which 
she had done under a strong impulse. 
</p>
            <p>Besides, the introduction of a new subject after very 
momentous words have passed, and are still dwelling on the 
mind, is necessarily a sort of concussion, shaking us into a 
new adjustment of ourselves. 
</p>
            <p>It seemed natural that soon afterward Esther put out her 
hand and said, 'Good-night.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold went to his bedroom on the same level with this 
study, thinking of the morning with an uncertainty that 
dipped on the side of hope. This sweet woman, for whom he 
felt a passion newer than any he had expected to feel, might 
possibly make some hard things more bearable — if she 
loved him. If not — well, he had acted so that he could defy 
any one to say he was not a gentleman. 
</p>
            <p>Esther went up-stairs to her bedroom, thinking that she 
should not sleep that night. She set her light on a high 
stand, and did not touch her dress. What she desired to see 
with undisturbed clearness were things not present: the 
rest she needed was the rest of a final choice. It was difficult. 
On each side there was renunciation. 
</p>
            <p>She drew up her blinds, liking to see the grey sky, where 
there were some veiled glimmerings of moonlight, and the 
lines of the for-ever running river, and the bending 
movement of the black trees. She wanted the largeness of the 
world to help her thought. This young creature, who trod 
lightly backward and forward, and leaned against the <pb n="591"/>
window-frame, and shook back her brown curls as she looked 
at something not visible, had lived hardly more than six 
months since she saw Felix Holt for the first time. But life 
is measured by the rapidity of change, the succession of 
influences that modify the being; and Esther had 
undergone something little short of an inward revolution. The 
revolutionary struggle, however, was not quite at an 
end. 
</p>
            <p>There was something which she now felt profoundly to be 
the best thing that life could give her. But — if it was to be 
had at all — it was not to be had without paying a heavy 
price for it, such as we must pay for all that is greatly good. 
A supreme love, a motive that gives a sublime rhythm to a 
woman's life, and exalts habit into partnership with the 
soul's highest needs, is not to be had where and how she 
wills: to know that high initiation, she must often tread 
where it is hard to tread, and feel the chill air, and watch 
through darkness. It is not true that love makes all things 
easy: it makes us choose what is difficult. Esther's previous 
life had brought her into close acquaintance with many 
negations, and with many positive ills too, not of the 
acutely painful, but of the distasteful sort. What if she chose the 
hardship, and had to bear it alone, with no strength to lean 
upon — no other better self to make a place for trust and 
joy? Her past experience saved her from illusions. She 
knew the dim life of the back street, the contact with sordid 
vulgarity, the lack of refinement for the senses, the 
summons to a daily task; and the gain that was to make that 
life of privation something on which she dreaded to turn 
her back, as if it were heaven — the presence and the love of 
Felix Holt — was only a quivering hope, not a certainty. It 
was not in her woman's nature that the hope should not 
spring within her and make a strong impulse. She knew 
that he loved her: had he not said how a woman might 
help a man if she were worthy? and if she proved herself 
worthy? But still there was the dread that after all she 
might find herself on the stony road alone, and faint and be <pb n="592"/>
weary. Even with the fulfilment of her hope, she knew that 
she pledged herself to meet high demands. 
</p>
            <p>And on the other side there was a lot where everything 
seemed easy — but for the fatal absence of those feelings 
which, now she had once known them, it seemed nothing 
less than a fall and a degradation to do without. With a 
terrible prescience which a multitude of impressions during 
her stay at Transome Court had contributed to form, she 
saw herself in a silken bondage that arrested all motive, and 
was nothing better than a well-cushioned despair. To be 
restless amidst ease, to be languid among all appliances for 
pleasure, was a possibility that seemed to haunt the rooms 
of this house, and wander with her under the oaks and 
elms of the park. And Harold Transome's love, no longer 
a hovering fancy with which she played, but become a 
serious fact, seemed to threaten her with a stifling 
oppression. The homage of a man may be delightful until he asks 
straight for love, by which a woman renders homage. Since 
she and Felix had kissed each other in the prison, she felt 
as if she had vowed herself away, as if memory lay on her 
lips like a seal of possession. Yet what had happened that 
very evening had strengthened her liking for Harold, and 
her care for all that regarded him: it had increased her 
repugnance to turning him out of anything he had 
expected to be his, or to snatching anything from him on the 
ground of an arbitrary claim. It had even made her dread, 
as a coming pain, the task of saying anything to him that 
was not a promise of the utmost comfort under this 
newly-disclosed trouble of his. 
</p>
            <p>It was already near midnight, but with these thoughts 
succeeding and returning in her mind like scenes through 
which she was living, Esther had a more intense 
wakefulness than any she had known by day. All had been stillness 
hitherto, except the fitful wind outside. But her ears now 
caught a sound within — slight, but sudden. She moved near 
her door, and heard the sweep of something on the matting 
outside. It came closer, and paused. Then it began again, <pb n="593"/>
and seemed to sweep away from her. Then it approached, 
and paused as it had done before. Esther listened, 
wondering. The same thing happened again and again, till she 
could bear it no longer. She opened her door, and in the 
dim light of the corridor, where the glass above seemed to 
make a glimmering sky, she saw Mrs Transome's tall figure 
pacing slowly, with her cheek upon her hand. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c50" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 50</head>
            <pb n="594"/>
            <q>
               <p>'The great question in life is the suffering we cause; and the 
utmost ingenuity of metaphysics cannot justify the man who 
has pierced the heart that loved him.' — BENJAMlN 
CONSTANT. 
</p>
            </q>
            <p>WHEN Denner had gone up to her mistress's room to dress 
her for dinner, she had found her seated just as Harold had 
found her, only with eyelids drooping and trembling over 
slowly-rolling tears — nay, with a face in which every 
sensitive feature, every muscle, seemed to be quivering with a 
silent endurance of some agony. 
</p>
            <p>Denner went and stood by the chair a minute without 
speaking, only laying her hand gently on Mrs Transome's. 
At last she said, beseechingly, 'Pray speak, madam. What 
has happened?' 
</p>
            <p>'The worst, Denner — the worst.' 
</p>
            <p>'You are ill. Let me undress you, and put you to bed.' 
</p>
            <p>'No, I am not ill, I am not going to die! I shall live — I 
shall live!' 
</p>
            <p>'What may I do?' 
</p>
            <p>'Go and say I shall not dine. Then you may come back, if 
you will.' 
</p>
            <p>The patient waiting-woman came back and sat by her 
mistress in motionless silence. Mrs Transome would not let 
her dress be touched, and waved away all proffers with a 
slight movement of her hand. Denner dared not even light 
a candle without being told. At last, when the evening was 
far gone, Mrs Transome said — 
</p>
            <p>'Go down, Denner, and find out where Harold is, and 
come back and tell me.' 
</p>
            <p>'Shall I ask him to come to you, madam?' 
</p>
            <p>'No; don't dare to do it, if you love me. Come back.' 
</p>
            <p>Denner brought word that Mr Harold was in his study, 
and that Miss Lyon was with him. He had not dined, but 
had sent later to ask Miss Lyon to go into his study. 
<pb n="595"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Light the candles and leave me.' 
'Mayn't I come again?' 
'No. It may be that my son will come to me.' 
'Mayn't I sleep on the little bed in your bedroom?' 
'No, good Denner; I am not ill. You can't help me.' 
'That's the hardest word of all, madam.' 
'The time will come — but not now. Kiss me. Now go.' 
</p>
            <p>The small quiet old woman obeyed, as she had always 
done. She shrank from seeming to claim an equal's share in 
her mistress's sorrow. 
</p>
            <p>For two hours Mrs Transome's mind hung on what was 
hardly a hope — hardly more than the listening for a bare 
possibility. She began to create the sounds that her anguish 
craved to hear — began to imagine a footfall, and a hand 
upon the door. Then, checked by continual disappointment, 
she tried to rouse a truer consciousness by rising from her 
seat and walking to her window, where she saw streaks of 
light moving and disappearing on the grass, and the sound 
of bolts and closing doors. She hurried away and threw 
herself into her seat again, and buried her head in the 
deafening down of the cushions. There was no sound of 
comfort for her. 
</p>
            <p>Then her heart cried out within her against the cruelty 
of this son. When he turned from her in the first moment, 
he had not had time to feel anything but the blow that had 
fallen on himself. But afterwards — was it possible that he 
should not be touched with a son's pity — was it possible 
that he should not have been visited by some thought of 
the long years through which she had suffered? The 
memory of those years came back to her now with a 
protest against the cruelty that had all fallen on her. She 
started up with a new restlessness from this spirit of 
resistance. She was not penitent. She had borne too hard a 
punishment. Always the edge of calamity had fallen on her. Who 
had felt for her? She was desolate. God had no pity, else 
her son would not have been so hard. What dreary future 
was there after this dreary past? She, too, looked out into <pb n="596"/>
the dim night; but the black boundary of trees and the 
long line of the river seemed only part of the loneliness and 
monotony of her life. 
</p>
            <p>Suddenly she saw a light on the stone balustrades of the 
balcony that projected in front of Esther's window, and 
the flash of a moving candle falling on a shrub below. 
Esther was still awake and up. What had Harold told her — 
what had passed between them? Harold was fond of this 
young creature, who had been always sweet and 
reverential to her. There was mercy in her young heart; she might 
be a daughter who had no impulse to punish and to strike 
her whom fate had stricken. On the dim loneliness before 
her she seemed to see Esther's gentle look; it was possible 
still that the misery of this night might be broken by some 
comfort. The proud woman yearned for the caressing pity 
that must dwell in that young bosom. She opened her door 
gently, but when she had reached Esther's she hesitated. 
She had never yet in her life asked for compassion — had 
never thrown herself in faith on an unproffered love. And 
she might have gone on pacing the corridor like an 
uneasy spirit without a goal, if Esther's thought, leaping 
towards her, had not saved her from the need to ask 
admission. 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome was walking towards the door when it 
opened. As Esther saw that image of restless misery, it 
blent itself by a rapid flash with all that Harold had said 
in the evening. She divined that the son's new trouble 
must be one with the mother's long sadness. But there was 
no waiting. In an instant Mrs Transome felt Esther's arm 
round her neck, and a voice saying softly — 
</p>
            <p>'O why didn't you call me before?' 
</p>
            <p>They turned hand in hand into the room, and sat down 
together on a sofa at the foot of the bed. The disordered 
grey hair — the haggard face — the reddened eyelids under 
which the tears seemed to be coming again with pain, 
pierced Esther to the heart. A passionate desire to soothe 
this suffering woman came over her. She clung round her <pb n="597"/>
again, and kissed her poor quivering lips and eyelids, and 
laid her young cheek against the pale and haggard one. 
Words could not be quick or strong enough to utter her 
yearning. As Mrs Transome felt that soft clinging, she 
said — 
'God has some pity on me.' 
</p>
            <p>'Rest on my bed,' said Esther. 'You are so tired. I will 
cover you up warmly, and then you will sleep.' 
</p>
            <p>'No — tell me, dear — tell me what Harold said.' 
</p>
            <p>'That he has had some new trouble.' 
</p>
            <p>'He said nothing hard about me?' 
</p>
            <p>'No — nothing. He did not mention you.' 
</p>
            <p>'I have been an unhappy woman, dear.' 
</p>
            <p>'I feared it,' said Esther, pressing her gently. 
</p>
            <p>'Men are selfish. They are selfish and cruel. What they 
care for is their own pleasure and their own pride.' 
</p>
            <p>'Not all,' said Esther, on whom these words fell with a 
painful jar. 
</p>
            <p>'All I have ever loved,' said Mrs Transome. She paused 
a moment or two, and then said, 'For more than twenty 
years I have not had an hour's happiness. Harold knows it, 
and yet he is hard to me.' 
</p>
            <p>'He will not be. To-morrow he will not be. I am sure he 
will be good,' said Esther, pleadingly. 'Remember — he said 
to me his trouble was new — he has not had time.' 
</p>
            <p>'It is too hard to bear, dear,' Mrs Transome said, a new 
sob rising as she clung fast to Esther in return. 'I am old, 
and expect so little now — a very little thing would seem 
great. Why should I be punished any more?' 
</p>
            <p>Esther found it difficult to speak. The dimly-suggested 
tragedy of this woman's life, the dreary waste of years 
empty of sweet trust and affection, afflicted her even to 
horror. It seemed to have come as a last vision to urge her 
towards the life where the draughts of joy sprang from the 
unchanging fountains of reverence and devout love. 
</p>
            <p>But all the more she longed to still the pain of this heart 
that beat against hers. <pb n="598"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Do let me go to your own room with you, and let me 
undress you, and let me tend upon you,' she said, with a 
woman's gentle instinct. 'It will be a very great thing to me. 
I shall seem to have a mother again. Do let me.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome yielded at last, and let Esther soothe her 
with a daughter's tendance. She was undressed and went to 
bed; and at last dozed fitfully, with frequent starts. But 
Esther watched by her till the chills of morning came, and 
then she only wrapped more warmth around her, and slept 
fast in the chair till Denner's movement in the room roused 
her. She started out of a dream in which she was telling 
Felix what had happened to her that night. 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Transome was now in the sounder morning sleep 
which sometimes comes after a long night of misery. Esther 
beckoned Denner into the dressing-room, and said — 
</p>
            <p>'It is late, Mrs Hickes. Do you think Mr Harold is out of 
his room?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, a long while; he was out earlier than usual.' 
</p>
            <p>'Will you ask him to come up here? Say I begged you.' 
</p>
            <p>When Harold entered, Esther was leaning against the 
back of the empty chair where yesterday he had seen his 
mother sitting. He was in a state of wonder and suspense, 
and when Esther approached him and gave him her hand, 
he said, in a startled way — 
</p>
            <p>'Good God! how ill you look! Have you been sitting up 
with my mother?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes. She is asleep now,' said Esther. They had merely 
pressed hands by way of greeting, and now stood apart 
looking at each other solemnly. 
</p>
            <p>'Has she told you anything?' said Harold. 
</p>
            <p>'No — only that she is wretched. O, I think I would bear a 
great deal of unhappiness to save her from having any 
more.' 
</p>
            <p>A painful thrill passed through Harold, and showed itself 
in his face with that pale rapid flash which can never be 
painted. Esther pressed her hands together, and said, 
timidly, though it was from an urgent prompting — <pb n="599"/>
            </p>
            <p>'There is nothing in all this place — nothing since ever I 
came here — I could care for so much as that you should sit 
down by her now, and that she should see you when she 
wakes.' 
</p>
            <p>Then with delicate instinct, she added, just laying her 
hand on his sleeve, 'I know you would have come. I know 
you meant it. But she is asleep now. Go gently before she 
wakes.' 
</p>
            <p>Harold just laid his right hand for an instant on the back 
of Esther's as it rested on his sleeve, and then stepped 
softly to his mother's bedside. 
</p>
            <p>An hour afterwards, when Harold had laid his mother's 
pillow afresh, and sat down again by her, she said — 
</p>
            <p>'If that dear thing will marry you, Harold, it will make 
up to you for a great deal.' 
</p>
            <p>But before the day closed Harold knew that this was not 
to be. That young presence, which had flitted like a white 
new-winged dove over all the saddening relics and new 
finery of Transome Court, could not find its home there. 
Harold heard from Esther's lips that she loved some one 
else, and that she resigned all claim to the Transome estates. 
</p>
            <p>She wished to go back to her father. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="c51" type="chapter">
            <head>Chapter 51</head>
            <pb n="600"/>
            <q>
               <l>The maiden said, I wis the londe </l>
               <l>  Is very fair to see, </l>
               <l>But my true-love that is in bonde </l>
               <l>  Is fairer still to me. </l>
            </q>
            <p>ONE April day, when the sun shone on the lingering 
raindrops, Lyddy was gone out, and Esther chose to sit in the 
kitchen, in the wicker chair against the white table, 
between the fire and the window. The kettle was singing, and 
the clock was ticking steadily towards four o'clock. 
</p>
            <p>She was not reading, but stitching; and as her fingers 
moved nimbly, something played about her parted lips like 
a ray. Suddenly she laid down her work, pressed her hands 
together on her knees, and bent forward a little. The next 
moment there came a loud rap at the door. She started up 
and opened it, but kept herself hidden behind it. 
</p>
            <p>'Mr Lyon at home?' said Felix, in his firm tones. 
</p>
            <p>'No, sir,' said Esther from behind her screen; 'but Miss 
Lyon is, if you'll please to walk in.' 
</p>
            <p>'Esther!' exclaimed Felix, amazed. 
</p>
            <p>They held each other by both hands, and looked into 
each other's faces with delight. 
</p>
            <p>'You are out of prison?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes, till I do something bad again. But you? — how is 
it all?' 
</p>
            <p>'Oh, it is,' said Esther, smiling brightly as she moved 
towards the wicker chair, and seated herself again, 'that 
everything is as usual: my father is gone to see the sick; 
Lyddy is gone in deep despondency to buy the groccry; 
and I am sitting here, with some vanity in me, needing to 
be scolded.' 
</p>
            <p>Felix had seated himself on a chair that happened to be 
near her, at the corner of the table. He looked at her still 
with questioning eyes — he grave, she mischievously 
smiling. 
<pb n="601"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Are you come back to live here then?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes.' 
</p>
            <p>'You are not going to be married to Harold Transome, or 
to be rich?' 
</p>
            <p>'No.' Something made Esther take up her work again, 
and begin to stitch. The smiles were dying into a tremor. 
</p>
            <p>'Why?' said Felix, in rather a low tone, leaning his elbow 
on the table, and resting his head on his hand while he 
looked at her. 
</p>
            <p>'I did not wish to marry him, or to be rich.' 
</p>
            <p>'You have given it all up?' said Felix, leaning forward a 
little, and speaking in a still lower tone. 
</p>
            <p>Esther did not speak. They heard the kettle singing and 
the clock loudly ticking. There was no knowing how it was: 
Esther's work fell, their eyes met; and the next instant their 
arms were round each other's necks, and once more they 
kissed each other. 
</p>
            <p>When their hands fell again, their eyes were bright with 
tears. Felix laid his hand on her shoulder. 
</p>
            <p>'Could you share the life of a poor man, then, Esther?' 
</p>
            <p>'If I thought well enough of him,' she said, the smile 
coming again, with the pretty saucy movement of her 
head. 
</p>
            <p>'Have you considered well what it would be? — that it will 
be a very bare and simple life?' 
</p>
            <p>'Yes — without atta of roses.' 
</p>
            <p>Felix suddenly removed his hand from her shoulder, rose 
from his chair, and walked a step or two; then he turned 
round and said, with deep gravity — 
</p>
            <p>'And the people I shall live among, Esther? They have 
not just the same follies and vices as the rich, but they have 
their own forms of folly and vice; and they have not what 
are called the refinements of the rich to make their faults 
more bearable. I don't say more bearable to me — I'm not 
fond of those refinements; but you are.' 
</p>
            <p>Felix paused an instant, and then added — 
</p>
            <p>'It is very serious, Esther.' <pb n="602"/>
            </p>
            <p>'I know it is serious,' said Esther, looking up at him. 
'Since I have been at Transome Court I have seen many 
things very seriously. If I had not, I should not have left 
what I did leave. I made a deliberate choice.' 
</p>
            <p>Felix stood a moment or two, dwelling on her with a 
face where the gravity gathered tenderness. 
</p>
            <p>'And these curls?' he said, with a sort of relenting, 
seating himself again, and putting his hand on them. 
</p>
            <p>'They cost nothing — they are natural.' 
</p>
            <p>'You are such a delicate creature.' 
</p>
            <p>'I am very healthy. Poor women, I think, are healthier 
than the rich. Besides,' Esther went on, with a michievous 
meaning, 'I think of having some wealth.' 
</p>
            <p>'How?' said Felix, with an anxious start. 'What do you 
mean?' 
</p>
            <p>'I think even of two pounds a-week: one needn't live up 
to the splendour of all that, you know; we must live as 
simply as you liked: there would be money to spare, and 
you could do wonders, and be obliged to work too, only not 
if sickness came. And then I think of a little income for 
your mother, enough for her to live as she has been used to 
live; and a little income for my father, to save him from 
being dependent when he is no longer able to preach.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther said all this in a playful tone, but she ended, 
with a grave look of appealing submission — 
</p>
            <p>'I mean — if you approve. I wish to do what you think it 
will be right to do.' 
</p>
            <p>Felix put his hand on her shoulder again and reflected 
a little while, looking on the hearth: then he said, lifting 
up his eyes, with a smile at her — 
</p>
            <p>'Why, I shall be able to set up a great library, and lend 
the books to be dog's-eared and marked with 
breadcrumbs.' 
</p>
            <p>Esther said, laughing, 'You think you are to do 
everything. You don't know how clever I am. I mean to go on 
teaching a great many things.' 
</p>
            <p>'Teaching me?' <pb n="603"/>
            </p>
            <p>'Oh yes,' she said, with a little toss; 'I shall improve your 
French accent.' 
</p>
            <p>'You won't want me to wear a stock?' said Felix, with a 
defiant shake of the head. 
</p>
            <p>'No; and you will not attribute stupid thoughts to me 
before I've uttered them.' 
</p>
            <p>They laughed merrily, each holding the other's arms, like 
girl and boy. There was the ineffable sense of youth in 
common. 
</p>
            <p>Then Felix leaned forward, that their lips might meet 
again, and after that his eyes roved tenderly over her face 
and curls. 
</p>
            <p>'I'm a rough, severe fellow, Esther. Shall you never 
repent? — never be inwardly reproaching me that I was not a 
man who could have shared your wealth? Are you quite 
sure?' 
</p>
            <p>'Quite sure!' said Esther, shaking her head; 'for then I 
should have honoured you less. I am weak — my husband 
must be greater and nobler than I am.' 
</p>
            <p>'O, I tell you what, though!' said Felix, starting up, 
thrusting his hands into his pockets, and creasing his brow 
playfully, 'if you take me in that way I shall be forced to 
be a much better fellow than I ever thought of being.' 
</p>
            <p>'I call that retribution,' said Esther, with a laugh as sweet 
as the morning thrush. 
</p>
         </div>
         <div type="epilogue">
            <head>Epilogue</head>
            <pb n="604"/>
            <q>
               <l>Our finest hope is finest memory; </l>
               <l>And those who love in age think youth is happy, </l>
               <l>Because it has a life to fill with love. </l>
            </q>
            <p>THE very next May, Felix and Esther were married. Every 
one in those days was married at the parish church, but 
Mr Lyon was not satisfied without an additional private 
solemnity, 'wherein there was no bondage to questionable 
forms, so that he might have a more enlarged utterance of 
joy and supplication.' 
</p>
            <p>It was a very simple wedding; but no wedding, even the 
gayest, ever raised so much interest and debate in Treby 
Magna. Even very great people, like Sir Maximus and his 
family, went to the church to look at this bride, who had 
renounced wealth and chosen to be the wife of a man who 
said he would always be poor. 
</p>
            <p>Some few shook their heads; could not quite believe it; 
and thought there was 'more behind'. But the majority of 
honest Trebians were affected somewhat in the same way 
as happy-looking Mr Wace was, who observed to his wife, as 
they walked from under the churchyard chestnuts, 'It's 
wonderful how things go through you — you don't know 
how. I feel somehow as if I believed more in everything 
that's good.' 
</p>
            <p>Mrs Holt that day, said she felt herself to be receiving 
'some reward', implying that justice certainly had much 
more in reserve. Little Job Tudge had an entirely new suit, 
of which he fingered every separate brass button in a way 
that threatened an arithmetical mania; and Mrs Holt had 
out her best tea-trays and put down her carpet again, with 
the satisfaction of thinking that there would no more be 
boys coming in all weathers with dirty shoes. 
</p>
            <p>For Felix and Esther did not take up their abode in 
Treby Magna; and after a while Mr Lyon left the town too, <pb n="605"/>
and joined them where they dwelt. On his resignation the 
church in Malthouse Yard chose a successor to him whose 
doctrine was rather higher. 
</p>
            <p>There were other departures from Treby. Mr Jermyn's 
establishment was broken up, and he was understood to 
have gone to reside at a great distance: some said 'abroad' 
that large home of ruined reputations. Mr Johnson 
continued blond and sufficiently prosperous till he got grey and 
rather more prosperous. Some persons, who did not think 
highly of him, held that his prosperity was a fact to be kept 
in the background, as being dangerous to the morals of the 
young; judging that it was not altogether creditable to the 
Divine Providence that anything but virtue should be 
rewarded by a front and back drawing-room in Bedford Row. 
</p>
            <p>As for Mr Christian, he had no more profitable secrets at 
his disposal. But he got his thousand pounds from Harold 
Transome. 
</p>
            <p>The Transome family were absent for some time from 
Transome Court. The place was kept up and shown to 
visitors, but not by Denner, who was away with her mistress. 
After a while the family came back, and Mrs Transome 
died there. Sir Maximus was at her funeral, and 
throughout that neighbourhood there was silence about the past. 
</p>
            <p>Uncle Lingon continued to watch over the shooting on 
the Manor and the covers until that event occurred which 
he had predicted as a part of Church reform sure to come. 
Little Treby had a new rector, but others were sorry besides 
the old pointers. 
</p>
            <p>As to all that wide parish of Treby Magna, it had since 
prospered as the rest of England has prospered. Doubtless 
there is more enlightenment now. Whether the farmers are 
all public-spirited, the shopkeepers nobly independent, the 
Sproxton men entirely sober and judicious, the Dissenters 
quite without narrowness or asperity in religion and 
politics, and the publicans all fit, like Gaius, to be the friends 
of an apostle — these things I have not heard, not having 
correspondence in those parts. Whether any presumption <pb n="606"/>
may be drawn from the fact that North Loamshire does 
not yet return a Radical candidate, I leave to the all-wise — 
I mean the newspapers. 
</p>
            <p>As to the town in which Felix Holt now resides, I will 
keep that a secret, lest he should be troubled by any visitor 
having the insufferable motive of curiosity. 
</p>
            <p>I will only say that Esther has never repented. Felix, 
however, grumbles a little that she has made his life too easy, 
and that, if it were not for much walking, he should be a 
sleek dog. 
</p>
            <p>There is a young Felix, who has a great deal more science 
than his father, but not much more money. 
</p>
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